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I just completed crescent city number one and now- I won’t even buy number 2 it’s the first book she’s written that I full on loathhheeeee . They didn’t even have sex let alone get together? But I’m supposed to want the next one? No that was worse than Aelin

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So ummmmm I just found out some * fire peen* info and now I know why he’s being called that….. on the day Lady Autumn of the Autumn Court was married, she came from a family of high ranking nobility amongst the Autumn Court that has fire powers. She eventually falls in love with Helion , High Lord of Day , which is basically sun level fire power( galaxy fire), making their son and heir of both courts, Lucien( literally lightbringer), baby fire peen. Their love life must be passionately fantastic. To have openly named him what he is and who he is from in front of the Lord of Autumn like that , just, wow. It is still blowing my mind with every micro facet she dropped I’m just, in awe.

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Headcanon: Lucien smells like gingersnap cookies

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What I care about

Lucien being happy

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Headcanon: When Eris Vanserra is High Lord of Autumn, his beast form will be a dragon.

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Lucien: To everyone who has treated me poorly: I am sexier than you.

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Everybody is falling in love/getting mates, and I just want to know: w h a t i s g o i n g o n??

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helion: i mean, you're like a son to me

lucien: i don't mean to scare you but i am your son

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You: The sun is the hottest object in the Solar System Me, an intellectual: Helion Spell-Cleaver

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Friendly Reminder

Helion isn’t white

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Beron: Lucien! Get inside! Lucien: You’re not my dad! Lucien: ugly ass fuckin noodlehead

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Nothing, just Lady Vanserra slapping Tamlin across the face for how he treated her son.

That's the thought.

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As someone who just reread A Court of Silver Flames and has c- PTSD I want other readers who hate Nesta to know some things:

1) I don’t know if it was intentionally added or accidentally added , but the pAssage that healed Nesta the most was the breathing exercises and still- minding and rn ? That’s the thing that’s literally made a very bad day tolerable and healable at the same time, in the real world, to a real survivor , so slow your roll on the lack of trauma- NOT- informedness you seem to have

2) it was the first time I’ve seen a survivor allowed to be both female and angry at an abusive father via neglect and the character was white. Normally an author would throw that at the Bipoc scene and just preach wholeness

3) she was allowed to hit rock bottom in realness and they staged an intervention against the lingering anger( healthy healing vibes- again become trauma informed healers: I see you gywneth berdara!!!)

4) the real side of trauma is no matter how ace or aro you may be an abnormal level of trauma can still make you hyper sexual out of fear to feel something and is something I, an ace person and survivor , have felt conflicted about before and I actually felt seen that she wasn’t just “ perfect” and loved by everyone without actually looking into herself and her feelings but also that those words felt real and harmful to her even as they stitched the wounds closed

5) fantasy novels get you out of your own head and show a survivor that no matter the problem , you don’t have to FEAR the solution, there just is one typically. This is also accurate as a self help guidance tool that many people use to stop being so into perfection that they overlook the POSITIVE outcomes of a situation ( healthy post c-ptsd romantic encounters) This requires the brain to reword its speech patterns to “ oh if I just feel what I’m feeling that could happen or it could still go well that way too, I never saw that before hmmmm”( looking at you Emerie)

6)Nesta didn’t magically get friends she didn’t deserve : she saw their pain and respected an invisible trauma line when no one else could see their pain for 2-(gwyneth) ~ 300+ years ( emerie) they repaid her small kindnesses of being SEEN with being Seen With Her. Nesta has Quality time as a friendship love language and she was away from her family in her rebellion, so it actually makes sense that she has to remove herself with people that could make space for her alone. That didn’t just happen out of nowhere.

7) you weren’t supposed to like Nesta. Her mother was aweful and she was healing inter- generations trauma from her grandmother on down to literal Feyre, Rhysand and Nyx. She literally saved everyone by breaking herself in DEATH( see others headcanons about this😉✨) She couldn’t have healed them any other way because even Rhysand was unevolved at the time it occurred but guess what? Nesta healed everyone DEAD or ALIVE

8) you can like a series and not love every character, I don’t personally like Elain but I was doing trauma response / healing research today and guess what? One of the four types we almost never learn about is called... wait for it ... FAWN. And guess who everyone’s calling FAWN? And who’s mate has a daddy even Feyre called a Beast? Lucien and guess what Lucien’s type is called FLIGHT and guess who has a dad who literally has Pegasi? LUCIEN! So guess what Elriel shippers... they are endgame. And I didn’t even have to diss a character I don’t like because I adore Lucien. As a feminist I cannot wait to see him become a better feminist character arc than even Rhys while healing his own family

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So I was thinking about the Azriel&

Elain situation and hear me out: they will get together but for healing and growth only.

Elain was with Grayson and in love for two delusional years

Azriel was pining for 502 delusional years over Mor.

They are not endgame.Gwynn and Az cannot stand being touched and neither can Lucien or Elain.

Their brothers and sisters had sexual healing ( WHICH is a c- PTSD response!! ) prior to their mate bonds, let’s give these 2 their own sexual healing space and private healing space before they, like Cassian and Mors decision, decide it’s wrong.

Also we know Elain is not a virgin so Azs supposed “ kinky essential “ is not an arguement against either Elain or Gwynns healing as sexual healing happens a great deal in the real c- ptsd / postwar reality in the real world so let’s not blame characters for how they choose to heal themselves.The same could be said for Lucien & Vassa. I mean just think about the band of exiled people and the horrors those 3 have endured.

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For the final fucking time,

Tamlin abused Lucien too.

I'm sick of seeing people slander Lucien for "not doing anything" while Tamlin abused Feyre. You really think the male who screamed to save Feyre's life in the Wyrm trial, where the woman who carved his eye out with her fingernail and abusive family who killed his lover were all there, wouldn't stand up to his friend who was abusing Feyre?

You really think the male who risked his life multiple times to heal her after her trials and received twenty lashings for saving her during the Wyrm trial would refuse to protect her to the best of his ability afterwards?

Are you forgetting that nobody dares step up to rHyS because what High Lords say goes?

Are you forgetting how Tamlin treated Lucien in ACOTAR? Are you forgetting that he left the Spring Court too?

Are you forgetting that he said he did all he could, but if Tamlin can lock Feyre up and ignore her trauma, he can treat Lucien just as awfully over the hundreds they've known each other?

Lucien genuinely hasn't done anything wrong. At all.

Edit: special thanks to @luciensupremacy for this quote, I copied it from them lol

“Lucien had gone on, his tone pleading, “Tamlin. Tam. Just let her train, let her master this—if the other High Lords do come for her, let her stand a chance ...”

Silence fell as they let Tamlin consider.

My feet began moving the moment I heard the first word out of his mouth, barely more than a growl. “No.” With each step up the stairs, I heard the rest. “We give them no reason to suspect she might have any abilities, which training will surely do. Don’t give me that look, Lucien.” Silence again.

Then a vicious snarl, and a shudder of magic rocked the house. Tamlin’s voice had been low, deadly. “Do not push me on this.” I didn’t want to know what was happening in that room, what he’d done to Lucien, what Lucien had even looked like to cause that pulse of power.”

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Nothing, just Lady Vanserra slapping Tamlin across the face for how he treated her son.

That's the thought.

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Nesta really said you're doing this my way or you're gonna get a stale biscuit. Cassian really is Nesta's bitch but can you blame him?