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what the fuck.

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or have i never actually found myself. lol.

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i feel like i'm losing myself trying to fix us...

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i hate how i feel guilty for being unhappy.

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i shouldn't be this sad. but i still am. it shouldn't hurt that bad. but it still does.

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你觉得是我要的吗

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broken promises... time and again...

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“True love is like ghosts, which everybody talks about and few have seen.”

— Erica Jong (via perfeqt)

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i'm just hearing what i want to hear... yea... great job.

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it’s insane. it’s insane how the idea of love for some people has merely turned into the gratification of being attracted to them, without even knowing them. without taking the steps to know them. i know i have a good appearance, even if i forget it some days. but that’s not what matters. what matters is how do you see my soul? how are you gonna handle when i’m wailing on the kitchen floor in five years because all the bad shit just hits me? how are you gonna figure out the questions that make me really happy and what are you going to do with that information once you get it? how are you going to feel when i’m just me, no one else, no make up, no tight clothing, me and the skin that i have tried to tear, and then tried to wear as if i didn’t? how are you going to feel when i’m in the shower until the water gets cold? how are you going to feel when you realize my soul is made of soaked flower petals? are you just going to look at me? try to remember the pretty picture? you can’t do that, because before the actual finished product, comes so many rough sketches. so are you going to be annoyed when the colors that paint my world are smudged on you, or are you going to pick a brush and make a masterpiece too? 

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“People always talk about heartbreaks and I always listened but never put myself in their shoes. I never thought it was going to happen to me. We were going strong. Even the strongest wind in the middle of the Atlantic couldn’t knock us down. But secrets can always be kept and you don’t always find out right away. The way it was unveiled was slow and cautious. I think you didn’t want to make me go through a stupid heartbreak. You were telling me in the smallest ways for a whole month. Five kisses a day turned into one until they started tasting like the fruit you always hated on. I mean maybe it was someone else’s favorite and you just couldn’t help it. Your words started to kill every butterfly you gave me. The flowers that you replaced every week started to wither away and pieces of it started to fall to the floor. People always talk about heartbreaks but the truth is I went through an earthquake. I was unprepared because I thought we were the strongest, but then one day everything hit me and the life we had together was divided in half.”

— — Alexa Evangelista, random #2

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i swear... i've been trying so hard...

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“I believe that when you love someone and that person loves you in return you’re uniquely vulnerable. They have a power to hurt you that’s like nothing else.”

— Elijah Mikaelson, The Originals (via meineluft)

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it used to be like that. really.

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