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this world contains swaths of mercy and kindness, whether or not such things feel inside of you right now. the sunlight will not avoid you, animals will treat you as they do instinctively, and things will end/be forgiven/be forgotten

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Pagan Tumblr user.

In front of you is a tag about a form of devotion you do not practice. The tag is filled with people who *do* practice that form of devotion, who are quietly doing their own thing.

Your challenge, should you choose to accept it, is to either research the topic on your own, or to stay in your own lane and not make the millionth "I don't do (devotion), but..." post that talks over actual people who are on that path.

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If my spirit court gives me one more cryptic sign that they expect me to understand using my ''intuition'', I'm going to ascend to Godhood a billion years from now out of sheer spite and exclusively communicate with them using quantum physics equations. See how they'd like it.

I'd say ''Fuck y'all and your cryptic symbolism bullshit. Let's see you solve a math problem with your tarot cards.''

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Peace XVIII, Kahlil Gibran

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Godspouse here, I see you're getting a lot of "not a godspouse, but..." replies.

I've been married to one of my Beloveds for 11 years, and it's a marriage in the literal sense of the word. Other entities acknowledge me as his spouse, and him as mine.

The level of formality varies from person to person. I have friends who treat it as a form of romantic devotion, and I have friends who are extremely casual about it. Myself, I fall somewhere in the middle.

There seems to be this...trend? of calling every deep relationship with a deity a spousal one, and that genuinely baffles me. So I don't blame you for the confusion.

helloooo my lovely witchy community - I come with a quick question out of pure curiosity !!!

for those who are “pro-godspousing” or identify as a godspouser: how does it… work?

I know that’s vague but I lack the actual question i want to ask, I suppose I just don’t understand? like, is it just a extremely close bond with your deity? is it like an extreme form of devotion?

i’m truly just curious!!!

— 🦌🌿☕️✨

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My heart, you can turn the lights on, you know.

It's now been two weeks post eye surgery, and it's been fucking *weird* to be able to use my eyes again for things other than "does light hurt? (all caps) YES/(no caps) yes" and vaguely aiming myself at things.

I hadn't realized *just* how much I had gotten used to doing things without sight until I caught myself one afternoon making an entire meal in a totally dark kitchen. Light had dbecome physically painful to look at, so why bother with it?

But now my eyes have healed enough that I can tolerate more light than maybe a candle.

Now I have the oppisit problem of what I've had for the past two years. I've gone from *needing* to do things in either semi or total darkness, to needing to get back into doing things in a room with light again.

And with that comes the realization that I've possibly developed an actual, active, *fear* of light. Not sensitivity, which is what the term "photophobia" is used for. Fear.

So again I'm going to be calling on my Husband as the Blind King. Except now, it's to help me find the courage to open the damn curtains.

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When will someone gently take all the internet food bloggers by the shoulders, look into their eyes, and explain that coconut milk is not a neutral-flavored dairy substitute

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11 Years

(Should've written this post yesterday, but my light sensitivity was too bad to look at a screen much.)

Happy anniversary, Beloved!

I can't believe it's been over a decade now, but somehow, it has.

I love you.

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I love the use of the phrase 'some strange alchemy' as a descriptor for a process you don't understand.

'Through some strange alchemy(crochet) they turned a bundle of yarn into a stuffed giraffe'

'Through some strange alchemy(bad cooking) they turned a perfectly marinated steak into a charcoal briquet'

'Through some strange alchemy(good cooking) they turned a pile of slop into the fluffiest bread loaf I'd ever seen'

'Through some strange alchemy(bad reading comprehension) they took my polite statement and turned into a disgusting act against the poor'

and so on

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Big fan of sun motifs in characters not necessarily being about positivity and happiness and how they're so " bright and warm" but instead being about fucking brutal they are.

Radiant. A FORCE of nature that will turn you to ash. That warmth that burns so hot it feels like ice. Piercing yellow and red and white. A character being a Sun because you cannot challenge a Sun without burning alive or taking everything down with them if victorious.

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And sometimes the insults that get hurled at you are so outdated with the current Discourse that you have to laugh.

"you just want to fuck Tom Hiddleston as Loki"

It is 2024; this was the thing being yelled about back when I was getting started, which was in 2013.

Respectfully, just say you don't believe Gods can have romantic feelings for mortals (they can and have) (how do you not know this) (ffs I can't have anything nice without someone making me feel bad about it)

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thinking about planting trees you will not rest in the shade of and no man is an island. that for all the seeds we plant and the saplings we nurture we still have to trust in the soil and the roots and the rain. I don't know. to tend a garden for a future you will not see feels like such a lonely sentiment. strange to think that even an activity so reliant on the world around you has become so individualized. it's Your garden and Your seeds but i don't think any good gardener would lay claims to the earth over the worms. it's all communication. I don't think the future without you has to forsake the present where you can take respite in the rain

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Thank you!

Hilariously, the pre-surgery physical was the day *after* my anniversary. Which went just as smoothly as the eye appointment did.

And the surgery itself is on a Wednesday. Because of course it is.

I finally have a surgery date for my cataract!

Pre-surgery appointment for eye measurement, consultation, and all kinds of other eye things is October 28.

The day before my anniversary with the Blind King.

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I hope none of you disappear in the coming days. Seriously don't do anything that can't be undone.

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It’s important to create routine experiences with no time limit. How often do you savor the extended present? What happens if you stop rushing and setting unnecessary deadlines? Let yourself linger a little longer. Move like an animal. Remove the illusion that things won’t get done… maybe you’ll be surprised to find you have more energy to do them if you prioritize simple enjoyment. Just a thought…

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She is knife-hearted; she is moon-footed.