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You can’t write a book that tells someone how to live without writing a book that tells someone how to think

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stop playing it cool, just be passionate and intense and insane and whoever sticks around is meant for you

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people with tooth decay aren't bad people. they aren't lazy either. neither are they unclean or irresponsible. tooth decay doesn't make you a bad person. you don't deserve mockery, judgement, or tooth pain for having any. the only thing people with tooth decay deserve is healthcare.

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Sometimes Martin feels like the only “good” alter. Especially in how, he can love people even if he doesn’t trust them, even if they don’t love him in “return.” He experiences unconditional love.

I ask myself: Do I want that for myself too?

I respond: Not really!

The thing is, I just dont care too much about love. If it comes along then sure. I just have other things I care more about

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Ive never known how to express it in any coherent way but I wish more people would realize that neurodivergent means the exact same thing as neuro-abnormal and it isn’t exactly a flattering label unless you enjoy centering your entire identity around other people thinking your brain is uniquely fucked up and screwed

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Horse figure of the day: Herend Unicorn

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Horse figure of the day: Herend Carousel Horse

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so much of being a morally good person is just 1) panicking constantly, 2) taking things personally every chance you get, and 3) letting the vindictive gargoyle that lives in your head tell you what to do. this sucks because you will probably hate doing those things. but you have to

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the previous quote I shared gets at a dimension I think is so deeply relevant to how power constructs differences as deviance emerging from a place of a lack of “cultivation”— the idea that if left “untended” or “uncontrolled” or “uncivilized” or “immature” then people do not “achieve” some “necessary” “intelligible” subjecthood. it is a way to describe difference so that its very description implies the necessity of paternalistic control.

discourses of the “necessary” control/shaping/raising of children become irrevocably connected with discourses of the “development” of the psyche, the process of evolution as developing into a "higher" state of life, the positioning of trans and queer subjectivities as "immature" "phases" in development which can be cultivated into “mature” “intelligible” cis heterosexual subjects, the justification for intersexualization & cross-cultural intersexualization, and colonial “civilizing” & imperialist “development” of implied “uncivilized” and “undeveloped” societies

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They say you attract more flies with honey than vinegar but honestly if I’m complaining or being rude I’m not trying to get what I want or attract anyone…like what the fuck just let me vent I don’t need you to like me that’s not what this is about

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If all of us only suppress our feelings and keep them to ourselves, why isn’t there any good advice on how to never express a single emotion where anyone could see?

Why do I need the self help books to gaslight myself, when I could just cut to the chase and Knowingly suppress it. Does it hurt less, if I take the self help positivity route? Im sure it doesn’t

I’ve considered substance use to numb the pain but Im not a fan of that approach

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If talking to other people when Im this depressed is something, then, is it something I need? Or is it a want?

Not being able to talk to anyone wont kill me, even suicide is still my decision, I guess..My body will still be here if I dont kill myself. So maybe its just a want.

What would happen if I want to kill myself? What would happen if I want to talk to someone, and ask for help with my suicidal ideations?

Ive changed; I dont care, no one owes me anything, but I want to die still, and I’m still lonely

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if you are super anxious / paranoid what you need to do is more illegal things because it really justifies those feeling s and makes all your double checking worth it and pay off. it's like placing a fish back in the water. like this is what god built me for.

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Ive changed; I dont care, no one owes me anything, but I want to die still, and I’m still lonely

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TNT blocks from minecraft 💥💥💥💥💥💥

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Whenever i see one of those posts about 'loving your friends' i get so nauseous, i wish i could block them somehow. That one image with the multiple soulmate threads connecting to their fingers... no thanks! not for me! have fun though!!

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