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to my dearest prince; a short story.

once upon a time, lived a young male named wonpil.

wonpil had the perfect life; a nice, loving and supportive family, loved by his friends, and had so much potential and talent. yet, one thing kept bothering him. despite everything, there was always this certain loneliness that dragged him down, constantly reminding how alone he actually was, despite being in a crowd of people, despite the number of people talking to him and acknowledging him.

he’d always felt left out, even if he wasn’t.

then one day, wonpil met sicheng.

it was by accident, really. wonpil had meant to send a text to jae at three in the morning, not realizing that he’d typed in the wrong number and the long text was sent to the chinese male instead.

the next day, he got a reply from the said male, saying that wonpil had gotten the wrong number, but thanked him anyway.

a month passed and the korean found himself waiting for a text from the younger every second, unable to let a day go by without interacting with sicheng; often, he was scolded for not focusing during band practice, too lost in thought over whether sicheng was fine, if he’d eaten or if he’d skipped his meals again.

another month passed, and wonpil finally realized how deep in love he was with the boy on the other end. they’d met several times, once every two weeks due to their busy schedules.

soon enough, it was the third month.

wonpil and sicheng were hanging out at the former’s dorm, laughing as sicheng told him the story of how he had accidentally cursed and called taeyong a “little bitch”, causing the leader to break down, hyperventilating about how he’d “raised sicheng wrongly”.

honestly, to this day, wonpil doesn’t know whom had initiated it, but soon enough, the two were cuddling, sicheng murmuring soft proclamations of his love towards the older.

“hyung, i really, really like you.”

“i like you too, sicheng.”

seven months later and the feeling stays.

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Boy Groups Age Line

Even though I try not to play favourites, there are some groups that I lean towards more than others…

However, I love all boy groups the same and wish that they all had the same amount of limelight shined on them because they all deserve the best!

Anyways, I decided to put all boy group members together and put them all in an age line so we can see who is older/younger. I know sometimes all of us are curious as to who is older than who…so I did all the work and here you go…

From oldest boy group member to the youngest.

JUST A WARNING, THIS POST IS LOOOONNNGG BECAUSE ITS NOT UNDER READ MORE.

Please read the notes at the end of the list.

‘83 Liner

Park Jungsoo (Leeteuk) (July 1, 1983) SUPER JUNIOR

Kim Heechul (July 10, 1983) SUPER JUNIOR

‘84 Liner

Kim Jonghoon (Yesung) (Aug 24, 1984) SUPER JUNIOR

‘85 Liner

Kim Youngwoon (Kangin) (Jan 17, 1985) SUPER JUNIOR

Shin Donghee (Shindong) (Sept 28, 1985) SUPER JUNIOR

‘86 Liner

Lee Sungmin (Jan 1, 1986) SUPER JUNIOR

Kim Jaejoong (Jan 26, 1986) JYJ

Jung Yunho (U-Know) (Feb 6, 1986) TVXQ

Lee Hyukjae (Eunhyuk) (Apr 4, 1986) SUPER JUNIOR

Choi Siwon (Apr 7, 1986) SUPER JUNIOR

Zhoumi (Apr 19, 1986) SUPER JUNIOR

Park Yoochun (June 4, 1986) JYJ

Lee Donghae (Oct 15, 1986) SUPER JUNIOR

Kim Junsu (Dec 15, 1986) JYJ

‘87 Liner

Kim Ryeowook (June 21, 1987) SUPER JUNIOR

Choi Seunghyun (T.O.P) (Nov 4, 1987) BIG BANG

‘88 Liner

Kim Minjun (Jun. K) (Jan 15, 1988) 2PM

Cho Kyuhyun (Feb 3, 1988) SUPER JUNIOR

Shim Changmin (Max) (Feb 18, 1988) TVXQ

Kim Jiyeop (Kevin) (Feb 23, 1988) ZE:A

Dong Youngbae (Taeyang) (May 18, 1988) BIG BANG

Nickhun (June 24, 1988) 2PM

Kwon Jiyong (G Dragon) (Aug 18, 1988) BIG BANG

Hwang Kwanghee (Aug 25, 1988) ZE:A

Im Siwan (Dec 1, 1988) ZE:A

Ok Taecyeon (Dec 27, 1988) 2PM

‘89 Liner

Moon Junyoung (Lee Hoo) (Feb 9, 1989) ZE:A

Kim Donghyun (Feb 12, 1989) BOYFRIEND

Kang Daesung (Apr 26, 1989) BIG BANG

Kim Sunggyu (Apr 28, 1989) INFINITE

Jang Wooyoung (Apr 30, 1989) 2PM

Kim Taeheon (June 18, 1989) ZE:A

Jung Yonghwa (June 22, 1989) CNBLUE

Yoon Doojoon (July 4, 1989) HIGHLIGHT

Jang Hyunseung (Sept 3, 1989) SOLO

Luxian Hua (Henry) (Oct 11, 1989) SUPER JUNIOR

Jung Heecheol (Dec 9, 1989) ZE:A

Lee Jinki (Onew) (Dec 14, 1989) SHINEE

Yong Junhyung (Dec 19, 1989) HIGHLIGHT

‘90 Liner

Yang Yoseob (Jan 5, 1990) HIGHLIGHT

Lee Junho (Jan 25, 1990) 2PM

Hwang Chansung (Feb 11, 1990) 2PM

Lee Hongki (Mar 2, 1990) F.T. ISLAND

Choi Jonghoon (Mar 7, 1990) F.T. ISLAND

Kim Minseok (Xiumin) (Mar 26, 1990) EXO

Lee Kikwang (Mar 30, 1990) HIGHLIGHT

Bang Yongguk (Mar 31, 1990) BAP

Kim Jonghyun (Apr 8, 1990) SHINEE

Kim Himchan (Apr 19, 1990) BAP

Luhan (Apr 20, 1990) SOLO

Lee Jonghyun (May 15, 1990) CNBLUE

Cha Hakyeon (N) (June 30, 1990) VIXX

Ha Minwoo (Sept 6, 1990) ZE:A

Lee Taeil (Sept 24, 1990) BLOCK B

Wu Yifan (Kris) (Nov 6, 1990) SOLO

Jung Taekwoon (Leo) (Nov 10, 1990) VIXX

Jang Dongwoo (Nov 22, 1990) INFINITE

Seo Eunkwang (Nov 22, 1990) BTOB

Lee Minhyuk (Nov 29, 1990) BTOB

Lee Seunghyun (Seungri) (Dec 12, 1990) BIG BANG

Ahn Jaehyo (Dec 23, 1990) BLOCK B

‘91 Liner

Nam Woohyun (Feb 8, 1991) INFINITE

Lee Changsub (Feb 26, 1991) BTOB

Yoon Jisung (Mar 8, 1991) WANNA ONE

Lee Howon (Hoya) (Mar 28, 1991) SOLO

Kim Junmyeon (Suho) (May 22, 1991) EXO

Song Dongwoon (June 6, 1991) HIGHLIGHT

Shin Dongwoo (CNU) (June 16, 1991) B1A4

Kang Minhyuk (June 28, 1991) CNBLUE

Song Seunghyun (Aug 21, 1991) F.T. ISLAND

Lee Seongyeol (Aug 27, 1991) INFINITE

Lee Jungshin (Sept 15, 1991) CNBLUE

Kim Kibum (Key) (Sept 23, 1991) SHINEE

Kim Jinwoo (Jinu) (Sept 26, 1991) WINNER

Zhang Yixing (Lay) (Oct 7, 1991) EXO

Park Hyungsik (Nov 16, 1991) ZE:A

Jung Jinyoung (Nov 18, 1991) B1A4

Choi Minho (Dec 9, 1991) SHINEE

Lee Minhyuk (B-Bomb) (Dec 14, 1991) BLOCK B

Lee Jaejin (Dec 17, 1991) F.T. ISLAND

‘92 Liner

Lee Seunghoon (Hoony) (Jan 11, 1992) WINNER

Kim Dongjun (Feb 11, 1992) ZE:A

Im Hyunsik (Mar 7, 1992) BTOB

Kim Myungsoo (L) (Mar 13, 1992) INFINITE

Lee Junghwan (Sanduel) (Mar 20, 1992) B1A4

Lee Jaehwan (Ken) (Apr 6, 1992) VIXX

Kim Yoo Kwon (U-Kwon) (Apr 9, 1992) BLOCK B

Jo Jinho (Apr 17, 1992) PENTAGON

Choi Junhyuk (Apr 21, 1992) HOTSHOT

Byun Baekhyun (May 6, 1992) EXO

Sohn Hyunwoo (Shownu) (June 18, 1992) MONSTA X

Park Kyung (July 8, 1992) BLOCK B

Cha Sunwoo (Baro) (Sept 5, 1992) B1A4

Woo Jiho (Zico) (Sept 14, 1992) BlOCK B

Park Jaehyung (Jae) (Sept 15, 1992) DAY6

Kim Jongdae (Chen) (Sept 21, 1992) EXO

Choi Hyunggeun (Suhyun) (Oct 1, 1992) SNUPER

Choi Minhwan (Nov 11, 1992) F.T. ISLAND

Park Chanyeol (Nov 27, 1992) EXO

Kim Seokjin (Dec 4, 1992) BTS

‘93 Liner

Do Kyungsoo (DO) (Jan 12, 1993) EXO

Park Sungjin (Jan 16, 1993) DAY6

Kim Moongyu (Timoteo) (Jan 25, 1993) HOTSHOT

Pyo Jihoon (P.O) (Feb 2, 1993) BLOCK B

Kim Youjin (Feb 10, 1993) KNK

Lee Daeyeol (Feb 11, 1993) GOLDEN CHILD

Kim Wonshik (Ravi) (Feb 15, 1993) VIXX

Kim Woosung (Sammy) (Feb 25, 1993) THE ROSE

Lee Donghun (Feb 28, 1993) A.C.E

Shin Hoseok (Wonho) (Mar 1, 1993) MONSTA X

Min Yoongi (Suga) (Mar 9, 1993) BTS

Peniel (Mar 10, 1993) BTOB

Park Jeup (Mar 27, 1993) IMFACT

Song Mingo (Mino) (Mar 30, 1993) WINNER

Park Dojoon (Apr 20, 1993) THE ROSE

Shin Sangil (May 1, 1993) SNUPER

Huang Zitao (May 2, 1993) SOLO

Kim Sehyoon (Wow) (May 15, 1993) A.C.E

Kwak Youngmin (Aron) (May 21, 1993) NU'EST

Shim Hyunseong (June 9, 1993) BOYFRIEND

Jung Daehyun (June 28, 1993) BAP

Kim Inseong (July 12, 1993) SF9

Im Junhyuk (July 17, 1993) Former DAY6

Lee Taemin (July 18, 1993) SHINEE

Gong Chanshik (Gongchan) (Aug 14, 1993) B1A4

Lee Hoetaek (Hui) (Aug 28, 1993) PENTAGON

Lee Sungjong (Sept 3, 1993) INFINITE

Dong Yieun (Mark) (Sept 4, 1993) GOT7

Lee Hongbin (Sept 29, 1993) VIXX

(N) Roh Taehyun (Oct 15, 1993) JBJ/HOTSHOT

Park Seungjun (Oct 28, 1993) KNK

Kim Taeho (Nov 1, 1993) IMFACT

Lee Minhyuk (Nov 3, 1993) MONSTA X

Lee Daekwang (Jian) (Nov 8, 1993) IMFACT

Yoo Kihyun (Nov 22, 1993) MONSTA X

Kim Youngbin (Nov 23, 1993) SF9

Brian Kang (Young K) (Dec 19, 1993) DAY6

‘94 Liner

Lee Jeongmin (Jan 2, 1994) BOYFRIEND

Kim Jongin (Kai) (Jan 14, 1994) EXO

Chae Hyungwon (Jan 15, 1994) MONSTA X

Kang Seungyoon (Yoon) (Jan 21, 1994) WINNER

Im Jaebum (JB) (Jan 6, 1994) GOT7

Yoo Youngjae (Jan 24, 1994) BAP

Kim Jinhwan (Jay) (Feb 7, 1994) IKON

Jung Hoseok (J Hope) (Feb 18, 1994) BTS

Kim Myungjun (MJ) (Mar 5, 1994) ASTRO

Ha Sungwoon (Mar 22, 1994) WANNA ONE/HOTSHOT

Wang Jiaer (Jackson Wang) (Mar 28, 1994) GOT7

Kim Seongri (Apr 6, 1994) RAINZ

Oh Sehun (Apr 12, 1994) EXO

Yang Hongseok (Apr 17, 1994) PENTAGON

Kim Wonpil (Apr 28, 1994) DAY6

Nam Taehyun  (May 10, 1994) SOLO

Yukimoto Yasuo (Taewoong) (May 24, 1994) SNUPER

Kim Hyojong (E’Dawn) (June 1, 1994) PENTAGON

Park Junhee (Jun) (June 2, 1994) A.C.E

Moon Taeil (June 14, 1994) NCT

Jeong Inseong (July 1, 1994) KNK

Lee Hajoon (July 26, 1994) THE ROSE

Lee Jaeyoon (Aug 9, 1994) SF9

Yoon Sanghyuk (Yoonsan) (Aug 22, 1994) HOTSHOT

Kim Namjoon (RM) (Sept 12, 1994) BTS

Park Jinyoung (Sept 22, 1994) GOT7

Choi Sunghyuk (Woosung) (Sept 24, 1994) SNUPER

Jung Ilhoon (Oct 4, 1994) BTOB

Lee Jooheon (Oct 6, 1994) MONSTA X

Go Hojung (Oct 20, 1994) HOTSHOT

Lee Jaehyeong (Nov 3, 1994) THE ROSE

Han Seongwoo (Dec 24, 1994) VICTON

‘95 Liner

Takada Kenta (Jan 10, 1995) JBJ

Moon Jongup (Feb 6, 1995) BAP

Song Yoonhyung (Song) (Feb 8, 1995) IKON

Seo Youngho (Johnny) (Feb 9, 1995) NCT

Jo Sangho (Feb 10, 1995) SNUPER

Kim Jihun (Feb 20, 1995) KNK

Kang Seungsik (Apr 16, 1995) VICTON

Jo Youngmin (Apr 24, 1995) BOYFRIEND

Jo Kwangmin (Apr 24, 1995) BOYFRIEND

Yook Sungjae (May 2, 1995) BTOB

Kim Sangghyun (May 23, 1995) JBJ

Kim Jonghyun (JR) (June 8, 1995) NU'EST

Lee Taeyong (July 1, 1995) NCT

Han Sanghyuk (July 5, 1995) VIXX

Kang Dongho (Baekho) (July 21, 1995) NU'EST

Lee Sanghyuk (Dawon) (July 24, 1995) SF9

Choi Seongyoon (Y) (July 31, 1995) GOLDEN CHILD

No Minwoo (July 31, 1995) BOYFRIEND

Kim Jinwook (Jinhoo) (Aug 2, 1995) UP10TION

Choi Sungcheol (S Coups) (Aug 8, 1995) SEVENTEEN

Hwang Minhyun (Aug 9, 1995) WANNA ONE/NU'EST

Ong Seongwoo (Aug 25, 1995) WANNA ONE

Yoon Dowoon (Aug 25, 1995) DAY6

Yoon Junghan (Jeonghan) (Oct 4, 1995) SEVENTEEN

Park Jimin (Oct 13, 1995) BTS

Lee Sang (Oct 17, 1995) IMFACT

Nakamoto Yuta (Oct 26, 1995) NCT

Choi Minki (Ren) (Nov 3, 1995) NU'EST

No Soo Il (Kuhn) (Nov 11, 1995) UP10TION

Park Jaesseok (Nov 20, 1995) *inactive

Ko Shinwon (Dec 11, 1995) PENTAGON

Heo Chan (Dec 14, 1995) VICTON

Kim Jiwon (Bobby) (Dec 21, 1995) IKON

Hong Jisoo (Joshua) (Dec 30, 1995) SEVENTEEN

Kim Taehyung (V) (Dec 30, 1995) BTS

‘96 Liner

Qian Kun (Jan 1, 1996) NCT

Im Changkyun (Jan 26, 1996) MONSTA X

Kim Doyoung (Feb 1, 1996) NCT

Ju Wontak (Feb 24, 1996) RAINZ

Ten (Feb 27, 1996) NCT

Jin Longguo (Yongguk) (Mar 4, 1996) JBJ

Park Jinwoo (Jinjin) (Mar 15, 1996) ASTRO

Yeo Changgu (Yeo One) (Mar 27, 1996) PENTAGON

Jang Sebin (Apr 24, 1996) SNUPER

Lim Sejun (May 4, 1996) VICTON

Oh Heejun (May 8, 1996) KNK

Go Minsoo (Kogyeol) (May 19, 1996) UP10TION

Kim Jaehwan (May 27, 1996) WANNA ONE

Lee Sungjun (Wei) (June 8, 1996) UP10TION

Wen Junhui (Jun) (June 10, 1996) SEVENTEEN

Kwon Soonyoung (Hoshi) (June 15, 1996) SEVENTEEN

Lee Kiwon (June 27, 1996) RAINZ

Baek Juho (Zuho) (July 4, 1996) SF9

Jeon Wonwoo (July 17, 1996) SEVENTEEN

Kim Seokwoo (Rowoon) (Aug 7, 1996) SF9

Kim Byeongkwan (Jason) (Aug 13, 1996) A.C.E  

Lee Changhyun (Bit-To) (Aug 24, 1996) UP10TION

Choi Youngjae (Sept 17, 1996) GOT7

Choi Junhong (Zelo) (Oct 15, 1996) BAP

Kim Hanbin (B.I) (Oct 22, 1996) IKON

Yan An (Oct 25, 1996) PENTAGON

Kim Wooseok (Wooshin) (Oct 27, 1996) UP10TION

Seon Yein (Sunyoul) (Nov 6, 1996) UP10TION

Lee Jihoon (Woozi) (Nov 22, 1996) SEVENTEEN

Kang Daniel (Dec 10, 1996) WANNA ONE

‘97 Liner

Kim Donghyuk (DK) (Jan 3, 1997) IKON

Jang Daehyeon (Feb 11, 1997) RAINZ

Jung Yoonoh (Jaehyun) (Feb 14, 1997) NCT

Lee Seokmin (DK) (Feb 18, 1997) SEVENTEEN

Yoo Taeyang (Feb 28, 1997) SF9

Lee Jangjun (Mar 3, 1997) GOLDEN CHILD

Kwon Hyunbin (Mar 4, 1997) JBJ

Lee Dongmin (Cha Eunwoo) (Mar 30, 1997) ASTRO

Koo Junhoe (Ju-Ne) (Mar 31, 1997) IKON

Bambam (May 2, 1997) GOT7

Kim Mingyu (Apr 6, 1997) SEVENTEEN

Kim Woojin (Apr 8, 1997) STRAY KIDS

Jeon Jeongguk (Sept 1, 1997) BTS

Do Hanse (Sept 25, 1997) VICTON

Hong Eunki (Sept 29, 1997) RAINZ

Chris Bang (Chan) (Oct 3, 1997) STRAY KIDS

Dong Sasung (Winwin) (Oct 28, 1997) NCT

Xu Minghao (The8) (Nov 7, 1997) SEVENTEEN

Choi Byungchan (Nov 12, 1997) VICTON

Kim Yugyeom (Nov 17, 1997) GOT7

Han Gyujin (Nov 21, 1997) UP10TION

Kang Yuchan (Chan) (Dec 31, 1997) A.C.E

‘98 Liner

Boo Seungkwan (Jan 16, 1998) SEVENTEEN

Adachi Yuto (Jan 23, 1998) PENTAGON

Jung Chanwoo (Chan) (Jan 26, 1998) IKON

Moon Bin (Jan 26, 1998) ASTRO

Kang Hyunggu (Kino) (Jan 27, 1998) PENTAGON

Jung Wooseok (Jan 31, 1998) PENTAGON

Hansol Vernon Choi (Feb 18, 1998) SEVENTEEN

Kim Jungwoo (Feb 19, 1998) NCT

Son Youngtaek (Tag) (Apr 13, 1998) GOLDEN CHILD

Lee Hwanhee (May 6, 1998) UP10TION

Na Ungjae (May 28, 1998) IMFACT

Kim Donghan (July 3, 1998) JBJ

Bae Seungmin (Oct 13, 1998) GOLDEN CHILD

Lee Minho (Oct 25, 1998) STRAY KIDS

Lee Dongyeol (Xiao) (Dec 13, 1998) UP10TION

‘99 Liner

Bong Jaehyun (Jan 4, 1999) GOLDEN CHILD

Wong Yukhei (Lucas) (Jan 25, 1999) NCT

Kim Jibeom (Feb 3, 1999) GOLDEN CHILD

Lee Chan (Dino) (Feb 11, 1999) SEVENTEEN

Kim Donghyun (Feb 23, 1999) GOLDEN CHILD

Park Minhyuk (Rocky) (Feb 25, 1999) ASTRO

Jung Subin (Apr 5, 1999) VICTON

Byun Hyunmin (Apr 17, 1999) RAINZ

Kim Youngkyun (Hwiyoung) (May 11, 1999) SF9

Park Jihoon (May 29, 1999) WANNA ONE

Hong Joochan (July 31, 1999) GOLDEN CHILD

Lee Minhyung (Mark Lee) (Aug 2, 1999) NCT

Seo Changbin (Aug 11, 1999) STRAY KIDS

Seo Sunghyuk (Aug 26, 1999) RAINZ/TOPP DOGG

Park Woojin (Nov 2, 1999) WANNA ONE

‘00 Liner

Kang Chanee (Chani) (Jan 17, 2000) SF9

Hwang Hyunjin (Mar 20, 2000) STRAY KIDS

Yoon Sanha (Mar 21, 2000) ASTRO

Hwang Injoon (Renjun) (Mar 23, 2000) NCT

Lee Jeno (Apr 23, 2000) NCT

Bae Jinyoung (May 10, 2000) WANNA ONE

Lee Donghyuck (Haechan) (June 6, 2000) NCT

Na Jaemin (Aug 13, 2000) NCT

Choi Bomin (Aug 24, 2000) GOLDEN CHILD

Han Jisung (Sept 14, 2000) STRAY KIDS

Lee Felix (Sept 15, 2000) STRAY KIDS

Kim Seungmin (Sept 22, 2000) STRAY KIDS

‘01 Liner

Lee Daehwi (Jan 29, 2001) WANNA ONE

Yang Jeongin (Feb 8, 2001) STRAY KIDS

Lai Guanlin (Sept 23, 2001) WANNA ONE

Jong Jinrak (Zhong Chenle) (Nov 22, 2001) NCT

’02 Liner

Park Jisung (Feb 5, 2002) NCT

Because there are a lot of boys, there may be some mistakes…so if you spot them let me know and I will update it properly.

Also, if there is a group that is not in the list and you want me to add them, send me a message and I will gladly add the members in. 

As well as that, I can also add YOU into the list, so you can see in view where you sit! I will either repost the list with your blog names added, or I can send a private email for your viewing only, just let me know which one you want :)

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i want to write again, but i have projects to finish and i’m-- too lazy at the moment, hhhh.

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Gentle reminder #1

You simply couldn’t force yourself to study today, even after sitting down and turning all distractions off?

Anxiety? Stress? A complete and utter lack of motivation? Procrastination due to a fear of failure? An annoying ass combination of all of em?

That’s perfectly alright. It happens to everyone once in a while.

Give your mind a break.

Drink some water. Kick back with your favourite music. Read a book.

And at the end of it, do something simple. Finish that one question you were struggling with. Try and remember just one of the many facts you’ve gotta remember. Finish a teeny tiny portion of your assignment. No more than a paragraph.

If you did very little today, that’s ok. You still accomplished something, right? Not every day has to be very productive.

Take it easy, don’t be hard on yourself.

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©️ SPECIAL K

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Step aside Sungjin and Wonpil. Main dancer, Yoon Dowoon, coming through. (Strum ‘N Run)

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Brian throughout Every Day6

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fidelite | do not edit.

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i.

"i love nights best, because that's when i can love you, hold you in my embrace, and call you mine. and i hate days most, because then, i'll have to walk past you every day, see you every day, and pretend we're nothing to each other."

in a homophobic little town, yoonoh and ryuu are just trying to get by.

"yoonoh," the small male calls out, hand reaching out to pat the cold, empty spot next to him. his once sleep-ridden self is now alert as he wakes up, sitting up on his bed. "yoonoh? are you there?"

he stops himself, another cry of the younger's name halting in his throat as he falls back to reality. he sighs, carding his fingers through his hair as he chuckles hollowly, frustration running through his veins. "dumbass," he murmurs, suppressing his tears, his voice cracking.

yet another sigh slips past his lips as he curls up, burying his face in his knees. not even the blanket covering him could warm the cold feeling of loneliness within him. he mumbles small reassurances to himself, rocking back and forth.

it goes on for several moments, before he finally stops, growing tired. "how long is this going to last?" he asks, nothing but the sound of wind breezing past him as an answer to his question.

meanwhile, with confusion marring his features, yoonoh looks around, desperate for any sight of his lover. his eyes scan from table to table, looking for the older, before he feels his phone ringing in his pocket. seeing the caller id, he picks up hastily. "hello? hyung?”

on the other end, ryuu doesn't respond for a bit, trying to pick himself back together, before he finally speaks. "y-yoonoh," his voice cracks once more, tears streaking down his cheeks; he repeats the male's name multiple times, turning more breathless with each try. "yoonoh, yoonoh. please.”

“hyung? are you okay? where are you?" the younger shoots question after question, worry evident in his tone as he hears his lover's sobs. "what is it, hyung? what do you want me to do?”

he doesn't expect ryuu's next words, his fists clenching tightly as he hears them. hesitation and surprise fills him, his mouth opening, yet not a single sound coming out.

“yoonoh, please-- please c-come home. i’m begging you; please.”

the said male freezes, breathing in and out slowly as he calms himself, biting his lip to hold back his own emotions from bursting. "hyung," he starts off, "i-- i can't. you know i can't. they'll-- hyung, i don't--”

nothing but a sob comes as a response, and he hears ryuu shifting. the older is silent for a while, before he finally says something, tone steady, as if he'd been practicing the lines. "i know. i know, i'm sorry, j-just... forget it; forget i asked. i'll see you at home later.”

and then he hangs up.

the younger feels something stir within him. frustration? anger towards himself, maybe? to think that he'd just heard his beloved hyung break down, yet he did nothing to comfort him, all too scared of the consequences.

among them, a slight anger burns within him, mad that the older had hung up without the slightest reminder that he loves him.

yet, at the same time, he doesn’t blame him.

all this;

ryuu’s suffering,

and his own,

was all his fault.

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DAY6 + blue

myday secret santa gift for @happysmilebtr  💕💕💕💕

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you can’t fool me, kim wonpil. i know you’re the cutest human on earth.

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I keep holding on

to forgiveness,

as if I always knew

why people

do the things they do.

Well in reality, I don’t,

I can’t figure out

all of their reasons,

as if I knew

why they change

like seasons.

The Moon Left The Stars // ma.c.a

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yukheis part to play on loop

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