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crow-morbid · 10 months ago
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crow-morbid · 10 months ago
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The memory loss as a feature of ptsd and dissociative disorder is rarely talked about. It’s not only ‘big holes in memories’ or ‘blank periods of time’, though of course that happens too. But you lose people from your memory too.
Relationships, friendships. People who once meant everything to you, you can’t recall their names anymore. People you only casually knew during a period of trauma can fade from your mind completely. You can’t remember what you said to someone, what conversations you had together, even the fights and the lows, it all becomes a blur, and then completely fades away.
Your life is sorted into periods of whatever trauma was going on at the moment, but you can’t recall what else took place. What you learned, what experiences you had, the normal things you did that later feel bizzare for a person in your situation to do, to be able to do. Or you don’t remember the trauma, and it’s difficult to put things into any kind of context.
And for your childhood, it’s impossible to make a timeline out of it. Events mesh together, there’s no before or after, to link an event to a year is almost impossible, for any event you can’t tell if you were 5 or 8 or 14, you try and make sense based on what else was going on in your life, except you can’t quite remember what it was. You lived one life at home, a whole another life in school or public space, another one online, and they don’t seem to be connected at any point, and to link it all in a timeline feels impossible.
The memories that don’t hold strong emotions fade first, but eventually, the ones with strong emotions fade too.
Your short term memory becomes difficult as well, it feels like an incredible strain to remember anything you did 2 weeks ago, or 2 days ago, or yesterday. If you’re reminded of something that went on a year ago, it’s a shock because you no longer remember it as something that happened at all. Your brain erases anything that ended as something that never happened, or isn’t worth recalling, or would only stress you out to think about, so you don’t, and it goes away.
Having a memory surge back is stressful, because you realize you never thought about this event, or this person, for years, and this meant something to you, it formed you and shaped your life, it made you feel something. But it was gone for so long, and probably, the second you forget it, it will be gone again. It’s hard to see who you are when you no longer know who you were. You don’t know how anyone perceives you because you don’t recall your experience together.
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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I feel so... down whenever I want to watch queer or trans videos because I know in the back of my mind that none of the current large queer content creators' content or community is safe for people like me, intersex people.
I love their work otherwise, but it hurts badly to hear them toss around casual intersexism in their videos constantly when discussing queer and trans issues and nobody ever mentions it.
And because these are large, popular creators, nobody has ever listened when I've tried to ask they adjust their language. My dms go ignored or unseen and my public comments get drowned out by fans defending their intersexist comments. It's emotionally draining and exhausting, I just want to be included in my own community.
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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The EU is doing a big survey for LGBTQ people who live in the EU about how it is for them right now. That's the kind of survey that's used for official reports and for laws so it's super important that it has as many people taking it as possible. You can take it in every EU language. (You can change the language in the top right corner) Share it with your friends!
https://www.lgbtiqsurvey.eu/lgbtiq
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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Judith Herman, Trauma and Recovery
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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Reminder: You are allowed to decide that you don’t want to spend your time with a person anymore, and then just stop doing so. You are allowed to dislike people. Yeah, don’t be mean, and yeah, be kind when you can, but also you’re allowed to just… not be friends.
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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Friendly reminder that a misdiagnosis can really hurt you. It is important to think very carefully about what you/your doctor diagnose it as, and to be accepting to the possibility of being wrong.
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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I wake up everyday just waiting to go back to bed.
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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Variable Bush Viper (Atheris squamigera), family Viperidae, from central and western Africa
Venomous.
photograph by Mark Kostich
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crow-morbid · 1 year ago
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a lovely creecher
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