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people in fanfiction are so good at identifying v specific smells. I literally struggle to identify vanilla when I’m sniffing a candle labelled “VANILLA” how are these kids getting woodsmoke, rain, mint, and a whiff of byronic despair from a fuckin tshirt

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LUNA. It was Luna.

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like the first rule of cooking is to have fun and be yourself and the first rule of baking is to stay calm because the dough can sense fear

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so I was rewatching some clips of fantasy high S2, and I got to the iconic "it's gorgug, keep going" scene, and I'd like to focus instead on the part just before he says that. it's that intensely claustrophobic scene where gorgug drags himself through an underground tunnel of roots and dirt and skittering bugs.

maybe I'm overthinking it, but there's something here about gorgug seeing a space that's not made for him, that's too small and makes him uncomfortable, and instead of changing that space (there's a moment where Zac says gorgug briefly thinks about cutting down the trees, but decides against it) to make it more comfortable for him, he instead forces himself through it to his own detriment. kind of like how through his life, he has been moving through all these spaces that were not made for him and do not suit him and he has never asked to be accommodated for fear of being inconvenient, and instead quietly forces himself through the discomfort.

i think this is why being an artificer works so well for him. in conjuction with gaining his confidence, he is also choosing to pursue a path where builds and invents and changes the world to accommodate, because he deserves to be accomodated, rather than suffering in silence. this is why I was so insistent while s3 was coming out that porter was being an asshole not encouraging gorgug's foray into multiclassing into artificer. gorgug wasn't stubbornly making things harder for himself, him choosing to be an artificer was his way of making things better for himself, accommodating himself. being an artificer means inventing things, altering the world, and for gorgug, that meant altering this to suit himself, rather than trying to force himself into a space that didn't fit him.

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in every incarnation that ayda lived alone and lonely there was already a meteor shower on its way through space to symbolise the love she would one day find

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armor of ayda as a spell is SO good imagine if you attack a teenage girl and a fiery image of her girlfriend shows up and punches you. incredible spell ayda 10/10 no notes

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The words of a man who has been burned too many times.

.... and still hasn't learned

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"my champion, my rock, my everything"

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why do people think victorian orphans were like. the peak of sheltered pure innocence

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Lmao, Gorgug, a guy that is actually cool, thinking Cody is cool was like a brick to the face. A stark reminder that ya boi was listening to evanescence on the first day of high school.

He is an emo until his dying day.

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The only thing that has ever improved my mental health in any measurable capacity is making more friends. That's literally it

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they won't tell you this in therapy but sometimes the best way to stop catastrophizing/anxiety is to interrupt your spiraling with "girl what the hell are you talking about"

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london night 1 may have been fabian’s no good very bad day, but night 2 was definitely gorgug’s

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rip Gunnie Miggles-Rashbax, you would’ve loved to see the UnitedHealth CEO assassination

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Maybe the reason why Gorgug isn't on the bad kids on that timeline is because it's the timeline where Zac is the DM and the campaign's Kristen is british Kristen

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My home will be a home with no loud anger, no explosive rage, no slamming doors or breaking glass, no name calling, shaming or blackmail. My home will be gentle, it will be warm. It will keep my loved ones safe. No fear, no hurt and no worries. I may come from a broken and twisted place but I will build something whole and safe. I’ll sing in the shower again, cook with a smile and dance in all the rooms. I will heal.

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learning that people want you in their lives is a skill you can develop if it does not come naturally