conversationswithmyself

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 28.5

but maybe it is,

and maybe it's that as well.

one and two and three.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 28

it's not jealousy,

it's not feeling neglected.

a secret third thing.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 27

trying to mend my

thoughts. you worsen them the same

way you have before.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 26

"i don't know how to

deal with you so i'm leaving"

wasn't said, but felt.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 25

if i didn't push

how long would it take you to

even talk to me?

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 24

punch me in the face,

you promised once to do so.

we'll both feel better.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 23

want to self destruct.

too many people are too

close. would be cross-fire.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 22

love is [insert thing here]

except by love you mean God.

i feel far from both.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 21

bring down your own mood.

and the mood of everyone

around you i guess.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 20

each time you leave i

am too slow to speak. once more

i am left in tears.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 19

pretty crescent moons.

i see so many of them

upon your absence.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 18

how dare you compare

me to them when all i asked

for was a few days.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 17

a single word from

you can change my demeanor

in but an instant.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 16

i do not know which

of them i want more. your rage

or your forgiveness.

[conversationswithmyself]

(triple) haiku 15

it is abnormal

that i'm more scared to return

than i am to stay.

it is unlike me

that i'm more scared to return

and i am so sorry.

it is unfounded

that i'm more scared to return.

it will be okay.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 14

safe. safety in spades.

you are the only thing that

is always welcome.

[conversationswithmyself]

haiku 13

you have quietened

my brain, even a little.

you help me feel calm.