cozyhallloween

[cozyhallloween]

important things going on in my notes app

[cozyhallloween]

sorry i was really awkward at the party. i was voluntarily mute as a child

[cozyhallloween]

during the blurred summer, i knew a boy who’d always laugh at my jokes and would sing songs from a band i told him about years ago. we’d joke about our future and what we’d name our kids. he was my best friend. but i think he got tired of cleaning the blood off my knees one too many times because now he has a new best friend with eyes as brown as mine. i’ll probably write about him for a 1000 years.

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[cozyhallloween]

in the midst of an orange october with death underneath our feet, i knew a boy with tired eyes who always smelled like smoke. he was 20 years my senior but still a boy none the less. he made me feel important and i made him feel young. a part him still haunts me. the ghosts of the life we could have had; if i was just a little bit older. i think he was the only one i really wanted to get it right with.

part 2/3

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it was a hazy summer of hot cars and missed calls. i knew a boy who’d play me love songs on his guitar and would stay up late whispering on the phone; telling ghost stories he never told anyone before. he met my brother and told me we’d get a place in the city. he had puppy dog eyes, it was a puppy dog love. i think i liked being loved more then being in love.

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i’m haunted by a past i can’t go back to. so instead i go on google maps and look up my childhood home. it’s still 2009. the tree i grew with is still there. my moms silver car is parked outside. i’m ten with scraped up knees, racing my sister down the hill on our bikes. first one home gets the last bit of pink lemonade. does the tree know that in ten years time it’ll be gone? does my childhood house wait for us to come home? does ten year old me know that she’ll miss all this one day?

[cozyhallloween]

- you were my brother anakin

folklore: the long pond studio sessions/ star wars episode i: the phantom menace/ star wars episode ii: attack of the clones/ my tears ricochet- taylor swift/ star wars episode iii: revenge of the sith/ folklore: the long pond studio sessions/ my tears ricochet- taylor swift/ star wars episode iii: revenge of the sith/ the burglar of babylon- elizabeth bishop/ antigone

[cozyhallloween]

i blog for the girls that think they’re a liability when really they just want someone who wants their company. girls who’ll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror. girls who are trying to be cool about it but all of their enemies started out friends. girls who don’t know why they are the way that they are. girls who are right where you left them because they’re excellent fun till you get to know them. girls who are pathological people pleasers who won’t stop checking their inboxes for confessions of love.

[cozyhallloween]

- “you’re a liability”

[cozyhallloween]

how am i ever suppose to move on from howls moving castle when the first thing howl ever said to sophie was “there you are sweetheart. sorry im late, i was looking everywhere for you” and how calcifer would only listened to howl but when sophie came he listened to her bc calcifer is howls heart and his heart has always known sophie!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and how howl literally built a moving castle to search for her and was undercover for both sides of the war incase she was on either side and how phoebe bridgers song smoke signals is literally about them bc he must have sending smoke signals looking for her all his life!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[cozyhallloween]

- “you’re my best friend”

the simpsons/ you are in love- taylor swift/ the office/ lover- taylor swift/ click/ @longrest via reddit/ @robertdowneyweeniehutjr via tiktok/ adventure time: distant lands

[cozyhallloween]

i relate to the front bottoms, not in a every song is about me kind of way but in a every song is about me kind of way (i am the girl brian sella is angrily singing about)

[cozyhallloween]

[cozyhallloween]

- you were my brother anakin

folklore: the long pond studio sessions/ star wars episode i: the phantom menace/ star wars episode ii: attack of the clones/ my tears ricochet- taylor swift/ star wars episode iii: revenge of the sith/ folklore: the long pond studio sessions/ my tears ricochet- taylor swift/ star wars episode iii: revenge of the sith/ the burglar of babylon- elizabeth bishop/ antigone

[cozyhallloween]

Why do you love taylor swift so much

idk she’s kinda everything to me

[cozyhallloween]

during the blurred summer, i knew a boy who’d always laugh at my jokes and would sing songs from a band i told him about years ago. we’d joke about our future and what we’d name our kids. he was my best friend. but i think he got tired of cleaning the blood off my knees one too many times because now he has a new best friend with eyes as brown as mine. i’ll probably write about him for a 1000 years.

part 3/3

[cozyhallloween]

in the midst of an orange october with death underneath our feet, i knew a boy with tired eyes who always smelled like smoke. he was 20 years my senior but still a boy none the less. he made me feel important and i made him feel young. a part him still haunts me. the ghosts of the life we could have had; if i was just a little bit older. i think he was the only one i really wanted to get it right with.

part 2/3