cremaster3

[cremaster3]

[cremaster3]

[cremaster3]

Zak and Friend, Northern Fells, Lake District, Cumbria, England

[cremaster3]

ೃ༄ੈ✩‧₊˚

[cremaster3]

every piece of ""autistic representation"" in hollywood sucks not just because of the infantalization and inspiration porn but because movie executives always fail to realize the real universal autistic experience: spending your childhood slowly and unfalteringly realizing all of your friends not so secretly hated and/or merely tolerated you at best and you've missed every social signal about it ever

[cremaster3]

this genuinely has me in tears

[cremaster3]

so embarrassing to get obsessed with your own oc but it doesn't fuel you creatively or motivate you at all you just sort of sit there. like yeah I've been thinking a lot about blorbo from my mind. no images of them exist in the world and they have maybe 3 personality traits so far. I would rather die than attempt to write about them. I've spent the last 48 hours rotating them in my brain though

[cremaster3]

[cremaster3]

im abt to block everyone whos reblogging that worst facebook straps post it's literally the only thing i have ever gotten notes on on this blog like SHUT UP!!! oh my god

[cremaster3]

thinking about the time i was listing off old myspace bands to see if my mom remembered them and when i got to millionaires she went "i don't remember them but i do remember this horrible group called hollywood undead... they sucked so much they're terrible." and i felt like i had just caught an indirect stray

[cremaster3]

walk in the room and i check for bitches 🤷‍♂️

[cremaster3]

Please remember that almost everyone around you is traumatized. I didn’t understand this when I was younger. I wondered why people acted so strangely and irrationally. Maybe all children wonder this. The author Robert Anton Wilson said (paraphrasing), “We have never seen a completely sane adult human.” No one makes it out of this life alive. It’s not their fault. Mercy, kindness, forgiving — these are what makes one human. They are other names for love. People break in the strangest of ways.

[cremaster3]

tearing up because i thought about how they used to be so happy in macrodata refinement and they were all friends together tryign to figure out what was going on and irving was there 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢 Ohhhhh ....

[cremaster3]

[cremaster3]

i always feel like i should be medicated but i haven't had a really crazy months long episode in almost 2 years so i might be fine maybe i cured myself

[cremaster3]

ill probably just settle for hair and maybe tattooing/piercing as well i dont know i probably should have my life figured out at 22 years old but i lowkey thought i was supposed to and destined to die at 16 and spent 18-21 homeless and suicidal so i dont know now

[cremaster3]

if i could id honestly go to a mortician school but i'm worried that i wouldn't be able to handle it not because of the actual stuff i dont think id have issue with all that but because of my schizoaffective i dont know how to explain further