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Alright, I am officially abandoning this account.

It's been fun, but now I think it's time to write a new chapter, ya' know?

(Read my other post on the matter if you'd like)

Now to the main event....

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I read evrey post on this account tonight... why- did I post literally anything that I did ever? Like wtf was I doing?

Illegal activities, drugs, alcohol, sexual implications, feeding on lust, sins, masturbating, blasphemy, wanting to be a priest, God complex, desperation, and vampires/vampyrs.

Like that is the main description of my account. Which I've had since I was 13/14 :( I almost wanna start over and forget about this monstrosity of an acc.

I've always hated this acc with a deep passion, but I do believe it is about time I start over.

I am hardly even "compte Jaques" anymore aswell, I don't even really speak French on a regular basis anymore.

Like I am not Jack, ya' know like I've changed.

I honestly tried so fucking hard to stick to old habits but due to unforseen circumstances everything is diffrent now. Things are real, ya' know?

I may one day tell you about what I am talking about, but at this very second, it would not be in good taste to tell you anymore than I just did.

Now, writing this I have indeed decided on abandoning this account, and that means all my other accounts associated with this one.

I do not want to stop being on this app, I'm an adult now (been an adult for like 6(?) months already) and I feel disgusted with my posts. Especially the ones of sexual nature, now I will not delete anything- frankly, this account and the old one before it are archives of how I was.

I'm different now... I swear to all that is holy, I'm different...

To an individual: I did not say anything in your asks, besides that one time when I was trying to contact you. sincerely the only reason why I had tried to contact you was what I told you in my message. Since you called me by my name on here, I feel I have the right to ya' know answer you're speculation. I would never, not anymore at least say what that ask had said. That is ya' know illegal. Now, I'm sorry in every possible way, especially for me contacting you. Ofc, I'm not gonna broadcast anymore on anything about you other than this statement.

So- stay tuned for updates on my new account.

I'm sorry for this being so ooc, and like not talking all fancy and shit. This is me, not some fucking charecter that I play, ok?

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actually i can’t even lie rn i just want to cling onto a boy and sleep and we can kiss and rub each others backs and play with each others hair and kiss and

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 James Pradier (1790-1852)  Satyre et Bacchante,detail.

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you will regret this for the rest of your life

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What's the quote again? Uhh, something along the lines of "when you lose a parent, you gain mortality. When you lose a child, you gain immortality."

The whole story is how Anne dealt with her grief. It was a coping strategy. In some ways, it seems like louis and lestat caused Claudia's demise, but in reality, it was probably just Anne and Stan having complicated grief, and they probably felt like Michele's death was somehow their fault. The whole story is based on complicated grief and self inserts.

listen I know it's heartbreaking that Claudia dies and it's understandable to wish she didn't, but let's please not accuse the writers of fridging her. to do so is a fundamental misunderstanding of the story and is frankly insulting to the intelligence and skill of the writers of the show.

Claudia's death, and the overwhelming grief and regret her parents experience because of it, is quite literally the point of the entire story. she dies because Anne's daughter Michele died of leukemia when she was five years old and there was nothing she or her husband could do to prevent it.

writing IWTV was how Anne coped with the unimaginable loss of a parent losing her child. she created a story about a little girl that could not die and then killed her anyway. Claudia's death is a senseless, unavoidable tragedy, just like Michele's was. the grief that haunts Louis and Lestat for the rest of their lives is the same grief that haunted Anne and her husband.

so when you're accusing people of killing Claudia off to benefit a story about two men, please remember that in real life sometimes parents lose their children. please remember Michele Rice.

she's the reason Claudia exists.

she's also the reason Claudia cannot be saved.

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Woah!

Offer me that deathless death

Oh, good God, let me give you my life

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I am literally Lestat

Call me Lestat de Lioncourt, the way I be acting around my favourite person.

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sometimes as a treat, i get to wear a cape

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Good times make soft men? Good. Soft men make me hard.

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"if you want to be an animal so badly I'll start treating you like one"

Okay...you either just confessed to me you abuse animals OR you want to give me treats and pats

Like.. if someone says that to you there's no winning for them. It's such a dumb argument :/

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I was the young heir

The young prince

Then:

I was the aspiring scientist

The one who wanted a change

Then:

I was a poet

The one who longed to rekindle

Then:

I was the vampire

The one who was forced into an experiment

Then:

I was a politician

The one who wanted to rule something

Then:

I was an author

The one who wanted to share stories

Then:

I was nothing

The one who is a husk of what I once was.

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Bones cracking

Bones aching

That dry.

Insatiable hunger.

I had gone far to long away from humanity, and I'm growing Ill and my bones hurt.

I must feed before I perish.

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I'm going to look for a post that was posted in February of last year. I'll update you with my opinions :)

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🌸 Take a moment today to appreciate how far you’ve come. It doesn’t matter if it’s a giant leap or just a small step—you’re still moving forward. Celebrate the little victories, because they’re what make the journey worthwhile. 🌸

Thank youuuu!

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I love my psychotic posts on here💀

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there should be a thing called lustful academia. romantic academia but more passionate. pomegranate juice dripping down your hands as you open the ripe fruit of love; stains left on the annotated book you’re currently reading. lady dakota warren level of passion and lust for life, knowledge, art, and literature, but even more intense. pure bacchanalia.