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I'm not just a bitch, I'm a bitch with a backstory
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current state of f1:
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bestie did her thing 🙏😍
Flash Forward - M. Verstappen (part three)
summary: The world of F1 is never easy. Throw in your childhood enemy, a new coworker you can't quite get a read on and a new situationship? You're in for a wild season.
pairing: Max Verstappen x fem!reader (Ferrari photographer, graffiti artist, childhood enemies), Charles Leclerc x platonic fem!reader, Logan Sargeant x situationship fem!reader
warnings: swearing, drinking, allusions to sex (no smut), brief mentions of Max's childhood, angst, use of y/n
a/n: i cannot believe i'm finally done with this series. taking max and y/n through three F1 seasons was a whirlwind but i'm so happy the entire story is yours. knowing me, i may do small little blurbs with them in the future, as i don't think i'll be able to part with them for very long. also this was written before Logan's ELMS announcement.
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part one // part two
Monte Carlo, Monaco
You woke up to the soft weight of blankets wrapped around you, the familiar warmth of Logan’s body pressed against yours. The subtle rise and fall of his chest against your back was grounding, comforting even. His arm was lazily draped across your waist, fingers just grazing the edge of your ribs under the shirt you had stolen from him.
Both of you had been taking it slow. Real slow. Your connection caught in the limbo between friends and something more - something you weren’t ready to name, even if the moments almost felt like it. The dinners that went on a little longer than they should have, Logan insisting on covering the bill, the excuse to stay over just one more night, because it was better than going home alone. The stolen kisses, the way his lips pressed against yours unexpectedly, tentatively, like he was testing the waters. It was all there - the signs, the quiet gestures, the closeness that seemed to build every time you were together.
But you hadn’t defined it, not really, not in the way it felt like it needed to be. No titles. No labels. Just two people slowly getting to know each other on a more intimate level, waiting for the other to make the first move.
And that was fine by you. In fact, you preferred it.
While your artwork was a different story, you had never been one to rush into romance. The last two years with Max had been an exception. Max had been a whirlwind. A rush of emotions that left you dizzy, breathless, and swept up in decisions that came too fast. You hadn’t been ready for all of that, but you didn’t know any better at the time.
But Logan? There was no urgency, no rush. Everything happened exactly as it should - slow, stress free, like a puzzle you pieced together, one small moment at a time. It felt easy. It felt right.
After you placed a small peck on his skin, you wriggled out of Logan’s grasp. His arm shifted a little, but he didn’t wake.
You made your way to the kitchen to make breakfast. Logan was obsessed with Carlos’ pancake recipe, and it had quickly become a Sunday morning tradition between you two. Whenever he stayed over, it was pancakes, coffee, and conversations about anything and everything. So, you grabbed the flour, the eggs, the vanilla, and of course, the honey.
The scent of pancakes always made you feel cozy, even before the first bite. You also adored mornings like this, quiet and slow, where the world outside was just waking up, and inside, there was only the soft hum of your Spotify playlist and the sizzle of batter on the hot griddle.
During the season, it was rare for you to enjoy these moments. It was always running to the track, trying to remember where in the world you even were. The chaos of the season was fun, the challenge of meeting deadlines exciting, but it was welcoming to have this kind of peace.
As the pancakes began to cook, you set the table, making sure to leave a spot for Logan. You heard him stir in the other room, the soft shuffle of footsteps on the hardwood mixed with the music that was playing. You didn’t have to rush him. He would be out there when he was ready, just like he always was every Sunday.
You flipped the pancakes, the golden edges crisping up perfectly, and when you turned around, you saw Logan standing in the doorway. His hair was messy, his eyes still full of sleep, and his bare chest a welcoming sight. For a moment, he just watched you, taking in the sight of you wearing his Williams Racing shirt, the fabric loose on your frame. A lazy, content smile crept across his face that made your chest tighten in a way you couldn’t quite explain.
“Morning” he said, his voice thick with sleep but warm, as if nothing in the world was more important than the moment in front of him.
“Morning” you replied, glancing over at him before turning back to the griddle.
The sound of his bare feet shuffling on the hardwood filled the room again as Logan made his way over to you. His arms wrapped around your waist, pulling you in from behind. You could feel the heat of his body as he lazily tucked his head into the crook of your neck, watching you finish cooking breakfast.
“You look good in my shirt” he murmured, voice muffled against your skin, but there was no mistaking the smile in his tone
You chuckled softly, planting a soft kiss on his head “I think I wear it better than you do” you teased
“Maybe” he said, but his smile only grew “but I’m gonna steal it back after breakfast”
“Sure you are” you rolled your eyes, a smile still plastered on your lips
Your focus turned back to the pancakes, feeling his arms tighten around just a little around you as he nuzzled against your neck. It felt effortless. Comfortable. For the first time in a while, it felt like you were exactly where you were supposed to be.
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Across the hall, the atmosphere was completely different. There was no music playing, no playful banter, just quiet that felt heavier than it should’ve. It had been like that for a while now - tension that settled in, unspoken and unresolved, no matter how hard Max tried. Ever since his vacation in Barcelona, your face had been at the forefront of his mind.
He had told himself it was just a passing thing, that he was back home and everything would go back to normal. But when he’d returned, it was impossible to ignore the shift. The connection he had with Isabella, while once comfortable and familiar, now seemed foreign. It felt like something was missing. And in the quiet of his apartment, in those rare moments when he allowed himself to stop and think, the only thing that kept creeping into his thoughts was you.
He couldn’t deny it anymore. After Barcelona, he had spent far too many nights scrolling through your social media accounts - stalking, in the most harmless way possible, or at least that’s what he told himself. It started with your personal account. It wasn’t like he was trying to find something to make himself feel better about the distance that had grown between him and Isabella, but somehow, you’d become a constant in his thoughts.
Each photo, each post, every little detail felt like a breadcrumb trail he couldn’t resist following. There were shots of you, your eyes half closed in the sunlight, a soft smile on your lips, standing on the edge of the world in England. Then there was Logan, appearing more and more in your stories and posts, at first casually, but then with a certain ease, like you beginning to slip into something… more. There were no signs of it being explicitly named, not in the way that would make everything real, but there was no mistaking the quiet chemistry that danced through your posts, through the subtle way your fingers brushed his in a candid shot, or how you started tagging each other in pictures that felt intimate, even if you didn’t mean them to be.
But then there was your photography page.
It was no secret that Max had admired your work - he sang praises about it to whoever would listen, even if you weren’t around. Ferrari still dominated the feed, all those breathtaking shots from last season, the smooth curves of the cars, and the sleek lines of the racetracks. But littered throughout the bright red, were sprinkles of dark blue. Hints of his own car were still found in the whirlwind of red.
But there was another shade of blue creeping into your feed. It was lighter, and gave a much more welcoming feeling. That shade of blue wasn’t going to destroy anything and everything in its path. The shade of blue that only belonged to a Williams car.
Mixed into the racing photos were photos of your travels, places you visited between races and seasons. These were more intimate. A series of pictures that felt real. Not the polished shots he was used to seeing of events and on the track. These felt raw, unfiltered. And in those images, hints of Logan could be seen - an arm, or the back of his head. His shadow in your life became undeniable.
Max always found himself staring at those photos longer than he should. Trying to piece together a story he wasn’t a part of. A narrative he didn’t want to be a part of, but couldn’t help but feel drawn to. He wasn’t a fool. He could see what was happening, even if you hadn’t fully realized it yet. You had slipped away, or maybe you were just beginning to let go of the illusion that you and Logan were just friends. Max didn’t know how to feel about it.
He should’ve been happy for you, right? You were finding someone. You were finding something. But there was a bitter edge to his thoughts. Because no matter how many times he tried to bury the idea, the feeling grew stronger. What did this mean for him and Isabella? What did this mean for his own feelings, things he hadn’t even processed yet?
Max pulled up your personal profile again, the small colorful circle around your profile photo showed that you had posted a new story. Against his better judgment, he tapped on it. A photo of your kitchen table popped up, two plates filled with pancakes - Carlos’ recipe most likely, he knew how much you raved about it. Across from you was a hand. A man’s hand. Logan’s hand. Logan was across the hall.
Max’s chest tightened, his breath came up in short, sharp bursts as he stared at the image on his phone. The photo of you and Logan. It was innocent, nothing overly affectionate - just pancakes, a lazy Sunday morning. But that hand. The way it rested on the table, the fingers just shy of brushing against your own, spoke volumes.
He had spent weeks trying to push down the feeling that something wasn’t right with him and Isabella. He had told himself it was just the pressures of the season, just a phase. But now, it felt like everything was crashing down on him at once. The quiet distance between him and Isabella had only grown, and you had become a constant thought, even though he knew it wasn’t right.
Jeddah, Saudi Arabia
The paddock always felt like a circus - an ever changing, high stakes performance where the pressure was as loud as the noise. Even the most experienced drivers occasionally crumpled under the pressure. Throw in the nineteen year old reserve driver? It’s gonna be interesting.
“So Carlos needs to get his appendix removed?” you asked as Annalese entered the hospitality suite.
Annalese sighed, “Apparently” she replied, slipping into the chair opposite of you. “It’s not ideal, but the surgeon apparently said he’ll be fine after a few weeks. But you know what that means…”
“Ollie?” you asked
“Ollie.” she answered, “which also means…”
“Finding him and doing quick media content” you finished her sentence, a smirk playing on your lips.
As if you two were being controlled, you stood up in sync, already knowing what you had to do. Your attention was on the tablet in your hands, swiping through the team schedule, looking for any hint as to where Ollie could be.
“According to this, he should be in the garage going over data.” you said, eyebrows furrowing in concentration as you looked at the spreadsheet.
“So we should be able to snatch him for a moment to make the announcement video.” Annalese replied
“That, or his team is going to chase us out of there, armed with wrenches and screwdrivers”
You continued to scroll down the spreadsheet, curious as to what the day brought for the rest of the team. Your diverted focus however, meant that you didn’t notice the person standing in the middle of the walkway until you had collided with their chest.
“I’m sorry -,” you began as you took a step back and looked up from your tablet, “Max?”
Max’s eyes flickered with a mix of surprise and mild annoyance, but his expression softened when he realized who it was. The faintest of smirks tugged at his lips, and to no surprise, his usual air of confidence was there.
“Didn’t see you there” you muttered, adjusting the tablet in your hands, a little flustered at the collision.
Max’s smirk deepened, and he took a small step back, glancing down at the tablet in your hands before meeting your eyes again. “Clearly” he said, his voice laced with amusement. “How’ve you been?”
You blinked at the unexpected question, taken aback for a moment. Max wasn’t one to check in on people, especially outside of race-related matters. Especially if he blew up in your face mere months ago. You shrugged nonetheless, attempting to shake off the sudden feeling of vulnerability.
“Busy” you replied, offering a half smile. “You know how it is, constant chaos.”
Max nodded, fiddling with the can in his hand. “Right, of course.” he said before taking a breath. “How was your break?”
You felt the question hang in the air, and for a brief moment, you hesitated. Max asking about how you were was odd in itself. Him asking about your break was even more strange, especially after everything that happened between you two. The memory of that argument, the tension from months ago, still lingered in the back of your mind. But then, it was Max. He had a way of keeping things casual, pretending like the cracks never formed in the first place.
“Break?” You raised an eyebrow, hoping you sounded nonchalant. “It was… alright. Quiet. Logan and I did a bit of traveling.”
Max’s expression softened at the mention of Logan’s name, though his eyes betrayed a flicker of something you couldn’t describe. He nodded, as if processing the information, but his smirk remained in place. “That sounds nice. Traveling is always good, even if it’s just to get away from it all.”
You shrugged, trying to keep things light “Yeah, exactly. A little peace and quiet never hurt anyone.”
There was a beat of silence, the sound of the paddock humming in the background, the usual chaos always just a heartbeat away. Max fiddled with his Red Bull can again, clearly thinking. The brief lull felt oddly comfortable, despite the tension that you both seemed to be dancing around.
“So, how about you?” you asked, trying to shift the focus back to him. “Did you get a proper break?”
Max’s lips twitched into something that could’ve been passed as a smile, though it was far from reaching his eyes. “You could say I had a break, though it wasn’t exactly restful.”
You wanted to ask what he meant, if something happened behind the scenes, but that would mean he was important. And Max Verstappen was not an important part of your life anymore.
And so, you didn’t. Instead, you offered a nod, letting the silence last just a little bit longer.
“Hey!” Annalese called, cutting the silence between you “Love that you guys are chit chatting, but we have a driver to find”
“Right” you said, any traces of awkwardness left slowly evaporated as you were brought back to reality. “We need to go find Ollie. But thanks for the chat, Max. It’s uh… been a while.”
Max gave a brief, almost undetectable smile, his eyes softening for a moment. “Anytime” he replied, words quieter than usual. Then, without another word, he turned and walked off, his footsteps steady and sure as always.
Just as you expected, you found Ollie in his garage. The number 55 was nowhere to be found, but instead replaced by 38. You were honestly amazed how quickly the team was able to swap everything out, as if Carlos was never even there.
The stark change in the number alone reminded you that the Spaniard wouldn’t be with Ferrari come next season. Lewis had signed with the team, and while you were excited to see what he could add, you were going to miss Carlos.
Ollie was to the side of the garage, staring intently at the wall of monitors, clearly deep in thought. His focus was unwavering as he looked at the data, the world around him easily faded away.
You wanted to leave him be, let him get as adjusted as possible without media distractions. But the life he lived didn’t let that happen.
So, you sighed as you walked up to the reserve driver. “Hey, Ollie” you said, hoping not to scare him “Got a minute?”
Ollie turned his head to look at you. You were expecting him to be annoyed that you pulled him away from his data, but the Brit had the biggest smile on his face.
“Yeah, of course, I’ve got a minute,” Ollie said, putting his headset down. “What’s up?”
Annalese hesitated, surprised by his easy going approach to the weekend. The switch from Carlos to him - however temporary - was a huge turn of events.
“Need you for a quick video” Annalese said, motioning to the camera slung around your shoulder. “Just the usual - announcement for Carlos’, uh, situation.”
You didn’t feel the need to elaborate, only offering a nod. He knew exactly what Annalese meant.
The three of you made your way out to the pit lane for filming, as there were no cars on track. You walked Ollie through what to highlight in the video, offering him suggestions on what to say.
“Ready?” you asked, holding your camera in the perfect angle.
“Ready” he answered. You pressed record, motioning for him to start talking. “Hey guys, Ollie here, bit of an unexpected night to be standing here. Firstly my condolences to Carlos…”
You and Annalese exchanged glances, the two of you thinking the exact same thing. Carlos isn’t dead. But Ollie was so busy rambling about his day and how excited he was to be with Ferrari, that both of you kept your mouth shut until he was done.
“That was good, but you know, Carlos is still alive, he’s just getting surgery” you couldn’t help but chuckle
Ollie froze for a moment, his eyes widening as he processed what you said. “Oh no.” His face flushed with embarrassment as he quickly glanced at Annalese who was holding back a laugh. “I-uh, I didn’t mean it like that. I swear, I didn’t-”
You couldn’t help but laugh as Ollie scrambled to explain himself, his face now matching the color of his Ferrari shirt. polo. “It’s okay, we know you didn’t mean it like that”
Annalese couldn’t hold it in as she let out a snort of laughter. “Carlos would definitely appreciate not being mourned while he’s still very much alive, recovering in a hospital bed.”
“But it would be really fucking funny if we left that in the video.” you added, a smirk still dancing on your lips
“Would you leave it in the video?” Ollie asked, curiosity lacing his words
You shrugged “Honestly, probably. It was a solid one-take, you hit everything on the head, and the hiccup will surely add a bit of humor for the fans.”
Ollie didn’t need any more convincing to agree to use the already filmed clip. As quickly as you pulled him away from his work, you sent him right back to it, hoping to get him prepped and ready for the weekend.
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Fortunately, Ollie did great for his first F1 race. He finished P7, getting six points for the team. Charles made the podium for the first time for the season, placing P3 behind Checo in P2, and to no one’s surprise, Max in P1.
You waved to Ollie as you made your way to parc ferme, making a note to congratulate him when you had a moment. When you got to parc ferme, you found yourself a spot for photographing the top three. As you snapped photos, you chatted with some of the team, congratulating each other on the podium. One of the people you expected to be there though, was nowhere to be found.
Your eyes scanned the crowd of Ferrari crew members once more. Surely you had just glossed over her in the sea of red. There were so many people, all wearing the same uniform. Nope. No sign.
She wouldn’t miss his podium. Not in a million years. You knew she’d do anything and everything it took to be there. She did it all last season, even if Ferrari wasn’t on a step. But there you were, and she was noticeably absent.
“Hey, have you seen Isabella?” you asked, walking up to one of the mechanics, trying to sound casual as you snapped a few more photos of Charles yapping with Max.
The mechanic looked at you with a slight hesitation, as if he was debating whether or not to tell you. “She’s with Ollie. Getting a headstart on the post race work with him.”
Your eyebrows furrowed, and you could feel a flicker of doubt in your chest. Getting a headstart on post-race work? Sure, that made sense for someone new on the team. But Isabella? That didn’t quite add up, especially if going to celebrate Max was an option to put it off.
“Right” you said, trying to mask the intrigue in your voice. You turned your attention back to the three drivers, snapping one last picture as they disappeared into the cooldown room.
You went through the podium routine, being sure to avoid getting doused in champagne. Once the celebrations subsided, you made your way back to the Ferrari garages. Isabella was seated on one of the stools, camera in hand, most likely looking at the photos she took. It was hard to tell whether she was deep in thought about the photos or just lost in her own head, but something about her demeanor didn’t seem entirely normal.
“Hey,” you said, keeping your tone light as you approached her, “Good shots?”
Isabella didn’t immediately look up. Instead, she absently adjusted the camera in her hands, before giving a soft, almost absent minded nod. “Yeah I think so,” she muttered, her voice quieter than usual. “Pretty standard, nothing too exciting.”
You couldn’t help but feel a flicker of concern. Pretty standard? You would be the first to admit she was an incredibly talented photographer. Isabella saying her photos were pretty standard was unheard of.
You took a slow breath and decided to press a little further, knowing her decently enough to read between the lines when something didn’t feel right.
“Why weren’t you at the podium?” you asked, trying to sound casual but noticing how your voice came out slightly softer than you intended. “I thought you’d wanna see Max-.”
At the mention of the Red Bull driver, Isabella’s posture stiffened for a fraction of a second. She quickly forced her expression back to neutrality, but you caught it. She met your gaze for the first time since you’d walked up to her, her lips curving into a small, almost dismissive smile.
“I just wanted to make sure Ollie was set for the post-race media scrums. He’s still adjusting to everything, you know?” Her words felt rehearsed, like a practiced response, and though her voice sounded calm, there was a tension there - an underlying current that made your gut twist with suspicion.
You nodded, but the unease in your chest only grew. It was definitely true that Ollie may need the extra help going through his first F1 weekend, But Isabella wasn’t the type to stay away from the celebrations for that.
Before you could ask any more questions, Isabella stood up, her body language shifting in a way that made you feel like the conversation was over. “Anyway, I’ve got work to do.” she said quickly, her tone almost now businesslike, as if to close the door on any further discussion. “I’ll catch you later.”
With that, she packed up her belongings, and made her way through the garage, leaving out of the back.
You stood there for a second, processing the interaction you just had. But before you knew it, chatter quickly filled the pit lane, as Red Bull was making their way to their garage. Leading the pack was Max. His gaze lingered on you for a heartbeat too long, his usual cool demeanor slightly shifting as if something had crossed his mind.
Your mouth opened, as if you were to speak, but no sound came out. You didn’t know what to say to him. Congrats on the win! What’s wrong with your girlfriend?
So, you quickly broke eye contact, not wanting to draw anymore attention to him. But his look was sharp, calculating, like he was reading you. It was unsettling, to say the least.
Melbourne, Australia
One of your favorite races on the calendar was Melbourne. Ever since you started traveling down under, the city held a special place for you - part of it being the thrill of being so far away from everything you've ever known in Europe, but also because there was something electric about the energy there. Whether it was the bustling streets, the laid-back vibe, or the fact that the Australian Grand Prix was always a spectacle, Melbourne had a way of drawing you in every time.
One you’d dropped off your bags and gotten settled, the first stop was always the same: Graffiti Alley. You could call it a bit of a tradition at this point, and even though you’d wandered through the maze of artwork countless times before, it was never the same. It was a living, breathing space, filled with history, culture, and the spontaneous creativity that you longed to return to from when you were a teenager.
This time, you brought Logan. You were bouncing off the walls with excitement as you finally got to show him arguably your favorite street in the world.
“You ready for this?” you asked, glancing over at Logan, your fingers intertwined with his.
Logan, gave you a grin and shrugged, his curiosity piqued. “Let’s see if it lives up to the hype.” You could read him like a book, so you could tell he was trying to play it cool, acting as if he hadn’t spent the last fifteen minutes scrolling through his phone looking up pictures of the alley.
A laugh left your mouth, feeling a wave of fondness for him as you turned the corner. Off the bat, you noticed some of the artwork had been painted over with new pieces.
You couldn’t help but smile as you looked at Logan, still trying to play it cool, his phone now tucked away in his pocket as he took in the surroundings. You could tell he was impressed, his eyes darting from one striking piece of art to the next, the occasional flicker of recognition crossing his face as if trying to place the meaning behind the murals.
“See?” you said, exchanging Logan’s hand for your camera. “I told you it would be worth it.”
Logan’s grin widened as he looked around, eyes scanning the art. “Okay, okay. I get it now,” he said, shaking his head in mild disbelief. “This place is unreal. It’s like the walls are talking to you.”
“Told you” you teased, as you brought the camera up to your face, snapping a few shots of the art around you. You were sure to get a few of Logan’s amazement.
Logan rolled his eyes as you took the photos of him, but his smile never waivered. “Fine, fine, maybe a bit.” he conceded.
The two of you navigated through the network of backstreets, snapping photos as you did so. Logan followed your lead, taking out his phone and channeling his inner photographer. You couldn’t help but laugh as he mimicked your poses, hoping to get the same angles you were.
“You look ridiculous” you chuckled as you watched Logan squat in the middle of the alley.
“Hey, I’m just copying you.” he said, throwing his hands up in defense. Once he finally got himself up, he wrapped his arm around you, pulling you in. “Have you ever thought of buying a few cans and graffiting a piece here?”
Your weight shifted a tad, leaning more into him as you pondered the question. “I mean I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t thought about it” you said, looking around the walls that surrounded you. “But I don’t know”
“Why not?” he asked, “I’ve seen your work, it’s definitely worthy of being up here.”
You paused for a moment, looking at the vibrant artwork around you. The last time anyone had talked about you adding to it was with Max years ago. It was an idea that had taken up a lot of space in your head, but one that never came to fruition.
“It’s a little intimidating, you know?” you said, glancing up at a mural of a heart restled in the branches of a tree. It was one of the few murals that had been there every single year you’ve visited. The colors faded in the sun, but no one had dared to touch it. “I also don’t want to cover up someone’s work.”
Logan placed a kiss on your head, before speaking “If you do, just know I’ll be the first one wanting to see it.”
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You didn’t see much of Logan the rest of the weekend. Between his media duties, him getting his car taken away for Alex to use, and your camera getting hit by a cricket ball that Charles had smacked, you both had your hands full. You did, however, see a lot more of Max than you were expecting.
It started on media day. Both him and Charles had been running around talking to different sponsors, doing promotional videos, and simply hanging around the paddock. Whenever you were on the move with Charles, it seemed Max was always walking past in the opposite direction. It wasn’t unusual for him to be involved in everything - everyone wanted to meet him after all - but this time, there was an undeniable shift in the air.
It was subtle at first, but once you noticed it, you couldn’t unsee it. Max’s glances were no longer just passing, neutral acknowledgements - he was actively seeking them out. It wasn’t the typical “I’m just here to do my thing” look that you were used to from him. This was different. His eyes lingered for just a beat longer than usual, a slight smile tugging at the corner of his lips whenever they met yours.
It was during the post-qualifying press conferences that it really hit you. You were sitting near the back of the media room, scanning through some of the shots you had taken earlier when you caught Max’s eyes across the room. He was in the middle of answering a question, but for some reason, his gaze flickered to yours again - longer this time. When your eyes met, there was something unspoken there. It wasn’t a stare, exactly, but more of a quiet acknowledgement that only the two of you seemed to understand.
You’d be lying if you said you weren’t intrigued by the shift. His desire to hold your attention oddly coincided with Isabella’s shift in demeanor. Curiosity got the best of you as you opened Instagram, typing in her handle name into the search bar. As you thumbed through her profile, there were a few things you took note of.
The first thing that stood out was the change in Isabella’s posts. There weren’t as many shared moments with Max, no sweet captions or photos of the two of them at events. In fact, it had been a few weeks since she had even mentioned him in her stories.
You could already feel the pieces falling into place, as you noticed posts from the past few months had a new cover photo. Posts that had Max at the forefront of them now were replaced by landscapes or solo shots of Isabella.
As you lurked, you found yourself staring at one of the last remaining traces of Max on her profile. It was a photo of one of the beaches in the French Riviera, with Max’s silhouette in the distance, his outline tagged with his username.
So, you did what you thought any other person would do, and followed the tag to his profile. While it was common knowledge that someone else mostly ran his account, you couldn’t help but look. His posts were more frequent, more personal. There were the standard race weekend photos, but sprinkled in were photos of his day to day life, of Jimmy and Sassy. Photos that the public wouldn’t normally get.
They had definitely called it quits.
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The run ins with Max continued as he was forced to retire on lap 4. You were on the complete opposite side of the circuit as he pulled into the pit lane, but as he did so, you received a text
from Isabella.
Can we swap assignments for the rest of the race?
No questions asked, you agreed, letting her know where you were currently stationed if she wanted track shooting ideas. You rode the golf cart shuttle back to the pit lane, where Isabella was already long gone.
One of the many monitors on the wall was the TV coverage showing the Red Bull garage next door, with Max sitting in his car, frustrated. It was understandable, having to give up winning the race because of a car failure.
You made your way to the pit wall, finding yourself a spot in between the grating of the metal fence that separated you and the track. The rest of the race you were stationed there, alternating taking shots of the cars on track and turning to shoot the boys as they pulled in for a pitstop.
Carlos and Charles had finished first and second, respectively. From your spot, you were able to capture both cars crossing the finish line, as well as the team celebrating along the wall as they did so.
As the mechanics and engineers turned to race down to the podium, you turned to follow suit, only stopping when Max’s gaze caught your attention yet again. He was standing outside his garage, clearly showered and changed into his team kit.
You didn’t expect the sudden jolt in your chest. His gaze held for just a moment too long before both of you broke it simultaneously, you looking down toward the podium, and him to his engineer. Mere seconds later, you met each other's eyes again, GP was gone, and you had a minute or so to spare before the ceremony began.
“Hey” you said, giving him a soft smile as you approached the rival garage. “Sorry about the race”
He shrugged, “It’s all good. I can’t win every race, no matter how much I try” he joked, a small chuckle leaving his mouth.
“Can’t stay on top forever, huh?” you replied, your voice light even though you could sense Max’s frustration lingering beneath the surface. You paused for a moment, debating on whether or not to bring her up. Against your better judgment, you did. “How’s Isabella taking the DNF?”
Max’s expression shifted for a brief second, and you could immediately tell you hit a touchy subject. His eyes narrowed, a mix of frustration and contentment formed on his face. He let out a small, controlled exhale, before responding in a calm voice. “She gets it. It’s all part of racing.”
Knowing Max, and how much he hated someone pushing his buttons, that’s exactly what you did. And thankfully, you were pretty good at playing dumb.
“Did something happen between you two?” you asked, tilting your head slightly. “She’s usually the one comforting you over here when you have a bad race.”
“We broke up.” he informed you, his jaw tightened slightly before being released. “Things weren’t working out.”
Your expression softened for real this time as he confirmed your speculations, noting the slight disappointment in his voice. “Oh, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to bring up anything-”
“No, you’re fine.” Max interrupted, running his hand through his damp hair. His tone changed, as if he got a second wind, as if he was okay with the split. “I was the one who ended it all.”
You don’t know why your heart pounded a little extra when you heard his explanation. People go through breakups all the time, it’s just a part of life. But the way he said it, so matter-of-factly, yet with an undertone of something unspoken - struck a chord in you. It was almost like there was another factor that contributed to him breaking things off with Isabella.
You also weren’t sure what to say after that. You couldn’t apologize, that would lead to a never ending cycle you didn’t want to be a part of.
“I’m sorry.” Max blurted out before you got a chance to find what to say.
You blinked, caught off guard by his sudden apology. Max Verstappen, of all people, apologizing? It almost felt out of place. He was more than capable of doing so, but it was something you never expected.
“Sorry?” you asked, your voice barely above a whisper, as if to make sure you hadn’t imagined it.
“Yeah,” he nodded, swallowing before he spoke again. “For Singapore. I spoke without thinking.”
You didn’t need to ask what he was referring to. The argument had been burned in your mind. The words thrown at each other, the accusations. It was a tattoo that you couldn’t remove.
“Yeah, you did” you let out a small chuckle, catching the driver by surprise. The chuckle was quickly followed by a sigh, your voice lowering. “But I think I did too.”
Max’s brow furrowed slightly at your words, and he looked at you with an unreadable expression, as if he wasn’t quite sure how to respond. For a moment, it seemed like he was trying to process what you meant by that.
“You did?” he asked, a hint of curiosity creeping into his voice. “I didn’t think… I mean, I wasn’t expecting an apology from you.”
You shrugged, a little sheepishly, but your gaze held steady. “Yeah, well, I guess I wasn’t exactly calm either. I got caught up in the heat of it too. I shouldn’t have reacted the way I did.”
There was a pause as you both stood there, in this strange in-between space where everything felt more real than it had in a long time. You hadn’t expected to be standing here, having a conversation like this with Max. The silence of car engines being turned off snapped both of you out of your bubble.
Max glanced down towards the podium, before landing back on you. “You probably should-”
“Yeah, I should go.” you said, turning to walk away. You stopped for a moment, turning back to get his attention one more time. “Hey Max?”
“Huh?” he asked, looking at you again
“Do you wanna grab a coffee next time we’re both back home?” you asked
Max stared at you for a beat, his eyes flickering with something unreadable. For a moment, you weren’t sure if you caught him off guard or if he was considering the offer. But then, a small smile tugged at the corner of his lips, something genuine - almost relieved.
“Sure.” he said, his voice quieter than it had been “I’d like that.”
You were surprised by how easy and natural it felt to say those words to him. You hadn’t expected the conversation to take the turn that it did, but something about it felt right.
“Cool. I’ll see you around, Max.” you replied, finally turning to walk toward post race celebrations that were already underway.
Monte Carlo, Monaco
Arranging a date to meet took longer than either of you had hoped. Between race weekends, Max buried in sim work and meetings in Milton Keynes, and you flying in and out of Maranello for shoots and content, the calendar seemed to mock you both. When you were both home, it felt like you couldn’t catch a break. You’d pass each other in the halls of your building, both too busy to do more than wave as you hurried to your respective commitments.
But somehow, after a month of missed opportunities, the stars finally aligned. It was a quiet weekend in between races, and you had a rare break from the chaos.
Max was sitting at his sim, wrapping up the sim racing stream he was doing with some of his friends. As he was logging off, his phone buzzed with a text from you.
Free tomorrow? Coffee at my place?
His heart gave a little skip. He hadn’t seen you properly in ages, and even though you passed by each other in the halls and paddock, it had somehow felt like months since you’d last had an actual conversation.
He quickly typed out a reply.
Max: I think I can squeeze it in. Time?
You: 10 AM? I’ll keep the coffee hot
The next morning, he stood in front of your apartment door, adjusting his shirt and trying to ignore the slight flutter in his chest. It wasn’t a big deal, right? Just coffee.
It took a minute to build up the courage to knock on your door, but when he did, he could feel his stomach flip. He could hear the shuffling of your footsteps - at least he hoped it was just your footsteps from the other side of the door. You didn’t explicitly say Logan would be there, but you also didn’t say he wouldn’t.
The door swung open, and there you were. You looked relaxed in a gray Miami Dolphins hoodie and leggings, the familiar warmth in your eyes as you greeted him.
“Hey” you said, your voice soft, with the same warmth that Max loved. “Come in.”
Max stepped inside, letting the door fall gently behind him. The apartment was cozy, and definitely yours. As he passed the kitchen, he noticed photographs and artwork donning the walls, in a tasteful manner, each piece hung with intent. Once you led him to the living room, he instantly took notice of two skateboards mounted on the wall above the couch. The top one painted with the Ferrari lettering, while the bottom one had three skeleton hands flipping him off.
He couldn’t help but smile when he saw the boards. He should’ve known you would’ve added a touch of your skater past in the apartment, but it was a welcomed touch. It was you.
“Nice place.” he said, glancing around. The apartment felt a lot like your childhood bedroom, warm, inviting, and very much like it reflected you - comfortable, and lived-in, but matured enough to not seem childish. Maybe it was the slight familiarity of the decorations, or the fact that Logan wasn’t there, but Max felt an odd sense of ease as you guided him further into the living room.
“Thanks,” you said softly, as you motioned toward the small kitchen counter where the coffee was already set up. “Take a seat. I’ll grab you a cup.”
Max settled onto the couch, glancing at the books and knick-knacks scattered about - a mix of travel souvenirs, racing memorabilia, and more personal items that seemed to tell a story. It was like a puzzle of your life, scattered in front of him, each item a clue.
When you returned with two steaming mugs of coffee, he snapped out of his thoughts, looking up at you with a small smile. “You know,” he said, taking the cup you handed him and breathing in the rich aroma, “I didn’t think we’d get to do this with our schedules. It’s nice.”
You returned the smile, your eyes soft with a quiet, easy warmth. “It’s been a while since we’ve actually had time to talk, huh?” you said, making yourself comfy on the couch as well. “We’re both always running around, never getting a chance to actually stop for a minute.”
Max nodded, cradling the coffee between his hands. The heat was comforting, much different to the coldness you two had been giving each other the entirety of last season. He took a sip of the drink, letting the flavors infiltrate his taste buds.
“This is really good, y/n. What is it?” he asked, his mind far from the small talk you were having moments earlier.
You pondered the question for a moment, as if you were trying to find the answer to your question. “This one is the Italian roast. I’ve been alternating between this and a Spanish roast Carlos gave me.”
Max let out a chuckle at the mention of his former teammate. “Really? He must really know his coffee if he’s giving you tips.”
A sigh escaped your lips as you leaned back into the couch cushions, your body language casual and comfortable. Max couldn’t help but notice how much easier it felt to be here now. No racing. No rush.
“You have no idea. We’ve started having to follow him to the espresso machine in the motorhome so we can get his coffee content. But honestly, it’s hard to fight back when he always gives free samples.”
Max shrugged, “Maybe I need to start bribing him with something to get my hands on some of this next time.”
“I think a race win would be a perfect trade off” you offered, a smirk playing on your lips
The driver rolled his eyes, but the smile still persisted on his lips. “Hey, some of us are fighting for a World Championship.”
“Yeah, your fourth” you replied
“You can never have too many” he defended before taking another sip of the coffee, the liquid warming his throat.
As you two caught up, Max couldn’t help but feel a small shift inside, like the walls that both of you had built up between you over the last year were slowly starting to crumble. The act of sitting there, of just talking, seemed to be more than enough. And from your shift in body language, you seemed to be realizing the same.
“I think we both needed this,” you said quietly, a small, genuine smile forming on your face. It was a different kind of smile than you usually wore - one that was more open, less guarded. “Just time to breathe.”
Max nodded, returning the smile back to you. “Yeah, we really did. It was nice to catch up without any distractions for once.” After a long silence, Max sighed, standing up. “But I should probably get going. Thanks again for this.”
You stood up too, walking him to the door. “Anytime,” you said, the soft smile on your lips making his chest tighten a little. “We should do it more often. We’ll both be in town next weekend.” you said. He instantly registered that you meant that you’d both be in town for work. It was about to be the Monaco Grand Prix, afterall.
Max smiled, a genuine curve on his lips. “Definitely”
And as he stepped out the door, he didn’t want to leave. But the connection had been made. And that was enough, for now. Something had shifted between you. It was subtle, but it was real.
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The week had flown by, and before you knew it, you found yourself back in the paddock. Just like last year, Logan was staying with you, but Oscar chose to bunk in the team hotel. He claimed that it was “team orders” and they were “nervous that he’d leak important information to the rivals” but you knew he just didn’t want to be the third wheel. You didn’t have a super license, and Logan was driving a dumpster on wheels.
Regardless of the tractor that Logan was driving, or McLaren’s sudden paranoia, one thing was for certain: when the hometown boy wins, everyone celebrates. The streets of Monte Carlo were always packed with parties during the weekend, but this was another level.
“Is that Vasseur?” Logan asked as you walked into Jimmy’z, his eyes narrowing as he scanned the crowd.
You turned in the direction Logan was looking, following his gaze upwards. Sure enough, Fred was high above the crowd, on top of someone’s shoulders. You chuckled, as you shook your head.
“Well, at least it was easy finding where the team is” you pointed out, your eyes still on the scene.
You both laughed, and as the two of you continued weaving your way through the crowd toward the bar, you couldn’t help but notice how Logan’s body was pressed up against yours, close enough that it was hard to ignore the warmth radiating between you two. The chaos of the club didn’t seem to matter much in that little bubble you’d formed as you stood waiting for the bartender to notice you.
One of Logan’s arms was lazily draped over your shoulder as the other was resting on the bar, his card in hand.
You raised an eyebrow at him. “You are not paying” you said as you took notice of his card
Logan just grinned, not missing a beat. “It’s the least I can do for the winner.” His voice was playful, almost teasing.
You rolled your eyes, not sure whether to laugh or groan. “I didn’t win anything,” you reminded him. “I simply stood there and took photos of it all.”
“Eh, minor details.” he said as the bartender finally approached. He ordered for the two of you, listing off your favorite drink as he did so.
“You know my drink order?” you asked as the bartender went on his way to make the drinks.
“Of course I do.” he replied, his grin widening as he leaned a little closer “I’ve been paying attention.”
As the evening wore on, the drinks continued to flow. You and Logan took turns buying each other rounds, with additional drinks being added by other drivers, engineers, and mechanics.
With the additional amount of alcohol in your system, your inhibitions faded away. You dragged Logan out to the dancefloor, where the music pulsed through the speakers, and the bright lights made everything a little hazy. The crowd was wild, moving in sync to the beat, and you and Logan quickly found yourselves caught up in it all.
Logan didn’t hesitate for a second, grabbing your hand and pulling you closer as the rhythm took over. You both laughed as you moved together, the chaos of the weekend forgotten in that bubble of energy.
The drinks had hit, and the world around you seemed to blur more. You could feel Logan’s hands exploring your body as you danced, the heat of his touch sending sparks through your skin. The music thumped, almost louder than the racing of your heart, as his body pressed closer to yours, moving in rhythm with yours. The space between you was nonexistent as he held you, the closeness magnetic, impossible to ignore. His hand slid to your waist, pulling you even closer, this breath warm against your ear as he leaned in.
“Having fun?” he murmured, his voice low and husky
You nodded, your breath quickening, but it wasn’t the music that had you like this - it was the way he was looking at you, like you were the only thing that mattered in that moment.
A giggle escaped your lips, more carefree than before. “I didn’t think you liked to dance.” you teased before kissing his lips, half expecting him to break the moment and crack a joke.
Logan’s grin turned more into a smirk, eyeing the door before turning to look back at you. “I mean, I’d rather be moving a different way with you.”
Normally, you would have dismissed the idea, brushed it off as a joke, and continued the banter. But with your inhibitions long gone, you eyed the exit, the thought of taking Logan home much more alluring than it had been moments earlier.
You pulled Logan closer to you, crashing your lips against his once again, unable to resist the pull between you two. The kiss was instant, raw, and full of intensity. His lips were warm and urgent against yours, deeping the connection with every movement.
Logan’s hands found your waist, pulling you tighter against him. The feel of his body against yours was electrifying, and the feeling of the rhythm of his heartbeat matching yours was addicting. His fingers gently traced the line of your back, sending shivers through you, and you couldn’t help but to lean into him more.
When you finally pulled away, both of you panted, dying for air. Your hand rested on his cheek, his bright blue eyes stared into yours.
“You wanna get out of here?” you asked, the air returning to your lungs.
“Please.” he said before taking your hand, leading you out of the club and back home to continue the night.
The cool night air was a sharp contrast to the head you’d left behind in Jimmy’z. The walk back felt too long, though neither of you said anything. Every now and then, Logan would glance at you with that playful grin, his fingers lightly brushing against your skin. There was no need for words; everything you both wanted seemed to hand in the air, unspoken but understood.
When you reached your apartment, Logan was quick to open the door, pulling you inside with a quiet urgency. As soon as the door clicked shut behind you, he was on you again, his lips crashing against yours. His hands moved to your back, guiding you backwards until the back of your legs hit the couch.
Logan’s hands pressed into the small of your back, guiding you down as he followed you, never breaking the kiss. The world around you seemed to fade as everything narrowed to just the two of you - his lips on yours, his touch igniting every nerve in your body. His body was warm against yours, and the heat was intoxicating.
You pulled him closer, your hands threading through his hair, tugging him deeper into the kiss. The urgency in his movements matched your own, his touch leaving a trail of fire along your skin. The rhythm of your hearts synchronized again as you moved in perfect harmony, the tension in the air building with every passing second.
He pulled away for just a moment, his breath coming in quick bursts as he looked down at you, his eyes dark with desire. The heat of the moment hung thick between you, both of you caught in the electricity of the connection.
“You sure?” His voice was low, gravelly, as if he was trying to make sure you were on the same page, but his hands never stopped exploring, his lips never straying far from yours.
“Yeah” was all that came out of your mouth, before pulling him in once more.
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You woke up to the soft weight of blankets wrapped around you, the familiar warmth of Logan’s body pressed against yours. For a split second, it felt like a regular morning - quiet, peaceful. The kind of mornings you’d have after binge watching another season of the Outer Banks. But the details slowly sunk in as your mind came alive. The way his arm was slung over your bare waist. The fact that your legs were tangled beneath the sheets, pressed together in a way they definitely shouldn’t have been.
You froze.
The events from the night before began to replay in flashes - the plethora of drinks, the touch of his hand brushing against yours. You hadn’t planned for the night to end like it did, but you let yourself get lost in everything. The kisses he placed on your neck, his low voice in your ear. You both had always danced around this kind of tension, but last night, it was like you couldn’t stop it. It had been inevitable.
Your chest tightened, and you gently pulled away from him, careful not to wake him. Fortunately, he slept like a rock, and you were able to wiggle out of his grasp and stood without him moving a muscle.
You stood there for a moment, the quiet of the room wrapping around you as your heart raced. The weight of the situation began to sink in - what had happened between you and Logan was real, and you needed to figure out what you wanted to do about it going forward.
You ran a hand through your hair, trying to make sense of it all. It was complicated. There was a pull between you - there was no denying that. But what happened last night may have been too much for you.
Taking a deep breath, you tossed on the Ferrari sweatshirt and sweatpants that were resting on your desk chair and made your way through your apartment to the kitchen. The soft creak of the floorboards under your feet barely made a sound as you moved. You needed space to think, to process. You weren’t sure how things were going to change between you and Logan, but you knew one thing: you had to get out of the in-between thing you had going on with him.
The steady hum of the coffee maker was oddly comforting as you poured yourself a cup, though your thoughts were anything but still. The warmth of the mug in your hands was a stark contrast to the cold wave of uncertainty that stirred in your mind. You stared into the dark liquid, the aroma doing little to clear the fog in your mind. The night had shifted something between you and Logan, but whether that shift was permanent, or a temporary lapse in judgment, you weren't sure.
And then there was Max. You thought you had pushed all of your feelings away for that man. Shoved them, along with all of the memories, in a small little closet, never to open. But ever since he sat in your apartment, that door was going to break at any moment.
You set the mug down, leaning against the counter as your thoughts continued to spiral. Last night had been intoxicating, yes, but in a way that felt more dangerous than thrilling. Logan was your best friend, you couldn’t afford to lose him. As much as you loved the months leading up to the night before, you couldn’t let him break your heart.
And now, there was a chance you would.
Suddenly, you heard the sound of footsteps from down the hall, slow and tentative. Your heart skipped, and you turned to see Logan standing in the doorway, his hair messy, his expression still sleepy but alert. His eyes found yours immediately, and there was an unease in them that mirrored your own.
“Hey” he said, his voice rough, trying to gauge your mood. “You okay?”
You nodded slowly, though the uncertainty still lingered in your chest. “Yeah, I’m fine. Just… thinking.”
Logan hesitated, and then, as if taking a deep breath, he walked toward you. “Look, about last night…” he trailed off, his eyes searching yours as if trying to figure out how to approach the situation. You could tell he was trying to tread carefully, not wanting to make things more awkward than they already were.
You picked up your mug again, as if hoping the warmth of the liquid would help with what you had to say, and met his gaze. “Yeah, about that…” your voice faltered for a moment before you steadied yourself. “Logan, I don’t know what to do.”
His eyes softened, his gaze lingering on you for a second. “I don’t know either.” He stepped closer, his hands shoved into the pockets of his sweatpants. “I care about you, and I don’t want things to be weird between us.”
Somehow, a soft chuckle was the thing that came out of your mouth at his words. “Little too late for that” you said, “I don’t know if we can just pretend everything is fine”
Logan looked at you, his expression shifting to confusion. “What do you mean?” he asked, his voice quiet but heavy with concern
You exhaled, feeling the air fall out of your lungs. You didn’t want to hurt him. The last thing you wanted was to make things worse. But last night - it had been a mistake. Everything had felt so right in the moment, in the months leading up to it, but now, in the light of day, it was clear that it was too much.
“I think… I think we can’t just go back to how things were.” you admitted, your words tasting bitter on your tongue. “I’ve had fun the past few months, and loved last night. It’s just… I just don’t think we should continue with it.”
Logan’s face fell, and for a split second, you saw something in his eyes - hurt, maybe, or disappointment. But it quickly masked itself with an understanding that both stung and comforted you.
“Are you saying you regret it?” he asked, his voice barely audible
You shook your head, “I don’t regret it one bit” you said, hoping that would give some comfort to the American. “I just don’t think all of this was supposed to happen. We’re friends, Logan. I don’t want to lose that, and I don’t want to lose you.”
His gaze softened, his expression unreadable for a moment. Then, he gave a small, resigned nod. “I get it” he said, the words barely there, like he was trying to convince himself more than anything. “I don’t want to lose you either.”
The silence between you both grew thick, heavy with unspoken feelings, and neither of you seemed to know how to bridge the gap that had opened up.
You swallowed hard, your chest tightened. “I think we just need to go back to being friends. Like we were before.”
Logan sighed, a mix of frustration and sadness in the sound, but he didn’t argue. He just nodded again, the flicker of pain still there, but there was something else in his eyes now - a flicker of understanding that wasn’t there before.
“Okay.” he finally said, his voice low. “I can do that.”
The words hung between you two, and for a moment, neither of you moved. It felt like there was a distance between you now that hadn’t been there before. You didn’t know how things would be from here, or if they’d ever go back to the way they were. But deep down, you knew you had to try.
“I’m sorry” you whispered, your voice barely audible
Logan glanced at you, the corner of his mouth lifting a weak smile. “It’s okay” he said, though you both knew it wasn’t. But that was the problem with mistakes. They couldn’t be erased.
The rest of the morning passed in a muted silence, and though you both pretended that everything was fine, the air between you felt different. Changed. But at least, for now, you were still friends. And that’s all you could hold onto.
Spielberg, Austria
For the first time since you started working with the team, Ferrari wasn’t number one on the Bulls hit list, it was McLaren. So, you, along with the rest of the team, were able to enter the Red Bull Ring with ease.
You found Isabella and Annalese in the hospitality suite, chatting excitedly over pastries and coffee, one of their phones on the table. Isabella looked up first, her eyes lighting up when she spotted you. “There you are!” she called, waving you over. “We were just talking about you.”
Ever since you swapped assignments in Melbourne, you and Isabella had started talking more. It had been a rough season between you the year prior, but as you two talked more, you found you two had more in common than you thought. Aside from your shared love of photography, you found out she also paints, just with a paintbrush and canvas.
“Talking about me, huh?” you asked, raising an eyebrow as you sat on the couch next to her. You had come in to look for Carlos and Charles, but the conversation seemed much more interesting than the drivers.
“Yeah, your episode of Drive to Survive finally came out” Annalease said, glancing down at the phone on the table
You felt a brief flash of embarrassment, suddenly aware of the attention that your name had drawn. The interview you had done in Austin last season had completely left your mind, until now. Agreeing to do the show had always been a tricky subject, especially when it came to the fact it documented not only the highs and lows of what’s been happening on track, but also painted your personal life and struggles in front of the world.
“Ugh, don’t remind me” you laughed, trying to brush it off. “It was a… weird experience.”
Isabella gave you a teasing look, clearly amused. “Weird? You came across great. It was all professional and calm, even when they clearly tried to invade your privacy. I think you looked like a pro.”
You rolled your eyes, though you couldn’t suppress a smile with the compliment. “It’s just weird seeing yourself on something like that.”
Annalese, who had been watching you closely, chimed in. “At least there aren’t any memes being made about you.”
“Yeah, Toto is still living with the aftermath of ‘I have it printed out.’” Isabella chuckled before taking a sip of her drink.
“True” you said as one of the doors swung open.
The three of you turned to the sound to see Charles leaving one of the meeting rooms. He spotted the three of you almost immediately, a smile on his face as he approached.
“Or you could be this guy, who doesn’t even need the show to be made fun of” Annalese teased
The driver’s face dropped as he registered what she had said. “What was that for?” he asked, looking genuinely confused.
Annalese grinned as she looked at the driver, “Just comforting y/n, she’s worried about her reality TV debut” she said, glancing at you.
“I’m not worried,” you interjected. “I’m just not used to my personal life being aired out for the world to see”
Charles’ face lit up in recognition as he looked at you. “Oh yeah! The episode was really good. We’ve all seen it. You honestly didn’t reveal too much” he said “You handled everything with Max really well.”
You shot a look at Isabella, checking on her at the mention of her ex-boyfriend. Max had been a topic of plenty of conversations before, but each time you felt the need to make sure it was okay to talk about. The photographer gave you a soft smile, nodding to let you know you were in the clear.
“Yeah, I mean, everything I said in it is true. I still admire the hell out of him, even after everything we’ve been through our entire lives.” you said
Charles nodded, clearly understanding the complexity of your feelings. “Max has a way of making things… complicated. It’s good that you’ve handled it with so much grace.”
Yeah. Max was the one that made it all complicated. But Max wasn’t the one to run from whatever you two had going on a few years ago. Max wasn’t the first one to slam the door on you two. Max wasn’t the one to hide.
Before you could say anything else, another door flew open, revealing Carlos walking out. You silently thanked the timing of it all, relieved for the interruption.
“Perfect, I need both of you.” you said, slinging your camera bag over your shoulder as you looked at the two drivers.
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Getting in and out of the Red Bull Ring was always chaotic. Crowds swarmed around the track, a sea of orange wherever you looked, all hoping to catch a glimpse of the three time world champion.
When it wasn’t the fans though, it was the cameras. You could sympathize with them a little bit more, being a photographer and social media creator yourself, but you also couldn’t stand the ones just dying to get into a driver’s business. They’d shove their lenses where they shouldn’t, getting uncomfortably close to personal spaces, all for a shot that would most likely get lost in the sea of other images flooding the internet within minutes.
It was quali day, and you had just parked at the track. In the distance, you could hear the chatter of people mixed together with the occasional burst of laughter or shouting. Taking a deep breath, you got out of your car, mentally preparing yourself for the day ahead.
You opted to try to enter through the back gate, figuring it wouldn’t be as crowded as the main one. It was a little more out of the way, but you would take the exercise over being mobbed. But as you got to the back gate, you could tell it was going to be a battle.
Fans, photographers, influencers, and reporters alike swarmed the gate, all in hopes of seeing their idol. You kept your head down as you grabbed your paddock pass out of your pocket, hoping you’d go by unnoticed.
You approached the gate cautiously, following a few of the Red Bull engineers, as you weaved through the swarm as best you could. As you made your way through the last few people, you accidentally bumped into someone.
“I’m so sorry” you said, turning to apologize. As you met the gaze of the person, you cursed yourself for doing so.
The person you had bumped into was a photographer, one infamously known for prying himself into the drivers’ business and spreading it all over the internet. His photos were some of the ones that spread around the rumor about you and Max a few years ago.
Both of you froze, recognition flashing on the photographer's face as well. His camera was in his hands already, most likely prepped to stick its nose in someone’s drama.
For a second, the world seemed to slow. A small smirk played at the corner of his lips. His finger twitched around the camera, and you could already feel the weight of it - the unmistakable tension of being the subject of his lens.
Whether you wanted it or not, your sudden stoppage, along with the sound of your voice, drew more attention than just the photographer. Fans had taken notice of your presence, and the buzz around you started to grow. With the Drive to Survive episode just being released, people had you fresh in their minds.
Cameras flashed and people tried shoving things in your hands - flags, tshirts, pens, their phones - the whole lot. It was overwhelming. You were unaccustomed to the attention - your job always having you in the shadows, being the one creating.
It felt invasive, and for a moment, you felt completely exposed. The weight of the cameras pressing in on you, the overwhelming noise from the crowd, and the sudden sensation of hands reaching for you felt like an avalanche.
“Hey!” a familiar voice rang out, causing your head to snap up, but you couldn’t find the source. “Give her room, give her room”
Through the crowd of people, you could see someone coming toward you, pushing through the crowd. The sea of people parted slightly, and through the shifting mass, you saw Max’s familiar face emerging. He was like a force of nature, moving through the crowd with confidence.
With one last “move” leaving his mouth, he grabbed your hand, leading you through the crowd. As you passed through the gate, the air on the other side felt calmer. The rush of adrenaline that had coursed through your veins when the crowd had surrounded you started to ebb, and you found yourself taking a deep breath.
“Are you okay?” Max asked, his voice a little softer than you expected, his eyes searching yours for any signs of discomfort.
You nodded, still trying to shake off the last remnants of that suffocating feeling. “Yeah, I’m fine.” you answered, looking down to see your hand still holding Max’s. Slowly, you pulled away. “You didn’t need to do that. I would’ve been fine.”
“No you wouldn’t have, it was just you against how many people?” he said, shooting you a look but a small smile still on his face. “I’m surprised you didn’t walk in with Logan.”
At the sound of his name, your face fell. He was still a tough subject, one you had only told Isabella and Annalese about.
Max immediately noticed the shift in your expression, the lightness in his voice fading as he took in your sudden change in demeanor. “Did something happen?” he asked, his tone more cautious now.
You hesitated, the weight of Max’s question making your chest tighten. You hadn’t expected him to press, but his concern was genuine, and his eyes softened as he waited for your response. The air felt thick between you, and for a moment, you considered brushing it off. But Max had a way of getting under your defenses, of making you feel like he really wanted to understand.
“It’s… complicated,” you said, glancing down at the asphalt beneath you for a second. “It ran its course.”
Max didn’t push any further. Instead, he nodded in understanding, his hand briefly giving your arm a tight squeeze in a way that was somehow more comforting than his words. “I get it,” he said quietly, his voice low. “You don’t have to talk about it if you’re not ready. Just know that I’m here, alright?”
You managed a small, appreciative smile, feeling the tension in your body begin to ease. Max never made you feel like you had to explain, didn’t make you feel weak for not having everything figured out. It was nice.
He continued to walk beside you, his pace slow and steady as if he was giving you the space you needed. “It was the same way with Isabella and I… the relationship just wasn’t what we both thought it would be,” Max continued, his voice still calm, his words measured. “You can only go so long pretending things are fine, when deep down, you know they’re not.”
You looked over at him, surprised. When Isabella had talked about the ending of the relationship, she said similar things - that it ran its course, there was nothing either of them could really do anymore - but hearing the world champion talk about it was different. It was almost hard to imagine him going through anything similar. But the way he spoke, so matter-of-factly, with no shame or anger, made you feel like it wasn’t as unique as it felt.
Max continued to yap about his relationship, both trying to fill the silence between you but also give you some sort of comfort without you having to go into details, which you were appreciative of. You had missed how much Max talked, how much he could fill the space with his words, without ever putting any pressure on you.
The two of you stopped as you reached the facade of the Ferrari motorhome, a comforting silence between you for the first time since you saw him.
“Thanks, Max” you said, your voice more relaxed than before. “For… not pushing, but also sharing everything with me. It helps more than you realize.”
He glanced at you and gave a half-smile, the usual cheeky glint back in his eyes. “I told you, I’m here for you.”
You knew Max wasn’t a fan of physical touch. Ever since you were kids, you knew he loathed when someone would try to hug him, or pat his back when he did a good job. But there, in that moment, all you could do was force your arms around him, your body acting on its own before your mind could catch up.
For a second, he tensed up, caught off guard by the suddenness of it. But then, just as quickly, he relaxed. He didn’t pull away, didn’t seem uncomfortable, and before you knew it, you could feel his hands on your body as well.
The warmth of his body against yours, the unexpected comfort in the hug, made something shift in your chest. It wasn’t like you needed saving. But being with Max always made you feel less alone, and that was something you knew you couldn’t take advantage of anymore.
“I don’t know what to say” you whispered, your face pressed against his shoulder, your voice muffled by his polo.
“You don’t have to say anything.” Max replied softly, his hand rubbing your back. His voice was quieter, much more sincere. “You don’t ever have to explain anything to me. Just know I’m here, always.”
You pulled back slightly to look at him, your hands still resting on his shoulders as you searched his eyes. There was something in the way he looked at you - no judgment, no pressure - just understanding.
“Thank you” you said, your voice quieter now as well. “I mean it.”
Max simply nodded, his gaze softening as he glanced down at you. Suddenly, you remembered his distaste for physical touch, so you moved your hands away from him.
Your cheeks grew warm with embarrassment. “Sorry about that, I don’t know what came over-” you started
“You’re fine. I know you needed it” Max interrupted, his voice calm and reassuring. He didn’t seem too bothered by the hug. In fact, there was a certain warmth in his demeanor that made you feel even more at ease.
The shadow of the Ferrari building rested on the concrete in front of you, a reminder of why you were even in the paddock. The chaos of the weekend all seemed so distant being with Max, that seeing the Ferrari logo sent a jolt of reality back into you.
You took a step back, glancing back at the building behind you before looking at Max again. “I should probably get back to work.”
The same realization must’ve hit Max as well, as he cleared his throat and looked up at the red and black facade.
“Yeah,” Max agreed, his voice almost wistful. He took a half-step back, his hands dropping to his sides though his expression remained soft, like he was holding onto the moment. “Good job, by the way, on the interview for the show.”
The mention of the show caught you off guard. Max was never one to pay attention to the media, especially one that painted him out to be the villain.
“You watched it?” you asked, curiosity piquing in your voice
He shook his head. “No, but I’ve seen clips floating around.” he admitted, his tone casual but his eyes betraying a hint of genuine interest. “You handled yourself well, honestly you made everything that went down last year… not so important.”
While the exact questions that you had been asked in that interview were now far from your memory, you do remember being asked about your relationship with Max, how different it was compared to the other drivers since you knew him so long. It had been a touchy subject, but you spoke with complete honesty, knowing how much of your connection with him was private - something you didn’t want to overshare, but realized you couldn’t completely hide.
Max’s acknowledgement of it now, though, surprised you.
“I appreciate that,” you said, a smile playing on your lips. “I wasn’t sure how it would come across, honestly. It’s… complicated, you know?”
Max gave a knowing nod, his eyes soft but focused. “Trust me, I know. But you didn’t give them more than they needed.” his voice had that same reassuring tone as earlier before he chuckled. “I’m just glad you didn’t make me seem like a complete ass too.”
You couldn’t help but laugh at that, the tension easing a little more with the humor. ‘Oh, I wouldn’t do that to you,” you teased lightly, rolling your eyes. “I care about you too much for that.”
Max raised an eyebrow, clearly amused. “Really?”
“Really” you replied with a grin, “You might be a pain in the ass sometimes, but you’re still one of my closest friends.”
Max let out a soft chuckle, shaking his head. “You’re lucky I'm not offended by that.”
“Oh I know” you said playfully before letting out a long sigh. “But I should actually get back to work now.”
Max chuckled softly. “Go on, I’m sure there’s plenty more to do. But don’t stress too much, yeah?”
“I’ll try not to,” you said, “Thanks again Max. Good luck out there.”
You watched him walk off for a moment, just like you had for the past two years, before you turned back to the Ferrari motorhome, ready to tackle the rest of the day.
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The paddock had quieted down as the teams slowly filtered out, the buzz of activity from qualifying hours behind you. Without any additional content to film for the day, you found yourself back in your hotel room earlier than expected, a rare bit of downtime.
You emerged from the bathroom, steam still hanging in the air, wrapped in your favorite comfy pajama set. Despite the heat outside, your room was chilled to the perfect temperature, giving you an excuse to snuggle up in comfort.
Normally, after a long day at the track, you’d settle under the covers with a hot cup of tea, diving into editing your photos. But with the last remnants of daylight still spilling through the window, you decided to sit at the desk instead. The view of the town spread out before you, the golden hues of sunset casting a peaceful glow across the streets below. It was the calm you craved, though it didn’t quite settle the restlessness in your mind.
While Max had done his best to get you out of the crowd and calm you down earlier in the day, the overwhelmingness of it all still haunted your thoughts. The flash of the cameras, the pressure of being surrounded by people, the suffocating feeling of being so exposed. It was an invisible weight you couldn’t shake off.
You distracted yourself in the best way possible - throwing yourself into your work. Along with the photos from qualifying, you had files of photos from past Grand Prix’s that you never got to edit. The disregarded, B-roll snaps. The ones of the team goofing off, being actually human. The ones that would end up on your photography Instagram and not Ferrari’s.
You scrolled through the gallery, flipping past the perfectly composed shots of drivers in their element and instead landing on the more candid moments. There was one of Carlos and Charles trying to sneak past the media, both of them cracking up, trying to hide behind their oversized sunglasses and floppy hats. Another was of Lando sitting on the edge of the pit wall, yawning and stretching in between stretching in between practice sessions, looking utterly exhausted but still managing a cheeky grin. You smiled softly as you clicked through each of these moments, knowing that while the fans might only see the polished, perfect images, you had the privilege of seeing them as people, not just athletes.
You began to edit, the familiar routine soothed your fraying nerves. The gentle tapping of your fingers on the keys, the soft click of the mouse, it was grounding in a way nothing else had been all day. A series of photos - Ferrari mechanics huddled together laughing as they shared a joke - was your focus now. You always enjoyed capturing these moments. They were unguarded, full of life and personality.
As the editing process pulled you further into the flow of work, your thoughts began to settle, the weight of the crowd and the chaos from earlier starting to fade into the background. Time slipped away without you realizing it, until your phone buzzed on the deck in front of you, pulling you out of your concentration. The screen lit up with a message from Charles: Have you seen this?
You furrowed your eyebrows as you picked up your phone, a small flutter of unease forming in your chest. It wasn’t unusual for Charles to send you things, often funny memes - he was chronically online afterall. But there was something about the tone of the message that made you pause. You clicked on the message, half-expecting something lighthearted, but when the link opened, your heart sank.
It was a post from the photographer. The same one that frequently invaded the drivers’ privacy and shared snippets of the paddock that the general public wasn’t allowed to see. The caption read: CAUGHT IN THE ACT: Max and Ferrari photographer/F1 content creator y/n shared a surprising moment at the Red Bull Ring as Max helped her away from the crowds. Is the Dutchman off the market again?
The image accompanying it was one of you and Max from earlier in the day, when he had pulled you through the crowd. His hand had been around yours, and though you were hardly aware of it at the time, the photo had been perfectly timed, capturing the moment with the two of you caught in the middle of a small laugh. It was innocent enough when you looked at it, but the context added a layer of gossip that neither of you needed.
Curiosity got the best of you as you scrolled down to the comments, reading everything that everyone had to say. Some fans had already started speculating about a possible relationship, while others were questioning whether there was any truth to the rumors about you and Max from a few years ago.
You sat back in the chair, massaging your temples, trying to push away the gnawing anxiety that threatened to rise. It was frustrating. You had worked so hard to carve out your own space in the F1 world, to be known for your skills and your work, not for your relationships. And here you were, once again caught in the glare of a spotlight you never asked for.
The devil on your shoulder whispered in your ear to run. Cut Max off again so you’d never have to deal with shit like this again.
You shook your head, as though trying to physically dislodge the thought. Cutting Max off had seemed like a viable solution once before, back when the rumors had first started circling a few years ago. The weight of constant attention, the unwanted speculations - it had been too much then. But Max hadn’t been the one who had caused that strain. It was the situation, the pressure, and the way everything had spiraled out of control. You hadn’t wanted to lose that connection with him, but it had been a protective instinct, one you couldn’t quite ignore in that moment of panic.
But now… now things were different. You weren’t that person anymore, and neither was Max.
You exhaled sharply, staring at the screen in front of you, the comments still scrolling endlessly below the post. It was hard to ignore the pull of curiosity, but each new comment made the knot in your stomach tighten. There were even a few insults mixed in, questioning your motives, accusing you of using Max for attention.
This wasn’t what you wanted. You weren’t in this for the drama. You didn’t care about the headlines, about being in the center of the gossip. You cared about the work, about capturing the moments that mattered, about the people behind the helmets and the brands.
But the reality of the world you had stepped into meant that everything could be turned into a story. Even the smallest moments, like a laugh shared with a friend, could be twisted and misinterpreted.
Your phone buzzed again, snapping you out of your spiraling thoughts. Another message from Charles: Are you okay? Let me know if you want to talk.
You blinked, the words settling in a bit more. Charles had always been kind, always trying to help you navigate the chaos of life in the paddock. But the last thing you wanted was for him to feel like he had to protect you, or worse, get caught up in the drama. He had enough on his plate already.
I’m fine. Just a bit overwhelmed, you know? You typed back, staring at the screen before pressing send. It’s just the way this stuff gets out of hand so quickly. I appreciate you checking in though.
The message sent, but your phone felt heavier in your hand than it had moments before. You stared at the screen, the buzzing of notifications a constant reminder that you weren’t in control here.
The temptation to shut everything out, to disconnect, was powerful. But running away from the noise didn’t stop it from following you. You needed to keep moving forward. This wasn’t the first time you’d faced something like this, and it certainly wouldn’t be the last. Still, the thought of dealing with the backlash - online and possibly in person - was enough to make you want to crawl under the covers and forget about everything for the rest of the night.
Instead, you clicked on the next photo to edit, your fingers moving methodically as you lost yourself in the familiar task again. This was your element. Behind the lens. In the background. Not the subject, not the story. Just the creator.
Monza, Italy
Monza was one of your favorite tracks. Regardless of your contractual obligations to like it because your employer was Ferrari, you loved the history, the speed, and the fact it was a beautiful track to photograph.
You, Isabella, Charles and Carlos were on track walks as the morning sun cast long shadows on the tarmac. The boys were in deep conversation with their engineers about the differences in the track from last year, while you and Isabella walked several feet behind them, capturing them in the action.
You raised your camera to snap a picture of Charles, his figure framed perfectly against the towering grandstands in the distance. He was talking intently to his engineer, gesturing to one of the corners, and his face was etched with concentration. Carlos, not too far ahead, was listening attentively, his posture relaxed but his attention unwavering. They looked so in sync with the track, every move purposeful and deliberate, just like the machines they commanded.
A few of the other drivers were doing their walk as well. Valtteri had already lapped you guys once or twice pedaling around on his bike, looking far more relaxed than you’d expect before a race weekend. Pierre and his engineer were also far ahead of the Ferraris, their pace much quicker than your group. It always amazed you how every driver had their own approach to each track.
It wasn’t long into your walk that you heard the sound of a familiar lisp behind you. You turned your head, your gaze falling on none other than Max himself. To your side, you could see Isabella’s camera clicking away at the boys in front of you, completely oblivious to the sight behind.
Max was talking GP’s ears off, the topics most likely ranging from everything to nothing. Out of habit, you raised your camera once more, getting shots of the duo in their natural habitat. Max must’ve heard you, because his gaze flicked over, a playful grin on his face.
“Trying to avoid me?” he asked, his voice teasing
You rolled your eyes, a smile tugging at your lips. “Not at all,” you replied, though you couldn’t help but laugh as you raised your camera slightly. “Just doing my job.”
The two of you returned your attention to what you had been focused on prior to the interaction. You were about to chime in on Charles’ conversation, but before you could, Isabella whispered.
“What is going on between you and Max?” she asked
Your eyes widened for a moment, her question catching you off guard. There was something going on between the two of you, you just didn’t think Isabella was the right person to tell, after her history with him.
“I-” you started, trying to find the right words. “There’s nothing going on. Max and I go way back. It’s complicated.”
The look that Isabella gave you showed that she could see right through you. “Oh come on. I’m not stupid. He dragged you out of the crowd in Austria, and I see the way you two look at each other.” she said. “If you’re worried I’m gonna be mad because Max and I dated, I’m not.”
You blinked, caught off guard by her directness. The tightness that had been slowly building in your chest instantly disappeared, and you couldn’t help but to feel a bit more exposed.
“Yeah, I mean um…” you began, not sure if you were ready to come to terms with the ideas floating in your head. You glanced over your shoulder one last time to ensure that Max was way out of earshot. “I may still have feelings for Max again.”
Isabella raised an eyebrow, her expression slightly softening as she took in your words. She didn’t look shocked or judgmental - just curious, like she’d expected this at some level. It was hard to tell if it was because she knew you well enough or if it was her own history with Max that made the situation feel less complicated for her.
“I had a feeling.” she began, her voice calm. “And I can tell that he still has feelings for you too.”
Your head cocked slightly, curiosity flooding through. “How do you know?”
Isabella took a deep breath, and just like you had moments earlier, turned to make sure Max was out of range. “Before we broke up, I saw him lurking on your socials - nothing crazy, just looking to see what you were up to, like he missed you.”
Your breath caught in your throat at Isabella’s words. The idea of Max keeping an eye on your socials, even after everything that had happened between you two, hit you harder than you’d expected. It made sense in a way - Max had always been a little hard to read, but that subtle action… it felt personal. It felt like something more than just idle curiosity.
“He was?” you asked, your voice quieter than you had intended. Hearing it come from Isabella of all people made your head spin.
Isabella nodded slowly, her eyes softening even more as she gave you a sympathetic look. “Yeah. Again, not in a creepy way or anything - more like he was just checking in. He’d always been interested in what you were up to. He’d ask us how you were even when things between you and I were … rocky.”
You swallowed, unsure whether you were relieved or confused by the information. Did this mean Max had been silently holding onto something? Had he always felt this way, or was it a recent development? The thought of him lingering in the background of your life like that - no matter how subtle - stirred something within you.
“I-I’m sorry” you said, the words slipping out before you could stop them
Isabella gave you a small, reassuring smile, as if she understood the confusion in your voice. “You don’t have to apologize,” she said gently, her tone still calm. “I’m not upset, really. I just think Max has been… uncertain about a lot of things. You know he doesn’t do well with vulnerability.”
The sound of Max’s voice reached you then, breaking the moment between you and Isabella. He was still talking with GP, but you could see the playful glint in his eyes as he gestured animatedly about something. Even from this distance, it was clear that the pull between you two was still there, unspoken but undeniable.
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What also was undeniable was a missing presence in the paddock. While you and Logan hadn’t explicitly talked since he was in your apartment in Monaco, you two would usually wave to each other when passing by in the paddock.
Your mind began to race with all sorts of thoughts, questioning if he had been around and you had just missed him. But something in you knew you didn’t, the blue Williams shirt he always wore on media day stood out like a sore thumb.
You tried to brush it off, telling yourself maybe he was busy with his team or caught up in a meeting, but something kept tugging at your gut, urging you to look closer. It wasn’t like Logan to completely disappear. You could see drivers, engineers, mechanics, and other staff members move about the paddock, focused on their tasks, yet Logan’s absence was still obvious in its silence.
“Have you guys seen Logan?” you asked Annalese and Charles as you walked into Ferrari hospitality.
Annalese and Charles exchanged knowing glances as you stopped in front of them. Their facial expressions ranged, as if they were silently arguing.
“You haven’t heard?” Charles asked
You shook your head, brows furrowed in confusion. “Heard what?”
Annalese shifted uncomfortably, her hands gripping the edge of her cup as she glanced between you and Charles, the silence hanging heavily between you all. Charles sighed, running a hand through his hair, and finally spoke up.
“Logan isn’t on the grid anymore.” Charles finally said, “He got dropped on Tuesday.”
The words hit you like a ton of bricks. “Dropped?” you repeated, the word feeling foreign in your mouth as the shock began to settle in. “Why?”
Annalese exchanged another glance with Charles, her face grim. “Obviously we don’t know everything that’s going on over there.” she said softly, as though she didn’t want to be the one giving you the news. “But Williams decided to part ways with him after everything that’s been happening. It just… wasn’t working out.”
Your heart raced, your mind trying to process what they were saying. While you and Logan hadn’t been on speaking terms for a few months, you knew he had always been so focused, so dedicated to the team. He’d been through a lot over the past year and a half, but you never imagined it would come to this. You thought he was pushing through. You thought he would find his way.
You thanked the duo for the information before you made your way up the stairs to one of the lounges. The lounge was empty, which you were silently thankful for. You don’t know what you would’ve done if you had to talk to anyone.
As you laid down on the couch, thoughts of Logan filled your head. He was probably back in his apartment in the UK, cleaning it out, prepping to move. Or he had already done all that and was on a flight back to the States. Regardless, your heart grew heavy thinking of having to face everything on his own.
You thought about reaching out, offering a shoulder to cry on if needed. But he wasn’t the one who broke the news to you - Charles and Annalese had. And they probably found out about it from an Instagram post with the word breaking in all caps and bold at the top.
It wasn’t your place to invade.
Even if you did reach out, you didn’t know what you would say. Sorry you got dropped? That felt hollow, insufficient. How could you convey the regret you were feeling for not being there when he needed someone the most? How could you fix the distance between you two, which had been growing for months?
You opted for a way that only you knew how.
You spent way too much time digging through your camera roll to find a collection of photos of Logan. Professional snapshots of him driving on track, walking around the paddock, but also personal ones, like the trip you had taken to the White Cliffs of Dover, or the goofy photos of him trying to paint like you. The photos were arranged into a collage before you uploaded it as an Instagram story, adding the caption Missing you in the paddock.
It was small, but a way to acknowledge the void left by his absence, a silent message that you still cared, that you hadn’t forgotten him despite everything.
As you uploaded the story, your thumb hovered over the screen, debating whether to tag him. You hesitated, thinking that maybe it would seem too much, too soon. But then, in an almost impulsive decision, you tagged his handle, before quickly pulling your finger away from the screen.
The olive branch had been extended. It was up to him whether or not he wanted to accept it.
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Most of the weekend was spent trying to forget about the Logan news. You tried not to check your phone obsessively, to avoid waiting for a response that may never come. But each time you thought about it, a part of you felt like you were holding your breath.
For better or for worse, you were by yourself during the race, out along the barriers trying to capture photos of the team. Each time the blue Williams car drove by, you’d find yourself slightly smiling, only for it to drop when you saw the number forty-three attached to it.
Fortunately, with each lap that passed, your pity party turned into a rush of adrenaline. You knew Charles, as well as the entire Ferrari team, wanted to win at their home race. And you knew they were all crazy enough to do whatever it took to get there.
The race seemed to go on forever, as Charles dominated the field. He was well ahead of either McLaren, and showed absolutely no signs of slowing down.
It was then that you caught a glimpse of Max’s car speeding by - your thoughts immediately drifting to him. Despite everything going on in front of you, you couldn’t escape the pull of the memories you had with him and the fact he had been stalking you on social media. Your stomach fluttered for a brief second before you shook your head and snapped another photo, trying to focus on the race once more.
As the laps left moved down to the single digits, you hopped in the golf cart to get to the pit wall before the chequered flag was waved.
You pressed up against the wire fencing, hoping to capture each car as they passed through the final laps. You could feel the tension rising not just from the team, but from the grandstands, hoping for that long awaited home victory.
And when that chequered flag waved, Charles was the first one over the finish line.
Your camera captured Charles, the team, and the grandstands at lightning speed. Every angle you could take, you did. This is what the fans had waited five years for.
The podium and the celebrations that followed late into the night were a blur. Just like in Monaco, the entire town came alive from the victory. It was overwhelming, but in the best possible way.
But as you finally got into bed that night, your head doing cartwheels from the amount you had to drink, your mind wandered to Logan and Max. You hoped that the American was okay, and that the Dutchman would finally man up and make a move.
Monte Carlo, Monaco
The coffee dates you had started with Max earlier in the season slowly turned into meeting up with each other whenever you could, no matter the time of day. Whether it was you playing with his cats as he exercised out on his balcony, or him watering your plants in the background of your Zoom meetings, you guys would always make time for each other.
It felt easy, comfortable - like the two of you had fallen into a rhythm that neither of you anticipated but both of you were secretly grateful for. The spontaneity of it all was both exciting and calming. One moment, you’d be in a rush, prepping for a shoot or editing photos late into the night, and next, you’d get a message from Max, asking if you had time to talk.
The racing calendar had prompted for a three week break, allowing you and Max some well needed rest at home. Max had brought the cats over to your apartment, and he was playing with them in the living room as you were preparing dinner for the two of you. The sound of Jimmy’s meows mixed with Max’s occasional laugh as he jumped on his lap, swatting at the toy you had set up earlier. Sassy was perched on your cabinet, watching you as you made pasta.
“I swear she loves you more than she does me” Max called from the living room as he watched Sassy perched on the cabinet, her eyes fixed on you like you were the most fascinating thing in the world.
You chuckled softly, stirring the pasta boiling in the pot. “It’s probably the pasta” you teased, glancing over your shoulder to find Max grinning. “She knows good food when she sees it.”
Max shook his head dramatically. “She’s such a traitor.” he muttered, though his voice was light with amusement. “Have you thought about getting a pet?”
You pondered the question for a moment, “Maybe…” you trailed off back into thought. “I just don’t know if I’d have time for one, with all the traveling, you know?”
Max nodded, “I get that. It’s tough leaving these two all the time.” he said as Jimmy snuggled up in his arms. “But if you were to get one, what would you name it?”
“I wouldn’t name them after clubs in Monaco, that’s for sure” you teased before tilting your head slightly, letting the question hang in the air for a moment. “Knowing me, I’d name it after an artist, like Donatello or something.”
“An artist or a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle?” Max chuckled
You rolled your eyes, but before you could respond, your phone ringer dinged, signalling you got a text. Your eyes darted around the kitchen, looking for any sign of your phone, only for it to be resting on the coffee table in the living room.
“Can you check and see who it is? I don’t wanna miss it if it’s work related.” You asked
Max nodded, reaching for your phone. You watched as his eyebrows furrowed at the screen in his hands. Max’s fingers paused for a moment as he read the message, his expression shifting from casual curiosity to something more unreadable. You noticed his lips pressed into a thin line, his relaxed demeanor now clouded with a hint of concern. He didn’t say anything for a beat, just kept staring at the screen.
“Is everything okay?” you asked, the sudden silence between you two unsettling.
Max didn’t immediately respond. He looked up at you, then back down at the phone, as if weighing something in his mind. “It’s… Logan,” he said finally, his voice careful.
Your stomach dropped at the mention of Logan’s name. You hadn’t heard from him since that morning in your apartment, and the thought of him now, unexpectedly, made your pulse race a little faster.
Max’s reaction made sense now. During one of your late night chats, you had filled him in on what happened with you and Logan. You could tell he was mad how Logan handled you while both of you were intoxicated, despite how the American treated you when sober.
Max’s eyes stayed on you as you absorbed the news, clearly trying to gauge your reaction. ‘Do you want me to read it?” he asked, his voice gentle.
You shook your head, taking a deep breath before walking over to where Max was in the living room. “No, I’ll look at it,” you said quietly, trying to sound steady. You needed to be in control of this, no matter how much it made your stomach churn.
“Hey, I saw your post a few weeks ago. Just wanted to let you know I have an IndyCar test with MSR in November.”
The message on your phone seemed innocuous at first, just a simple update, but something about it made your stomach tighten.
You stood there for a moment, staring at the words, not sure how to process the sudden shift. It was strange - Logan had always been a mix of casual and serious when it came to racing, but this felt different. The way he was reaching out now, after so long, felt distant in a way.
You took a slow breath and glanced over at Max, who was watching you closely. He hadn’t moved, hadn’t said anything, but his expression spoke volumes - caution, concern, and perhaps even a hint of frustration. The silence between you felt heavy, like a quiet storm waiting to pass.��
Max spoke first, breaking the tension. “So… is he just checking in?” His voice was guard, but you could hear the underlying hint of something deeper - protectiveness, maybe?
You shook your head, trying to shake off the swirling in your head. “I don’t know what it is, honestly. He’s been quiet for so long…” you began, running a hand through your hair. “I know I left the door open for him to reach out, but it’s just odd that he popped up the second he had another test lined up. Like he wants me to see how much better I am without him.”
Max remained silent for a moment, his gaze never leaving you, as if trying to decipher what you were feeling. “Do you think he’s trying to make you feel guilty?” he asked, considering the scenario from all angles.
Immediately, you shook your head, dismissing the idea. “No, he’s not the kind of guy to do that.”
Max nodded slowly, though his expression didn’t shift. “Got that. Maybe he’s testing the waters to see if you’re still willing to have him in your life?”
“Maybe?” you questioned. “I made it clear that I only wanted to be friends with him that morning.”
“I know you did,” he said, shifting up straighter, careful not to wake the cat that had fallen asleep in his lap. “You don’t have to respond. And if you do, let it be on your terms. Don’t let him pull you back into that uncertainty.”
The sincerity in his voice lifted a weight off your shoulders. Just like he did in Spielberg, he managed to pull you out of your thoughts and back down to earth.
“You’re right.” you said softly, meeting his gaze. “I guess I just needed to hear it from someone else.”
“Of course,” he said, a smile on his face as he got up from his spot on the floor. He set Jimmy, who was still sound asleep, on your couch before moving towards the kitchen. “But if you do decide to reach out or talk to him again, I’m here, okay? No judgments. Just… you.”
“Thanks, Max. Seriously.”
He gave you a teasing grin as he grabbed a plate from the cupboard. “Now, about dinner - if you’re done having your crisis, I’m ready to eat. I was promised pasta, not a therapy session.”
You couldn’t help but laugh as you moved to grab the bottle of wine on the counter. “Right.”
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As the night went on, so did the glasses of wine. Dinner had long been eaten, and the dishes were cleaned up. You and Max stood out on your balcony, watching over the Monaco harbor, glasses of wine in your hands. The city lights twinkled below, reflecting off the water, creating a peaceful hum that matched the evening. The cats were inside, both entertained by the new scratching post you had set up for them.
Max leaned up against the railing next to you, the breeze moving in a way that let you get a whiff of his cologne. His gaze was fixed on the horizon, but you could tell his mind wasn’t entirely on the view. He had a thoughtful look on his face, the one that always made you curious about what he was thinking.
“What’s on your mind?” you asked softly, unable to stop yourself
Max didn’t immediately respond. He gave a small shrug, still looking over the harbor. “I don’t know.” he said eventually, his voice low, like he was still thinking through whatever had been on his mind. “Just… everything.”
You took a sip of your wine, letting the cool liquid slide down your throat, giving you a moment to think. It was clear that his thoughts weren’t about everything, or everyone.
“Are you still thinking about Logan?” you finally asked
Max’s head turned slightly at your question, his gaze shifting from the harbor to you, but again, he didn’t answer immediately. Instead, he followed in your footsteps and took a long sip of his wine, his eyes lingering on the glass for a second before meeting yours.
“It’s hard not to, right?” He asked, “You’ve got a lot of history with him.”
You could feel the weight of his words, the implication that what happened between you and Logan still lingered in the air, unspoken but present. Your stomach tightened a little, and you didn’t know it was because of Max’s casual mention of Logan, or the fact you had asked a question you weren’t sure you were ready to answer yourself.
“I know” you said after a beat, your voice quieter now. “I know you’re looking out for me, but like I said, Logan was a mistake. If I were to reply to him, it would be as friends.”
You don’t know what came over you next. Maybe it was the liquid courage in your veins, or maybe it was the fact that the confession was going to kill you unless you told him, but you continued to talk.
“I also made another mistake, Max” you admitted, looking down at the liquid swirling in your glass before you met his gaze once again, coming to terms that you were going to confess. “I should have never ran away from you years ago.”
Max was quiet for a long moment, the only sound the soft rustling of the breeze and the distant hum of the city below. You couldn’t help but watch his reaction, trying to gauge if your words had landed in the way you intended. The confession felt raw, more than you had intended, but it was out now, hanging between the two of you like a fragile thing that could shatter at the slightest touch.
Max’s lips pressed together for a second, and he turned his gaze back to the water. You couldn’t tell if he was processing your words, or just avoiding looking at you. The silence stretched on, and you began to regret everything you’d just said. Maybe it was too much. Maybe he didn’t need to hear it.
“You don’t have to apologize for that.” Max finally spoke, his voice much softer now. “I know you had your reasons for what you did back then, and I have my reasons for how I reacted. But I think we’re both adult enough to move past it.”
You felt a weight lift off your chest, though it was still tinged with uncertainty. His words weren’t an immediate fix, but they offered a glimmer of reassurance. You had expected judgment, maybe even a withdrawal from him, but instead, he was speaking with a level of understanding you hadn’t anticipated.
“I didn’t want to run away from us” you added, your voice barely a whisper, the truth of the moment still biting at you. The post from Spielberg flashed in your mind. “I think I was just… scared. I didn’t know how to handle everything that was happening, with you and with me. It wasn’t just about us. It was everything.”
Max glanced at you then, his eyes softening, the earlier tension in his posture easing. “You don’t have to explain. We were both young and dealing with things we didn’t know how to handle,” he said, his voice calm, almost like a quiet comfort. “I saw the posts too.”
“You did?” you asked, your head tilting slightly. It was unlike him to pay attention to the gossip and the rumors.
“I’m on social media a lot more than you think.” he chuckled, his tone lighter than it had been before.
“Oh I know, I heard you kept tabs on me when we weren’t talking.” you teased, nudging your elbow into his side.
Max let out a laugh, shaking his head as he glanced over at you. “Guilty as charged,” he said with a smirk. “But I never commented or liked anything. Just… well, you know, checking in now and then.” His expression softened again as he added, “I wasn’t stalking, just… curious.”
You raised an eyebrow, trying to keep the mood light, but part of you couldn’t help but feel a little embarrassed by the thought. “Curious about what, exactly?” you asked, teasing but with an edge of vulnerability in your voice.
Max took another sip of his wine before responding, his tone thoughtful. “Curious if you’d figured things out. Curious if you’d be okay. And, if I’m honest, curious if we’d ever talk again.” He turned to face you more fully, his eyes serious but still warm. “I didn’t want to push. I didn’t know what you needed, or if you needed anything from me at all.”
He took a step closer to you as he kept talking. “And when you left, I thought I needed to get over you, to move on. I didn’t specifically pick Isabella because she was close to you. I did it just because she was there that night. And then for a good while, it seemed you had everything figured out. You had Logan, and I felt like I messed up my chances with you.”
You felt a pang in your chest as Max spoke, the vulnerability in his voice surprising you. You hadn’t expected him to open up like this, to share what had been on his mind all these years.
You swallowed, your grip on your wine glass tightening slightly. “I didn’t think you needed to get over me,” you said quietly, your eyes searching his. “I thought you moved on.”
Max shook his head, his gaze steady on you. “It wasn’t that simple. I told myself I needed to, but I couldn’t. I tried to convince myself I was fine, but… I wasn’t. I just didn’t know how to reach out to you again after everything that happened.”
His words struck a chord deep inside you. It was strange to hear that he’s been in pain too, that the distance between you hadn’t been something you’d imposed on yourself.
“Max, I’m sorry… I never meant to -” you began
“Schat, you don’t need to apologize. We’re both past it.” he interrupted, though his voice was still soft. “I think it’s now a matter of where do we go from here?”
“That depends,” you said, turning to him, “What do you want?”
Max paused, his expression softening as he processed your question. His eyes locked onto yours, his lips parting slightly as though he were carefully weighing his words. You had a feeling you knew what he was going to say, and you were perfectly set on the offer.
“I want to make things right.” he said. “I don’t want to keep wondering what could have been.”
You felt your heart race, the intensity of the moment sweeping over you like a tidal wave. It felt like everything you’d both been holding back, all the years of uncertainty and unspoken words, were finally coming to a head.
“I don’t want to wonder either,” you admitted, your voice quieter, yet much more certain. You reached out and gently placed your hand on his arm, feeling the warmth of his skin beneath your fingers.
“Then let’s see where this goes,” he said as he stepped closer to you, his body language open and vulnerable. “Together.”
The words settled in the space between you, hanging there, like an invitation that was too simple, too perfect to refuse. You felt a warmth spread through your chest, the kind that made everything feel right again, like you were exactly where you were meant to be.
You stepped closer to him, closing the distance until you could feel the faint beat of his heart, both of you drawn together.
Without another word, Max cupped your face with his free hand, and kissed you. It was soft at first, tentative, like both of you were finally allowing yourselves to feel what had been buried for so long. But then, as if the years past melted away, the kiss deepened, becoming more urgent, more real. The taste of wine lingered between you, but the meaning of the kiss was much more intoxicating than the drinks prior.
When you pulled back, breathless but smiling, you both lingered in the moment, eyes locked, hearts still racing. Max’s forehead rested against yours, as you spoke.
“So how about we celebrate with a batch of cookies?” you asked knowing you had refilled your cookie jar for him.
“It’s like you read my mind” he chuckled as he took your hand, leading you back into the familiarity of your apartment.
São Paulo, Brazil
Brazil was wet.
The amount of rain that had fallen from the sky was borderline monsoon level. Every step you took was filled with the squelch of water in your socks and shoes. The normally buzzing paddock was now silent as team members huddled in their motorhomes and garages waiting for the go ahead to start qualifying.
You and Isabella had tried to keep busy, as well as the fans engaged, by snapping photos and forcing some of the engineers into videos. But no matter how many artistic snapshots of raindrops you took or insane mini mic questions you asked, the two of you repeatedly ended up taskless.
The two of you found yourselves in the hospitality suite that overlooked the pitlane, sitting at the window as you watched the rain fall. In the ten or fifteen minutes you had been there, you’d already seen Kimi Antonelli be pushed out into the pouring rain and a few Williams engineers race rubber duckies.
You leaned your head against the glass, watching the chaos below, feeling a strange mix of boredom and amusement. The unpredictability of it all - cars that should have been speeding down the straights now parked and idle - felt like a strange world.
“Have you heard from Logan at all?” Isabella asked as she stared at the Williams engineers down below, dragging you out of your thoughts.
The phone in your pocket grew heavier as you straightened up slightly, hesitating to answer the question. While you had filled her in about everything with Max, you failed to give her one minor detail.
“Uh yeah, I actually did. A few weeks ago.” You admitted, “He’s doing some testing with an IndyCar team sometime this month. Not really sure. I didn’t reply.”
Isabella raised an eyebrow at your words, her gaze shifting from the engineers below to you, a knowing look forming. “You didn’t reply?” she repeated slowly, her words laced with curiosity.
You shifted uncomfortably in your seat, feeling the weight of her gaze. “I didn’t know what to say” you admitted, trying to defend your decision. “And plus, I was a little occupied with Max.”
“You made things official with Max the same day Logan texted you?” she asked, shock now coming into her words.
A sigh escaped your lips as the weight of the conversation pressed down on you. “I didn’t plan it that way.” you explained, your hands fidgeting in your lap. “It just… kind of happened. It wasn’t like I was purposefully avoiding Logan or anything, I just didn’t know how to respond.”
Isabella remained silent for a moment, her eyes narrowing slightly as she took in your words. The silence hung between you for a moment, the rain outside intensifying, the sound of it hammering against the windows in the otherwise quiet room.
“So, what are you going to do?” she asked after a beat, her tone softer but still inquisitive. “Because if I recall correctly, you gave him the opportunity to reach out, and he did.”
“You’re right” you said, running a hand through your wet hair. “But I don’t even know how to bring it up. I can’t just text him and act like nothing’s changed. I don’t wanna string him along.”
“You owe it to him,” Isabella said, her tone gentle but firm. “And to yourself, to be honest. He deserves to know where you stand, even if it’s awkward.”
Her eyes lingered on you, hinting that she wanted you to reply now. Slowly, you took your phone out of your pocket and unlocked the device.
You stared at the screen, your fingers hovering over the keyboard. You could feel Isabella’s gaze on you, her silent encouragement urging you on to take the plunge. The weight of the conversation, of everything left unsaid, pressed down on you. Logan deserved more than this silence.
With one last deep breath, you typed out the message that had been swirling in your head for the last few weeks.
Hey, congrats on the test, hoping it goes well. Sorry it took so long to get back to you, I’ve been busy with work.
You read it over once, then twice. It felt right - congratulating him on his accomplishment while not seeming too overboard. You figured it wouldn’t be great to bring up Max quite yet, but you knew you couldn’t avoid it forever. So, you added:
I’ve been meaning to let you know where I am, and things have changed a bit on my end. I’ve started seeing someone else, but like I’ve said multiple times, I’m always open to being friends.
Before you could talk yourself out of it, you hit send.
Isabella watched as you set the phone down, the tension still in the air between you. “It’s done.” she said quietly, her voice reassuring.
“I hope I didn’t make things worse” you replied, your gaze flicking nervously to the phone on the table, waiting for a response.
Minutes passed, and just as you were starting to second-guess yourself, the phone buzzed.
Yeah I get it, I appreciate the honesty. I’m happy for you, but you should know I don’t wanna throw away that friendship.
You read the message out loud, prompting a smile on Isabella’s face. “See? Not so bad, right?”
“Yeah, yeah. It was fine.” you said, rolling your eyes, but still forming a small smile on your face.
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For the first time since you started working in Formula 1, a super Sunday was on the table. The incredulous amounts of rain pushed qualifying to Sunday morning, prompting an early wake up for everyone. Texting with Logan had made things a bit better, the two of you had been chatting back and forth nonstop since you finally replied.
You could already hear the sounds of drill guns and dremels in the distance as the teams prepped for the rescheduled qualifying session. The rain had been relentless, but now, under the early morning light, the drizzle had calmed just enough to let everyone get back to business. The Celcius in your hand was enough to get you started in the morning, but you knew you needed a second wind later in the day.
As you passed by Ferrari’s hospitality to get to the garage, the familiar Red Bull logo loomed over you. The temptation was strong, and for a brief moment, you thought about slipping into the blue building. You could grab a can without anyone noticing. But then you remembered you did have a commitment to Ferrari, and you couldn’t be caught repping another team.
Instead, you took another sip of your Celsius, and with a deep breath, you walked straight to the bright red garage.
Both Ferrari cars did as well as they could in the crappy conditions. No one in the paddock was having a good time, especially Max. While he had qualified twelfth, he was pushed back to seventeenth due to his combustion engine being changed.
As the race went underway, it was as chaotic as you could have imagined it. Water had pooled into places no one ever expected, and seemed to throw everyone off of their game except Max.
Growing up, you knew Max was going to succeed in the most challenging conditions. In grade school you would overhear him telling stories about how he was out karting all day in the rain and snow, going until he felt more than comfortable. You thought it was absurd, risking frostbite and illness for a career he wasn’t even sure he would get. But watching him now, claw back from seventeenth, in these miserable conditions, it all made sense.
Max was the first one to cross the finish line, leading to a roaring celebration from your garage neighbors. You felt a strange, bittersweet joy wash over you as you snapped the photos of Charles finishing in fifth. You couldn’t help but to be proud of your boyfriend, it was his race from start to finish. A flawless performance that left the rest of the grid in his wake.
As Carlos had crashed earlier in the race, once Charles crossed the finish line, you made your way back to the garage, planning to prepare for the interviews. You were fiddling with the mini mic when Isabella approached you.
“What are you doing?” she asked, causing you to look up.
You blinked for a moment, processing her question. “Uh, prepping for Charles’ post race stuff.” you said as if it was obvious.
“Don’t you wanna go see the podium?” she asked, the roar from the crowd in the distance signalled that the top three had parked in parc ferme.
“It’s okay, I don’t have to. There’s work that needs to be done.” you replied, scanning the area to see if Charles had returned yet.
Isabella furrowed her eyebrows “You don’t want to see Max? Especially after that drive?”
You shrugged in response. “I’ll see him on the flight back” you answered. The two of you had already arranged plans for you to join him on his jet.
Isabella looked at you like you were the hardest math problem she’s ever had to solve. “Go to the podium,” she ordered. “You always covered for me when I ran off. I got Charles’ stuff.”
She walked over to where you were, taking the mini mic and all of its wiring from you. Before you could open your mouth to protest, she glared at you again. “Go!”
Without another word spoken between you two, you darted out of the garage and down the pitlane to where the celebrations were. The adrenaline from the race still lingered in the air as the teams waited for their drivers to come out. Alpine was on one side, and Red Bull on the other.
All three drivers had gone to the cooldown room when you arrived. You opted to stay towards the back of the crowds, hoping and praying that no one would question what you were doing there. While you both had told family and a few friends about your relationship, it hadn’t been made completely public yet. You wanted to enjoy the beginnings of it out of the public eye and the scrutiny.
Pierre and Esteban looked thrilled as they took their places on the podium, flashing wide smiles and quite literally jumping for joy. Rightfully deserved, of course. You could hear their names being chanted, their team and fans rallying behind them. But the atmosphere shifted slightly as Max stepped out.
The crowd’s roar somehow grew even louder, and you could see his trademark smile lighting up his face as he made his way to the top step. The drive would surely go down in history, and you couldn’t help but feel a sense of pride swell inside as you watch his raw emotion to finally getting another win.
A smile broke onto your face as you heard the Dutch national anthem for the first time in months. It was hard to believe that a short year ago you were wishing to never hear it again, even if it was for your own country. But there you stood in the crowd, quietly singing along.
During the anthem, Max’s eyes scanned the crowd, searching for something. When his gaze met yours, hidden in the shadows of the celebrations, he relaxed. The smile that was already plastered on his face grew a tad wider as you waved. Nothing flashy, nothing too overt, just a brief shared moment that only the two of you would truly understand.
While Red Bull wasn’t your team, Max sure as hell was your driver.
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You were thankful that Max’s plane had taken off in the late morning the next day. As much as you loved getting back home sooner rather than later, the rest was well deserved after a late night of celebrations.
The two of you sat next to each other, the hum of the engines filling the quiet space between you. You were both exhausted, but the thought of Max now within a race reach of winning the championship planted in your minds, neither of you could rest.
A piece of paper that had every angle of a blank helmet printed on it sat in front of Max while you had your laptop out on a 3D editing software. Both of you were running through ideas for his champion helmet. Max had a gold colored pencil in his hand coloring away on the paper while the occasional click of your keyboard brought his visions to life.
“I think it’s missing something,” he said, glancing at the rendering on your screen. “Like it looks good as is, but I think it could be better.”
You glanced at Max, seeing the way he was biting his lip as he stared at the paper in front of him, deep in thought. The gold pencil in his hand was worn down from the hours he’d spent perfecting every detail, but it was clear he wasn’t satisfied.
“I agree” you said, zooming in on the 3D model. The white and the gold looked good together, but they lacked that extra spark that would tie it all together.
“What if we added some sparkles to the gold?” He suggested, his eyes wide with curiosity to see what that would look like.
With a few clicks of your keyboard and taps on the screen, you added a glitter effect to the gold in the helmet.
Max’s eyes lit up. “Whoa. That’s sick.”
You stared at the screen, happy with the improvement that was made, but you felt like you could do even better. “What if we added something to the white?” you suggested as you clicked away a bit more. “I can completely undo this if you decide you don’t like it.”
You watched Max’s reaction closely as you filled some of the white areas with gold marble on the 3D rendering. The effect was subtle but impactful, adding a depth and shine that made the design feel even more dynamic.
Max’s eyebrows raised slightly, clearly impressed. “That… that’s actually perfect,” he said, almost in disbelief.
“I’m glad you like it.” you said, brushing your fingers over the touchpad, making small adjustments to the way the gold marbling flowed. “It needed something to balance out the glitter, and I think it brings everything together.”
“It definitely does.” he said before going quiet again, his head tilted slightly as if he was deep in thought. “Would you wanna design my champion logo?”
You looked up from the laptop, surprised by his question. “The championship logo?” you repeated, unsure you heard him correctly.
Max nodded, his fingers tapping lightly on the paper, his eyes distant as he thought it over. “Yeah, you know how I’ve had a logo for every championship I’ve won. I want you to design this years. Something that symbolizes the achievement.”
You blinked a few times, processing his request. The idea of designing something so symbolic for Max was exciting, but also incredibly intimidating. The pressure was higher than with the helmet design - it wasn’t just a visual statement for the race; it was a symbol of part of his career, his hard work, his journey through the season.
Max could see the hesitation in our face. He raised an eyebrow, a playful smirk creeping onto his lips as he gently nudged you. “What? You’re not up for the challenge?”
You shook your head quickly, the excitement already bubbling up inside of you. “No, no. I’m up for it. It’s just a big task. Haven’t done something like that since the Monza livery my first year.”
“And that livery is why I think you’ll be perfect for it.” he said, his arm wrapped around you, pulling you into him as best as he could in the plane seat.
You felt your heart race at his words. The Monza livery was a piece you had poured your heart and soul into when you first started with Ferrari, and Max was with you through every step of designing it and bringing it to life. For him to reference it years later made you feel both proud and incredibly humbled. Creating something big for him felt like a huge honor.
“I mean… if you insist…” you began, a smile growing rapidly on your face before planting a kiss on his cheek. “I’ll start as soon as we get home.”
Las Vegas, USA
Going into Vegas, you didn’t know what to expect. The flashing lights, magic tricks, and way too many celebrities for you to keep track of were guarantees, but other than that, you were clueless.
It was the newest track on the calendar, only being the second time in recent history that the World Championship made a stop in Sin City. The entire team was excited as they arrived, but with the Driver’s Championship on the line, you may have been the most.
Thankfully, to help keep with the facade of nothing going on between you and Max, both of you had to report to the paddock at different times. As much as the two of you had gotten used to the secrecy, it didn’t make it any less frustrating. You were constantly aware of the eyes on you, knowing that anything that you did - any small gesture - could be taken as evidence of a relationship. The last thing either of you wanted was the added pressure of public speculation.
You were in one of the Ferrari media rooms by yourself, getting your gear together in between the free practices. The hum of conversation from the paddock filtered in through the door, but inside, it was quiet. You took a deep breath, trying to focus on the fact that your laptop wasn’t recognizing your SD card for some reason.
A frustrated sigh escaped your lips as you tapped the sides of your laptop as if willing it to work. The noise from the paddock was growing louder as other team members filtered in and out, but here you were, stuck trying to troubleshoot a technical issue that you really didn’t have time for.
You plugged the SD card into another slot, hoping it might just be a bad connection, but nothing happened. You were about to try one more thing when you heard a knock on the door frame.
“I’ll be right out. I’m dealing with some tech stuff.” you said not even bothering to see who it was. You assumed that it was Annalese needing you for a media meeting.
You heard the soft chuckle before the voice responded, and it wasn’t Annalese.
“Tech issues, huh?” The voice was familiar, low, and warm. Your heart skipped a beat as you glanced up, immediately meeting Max’s eyes, the playful glint in his gaze sending a mix of emotions through you.
“Max!” you said, a little too loudly for your own liking. You rushed him into the room before closing the door behind him, hoping no one saw him in the doorway. Your lips met his briefly, and as you pulled away you asked “What are you doing here?”
Max shrugged “Thought I’d pay you a visit in between meetings. It’s always nice to see you” he said nonchalantly which confused you even more.
“Great seeing you too, but how did you even get in here?” you asked knowing the only way into the media areas was with a proper credential.
Your boyfriend motioned back to the door that had just closed behind him. “Annalese let me in. She’s pretty easy to convince.”
“You know what? I’m not even surprised” you said, throwing your hands up in defeat. “I have bigger problems to worry about right now.”
Max gave you a teasing smile, clearly enjoying your flustered state, but there was a tenderness behind his eyes that made you feel a little more at ease. He stepped further into the room, glancing over at your laptop with a raised eyebrow. “Need help?” he asked, his voice warm and easy, as if you weren’t in the middle of a stressful race weekend.
You huffed, feeling the weight of everything pressing down on you. “I mean if you can get my SD card to register, be my guest. I might just text Isabella and see if she has a second one I can borrow until I can go get a new one.”
Max took a seat in front of your laptop, and got to work. You watched him for a moment as he tapped a few of the keys, along with unplugged and replugged the SD card in. His eyebrows furrowed as he looked at the screen, before unplugging the SD card and plugging it into a different port.
You couldn’t help but chuckle at his confusion. “You’re doing literally everything I’ve done.”
“I’m sorry, schat.” he said, frowning as he looked at you.
You shrugged, clearly over the entire situation. “It’s fine. I’ll just text Isabella and ask her.”
Fortunately, she did have one and quickly agreed to bring you a spare SD card. Within minutes, you heard her voice on the other side of the door, followed by one belonging to a man.
You and Max exchanged looks as you guys heard the voice. It was familiar, but you couldn’t quite place where. As the door knob turned, all you could hope was that it was someone who wouldn’t get Max in trouble for being where he shouldn’t.
Isabella walked in first, a fresh SD card in her hand, and a slight smile on her face. “Hey, I come bearing gifts” she said, but as she took in the fact you weren’t alone in the room, she stiffened. “Uh hey, Max.”
While the history between Max and Isabella was no secret to anyone, you knew that Isabella had gotten past it. Her sudden change in demeanor was surprising. Isabella glanced at something in the hallway before landing back on you and Max.
She walked further into the room, to give you the SD card, but the door behind her didn’t close. You glanced over Isabella’s shoulder, heart skipping a beat as you saw who was now standing in the doorway.
Logan Sargeant.
His lips formed an awkward smile as he took in the sight of both you and Max. “Hey, guys.”
“Logan, hi.” you began, your voice filled with confusion. “What are you doing here?”
Logan’s eyes darted to Isabella, who was still standing between you and him. “She invited me, just as a friend. I missed the paddock and figured I’d come say hi.”
You couldn’t quite hide the tension that crept into the room, as Logan’s casual tone didn’t quite match the undercurrent of unease you could feel simmering. Max knew the two of you had been catching up, that it was all just friendly, but neither of you were expecting him to show up to another Grand Prix.
“It’s good to see you.” You said before gesturing to Max. “And you know my boyfriend, Max,”
Logan’s eyebrows raised at you calling Max yours, but he didn’t say anything on the matter. Instead, he offered a wave and a polite “Hey”
Max straightened up, his posture tightening, but he quickly masked it with a calm smile. “Nice to see you, Logan,” he said, his voice steady, but you could tell he was more aware of the situation than ever.
Logan gave a small, awkward nod, his eyes flicking between you and Max. There was a brief pause in the room as the three of you gauged what to do next.
“Yeah, it’s good to see you both,” Logan said again, his words almost too quick, as if he was trying to fill the silence that had lingered for a little too long.
“Well, I still have some stuff to do.” Isabella said, turning towards Logan, “Shall we?”
With a quiet goodbye, the duo walked out of the room, leaving you and Max alone. As the door closed, you let out a breath you didn’t realize you were holding.
“I was not expecting that.” you said, turning toward your boyfriend.
Max let out a low chuckle, though there was a hint of tension behind it. “Yeah, me neither.” He said, leaning back against the table before his voice softened. “But you introduced me as your boyfriend.”
You froze for a moment, realizing the weight of the words you’d just said. It hadn’t even occurred to you until now how significant that simple introduction was. It was the first time you’d referred to Max that was in front of someone outside of your tight circle.
“Yeah,” you said, a small smile tugging at the corners of your lips. “I guess I did.”
Max’s gaze softened, and for a moment, the tension from Logan’s unexpected visit seemed to vanish. He got up from the chair and walked over to you. “You know, that felt pretty good.”
Your heart skipped a beat as you met his eyes. “It did.” you agreed quietly.
Max pressed his lips against yours, soft and sweet. When you both pulled away, he glanced towards the door. “Now I think it’s time we both get back to work.”
“Yeah, I have a guest to entertain, I guess” you laughed as you packed up your stuff before sneaking Max out of the Ferrari building.
As soon as Max was out of your sight, you darted towards the Ferrari garage. Not only did you have a load of content to get that you were missing due to the technical error, but you needed to apologize to a certain American.
You’d spent enough time in the paddock to know that the drivers, especially Max, could be drama queens. The awkwardness you’d felt when Logan had walked into the room was fresh, and you couldn’t help but feel a twinge of guilt. You didn’t want him to think that something he’d done had crossed a line - it was Max being protective. You and Logan had finally gotten back on the right page, and even though things had been a bit complicated in the past, you didn’t want him feeling uncomfortable during his visit.
You made your way down the long hallway, eventually being surrounded by the hum of activity. Mechanics and engineers were busy attending to both cars, but your focus was on finding Logan. You caught sight of him in the corner, talking with one of the engineers, but as soon as he saw you approaching, he turned his attention to you.
“Hey,” you greeted him, a little hesitant. “Can we talk?”
Logan nodded immediately, noticing the sincerity in your voice. “Yeah, sure.”
You motioned for him to follow you back down the hall that you just came from, away from the main hustle and bustle. When you were far enough away to have some privacy, you finally let out a breath.
“Look, I just wanted to apologize for earlier” you said, meeting his gaze. “I didn’t know you’d be here this weekend, and seeing you and Max in the same room really caught me off guard. I didn’t mean to make things weird.”
Logan blinked a few times, clearly surprised by your directness. After a beat, he gave a small nod. “It’s alright, I mean it was unexpected, sure, but it’s no big deal.” he offered a reassuring smile.
While you wanted to let out a sigh of relief, you could feel the weight of your apology still hanging in the air, and you wanted to make sure he understood how much you valued your friendship.
“I didn’t want you to think that something you did or said made me uncomfortable.” you continued, your voice softer now. “It’s really just Max being protective. He’s not exactly the most laid-back guy when it comes to things like this.”
Logan gave a small chuckle, his expression easing. “Yeah, I know. He’s got that look about him. But I’m glad you two found each other again, you seem genuinely happy.”
You smiled softly, feeling a warm sense of gratitude for Logan’s words. It was clear he wasn’t holding onto any hard feelings, and it meant a lot that he understood the situation.
“Thanks, Logan,” you said, appreciating his kindness, “I will admit though, I have been missing you around the paddock, so this was a nice surprise.”
It was Logan’s turn for his expression to soften as a genuine smile creeped on his face. “I’ve missed it too.” he said, his tone warm. “The paddock, the people… it’s always been a part of who I am, you know?” He paused for a moment before the smile turned into a smirk. “But I will say you guys get spoiled over here in Ferrari. I need to visit more often.”
You couldn’t help but chuckle as the last bit of tension slipped away. The journey hadn’t been easy for either of you, but hearing him speak so honestly put your mind at ease.
“You’re welcome to come anytime.” you said “I always get a spare pass that I don’t end up giving away half the time.”
Logan grinned, his eyes lighting up at the offer. “I might just take you up on that.” he said, his voice playful. “It’s nice that everything’s good between us again. I didn’t want to make anything weird.”
“No, me neither,” you agreed, giving him a reassuring smile. “We’ve got enough drama around here already”
He chuckled “Yeah, no kidding. Especially when it comes to Max.”
At that point, you both laughed, the mood finally officially lightened. The tension that had been there earlier had dissipated entirely, replaced by the familiarity and ease you’d shared with Logan before things got complicated. It felt like you were back to where you had been.
“Alright, let’s get you back to the garage before everyone starts speculating that you ran to Williams to get your job back.” you said, glancing back down the hall towards the noise of the machines.
“Oh please, like I’d ever go back there”
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When you weren’t busy cracking jokes with the Ferrari guests or convincing Max that Logan really isn’t as bad of a guy as he thought, you were actually doing your job. Between capturing behind-the-scenes moments, interviewing engineers, and snapping shots of the cars during their time on the track, your weekend was filled with a constant stream of action.
Since you were in Vegas, both you and Isabella opted to take a gamble and switch drivers for the weekend, meaning you were predominantly covering Carlos.
As much as you loved following Charles around, the change of not having to hear him whine about how much he missed his dog was refreshing. You adored Charles, as well as the endless stories about Leo, but a change of pace was always nice. It was also nice to work with Carlos one last time, leaving for Williams at the end of the season.
But what didn’t change was the nerves that surged through you as you took your spot in one of the media pens along the track. You had positioned yourself perfectly between the fences, the practice photos that you took during the formation lap had looked perfect. All that was left was for the lights to go out.
The roar of engines echoed in the air, vibrating through your body as the lights slowly began to fill red. One by one, they blinked on, and the air around you thickened with anticipation. The final light flickered, and then, - off.
You were already snapping photos as the cars shot off the line. Each frame clicked into place as you captured the story unfolding right in front of you.
Even though you had done this week in and week out, your nerves couldn’t help but spike this time around. It wasn’t your first time working with Max behind the wheel since you made it official, but it was the first time this season he could clinch the championship.
You caught sight of his Red Bull, its blue and red livery standing out against the glint of Las Vegas lights, weaving through the pack. Though you were focused on Carlos’ red Ferrari, you couldn’t help but to snap a few photos of Max as he whizzed by.
The tension that had settled in your chest slowly started to ease as the race progressed, the rhythm of your work taking over. It was almost as if your camera became an extension of you - each snap, each click pulling you deeper into the action. It also helped that Max was ahead of Lando.
As the laps ticked down to the single digits, you found yourself once again pressed along the fence that separated the track and pit lane. Carlos was about to cross the line in third, securing another solid finish for Ferrari, but your focus was split between that and Max, who was positioned perfectly in fifth.
The weight of the moment settled in, along with the pride that came rushing to your chest. You clicked a few photos of Carlos as he crossed the finish line, gathering the energy of the team that squished into the fence beside you.
But just one garage over, the air was thick with excitement, anticipation, and pride. Max had done it again.
The Ferrari team members, along with those in Red Bull and Mercedes, sprinted down the pit lane to parc ferme. You weasled your way to the front of it all, snapping photos as Carlos got out of the car and celebrated with the team.
Your attention quickly turned to Max as he parked next to the red Ferrari. You could feel the adrenaline of the moment vibrate through your body as the crowd roared in celebration, your fingers still hovering over the shutter button, ready to capture every second of what would undoubtedly be another iconic moment in Max’s career.
As Max stepped onto the car, the energy from his team surged forward. You snapped a few quick photos of him, the expression of triumph evident in his eyes as he raised four fingers in celebration.
You had to force yourself to tear your attention away from him and back to Carlos. After he celebrated with the team, you snapped a few photos of him as he stuck a fist in the air. You followed Carlos as he congratulated George and Lewis on the Mercedes 1-2, before he found Max amidst the chaos.
Between the photos that you had taken of him on the car and now, Max had taken off his helmet and balaclava, and for the first time since the end of the race, you could see the smile that beamed on his face. The shutter of your camera was barely heard as you captured the moment between the two drivers.
You were going to follow Carlos as he was ushered to the cooldown car, but before you could, you felt an arm wrap around your waist. You froze for a second, heart pounding in your chest as the familiar scent of Max’s cologne mixed with the stench of sweat washed over you. The arm around your waist was tight enough to give a protective presence, but loose enough to not hurt you.
You turned, meeting his eyes - those deep blue-green, focused eyes that always seemed to hold a world of thoughts in them. But tonight, they were something else, something lighter. A look that said he was ready to celebrate.
“Congrats champ” you said as you looked up at him.
Max’s lips curved into a smile as he looked down at you, his hand still resting around your waist. There was a certain softness to his gaze now, a quiet joy that radiated through him, despite the whirlwind of celebration around him.
“Thanks” he said, his voice a mix of pride and something softer, almost vulnerable. “It feels good, you know?” His thumb lightly brushed against your side as you spoke, an unconscious gesture that felt intimate amidst the chaos.
You couldn’t help but smile back, feeling the heat of the moment settle between the two of you. “You earned it.” you said. The sound of a car horn filled the air, tearing your attention away from him. In the middle of the track were a handful of Rolls Royce’s.
“I think that’s our cue. I have some interviews to catch” you said as your attention settled back on your boyfriend. “Go celebrate with the team.”
“Meet me in my driver’s room once we’re both done.” Max said
You nodded, a playful smile tugging at your lips. “You got it, champ.”
Before you could slip away towards the chaos, Max pulled you in closer. You could feel the heat from his body as he leaned down to press his lips softly against yours, the world around you fading into nothing but a blur for a moment. It was quick, but it carried so much more weight than any words could ever have.
As you both pulled away, you could feel the warmth spread to your cheeks. “So much for keeping it hidden.” you teased
Max shrugged, a playful smile on his lips now. “You’re just too good to hide.”
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The interviews and the podium ceremony went as slow as molasses in January. As proud of Carlos as you were, you wanted to get the formal celebrations all wrapped up so you could pack up and make your way to the garage next door.
The spray of champagne and confetti filled the air, and the podium continued to sparkle under the floodlights. Carlos waved to the crowd, his focus on the fans, but you couldn’t help but to feel the pull towards the Red Bull garage. You quickly snapped a few more photos of the celebration, but your heart wasn’t in it.
The second the ceremony ended and the crowd began to disperse, you bolted from your spot, making your way quickly towards the Ferrari garage. Through the walls you could hear the celebrations already going on next door, but you had one last task to complete before you could join in the celebrations yourself.
You found a relatively quiet corner of the garage to open your laptop and load a handful of photos into Lightroom. Not everything needed to be looked over and edited tonight - that was a flight home problem - but you knew you needed something to send some of the social media interns to post for race results and podium content.
After slapping on the presets you’ve used all season, you emailed the photos to the interns and slammed your laptop shut. The Ferrari garage was still alive with a sense of pride, but your heart was no longer tethered to it for the day. You needed to be next door, with Max.
With a quick stop in the motorhome, you changed into something a bit more comfortable - jeans and a crop top before you pushed through the corridor to the main garage. You weaved between team members and engineers who were still making their rounds, tying up loose ends after a race.
Cold was never a word you thought you’d describe a city in the desert, but as soon as you left the red garage, a shiver was sent down your spine. Fortunately, before you could even think about how to bundle up, you heard your name.
“Y/n!” a voice called.
You turned towards the direction of the Red Bull garage, and sure enough, Meg and Jess - Red Bull’s photographers - were waving you over. You ran over, letting the both of them engulf you in a hug.
“Congrats guys!” you said as you pulled away
They both echoed back a “thank you” before matching smirks formed on their faces.
“So you and Max?” Jess asked
“Why didn’t you tell us it finally happened?” Meg added
You could feel your cheeks grow warm as you shrugged. “Just didn’t think it was the right time”
Meg rolled her eyes at your comment “Oh, and kissing in front of three hundred thousand people was?”
“Whatever” you mumbled
“If you’re looking for Max though, he’s in his driver’s room. Guessing he needed a moment to breathe” Jess said before giving you directions to said room.
You made your way through the corridors of the navy blue Red Bull garage, your steps quickening as you neared Max’s driver’s room. The noise of the celebrations felt distant, the hum of excitement muted behind the thick walls. As you approached the door Jess had pointed you to, you paused for a moment, steadying yourself. It was crazy how much had changed in just a few months, but here you were, walking toward the man who not only had been your childhood enemy, but also had become a significant part of your life in ways you hadn’t imagined.
With a quick breath, you knocked lightly on the door. Max’s voice quickly followed, “come in!”
Inside, the room was dimly lit with just a few lights scattered around. The clutter of post-race items - the helmet and gloves - were discarded in the corner, his race suit still hanging loosely from his waist. A navy blue shirt covered the white fireproofs he still had on, the word “M4X” written in graffiti plastered on the front. You couldn’t help but smile as you took in the design - your design - that was now a symbol of an iconic season.
“I’m looking for a four time world champion. Have you seen one around?” you asked playfully as you leaned up against the doorframe.
Max looked up from where he was sorting through his things, his lips curling into the same grin he always got when he caught sight of you. His eyes brightened, and for a moment, it was as if the chaos of the day melted away.
“Four-time world champion, huh?” he teased, his voice light and filled with pride. “I think I’ve seen one around here, but I’m not sure they’re as impressive as their shirt.” He gestured to the M4X logo on his shirt, the design standing out proudly against the dim lighting of the room.
You couldn’t help but laugh, feeling the warmth of the moment settle in. “Maybe it’s the shirt that makes the champion.” you quipped, pushing off from the doorframe and stepping into the room.
Max chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck. “I’m sure it’s all your doing.” His voice softened slightly, his gaze lingering on you, almost as if taking a moment to let everything sink in.
“You’ve earned it Max.” you said, your words sincere, no teasing this time. The pride you felt for him, and all he’d accomplished, was clear in your voice. “Every single one of them. And I’ve been so fortunate to watch you win at least three.”
Max stepped closer, a faint smile tugging at his lips as he reached out to gently pull you into a hug. His arms wrapped around you, and everything outside of that room vanished. He rested his chin on your shoulder, a relaxed sigh escaping him. “Couldn’t have done it without you,” he murmured, his voice hushed, vulnerable in a way you hadn’t expected.
You felt your heart race, his words hitting you deeper than you had anticipated. “It’s been a hell of a ride,” you replied softly, your fingers lightly tracing his shirt where the M4X logo was.
“I did get you a shirt, don’t you worry” he teased as he registered your actions.
A laugh escaped your mouth as you shook your head, “I sure hope you would.”
Without saying another word, Max leaned in, his lips capturing yours in a kiss that was filled with both the joy of the moment and the promise of everything to come. It was slow, deliberate, and full of emotion. When he pulled back, you both lingered there for a moment, letting the world outside stay on hold for just a little bit longer.
“You’ve been a huge part of this, you know?” Max said, his voice low and steady, his breath warm against your skin
“I know” you replied with a small smile, looking up at him. “But so have you. I’m so incredibly proud of you, Max. More than you know. Though I haven’t seen it all over the past four years, I know you’ve sacrificed a lot.”
Max gave a soft chuckle, his grip tightening around you. “You make it sound like I’ve done something extraordinary.”
“You have” you said, admiration and affection filling your gaze. “And don’t you dare sell yourself short.”
His gaze softened again, and he pressed his lips to your forehead, a brief but tender kiss. The silence that followed was comfortable, filled with a quiet understanding between the two of you. The weight of the day still hung in the air, but there was a sense of calm that made everything feel right.
“So…” you said after a beat, breaking the silence with a playful tone. “How about we go and celebrate? We’re in Las Vegas afterall.”
Max pulled back slightly, a teasing grin on his face. “I thought you’d never ask.”
The Dutchman quickly showered and changed into more casual clothes - his iconic black shirt and jeans. You couldn’t help but smile as you took him in, feeling your heart flutter in the process.
As he collected his things to head out, he turned to you, his head tilted slightly in curiosity. “Do you think Logan and Isabella would want to join?”
At first you were caught off guard by the question, the two people he named you thought surely wouldn’t be invited to the celebrations. But it was Max afterall, and no matter how many years you’d known him, he’d keep you on your toes.
You shrugged, glancing at his phone on the table. “I don’t know, why don’t you ask them yourself?”
Max raised an eyebrow at your suggestion, but didn’t hesitate as he grabbed his phone from the resting spot. “Fair enough.”
His head was down as he reached for his wallet and began to walk out of his room, so he didn’t notice something fall from one of the pockets. You, on the other hand, noticed the small, folded up piece of paper hit the ground. As Max was halfway out the door, you grabbed it, unfolding it.
As you unfolded the paper, you could see a photo of a young boy, throwing his arms up in celebration. He was standing in front of a kart - his kart. Your heart skipped a beat as your eyes traced the photo. The edges were faded, but you knew the kid standing in the middle. You knew that photo was only taken on your little red point and shoot camera.
“Y/n? You coming?” Max called from down the hallway, his tone casual, but you could hear the faint urgency in his voice.
You hesitated, the photo still in your hand, and glanced at Max. His attention was now back to being focused on you, his eyes soft.
“You put the photo back in your wallet?” you asked, turning the image of the boy so Max could see his younger self.
Max’s eyes widened for a second as he realized what you were holding. His calm expression faltered just slightly, replaced by a hint of surprise, before breaking into a soft smile.
“Who said I ever took it out?”
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literally in indianapolis rn, should’ve brought my resume with me 🥲
worst part is i won’t have time to visit the speedway
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my proposed solution to the george russell / max verstappen feud
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as a kelly hater, today has been incredibly hard for me 😔
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High Flyer - Part 4
pairing: charles x reader
summary: victory never tasted so sweet
masterlist requests open
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The sunset beams in your face as you walk through the paddock in Qatar. Charles follows close behind, embracing his position as full-time WAG. As soon as you get to your drivers room, you collapse on the couch. Free practice and the sprint have been fine, but now you need to lock in for Qualifying and the race.
You have a comfortable lead in the championship, but that’s all that you are being asked about and it’s tiring. It’s clear to anyone that you’ve encountered that you don’t want to talk. You are in an odd mood, normally you are great with the media.
“What’s on your mind?” Charles asks, pulling you into his arms. You lean into him, relaxing a little but the tension is still there.
You shake your head, not ready to talk about it. Admiting what you are feeling makes you a weak driver, and you can’t be that. Not as a woman. Charles knows you are nervous, so he doesn’t push it. Instead, he rubs small circles on your back, letting the silence in the room provide comfort as your mind races.
“It feels different,” you say, fighting the block in your head that is screaming at you to keep it in. Charles’ hand moves from your back to the back of your neck. Holding you close, he doesn’t reply, but a small hum tells you that you have his attention. You swallow your pride a little more as the subtle encouragement helps you open up. Your voice shakes as you speak, everything suddenly more real. “My nerves are almost paralyzing. I don’t want to get in the car.”
Charles takes a second to consider his response, wanting to make sure you are supported and he says the right thing.
“You are under a lot of stress and pressure, it’s okay to be nervous. You are so close to what you’ve been working for, and you aren’t alone in your fight for it,” Charles says gently, carefully. “You have a whole team, you have me, you have your grid family and your real life family. We are all here for you no matter what happens this week,” Charles feels his heart swell as the tension slowly leaves you, melting into his arms.
“Thank you,” you whisper, tears threatening to escape your eyes. You know he’s seen the articles and quotes regarding your championship fight, he knows the pressure that is on you.
Charles pulls away slightly to get a good look at you. He brushes away an escaped tear, eyes searching yours as he tries to read you.
“You can do this, all you need to do is drive, as easy as breathing for you,” Charles’ reassurance helps you gain confidence.
“Stay with me until I get into the car,” you make him promise you.
“Of course,” Charles’ heart hurts at the thought of you going through this alone. If he hadn’t been honorably discharged and returned to service, how would you find the strength to leave the safety of your room? What scares him more is the idea that you have been in the same situation before and had to deal with it alone.
He watches in admiration at how you are able to get in the zone as you change into your race suit. Charles holds your hand the entire walk to the garage, both of you close as you quietly converse.
Kimi is the only one who interrupts you on the walk, heading to the Mercedes garage himself.
“Good luck, mom,” Kimi hugs you. He has had a great start thanks to you and George, but he isn’t close to you in the standings at all.
“Thanks, Kimi, drive safe,” you hug him back, squeezing tight. You shouldn’t choose favorite children, but the young Italian has slowly wormed his way to being a contender for that top spot. Fans love to speculate who is your favorite grid child. Charles pats Kimi on the back, a small encouragement.
Charles stays with you as you talk to engineers and helps you get ready to get into the car. You stand in the corner of the garage with your gear.
“You are going to do so well,” Charles whispers, his forehead against yours. You tilt your head up, stealing a quick kiss before you put your balaclava and helmet on.
You make it through Q3 easily, starting at P3 on the grid. Charles watches anxiously as the race winds down. The excitement in the garage is palpable. With Oscar behind in P3 and no good chance to overtake you, all you need to do is cross the finish line. Max is in P1, but by bringing the car home you will take the victory.
“She’s incredible,” Arthur says, the cautious optimism as the checkered flag is waving. You have just one more turn as you go through turn 15.
“She did it!” Charles cheers as you cross the line, hugging Arthur who then pulls him with the team to greet you at the barriers.
Your hands shake as you stop the car, sitting in the realization that you’ve accomplished your dream. Once Max has stood atop his car and celebrated, you climb out of yours and carefully balance on top as you celebrate. The roar of the crowd courses through you.
A lot of pressure was on your drive and you couldn’t be more proud. You secured a four-year contract extension with your win and you showed girls that they can succeed.
The air is electric as you jump into your team after getting weighed. You give as many hugs as you can before you go back to drop your equipment. The first person you go to once you get back to the barrier is Charles.
“Thank you for believing in me,” you say before embracing him. Charles holds you tight.
“Always, mon ange,” he grins, pulling you into a kiss. Charles wipes the tears of joy away, letting the team celebrate with you before other drivers steal you for congratulations and other duties.
The interviewer asks questions that you are happy to answer, for once.
“I have so many people to thank. My family, my husband, my grid kids, but most importantly my team. My team has helped me every step of the way and never got discouraged when we finished second in the championship. It’s why I’m so glad that I will be staying with them,” you grin, the cheers from your team filling the paddock. The podium fake champagne never tasted so sweet.
Since you couldn’t properly celebrate in Qatar, Ferrari took the liberty of renting a club not too far from the factory once you returned. It is safe to say that many of the team walked from the club to the factory the next morning, including you.
The following year you made sure to win it in Brazil while also winning the grand prix.
“Congratulations, champ. No one else I’d rather lose the number one to for a second time,” Max shakes your hand, you pull him into a hug as you stand near the bar.
“No one else I’d rather battle. Do you ever feel like we are getting a little old?” you ask, looking at your grid kids dancing and drowning shots like you and Max used to.
“We can still out drink them, we just pace ourselves better now. We also still have many years left of driving to terrorize them,” he pats your shoulder.
“And if this is the last time we are the ones fighting for the title?”
“It always happens this way, they are the next generation. We will be their Fernando’s,” Max smiles at the thought of the grid grandfather and eternal rookie. Fernando just announced his retirement, for good this time, and it’s made many of you stop and think.
“To us. May our livers and racing spirit never die,” you toast, one Max happily returns.
“Sorry to cut in, but I would like to dance with my wife and champion,” Charles steals you away, bringing you back to the floor.
“Charles,” you laugh as he pulls you away.
“Sorry, you just look too good and I had to keep you to myself,” his voice drops a little bit as the lights flash around you. Your Ferrari red minidress hugs your figure just right. It looks stunning in photos as well. You paired it with a white very fluffy coat, which is currently stored in coat check, and matching red heels.
“Stop or else I’ll have to take you home,” you reply, painted red lips brushing his ear.
“You know I am always on board for that, but we are here celebrating you,” Charles replies, clearly restraining himself. Unfortunately for him, your restraint left two drinks ago.
“I’d rather be back at the hotel celebrating, you can celebrate me all night long,” your hips grind against Charles who lets out a soft groan.
“Fuck, I need another drink,” he steps back while he still can stop himself. “Mon amour, you drive me crazy,” he says, kissing you passionately yet briefly before heading to the bar.
You drift to where your grid family is dancing. Ollie grabs your hand, spinning you around a little awkwardly. Your joyful laugh encourages them.
“No mate, you dance like a teenager,” Kimi shakes his head, taking your hands and pulling you to a close yet respectful distance.
“I think you all need to learn how to dance,” you shake your head with a slight laugh.
“I’m here,” Arthur is being carefully followed by a server holding a tray of shots.
“You aren’t Australian, but you could do a shoey,” Oscar says as he hands you a shot from the tray.
“I could, but I don’t have a shoe for it,” you smile, waiting for someone to toast the shot.
“I’ll give you mine, someone get a beer,” Jack says after taking the shot, the server promptly bringing back a beer.
“Hold on,” Ollie and Kimi say almost in unison as they debate who is filming you. Jack slides off a shoe as he takes the open beer. Oscar helps you stand on a table.
“We are good,” Ollie smiles, both him and Kimi’s phones pointed at you. Kimi is taking a video while Ollie takes pictures. Jack hands you his beer filled shoe as the crowd gathers around.
You hold the shoe up in the air before bringing it to your lips. The cold beer goes down quick, helping your buzz grow. The crowd cheers as you pull it away, turning the crisp white shoe upside down to show it is all empty. Oscar and Arthur help you down as Jack puts the shoe back on.
“That’s my mother,” Ollie cheers, high fiving you. Carlos approaches with two drinks in his hand, extending the one to you.
“Not that you need it after chugging a whole shoe of beer, but I told you I’d buy you one,” Carlos laughs as you take a sip.
“Much better than shoe beer,” you grin, quickly turning to Jack who is standing upright. “Thanks for the shoe,” you give him a little salute as you begin to follow Carlos to the drivers your age. As you cross the floor, you chug the drink, a slight burn as it goes down.
“A shoey? I appreciate my legacy being kept alive,” an Australian accent greets you and you perk up.
“Danny!” you slur as you practically jump onto the man.
“Hey, careful. I’m not as young as I used to be,” he laughs, letting you down gently.
You talk for another fifteen minutes and do another round of shots before finding Charles, in the mood to dance. He is chatting with Pierre and you don’t bother cutting in politely. Rather, you grab Charles’ arm as Kika and Pierre laugh at your startled husband.
Charles holds you close, his warm hands resting on the small of your back, threatening to dip lower.
“How are you doing, mon ange?” Charles asks, his small smile lit up by the flashing lights.
“I’m doing great, need you,” you slur, the alcohol and lateness hitting you. It’s late enough that you could go home and no one would bat an eye. You’ve talked to everyone here and
“Wanna get out of here?” Charles eyes darken as you press against him. One nod and he sweeps you off your feet, your head resting against his shoulder.
“Want me to call you an Uber?” Arthur asks as Charles walks past him.
“Please,” Arthur gives a thumbs up, so Charles continues to the coat check. Charles sets you down so you can get your coat.
“Sleep well,” Arthur hugs both of you before you leave to get in the Uber.
Keeping your hands to yourselves for the ten minute ride was possibly the hardest thing you have ever done, but as soon as the hotel suite door is closed, Charles is all over you.
“I’ve been wanting to take this dress off of you all night,” Charles growls, nipping your bottom lip.
“Then take it off,” you gasp. As soon as your clothes are off, Charles rolls off of you. You watch as he stumbles slightly to the suitcase in the corner.
“Where are the-“
“Didn’t pack any. I’m world champion, aren’t I?” the tone of your voice brings him back to you. His hands run up your arms, pinning them above your head.
“God I love you,”
It isn’t too much of a shock when soon after Abu Dhabi and the prize ceremony that you find yourself hugging the toilet.
“You okay?” Charles asks, rubbing you back.
“I gotta call Fred,” you groan. Charles places your phone in your outstretched hand.
“Y/n, what a surprise. How’s your break going?” Fred sounds concerned over the phone,
“It’s going well,” you look at Charles who just gives you a supportive thumbs up. “Listen Fred,” you feel bile rise in your throat and shove to phone to Charles who quickly takes it and steps out so Fred doesn’t hear you puke.
“Y/n?”
“Hey Fred. What she was about to say is that you will need to find another driver for next season,” Charles says awkwardly.
“Ah, congratulations. Why don’t you have her set up a meeting with me in a few weeks and we can discuss it further? Assure Y/n that we will make sure she has a seat next season, Charles,” Fred says, sounding genuine in his promise.
“Thank you, I’ll let her know,” Charles hangs up.
“I never thought the first person I would tell would be Fred,” you groan, head leaning against a cabinet.
“Neither did I. He sends his congratulations. He also wants you to set up a meeting in a few weeks to talk about it, but he assured me that you still have your seat once you return,” Charles says, helping you stand up and return to bed.
“They couldn’t lose their champion that easy,”
“No,” Charles agrees.
The meeting is scheduled and goes well. It was to simply cover how the absence will be announced and how your contract will be renegotiated.
You and Charles decide to host a small holiday party for your grid family right after the new year. You set up a small camera in the living room and make sure it’s recording.
“Presents? Finally,” Arthur practically runs to sit beside the tree, competing with Ollie to see who gets there the fastest. Charles notices how you subconsciously put a hand on your lower stomach and smile.
“Pass them out first,” you chide, sitting beside Charles once all the boys are seated. Arthur passes out the seven identical boxes to their labeled recipient after passing everything else out.
“We are supposed to open these at the same time, no?” Carlos asks, you just nod. The sound of paper tearing fills the room as your grid family opens their boxes.
“Best grid uncle?” Max asks, brows furrowed in confusion.
“Big brother- OH MY GOD!” Ollie scrambles to his feet to hug you. You can’t help but laugh. Arthur is crying tears of joy on the floor.
“No way I’m the baby’s nephew,” Jack stares at the shirt.
“If I’m the brother, that makes you the nephew,” Oscar pats Jack’s shoulder.
“Wait, you won’t be driving next season?” Kimi asks, his joy replaced with sadness.
“Oh, I’ll be around. Charles can’t keep me away that easily,” your loving smile betrays your words.
“Who’s replacing you?” Arthur asks the question that’s lingering in the air.
“I don’t know, I asked Fred to wait to ask someone until I told you all,” you shrug.
“I’m so happy for you,” Carlos smiles, already planning what gifts he will be getting you.
“Thank you, don’t get too comfortable without me,” you hug your teammate.
It only takes a day for the news to break.
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f1 Breaking: Reigning Champion Y/n Leclerc will not compete in the 2027 season according to Ferrari. More information on our website.
user23 she looked really sick during the prize ceremony, hope everything is okay!
user893 hopefully she returns in 2028!
user31 this is why women shouldn’t drive
scuderiaferrari we are very happy with her as our CHAMPION driver, and we anxiously await her return.
user6 you tell that man, Ferrari
Much to yours and Charles’ delight, Arthur gets offered the opportunity to take your seat for the season. You threatened him to do well or else he will never meet his niece or nephew, but in reality you just want him to succeed so that he gets the chance to race for another team next season when you return.
No one sees you out in public, you and Charles stay home or go places privately. You didn’t post an announcement that you are expecting, instead you left Ferrari state you are taking a temporary medical leave. It’s a nice change of pace. It’s also definitively the longest time the two of you have spent together, and you haven’t driven each other mad. It all changes in May though.
Imola is the perfect place to make your return to the Paddock. You are entering your third trimester and you want to make at least one paddock appearance before you are miserably pregnant.
“Are you sure? We can turn around if you want to,” Charles asks as he parks your Ferrari Roma.
“Do you not want my fans to see what you have done to me?” you tease, hand resting on the baby bump.
“They will hate me for taking away their champion,” Charles grins, clearly not fussed about it.
“It’s okay, we have future champions in the making, made from a championship,” you wink, causing Charles to blush. You think that when you return to racing again, you will have separation anxiety from him. Spending most of your time together has become your normal, and you wouldn’t change it.
“Well, let’s show our little champions off,” you smile. Charles gets out first, quickly rounding the car to help you out. Ferrari sent out a hospitality intern to escort both of you into the paddock. Luckily for you, no cameras notice you in your red dress and Ferrari jacket as you make your way to hospitality. The media is too busy hounding other celebrities here for the race.
“You made it!” Arthur quickly moves to greet you.
“Wow, nothing for your own brother? I see how it is,” Charles shakes his head.
“There she is,” Carlos greets you with a warm hug.
“Wait until the cameras see me,” you smile, showing off your swollen belly.
“Wait until they see the maternity pictures you just took,” Charles interjects, opening his phone to share.
You had your racing overalls on with a white top, it really turned out nice. It also led to great sex.
“You’re back!” Ollie runs in, Kimi not too far behind. You assume that Arthur sent out a text letting people know you are here.
“You look great, taking time off from racing is doing you well,” Kimi is quick to hug you. He misses your hugs and cuddles when you aren’t in the paddock. He hates not being able to crash your couch and rant while you play with his curls and offer advice and support. Of all your grid children, Kimi is your baby and he knows it.
Ollie does similar things, which is why they are your twins. Oscar tends to call you or text you when needing advice or a friend, but he has Mark and Jack. Speaking of Jack, he doesn’t usually utilize you like Ollie and Kimi do, but he never turns down your home cooked meals or dinner invites. For him, knowing you are there for support is enough.
“Thank you, Kimi,” you say, straightening his collar as he pulls away. Arthur and Charles are deep in conversation off to the side of the garage.
“Are you excited to be on this side of things?” Ollie asks, vying for your attention.
“I haven’t been on this side since I was in F2. I’ll be so stressed watching you two. My twins,” you want to reach out and pinch their cheeks, they look so cute with their grins. The pregnancy hormones may be starting to get to you.
“Just remember that we, the twins, were here first,” Ollies eyes dart down to where your hand is resting and back up to your face. He notes the small smile on your face.
“Twins?” Ollie asks, eyes wide with excitement.
You nod, smile growing with pride. “Yeah, exciting isn’t it,” there is a lightness to your voice, almost laughing.
“You can create a team for them. Can we take them karting?” Kimi asks, excited at the idea. Your laugh rings through hospitality, catching the eyes of your team.
“Kimi, they haven’t even been born yet, give it a few years at least,” you remind him.
“A few years until what?” Charles sneaks up behind you, pressing a kiss to your cheek. His arms wrap around you, letting you lean into his chest.
“Until we can take the twins karting,” Ollie answers.
“That will be my job as the biological uncle,” Arther frowns.
“None of you are taking my kids karting until I take them karting,” you scoff, playfully rolling your eyes.
“Arthur, time to go to the garage,” Carlos enters the room, not looking up from his phone.
“Is it really?” as soon as you speak Carlos looks up, eyes widened in a mixture of shock and happiness.
“Amiga, I heard you were coming to visit but I didn’t know when,” Carlos crosses the room quickly, the garage report all but forgot.
“I wanted to surprise you,” you smile as you step out of Charles’ arms to give the Spaniard a hug.
“You should join us in the garage,” Carlos insists.
“You go, I’ll stay here for a bit so you can catch up,” Charles smiles, not bothered.
“We will see you later,” Kimi waves goodbye as he and Ollie leave. They don’t want to get accused of spying, even if they were only in Ferrari to see you.
You are sandwiched between Arthur and Carlos as you step out of Ferrari, the warm May air greeting you with a pleasant breeze.
“Aren’t you worried the press will see you?” Arthur asks, a little protective as he glances around the paddock.
“If I were worried, I wouldn’t be here. Now, which one of you is going to win so I can sing the Italian National Anthem with the Tifosi,” you grin, looping your arms through theirs.
“Me, of course,” Carlos states. You hear a camera shudder as you get closer to the garage and know it’s only a matter of time before your secret is out. The Ferrari social media team has already taken plenty of pictures and videos of your return.
“You better keep the promise. I expect a 1-2 and nothing less,” you insist, adding a second thought, “and a repeat at Monza.”
“You ask a lot, dear sister, but I think we can do it,” Arthur laughs. He’s done a great job to start the season and you’ve been hoping he signs for someone next season.
“Good,” you listen to the two boys converse with a small smile on your face. You can’t lie and say you did not miss it. The three of you get stopped by drivers a few times before reaching the garage, simply wanting to say hello and check in with you.
“My star driver,” Fred greets you jovially. The whirring of the machines seem to pause as your presence is recognized in the garage.
“Hello, Fred. Miss me much?” you grin.
“Of course. You better be ready to return next season,” he says expectantly. For a moment you forgot he was your boss and not an old friend. Your cheeks slightly flush with embarrassment, wanting to end the awkward change in conversation tone.
“Yes, I’ve been staying active and working out as much and as safely as I can,” you state, your tone indicating that the conversation was over. You spend time talking with your engineers and mechanics, catching up on their lives and the season.
As the day progresses, you return to Hospitality where Charles awaits you. All you want to do is sit down, maybe take a nap, and have a snack. Your back hurts and your ankles are a bit swollen.
“How was the garage?” Charles asks, setting down the book he was reading.
“It was good, I caught up with the team,” you yawn as you sit on one of the very comfortable couches.
“I’ll go grab you a snack, why don’t you take a quick nap? There’s about half an hour before we need to go to the garage,” Charles suggests, reading your mind. You nod, feeling tired enough to doze off immediately.
About fifteen minutes later, Charles gently wakes you. You softly thank him as you take the plate of food, eating what you can quickly. Before you know it, Charles is walking to the garage with you. The team set up a folding chair and pillow so you can be more comfortable. Unfortunately for Charles, he has to stand.
You notice the camera on the screen enter the Ferrari garage, and before you have a moment to find where they are, you are on the screen. Charles stands beside you protectively, his right hand resting on your shoulder. You turn to the camera and wave, your PR smile in full force.
You can hear the roar of the Tifosi as you are on the screen, La Predestina being shouted out. It’s both heartwarming and a little embarrassing.
“Destiny,” Charles leans down, smile playing on his lips as he recalls the call sign you were given when the two of you first met.
“Perceval,” you reply, moving your hand so it can rest on Charles’. The embarrassment turned into pride, knowing how loved you are by the fans even if you aren’t racing at the moment.
You were instantly trending within the Formula One community. The news of your pregnancy and paddock return being celebrated by most fans. Of course there were some who wanted to use it against you, but you grew thick skin ages ago.
You find yourself swept up in a sea of red, cheering for the Ferrari 1-2 podium. Charles stands close to you, blocking you from the crowd with the help of your team.
“Still remember the words?” one of the engineers teases you in italian.
“A memoria,” you smile, happily linking arms with the team to sing out the anthem. It’s a weird sensation, being on the other side of the podium. You are grateful for how the team has included you in the weekend, but there is a pang of longing as you look at the podium. The tifosi should be cheering for you, it should be you standing with the medal around your neck looking out over the crowd.
Charles holds you close as you walk back to the garage, offering silent support. It didn’t take a genius to notice your longing stare.
“Can we go home,” you whisper in the car after having an early dinner with Arthur.
“Is everything okay?” Charles asks, starting the car. Concern fills his green eyes as he looks across the car, his hand lifting slightly from the gear stick. Your eyes are trained out the window, body angled slightly away. You don’t speak for a moment.
“I don’t know,” your voice is thick, tears sting at the corners of your eyes but don’t flow. Charles wants to push, but he doesn’t, knowing you will be unresponsive. He sets off back to France.
The ride is silent beyond the music playing and the sound of the road underneath the car. It doesn’t change when you get home, you both silently go through your nighttime routines. Charles attempts to get you to speak, but you don’t.
As you lay in bed, darkness surrounding you, Charles hears your soft cries. You do everything in your power to suppress it, but you can’t. Charles silently rolls towards you, reaching out to hold you and comfort you, but you just move away. You’ve had fights before, but this is different.
“Mon ange,” Charles whispers pleadingly but gets no answer. Neither of you know how you fell asleep.
Charles notices your silent avoidance of both him and the room your sim is set up in, your office. He catches your longing glances at it and your haste to look away when you realize. Around noon he gets fed up. He finds you sitting on the couch reading.
“Mon ange,” he says, trying to catch your attention, but you don’t look up. Your eyes remain trained on the book in your hands. You haven’t flipped the page in almost ten minutes. “Y/n,” Charles tries again, voice louder with irritation.
“What, Charles?” you slam the book down on the coffee table in front of you.
“Why are you ignoring me? One minute everything is fine and the next you are shut down,” he huffs, frustration and anger bubbling up.
“What are you talking about? I’m fine,” you brush it off, knowing it’s a lie.
“No, you aren’t. I notice things. Like how you didn’t do your morning workout, or how you’ve been avoiding your office. Why are you lying?” Charles steps closer to you, the tension in the room heightens with each step.
“I’m not lying!” Lie.
“You are, and you are avoiding me like I’m the problem,” you stand up as he speaks, grabbing your book, ready to relocate to a different part of the house.
“God, can’t a woman have a moment of peace? Be alone for a minute?” you cynically laugh, starting to walk away as Charles catches your arm.
“You don’t get to walk away. Not when this attitude is affecting everything,” Charles says, looking you in the eyes. Your eyes flicker from him to your office to your baby bump.
“I can’t talk about this right now,” your voice cracks as you gently pull your arm from Charles’s grasp. You leave the room in an uncomfortable silence. Charles plops down onto the couch, sighing with his head in his hands.
The two of you avoid each for a few more hours before guilt gnaws at both of you. Charles is once again the one to find you, bringing a cup of tea as a peace offering. You are on a swing, on the porch in your backyard. The fresh air helping to clear your mind as you gently rock back and forth.
“I’m sorry,” you beat him to the apology.
“I shouldn’t have instigated the fight, you clearly didn’t want to talk about it,” Charles shakes his head, setting the mug down beside you.
“And I shouldn’t have gaslit you. I just have a lot of feelings and I don’t know how to handle them. It’s all a bit embarrassing,” you pat the cushion next to you, inviting Charles to be the closest to you that he’s been since the race.
“You don’t have to talk about it yet if you don’t want to,” Charles follows your cues, he doesn’t want to chalk anything up to being pregnancy hormones. You nod, allowing a more comfortable silence to fill the air as you reacclimatize to his presence. There’s a part of you that wants to resist and be stubborn, but you can’t help but relax when he is close.
“I’m ashamed at the feelings I had during the podium and the spiral that came with it,” you say, fighting the urge to lock up again. Charles doesn’t reply, mainly because he isn’t sure what to say that will be a comfort.
After a few seconds you choose to elaborate. “I felt this resentment at the babies, even at you, for not being able to drive. Seeing the podium as a fan and not the driver on the top step was hard,” saying it out loud makes you feel stupid, like you should know better.
“That’s natural. You never grieved the loss of your passion, even if it is temporary,” Charles takes a tentative move towards you. He wraps his arms around you, breaking any lasting tension between you.
“I just feel so stupid,” you fight the tears welling up. That you can blame on your hormones.
“Yeah, maybe a little,” Charles grins, pressing a kiss to your hair. You can’t help but laugh, even as tears trickle down your cheeks.
“I’m sorry. It’s not fair to blame you for my inability to drive,” you apologize again, linking your hand with his.
“Oh no, it is one hundred percent fair. I’m proud to be the reason that you can’t drive. Maybe repeating that reason will make you feel better?” Charles suggests, running his free hand up and down your body while lifting your linked hands to his lips.
“Charles!”
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High Flyer - Part 3
pairing: charles x reader
summary: life never goes as planned, as evidenced by a phone call mid race
a/n: thank you so much for the request 🫶 its given me an idea for a fourth part too
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There is nothing more that a driver looks forward to more than breaks, and you were practically counting down the days until the summer shutdown.
Not that you don’t like racing, you love racing, but you miss your bed and home in Vence, just outside of Nice. You and Charles chose the property due to its proximity to Monaco and the space to grow your family in the future. The garage space also helps with your car collection.
You started searching the property soon after your elopement, and you closed on it quickly. It even was the site where your official wedding ceremony was held, a relatively small and intimate gathering of close family and friends. The backyard made for the perfect backdrop, and it was nice to have a dinner with everyone to celebrate.
“Is that Charles? Can I say hi?” Arthur pops his head into your drivers room as you are on the phone.
“Of course, don’t take too long,” you pass off your phone, watching your brother-in-law’s face light up. Arthur hands back the phone after a couple minutes so you can finish your conversation.
“I don’t have too long left,” Charles sighs, not wanting the call to end.
“I know, deployment and F1 don’t really mesh well. Are you flying soon?” you ask, the hole in your heart growing as the end of the call gets closer.
“It will be over before we know it. I have a flight scheduled soon, training for a mission. What are you doing for break?” Charles asks, trying to get a little more conversation in and a feeble attempt to distract you from his job.
“I’ll travel with Arthur for a week, he is keeping the location a surprise, then I’m hosting the boys for a few days,” you didn’t really plan much.
“That sounds nice. My call time is almost up, I love you,” Charles says sadly.
“We will talk soon, I love you more,” the connection ends and you frown at your phone, already missing him.
“Even if he isn’t here, you have the next best thing right here,” Arthur grins and you can’t fight your smile. The two of you have grown close, you would disown your grid kids for him if necessary.
“Espressos?” you ask, needing a boost of energy.
“This isn’t Haas,” Arthur teases Ollie, who is patiently waiting for a Macchiato.
“Can’t a boy visit his grid mom?” Ollie smiles as you hug him.
“Of course, but no stealing strategies,” you say, happily taking your espresso from the barista.
The three of you chat until Ollie gets called back to Haas. As the self-proclaimed empty nester in the paddock, you enjoy when your boys stop in.
The race weekend drags on, and on, and on, until you finally get to the race. Each lap is one lap closer to your break.
A reporter noticed your eagerness for break before the race and asked you about it.
“Well, I’m no spring chicken anymore. My body and mind is looking forward to a few weeks off to relax and rejuvenate. I’m not as young as my kids are, they could probably race for a few more weeks back-to-back before needing the summer break,” you joke. Seven seasons in is a long time for motorsport, the average career in F1 is around 8 years - not that you plan on retiring any time soon. Ferrari will probably have to drag you out of Maranello when you are old and grey. Legit grey though, not Oscar and Jack joking that you have a grey hair and making you freak out.
Your manager, Nicholas, watches from the garage, standing with Arthur as they watch you closely. On lap 32 your phone begins buzzing with a call, and without really looking at the number he answers is.
“Nicholas Todd speaking for Mrs. Leclerc, how can I help you,” he answers almost robotically.
“This is an urgent message for Mrs. Leclerc regarding her husband, can she be on the phone?” A voice replies, sounding overly formal. Nicholas shifts a little nervously, glancing at the screen.
“Not at the moment,” he replies, Arthur looks at him, curious as to what’s happening. Nicholas catches sight of Arthur and hurriedly adds to his statement. “I can put you on with Mr. Leclerc’s brother,” he says, earning a satisfied response from the caller. Arthur curiously takes the phone, stepping into a quieter spot.
“Arthur Leclerc speaking,” he says a little warily.
“Good Afternoon Mr. Leclerc, your brother, Charles, has been wounded in a training incident and is currently being transported back to France for recovery,” Arthur listens carefully as the necessary details are conveyed.
“I will pass the message along to Charles’ wife, will you be notifying our mother?” Arthur asks, receiving confirmation of the next people that will be notified. As the call ends, Arthur’s mind kicks into crisis mode.
“What was the issue?” Nicholas asks, watching as you have a stellar overtake for P3.
“Charles is wounded, he’s being evacuated for recovery,” Arthur does his best not to panic. He knows that Charles must be okay for it to just be a phone call, but he can’t help but worry. It doesn’t help that you are none the wiser as you drive.
“Shit. Do you think we should pass the information along to her now?” Nicholas also goes into crisis management mode.
“No, she’d want to pull out of the race and it’s almost over. I’ll talk to the team, book the earliest flight back to Nice that you can,” Arthur instructs before searching for the PR team so they can get you out of media duties. Fred is his next stop, catching the team principal as soon as the race ends.
“I can’t get her out of the podium, but I can make sure she gets out of everything else,” Fred promises, sending Arthur on his way to intercept you.
“Great drive,” Arthur smiles as he hugs you.
“Thanks,” you eye him warily. “Something is off, what are you hiding?”
“Something happened, Charles is fine, I will tell you more about the call after the podium,” Arthur says, sending your mind in a spin.
“What happened?” you press, heart rate rising. Arthur walks with you to the cooldown room.
“I don’t know exactly, he’s injured but he’s okay. I promise I will tell you more right after the podium. Nicholas is rebooking our flights now and Fred is getting you out of the post-podium duties,” Arthur tries to soothe you. You feel a little numb as your brain tries to process everything without panicking.
“He’s okay?”
“It wouldn’t have been a phone call if it were serious,” Arthur says, trying to reassure himself too.
It seems to be enough for you to mask your worry with a nod.
“Meet me in my drivers room after the podium,” your voice is a little shaky as you part from Arthur. You feel numb throughout the ceremony, leaving as soon as champagne starts to be sprayed.
“I called Maman and booked a hotel near the base, our flights have been successfully updated,” Arthur says as you get back.
“Thank you,” you pull him into a tight hug.
“What are brothers for?” Arthur says, melting into your hug a little. You’ve never gotten ready to leave the paddock so quickly or packed a hotel room, but you soon find yourself on a plane back to Nice.
Pascale awaits the two of you at the airport, a coffee in her hand for you. You didn’t sleep on the flight at all. Even though that you know Charles is okay, you can’t fight the anxiety and fear the courses through you.
“Hi sweetheart,” Pascale hugs you after handing you the coffee.
“Wow, I thought I was your favorite child?” Arthur jokes, earning an eye roll from Pascale.
“I love all my biological children equally, I just happen to love Y/n more,” Pascale says cheekily, making you chuckle.
“Don’t let Enzo and Charlotte hear that,” you say, happily taking a seat in the car. Arthur sits in the back with you since Lorenzo is in the front seat.
“It’s a party in here,” Arthur smiles, trying to liven up the car.
“Phenomenal drive,” Lorenzo looks back at you.
“Thanks,” your tired smile is enough to end the conversation. The gentle sway of the vehicle as Pascale is enough to make you fall asleep.
As you are asleep, Arthur gets a text from Charles letting him know that he’s back on base. Arthur sends back a picture of you sleeping against the window, cozy in one of Charles’ hoodies, as well as when you will be there to visit. Your phone buzzes with a good night and congratulations text from Charles, but you don’t stir. The exhaustion of the day hit you hard and you couldn’t fight it any longer.
Arthur carries you to your hotel room while Lorenzo and Pascale worry about the luggage.
You wake up to sun peeking through the blinds. Arthur is sprawled out on the queen bed beside yours, lightly snoring into the pillow. You turn and see your phone plugged in on the nightstand. Scrolling through your notifications you see the text from Charles. A smile tugs at your lips as you quickly fire off a reply. An alarm starts going off, making you jump a little.
“No,” Arthur groans, barely conscious while pressing snooze. Silently you get out of bed, finding your suitcase and retrieving everything you need for a shower.
The hour creeps by as you anxiously meet up with the family and go to the base. Following the directions, you make your way to the hotel room Charles is being kept in for the moment. As you reach the door, the sterile environment surrounding you, you feel a wave of nerves consume you. Almost like you are a little kid.
“Go ahead, I need a second,” you whisper to Pascale who gently squeezes your hand and offers an understanding smile.
“It’s scary, we will be inside waiting for you,” Pascale says, entering behind Lorenzo and Arthur. “Y/n will be here in a moment, she had to take a call,” Pascale buys you time. She knows how scary it is seeing the person you love hurt. You let your heart rate settle before stepping into the room, watching Charles’ face light up when he sees you.
“Mon ange,” Charles whispers as you lean in to kiss him.
“You aren’t allowed to scare me like that,” you smile, a tear threatening to escape.
“Now you know how I feel when you drive,” Charles replies, reaching up and pushing back a piece of hair.
“I feel like we are intruding,” Lorenzo jokes. Charles awkwardly shifts to the side of the bed, pulling you down with him. Pascale creates an excuse that involves them stepping out for a moment, giving you and Charles a quiet moment alone.
“Hey, I’m here. I’m alive and well,” Charles grabs your hand, pressing it to his heart.
“I know, it just isn’t what you want to hear first thing after a race,” you feel yourself relax as you rest your head on his chest, the sound of his heartbeat reassuring.
“I think I might leave after my commitment,” Charles admits softly, drawing your eyes up to him.
“Next year?”
“I want to be with you, help build our future, maybe even be a stay at home dad one day,” Charles runs a hand through your hair.
“I could always hire you to be my private jet pilot,” you suggest.
“But then I couldn’t be with you mid flight,” Charles winks, making you flush.
“Cheeky,” you lightly nudge him.
“Let’s not worry about what I will do career wise yet,”
“My full time WAG,” you chuckle, letting out a sigh of content when Charles pulls you close.
“When I get discharged today I can go home and recover. I just have to do paperwork remotely and come back for medical appointments,” Charles reveals, drawing your eyes back up to him.
“Really? Is it wrong to say that I’m glad it’s summer break?” you ask, hand moving up to play with the ends of his hair.
“No, it is nice to be home with you,” Charles agrees. He leans down and you tilt your head up so your lips can meet his in a soft kiss. Charles lets out a soft groan of content as his mind wanders to the few weeks ahead of you while he heals.
“We brought food,” Arthur breaks your quiet conversation. The rest of the morning is spent eagerly awaiting discharge. When you do eventually get home, Pascale helps to get Charles settled while Lorenzo cooks dinner. You and Arthur prep the guest rooms so they can stay the night.
“Sorry you had to cancel the trip,” you apologize to Arthur who just shrugs as he puts the pillowcase on a pillow.
“That’s okay, we can go during the next break. I think I’ll go back to Monaco for a bit then come back here when the boys get here,” Arthur says, not fussed about missing the trip.
“I’ll let you settle in,” you leave the room, going to your own so you can change into sweatpants and a hoodie.
Charles beat you to it, you open the door to see him shirtless with sweatpants sitting low on his hips. You catch yourself staring hungrily until you snap out of it.
“Sit back down on the bed, how are you even standing without crutches,” you chastise him, closing the bedroom door behind you before crossing the room.
“Putting my weight on one leg works well enough,” Charles grins, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you towards him.
“Well you shouldn’t be doing that when you just had surgery on the ankle,” you frown, trying not to look at your ridiculously hot husband in front of you. His hands slip under your shirt, traveling up your back. Shivers run down your spine as one hand slides forward.
“Hmm, well maybe I should just lay down then and let you do the work,” Charles murmurs huskily, as you glance at the door.
“We’d have to be quick,” you reply quietly.
“5 months without you, I’m pretty sure I can be quick,” he smiles, letting you take over. His rough hands gliding across your skin as you straddle his waist.
“I guess we should rejoin them before they get suspicious,” Charles sighs, pressing a kiss to your head as you snuggle into his side.
“I guess so, but tomorrow afternoon we will have the whole house to ourselves,” you grin, rolling away to throw comfy clothes back on.
“I can’t wait,” Charles pulls on the hoodie that you tossed to him as well as some shorts.
“Use the crutches,” you narrow your eyes as he stands up, likely planning on just hopping to the kitchen.
“Or I could use you as my support,” Charles takes the crutches from you. You glance down at the cast encompassing his ankle.
“Are your feet cold?” you frown, brows furrowed with worry.
“I’m okay, if something hurts you will be the first to know. I promise,” Charles tries to ease your worry. You nod as there is a knock on the bedroom door.
“Dinner is ready kids,” Pascale says as you open the door.
“Thank you, Maman. We were about to come down,” Charles answers before you can.
“Take it easy,” you stress. The first two weeks are important to recovery and you know he isn’t great at sitting still. Pascale watches you fuss and she feels her heart warm at how careful you are with each other.
“Took you long enough,” Arthur says, mouth half full. Lorenzo fights a laugh as Pascale scolds him.
“We were busy,” Charles smirks. You whip your head towards him, smacking his shoulder.
“Charles,” you gasp, voice a mix of scolding and being scandalized.
“What?” he says innocently as you sit at the table.
“Enough, let’s enjoy this meal,” Pascale says, taking in the sight of all her children minus Charlotte.
“Oh, I have the perfect bottle of wine for this, I’ll be right back,” you quickly stand up, going to find the bottle.
“So when am I getting a grandchild?” Pascale looks at her three boys with a raised brow. Arthur chooses that moment to closely study the rug beneath the oak table.
“This decor is quite nice, I like that vase,” Arthur says.
“Charlotte and I aren’t even married yet,” Lorenzo protests, turning the attention to Charles.
“Buying our home was the first step, but we are waiting for Y/n to at least win the championship first,” Charles shrugs.
“Doesn’t she have a good lead right now?” Lorenzo asks, a smile smile playing on Charles face.
“Is she? I had no idea,” he says slyly.
“She could probably drive for the first few months of pregnancy,” Arthur interjects, feeling left out.
“If she has the smoothest pregnancy ever that is,” Pascale adds.
“Alright, let’s not rush it that soon. We will discuss it over winter break,” Charles shuts it down.
“Discuss what over winter break?” you ask, holding a bottle of wine and four glasses in your hands.
“When you and Charles are going to have a kid,” Arthur answers first as you sit down.
“Ah. Yes, no plans of being pregnant mid-season. Not really keen on missing a whole season either,” you say, pouring the wine.
“Where’s mine?” Charles asks as everyone gets a glass but him.
“No wine with your medicine, mon amour,” you tell him.
“We don’t even need to be here, you have his care handled,” Lorenzo chuckles.
“He will be locked down,” you joke.
The night passes quick and soon you and Charles are home alone for the first time in a long time. You take the opportunity to get in a run while Charles takes a nap, but when you get home he is in the kitchen.
“Hey, I’m making us lunch,” Charles greets you as you pull off your headphones.
“Yum. I’m going to take a quick shower then I’ll be back,” you say, eager to clean the sweat off you.
The two of you quickly fall into a routine. Charles for the most part rests, keeping his ankle propped, but he does occasionally join you in the gym to keep active a bit. He also does his best to help you clean and prep the house for the group of guys who are crashing your home.
“All of our privacy, gone so fast,” Charles pouts while you make a bed.
“I know, it’s only for a few days though,” you try and find the bright side. Summer break is passing quickly and a part of you doesn’t want to race again just yet.
“I have a meeting with my commander tomorrow morning,” Charles says. You pause, the white sheet in your hand going taught as your hand grips it tighter.
“What about?”
“I’m not sure, maybe about the medical check yesterday,” Charles plays it cool, but you can hear the concern in his voice.
You shove the sheet under the bed, making it slightly more aggressive than before. “You don’t think-“
“It’s possible. The check went well, I’m making progress healing, but I will still have to go through PT and make other clearances for fly again. I still have three months of recovery and some more physical therapy on top of that,” Charles says.
“But you’d still have time left in your commitment,”
“I know, I just need to be ready for anything they may say,” Charles sighs.
“I’m right by your side, whatever happens,” you take his hand. Charles gives you a small smile, heart swelling at the support.
“Thank you, mon ange. Now, tell me all about how you are going to win this year,” you finish making the bed and sit down on the edge. Charles sits beside you, hand sliding down your palm to interlock your fingers.
“I’m trying not to think about it or really speak on it. I feel like the past few years it’s been like a dangling carrot, just out of reach. I want it so bad but I’m so nervous that I won’t get it,” you admit, feeling like a bit of weight is off your shoulders. It doesn’t help that you haven’t signed a contract yet for the next year and beyond.
“You are the best driver I know. You are persistent and resilient, you have worked so hard to get to this point. If you don’t win your fans will still love you just the same as they will when you do win and I will love you even more regardless of the outcome,” Charles returns your support. You feel the warmth of his free hand brush away a stray tear on your cheek.
“There is no one else that I want to go through life with other than you,” your voice breaks slightly, thick with emotion.
“I feel the same way. I love you more and more every day,” Charles leans closer to you, a feeling from deep within telling him that everything will be okay.
#f1 imagines#f1 imagine#f1 x reader#charles leclerc x reader#charles leclerc imagine#charles leclerc
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you should do a blurb for your high flyer parts where charles gets hurt whilst serving and reader getting the call he’s injured overseas and being flown back for recovery, no pressure !
i haven’t been ignoring this, i’ve been writing and writing and you have helped turn this into a 4 part minimum series 🫣
thank you so much for the request and the next part is up now!!! here
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the fanfiction in my head is soooo good wish you guys could see this
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well those two are certainly you 😭 ig these are me then
true friendship is @vitalverstappen and i trauma dumping one moment then sending drafts to read immediately after 🥰
this is us in a nutshell
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true friendship is @vitalverstappen and i trauma dumping one moment then sending drafts to read immediately after 🥰
this is us in a nutshell
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