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November 8th 2024

Long time no see!

I have been quite busy since the summer.  I won't ramble on about the past few months, except for key events that have occured.

My lover's father was remarried

My lover has bought my engagement ring

My lover's family and I are leaving this upcoming Thursday for Tennesse

I have been in succesful ED recovery for a long while now

Since the end of October some fun things have happened that are not part of what I named the key events that have happened since I last updated.  During Halloween I won my work's costume contest with my home made white rabbit cosplay.  It was a really tough day so hearing that I won made it a million times better.  

Today I just finished my first piece of wearble crochet clothing for myself; I am super proud of myself and will include a picture of it below.

I have been attending church more often as of late.  For the past month I have been going to the church that my grandfather preaches at.  I don't know why I randomly decided to go to church one weekend but I have been going ever since.  The people are nice to me there, I don't know if that is because they are nice people or just because I am the preacher's granddaughter but they are nice to my face at least.  I have brought my lover the past few times but he is not a huge church person.  He feels a better connection to God in nature whilst I feel a better connection to him suring sermons and whenever I am kind for no reason.  

I do have many questions about the bible though but my grandfather seems to just skirt around them instead of giving me an answer; guess I will just have to wait until my father and I's schedules line up so that I can ask him my questions; he gives me very thorough and historical answers as any form of religion he loves to research.

Anyways, a picture of my lover at my grandfather's church is below.

Other than what I have already stated nothing major has happened in my life recently, which I can only assume is a good thing.  I have made the choice to bring back my forgiveness journal as I feel that I was so much kinder when I used it.  This time though, it will be only for my sins and grivences against myself.  I used to have a forgiveness journal a couple years ago but a close friend of mine explained to me why it probably wasn't the best choice for my mental health.  This time, instead of forgiving everyone in my life and trying to forget about what happend I will only be forgiving myself, as well trying to grow my self worth.

Now that I am past the trivial point of my ED recovery I want to try learning to love the body that I am in.  For years I have only seen my body as an in game avatar for this world which has lead me to destorying in so mnay different ways to try and get it to look the way that I want it to.  Now that I have finally come to accept and understand that my body is a vessel and needs to be taken care of rather than chipped and painted over I feel that I am ready to learn to love the amagulation of bones and flesh that carry me and allow me to experience every facet of life that I can.

I don't know when I will be updating next, probably Wednesday since that will be before I leave for my trip; I hope that I am able to update daily oon my trip but lord knows that it will be busy and hectic with eight people in one AirBnB.

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how i need him suit n all ~

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this is so true

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