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Making an oc lore doc hurting my head why is there so much lore who made this

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Seven | Oc Lore

Basic information to know:

Seven is Yona (essentially god)'s assistant and essentially second in charge. They have a bit of a god/superiority/savior complex (it's either one of those or all of those. They look down upon those they deem sinful and can often be belittling. The of course, do this all behind Yona's back.

Despite being Yona's childhood "best friend" (relatively one sided), they still hold envious feelings towards Yona and have been poisoning it for the past 1500 years or so, making it weaker and more ill.

Now onto the actual rambles I cooked up!

(Btw Seven is the angel with like 6-8 wings, I've drawn them a couple of times)

Seven's always been relatively lonely. Their parents were never really there. With their father always being out at work and their mother mainly just focused on the family's (mostly her) image instead of caring for Seven's wellbeing They were often made fun of and ostracized from the other kids because of their appearance and were deemed a "freak" They were really sensitive to raised voices because it made them feel as if they did something wrong, which they were afraid of doing something wrong and making others mad, because making others mad means they hate them right??? Seven was so talkative and open when they first met Yona because they were desperate for a singular friend. Even then with Yona, they were lonely once more, since Yona locked itself in it's room the first few days, and just being very emotionally unavailable/absent the rest of the time. They're very afraid of being hated because it

Reminds them of their childhood

Makes them feel like they did something wrong

Increases the chance of being alone forever. Sometimes they really do think they're doing the right thing, while other times it's them just accepting that if they'll be hated anyways they better give others a reason, and then proceeding to get mad at themselves a few hours to days later Another thing is they were afraid to report their abuser because they were scared they'd loose their position, be outcaste once more, get disowned, and be alone and hated once more

They're also adopted and don't know their birth parents, meaning they've been alone since (re)birth And even then their own birth parents abandoned them and used them as a sacrifice so it's like they were almost never loved and the one time they could identify as love it was from their abuser, making them terrified of love

I think about them very often

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yea it's probably time to discuss how I've been feeling unwanted for literally months in a very certain community but nah we'll keep it together

all of my friends are there and it's literally the 2nd place I'm most active in

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Sat up too fast and had to face the horrors™️

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I went to go to the bathroom but it was dark in the hallway so the fnaf sound effect played in my head Like when they're standing outside your door or whatever And then I walked into the fucking wall