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Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

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Repost if you’re an 18+ Ed blog

I know there’s more of us out there

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I wish I knew what was wrong with me so I could just fix it I thought I was fine for so long but then the depression came back and it just keeps feeling worse and I don’t know what to do I don’t like myself or anything else and I think everyone hates me and I feel like I’m never going to get better

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I think I am the worst person alive

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feeling like him lately

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logging my food again makes me actually aware that I do not need that many calories

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Food log today: kinda messed up at lunch so I’m doing a light dinner.

Breakfast:

- rice cake w/ 1tbsp pb and a banana

Total: 235

Lunch:

- cortado

- breakfast wrap (egg, cheese, spinach, peppers, potatoes, and sausage on a wheat wrap)

- pain au chocolate

Total: estimating 850

Dinner:

- rice cake and hard boiled egg

Total: 105

Net total: 1260

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pov: u just ate a 'normal' sized meal and ur stomach feels like its about to explode

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some schizophrenia symptoms that aren’t normally talked about

confusion

restricted range of emotion

incoherent thoughts/speech

lack of motivation

boredom/anhedonia

social withdrawal

apathy

trouble sleeping

taste and smell hallucinations

distorted thinking

thought blocking

poor memory

catatonia

labile affect

i usually see schizophrenia described in terms of paranoia, visual/auditory hallucinations, and delusions - so i thought I’d put together a list of other symptoms that may be present!

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Guess I should introduce myself.

I’m jewel. I’m 22 and I’m in my junior year of college. I’m going for psychology (go figure) and I have had an undiagnosed ed since I was 14. I hope we can all truly recover someday. I love u all.

MINORS DNI PLS.

NOT PRO JUST STRUGGLING

BLOCK DONT REPORT PLEASE THIS IS MY SAFE SPAC

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I haven’t been counting cals lately so I’m trying to ease back into restricting… I have school and don’t want to hurt my grades with brain fog, but it’s time to commit and hold myself accountable.

Today I tried my best. Meal log below…

Breakfast:

- coffee and oatmeal w pb and banana - 360 but I didn’t finish the oatmeal!

Lunch:

- iced latte 120

- sandwich and broccoli on side 420

Dinner:

- goulash pasta est. 400?

Snack:

- walnuts and chocolate (180)

(My sugar/chocolate addiction is dangerous)

Total: 1480

Hopefully at maintenance cals today. Hoping to lower my intake more gradually. And I’m going to focus on eating clean foods and more vegetarian foods bc that has worked for me in the past.

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Also do we think Indy blue has an ed bc… she’s so thin

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the thing with ednos is every time I think I’m comfortable with my body and don’t need to restr1ct something triggers me and I have to ⭐️ve again… but I get so bad at it from being in pseudo recovery half the time

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Happiness Will Come To You.