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DID YOU KNOW YOU CAN GET THIS AS A STICKER OR PRINT ON MY SHOP!!!!!!!!! happy yaoi day 2025 everyone

heard it's yaoi day

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it's yaoi day!!! come get ur yaoi!!!!

my new sketchbook is live! Come check it out! 25pgs for $5 bucks!

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finally able to share some stuff i've been working on... featuring my two boys!!! david and leo :-)

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my new sketchbook is live! Come check it out! 25pgs for $5 bucks!

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PRIDE !!!!! ORGULLO !!!!!

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bday month + pride month means new icon !!

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are you HYPE for DELTARUNE ?????

then do i have NEWS for YOU !!!! I have this little JESTER for PURCHASE in my SHOP

and who knows,,maybe there’s more little creatures coming soon…..

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you know what I'd fall for it too, he's very convincing

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With regards that last paragraph, I actually think Eraqus is the one who is chained to the past. It’s why he’s so willing to let Xehanort back in because he is truly Eraqus’ last salvation to having any semblance of his old life back. So long as Xe pledges the right side (aka his side) Er will live in so much plausible deniability that he’ll become his enabler. Meanwhile Xehanort is so caught up in destiny and fate that he purposefully binds himself to his future. His younger self is witness to everything he’s going to do and fatalism has such a hold on him that he doesn’t even care. (Supposedly, I mean really yx being such an ass and nothing else is boring and def not supportive of dr context but regardless) I think it’s their unwillingness to look at the present due their obsession with history/fate respectively that ruins the goodwill they once had.

yes!!! well said!!

i did mean eraqus being stuck in that history/tradition vs xehanort with fate/destiny but yes...both of them are stuck lookin back and not forward.... it's what dooms them....

eraqus is willing to ignore so much just bc xehanort will tell him the words he wants/wanted to hear </3

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oh and side note I loove your dark road piece of them for the reasons I just noted. It gets to the heart of one of the many problems that they both have which i don’t really see others draw tbh. (Especially wrt Eraqus). Just enamored with looking at it from time to time, it paints such a clear scene in my head. 💛

oughhh THANK YOU!!!

i'm still very proud of that piece I had such a big brained moment fr... there's just a lot of really cool symbolism with them and kh that I wish was incorporated more and so i took it into my own hands hah

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lol that may have been me. Apologies I just didn’t like standing there lone in the reply section and realized I should’ve just sent an ask like this instead. So in case you were going to reply to me my question was what you ultimately thought broke their relationship apart outside of the incident, because to me a falling out felt inevitable regardless. Xehanort talks about chasing people he doesn’t even know are real front of the friends he actually has. Eraqus wonders why he needs to be a keyblade master for that, but to Xehanort being a master means being able to finally go wherever he pleases. He was always going to leave. And everyone’s already analyzed at length how Eraqus reacts to Vor leaving so, yknow. Not even mentioning the fact that the two are very comfortable with the dynamic of Xe not saying what he means and Er being the emotionally open one who has to choose to figure him out like a puzzle box, a role he can no longer fulfill after everything that did happen. Sorry for dumping this all at you at once, but if I may one more food for thought; all of Xehanort’s meaningful relationships happened when he was stuck. Player on the islands, his friends at scala, it was a time where he didn’t have any grand ambitions to prioritize over other people (or sheep as he calls them). It’s the same as the end of kh3. He gives over the x-blade because he’s been beaten, and he accepts Eraqus’ because, finally, he has nothing again.

NO WORRIES!!! I like to answer long questions at the computer so i can compile my thoughts better but since I was so busy i kept putting it off....and I have adhd...forgive me.....

GUTTING ME INSTANTLY ANON..... OOUGHHHH HE HAS NOTHING AGAIN.....

I think us as the audience are able to see that their ideals are clashing from the beginning (bc of the context of the games) that it doesn't feel like any big particular thing happened (besides The Incident) to start eating away at their relationship. Their downfall feels like a death from a thousand paper cuts. It's something that just happens gradually as they're both too stubborn to admit their wrongs, and staunchly committed to their causes to a fault so yeah! it felt inevitable from the start.

I honestly hadn't thought about it that way with regardless to Xehanort but you're so right!! He's really committed to those past ideals that it's stopping him from looking forward, and even as he's done his tasks (especially with regards to the organization/vessels/etc) he's trying to follow the exact same steps to make the past happen again. While Eraqus doesn't move at all. And (coughs) Sora and Riku are forging their own path Against Fate.

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im not the person you're looking for, but im curious what draws you to xehaqus

hmmm I don't think I'd be as committed to them if it wasn't a direct parallel to soriku.....kh IS about sora and riku through and through, and that's what makes their dynamic really interesting to me. It's....the Yearning...the What Ifs.... the promises one makes in their youth only to grow up and forget them..... idk i just think the little we see of their dynamic in dark road/kh3 when they're young is so fleshed out and thought through i need to grab nomura by the shoulders for making me feel this way

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omg if u sent a reply to xehaqus PLEASE....TUMBLR ATE IT...I WANTED TO ANSWER IT NOOOOOOO.....

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(unequal) exchange

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MARIPOSA MORPHO

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because it's 2025 and it's the year of being cringe here's some re-imagined sekaiichi hatsukoi busts lmao

[from patreon]

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so....i saw nezha 2

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