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MaryJo Saga Masterlist

Once Upon a Time-

Killian Jones (Captain Hook)

Jefferson (The Mad Hatter)

Robin Hood

The 100-

Bellamy Blake

Marcus Kane

Marvel-

Bucky Barnes

Loki

Clint Barton

Reign-

Sebastian De Poitiers

Outlander-

Jamie Alexander Malcolm MacKenzie Fraser

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Sebastian De Poitiers Masterlist

Break the Rules:

Prologue-

Part 1-

Part 2-

Part 3-

Part 4-

Part 5-

Part 6-

Part 7-

Part 8-

Part 9-

Part 10-

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masterlist

Bridgerton

-Anthony Bridgerton:

attached

flashback

guilt

only you

pleasure

regrets

unfair (1)

unfair (2)

-Benedict Bridgerton:

happy with just the two of us

late escapes (1)

late escapes (2)

-Colin Bridgerton:

enjoyment

hope for the future

saviour

-King George:

episode

venus

-Simon Basset:

designer

new desires

Grey’s Anatomy

-Alex Karev:

soft

-Denny Duquette:

i’m the one with an irregular heartbeat

-Derek Shepherd:

forever

-Mark Sloan:

be careful

change

chief

stuck

Star Wars

-Anakin Skywalker:

safe

nightmares

-Han Solo:

there is good in the bad

The 100

-Bellamy Blake:

pretty

The Hunger Games

-Finnick Odair:

i’ve got you

-Peeta Mellark:

close

cowboy

hunger

opposites attract

summer love

The Maze Runner

-Minho:

welcome to the glade

The Vampire Diaries Universe

-Damon Salvatore:

allure

-Klaus Mikaelson:

loss

-Stefan Salvatore:

it’s okay

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#Mood

Gilmore Girls (2000 - 2007) I 2.08

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😛🥰😘🤤🥴

I cannot stop watch this edit of Aaron hotchner

I just need to share it HES SO SEXXXXYYYY

Omg I need this man immediately🫠🥴

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Me when I can’t find the very specific 100k slow -burn enemies to lovers, angst with a happy ending, award winning fic that my brain created during my before bed story time, realising I have to write it myself to be able to read it

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𓅨 Sleepy Bitch Syndrome Masterlist

Sleepy Bitch Syndrome: You've got narcolepsy and have been visiting the Dreaming daily for years. Then its Lord and King finally return and he doesn't know quite what to think of you.

Overall Warnings: Explicit Language, Angst, Death, Happy Ending!

To Note: Morpheus/Dream x Narcoleptic!Reader, for you dear @aralezinspace.

(Current) Total Word Count: ~15.7k

Legend:

💀 = Death

𓅨 Chapter One

𓅨 Chapter Two

𓅨 Chapter Three

𓅨 Chapter Four

𓅨 Chapter Five

𓅨 Chapter Six

𓅨 Chapter Seven

𓅨 Chapter Eight 💀

𓅨 Chapter Nine

Date Published: 7/10/24

Date Completed: NOT YET COMPLETE

Last Edit: 8/14/24

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Chapter 18

Bellamy's P.O.V

Last night I stayed up talking to Clarke for 2 and a half hours and I didn’t end up going to bed until around 3:30am, me and her talked about her family and she told me about her sister and how Anya was Murphy’s sister and how much everyone in the house except the adults hate her and everything like that. I woke up around 11:00am and started making food and about a half an hour later I saw Clarke wake up, she is so beautiful and talking to her made me happy but just being friends with her is killing me. 

She gets up and smiles then disappears into O’s bedroom, I want to be with her but there is no way I can, 12th grade is coming up because it’s almost May and that is also Clarke’s birthday month. I got her a bracelet with her name on it and I hope she likes it, it would mean that she has something I gave her which would make me really happy. 

She and Octavia come out of Octavia’s room and all I can do is smile at Clarke because she is happy at the moment and that’s a good thing. After Clarke’s and I’s talk last night, seeing her smile makes me happy for her and I always want to see that smile on her face and when it’s not there then I want to be the one to hold her and tell her everything is going to be okay and to make her smile. She needs some happiness in her life and I wish I could give her some of that happiness but I know she is not ready for that and I’m willing to wait.

We all eat and now that Lincoln is here, Clarke and I are on our way to the hospital to see my mom and try to convince my mom to stay there until she is better and hopefully she will listen to me. “Are you ready to see my mom?” I asked Clarke as I parked the car.

“Yeah, the last time I saw her was before she went to the hospital last year” she says with a smile.

“Okay. let's go” We went in and I took Clarke down to my mom’s room and there was my mom sitting on the bed watching tv and hooked up to tubes and wires. “Here we are, you sure you want to come in” I ask her.

“Yeah, I would love to see and talk to her again” 

“Really, you sure”

“Yes, now come on, she’s waiting”

“Okay” we walk in and my mom’s face lights up with joy. “Hey mom”

“Hey my baby boy, and hello Clarke, I haven’t seen you in forever” my mom says to her.

“Hey, yeah...how have you been?” Clarke asks her.

“In bed with cancer, but other then that I’m okay, so Bellamy are you taking me home today”

“No mom, you need to stay here until you get better, I know I’m not 18 and I can’t tell you what to do but if you come home you’re just going to get worse” 

“Bell, I’m tired...I can’t fight anymore, I want to come home and be your mom for as long as I can” she says.

“No mom, please fight you can beat this, they're trying a new drug that has had success on you next week, so please just keep fighting a little longer” I say trying not to break down. 

“Okay, I will for you and O...anyway Clarke are you finally dating my son”

“Um...no we’re just friends, but someday he will find someone who will be the luckiest gal in the world” Clarke says to my mother...did I just hear that right.

“You're right or maybe he has found her,” my mom says.

“What are you talking about mom?” I ask her.

“Nothing, can I talk to Clarke alone please”

“Umm, sure I guess” 

I left the room and all I could wonder is why she wanted me to leave so she could talk to Clarke, I hope she doesn’t try to hook me and her up.

Clarke’s P.O.V

“Bell, I’m tired...I can’t fight anymore, I want to come home and be your mom for as long as I can,” Aurora says to Bell.

“No mom, please fight you can beat this, they're trying a new drug that has had success on you next week, so please just keep fighting a little longer” he says trying not to break down. 

“Okay, I will for you and O...anyway Clarke are you finally dating my son”

“Um...no we’re just friends, but someday he will find someone who will be the luckiest gal in the world” I say trying not to blush.

“You're right or maybe he has found her,” my mom says.

“What are you talking about mom?” Bellamy asks her.

“Nothing, can I talk to Clarke alone please”

“Umm, sure I guess” he says and leaves.

I don’t know what to do but then she pats her bed and so I sit next to her, where is this going? “Why are you and my son not dating, because the last time I saw you, you never met him but knew you would hate him...now that you met him you two are very nice to each other what happened”

“Well I dated this guy who hurt me and Murphy kicked his ass, and Bellamy found me on a curb crying, and he made up this nickname for me in the process. Anyway he bought me dinner and we talked, he also went out of a relationship and we became friends and we talked a lot about a lot of different things” I explained to her.

“Wow, but I can tell you have feelings for him”

“How did you-”

“It’s the way you look at him, the same way I looked at Bellamy’s dad before he left”

“Oh, but I’m not ready to be with anyone right now”

“And that’s okay, have you guys ever-”

“Oh god no, we kissed a couple times but twice I pulled away and once he did”

“You didn’t let me finish, I was going to only ask if you guys ever kissed but now I know”

“Aurora, what should I do...every time I see him to be with him but I can’t be with him and it kills me but every time I get close I get scared” I asked her.

“You just need some time, keep talking to him and being friends with him and if you’re both single when you are ready then try to make something happen with him” she says giving me a smile. “We should get Bell back in here before he thinks we are talking about him”

“Knowing him, he already thinks that, but yes we should”

“Can you go get him”

“Yeah” I left the room and ran right into him, not watching where I was going. “Oh I’m sorry” he doesn’t say anything, he just lifts my chin and kisses me.

“I’m sorry I just had to,” he says.

“Don’t be, um but your mom wants you back in there and is it okay if I wait in the car” 

“Yeah, here’s the keys just don’t leave me here”

“I won’t” I say and walk out to the car. I can not believe that he kissed me and I didn’t pull away and neither did he but I’m not ready to be with anyone even if I want to.

Bellamy’s P.O.V

Clarke leaves my mom's room and doesn’t look where she is going and runs right into me and says “Oh I’m sorry” I don’t say anything back I just lift her chin and kiss her.

“I’m sorry I just had to,” I say to her.

“Don’t be, um but your mom wants you back in there and is it okay if I wait in the car” 

“Yeah, here’s the keys just don’t leave me here”

“I won’t”

She leaves and I go into my mom’s room to see how long I have to be here. “Hey mom,” I say to her.

“Hey my baby boy, where’s Clarke?” she asks.

“She’s waiting in the car, anyway what did you two talk about”

“Just girl stuff, why is she in the car”

“Okay first of all ‘just girl stuff’ is code for talking about me and she’s in the car because I kissed her”

“You did what”

“I kissed her and I don’t know what to do”

“You really like her don’t you?” my mom asks.

“I’m falling in love with her mom” I tell her.

“Have you told her that?”

“No but I did tell her I have feelings for her and she said she had them for me but she’s just not ready”

“Good, just give her time, all you can be is her friend and when she’s ready and if you’re both single then make something happen”

“Thanks mom, I’m going to go home and make sure Octavia isn’t having sex with her boyfriend” I tell her.

“Octavia has a boyfriend?” she asks.

“Yeah, anyway I love you and I’ll see you later”

“Okay I love you too my baby boy” 

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Chapter 17

Bellamy's P.O.V

“I was wondering if it was okay if Clarke stayed for the weekend?”

“I guess,” I say.

“Hey, I know she hurt you but she’s just not ready and trust me she likes you a lot...she’s falling for you hard she just needs time” she tells me, like I’m going to believe that.

“Right, she falling in love with me and I’m rich”

“I’m serious Bell, she is falling for you hard”

“I’ll believe it when I hear it from her”

“Fine be a jackass, I know she hurt you but you don’t realize that by you acting like this hurts her too, you can be an ass for all I care and I am going to go to bed and leave you out here to think about what you want and what you need and what you need is to get your head out of your ass” she says and storms out of the room.

Maybe she’s right, well right about me being an asshole, it did hurt when she backed off but I should be nice because she did just get out of a bad relationship. She can’t be falling for me. Come on, it's me, but I know I’m in love with her and I want to be with her even if it is for a short time.

Clarke’s P.O.V

The last thing I heard Octavia say before she stormed into the room was her calling Bellamy an ass and telling him to get his head out of his ass. About 2 hours later I was still awake and Octavia started kicking me and so I went into the living room where I found Bellamy on the couch running his hand through his hair like he was stressed about something.

“Hey, you okay?” I asked him

“Yeah, what are you doing up?” he asks me back.

“Couldn’t sleep, you?”

“My mom wants to come home and it feels like my world is falling apart”

“I think it’s great that your mom wants to come home but what do you mean about your world falling apart”

“I’m just stressed and my mom is still really sick and the hospital called me and told me to come in and talk to her tomorrow”

“Well I’m sorry, and I’m sorry about yesterday, I didn’t pull away because I don’t feel something for you because I do, I just got really scared”

“I understand, yeah it hurt but you just got out of a relationship and so did I, and right now we are in high school and you don’t believe in love so, it’s fine”

“It’s not that I don’t believe in love it’s just...when Lexa died I didn’t believe what she said and then Finn hurt me then I started to believed it...so if I don’t live by it I feel like I’m letting her down” I tell him while trying not to cry.

“Who’s Lexa?” he asks while putting his hand on mine.

“You know how I said my sister said Love was weakness” 

“Wait I just thought of this but if you had a sister doesn’t Murphy have 2?”

“No, well kinda but Lexa isn’t his sister, Anya is his half sister other than me. And before you ask, Kane had another child after Murphy that is not my moms, anyway Lexa was my dad’s first child and she killed herself when I was 13” I told him while not looking at him.

“Hey I’m sorry and no wonder you don’t like going home” he says.

“Yeah, the only reason I live there is because of Murphy, he’s the only one who wants me” 

“I want you”

“Bell...you’re sweet but I…”

“I know but it’s true I want you and you think you're nothing when you are everything and people want you, me, Octavia, the gang, Murphy, and even your dad before he died. Just because your mom is a Bitch along with her man slut and his daughter, and even spacewalker doesn’t mean you are nothing and it doesn’t mean you are unwanted”

Before I could stop myself my lips were on his and a simple kiss turned into a passionate one very quickly, the kiss sent my bones on fire and I didn’t want to stop but I knew I had to so I pulled away. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have but no one has ever said something that sweet to me that is so untrue”

“You think it’s untrue really, do you want me to get everyone together and ask them because I will” he says with a pissed off face.

“No, but I feel like I’m nothing, I just think…”

“Stop it, please it breaks my heart when you say this about yourself” 

“Bellamy I don’t…” he stops me by kissing me and this time I don’t pull away. We kiss for a few minutes then he pulls away.

“You are not nothing, and I’m sorry about what happened with your family and if you need to get away you always have the Blake's, okay?” he says.

“Can I move in then” 

He laughs and I hug him not wanting to let go, he made me feel safe and he hugs me back, having his arms around me makes it harder for me to not jump his bones even though I have never had sex before. He just makes me want a future with him because he listens and he is so kind to me when he doesn’t have to be at all but he is. 

“Why are you being so nice to me, I’m your little sister's annoying best friend” I asked him.

“You're not annoying, you are like the only one I know that I don't want to kill, and I’ve been beating myself up for falling for my little sister’s best friend” he says.

“You didn’t answer my question, why are you being so nice to me”

“Because I can”

“That’s not an answer”

“Yes it is because I said so”

“Really?” I ask with a sarcastic look on my face.

“Yes,” he says with a smile.

“I’m sorry about your mom”

“It’s fine, but I told her about you and she said that she remembers you and that you would be a perfect match for me”

“I hate to disappoint her”

“I have to see her tomorrow do you want to come with me, and yes Lincoln will be here tomorrow with O”

“In that case I would love to come”

We laugh about how much we hate it when Octavia is with Lincoln and how much we either want to kill them or ourselves. We talked for 2 and a half hours and when I looked at the time it was 3:30 in the morning, I can’t believe I have been talking to Bellamy Blake for 2 and a half hours straight, and I love talking to him, I also feel like I’m more best friends with him instead of O.

“We should get to bed, it’s 3:30am, and doesn’t it feel like we are closer friends than me and Octavia?” I asked him.

“Sometimes, but don’t tell Octavia about that,” he says. “And your right we should get to bed, goodnight Princess”

“Goodnight Bell” 

He goes to his room and I fall asleep on the couch and when I woke up Bellamy was in the kitchen making food. It was 11:30am and I can’t believe he is up and making food for me and Octavia, he is so amazing and it’s really hard to just be friends with him.

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Chapter 16

Clarke's P.O.V

Today I’m hanging out with Octavia and I really don’t want to see Bellamy after what happened yesterday but O really wants to hang out and I really owe her a girl's day so I staying the night. I know I probably won’t be able to sleep but it’s for Octavia so I’m willing to do it for her, even if I really don’t want to but it does beat staying in a house where I’m only wanted by my brother.

I got to Bellamy’s and Octavia’s after school and the only one there was Bellamy...great, “hey, O will be here soon” he says when he sees me.

“I can come back” I say.

“Nonsense, she’s just out with her boyfriend, she should be home soon”

“I don’t want to impose, I can just come back”

“Stop it, just stay, it’s good to have someone around that I don’t want to kill”

“Well I’m glad I’m not the one that you want to kill, how’s your mom?” 

“She’s doing okay but she’s not great”

“I’m sorry, when I met her she was very sweet” I say.

“Yeah she’s great, I just hope she can overcome this” he says to me while looking at the ground.

“I’m sure she will”

“Thanks”

Octavia then comes in with Lincoln and all I want to do is run away and never come back. She smiles at me and Lincoln then goes to talk to Bellamy, it’s weird between me and Bellamy and I wish it wasn’t but it is, but another thing I wish is that I could be with him.

“Hey sorry I wasn’t here when you got here, but Lincoln is staying for dinner and I hope you are okay with it” she says with the biggest smile on her face.

“Yeah, but can I talk to you about something serious?” I ask her.

“Yeah, what’s up?”

“Can we go out back”

“Yeah come on” We go outside and we sit out on the chairs out there and she looks at me with worry in her eyes and curiosity. “What’s going on?” she asks.

“Don’t get me wrong, I love being here with you but being here with Bellamy after what happened last night it’s hard because I have deep, deep feelings for him and being around him makes me want to forget everything Lexa told me before she died. I don’t know what to do” I say, trying not to cry.

“I understand, I can’t lose you as a friend…”

“What no, no, no, no I’m not going to stop being your friend, I’m just asking if you know what I should do”

“Oh thank god, I don’t know what you should do, I know Bell has feelings for you to and when he told me what happened last night he was crushed and I hate to see him like that but I also understand why you don’t want to be in the relationship, and why you don’t want to be with him”

“It’s not that I don’t want to be with him because I do but I don’t want to get hurt again and it’s high school anything can and could happen”

“You're right, anything can happen, but I’m taking that chance in Lincoln and I think you can take that chance with my brother” she says looking hopeful.

“I don’t know Octavia, what happened with Finn…I just want to wait awhile, and I know I probably hurt him and I didn’t mean to but when we kissed my heart felt like it was going to explode and it scared me a lot” I tell her, then Lincoln comes out and says dinner is ready and we than head inside.

I was quiet the whole time and I felt Bellamy’s eyes on me the whole time and all I could hear was Octavia giggling at whatever Lincoln said to her. I wanted to yell or run out of the house but I didn’t for O and sometimes I really hate how much I am a good friend, Bellamy wouldn’t stop staring at me at all and it kinda pissed me off but at the same time I had to try not to blush when I noticed him doing it.

Octavia’s P.O.V

The whole time at dinner Bell and Clarke never said a word to each other or us, I didn’t know what was going on with Bell other than him being hurt. After dinner and Lincoln left I went to my room with Clarke and she still wasn’t talking and I’m kinda worried now about it because when we are alone we are always talking.

“You okay?” I asked her.

“yeah...I’m fine,” she says.

“What’s wrong”

“Nothing, I’m just tired...I’m going to go to bed if that’s okay”

“Yeah, um maybe we can spend this whole weekend together”

“Yeah, if it’s okay with Bellamy,” she says.

“Okay, well get some sleep,” I tell her.

I go out to the living room where I find Bell is on the phone and he doesn't sound happy. “Okay...yeah...alright I’ll be there tomorrow...thank you” he says.

“Hey everything okay?” I asked him.

“Yeah, that was the hospital, mom wants to come home”

“But I thought…”

“Yeah, well she wants to be home”

“Okay, um is she coming home tomorrow”

“No monday, why”

“I was wondering if it was okay if Clarke stayed for the weekend?”

“I guess,” he says.

“Hey, I know she hurt you but she’s just not ready and trust me she likes you a lot...she’s falling for you hard she just needs time” I tell him hoping he will believe me.

“Right, she falling in love with me and I’m rich”

“I’m serious Bell, she is falling for you hard”

“I’ll believe it when I hear it from her”

“Fine be a jackass, I know she hurt you but you don’t realize that by you acting like this hurts her too, you can be an ass for all I care and I am going to go to bed and leave you out here to think about what you want and what you need and what you need is to get your head out of your ass” I say to him and leave the room.

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Chapter 15

Clarke's P.O.V

Instead of answering me Bellamy pulls me closer to him and puts his lips on mine, for a moment I didn’t kiss back but then I did and the feeling I got was the best thing in the world. he tilted his head to deepen the kiss and then he swipes his tongue across my bottom lip asking for entrance and I give it to him, the kiss lasts a few minutes then I pulled away.

“Bellamy…” I started to say.

“What?” he asks.

“I can’t...I can’t get hurt again, and I know you’re going to say you won’t hurt me but the truth is that you don’t know if you are going to...please just don’t ruin this friendship we have please”

“Why do you think I will hurt you”

“I don’t think you will I just don’t want to be hurt and if something happen and most likely it will because we are in high school I don’t only lose a significant other I also lose a friend and I don’t want that to happen”

“I understand where you are coming from but if you don’t open up your heart again then how will you ever be happy with someone in the future”

“Someone once told me Love was weakness and I didn’t listen to her and after she died I still thought that she was wrong and then I got hurt so I need you to understand that I am not ready to give my heart to anyone and I don’t want to lose a friend” I say.

“Your sister,” he says.

“Yeah…”

“Okay” We sat there quietly, I didn't know what to say at this moment and I was scared to say anything so I waited until he said something, I looked at his face and I knew I hurt him but I didn’t mean to. I just can’t get hurt or lose a friend and I just hope he understands that. “Do you want me to take you home?” he asks me.

“What time is it?” I ask him in return.

He looks at his phone then says “15 till 2:00am” that means it’s 1:45am.

“Yeah I should get home before Murphy gets even more pissed than he already is” I said before I realized what I said.

“Oh I forgot he was your brother”

“Yeah, now can you take me home?” I ask him.

“Yeah, of course come on”

Bellamy’s P.O.V

After I dropped Clarke back at home, I went home myself but when I got home Octavia was awake and waiting to interrogate me. Don’t get me wrong I love my sister but I hate it when she meddles in my love life or sometimes my life in general, I tried to just walk straight to my room but she stopped me before I got there. “Where have you been Bellamy Blake!!” she yells.

“Out, now can I go?” I asked her.

“No, who were you with”

“How do you know I was with someone?”

“Because I know you and I heard you on the phone with someone right before you left,” she says.

“It doesn’t matter, all that matters is that I’m home now” I tell her hoping she will leave me alone.

“You were with Clarke weren’t you”

“How the hell did you…”

“Because I know you having feelings for her”

“I kissed her”

“You kissed her, what happened, you seem sad”

“She kissed me back but then pulled away, and then she pretty much said that she wasn’t ready to be with anyone and that she didn’t want to wreck the friendship we have” I say trying not to break down.

“I’m sorry Bell, but she did just get out of a really bad relationship so I don’t blame her for wanting to wait” she says, wait did she say really bad relationship?

“What do you mean a really bad relationship?”

“She didn’t tell you...Finn used to hit her and he has tried to force her to sleep with him but luckily he didn’t get that far”

“What? Are you serious he tried to force her”

“Yeah, I’m surprised she didn’t tell you because of all the things you’ve talked about”

“It never came up, she told me about the hitting but that’s it”

Octavia finally let me go to bed and it’s about 2:45am, I go to bed but I can’t seem to fall asleep after what O told me. I can’t believe Clarke never told me about Finn tried to force her to sleep with him and now I have an even better reason to hate him and kick his ass, I have never liked spacewalker (Finn) and I never will, he has hurt many people and I know I was a player but the girls I slept with knew it was just sex and nothing else. Knowing that Clarke was hurt by him makes me want to kill him and she is not the only one I know he has hurt also my friend Raven witch I know Clarke knows her but they are not that close as far as I know.

Clarke’s P.O.V

Bellamy dropped me off and I kinda stayed outside for 15 minutes but then Murphy saw me through the window and I knew I was in trouble, oh I hope I can get out of this. He comes outside and practicly drags me inside and sits me down on the couch and he looks pissed, and I know I'm going to get a lecture from him.

“Where the hell were you!” he yells at me.

“Out, what's the big deal?” I ask him.

“Because it’s almost 2:00am and I told you to be home before 10:00pm”

“Your not my dad, I don’t have to listen to you, if I want to be out until 2:00am then I will, I know your worried about me and you care but you don’t have to be”

“Yes I do, you’re my baby sister and we are all each others got”

“No, you’re all I got but you have mom, the only reason I live here is because you forced her, she doesn’t care about me and neither does Kane, Kane’s only nice to me because of you. You are all I have left, my dad died right in front of me, you have people who want you and the only person who wants me is you”

“I’m sorry, but I’m always going to worry about you”

“I know but if I am out at 2:00am then you have to trust me that I’ll be responsible and I will make it home okay” I tell him, almost crying.

“Okay, but you were out with Blake and I don’t trust him with you” he says trying to calm me down.

“I know and he’s not a player anymore and we did kiss but I’m not ready to date and I told him I didn’t want to mess up the friendship we have created”

“Okay but I don’t want him to hurt you”

“I know, and I love you for it but can I go to bed now please”

“Yeah, see you in morning or afternoon”

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Bellarke- Love isn't weakness

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Chapter 14

Bellamy's P.O.V

Clarke and I were at our spot and as soon as she was out of the car she ran as fast as she could to the edge of the cliff, I was worried that she ran a little too fast and she would slip off the edge but she didn’t and when I saw her face she looked so free. I walked up behind her and put my hands on her lower back and when I did that I felt her relax at my touch, I thought back to everytime my skin touched her and how every time they touched she relaxed instantly. So when that happens it gives me a little hope that I can make her fall for me at one point, she is not like anyone I’ve ever met and I know that is cliché but it’s true, she is so sweet and kind but so quiet.

I saw her spacing out and I knew I couldn’t hide my feelings for her anymore. “What you thinking about Princess?” I asked her.

“Nothing, don't worry about it,” she says. I let go of her and I went to sit against a tree, looked at me when I let her go and I knew that she was probably wondering why I let go of her or why I put my hands on her back in the first place. “What’s wrong?” she asks me when she sits next to me.

“Nothing...just thinking,” I tell her.

“A penny for your thoughts”

“I’m thinking about you” I said before I even knew I said it.

“Why?” she asked.

“I can’t get you out of my head”

“Why, I’m not special if anything I’m nothing”

“You’re not nothing...ever since I found you on that curb alone and we got to talking I haven’t been able to get you out of my head”

“Why me, you could have anyone...you probably have had everyone and I just can’t…”

“You still think I’m a player don’t you” I interrupt her. 

“Well aren't you” she asks, trying to hold back tears that were trying to come down her face.

“No, when I got into a relationship with Gina I stopped being a player because I wanted to better then that I don’t want to be that person anymore”

“Why should I believe you”

“You shouldn’t but I want you to...have I ever told you a lie”

“Well no but how do I know you aren’t just saying this” 

Instead of answering her I pulled her closer to me and put my lips on hers, for a moment she didn’t kiss back but then she did and the feeling I got was the best thing in the world. I tilt my head to deepen the kiss and then I swipe my tongue across her bottom lip asking for entrance and she gives it to me, the kiss lasts a few minutes then she pulls away.

“Bellamy…” she starts to say.

“What?” I ask.

“I can’t...I can’t get hurt again, and I know you’re going to say you won’t hurt me but the truth is that you don’t know if you are going to...please just don’t ruin this friendship we have please”

“Why do you think I will hurt you”

“I don’t think you will I just don’t want to be hurt and if something happen and most likely it will because we are in high school I don’t only lose a significant other I also lose a friend and I don’t want that to happen”

“I understand where you are coming from but if you don’t open up your heart again then how will you ever be happy with someone in the future”

“Someone once told me Love was weakness and I didn’t listen to her and after she died I still thought that she was wrong and then I got hurt so I need you to understand that I am not ready to give my heart to anyone and I don’t want to lose a friend” she says

“Your sister,” I say.

“Yeah…”

“Okay” We sat there quietly, I get why she doesn’t want to open her heart up and I get why she doesn’t want to be with me but part of me just can’t help but feel hurt...maybe I was wrong about her liking me the way I do for her. “Do you want me to take you home?” I ask her.

“What time is it?” she asks me in return.

I look at my phone and it reads 1:45am “15 till 2:00am”

“Yeah I should get home before Murphy gets even more pissed than he already is”

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Bellarke- Love isn't weakness

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Chapter 13

Bellamy's P.O.V

I decided to see what Clarke was doing tonight because I was bored and I didn’t want to hang out with Octavia because I get tired of just hanging out with her all of the time. I texted her and then about an hour and a half later she called me.

*Phone call*

“Hello”

“Hey Bellamy, I got your text and I’m not doing anything tonight but if you are just trying to get me to hang out with you so you don’t have to deal with O and you want to make me then I don’t want to do anything”

“Calm down Princess, I was just thinking we can go to the small carnival that just opened with me”

“Sure”

“Really?”

“Yeah, why not”

“Okay so I’ll pick you up around 6:30ish”

“Sounds good, I’ll see you then”

“See you”

*End of phone call*

I can’t believe she said she would hang out with me tonight...I know it’s not a date but I kinda wish it was, anyway I think one reason why she is still closed off is because she thinks I’m still a player. I stopped being a player when I got into a relationship with Gina...she thought I had feelings for another and that I didn’t love her (well I didn’t love her yet because it was too soon) so she dumped me. It hurt but I understood why I guessed and if she didn’t I wouldn’t be as close to Clarke as I am now, I have developed feelings for my little sister's best friend how messed up is that.

I really hope I can get Clarke to let her walls down for me but knowing her it’s going to be harder than I think. Octavia wants me to do whatever it takes because she thinks if I can bring down her walls then maybe her and O could be closer but I just don’t think that is going to happen, it’s 6:25pm and I know Clarke only lives about 5 to 10 minutes away.

Clarke’s P.O.V

Bellamy arrives at my house at 6:30pm on the dot and I was really surprised that he did in the first place. I open the front door to leave and that’s when Murphy stops me, why does he always have to do this when I want to go somewhere he just appears.

“Where are you going?” he asks me.

“Out” I tell him.

“I can see that, where that’s what I’m asking”

“I’m going out with Bellamy Blake okay?”

“With Bellamy, that 2 timing player...I told you to stay away from him all he will do is hurt you and I can’t let that happen”

“It’s not a date, we are just going to a carnival, I know he will hurt me so I’m fighting whatever I feeling for him okay...Now can I please go”

“Okay, but be careful”

“I will, love you”

“Love you too”

I get into the car and he drives, we are silent but I like the silence. It's peaceful.  We are on the freeway and he hasn’t said a word to me but I don’t mind and at the same time I don’t want to talk because I’m afraid I’ll say something I’ll regret.

“What took you so long to get to the car?” Bellamy asks.

“Someone got in my way when I was going out the door,” I said to him.

“May I ask whom”

“No one important”

“I don’t believe you”

“You don’t have to”

“Well we are here, come on, lets go”

We leave the car and we start to walk in...all it was, was a small little carnival for either little kids or just some fun. Bellamy and I walk around and joke about everything we see or hear around us and it’s nice but I can’t fight the feelings I have for him for very much longer, everytime he says something or just smiles I can’t help but want to kiss him or jump his bones. He makes me happy but I can’t get hurt again, yeah I might be in high school but I have been through hell and some people might not believe that I have been through that but I have and no one really knows how much shit I have been through at all.

Today was one of the best days I’ve had in awhile and that is because of Bellamy, he made today better by just being who he is and I can’t thank him enough for it. He won me this little stuffed elephant that I love so much and by the time they closed we were tired and wanted to go home but I didn’t want to go home, I wanted to stay with him.

“Ready to go” he asks when we get back to the front gate.

“Yeah, but I don’t want to go home,” I tell him.

“Where do you want to go then”

“I don’t know, anywhere but home”

“Okay then”

We drive off and I have no idea where we are going and I don’t care, I know Murphy will be worried and be pissed when he finds out why I was out so long and why I didn’t go home when I told him I would be home by midnight. I just hope he doesn’t blame Bellamy for this because it was my idea to not go home and to go anywhere but home.

Before I knew it we were at Bellamy’s spot...well he liked to say it was our spot because he and I were the only ones who knew about it. Bellamy is so kind to me and it confuses me a lot because he is a player that only cared for himself...so I thought. We got out of the car and I ran to the edge and I think Bellamy was worried that I would fall because of how fast I ran up there, but I couldn’t help it. Standing at the edge made me feel alive, made me feel free for once in my life and I couldn’t get enough of the feeling it gave me, I then felt a pair of strong hands hit my lower back and all I wanted to do was melt into them. I felt so safe when I felt his hands anywhere on me even when it was just my hand, like earlier tonight we were walking around and I felt his hand over mine and without thinking I interlocked our fingers together as we walked. 

Bellamy pulled me closer to his chest and I knew I couldn’t hide my feelings for him anymore even though how many times I have told myself that Love was weakness it’s not working. “What are you thinking about Princess?” Bellamy asks me when he sees that I’m spacing out.

“Nothing, don’t worry about it” I tell him. He lets go of me and when he does all I want is to feel his touch once again but I know if I ask for it then something will go wrong. I can’t hide behind lies anymore, I keep telling myself that I can’t be falling in love with my best friend's brother but that is just lying to myself because the truth was that I was falling in love with Bellamy and I couldn’t stop it from happening.

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Bellarke- Love isn't weakness

Ao3, FF

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Chapter 12

Bellamy's P.O.V

“What are you writing princess?” I ask when I see her put her book down.

“The story of my life” she tells me.

“Is it for school”

“No, it’s too sad for that, but some of the things Murphy doesn’t even know about so…”

“Would you let me read it?”

“Maybe one day, I have to get home...I’ll see you later”she says and gets up to leave.

“Yeah I’ll see you later” I say as she leaves.

Something is going on with her and I want her to be able to come to me when she needs to talk to someone, I know she has been hurt by so many people in her life and I just want to be the one to hold her and make her believe that everything will be okay. I have deep feelings for Clarke and when O said that she didn’t mind if me and Clarke dated, I was happy and yet nothing has happened because I know if I asked her out she will say she is not ready to be in a relationship and to be honest neither am I. Of course I have feelings for her but only one person who knows is O and she just wants me to be happy, I was on the couch and the only thing that is on my mind is Clarke writing in that damn book. I’ve noticed that she takes that book everywhere she goes and she is always writing. I know it’s not a diary but it’s some kind of journal maybe about her life. 

Clarke’s P.O.V

Bellamy keeps wanting to know what I have been writing in my book but if he knew what I was writing I think he would give me pity then hate me because I talked about him being a player and how I don’t want to get my heart broken. I do have feelings for Bellamy but I have to listen to Lexa and somehow make up how I treated her before she died, Love is weakness and I have to stick by having only one love in my life and that is the love I have for Murphy and only him. 

*in Clarke’s journal*

Back to the fact of my feelings for Bellamy Blake and how I want to have him be with me and no one else. And I want to be able to tell him about my past and for him to understand that I am the way I am because of how I grew up, but I don’t want his pity and if he knows and doesn’t give me pity then maybe I can see a future with him. 

That will never happen but I wish it would...he’s a good friend and if he wasn’t a player then maybe he would be a good person for me to be with...just maybe. Being around him makes me happy and safe for some reason, having him around keeps me sane I guess you could say. Bellamy Blake is so sweet and kind to me and it makes me feel even more for him then I already do, I don’t know why he is sweet to me and kind and I just can’t be sure he won’t just want me because he thinks I can give him a good time. 

He can have anyone he wants and yet he is being so sweet to me and I didn’t even do anything to him for him to be nice or anything like that. Sometimes he confuses me as to what he wants or why he does some of the things he does, maybe I should talk to Octavia about it or maybe even Murphy because Murphy and Bellamy are like best friends. Bellamy is probably wondering why Murphy is so protective of me but there’s a reason why people don’t know Murphy is my brother, people don’t know because Murphy is not the best person so when it comes to the law so as to prevent people thinking I’ll do the same thing we didn’t tell people we were related. 

So when people see Murphy protecting me they think we are either together or sleeping together which is disgusting because he is MY BROTHER of all people...and I bet Bellamy thinks the same thing knowing him. Sitting alone at home gets people thinking that maybe there is more to life than what high school shows us and teaches us over the years...life is more about what they put in movies and what they say and teaches us in school no matter what grade you are in. 

I’m hoping that Bellamy will change within this last year of high school.

*End of the writing*

After writing what I’ve been feeling I chose to take a nap because writing made me tired, after about an hour and half of sleeping I got up and looked at my phone. I had 2 texts from Bellamy and 6 from Octavia.

(B=Bellamy, O=Octavia, C=Clarke)

B- hey I was wondering what you were up to.

B- tonight?

O- Clarke, Bellamy is being mean and won't tell me what's wrong with him

O- can you ask him what’s wrong with him?

O- Please.

O- CLARKE ANSWER ME PLZ.

O- I’m sorry for texting so much but Bell is pissing me off

O- help me.

After reading all of O’s texts I decided to call Bellamy to see why he was wondering what I was doing tonight. I have nothing to do like always so why not go somewhere with the one person I like hanging out with the most other than Octavia, don’t get me wrong I love hanging out with O but sometimes she is a little too much for me to handle within one week. 

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Silvermist

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Love isn't weakness: A Bellarke Fanfic

Ao3, FF

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Chapter 11

Bellamy’s P.O.V

In the morning I wake up to the sound of Octavia trying to sneak in, I leave my room and when I see O I clear my voice and she jumps. “What the hell Bellamy?” she says.

“So where were you really last night?” I ask her.

“With Raven and Harper”

“No you weren't because Raven called me last night and asked if you were home”

“Damn it”

“Where were you?” I asked again.

“Out” she says.

“Octavia Blake, while mom is in the hospital I am your caretaker and I want to know where you were last night and why you are sneaking in so early in the morning”

“I was with Lincoln okay”

“Why”

“We went on a date and...by the time it was over I was so tired so I crashed at his place...nothing happened though” she explains. 

“Are you dating him?” I asked her.

“Yeah, please don’t go all protective big brother, I know you want to protect me but I really like him and I don’t want you to scare him off”

“I can’t promise anything, oh and Clarke is here sleeping in your room, she stayed last night”

“Did you…”

“No, but I woke up around 1:00am and she was out here in the living room looking out the window, she told me about a dream she had and how she was afraid that it would come true yet at the same time she wanted it to happen, so I told her to go bed”

“You are very sweet and thank you for telling her to go to bed, I’m going to go check on her”

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Octavia’s P.O.V

I went to my room where I saw Clarke was half awake because her phone went off, I went over to her and sat on the bed and this woke her up all the way. “Hey, you’re home,” she says.

“Yeah, and Bell knows, Raven called and asked if I was home so he knew I wasn’t with them but he trusted and knew I would take care of myself so he didn’t freak out as much” I told her.

“Well he never asked me but you know I probably would have told him if he was so worried about you”

“I know”

“Where’s Bellamy?” she asks.

“In the kitchen making food, it’s 10:45 so he should almost be done with breakfast” I tell her. She nods and goes into the bathroom to take a short shower and get dressed. I can tell just by the way she talks about my brother that she has feelings for him even if she doesn’t want to admit to herself. I go in the living room and Bellamy is in the kitchen doing god knows what and when Clarke comes out I saw his face light up like a Christmas tree.

“Good morning Princess, you getting any sleep?” he asks her.

“Morning, umm… yeah a bit thanks” she says back trying to hide her blush.

From the time I met Clarke to when she met my brother she seems a bit happier but something is keeping her from showing him what she truly feels. I want her and my brother to be happy but I’m just afraid that what happened last time will happen again...but I hope it won’t.

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Clarke’s P.O.V

I noticed Octavia watching me and Bellamy and I know what she's thinking, she wants to know why I don’t go for my chance at happiness but as I said before I can’t take that risk again...I can’t take the risk of getting my heart broken again because Love is Weakness. Don’t get me wrong I like Bellamy but he’s a player and that just means I’ll end up with my heart broken once again, Bellamy and I work as friends for now and I hope for a while. 

*in Clarke’s journal*

Bellamy is a player which means that he goes from girl to girl to girl and doesn’t think of the consequences and that I will not be a part of. He is sweet now but once he gets what he wants he will treat me like the rest of the sluts he sleeps with, yeah I know calling all those girls sluts is mean but most of them are, there are some that aren't sluts and I feel bad for them because they end up sleeping with him before making it official or talking about what will happen and they get their heart broken just like I did. One thing I did differently was I would talk to them before anything happened, I wouldn’t sleep with Finn and that’s one reason why he cheated on me. I am only in 11th grade I’m not ready for that...I’m only 16 years old...6 months younger than Bellamy. Bellamy was held back in school that's why he is in the same grade as me and O.

I can’t be another one of those girls that falls for Bellamy Blake ends up sleeping with him and getting my heart broken. One thing that O told me about was that Bellamy lost his virginity this year at a party my brother hosted and part of me hates Murphy for it but the other part just wishes that he didn’t throw the party in the first place. Maybe just maybe if Murphy didn’t host that party Bellamy wouldn’t be a player right now, and I want to yell and blame my brother for what Bellamy became but I can’t because I think he would have become a player it’s just a coincidence it happened at the party my brother had. Lexa was right about everything and there is nothing I can do to let her know how sorry I am for not believing her sooner. After what happened with Finn I realized that she was right and I needed to listen to what she told me before she died. I am not taking a chance at having my heart broken again. Lexa was my older sister and when she died I stopped talking… to everyone, the day she died she told me to never fall in love because love is a weakness and it will only end in heartbreak. Murphy is my brother yes but Lexa and Murphy are not siblings whatsoever. 

My mom had an affair with our neighbor and my dad fell in love with a woman and had a little girl but that was before I was born, same with the affair my mom had. My dad was in love with someone else before he met my mother and when he met my mother he fell for her, the other woman I guess died and my dad thought this was his last chance at happiness. 2 years after my mother and father married, my mother had an affair with the neighbor...his name was Kane. Marcus Kane. My mother then had a baby boy and my father thought it was his because he didn’t know about the affair until after I was born, I know my mom didn’t want me but my dad did and that's all I needed. When I was 10, Murphy was 11, and Lexa was 21...my dad died and I was there...we were on our way home when we got in a hit and run accident. I saw my dad take his last breath then everything went black, I was in the hospital for 2 months in a coma. 

The doctors thought at first there was a chance of me not waking up but then I did, one thing I didn’t mention is that it felt like my mother had left me when I was 5 so with no one to take care of me, me and Murphy went with Marcus Kane. Lexa killed herself when I was 13 because the man she was in love with hurt her and she couldn’t live anymore... She was trying to get us out of the care of my mother and Kane but sadly she failed because the court wouldn’t give her custody because of her drug problem. And all I can think about was that she was right and I should have listened to her when I had the chance the first time.

*end of the writing*

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“What are you writing princess?” Bellamy asks when he sees me put my book down.

“The story of my life” I tell him.

“Is it for school”

“No, it’s too sad for that, but some of the things Murphy doesn’t even know about so…”

“Would you let me read it?”

“Maybe one day, I have to get home...I’ll see you later” I say and get up to leave.

“Yeah I’ll see you later” he says as I leave.

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Love isn't weakness: A Bellarke Fanfic

Ao3, FF

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Chapter 10

Bellamy’s P.O.V

After school I take Clarke to my secret spot and every time I take her there she seems more free. Every time I look at her I know I feel something for her, every time I hear her laugh it makes me smile, and every time she smiles I know how much I am falling for her. She looks so peaceful sitting at the edge of the cliff and I know that not a thing in the world could harm her.

“You okay Princess” I asked her.

“Yeah, it's so peaceful out here, thanks for showing me this place,” she says.

“Your very welcome and you are the only one who knows about this place not even Octavia knows about it”

“Really” 

“Yeah”

“Why, this place is beautiful and why not your sister”

“Because when I found this place it became mine and I didn’t want anyone to know about it, and my sister would tell all her friends then it wouldn’t be my place… well our place now I guess” I explained to her.

“You really want to call it our place?” she asks.

“Yeah, why not?”

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*couple hours later*

A couple hours later and we are still at the cliff, she has a smile on her face and I can’t take my eyes off of her, her smile is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen. “Ready to go Princess?” 

“I guess, but I wish I could stay here forever,” she says.

“Yeah, well you can’t and if you are not home soon, Murphy will not be happy” 

“Yeah I know, how about I stay at your house tonight and I’ll tell Murphy I’m with Octavia so he doesn’t kick your ass” 

“If you want to but you know how O is when you don’t tell her your coming over”

“I know, but I don’t care” 

“Okay” 

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Clarke’s P.O.V

“I’ll text him on the way to your place. Also, I never told you how sorry I am that your mom is in the hospital” I told him.

“It’s not your fault , it’s okay, I hope she is going to be fine” he says.

M= Murphy and C= Clarke

C- hey can I ask you something

M- yeah what’s up

C- is it okay with you if I stay at Octavia’s, I know that I don’t need your permission but I wanted it.

M- sure, but stay away from Bellamy Blake.

C- why?

M- because he is not a good person for you to be around.

C- like you?

M- shut up and stay away from him.

After Murphy sent me the last text I started laughing at it and I know Bellamy was confused as to why I was. “What?” he asked.

“Murphy being Murphy” I say to him

“What did he say”

“He told me to stay away from you but I asked him why then he said because you’re not a good person for me to be hanging around then I told him like you… he then told me to shut up and stay away from you” 

“Wow”

“Yep” 

We arrive at his house and I go to his room to get changed into something more comfy to sleep in, I’m sleeping on the couch and O has no idea that I am here because she is with “friends” aka her boyfriend Lincoln (don’t tell Bellamy).  Bellamy thinks that Lincoln is just Octavia’s friend but he asked her out a couple weeks ago and she said yes...he asked her out even though he was threatened not to...he didn’t care because he really likes Octavia.

After I was done getting changed I went into the living room and sat by the window, Bellamy came into the room 5 minutes later and sat next to me. “Why are you not with O and the other girls?” he asks.

“Well Raven is there and she doesn’t really like me remember...and we are always around each other so…” I told him.

“Okay...you can sleep in O’s room”

“Okay thank you, I would’ve been okay out here”

“No, she's not here so why not sleep in a real bed”

“Okay then”

Bellamy then goes to his room and I make myself some tea, after that I sit back at the window and think about how I can’t fall for Bellamy even though I kinda have. He is always flirting and I can’t help but smile at him because I don’t want it to stop but Love Is Weakness.  

I go to bed and I try to fall asleep but I can't because my mind keeps running and I keep thinking of Bellamy and his charming face. I look at the clock and I see that it is 11:35pm and I’m wide awake, unable to sleep, tossing and turning and not able to fall asleep. I go to the living room and sit by the window again, looking at the stars.

1:00am and I’m still unable to sleep and I’m still sitting at the window looking at the stars, then I hear Bellamy’s door open but I don’t look up at all. “What are you doing up, princess?” he asks when he sees me sitting by the window.

“Couldn’t sleep,” I told him.

“Why not”

“Don’t know” I lied to him.

“Well, do you want some tea?” he asked me.

“Sure, I would love some” About 10 minutes later he comes back with two mugs of tea and sits next to me, we sit in silence and then I feel him staring at me. “What?” I ask him.

“Nothing, just you look tired...why can’t you sleep and don’t tell me you don’t know, tell me the truth please” he says.

“Because of the dream I had the other night and I don’t want to have another one” 

“Was it a nightmare?”

“No, more like a dream I want to happen in real life but I’m too afraid of it because I don’t want to get hurt”

“Okay...well you need sleep so just remember it was dream most likely it won't happen but there is a chance it will”

“That’s what I’m afraid of...I don’t yet I do want it to happen...I don’t know what to do or think, yeah I get it, it was just a dream but it scares me and I don’t know what to do” I explain to him.

“I know what you should do...go to bed” he says.

“Fine, I’ll go to bed”

“Good”  I go to bed and I end up having a dream.

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*In dream*

We sat there and then his hand lightly touched my face and then our lips connected and I felt my heart on fire. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled me closer to him as I moved closer to him as much as possible.  We pull apart and I smile at him, and he smiles at me then I lean against him.

“I can’t believe it took me 2 months to get you to fall for me,” he says.

“Can I tell you something?” I asked him, he nods and I continue “I fell for you the day I met you”

“Are you serious, I fell for you the day I saw you and it took me forever to come up to you, then our break ups happened and you were alone so...I came up to you” 

“You're sweet, and we’ve been dating for 3 weeks and it's been the best 3 weeks ever and…”

“Are you breaking up with me?” 

“No, no, no, no, I wanted to say I love you” I said really fast.

“You what?” he asks.

“I love you”

“I love you too, more than you know”

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Bellamy and I were at his house lying on the couch and then Octavia comes in and her jaw drops and she’s speechless. “Are you two...to...together?” she somehow was able to ask.

“Maybe?” Bellamy hesitates to say.

“Are you okay?” I asked her.

“Why have you never told me about this!” she starts to yell.

This Is Not Good.

Bellamy and I look at each other and then he speaks up. “We never told anyone because we didn’t or want anyone to know...we wanted just us and so we hid it from everyone...but I’m surprised no one knew because we didn’t exactly hide it” he says.

“Well I’m your sister and she's my best friend, you should have told me about this” she says.

“I’m standing right here” I say to her.

“I know, please tell me why you didn’t tell me you were dating my brother”

“Because we didn’t want anyone to know so if we told you, you would have told everyone else then we would have been pissed at you”

“Why date my brother then?”

“I’m standing right here,” Bellamy says.

“I’m dating your brother because I fell in love with him and everything is better when I am with him, you said you were okay if we saw each other so 2 months later he asked me and I said yes. Your brother is the best thing that’s happened to me and I don’t care if you don’t approve because I love him” I explained to her.

She walks off and Bellamy gives me a look that says ‘what did you just do’  I shrug it off and go into the kitchen to get some food for Bell and I. “Why did you say all that to her?” he asks when I return.

“Because she needed to know how I feel about you and why we hid it from everyone” I told him.

“Is that how you really feel about me?”

“Why would I lie about that… of course that’s how I really feel about you, if it wasn’t I wouldn’t have said it” 

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*that night*

Bellamy and I were lying in bed when he climbed up on top of me and started kissing my neck, I didn't stop him and instead I took off his shirt and he pulled off mine. He gives me a look like he is asking for permission and I give him a look saying it’s okay. Things started to heat up even more and quicker than anything. We were both naked and he dug into me, I tried to hold my moan in but I couldn’t and I let it out as he pushed harder into me. 

At this moment everything is perfect.

At this moment nothing could be wrong.

*even later that night*

After having sex with Bellamy, I laid there not wanting anything else to happen other then what we just did for the rest of my life...then it hit me...what will Murphy do when he finds out about me and Bellamy?

*end of dream*

I wake up to my phone going off and the first thing that hits my mind is…’ I had dream sex with Bellamy’ shit.