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Uhm, friend? I’m sorry for the awkward and slap-dash reblog. I couldn’t find a way to send this message in an “ask”, but I hope this message finds you well. I don’t know what kind of traumas you had, or what kind of troubles weigh you down... and I’m really sorry to hear about your state of mind right now. I don’t know if it will manage to cheer you up, I certainly hope so, but I just felt the need to say that, you seem like a very talented artist, and one of my favourites at that. I really aspire to be able to draw something even nearly as good as the things I see on your blog, my favourites have to be the duo covered in cats and birds, but I also love the one with the girl reading books by the book shelves. I’m somewhat of a new follower so I don’t know much about you, but I think you’re pretty amazing for having a way to express your feelings and emotions in such magically breathtaking, or hauntingly charming ways. It’s certainly hard to keep past experiences locked up in the canvas, but... if I was an artist, which I am certainly not yet, at least, I’d consider the canvas as a little boat as well. It’s a little boat that helps take the mind off, or a little boat that helps sail and reach out to someone who might understand your work. It would probably be a beautiful thing to have a person like that.

What I’m trying to say is, I don’t know you as a person, and my words and experiences don’t hold any more value than you can allow them to, but I think you’re very rad, for at least pursuing something and being passionate about it.

I hope things get better in your life soon, and that you will have your eyes open for the moment they do.

Sincerely, 

-A current nobody you reached out to.

I’m Sorry

I finally realized that my traumatic past has been catching up to me. My unresolved fears and pain of abandonment as a child by my parents has seeped into my adult life. It triggers extreme reactions in me that drives people close to me away.

I like to pretend to be strong. That whatever comes at me in life, I’ll just pull myself up again and get over it. I’d like to believe that what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger. I’d like to pretend that if I somehow draw out pain, and put it on canvas, that the pain will be contained on canvas, and not deep inside me. But that’s not true.

When I’m knocked down and broken, and left to pick up the pieces of myself, I lose a bit more of myself each time. Not everything can be glued back together again. And never stronger than before. I can’t trust again. I’m afraid of people. I’m afraid of being close to anyone.

It’s hard to get up each morning. I feel hopeless and helpless. It doesn’t matter that everyone tells me otherwise. I don’t feel that way. My friends reach out to me, but I don’t want to see them or talk to them and I don’t even know why. It hurts to see their kindness go to waste on me.

I feel lost and confused. No matter how hard I try, I keep getting knocked down again. The simple answer is to just get back up, but I can’t just get back up indefinitely. I’m not that strong and the burden of being that strong shouldn’t be put upon me.

I need time to heal. I need time to go back and face my unresolved past. I’m going to see a therapist. I need help because I can’t help myself any longer.

I don’t know when I’ll post again. I started drawing Fisheye Placebo but I can’t keep going right now. I used to say that “no matter what, the sun will shine, and there will always be a brighter tomorrow.” But I don’t believe that anymore, I don’t believe in myself anymore.

I’m sorry I’m always letting everyone down. I’m sorry.

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Gluttonian Hiatus

Sorry for the short notice, but things have been getting really busy in Gluttonia! The Mayor will need to some time before he can get back to you beautiful people~

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Which Gluttonian should YOU fight?!

An informative guide on which of the Gluttonians you should fight. 

Mr. Gluttony Who wins :There won't even be a battle. Now he's here, now he's there, now he's double and quadruple. Now he's distorting and now for all he cares you could either be missing or melting or stuffed in a theatrical box for illusionists with an uncomfortable number of knives burying their sharp edges inside. Perhaps outside of Gluttonia you might have a bigger chance, but that is also highly unlikely. Rye Katcher Who wins : I don't know man, Do you really want to find out? Are you sure? It is said they wield the legendary confetti gun, and that's a force that pars with Mr. Sloth's as the ancient legends explain. Mr. Sloth, the Rainmaker, also known as the INNkeeper Who wins : He will, every time. Taking into consideration that Mr. Gluttony himself avoids visiting the INN, you can safely assume he's going to beat you into a bloody pulp and make fiction with the remains. Lady Pride Who wins : Not you. Ever heard of the Roman Emperor Caligula? How he declared war on Poseidon in a play and commanded his army to go to the sea and stab the water? He declared victory. Will you? Clould :  Who wins : You, temporarily. I mean, he can be a bit tough, but do you really want to wait around for Mr. Sloth's reaction? Claude the crow : Who wins : First of all, how dare you? Second of all, it would probably be you, he's just a crow, unless he was in Mr. Gluttony's company, then it would most certainly be Claude the crow. Fero de Fish : Who wins : You, but will you? For all we know he could be running Gluttonia's secret or underground society. But then again you could probably beat him with your eyes closed. Plaude Who wins : It could be you. He looks cute. Maybe. Who knows? If you attempt to, let me know, I'll need to clean up the mess. Whose mess? What? The Partysmith  Who wins : What? What Partysmith? You don't know what that means. Wait, what is that flashy colour aimed towards you? Don Claudo Who wins : You'd certainly win the fight. If he hadn't fled...possibly with most of your noteworthy belongings.

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You have been raided!

Peep peep!

PEEP PEEP MOTHER FUCKERS

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Peep glutting peep, motherglutters!

Peep peep!

PEEP PEEP MOTHER FUCKERS

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He's so silly, he forgot to wear his crown, for he's the king of silly geese.

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Although I can confidently tell you that he is most exceptional at writing essays! Although he did pretty poorly in his exams

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Peekaboo <o>__<o>

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I...I'm a hard working mayor with a lot of responsibilities. Sleep is an essential part of my schedule, thank you very much!

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Tumblr Tag Game?

Aha! An important question, I daresay. Even though there are a lot of colours I find interesting, like, purple or orange or black and white, my most favourite colour must be the colour green. As for why, that would be partly because I simply like the way it looks on things, and partly because I find it...contradicting? You see, a lot of people claim that the colour green is a healthy colour, and that it resembles nature and an open world, the feeling of breathing clean air. I really like that, as much as I like the fact that it also reminds me of poison and suffocating gas, ominous lights and auras in the dark, or desease. Funny isn't it? Question Number 002 : What is your ideal party? Hm. I'm not much of a party person, to be honest. I don't think I'd like a very crowded party, especially, most definitely, with people I don't know / consider acquaintances. My idea for a party would be a gathering of close friends, doing special activities together. Something that they either wouldn't normally do, or something they wouldn't normally do together. That can be, singing karaoke, watching the nightsky while laughing and talking, or generally being ridiculous. Although I wouldn't mind it if it were something simple, like playing a game, or watching a movie. In my opinion, a party should make you feel...close...to your close friends.

Of course, confetti is also vital for a party, it wouldn't be a party otherwise now would it?

Question Number 003 : What is a talent of yours? Something you're not only good at, but enjoy doing?

Drawing perhaps? I mean....seriously now. Loook at that beautifully drawn chair over ther. Or the desk! Or looook at that magnificent head over there! [I don't actually consider myself to be a good artist, but I do enjoy drawing. Sometimes I find myself doing it unconsciously while, say, waiting, and coming up with some bizzare drawings, gah hah hah.] Question Number 004 : Are you an open person? No, I'm not. Question Number 005 : You have the power to shapeshift into something (an object, animal, etc.). What can you shapeshift into?

Oh, just a little pumpkin head, with it's little cape and little hat. It's little hand and it's little lantern. No...particular reason...I just always liked Halloween!...and spooking people. Question Number 006 : Books or films?

What was that? I can't hear you! My film's too loud! But in all seriousness, I truly understand the significance of books throughout history, the way they helped the human mind to evolve and create the modern world, their entertainment value or generaly everything about them [Since, books are pretty much...everything that the mind can think recorded in a bundle of words, be it entertainment, horror, philosophy, science, politics, and so on and so forth], but I just can't find myself reading a book for more than thirty minutes. It's virtually impossible for me. Maybe it's because I haven't found the right books? Maybe it's because I am discouraged by some big books? Maybe I just have different preferences? All in all, I find myself enjoying films more. Question Number 007 : You have entered a parallel universe with one major thing different from this one? What is it?

Fashion. I demand a change in fashion and what's considered presentable. Question Number 008 : Favourite kind of chocolate?

Drown me in milk chocolate, and I'll gladly die. I can't stand any other kind of chocolate, honestly. [Oh, wait, scratch that, I like white chocolate too.] But it's beautiful, it's sweet, it's holy and pure! An important part of my purifying cookies! Let the skies rain purifying cookies with milk chocolate! [*Sound of mangaga ruining everything from this point on*]

Number 009 : Do you/Would you like to play an instrument? What is it? I find myself interested in instruments from time to time, like the guitar or drums. I tried playing a little bit and I did manage to get a little bit of something of it, but I never really stuck with it for too long, nor did I actually become good. If there was an instrument I'd like to learn how to play, however, it would've probably been the cello. Number 010 : Where is your ideal house located? Hm. Somewhere not too isolated, but a little bit further from others. The far end of a village perhaps? Or a thick and huge forest?! You get the main idea. Number 011 : What is your opinion on capes? Capes are living beings that pick their meister. If one dies by having their cape getting caught up somewhere, like, say, a sharp fan, that would be because they weren't deserving of the cape. The cape is the symbol of royalty...OF JUSTICE! Yes. For the sake of continuing this game, I shall tag...uh...oh wait, I just remembered I'm a noobie and I don't know how to tag people. U-uhm well, should they happen to see this, I tag aswcc and mrsloththerainmaker and mayralaforet to participate in this game! Har har! Or perhaps even you! Yes, you, my dear reader. Do feel free to answer the following questions : 001 : What is your favourite colour? Why might that be? 002 : A film / series with actors, or an animated film / series? 003 : What is your most beloved song? 004 : Favourite holiday season? 005 : What must we never forget? 006 : Favourite genre? Be it in movies, comics or music, or all of them! 007 : What is that one thing you always forget to do? 008 : Do you praise the sun on a healthy, daily basis? 009 : A warm environment / The feeling of being warm or a cold environment / the feeling of being cold? 010 : What would you like in a protagonist / hero? 011 : What would you like in a villain?

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