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If you think female only spaces and female only spirituality hurt others - i.e. males -, you must be assuming that women exist for men, that men are entitled to women’s time, work, attention, (bodies), spaces and servitude, and that women by creating female only spaces deny men something they have a right to, thus hurting them. In other words, you are a misogynist who can’t leave women alone and allow what women do and are to count in it’s own right. Women are allowed to live for themselves.

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The Goddess of Nature Fountain (Artemis of Ephesus) by Gillis van den Vliete in the garden of Villa d'Este in Tivol, Italy. Photo by Daniel Bordeleau (2017), courtesy of Wikimedia Commons.

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the journey so far

I feel like I should have a little info here about myself and why I have this blog, so...here it is.

I have spent my entire life searching for answers to questions like the meaning of life, what else exists besides (or beyond) human consciousness, how did all this get started, and why did it get started. I was raised in an agnostic Jewish household and explored my birth religion, as well as many others, before considering myself an atheist for many years. I couldn't believe in the God of my ancestors, or in any god whatsoever. For one, I refused to believe in a male creator-god; I felt strongly that He was an invention used to establish male dominance and control women. For another, I'm a scientist, and admitting I believed in any divine force at all felt like a rejection of science itself. (I no longer believe this.)

At the same time, I have always had dreams that come true days, weeks, or months later; I'm drawn, over and over again, to religious paths that venerate nature; and I realized that when I explored these paths, I felt a sense of connection and peace unlike anything else. And I realized that I could forge my own solitary spiritual path, compatible with science, compatible with a divine female force (this is different from the divine feminine). So that's what I'm doing.

I've dipped my toe into Wicca, and I enjoy reading the work of Dianic Wiccans in particular, but I don't call myself Wiccan. I don't know what I am, or if there is a label for it. I don't think I need one. All I know is that there is something out there, things I'm inclined to think of as forces or energies that aren't understood by current science and might not be fully comprehensible to humans at all. I think of goddesses and gods as archetypes or facets of these forces, which is how humans relate to them. I have no idea if I'm right or not; my opinions may change dramatically over time. This is just the start of my adventure.

Perhaps due to my Jewish upbringing, the facet of the divine force I call the Goddess or Divine Creatrix who speaks to me most is Eve, who chose knowledge over submission to patriarchal authority, and thus gave her daughters the free will to make the same choice.