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Day 18/# of being productive and staying from instagram

Have been inconsistent with the amount I’m studying. But have been productive in the past 2 days; finally submitted abstracts for the upcoming conference. Started work again today, tried to do at least 2 questions. Minimal progress but progress nonetheless and I will take it. Raw emotions due to everything happening both at home and everywhere. But I want to keep moving forward.

PS : ignore my very unappealing writing and lack of aesthetic sense

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Day 16|# of staying away from instagram and being productive:

Finally sent the abstracts to my mentors for final review. I’m gonna meet one of them tomorrow for last minute edits. And on Wednesday, I’ll be back to work.

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Day 13- Almost 2 weeks since I stopped mindlessly scrolling through reels. Tried to be more consistent with studying and exploring more opportunities. Have a couple of abstracts that need to be refined for submission and talk to attend on Sunday. A tiny bit sad that I didn’t do a lot on my vacation but at least I spent the time on my self. Waiting for the fellowship match has been hard. Hopefully everything works out.

I have spent the past few years thinking I’m walking an uphill path and tomorrow would be better than today. What I didn’t realize was I am spending my days in anticipation of tomorrow, in anticipation of an event/work and living today in anxiety of making sure those things are perfect. But I want to change the way I’m thinking. I want to keep telling myself that I’m already in cruise control and that I have already achieved what I set out doing. The journey has been so long and murky that I don’t even know where I am right now. So let me try this experiment and see how things change.

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Started limit of 3 hours on the background entertainment watch of me. Does any else have this habit of doing 2-3 times at once because you’re too buzzed to do just one and need more to keep yourself from getting bored?

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Day 7 of staying away from instagram. Im back to studying and writing things down. Hopefully I can continue this after vacation too.

One thing I have noticed is that, since taking my mind off distractions I’m more anxious and jumpy. I am not sure if it’s a temporary thing. But there are a lot of confounding things. So I am not worried about it.

1% positive changes. Here’s to hoping tomorrow brings happiness

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Off instagram for almost a week now. It feels very weird to not be constantly scrolling. It’s been a roller coaster of a week.

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It’s been so long since I posted anything anywhere. I feel like I have been just ignoring everything and just getting through the motions in the past few years. Yesterday, I realized most of the constraints I feel are products of my own thoughts. I want to give that thought a try and change the way my life is working. If you’re been around, follow me and let’s see if dopamine detox is an actual thing. I have deleted instagram and I am going to be away from sodas. I set a target of 1 week to start. Let’s see if that really helps. Now you might have a question of why tumblr if I’m trying to stay away from social media.? With instagram.. I spent hours together scrolling mindlessly. Here I aim to be more productive with journaling my progress and my discipline. I felt a different social media where I’m not really prone to scrolling aimlessly might help. And people from my real life might know me on other social media platforms. So tumblr it is. Let’s see how productive I will be in the next week. I already got back into reading a non-fiction book today.. something I haven’t tried before, cooked a meal from scratch (something I do most of the days, so no big change), went on a walk with my friend to grab a cup of coffee ( which I do very rarely). So I feel like baby steps but day 1 is productive.

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Took a break after so many days.. PGY2 schedule is so hectic