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Golden specks Pt 1

When you strike gold

It never gets old

That same rush

that make you keep chasing

Till your heart's crushed

losses of profit

talk of the town with the gossip

Make u miss what u remember

yet you wont allow for them to disavow

all that you've worked for

but is it even worth it?

What truly is the purpose

A lover's quarrel with lady luck

Blame her for your problems of being stuck

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Ending it.

I made a death note, and the end wrote

"I'm so sorry ma"

and in said note I left out

The feelings that rest in

The things that caused me not to feel whole

I feel tears yet I can't ever cry

and yet I'm so scared to die

but when I look in the mirror

I can't look my own self in the eyes.

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Sunrise

Everytime I see the sunrise I get reminded how beautiful this life is.

I hate that the same feeling arises everytime you cross my mind.

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A thousand dreams

How many dreams do you think you've had?

atleast like 10 thousand right? I mean this is assuming you've dreamed everyday you've slept and just dont remember them? Well what about the dreams when you're awake? Do those not matter? Have you become any closer to them? Do you even care? Have you abandoned them? I hope not, the first time you die is when you stop believing in your dreams.

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Love letters

I'm writing love letters to a woman that don't even love me no more

atleast I'm convinced, but I can't be so sure

I wish I knew how to direct my love, I think my heart needs a chauffer

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Nights

Everything is worse at night

My thoughts, my music

my love, my body

my energy, my soul

my food, my mind,

my house, my mom

my image, my eyes

even my words.

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My vice, my fall

I've conquered the art of breathing again

I've conquered the art of seeing and thinking

I've conquered the yearning of infidelity

Yet why do I sit at the bottom of this bottle?

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About me

I haven't touched this account in year(s) now, I would like to change the name to SimonRedd, but crookeddeamernightmare is just so hard. I'm 19, live in New York and I'm dope asf. I like philosophy, fashion, and hip hop. I watch anime, movies, and play video games too, but prob not as much as I like that other stuff. I quit my job after my birthday last month so I'm broke, poor and a fat fuck (6'1, 209), but I'm gon be up soon. Believe that.