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So we definitely need more positive representation of DID, but you know what would be funny? Mildly inconvenient representation of DID.

Oh the world is ending and you need to know about this one specific thing? Yeah I have a guy for that but he doesn't feel like fronting right now

Sorry what's happening rn is this the bad guy? Yeah I just switched in idk what's going on

I know you're dating one alter but we're currently co-con with another alter who hates you so idk how I'm feeling rn

And just who do i think I am? It's funny you should ask that I actually don't know right now

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Plural History

lb_lee calls this a "quick 'n' dirty" plural history, but it's quite literally the most comprehensive recount I've seen all in one place.

And it covers a lot, with extensive sources as well as mentions of things they don't find time and energy to include if you want to dig deeper and do some offshoot research for your own.

9000 words, I think, give or take, so it's a bit of a read (in four parts, no less), but it's got so much good information, covers the origin of terms and so much history of plural, multiple, and connected communities so well; covering both medicalised and non-medicalised plurality.

We have always been here. Plurality is not new, the MPD and DID (and later OSDD) diagnoses have not created us; our terms have just evolved over time.

True and genuine thank-you to lb_lee for all of this. The context is incredible to have all in one place.

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Headspace but its just:

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I should be able to temporarily give control of my body over to an extrovert that can get me into fun social situations before putting me back in control so i dont have to deal with the whole social anxiety panic lead up to a fun thing

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watching murderbot rn and a) it SLAPS b) the entire time we were watching we were thinking “this is soldier.”

having your headmate relate to the homicidal robot probably isn’t an amazing sign but we’re more functional than the crew so it’s probably fine right

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we’re heavily dissociated and the dissociative barrier is starting to break but it’s not fully broken yet so now we just feel blurred and shitty and eugh

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thank you complex trauma for allowing me to live life unburdened by the horrors of… high school french class?

not me randomly realizing that soldier has been systematically taking my memories of french ;-;

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not me randomly realizing that soldier has been systematically taking my memories of french ;-;

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“p-did doesn’t exist/isn’t real/isn’t a valid form of plurality” please stfu this is the one term that actually fits us. all of this was considered made up a few years ago. not even doctors and licensed medical professionals can decide on this shit. let people exist for fuck’s sake

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us

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you can also call yourself plural if you want. don’t need to have DID for plurality. none of our symptoms match with a conventional diagnosis or identity so we just say p-did or just generally plural.

this could also be somehow related to ADHD and the sense of self that i’ve noticed in many of my ADHD friends but i’m just a teenager on the internet not a psychologist

i only have an inner monologue sometimes and it only exists to bully me

like I'm not consciously saying those things and it startles me sometimes when I hear a voice say it out of nowhere but my aunt just says its an imaginary friend

but like whenever I fuck up my "imaginary friend" says some shit like "damn that sucks maybe you should kill yourself that might help" in a sarcastic voice and its frustrating

because like if it was an imaginary friend I wouldnt actually hear someone speaking right??? and I don't like it so if it was an imaginary friend I could just stop talking to myself but no so I'm just stuck here confused and frustrated as this guy talks to me out of nowhere just to be a dick

this has been going on for 6 years but everyone just says its an imaginary friend and when I told my therapist about it when it first started she thought I was trying to fake DID despite me not knowing that DID was an actual thing and not as horror trope

what the fuck is going on why wont people listen to me ;v;

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memory of @crowthekiller

when equipped, plurality

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as per our last post

cant even enjoy having a crush when youre arospec where other people are giggling and twirling their hair youre sitting ruminating over this feeling akin to a fatal infection while trying to work like this

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love how soldier’s reaction to strong emotions is to just murder glare at the problem until it goes away. this is made funnier (?) by the fact that our left eyelid twitches a lot

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what’s it called when you’re so disconnected from reality that cold water doesn’t feel like anything and you can barely taste food anymore

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my voice is in my sword