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Truer words were never spoken!

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I went to my first ever AA meeting a couple of days ago. They gave me the 24 hour chip. Less than 24 hours later I was buying and drinking alcohol again. The meeting was more helpful than I thought it’d be, and I’m definitely going back, but I don’t know if I’m ready to just… quit. I want to, drinking is ruining my life right now and I don’t want to scare people anymore but how am I supposed to just

not

drink?

I’m already thinking about drinking later. I know I need the willpower to not but I don’t have the tools yet. I don’t know what I’m doing.

I feel like a failure.

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Thank you, I haven’t had a cluster since the one last year thankfully, but if I get one again I’ll be sure to lie down! My appointment with neurology isn’t for another five months so I’m stressing about whether they’re seizures or not and if they’re going to get any worse.

I really appreciate everyone who likes, reblogs, and offers me advice!! Thank you all <3

I need some advice on whether I’m having myoclonic seizures. (I am waiting for a doctor’s appointment but I just really want to know what’s going on.)

I have these full body jolts/glitches sometimes, have done for as long as I can remember. I can go days and even weeks without one and most of the time they’re isolated, although I did have a cluster of them last year which resulted in me throwing my phone and dropping a fork. I get confused and disoriented for a few seconds after each one and when I had the cluster I found it difficult to walk for a few minutes afterwards.

I don’t have any other types of “seizures” (in quotations because I don’t know if they’re seizures yet). I don’t really have auras either? When I had my cluster I could kind of tell if I was going to jerk again but when they’re isolated I can’t.

Please, I could really use some advice on this. From what I’ve seen of myoclonic seizures it looks like what I’m experiencing and I’m concerned.

The tags below are NOT me self diagnosing, it’s so people who experience seizures can see my post and offer any insight if they would like to.

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Update: referred to neurology bc my doctor thinks it’s epilepsy 👍

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I need some advice on whether I’m having myoclonic seizures. (I am waiting for a doctor’s appointment but I just really want to know what’s going on.)

I have these full body jolts/glitches sometimes, have done for as long as I can remember. I can go days and even weeks without one and most of the time they’re isolated, although I did have a cluster of them last year which resulted in me throwing my phone and dropping a fork. I get confused and disoriented for a few seconds after each one and when I had the cluster I found it difficult to walk for a few minutes afterwards.

I don’t have any other types of “seizures” (in quotations because I don’t know if they’re seizures yet). I don’t really have auras either? When I had my cluster I could kind of tell if I was going to jerk again but when they’re isolated I can’t.

Please, I could really use some advice on this. From what I’ve seen of myoclonic seizures it looks like what I’m experiencing and I’m concerned.

The tags below are NOT me self diagnosing, it’s so people who experience seizures can see my post and offer any insight if they would like to.

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I was gonna be five days sober today, but we were clearing out the utility room that stocked a fuck ton of alcohol and I was offered some. Couldn’t help it, I’ve been craving it, just hope I can go back to drinking every day. I’ve missed it so much. Wasn’t my choice to stop, I was made to, and yet here I am again.

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Relapse

One more time,

Let me have a taste of heaven,

You call it insanity,

Drinking at night from six to eleven,

Just one more pill,

And the sadness will go away,

Once I am under the influence,

Who cares if I listen or I disobey,

Give it to me,

Some ketamine and those happy pills,

You’re scared of me now,

It’s giving you ticks and chills,

Take the back seat,

Look at me go down with the ride,

I thought I was invincible,

Because I didn’t have anything to hide

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More goth forcemasc

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More foxes more foxes more foxes more foxes!!!!!🦊

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We have a family of foxes in the garden 🦊

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images of foxes with things in their mouths...

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I wasn’t able to vote today in the UK general election due to some complicated personal goings-on, and honestly I’m a bit upset about it. I went with my fiancé and their family to vote (in a different area to my own) and wished I could take part.

But, we’re finally going to get the fucking Tories out!!!

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this user is learning sign language

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I don’t think it’s about TERFs, I just think people understand that the situation in Palestine is so much graver than a simple misgendering. People are dying. Who cares if we call them men or women, or boys or girls?? Because I don’t think they do.

As a nonbinary person, not everything has to connect to trans or queerness in some way. It’s insensitive, disrespectful and I’d go as far as to say it’s narcissistic.

can't help but think about the trans palestinians who are excluded by the constant use of phrases like "men and women" and "boys and girls." so here's to remembering them. to every palestinian with neglected gynecological issues who isn't a woman or girl. to every nonbinary person who's fallen. to everyone who's lost access to their hormones, who wasn't able to get their gender affirming surgeries - intersex palestinians, too. to every unidentified trans person and every trans person who never got to be their true selves. to all of them, the martyred, and those still struggling just to survive. free palestine - trans and intersex palestinians included.

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SCREAMING

NORMAN REEDUS in the Judas music video

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The way he holds that crossbow does something to me

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