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An important notice: Leaving the Community.

A lot can change in a year. Over these days I’m noticing that I don’t like rp-ing as much as I used to. I don’t think I’ve really succeeded in completing many threads, either, and my style just doesn’t suit rping. So therefore I’m leaving the rp community.

My current threads will be solved via DM discussion, though if you want to still continue them you’re welcome to continue them in Discord DMs. Current people I have threads with, feel free to message me.

I still want to keep in contact with people though! My Discord is Clover the Grand#7666. Fandom blog and twitter’s @cloverthegrand.

Thank you for all the memories, everyone! 💖May we meet again!

- Clover 🍀 

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REALLY BLOODY EXCELLENT OMENS...

Many, many years ago (it was Hallowe'en 1989, for the curious, the year before Good Omens was published) Terry Pratchett and I were sharing a room at the World Fantasy Convention in Seattle, to keep the costs down, because we were both young authors, and taking ourselves to America and conventions were expensive. It was a wonderful convention. I remember a huge Seattle second-hand bookstore in which I found a dozen or so green-bound Storisende Edition James Branch Cabell books, each signed so neatly by the author that the bookshop people assured me that the signatures were printed, and really ten dollars a book was the correct price.

I could afford books. Good Omens had just been sold to UK publishers and then to US publishers for more money than Terry or I had ever received for anything. (Terry had been incredibly worried about this, certain that receiving a healthy advance would mean the end of his career. When his career didn't end, Terry suggested to his agent that perhaps he ought to be getting that kind of advance for every book from now on, and his life changed, and he stopped having to share a hotel room to save money. But I digress.) Advance reading copies of Good Omens had not yet gone out, but a few editors had read it (ones who had bid for it but failed to buy it) and they all seemed very excited about it, and thrilled for us.

On the Saturday evening Terry left the bar quite early and headed off to bed. I stayed up talking to people and having a marvelous time, hung in there until the small hours of the morning when they closed the hotel bar and all the people went away, and then headed up to the hotel room room.

I opened the door as quietly as I could and tiptoed in the dark across the room to where my bed was located.

I'd just reached the bed when, from the far side of the room, a voice said, “What time of the night do you call this then? Your mother and I have been worried sick about you.”

Terry was wide awake. Jet lag had taken its toll.

And I was wide awake too. So we lay in our respective beds and having nothing else to do, we plotted the sequel to Good Omens. It was a good one, too. We fully intended to write it, whenever we next had three or four months free. Only I went to live in America and Terry stayed in the UK, and after Good Omens was published Sandman became SANDMAN and Discworld became DISCWORLD™ and there wasn't ever a good time.

But we never forgot it.

It's been thirty-one years since Good Omens was published, which means it's thirty-two years since Terry Pratchett and I lay in our respective beds in a Seattle hotel room at a World Fantasy Convention, and plotted the sequel. (I got to use bits of the sequel in the TV series version of Good Omens -- that's where our angels came from.)

Terry and I, in Cardiff in 2010, on the night we decided that Good Omens should become a television series.

Terry was clear on what he wanted from Good Omens on the telly. He wanted the story told, and if that worked, he wanted the rest of the story told.

So in September 2017 I sat down in St James' Park, beside the director, Douglas Mackinnon, on a chair with my name on it, as Showrunner of Good Omens. The chair slowly and elegantly lowered itself to the ground underneath me and fell apart, and I thought, that's not really a good omen. Fortunately, under Douglas's leadership, that chair was the only thing that collapsed.

The crumbled chair.

So, once Good Omens the TV series had been released by Amazon and the BBC, to global acclaim, many awards and joy, Rob Wilkins (Terry's representative on Earth) and I had the conversation with the BBC and Amazon about doing some more. And they got very excited. We talked to Michael Sheen and David Tennant about doing some more. They also got very excited. We told them a little about the plot. They got even more excited.

Rob Wilkins and David Tennant on the second day of shooting.

Me and Michael and Ash aged nearly 2.

What it was mostly like shooting Good Omens: peering into screens while something happened round the corner.

I'd been a fan of John Finnemore's for years, and had had the joy of working with him on a radio show called With Great Pleasure, where I picked passages I loved, had amazing readers read them aloud and talked about them.

(Here's a clip from that show of me talking about working with Terry Pratchett, and reading a poem by Terry: https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/p06x3syv. Here's the whole show from YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j7OsS_JWbzQ with John Finnemore's bits too.)

L to R: With Great Pleasure. John Finnemore, me all beardy, Nina Sosanya (Sister Mary in Good Omens) Peter Capaldi (he played Islington in the original BBC series of Neverwhere).

I asked John if he'd be willing to work with me on writing the next round of Good Omens, and was overjoyed when he said yes. We have some surprise guest collaborators too. And Douglas Mackinnon is returning to oversee the whole thing with me.

So that's the plan. We've been keeping it secret for a long time (mostly because otherwise my mail and Twitter feeds would have turned into gushing torrents of What Can You Tell Us About It? long ago) but we are now at the point where sets are being built in Scotland (which is where we're shooting, and more about filming things in Scotland soon), and we can't really keep it secret any longer.

There are so many questions people have asked about what happened next (and also, what happened before) to our favourite Angel and Demon. Here are, perhaps, some of the answers you've been hoping for.

As Good Omens continues, we will be back in Soho, and all through time and space, solving a mystery which starts with one of the angels wandering through a Soho street market with no memory of who they might be, on their way to Aziraphale's bookshop.

(Although our story actually begins about five minutes before anyone had got around to saying “Let there be Light”.)

from https://journal.neilgaiman.com/2021/06/really-bloody-excellent-omens.html

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i think i heard someone message me but the message didnt come through. If that’s you, feel free to send it again!

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Hello everyone! It’s finally the holidays on my end. I might be more active here... but I’m not sure for how often. Therefore my blogs will be semi-active. 

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I'm gonna try do all my replies within the week ^^

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I made a Hellfire animatic, oh boy I’m glad I’m only one day late! Here are the best drawn frames

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Am I back?

Maybe. I’ve finally started uni. Still have assessments due tho. Oh and on a side note I’ve turned 18

I’ll reply to some of the threads I’ve got in my drafts

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Hiatus

just a notice

So it’s been 4 months since I’ve graduated high school and I haven’t made anything significant at all. I try; I try to do what should be my current priorities like sorting out taxes bureaucracy and preparing for uni and find a job and finish that violin test I’ve been studying for 2 years, but since I can’t do those my depression’s been hitting me in full force. 

Part of why is that the little energy I have is used replying to threads. I really like rping but I’m a perfectionist so I usually spend up to 4 or 5 hours working on a reply. 4 or 5 hours, for a single thread. And the energy and time used up is insane. So afterwards the day is done, I have a false sense that I accomplished something and I call it a day. And then meanwhile irl I’ve done practically nothing and my depressive episode worsens, but I reply to threads first because that’s the easy stuff so then instead on working on those things I desperately need to do I reply to threads, then that’s another day of procrastination and I feel even more shit. 

When can I return? I don’t know. I’m just tumbling into a full depressive pit now, and rping is just gonna make it worse. I’m gonna post all my drafts for current threads, but I’m gonna log out after that. Will reply to messages, but I won’t be replying to threads for a long time. 

- Clover 🍀

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//Just feel like putting out a vent post

I just feel like my productivity is perpetually plummeting and that I’m not making enough creative work. It’s the holidays and it’s been four bloody months since I’ve graduated but I feel like I haven’t done much somehow. I see all these online creators charismatic and talented and meanwhile I don’t feel like I’m going anywhere at all. And when I do make work I feel like the creation time is too slow and the quality is subpar.

Maybe it’s cause I want to plan for a lot of stuff and have my fingers in several pies that my progress is so slow. I do rp, I make animatics, I make illustrations, I try to write but it’s seriously been months since I’ve last progressed in my long fics. And I truly want to do everything, but my work output is too slow and I have so many ideas that got to be scrapped.

I don’t think I deserve to be frustrated. For example I feel proud that my YouTube channel has over 100 subscribers and that I make my animatics at a high quality and with such detailed mise en scène. But I keep looking at other channels and there are literally hundreds of thousands of subscribers for sketched animatics and I think to myself: what the hell am I doing wasting my time having to take several months to polish up a 1:30 minute long animatic? I have all the time in the world, I don’t have a job, I’m holed up at home, I am just as capable at making such good work, so why am I making practically little to no content?

Maybe it’s just perfectionism starting to get to me. I’m only 17 yet I’m expecting myself to make work with quality of people in their 20s. But at the same time I just see business prodigies everywhere? I’ve seen 14 year olds on Twitter independently freelancing art for Disney and teenagers creating their own art businesses, meanwhile I can’t even figure out why my tablet’s not connecting to my computer. I don’t want to be envious of them, no; they worked hard for themselves and it shows.

I feel like all this is making me not participate enough in the rp community as I would and want to. Rping characters is the space where I felt like I don’t have to excel to enjoy, and I’m always thinking about my muses and building parts of their backstories in my mind. But even then I feel like I’m not writing enough about them and when I do, once I look back I realise that the worldbuilding is absolutely cringeworthy and clearly done by someone who has never took a sociology lesson in their goddamn life.

I don’t know. I just,,, I don’t know what to do. In these cases I guess I need to self improve or whatever but time’s starting to feel meaningless around me.

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Star Ox says Happy New Year! 

I’m not going to beat the dead horse by making a long and introspective post about how 2020 was fucked and how i hope 2021 will be better, but it’s been a rough one, folks. At the very least, here’s starful boy to herald in the new year! 

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when you want to write something really deep but it ends up sounding like

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So quiet now that my mutuals from Europe are undergoing exams. Meanwhile I have to deal with the bullshit of uni enrolment so that's fun.

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I wanted to see what it’d be like if André and Luci switched bodies and so drew this. André would be like: ??? What the fuck??? WHAT THE FUCK??? While Luci would be like: “aight what the Heaven is this tomfoolery about.” Hehe, I am very tempted to do an April fool’s event of this 8)

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me: I will do things when I am less tired

me: *never becomes less tired*

me: oh no

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bloody hell I am bloody E X H A U S T E D today. Will take a break 

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GUESS WHO FINALLY LAUNCHED HER OC MULTIMUSE BLOG @EXOLVAUTEUR 8D Come check it out!!

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//Hello! Not quite dead. I’m just doing late NaNoWriMo in December to bulk up the word count of my wip fics so I’ve been distracted from answering drafts ^^U