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KiWritesWords Masterlist

Last Updated: October 14, 2024 Most Stories Also Posted to: AO3 Tag List Requests: Currently Open!

*: Includes Smut, 18+ Themes, NSFW, Etc.

Birthday Revelations [Aaron Hotchner x Derek's Sister!Fem!Reader]

Summary: Reader is Derek's Sister, but despite dating Hotch, nobody has caught up on the connection...until now!

Word Count: 1.1k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Fluff, Birthdays, Big Brother!Derek, Non-BAU!Reader, Fem!Reader

I Promise You This [Aaron Hotchner x Female!Reader]

Summary: Y/N, the newest and youngest profiler in the BAU, is haunted by her past—an abusive relationship and an illness she keeps hidden from her team. Though skilled in her work, she distances herself emotionally, fearing vulnerability. Aaron Hotchner, her reserved and perceptive boss, begins to notice the cracks in her carefully constructed walls as they navigate high-stakes cases together. Drawn to her resilience, Hotch finds himself increasingly protective of Y/N. As their bond deepens, both must confront their own emotional barriers, leading to an unexpected connection amidst the darkness of their work.

Chapters: 3/45

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Romance, Slow Burn, Fluff, Eventual Smut, Angst, Canon-Typical Violence, Canon-Typical Behavior, Drama, Chronically-Ill!Reader, Past Abuse, Re-Write from 2021.

A Gentle Beginning* [Aaron Hotchner x Shy!Female!Reader]

Summary: In the quiet safety of Aaron Hotchner's arms, you take a vulnerable step into uncharted territory, finding solace in his patient tenderness. As your shy nature meets his careful affection, the bond between you deepens in this intimate first moment, where love speaks louder than words.

Word Count: 500

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Implied Smut, Drabble

Balances of Trust [Aaron Hotchner x Wealthy!Female!Reader]

Summary: When you and Aaron Hotchner decide to open a joint bank account, it feels like a simple next step in your relationship. But as you discover more about Aaron’s financial stability, you realize there’s still a lot you don’t know about the man who lives so modestly yet carries so much responsibility. In a quiet moment of trust and partnership, you both learn that there’s more to this journey together than meets the eye.

Word Count: 600

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Finances, Sharing of Assets, Wealthy Reader, Drabble

Exposed*[Aaron Hotchner x Shy!Female!Reader]

Summary: Drabble prompt: "Getting undressed in front of each other for the first time."

Word Count: 1.1k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Canon typical themes, canon typical violence, angst, undressing, intimacy

A Leap of Trust [Aaron Hotchner x Female!Reader]

Summary: Drabble about "Discussing things that set themselves up to be hurt and trusting that the other won't take advantage of it."

Word Count: 1k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Canon-Typical Themes, Trust Issues

I find myself runnin’ home to your sweet nothings [Aaron Hotchner x Shy!Fem!Reader]

Summary: After sneaking away from the intensity of the BAU for a quiet afternoon at a cozy café, you and Aaron Hotchner finally find a moment to relax. Surrounded by the warm scent of coffee and soft chatter, your usual shyness fades, and you accidentally let a pet name slip. To your surprise, Aaron teases you gently, but the exchange brings a new layer of affection to your growing bond. With sweet words and tender moments, the two of you discover how natural it feels to let your guard down around each other, leading to a deepening connection that neither of you can deny.

Word Count: 1.9k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Canon-Typical Themes, Pet Names, Fluff

The Weight of Mistakes [Aaron Hotchner x Shy!Fem!Reader]

Summary: In the midst of a high-stakes case, tensions run high when a small mistake nearly derails the BAU's progress. The shy reader feels the weight of her error, fearing she has disappointed Hotch and the team. As emotions flare and self-doubt creeps in, she finds herself in a vulnerable confrontation with Hotch, where truths are revealed and insecurities are laid bare. What starts as a difficult conversation may become a moment of understanding and connection that neither of them expected.

Word Count: 800

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Canon-Typical Themes, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Scolding!Hotch

In The Quiet* [Aaron Hotchner x Shy!Fem!Reader]

Summary: Drabble Prompt: "Discussions of kinks that they're embarrassed/self-conscious of”

Word Count: 600

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Sexual themes, NSFW, 18+

The Fear of Falling [Aaron Hotchner x Shy!Fem!Reader]

Summary: In the high-stakes world of the BAU, you and Aaron Hotchner have shared a quiet, unspoken connection that began as something casual, a way to find comfort amid the chaos. But when a routine case leaves you critically injured, Hotch is forced to confront the depth of his feelings. As he anxiously waits by your side, fearing the worst, Hotch realizes that losing you would break him in ways he never expected.

Word Count: 3.5k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Sexual Themes, Canon-Typical Themes, Angst

If Every Word I Said, Could Make You Laugh, I'd Talk Forever [Aaron Hotchner x Female!Reader]

Summary: Drabble of Reader and Hotch getting engaged

Word Count: 1.6k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Fluff, engagement

And then I go and spoil it all by saying something stupid like, “I love you.” [Aaron Hotchner x Shy!Fem!Reader]

Summary: Five times you were shy around Aaron Hotchner because of your underlying feelings for him + one time, Aaron Hotchner was shy around you because of his underlying feelings for you.

Word Count: 5.2k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: alcohol consumption, slow burn, 5+1

Between Almost and Always *[Aaron Hotchner x Female!Reader]

Summary: You and Aaron Hotchner share a bond that runs deeper than either of you dares to acknowledge. Caught between the demands of the BAU and the unspoken pull toward each other, you both struggle to balance your feelings with the fears that keep you apart. As fate and duty continue to intervene, Hotch's silent sacrifices and your unrelenting hope create a tension that neither time nor distance can dissolve, leaving you both to wonder if love will ever break through the almosts and become an always.

Word Count: 14.2k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: angst, fluff, pining, yearning, slow burn, smut, fade-to-black, 18+

In Sickness and Secrets [Aaron Hotchner x Female!Reader]

Summary: You and Aaron Hotchner have just begun a secret relationship, carefully navigating the fine line between personal feelings and professional responsibilities. Both of you are fiercely dedicated to your work, but fate has pulled you together in ways neither of you expected. When you suddenly fall ill during a case, it sets off a chain of events that forces Hotch to confront his deepest fears and the team to question the nature of your bond. As your relationship is put to the test, you both must decide whether the risk of exposing your feelings is worth the chance of having something real.

Word Count: 3.4k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: canon-typical themes, angst, fluff, hospitals, passing out, stomach pain, surgery.

If put to the test, would you step back from the line of fire?* [Aaron Hotchner x Female!Reader]

Summary: New to the BAU, you quickly find yourself at odds with the unit’s stoic leader, Aaron Hotchner. What starts as a clash of wills and a battle of stubbornness soon transforms into a connection neither of you anticipated. With each case you work, your fire-fueled banter and undeniable tension grow, challenging your carefully constructed walls. As you both navigate the line between professional rivals and something more, you’re forced to confront the truth you’ve been hiding—from each other and yourselves. In a world where control is your armor, letting someone in could be the biggest risk you’ve ever taken.

Word Count: 19k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: canon-typical themes, angst, fluff, injuries, fade-to-black smut, sexual tension, banters, enemies-to-lovers, suggestive comments, 18+.

You showed me colors you know I can’t see with anyone else [Aaron Hotchner x Female!Reader]

Summary: In the midst of an already stressful workweek, you notice a troubling shift in Aaron Hotchner’s behavior. Once warm and attentive, Aaron has grown distant, leaving you questioning what went wrong. As you try to navigate his sudden coldness, a casual conversation with JJ and Penelope might hold the key—one you didn’t realize Aaron overheard. The revelation sends Aaron spiraling into insecurity, causing him to pull away, leaving you in the dark. Now, with your relationship hanging in the balance, you must figure out what’s troubling Aaron before it’s too late. Can you bridge the gap between you, or will unspoken fears drive you apart?

Word Count: 1.8k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: canon-typical themes, angst, fluff, insecure!hotch, mentions of a one-night-stand.

Professional Distractions [Aaron Hotchner x Secretary!Fem!Reader]

Summary: Aaron Hotchner thrives on control, order, and precision in both his work and personal life. But when a new secretary is assigned to his team, Hotch finds himself facing a different kind of challenge. Confident, witty, and effortlessly intriguing, she quickly becomes a presence he can’t ignore. As their professional boundaries blur, Hotch is forced to confront feelings he never expected, and the calm, controlled world he’s built begins to shift in unexpected ways.

Word Count: 8.9k

Tags/Warnings/Genre: canon-typical themes, fluff, flirting

Tonight, you're on my mind, so you'll never know...* [Aaron Hotchner x Female Reader]

Summary: Years have passed since you and Aaron Hotchner first crossed paths, but the connection you shared has never truly faded. In the wake of personal loss and career demands, your lives have taken different directions, leaving unresolved feelings and unspoken words lingering in the background. As fate pulls you back into each other’s orbit, you must navigate the delicate balance between duty, grief, and the possibility of rekindling something you thought was lost forever. In a world of danger, distance, and emotional walls, will you and Aaron finally confront the past—or let it slip away once more?

Chapters: 1/4 or 5

Tags/Warnings/Genre: Canon-typical themes, sexual themes, hurt/comfort, angst, pining, mutual pining, spoilers for Criminal Minds seasons 1-12, friends to lovers, first-time, loss of virginity, grief, trauma

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cs-and-bellarke · 1 month ago

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Masterlist

Aaron Hotchner:

Moodboards

Fics:

In The Suburbs - Masterlist

Beneath the ice - Masterlist

One shots:

Under 1k words

1k+ words

Headcanons:

Periods

Periods with Mafia!Hotch

Comforting when sad

Golfer!Hotch and Puppy

Sailor!Hotch and Puppy

Soccer player!Hotch and Puppy

Lawyer!Hotch and Puppy

Bau as members of a family

AU’s:

Mafia!Hotch

Alpha!Hotch

Dark King!Hotch

Follower celebrations:

600 followers blurb celebration

800 (and 700) Celebration

1k celebration

1.5k - Criminiology 101 celebration

1.8k mini sleepover

2k celebration

3k - Profiling 101 celebration

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cs-and-bellarke · 2 months ago

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Symposium Series Masterlist

aaron hotchner x bau!fem!reader

slow burn: you fell first, he fell harder

□ Timeline

□ Extras: Taglist

■ Overture

part zero - Symposium, definitely not Platonic love

■ Act One

part one - Orchids & Knots

part two - Early Birds

part three - A Philosopher and a Lawyer walk into a Café

part four - Thesis

part five - Antithesis

part six - Synthesis

part seven - Cogito, ergo Sum

part eight - Law & Self-awareness

part nine - Folie à Deux

part ten - The Reaper Aftermath

■ Interlude

part eleven - May You be Satisfied

■ Act Two

part twelve - Goodbyes & Partners

part thirteen - Soulmates

part fourteen - What Could Have Been

part fifteen - Epistulae ad Lucilium

part sixteen - Sapphire

part seventeen - My Decline

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cs-and-bellarke · 2 months ago

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White Lie - Masterlist

pairing - lorenzo berkshire x fem! reader

summary - After accidentally telling your mom you have a new boyfriend, you have to resort to your last option and ask your old friend turned enemy for help.

warnings - fake dating trope, cursing, mention of cheating, some bullying, Enzo being a little mean, grumpy x sunshine vibes, university au set in the states, smut in later parts, inspired by the unhealthy amount of rom-com's I've been watching, specific warnings will be posted with the parts, I'm gonna throw so many tropes in this

wordcount - 12.4k

(smut is marked *)

Part One

Part Two

Part Three

Part Four

Part Five

Part Six (coming soon!)

Masterlist

Requesting Guidelines

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cs-and-bellarke · 3 months ago

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𓅨 Sleepy Bitch Syndrome Masterlist

Sleepy Bitch Syndrome: You've got narcolepsy and have been visiting the Dreaming daily for years. Then its Lord and King finally return and he doesn't know quite what to think of you.

Overall Warnings: Explicit Language, Angst, Death, Happy Ending!

To Note: Morpheus/Dream x Narcoleptic!Reader, for you dear @aralezinspace.

(Current) Total Word Count: ~15.7k

Legend:

💀 = Death

𓅨 Chapter One

𓅨 Chapter Two

𓅨 Chapter Three

𓅨 Chapter Four

𓅨 Chapter Five

𓅨 Chapter Six

𓅨 Chapter Seven

𓅨 Chapter Eight 💀

𓅨 Chapter Nine

Date Published: 7/10/24

Date Completed: NOT YET COMPLETE

Last Edit: 8/14/24

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cs-and-bellarke · 6 months ago

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𝐋𝐨𝐤𝐢 | 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

What once was mine

ch 1 | ch 2 | ch 3 | ch 4 | ch 5 | ch 6 | ch 7

When watching what once was supposed to be the rest of his life, in an empty room in the TVA, Loki sees someone he can’t recognize; a girl who’s all tenderness and loose smiles, and most importantly, she was smiling at him.

Make it taste like love

You felt him before you even met him. And despite the pain he carried around, his soul was one of the most beautiful you’d ever seen.

Tangle me in all your broken pieces (and watch me stay)

ch 1 | ch 2 | ch 3

An Asgardian god has just threatened your planet and you were called in to provide a little help. What you didn’t expect was to develop a strange soft spot for said god, who hid more pain behind his cold facade than you thought possible.

Too close to the stars

Somehow, between your overwhelming sweetness and insistence on treating him as if he was someone worth saving, you had managed to sneak your way into Loki’s cold heart. He simply hadn’t managed the guts to tell you, but a bit of a Christmas spirit might just change that.

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cs-and-bellarke · 6 months ago

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TBD|Hotch x fem!reader

Masterlist | Taglist

Synopsis: Y/N becomes victim to a stalker who’s been uploading pictures and videos of her online. The BAU gets called in to analyze the footage for clues as to who this woman is and who’s watching her. Once her identity is uncovered, she helps the BAU to find the unsub. Unit Chief, Aaron Hotchner takes a protective liking toward Y/N along the way.

Chapters: coming soon!

Wheels Up

Somebody’s Watching Me

Obsessions 🔞

TBD

Stranger Danger

TBD

Confessions

What Now?

TBD 🔞

TBD

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cs-and-bellarke · 1 year ago

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Bloodstream Master Post

Title: Bloodstream (Ao3 | Wattpad)

Pairing: Killian Jones x fem!reader

Synopsis: She have always lived in a small town by the sea. A peaceful life, out of harm's way. That changed after one day she received bad news - news that would turn everything upside down. The ship she tried to run away with turned out to be the ship of the infamous Captain Hook. Without a better idea on hand, she decided to disguise herself and join the crew. Tags: drama, angst, slow burn Warnings: mostly none, canon-typical violence, explicit chapters will be marked as such. A/N: Reader insert - mc has no physical attributes mentioned, but she has detailed backstory and the story follows her journey more than it follows Hook's. Includes several OC characters. I'd say takes place in an AU, no mention of most OUAT characters, itt doesn't follow the events of OUAT at all, so if this is not your cup of tea, just a heads up.

Chapters:

Chapter I

Chapter II - Into the Fire

Chapter III - Captain Hook

Chapter IV - Knot

Chapter V - Blades

Chapter VI - The Sea and The Stars

Chapter VII - My Name

Chapter VIII - A Song

Chapter IX - Pirate

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cs-and-bellarke · 1 year ago

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!Sandman!

masterlist

✧ Status: Requests for fics & prompts are CLOSED

✧ please read my RULES before requesting!

(angst =💧, fluff =💫, hurt/comfort =🌪, comfort =🪐 crack =✨)

.͙✼̥୭ Dream of The Endless;

darling (dream x f!reader) ; after living a happy life for thousands of years, dream of the endless is captured for over a century, and his queen missed him greatly 🌪

stay with me (SERIES) ; Before Hobs Gadling, Death granted immortality to one other mortal. Death, ever the matchmaker, knew that if anyone was in dire need of love, it was her pathetic, sweetheart of a brother; Dream of The Endless.

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cs-and-bellarke · 1 year ago

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Bridgerton Fic Recs

*None of these belong to me

*Give these amazing authors a follow, they have amazing work!

🪩= 18+

Anthony Bridgerton

five senses of love by @libraryofloveletters

meeting the family by @iliveiloveiwrite

stubbornly, irritatingly by @atlabeth

distractions by @peterpparkrr

a long, long time by @genyakosstyk

bickering by @ijustwant2write

house of bridgerton by @ mickisnotreal

wisteria and weariness ↑

the four times by @imthebadguyyy

someone like you by @magpiencrow

brilliant plan by @heloisedaphnebrightmore

none of them were me by @goldfearless

ready for it? by @wonderlandprose

a lack of convincing by @benedictscanvas

enamoured by @dreamwritesimagines

diamonds and pearls by @multiharlot

convenience by @ontheoddoccasioniwritestuff 🪩

scratch my head, please by @thegettingbyp2

rescue and ruin by @fayes-fics

right in front of me by @idontgiveaflyinggrayson69 🪩

no longer in denial by @iwritefandomimagines

Benedict Bridgerton

they’re not the only ones by @maximoff-pan

pt. 2 ↑

pt. 3 ↑

paper rings by @wonderlandprose

alone together by @inpraizeof

a fitting distraction by @benedictscanvas

sleeping beauty by @genyakosstyk

what a question by @fandom-puff

why does it bother you? by @jswizzlewrites

middle of the night by @bennybridge

en garde by @delphispoeticals

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cs-and-bellarke · 2 years ago

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Bellarke- Love isn't weakness

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Chapter 18

Bellamy's P.O.V

Last night I stayed up talking to Clarke for 2 and a half hours and I didn’t end up going to bed until around 3:30am, me and her talked about her family and she told me about her sister and how Anya was Murphy’s sister and how much everyone in the house except the adults hate her and everything like that. I woke up around 11:00am and started making food and about a half an hour later I saw Clarke wake up, she is so beautiful and talking to her made me happy but just being friends with her is killing me.

She gets up and smiles then disappears into O’s bedroom, I want to be with her but there is no way I can, 12th grade is coming up because it’s almost May and that is also Clarke’s birthday month. I got her a bracelet with her name on it and I hope she likes it, it would mean that she has something I gave her which would make me really happy.

She and Octavia come out of Octavia’s room and all I can do is smile at Clarke because she is happy at the moment and that’s a good thing. After Clarke’s and I’s talk last night, seeing her smile makes me happy for her and I always want to see that smile on her face and when it’s not there then I want to be the one to hold her and tell her everything is going to be okay and to make her smile. She needs some happiness in her life and I wish I could give her some of that happiness but I know she is not ready for that and I’m willing to wait.

We all eat and now that Lincoln is here, Clarke and I are on our way to the hospital to see my mom and try to convince my mom to stay there until she is better and hopefully she will listen to me. “Are you ready to see my mom?” I asked Clarke as I parked the car.

“Yeah, the last time I saw her was before she went to the hospital last year�� she says with a smile.

“Okay. let's go” We went in and I took Clarke down to my mom’s room and there was my mom sitting on the bed watching tv and hooked up to tubes and wires. “Here we are, you sure you want to come in” I ask her.

“Yeah, I would love to see and talk to her again”

“Really, you sure”

“Yes, now come on, she’s waiting”

“Okay” we walk in and my mom’s face lights up with joy. “Hey mom”

“Hey my baby boy, and hello Clarke, I haven’t seen you in forever” my mom says to her.

“Hey, yeah...how have you been?” Clarke asks her.

“In bed with cancer, but other then that I’m okay, so Bellamy are you taking me home today”

“No mom, you need to stay here until you get better, I know I’m not 18 and I can’t tell you what to do but if you come home you’re just going to get worse”

“Bell, I’m tired...I can’t fight anymore, I want to come home and be your mom for as long as I can” she says.

“No mom, please fight you can beat this, they're trying a new drug that has had success on you next week, so please just keep fighting a little longer” I say trying not to break down.

“Okay, I will for you and O...anyway Clarke are you finally dating my son”

“Um...no we’re just friends, but someday he will find someone who will be the luckiest gal in the world” Clarke says to my mother...did I just hear that right.

“You're right or maybe he has found her,” my mom says.

“What are you talking about mom?” I ask her.

“Nothing, can I talk to Clarke alone please”

“Umm, sure I guess”

I left the room and all I could wonder is why she wanted me to leave so she could talk to Clarke, I hope she doesn’t try to hook me and her up.

Clarke’s P.O.V

“Bell, I’m tired...I can’t fight anymore, I want to come home and be your mom for as long as I can,” Aurora says to Bell.

“No mom, please fight you can beat this, they're trying a new drug that has had success on you next week, so please just keep fighting a little longer” he says trying not to break down.

“Okay, I will for you and O...anyway Clarke are you finally dating my son”

“Um...no we’re just friends, but someday he will find someone who will be the luckiest gal in the world” I say trying not to blush.

“You're right or maybe he has found her,” my mom says.

“What are you talking about mom?” Bellamy asks her.

“Nothing, can I talk to Clarke alone please”

“Umm, sure I guess” he says and leaves.

I don’t know what to do but then she pats her bed and so I sit next to her, where is this going? “Why are you and my son not dating, because the last time I saw you, you never met him but knew you would hate him...now that you met him you two are very nice to each other what happened”

“Well I dated this guy who hurt me and Murphy kicked his ass, and Bellamy found me on a curb crying, and he made up this nickname for me in the process. Anyway he bought me dinner and we talked, he also went out of a relationship and we became friends and we talked a lot about a lot of different things” I explained to her.

“Wow, but I can tell you have feelings for him”

“How did you-”

“It’s the way you look at him, the same way I looked at Bellamy’s dad before he left”

“Oh, but I’m not ready to be with anyone right now”

“And that’s okay, have you guys ever-”

“Oh god no, we kissed a couple times but twice I pulled away and once he did”

“You didn’t let me finish, I was going to only ask if you guys ever kissed but now I know”

“Aurora, what should I do...every time I see him to be with him but I can’t be with him and it kills me but every time I get close I get scared” I asked her.

“You just need some time, keep talking to him and being friends with him and if you’re both single when you are ready then try to make something happen with him” she says giving me a smile. “We should get Bell back in here before he thinks we are talking about him”

“Knowing him, he already thinks that, but yes we should”

“Can you go get him”

“Yeah” I left the room and ran right into him, not watching where I was going. “Oh I’m sorry” he doesn’t say anything, he just lifts my chin and kisses me.

“I’m sorry I just had to,” he says.

“Don’t be, um but your mom wants you back in there and is it okay if I wait in the car”

“Yeah, here’s the keys just don’t leave me here”

“I won’t” I say and walk out to the car. I can not believe that he kissed me and I didn’t pull away and neither did he but I’m not ready to be with anyone even if I want to.

Bellamy’s P.O.V

Clarke leaves my mom's room and doesn’t look where she is going and runs right into me and says “Oh I’m sorry” I don’t say anything back I just lift her chin and kiss her.

“I’m sorry I just had to,” I say to her.

“Don’t be, um but your mom wants you back in there and is it okay if I wait in the car”

“Yeah, here’s the keys just don’t leave me here”

“I won’t”

She leaves and I go into my mom’s room to see how long I have to be here. “Hey mom,” I say to her.

“Hey my baby boy, where’s Clarke?” she asks.

“She’s waiting in the car, anyway what did you two talk about”

“Just girl stuff, why is she in the car”

“Okay first of all ‘just girl stuff’ is code for talking about me and she’s in the car because I kissed her”

“You did what”

“I kissed her and I don’t know what to do”

“You really like her don’t you?” my mom asks.

“I’m falling in love with her mom” I tell her.

“Have you told her that?”

“No but I did tell her I have feelings for her and she said she had them for me but she’s just not ready”

“Good, just give her time, all you can be is her friend and when she’s ready and if you’re both single then make something happen”

“Thanks mom, I’m going to go home and make sure Octavia isn’t having sex with her boyfriend” I tell her.

“Octavia has a boyfriend?” she asks.

“Yeah, anyway I love you and I’ll see you later”

“Okay I love you too my baby boy”

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cs-and-bellarke · 2 years ago

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Bellarke- Love isn't weakness

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Chapter 17

Bellamy's P.O.V

“I was wondering if it was okay if Clarke stayed for the weekend?”

“I guess,” I say.

“Hey, I know she hurt you but she’s just not ready and trust me she likes you a lot...she’s falling for you hard she just needs time” she tells me, like I’m going to believe that.

“Right, she falling in love with me and I’m rich”

“I’m serious Bell, she is falling for you hard”

“I’ll believe it when I hear it from her”

“Fine be a jackass, I know she hurt you but you don’t realize that by you acting like this hurts her too, you can be an ass for all I care and I am going to go to bed and leave you out here to think about what you want and what you need and what you need is to get your head out of your ass” she says and storms out of the room.

Maybe she’s right, well right about me being an asshole, it did hurt when she backed off but I should be nice because she did just get out of a bad relationship. She can’t be falling for me. Come on, it's me, but I know I’m in love with her and I want to be with her even if it is for a short time.

Clarke’s P.O.V

The last thing I heard Octavia say before she stormed into the room was her calling Bellamy an ass and telling him to get his head out of his ass. About 2 hours later I was still awake and Octavia started kicking me and so I went into the living room where I found Bellamy on the couch running his hand through his hair like he was stressed about something.

“Hey, you okay?” I asked him

“Yeah, what are you doing up?” he asks me back.

“Couldn’t sleep, you?”

“My mom wants to come home and it feels like my world is falling apart”

“I think it’s great that your mom wants to come home but what do you mean about your world falling apart”

“I’m just stressed and my mom is still really sick and the hospital called me and told me to come in and talk to her tomorrow”

“Well I’m sorry, and I’m sorry about yesterday, I didn’t pull away because I don’t feel something for you because I do, I just got really scared”

“I understand, yeah it hurt but you just got out of a relationship and so did I, and right now we are in high school and you don’t believe in love so, it’s fine”

“It’s not that I don’t believe in love it’s just...when Lexa died I didn’t believe what she said and then Finn hurt me then I started to believed it...so if I don’t live by it I feel like I’m letting her down” I tell him while trying not to cry.

“Who’s Lexa?” he asks while putting his hand on mine.

“You know how I said my sister said Love was weakness”

“Wait I just thought of this but if you had a sister doesn’t Murphy have 2?”

“No, well kinda but Lexa isn’t his sister, Anya is his half sister other than me. And before you ask, Kane had another child after Murphy that is not my moms, anyway Lexa was my dad’s first child and she killed herself when I was 13” I told him while not looking at him.

“Hey I’m sorry and no wonder you don’t like going home” he says.

“Yeah, the only reason I live there is because of Murphy, he’s the only one who wants me”

“I want you”

“Bell...you’re sweet but I…”

“I know but it’s true I want you and you think you're nothing when you are everything and people want you, me, Octavia, the gang, Murphy, and even your dad before he died. Just because your mom is a Bitch along with her man slut and his daughter, and even spacewalker doesn’t mean you are nothing and it doesn’t mean you are unwanted”

Before I could stop myself my lips were on his and a simple kiss turned into a passionate one very quickly, the kiss sent my bones on fire and I didn’t want to stop but I knew I had to so I pulled away. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have but no one has ever said something that sweet to me that is so untrue”

“You think it’s untrue really, do you want me to get everyone together and ask them because I will” he says with a pissed off face.

“No, but I feel like I’m nothing, I just think…”

“Stop it, please it breaks my heart when you say this about yourself”

“Bellamy I don’t…” he stops me by kissing me and this time I don’t pull away. We kiss for a few minutes then he pulls away.

“You are not nothing, and I’m sorry about what happened with your family and if you need to get away you always have the Blake's, okay?” he says.

“Can I move in then”

He laughs and I hug him not wanting to let go, he made me feel safe and he hugs me back, having his arms around me makes it harder for me to not jump his bones even though I have never had sex before. He just makes me want a future with him because he listens and he is so kind to me when he doesn’t have to be at all but he is.

“Why are you being so nice to me, I’m your little sister's annoying best friend” I asked him.

“You're not annoying, you are like the only one I know that I don't want to kill, and I’ve been beating myself up for falling for my little sister’s best friend” he says.

“You didn’t answer my question, why are you being so nice to me”

“Because I can”

“That’s not an answer”

“Yes it is because I said so”

“Really?” I ask with a sarcastic look on my face.

“Yes,” he says with a smile.

“I’m sorry about your mom”

“It’s fine, but I told her about you and she said that she remembers you and that you would be a perfect match for me”

“I hate to disappoint her”

“I have to see her tomorrow do you want to come with me, and yes Lincoln will be here tomorrow with O”

“In that case I would love to come”

We laugh about how much we hate it when Octavia is with Lincoln and how much we either want to kill them or ourselves. We talked for 2 and a half hours and when I looked at the time it was 3:30 in the morning, I can’t believe I have been talking to Bellamy Blake for 2 and a half hours straight, and I love talking to him, I also feel like I’m more best friends with him instead of O.

“We should get to bed, it’s 3:30am, and doesn’t it feel like we are closer friends than me and Octavia?” I asked him.

“Sometimes, but don’t tell Octavia about that,” he says. “And your right we should get to bed, goodnight Princess”

“Goodnight Bell”

He goes to his room and I fall asleep on the couch and when I woke up Bellamy was in the kitchen making food. It was 11:30am and I can’t believe he is up and making food for me and Octavia, he is so amazing and it’s really hard to just be friends with him.

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