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It's Halloween tomorrow, and all I want to be is an actual ghost.

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I ruin everything I love, and for what so I can be kept from the hurt I bestow on others so callously?

I don't understand why I am the way I am, but I know enough to hate. I am always willing to be there for others, and then something overtakes that kind gesture and turns it into bitter poison. I'm sorry.

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Gabriel Ramirez, from "Abuelo,"

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We almost had it all, or were you ever really happy at all? It's hard to say since it's done. I never dared let myself believe that it would last, over in a flash. It's too painful to think about the past. The smile you wore on our spirited adventures in the beautiful mountain sides is something I can never forget and would not want to even if the pain reminds me of what I lost in grueling detail.

the way you wanted me to find happiness and love myself. I am alone and jaded.

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Masaaki Sasamoto

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I walk towards death with open arms, embrace me.

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I hate myself for every decision I've made

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I never learned how to be gentle with myself... // my art, okay to rb

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—Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

[text ID: I am alone in my room, between two worlds.]

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