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Coke and weed makes me feel like I’m about to take a nice warm nap

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seeing the girl of your dreams and not being able to have her fucking sucks

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tomorrow is alex’s wedding. fuck im shaking thinking about it and its not even my wedding. Why am i freaking out like this? I’ve been sharing at this piece of paper, the speech i wrote for what seems like hours. I know if I was in his position i’d be overjoyed. He got the girl he wanted so what more can he ask for you know? When i see him with demi it makes me miss..chelsea her. I miss the way i held her in my arms, i miss her smell. i miss her touch. whats wrong with me? no wonder i cant find another fucking girl. fuck. 

anyway, here’s to Alexander Michael Deleon and Demetria Devonne Lovato, I wish you nothing but the best.

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i just want to feel again

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breath. breath. breath. she likes you, just fucking breath

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I'm fucked up again I shouldn't drive tonight, but I keep thinking of you I hurt you again

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Do you ever look at old photos of yourself and wish you could be as happy as you were in that moment. This little guy used to be so happy, so..vibrant, who would’ve known he’d become this. I know I do have friends. I know I do, but there’s days that I wake up and wonder why I’m even here. The music isn’t working, I can’t sell any tickets. Alex doesn’t talk to me anymore. John is on warped and can’t help, but I know that I need to keep a happy face for him and the other friends I’ve made. I don’t want people to be worried about me, but sometimes I wish someone would just ask if I’m doing okay.

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This song will forever be my mood

“God I miss those songs we used to sing. Talking like getting away would be the greatest thing. Well me, I got out, and you singing to me like that’s really gunna set this free.”

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sometimes i wish i could be important enough that id be talked about, but i dont think anyone actually likes me

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i just wish i could be enough for someone

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hello darkness my old friend

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I know I can’t talk considering I haven’t moved on from certain people, but I feel so bad for Lex right now. The fact that she’s hurting him again makes me so angry and I wish I could defend him

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i miss feeling happy

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Some days i sit here and wish that I could have him by my side at all times. He’s the only one I feel safe around, the only one I feel like loves me.

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Sometimes it takes a good fall to really know where you stand.

Hayley Williams (via purplebuddhaquotes)