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New photo of Dylan Klebold from Bill Ockhams Twitter page.

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growing up lonely gave me brain damage

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i am utterly disappointed in who i have become. i wanted to be someone better, someone important, someone beautiful. but instead i waste space, i waste time and i burden the people i love. this isnt the future i had in mind for myself and i know its too late. i’ll never get that future i dreamed of as a child.

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“Was I raised without love? Or was I born unlovable?”

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The Tragic School Bus (photos via dontori)

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Excerpt from Sue Klebold’s journal, entry dated April 21st, 1999

source: a mother’s reckoning

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requested by just-another-human-with-wires

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“December 1998: Sue, Dylan’s mother, takes him to a restaurant for lunch. Dylan keeps his trenchcoat on. That receives some strange looks from other guests, and Sue asks him to take of the jacket; people seem to be a little afraid of him. Dylan only smiles and doesn’t remove his trenchcoat.”

— We Are But We Aren’t Psycho (via rebnvod)

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men lose my empathy so fucking fast.

so i’m reading the body keeps the score, it’s a book mainly about trauma and PTSD.

in the veterans chapter i almost started to feel bad for the patients. there was a patient who had to check into a hotel on july 4th, couldn’t STAND the sound of his own children laughing because of all the dead children in vietnam, things like that. i started to feel empathetic, and then of course.. the man reveals what he did in vietnam. after his buddies were gunned down by the vietnamese, he stormed over to a local village and murdered 30 innocent people, and violently raped and then murdered a mother in front of her children.

i immediately don’t give a fuck what kind of trauma you went thru if women and children always face the brunt of your aggression

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as a species I don't feel that we were meant to fill out complicated forms and documents

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I'm juggling like twelve different hyper-fixations right now and whichever one is currently at the forefront of my mind depends on the positioning of the stars and the temperature outside

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when the dash is boring and i start going to the blogs i follow individually for posts: im on tour ^_^

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i think about this a lot