clumsy-darling

[clumsy-darling]

The embarrassment behind longing for love. Constantly searching and begging and clawing at any chance at all. Desperately trying to get even a sliver of what you crave....but it's not enough. It will never be enough.

Not until you have all of a person. Until your locked in cage with a chain around your neck because maybe, just maybe, they won't leave this time. It feels pathetic, begging for something you may never get to have. But in the end...there's nothing more you can do.

[clumsy-darling]

Im so happy i got online classes tomorrow cuz of the snow storm yippieee

[clumsy-darling]

Me looking at You, and You looking at Me realizing that we both are orchestrating the relationship.

We’ll keep it as our unspoken secret~

[clumsy-darling]

I lied. I’m a jealous bitch and I hope everyone who talks to you gets hit by a double decker bus.

[clumsy-darling]

I need him to be more controlling, like please don’t let me make any choices, don’t let me have a say in anything please it makes me feel safe. I need you to control me.

[clumsy-darling]

A stalker, watching the one they love. They know every detail. Every smile and expression their face can make. Their love, well aware of their eyes on them. It's a secret, but they'll take their little stalker soon. It's only a matter of time.

[clumsy-darling]

manipulate me until im unable to live without you. be my medicine. be my air. be my water. be my food. be everything i need and more.

[clumsy-darling]

I need to be overwhelmed in someone’s love, I need to make me hurt my head, it makes me put my hand up on my head and it makes me sick and my cheeks red.

[clumsy-darling]

It hurts. Why can’t you just tell me how to act? I’d be happier if I was being the person you’d want me to be. How can I make you happy if I’m not what you want? You probably loved them more than me. I’m sorry I’m not normal.

[clumsy-darling]

i've never been good at remembering stuff, but i'll remember every single little detail about you. i strive to know you better than anyone else ever has. from everything you like to all your little quirks that you think go unnoticed. but i notice. how could i not when i watch you 24/7? i'll give you everything you deserve and more, my love. ♡

[clumsy-darling]

cutely attacks you

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Oh no!! Not in the face! (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

You are forgiven for being cute though :3

[clumsy-darling]

Maybe I do need a valentine this week. Who volunteers to tie my hands to my back and lick the lipstick and lipgloss out of my lips.

Say, do you like the cherry or the bubblegum better?

[clumsy-darling]

That's sweet, I hope you may find that love:) you deserve it.

Thank you very much, I hope you do too ;3.

[clumsy-darling]

That's interesting. Can I perhaps know what you are looking for in a woman? Physically and personality ?

Personally, I am not the individual who should say anything about anyone’s appearance. I don’t mind if she gets ready before going out or not. Basic hygiene, is all I ask.

But personality is what i do mind, I would say nice and funny or unhinged. Someone who could try to understand me and be patient with me because my of bpd and making me feel safe.

Also consistency and someone who I could kind of cling on to, if you bring me happiness you basically won.

[clumsy-darling]

If i bury myself inside your heart, will you promise never to dig me out?

[clumsy-darling]

Im about to fail my pre calculus exam and im going to watch myself fail it in 4k 😭

[clumsy-darling]

For historical purposes.. are you interested in women, perhaps?

I do, I think im more attracted to women more than men. I still like both.