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The tragedy of Ty and Livvy, that they can’t both be alive in the same world. In the main timeline Ty is alive but he loses Livvy. In Thule, Livvy lives, but she has to lose Ty.

Maybe like Livvy said there’s another world out there we don’t know of, where they can both grow up together, where they stay side by side like they were meant to

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This was so long but so freaking valid

people who hate the direction of kit's character because he's upset with ty while also knowing ty is autistic... are the same people who fail to realize that while kit is more knowledgable in that area than most nephilim, he was STILL only 15 years old, and while he did go along with ty until last minute even ty questioned his authenticity at some point...

(also did we all collectively forget kits entire storyline? this kid was in NO position to make any life-altering decisions... tbh the only person who might have an inkling of what he's going through is clary, cause yea not even jace and his reassurance can fully encompass kits issues...

i mean here is a kid who was abused by neglection and harsh treatment, a kid who has only ever know to crave love and never felt it. and then one day his abuser/protector is ripped in half right in front of him, and he's promptly told that he is apart of a society who he was taught to hate his entire life. so there goes his first identity crisis. but oh wait, this entirely new society has been taught to expect tragedy to happen at anytime of the day so suck it up cause your one of us now and also we're placimg you in a super tight-knit family that is going through their own traumatic shit, so they won't have time to even try and make you feel welcomed or apart of a home. but then you get accepted by these twins and become apart of their littel group, and now you don't want to let go, you CAN'T, because this is the closest you've ever been to being apart of a family, so you have to bury your grief and be likeable and cool and strong. but then one of the twins die and suddenly everyone is looking at you to comfort the other twin, but you haven't even been able to grieve yourself before having to experience this additional grief with another death of this budding relationship. but you love this boy so OK you do what you can, even if it means going along with something that makes you sick to your stomach. but your still new here, you don't know which lines to cross, you don't know what ok and what's not, who to tell and who not to tell, you dont want this boy to hate you, you can't lose this "home" even as it's being held by the thinnest string ready to break. even as you look in the mirror and see the same look of disappointment and hate and lies, lies, lies, that look exactly like your father, there goes your second identity crisis.

you suck it up until you can't anymore, until your feelings spill over in the purest words of expression, complete and utter desperation and love.

except now your left soppin wet and punched by your inconsolable crush and watching as he performs a failed resurrection. and then not a day layer its revealed that your part faerie, another race hellbent on being hated by the world. except your not just any faerie but the one true heir to TWO thrones... and theres your third identity crisis.))) also,,, dont get me started on the short stories where we expect kit to be healing when we actually witness him sink deeper and deeper into this pit of self-loathing as he's continuously put in positions that have him viewed as a threat and danger to his family... i.e. his heritage, tessa and jems reaction to him holding james' gun, mina's kidnapping, etc.

yea, by all means kit be angry!

and to address kit being older and still holding this grudge years later with the assumption that he knows more and maybe understands ty's thought process better,,, he's already admitted to being mad at ty for putting kit in a position that had him looking in the mirror and seeing johnny rook... NOT at the fact that he was "rejected" or even the resurrection itself...

is kit in the right for his misplaced anger? ofc not,,, but he also went through a lifetime of trauma that you can't simply let go of just because another person might not have fully understood the mental space that he was in at the moment

kits characterization within the fandom really makes me realize how privileged many people are to never having to go through the messy process of grieving your abuser while now figuring out who you are after them, all whole their shadow is still casted over your entire being... like, no kit didn't runaway from being rejected by a boy, he ran away from being rejected of his existence AGAIN (ofc this is all in his pov since we the readers are aware of tys feelings)

thats all to say that kit really is good at suppressing his feelings if even the readers glossed over the multiple times his mind began to stray towards the death of his father throughout the tda series. like, we're aware of johnny's treatment towards kit and we're also aware of the envirommemt he was raised in,,, so why is it that people focus on him "knowing" about the spectrum b/c he lives in modern society than they are about the life he's personally lived that influenced his decision and thought process throughout the story?

and if it wasn't obvious this post was entirely for kit's pov, ty has a completely different view of things and where kit might not fully understand how ty processes things, neither does ty towards kit. they're both on completely different pages!!

but thats the point of their story!! theyre gonna heal together! we will explore ty's pov and see what he REALLY saw during that time period and maybe kit can finally love himself the way he wants others to love him,,,,

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I just wanted to say, just if someone needs to hear it.

if you can't find people to come with you, do it alone (if that's safe). Maybe you'll meet people alone the way with the same passion, or you won't. But today I went to a concert alone for the first time and safe to say it was one of the best days I've ever had

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Despite being autistic i physically cannot relate to Zane in any way whatsoever. Like I literally cannot physically comprehend or fathom relating to Zane specifically because he’s a robot I think. Like it just does not compute in my brain. The way he got more robotic after S4 DEFINITELY didn’t help. Like I physically feel worlds away from him than I do to literally any other character in the entire show.

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What is saving money when I bought a record player and I'm going to a concert tomorrow where I can buy sold out merch and a signed vinyl album

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It would be so funny if Max Lightwood-Bane would stop aging at an older age than Magnus did and they can live forever with son looking older then dad

This would also mean Magnus survives TWP

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kitty bridgerton au in which johnny tries to force kit into marriage with livia blackthorn but instead the only person kit has eyes for is her quiet, gorgeous brother, tiberius blackthorn…. i need it now

oh and livvy would totally try to set them up

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IK WIL KUNNEN VALLEN ALS EEN VAAS OP EEN TAPIJT MAAR VOORDAT IK DE KANS HEB ZET JE ME ZO WEER OVEREIND

EN IK BARST EN IK BREEK TOT IK ME VERSPREEK, EERST VERDRINGEN EN VERGETEN DAN SPIJT.

'I wish that i could fall soft as a vase in a tapestry but before I had the chance you already put me back up. I crack and burst untill I misspeak, I repress and forget then comes the sorrow

oh sparrow oak you would have loved froukje

og lyrics and song of origin under the cut!!

Zeeën van Liefde

Liever Met Jou

Noodzakelijk verdriet Ik ben bang

Heb ik dat gezegd?

Kwijt

Nu Ik Niet Meer Over Je Schrijf

Als ik god was

Ik Wil Dansen

Een teken

Groter Dan Ik

Noodzakelijk Verdriet

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turns out you're not supposed to tell people when they're being rude... oops

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i kinda feel bad for oedipus b/c everyone assumes he chose to fuck his mom when in fact he went out of his way to avoid it. he left his hometown and distanced himself from his parents because he was afraid he would somehow get tricked into fucking his mom. everything could have been avoided if his adopted parents told him he was adopted.

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"TMI is the worst-written TSC series" Okay. Okay, you are objectively correct, but I think we need to appreciate how genuinely fun TMI is. It has a great group of characters, and all of them have distinct personalities and voices. It's fast-paced. The humor is genuine and omnipresent. It manages to be consistently lighthearted on a character/relationship level despite its darker underlying themes and plotlines. This isn't even to touch on the hugely important role that the series played as a pioneer for LGBT representation in modern literature.

TMI isn't good, but it's fun. And that's genuinely what matters. You can't go into it expecting a literary masterpiece, but you can expect a wild ride, time with some great well-developed heroes and heroines, and a witty and engaging tone. Tolerate the weird metaphors and grammatical mistakes. Forgive questionable plotlines. Clary Fairchild and her found family are worth it.

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the sweetest couple on the whole of tattooine 🪐

jedi simon was absolutely thrilled when izzy agreed to go to the comic book convention with him dressed up like princess leia! 🫶

characters by @cassandraclare 🤍

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Love how Simon and Jace turn into an old married couple everytime they're together alone

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Centurion Blackthorn and his ghost companion!

i had sm fun drawing them.

they are my fav sibling duo in the whole shadowhunter series since they remind me a lot of me and my sister

story time:

im also autistic and relate to ty a lot. i have to wear noise cancelling headphones all the time and funfact, i wanna be a criminal psychologist! i also relate to ty personality wise and how my sister was always really protective of me and treated me with nothing but kindness. shes also kind and funny just like livvy. and even tho we are not twins our dynamic is pretty similar

and i know for a fact that i wouldve done what ty has in his situation.

also im SOOO excited to see how their dynamic changes in twp. im pretty sure ty has to learn to let go of her at some point in the series and i know for a fact that i will be ugly crying. im already crying just by thinking about it.

so yeah!

i love themmm :333

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As everyone is sharing their childhood being-a-ninja-story when i was a kid and in the pool i would spin around in the water with an inflatable ring thinking I looked like I was doing spinjitzu when in reality you had this weird kid making circles in a pool looking so boring cause I want even going that fast???

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Low key want kit and ash to create a time paradox it’d be sick

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Kit and Jace talking about being related feels like two people with the last name Smith being like “omg we’re related”

Like Eric Smith (from England) and Jeremy Smith (from the US) are both blonde white boys?? Woah!! Must be related