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seunghyo's mother makes me SO fucking sad lmaO

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THROWING UP CRYING WHEN THE OLD GRANDMA BROUGHT THE REPORTERS TI HER HOUSE

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damn what the fuck

I don't even know how to

8am wake up

sad AF??

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1st dream

i had an adoptive mum?

2 brothers?

we were going to wet n wild? not confirmed but assumed

mum and brother went to the car already

I was getting flip flops

the drawers had sorta moved

so it was hard to get to them

we had an argument somehow

getting through the meat drawer in the fridge????

idk

it ended with me going "I'm going to tell the group chat about you" and him getting his phone first and typing something first so he had first narrative

mum and 1st brother came back and i explained

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2nd dream

mostly remember

I was at a party for Christmas

and i knew everyone and was good friends with everyone

and then someone said hi and convo started and she went have you gotten your thing from X person

I went no?

she went oh, that's weird, she's doing a wild secret santa you aren't on the list? and they were confused bc we were so close

i shrugged and later saw her walk past me with a big Xbox box and a bow on it towards someone else

we'd already said hi so I knew I wasn't on the list

that's what made me realise my friends were surface level

and i rarely have deep connections esp with girls despite how much we act like we're bonded

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3rd part was abstract

started with someone streaming the petrol station?

and they're like "and we'll have the camera show you the station as usual"

me being the camera panned around the station

.........

there was a chase

I 3rd personed and watched as my character got chased

robots were creatures

there were safe zones

i

don't understand this part

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1am 6;59 wake up

I had to go somewhere to have a baby with Codie ???? and get married but I was in an unfamiliar place

Tried to go through something thinking it was a shortcut

Entered a carpark for Kmart???? with this like German guy and we both got stuck bc to leave you have to buy something

and I considered getting my meds filled bc it was a pharmacy

but this large shopping centre ass Kmart was weird and we thought going down the windey stairs would get us to the exit but thats where the pharmacy was

and I ended up with a baby

and ?? pretending me and the German guy was married to get out

and they were like you guys don't seem very familiar

so we got familiar bc for some reason this was life and death

and tbh i liked him sorta

he had to staple 3 rings for tradition onto the baby

woke up 1am cos I slept at 6pm

went back to sleep

new place we were on some sort of ship

my best friend is ignoring me bc she idk

kinda like Chiara and Cami in Baby

skip a chunk

we went to lunch and "Cami" went to sit down in front of the concert area with someone else and I walked up and begged to chat

the concert started and the lead

had some sort of light from his chest like a bulb and then the mobo exploded???

he like died or more of the robotics he had kept falling off and breaking etc

3:54 wakeup??

different part we had cards to design

I asked Matt if he'd ever babysat for his cats bc idk people who don't do that are bad for some reason and he said he went over all the time

mum handed out cards

we were to design em

mine had shadow hunter joke design in pencil tried to show my friend who was sitting 4 people away

blaqskim ship???? "wtf don't you know hwo to pronounce it" no i only read it "fair"

someones laptop over there was watching bridgerton

woke up 6:58

I think I'm touch starved

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i have this friend.

i can't explain our friendship.

but he affects me stronger than anyone i've ever known or met.

which makes him very dangerous.

and he is

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the fkn chokehold this man has on me for no reason honestly wtf is this shit i dont get it

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Fabio Viale, marble sculpture.

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mentally i’m a slut physically i’m scared of intimacy 

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I think a giant 7ft scythe would greatly benefit my appearance

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tomorrow isn’t promised stab them today