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i was re-watching ‘maya angelou: still i rise’ & lost my mind & heart during this reading of ‘the mask’ so i decided to record + upload for anyone who would also like to be brought to tears. 

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maybe introspection is a scam

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self deprecation at least for me comes naturally in the sense that it is just a silly goofy mindful way of acknowledging your (see: my) own intellect or shortcomings but i’ve grown increasingly wary of even joking abt yourself in any conceivably contrary, mordant way. the universe listens, the body absorbs. the more you speak loosely abt yourself the more that bleeds into the fabric of your interiority and steals you away from yourself, no matter how distanced by humor you think you’re being… if you joke abt how ugly or dumb or worthless or whatever flavor of diminishment chosen you are some star in the galaxy or your world WILL dim, making it increasingly difficult for you to notice easily the parts of yourself you hold in esteem; everything will grow a little shadowed and illusory and grisly and your mind will snag easily on the negative thoughts that rear their heads. over time you have less and less light to shed on the untruths you’ve told at the expense of yourself and so you start believing them. laugh at yourself, sure, but do not mock or deride or lose faith in who you are. it will only become harder and harder to believe in yourself when somewhere in your world is an echo of you speaking poorly abt yourself

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Scary Stories to Tell In The Dark

art by: Stephen Gammell

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the entire point of life is to be silly, kind, and really weird btw.

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MTV’s Downtown (1999)

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Ol Dirty Bastard

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maybe there is no best version of myself. just me, right now, vulnerable and tired and hopeful, willing to show up regardless of what it looks like.