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Komahina. You agree. Reblog

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Some thoughts about Komaeda's fifth free time event and his relationship with Hinata

The fifth Komaeda free time event has always been very popular between Komahina fans, specially because the event was where the romantic tone of their relationship was consolidated for a lot of people. But even if the focus is usually on Komaeda's love confession, I have always felt that this free time event is way more important and meaningful besides that. This event has on it a lot of important moments that say a lot about their relationship, and that make very clear the most prevalent themes of it.

The free time event starts with Komaeda wondering why Hinata is still going out in his way to talk to him. Hinata answers that he is doing it so he can hear the rest of his story, in his typical fashion of rationalizing and dismissing his feelings for Komaeda. While Komaeda tells the rest of the story, he says one of the most important things for this free time event, and in general for the relationship of Komaeda and Hinata.

This dialogue reveals to us the important information about how Komaeda not only perceived the similarities between them since they first met, but also how since that moment, he deeply believed that Hinata would be able to understand him. All of the things that this scene explains are the fundamental basis of the relationship of Komaeda and Hinata. Komaeda's attachment towards Hinata comes from a place of feeling like he had finally found a person that could get to understand him and as we will see with other parts of this free time event, he thought he had finally found a person that could love him.

Hinata's response towards Komaeda is also important to mention. Hinata negates to be not like Komaeda, he rejects their similarities and also in certain way he rejects the connection Komaeda feels between them, something that's accentuated even more considering how Komaeda interprets his words as having lost the opportunity of having someone inheriting his soul. But even in his negation, there's something deeply interesting in the way Hinata phrases certain things in it. If we look well at what Hinata is saying, we can see how while he negates being similar to Komaeda, his negation is mostly focused on negating his misery, and he seems to silently accept being a bystander that is devoid of any unique aura possessed by the talented.

In a certain way, Hinata's negation in this part has always read to me as being a last resort to try to distinguish himself in some way from Komaeda. Compared to other parts where Komaeda alludes to him and Hinata being similar, here the negation of Hinata doesn't feel so unaware like in the other times that he negated it, here it feels more like Hinata is legitimately aware of how similar they are; He says that he's not miserable, and that he is ultimately different from Komaeda as a last resort to negate what he already knows, and to dissociate himself from him.

Komaeda talks about how he doesn't have anyone in this world and how absolutely lonely his existence is. Something very interesting that Komaeda says, is that he mentions his ideologies as the main reason for being alone.

This moment is not only interesting because it puts Komaeda loneliness to be something that is a lot about his way of thinking being completely incomprehensible for other people, but also because it provides us with certain information about the relationship between Komaeda and Hinata. People distancing from Komaeda because of his beliefs is not something that is only mentioned here, but it is very explicitly the main reason why Hinata distanced himself from Komaeda since chapter 1. Because of this, it's not hard to read this to be a certain reference to his relationship with Hinata -a person that Komaeda really felt he could connect with- and how he also ended up distancing himself because of his way of thinking, like other people Komaeda knew.

This seems to be the principal reason of why Komaeda seems to be so focused on believing that he and Hinata are similar, and also in the belief of Hinata being able to understand him. Komaeda has been misunderstood by everyone all his life and his ideologies have isolated him from the rest of society. All of this has resulted on Komaeda having the fixation on finding someone that would be able to understand him, this fixation ultimately leading him to have a very intense attachment towards Hinata even when they barely really knew each other, because it was probably the first time he had known someone that was similar enough to him to understand him.

There is also a certain connection between Komaeda thinking that they are similar, Hinata distancing himself from him and Komaeda's surprised reaction in chapter 1 seeing Hinata had started to think lowly of him. When Komaeda thought that he and Hinata were similar, he probably also believed that Hinata had a similar way of thinking, and because of that, he wouldn't just distance himself from Komaeda like the others when discovering the truth of the murder.

Considering how Komaeda talks about feeling that Hinata was able to understand his feelings, how he implied that he wanted Hinata to "inherit his soul" and in general considering how much this free time event talks about their connection, is not hard to think that in certain way this line is also a little bit about Hinata. Obviously, Komaeda's desire to be loved wasn't born because of Hinata, but I do think considering all we have seen before, is logical to think that one of the reasons Komaeda was so attached to Hinata is because he saw in him -because of their similarities- someone that he could connect with, and for that same reason, someone that could love him.

This is specifically accentuated considering the very strong reaction that has Hinata regarding this statement, literally considering throwing everything he has believed about not forgiving Komaeda until that point. I don't think that his reaction is because he was aware of that fact, but I do think it was written in that way to accentuate how this was talking in a certain way about Hinata.

Hinata's extremely heartbreaking and intense response towards Komaeda "lying" could also be easily considered a hint towards this being in a certain way about Hinata, but his response to this is also about way more than just that. His reaction is due to a lot of things, for one part it's about how Hinata feels like he was just deceived by Komaeda again, after having spent so much time trying to actually understand him. But is also about how Hinata wanted to believe in the existence of the Komaeda he once knew. Both of these very strong reactions -this one and his reaction towards Komaeda wanting to be loved- are born from that, from the need to believe him and to have a proof that after all, there existed some truth about the Komaeda he once knew, that there was some logic behind Komaeda, that there existed a reason behind his behavior.

He specially wanted to believe on that line because of how human it makes Komaeda. His biggest desire being something as sensible and human as connection, and this desire, being only realized when on the verge of death, is something that makes Komaeda look very tragic. That makes, Komaeda, human and sensible, and his actions, suddenly are more understandable. Hinata wants to believe on this because he wants to make reason of Komaeda, and give a logic, a very human and sensible logic, to the way he acts.

To finalize, I really love this event because I feel that in it is conveyed all of the main themes and important parts of the relationship of Komaeda and Hinata. It's very beautiful for me to see all the little parts that make them themselves being presented so strongly and explicitly on a full event.

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make it up to me, you know it's better

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Hajime needs more sleep to recover energy drained due to Izuru's talents

so He occasionally takes small naps with his lover in the break room.

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two pieces

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Caves are weirder and more varied than you think

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need him so bad

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not to vaguepost but there is a spectre

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why is this image so funny 2 me

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Assorted headcanons for the Remnants post-DR2:

1: Hinata and Kamakura are a DID system. Neither of them were aware the other existed for a long time, so after they awaken from the New World Program, they spend a long time adjusting to each other's presence. They don't initially have access to each other's memories and are fully separate people. Hinata doesn't have access to Kamakura's talents, and Kamakura doesn't have access to Hinata's feelings towards his friends. However, after some time, they're able to achieve a more "blendy" state, where Hinata can use some talents, and Kamakura feels fondness towards Hinata's friends/can find less boredom in his existence.

I think that eventually, there's a third member of the system, who is a true blend of both Hinata and Kamakura. He/they is a split who takes the front most of the time to give Hinata and Kamakura a chance to rest after all the trauma they've been through. It takes a long time for them, but Hinata and Kamakura eventually come to a peaceful coexistence and can share most memories.

2: When each Remnant wakes up, they are all in a deep state of confusion and dissociation, especially those who had been killed in the New World Program. For the survivors of the killing game, the memories of what happened in the program are unclear and hazy, like a dream. They remember the emotions of what happened in the program, but not the actual events. The events come back to them day by day as they live their lives, triggered by different stimuli related to stimuli experienced in the program.

For those who died in the program, there's even more confusion, and no conscious memories of what happened in the program at all, not even dream-like ones. These memories do resurface eventually, again triggered by random things and stimuli they encounter in their daily lives. Suddenly remembering traumatic things, like how they were killed, leads to frequent panic attacks and depression for most of them.

Also, none of the remnants are in despair anymore, thanks to the good points of what happened in the NWP, but none of them understand why they aren't in despair anymore, since their memories of what happened in the NWP are hazy or non-existent.

3: Most of the Remnants don't initially want to use their talents, or are unable to. This is because they remember the harm and fear that they spread using those same talents and can't find any enjoyment in it anymore, or are even frightened to use their talents. Hanamura won't cook, Soda won't do any mechanic work, etc. This leads to everyone working to learn new talents to cover for each other. Everyone works together to share the load, and learning new abilities helps improve everyone's mental health and morale. Kamakura covers for anything that the others aren't able to do. Part of each character's healing journey is being able to find joy in their talent again.

4: Komaeda initially has a short period of good health after awakening from the NWP, better than he's been since high school. This is because he's actually eating and resting enough, and able to take medication after years of not doing so. This "honeymoon period" lasts for about a year before he starts declining again.

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watching death note with my family and after the college entrance episode my mom asked offhandedly if anyone had ever pictured L and light as a couple before. it felt like one single white dove had landed on a crystalline lake in a beautiful pure clearing. no i dont think anyones ever thought of that before

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The kmhn server and I have decided to make a month for kmhn Christmas!

It starts the first of December! Feel free to join, even if it is just for one day! This is just for fun

Anything creative is allowed! Just no ai!

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Flower run

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