creamybitz

[creamybitz]

a writing project I'm working on~

Triggering elements in post below : thoughts of depression and semi bullying

The basic plot of it - Vida's 'perfect' life comes crashing down when her boyfriend's sick secrets are revealed to her, and she breaks it off with him. He tells the whole school a completely different story making Vida look like a typical crazy ex. With the help of a couple new friends, she figures out what exactly she needs to do to get the whole truth out. It's gonna be a young-adult type thing with an enemies to friends ( And maybe lovers ;3 ) and it's also gonna have some mystery ! Also sorry if the grammar or anything is off I tried my best editing

"not taking the breakup very well I see." My friend looks at me, a hint of disgust in her eyes. I was in clothes I almost never wore. Sweatpants a t-shirt and a dirty sweatshirt. I mean what was I supposed to do, look pretty? I didn't even think what I choose to wear was even that bad, lots of people wear this kind of shit all the time.

"yeah I really don't care about looking good right now, I'm kinda ya know. Depressed." I used to be at least somewhat happy but I felt mostly sad and unmotivated now, all I could think about was what I would do without him. I feel worthless, tho I usually felt like that It was easier to hide when everything was going well. hiding the deep sense of sadness and worthlessness was easier when people thought I had it all, popularity, a great boyfriend, a good family, and money. What's even the use of hiding it everyone can clearly see now that things are different. I'm not hiding anymore. I don't have a boyfriend to lie to anymore, and surprisingly it felt kind of freeing, still numbing but also kind of freeing. I also don't have to look absolutely perfect all the time anymore. Which I know my family will be against, but I really don't care anymore about all of that. 

  "well if you look good you'll feel good, I mean what do you think people will say about you wearing this? Vida I can see Cheetos dust on your sleeve it's majorly gross!" I roll my eyes, wow what a friend.   "Stacy I don't care about what people think, especially you." I death glare her a bit before walking away and she stands at her locker too shocked to say anything. I don't need her telling me how to handle MY breakup.  I stop at my locker sighing. "you can do it, it's just another day..." I mumble to myself while putting my locker combo in. Every morning that I wake up is dreadful, sometimes I just wish I could sleep for a whole year. Maybe then id be happy. who knows. "Vida!" I look up to see my now ex-boyfriend looking at me. I look up at him, not able to speak or move. To be honest, I ignored him after what happened over spring break by blocking him on everything and strictly avoiding anywhere I knew he might be. I even took an extra week off of school, convincing my mom I was sick was hard but it worked I just wish it would have worked longer. I was planning to avoid him as long as I could but after just a couple of days back he seemed to catch up with me.   "Glad to see you're back. Still feeling sick I see?" He smirks at me while leaning on the locker next to mine. His obvious jab at my looks makes me uncomfortable and embarrassed.  "Um, no I'm fine..." I quietly say before quickly grabbing the things I need and hitting my locker shut, leaving in a hurry to get away from him. Humiliated I decide to look back again to see if he's following me but he is gone, I try not to cry as I continue down the halls thinking of it all. The mixed emotions I feel towards him make me angry because as much as I hate him I still used to love him. Even with all the lies and secrets, I loved him, even if the things he said he felt for me were fake, the love and passion I used to feel towards him weren't tho it'd be easier if they were. 

  All day I notice people staring at me, even people I don't know which makes me feel even worse. I just wish I could be invisible even if it was only for a few days, a few hours even. With every class, I feel more anxious, and more done with it all. I tell myself I can get thru another terrible day but I don't think I can. I stand up as soon as the bell rings, ignoring the teacher trying to make me stay, "miss Lopez ple-" I fly out the door with my hood up while looking down not caring about if I am in trouble or not because seconds later I'm lost in a sea of other students and he can not find me, I rush my self to the cafeteria before realizing that's the last place I want to be... to my car it is! I walk out the side doors of the school with my backpack, not like I wanna come back so why should I? I look up from the ground trying to find where the smell of cigarette smoke is coming from. "wow, Vida Lopez skipping? would of never guessed that." I roll my eyes, fucking Hunter Madden, he smirks at me while sitting at one of the round metal picnic-style tables that are out here. "wow, I can't believe you still are the most annoying person I know. I am not in the mood so kindly shut the fuck up." I say more than I mean to but he chuckles to my response. "wow, even with your circumstances you are still as feisty as you were. would have thought you might be nicer hm guess I'm wrong."  He bends down to put his cig out and I can't help but notice how strong his arms look in the white T-shirt he is wearing I gulp looking away from him. I had always found him somewhat attractive, annoying yes, but attractive. " yeah whatever not like anyone cares about me so why should I even be nice." I look towards him again, what is he even doing out here? "That sounds like a bad way to live." I scoff as if hunter maddens had ever been anything but an asshole.

"yeah well, I'm going thru some shit so I'd rather not be bantering like this right now." I turn to walk away but I stop at what he says, "Well, I mean I've heard some things... A lot of rumors are going around about it all." chills run on my skin as I recap what happened. "I don't wanna think about it." my stomach churns and I feel embarrassed, he's had to of lied to people.   "Um, so what have you heard?.." I know I said I didn't want to talk about it but he also would of never told the whole truth, maybe just a fraction of it but I want to know how much he's twisted up the story, to probably make me look like the bad guy. "Well like I said it's all rumors and I try not to believe stupid shit like that without proof. Plus it's his-..." He stops for a moment looking at me sadly. "It what?"...  I take a seat next to him hoping he tells me what he stopped himself from saying. "It's mostly his friends saying all this shit laughing and joking about it, which basically means your friends are saying it... you hang out with them, don't you?"  tho I am not surprised it still hurts. I feel tears fall down my face and I don't try to stop them. All the anxiety and pent-up emotions flow out as I quietly sob into my hands. "Oh no, I uh- I didn't mean to make you cry." he comes closer to me, pulling me into a hug. "It's not you, just with James and Stacy and everyone else I'm so stressed. It sucks!" I hug him crying into his shoulder.  "Maybe you should take the rest of the day off?" I get off of him to dry my face with the sleeve of my sweatshirt. " Yeah probably, that's what I was planning on doing anyways. That's why I'm out here." He smiles, "Maybe we can hang together, I was planning on skipping too." I smile at the thought, I could use a friend right now. Even if it is Hunter Madden.    "Sure," I pause for a second looking into his eyes, "I'd like that."

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[creamybitz]

what i am

I am an aspiring teen writer :) I am going to start publishing on Wattpad where my @ will be Creamybitz.

i go by any pronouns ! ! !

I write romance mostly but am working towards writing more fantasy and horror like subjects! I am also not 100% sure how tumblr works? so i will be trying my best.