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it's dangerous to go alone. take him with you

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tastes are subjective, except for mine which set the standard. hope this helps

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I hope I’m not just an annoyance to you but also an object of your pathological psychosexual rage

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WOMEN COVERED IN BLOOD IN CINEMA: Carrie (1976) Gone Girl (2014) Assassination Nation (2018) Jennifer’s Body (2009) Revenge (2017) The Witch (2015) Rise: Blood Hunter (2007) The Descent (2005)

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I have not seen enough people talking about how the 20th anniversary of Fellowship of the Ring is in like a month

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Charles Baudelaire, from Beauty in “The Flowers Of Evil” [translated by James McGowan]

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8-time Paralympic International Medalist Blake Leeper inspires 2-yr-old KJ who is trying out his new prosthetic

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Heist movies aka found family trope for bastards

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Your mixed feelings about your parents are valid.

Shout out to people like me who have parents who are loving but are black holes of emotional labor… It took me a long time to realize that it’s okay to have mixed feelings about your parents, about your relationship with them.

Sometimes parents can love you but be somewhat toxic to you and your growth, and that’s a very hard realization to come to if you, like me, grew up extremely close to them.

Sometimes parents can love you genuinely but lack emotional maturity, forcing you to perform disproportionate amounts of emotional labor. Some parents manifest symptoms of their mental illness in ways that are toxic to your mental illness.

Some parents, like mine, try so hard to be good parents but fall back on habits of emotional manipulation because they haven’t processed their own traumas and are modeling behavior they grew up with. That doesn’t make their behavior acceptable, and it’s okay to feel exhausted and hurt when they betray you. You don’t have to forgive every mistake.

I want you to know that it’s okay to protect yourself, to need some space apart from them. The love you have for your parents is still valid, and you are making the right decision.

Placing a safe emotional distance between myself and my parents has been one of the most difficult, heartbreaking processes I’ve ever gone through… it hurts to try to curb the strength of your own natural empathy around people you love. It feels disingenuous to your heart’s natural state.

But I promise you, you are not hard-hearted or ungrateful, and you are not abandoning them. You are making a decision about your own emotional, mental, and spiritual health.

I know what it’s like in that confusing grey area of love mixed with guilt and anxiety, of exhaustion and quasi-manipulation and unreciprocated emotional labor, and I promise you, you are not alone.

Your mixed feelings about your parents are valid.

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I hate your fucking green hairrr they remind me of toxic slutch

i never posted this because i wanted to keep it forever but i think posting it is the best way. i say “toxic slutch” many times a week. thank you.

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What does the arab in your carrd mean? Is it like afab and amab?

.. i’m palestinian

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CIRCE: goddess of sorcery (pharmakeia), skilled with magic of transmutation, illusion and necromancy.

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Madeline Miller, Circe

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what she says: I’m fine

what she means: why is Dorian Gray never played by people with blond hair? why is Dorian always depicted as all pale and dark? oscar literally describes his hair as gold like two seconds after we meet him. directors apparently feel like they have to make Dorian look dark dangerous and brooding, but he’s not supposed to look dark and dangerous and brooding. That’s the whole point. No one ever suspects him because he looks like an innocent little cherub with golden curls and rosy cheeks. His physical appearance is described with terms that Western literary tradition, during the nineteenth century in particular, associated with goodness and godliness, and this is intentionally juxtaposed with the blackness of his soul. If you intentionally play him as someone who looks like a Byronic hero, much of the symbolism of his character is lost, right?

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remember, ladies, before you say or do anything, to ask yourself: is this something that would get me diagnosed with female hysteria and locked in the attic by my relatives in the 19th and early 20th century? and if the answer is yes, proceed

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so women are supposed to grin and bear the books, the comics, the movies, the plays, the tv shows, the stories, the sci-fi, the translated ancient poems, the fucking millennia of men writing about their self inserts torturing women and it being declared as High Art by other men, we’re supposed to read it in our free time, study it in classrooms, include their styles in our own writing, accept their cultural influence as natural, watch it in the cinema, write about it, talk about it, accept it, aspire it, but men can’t tolerate three seconds of female wish fulfilment of a woman snapping the wrist of a creep without feeling personally kicked in the balls.