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Omg i dont think he knows my tumblr what a relief

Tbh bro would never install tumblr i dont have to worry

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1/4th thru classes very productive note taking

Our locks are getting changed so i need to pick up my new key

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I dont think people understand me at all

I hear what someone thinks of me and it feels all wrong

Sometimes they say something that makes me think they do, and i get excited

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Abortion talk always annoys me

If u dont want an abortion dont have one, most of the people talking about it will never have to worry about being mothers

Stop bringing religion into it

Stop preventing necessary and safe surgeries no mattet the context

As i am now i would never consider having an abortion I want to be a mother asap

But im not going to be forced into it. Abortion is safe and helpful id be so pissed if someone didnt let me because every child matters

Yes youre right

I will ruin the fetuses life before it starts

So that i dont go through 9 months of physical and mental pregnant hell and then the rest of my life taking care of a child i cant handle because i wasnt ready for it

Thats not fair to me or the child

People that want kids will have kids. And ones that are ready for kids will normally give the kid a good life

Better functioning adults and less poverty

Stop promoting sex in every single form of media, and stop saying "just dont have sex"

Youre embarrassing yourselves, the solution is so easy. Sex ed, free contracpetives, etc. Abortion isnt bc

Im not gonna start paragraphing kys

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I love Valentines day so much! All of the treats and plushies and flowers

The pinks ans reds and whites

Its so pretty

My heart is full of so much love and its sad to see people bitter on such a fun day

Its on a friday this year, and a saturday in 2026

I was planning on going home and celebrating

I was excited to buy flowers tehe

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Ill be gentle to myself

We are so back

Social media is my enemy

Thinking is my downfall

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So glad im not actually mentally ill 🫶

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Throwaway theory

Besides wanting to believe in reincarnation i also "created" another idea in my head

Idk why it makes sense to me and i dont have any evidence and never researched it ever

But i have a feeling that at some point in le universe it just like

Loops

Idk its hard to explain and i dont really equate it to alternate universes either

Maybe its got something to do with the death of the sun, big bamg esque. The end of the universe so powerful that it resets

So a number of time that is so large it cant be quantified will pass and i will exist and go through the same experiences over and over again

Maybe when i die and relive my life again starting on my same birth date itll feel just like yesturday (obviously people dont jave recollection of their "past lives" because you live for the first time in the world over and over again...?

Im not too sure if itll be the exact same as every life before but i assume that i will go through the same things over and over again, with room for small changes (the butterfly affect is strong)

Its fun to theorize and believing something like that with how unknown death is, is comforting (duh religion)

I dont really believe it, i wont believe anything until i die and finally see it for myself. But its nice to think that theres a chance i can live life again and enjoy the things i do, and worry about other things. Feel emotion and spend time with family and friends.

Even if the exact same thing happens over and over again

2000 religions out there is crazy

Scrolling religion instagram for me is either full of skeptics or ppl telling me im burning in hell if i dont donate my life savings to one of the 249 churches (plus 1 temple) in my county blah

The idea behind the religions i am informed on is relatively nice. Be the best person you can be. Humans arent perfect but you can still do good

Appreciate your god(s) and nature and all the fortune in your life. Thankfullness n such

Yeah pog

Pretty basic stuff, a lot of good quotes etc. Good rules to live by (dont sleep with your neighboors hot wife pog)

Amen to that God bless

I had some guys in high school pressure me to become a christian

I showed interest sophmore year and a band mate of mine spam texted me to show up to his churches sermons and blah blah it never went anywhere

One of my christian friends told me a band i liked was full of satan worshippers and i should have higher standards *listen to iron maiden instead* which was silly

My best friend told me she was worried that her nonchristian friends would go to hell *me* slay

And ykno that lowkey wasnt fun

I had a lot of good convos too. Some ppl came into the store i worked at and gave me a cute baby bible and preached love to me or something

I went to a pro life march (in front of the store i worked at) and the man i questioned had a lot of love in his heart for the fetuses

I mean a lot of my family is christian or catholic, or used to be like my parents. So ive heard about it a lot and have participated in some of their urrrrrrrr rituals? Idk its slay

But ya, then i had a convo with my mom about religion and she said she always thought paganism was cool. Did resesrch, got closer to a friend and he told me about it. So i started respecting nature a little bit more (kinda, im rlly lazy tho). And gave offerings on holidays like Imbolic and Yuletude. Ive only ever made like 4 spells and i only really half believe in it. Just like i only half believe in praying, no harm in trying tho right?

Met le groomer, he was oldschool pagan (focused more on ancestory and kinship) which probably influced me

Met other people of varying religions on discord buddists, muslims, satanists, more catholics etc etc etc

All telling me how i should live my life and what i should believe (especially the satanist, bro was crazy and i thought it was hilarious. By the time i stopped talking to him he stopped using the power of angels and started working with demons because they are stronger... you do you ig)

But ya

I never really believed one way or the other. But the more someone pushes me one way the more i want to put my foot down (when they are being mean and pushy and mean like in hs)

So i try to just float around and vibe, and i appreciate when that energy is returned.

If u say im going to hell/heaven... i mean... ya maybe? Idk who am i to argue with u i dont rlly care

But! I have been bible thumping *only on the 3rd page* and every sentence i read i just think about every single interaction ive had with christians, good and bad

As far as i remember i never intentionally shamed someone for what they believe in (religion or other)

But ive been shamed a lot specifically by christians for how i choose to express myself

(Loosely calling myself a pagan, performing spells, wearing cystal jewlery and owning crystals, believing in tarot card reads, using incense, saying "happy yuletude" etc)

Bare minimum, a lot of ppl do that anyways without being pagan, i hardly consider myself one

But the way people arent as tolerant of me as i am to them and others really steers me away

The history between pagans and christians and the religious persecution just kinda makes me feel icky (im not too well read on it)

Hundreds of years of pagan and other religions history that were destroyed and trained out of people is devastating. And it just kind of makes me appreciate whats left a little more i guess

Well idk where im going with this

Im interested in a lot of religions, ill prolly take some religious studies courses while im studying

I just dont get why it has to be so competitive?

Idk

Im schizo and tired

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My parents and i watched the new Nosferatu movie (theyve seen the old one i havent). And its great so slay!

But when we were walking out of theater and talking about our feelings on the movie my dad said something kind of puzzling

Nosferatu was an ugly thin thing, with lacerations and sores and hair in weird places... unnapealing

The female lead has dreams of him plaguing her mind from minute 1 without ever seeing him.

Dreams of having sex with him and she enjoys herself

When she wakes up from the dreams she is always distressed, sometimes crying while clinging to her husband

My dad saw that and got out of it that she had carnal lust for his beastly powerful aura

Like she couldnt control herself around him kinda obsession and devotion...

Erm my mom didnt say anything and i was confused because there was not one moment in the entire movie where she showed any kind of joy at all, nor fondness toward the monster

It was sa and g*rape*, no?

When she had the dreams shed cling to her husband and cry?

At the end of the movie she realizes she has to lay in bed with him to stop him from plagueing the city and killing everyone

Which told me that she sacrificed her life and was graped to save the city and her loved one?

But my dad strongly disagreed which lmao kind of pisses me off like what

But idk woman perspective i could be wrong? Watch the movie and make up your own idea ig

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Those wraps feel so freaking good its like a little arm hug

I tried to remember how i felt when i started my panic attack but my brain wont let me its just numb. Its not trauma stupid brain its lore!!!!

Atleast my battle scars will be on me for the rest of my life as a gentle reminder <3

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Kekw

The gangs all here

I got the small versions cuz once its healed i wont do it again for a while, but who knows how long thatll take

Idk anything about sleep pills but i have fren that does and he takes these.. the 10 mgs tho

Driving to the store i realize i zoned out a lot this time so i dont think i should drive for a while, until my head is clear

Also weigh in.

I think the scale needs to be calibrater becuz i was wearing a lit of jewlery and i thought i was back to 120 with how much i pigged out at home. Idk tho

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Class is over

First 1 uses illustrator which im not fond of

Second teacher is fire as hell hes a total crackhead unc with a lot of stories (and his art is cool)

3rd is retaking my bio lab so meh. Teach is sweet tho

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Go to bed hungry wake up skinny log

01/13

Chia seed pudding 200

Large chai latte 270

Propel Grape 0

Ramen 250

01/14

Oatmeal 210

Veggie ricebowl 300 (estimate)

Diet starry 10

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Whining over things that would never happen if i just listened and did as i was told like good lord you mightve been right

Anyway

upper middle class white women with 2 loving parents core

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Pussass social media

instagram says these are sexually explicit

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Birds must be so hard to do. But perfecting each feather must be satisfying

taxidermy at Houston museum of natural history, Houston, TX, spring 2019-ish (unfortunately, I cannot recall the name of the collection or if it was one artist or many, but it was a gorgeous exhibit).

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Classing it up fr

I feel like the only person that picks 8 ams

Dorm was SILENT