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This reminds me of a fic that make use of Tony's knowledge of guns to explain how he knows to disarm (as in, unmake the gun, not the act of getting it out of hands), and how he knows how to use them, which are all stuff I can see, but with that popping into my brain as I looked at this post, and thinking of another fic using a similar idea (a character realize Tony is a civilian when faced with how he's reacting to a situation), it all came to the idea that knowing how to use a gun doesn't mean you are trained to do it.

Honestly sometimes I'm the first person to often forget Tony is a civilian, and even if you can see his development into a not-regular-civilian because he just has to grow habits and trains to be Iron Man, he still isn't a trained soldier or agent at the start. Even after, he doesn't have the years of experience Rhodey has that make it all become second nature.

It's the same with the Avengers, especially the initial ones: outside of Bruce, everyone else are trained soldiers or agent. Thor, Steve, Natasha, Clint? All trained. With many years under their belt, its second nature to them.

It adds to why he's inspiring, for me: I always loved that, once he had a wake up call, he followed it. People can live what he lived through, yet return to their habits, or develop worse habits, or become "meaner" rather than kinder. He didn't. He took to heart Yinsen last words to not waste his life (to make something out of his life). Yeah, he stumbled along the way, but that's what we do as people. What matters is: he picks himself back up, learn, and improve each time. He does his best.

And then you realize what it means that he is a civilian: for all his genius, being a civilian mean not being trained to deal with life or death situation, with fighting other people, with fighting threats, and by that I mean on the daily. It's one thing to know self-defence, its another to constantly put yourself in danger and know you might die. It's one thing to know how to defend against another person, its another to constantly find yourself in situations where you might

Tony does not have this training when he starts as Iron Man. And that means he is akin to you or I, most regular citizens who aren't in any field that require this type of training, civilians, and it makes it all the more impactul he becomes a hero. Yes, he isn't quite the "regular citizen", but he's the definition of someone who simply used what they had for the purpose of hero-ing. His "superpower" is his brain. Not just building, but his tendency to seek to fix and improve, and then I also want to say his heart, once he truly came to put it forward.

And that's despite the way he is genuinely traumatized by near death experiences he's had. Not that, and not even the person presented as the person he is in love with, who is shown to not necessarily want him to put himself in danger, can stop him from doing so. He only seem to do so when, from his point of view, he failed and not only did countless living beings died, but he watched someone he deeply cared about turn to dust in his arms.

I don't believe he genuinely wanted to stop doing what Iron Man does. I believe it broke him, and he stopped believing in the one thing that defined him: that he can get up, and find a solution. And that when he "retired". We've seen him genuienly want a family at the start of Infinity War, yet he still wasn't willing to give up for some of protection, of Iron Man's presence in his life. If they had won, and he lived, knowing he has a new generation he trusts to do good? Maybe he might have stopped going out as Iron Man, maybe. But he would still find ways to do what he's been doing.

So yeah, I believe it broke him, and even when he was presented with a solution, the fear of loosing what he had left (like he lost Peter), almost overpowered any "re-awakening" of this side of him that just can't rest if he doesn't work out a solution to the problem he wants to fix. He almost didn't feel like he should fix it, because last tried, he failed. And if it broke him so badly last time that he stopped being Iron Man (which is symbollicaly part of him, not anything you can remove), then what if he failed after daring to hope? That would destroy him.

Which is why I love that the picture with Peter, and his relation to Peter, was so vital: the narrative makes us understand that, even if maybe Tony would have ended up unable to sit still on his own, just like he needed Yinsen to become Iron Man, he needed Peter to become Iron Man again. He remembered everything Peter stood for, and that's what made the decision for him.

Yeah, I'm the first to love the idea he did it for Peter as much as for everyone, but I love even more the idea that Tony had this trope moment of "what would X do/what would X tell me right now".

If Peter hadn't been such an instrumental part of Tony's life, it goes unsaid whether or not he would have been able to overcome that fear of failing once more, and of loosing what he had. To overcome that deep hurt that made him put away Iron Man.

Whichever way you want to explore their relationship, you can't deny that the narrative paint Peter and Tony has having had a deep impact on each other. In this case, it literally saves their whole universe. And who Tony was for Peter can be seen impacting his own decisions after. I kind of want to consider the idea that, just like Tony sacrified everything to save their universe (his life, knowing his loved one and family would be left without him), Peter sacrified everything to do the same (a figurative "giving up his own life", and knowing his loved ones would be left without him, if in a different manner).

Like mirrors of each other, which to me is what their first encounter also feels like. Peter's sense of responsibility is what Tony has been reaching for, regardless of any mistakes he's made. That's why Tony says "I want you to be better", he sees himself in Peter, the best parts. And I find it beautiful (if ouch my heart) that their "final moment" of their current narrative are mirrored ideas.

Both sacrificed everything to save their universe, the last time we have seen them. And at least one of them "returned" to hero-ing thanks to the other. Which... is kinda mirrored too?

Like I said, Tony became Iron Man again thanks to Peter. But to some degree, Peter truly became Spider-Man again thanks to Tony. In FFH, while he does go out as Spider-Man, we can see the way he actually wants to just "take a vacation". But Beck comes to "haunt" him with Tony, and then, Peter finally address how much he misses Tony, and Happy's words which are indirectly, Tony's "ghost" speaking were vital for Peter to really return to being Spider-Man: Tony never once doubted Peter.

Which is big, and Happy makes a point to express it: Tony always double guessed himself. That's what made him great at what he did, if something that can be unhealthy. Yet, he never second guessed Peter. It is Tony's faith in Peter that allowed Peter to finally stand back up after a bad fall, the same way Peter's whole is why Tony stood back up from the bad fall that was their loss on Titan.

And I didn't actually think it would lead there when I first started, but all of this I realize is very much a lot of points that will be the reason why Peter is picked by a specific "being" to do something specific in my main ficline idea that floats in my brain for MCU, but also why this specific being actually wants to help both Peter and Tony.

Independently, but most of all, together, they displayed the exact thing they had been waiting for to give their true power into trusted hands.

Hint: if you have no Soul, how do you wield Power? How do you have a Mind? How can you create Reality, Time or Space?

(If curious, the ideas for this ficline will be mostly played with on my other blog, crossoverfamily, and on the blog there are already some posts about it, if to be taken as "developing" aka nothing is strictly set in stone, its more general ideas. But yeah, I strongly suggest keeping an eye on my other blog if you're curious, as it might be a while before anything for that storyline gets posted here!)

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My brain did a funny thing so I had to share:

I wanted to tell someone "is it in walking distance?" in French, except my brain couldn't remember how to translate it in the proper French sentence conveying the same idea ("est-ce que tu peux y aller à pied?" literal meaning would be can you go there on foot).

And so my brain went "est ce que c'est à distance de pied" aka "is it in range of feet"? 🤣

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Reblog and see if you get a color.

PURPLE: We near never speak, but I do enjoy your presence on my dashboard.

FUCHSIA: I wish I could become your best friend through the internet.

GREY: You leave me with jumbled words.

RED: I’m in love with you.

PINK: I have a crush on you.

TURQUOISE: You’re hot.

CHARTREUSE: I sincerely wish you would notice me.

TEAL: We have quite a lot in common.

BLUE: You are my Tumblr crush.

ORANGE: I dislike your page.

YELLOW: PLEASE FUCK ME.

WHITE: PLEASE MARRY ME.

GREEN: I find you cute.

BLACK: I would date you.

BROWN: I dislike you.

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anonymously make an assumption about me and i'll confirm/deny it

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Hello!

I decided to try my luck as our financial situation this month is not great. I knew how December can get, and how a lot of people might also have it a bit hard in January, so I had hoped to balance things out well. But there were more expenses that I had hoped for, leftovers of previous months hardships too, and I realized I had nothing to loose asking for help, and everything to gain if help is possible. So here I am!

As always when these moments occur, what I offer is “gift for gift”: if you choose to gift me financial support, you can simply do so without asking for anything, or you can do so and ask for a gift of gratitude. You will have my gratitude either way, and it is my preference to not outright do commissions, so this is my compromise where you choose whether to ask something or not.

The gifts I can do are written in nature (fanfic, your OCs, my OCs, non-fiction), or card readings (guidance, message from spirits/guides/Deities/etc). I'll write anything and take most questions, if for any reason I'm not comfortable with something, I'll let you know and we'll find something else.

You can gift support via Ko-fi and Paypal, anything will help!

To ask for your gift, you can contact me on my blog direct messaging, or leave me a message in my inbox asking for my mail. You can ask questions if there is anything you want to know beforehand, too!

Thank you for your time, please consider reblogging whether you can help financially or not, either way it helps too~!

And as a final note, please consider checking out my site where you can find what I already shared of my writings, as well as an idea of what I am working on; and I have Patreon for anyone who is willing to consider monthly patronage!

It doesn’t have to be long term, you can also unsubscribe and subscribe to follow variations of your own finances, it doesn’t have to be any specific amount, lots of “small” ones can do as well as a few “larger” ones, so if you end up choosing to support me this way, simply do it based on what you can personally do!

Do note my Patreon is first and foremost a way to allow monthly support, the perks I do offer are of the early access kind, I want my content free to access and this means I don’t do exclusivity, only thanking those that support me monthly by allowing them to know before anyone else information, have previews and early access, but there is no schedule to this!

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This is pretty much self-tagging since I saw this game on dash and thought "hey, can I figure out 10 movies I love and find a gif for each" so I decided to do it. So just have fun considering yourself tagged if you want to do this yourself!

Note: there is no real order to the movies, it's just 10 of the movies I've loved as they pop into my head!

rules: without naming them, post a gif from ten of your favorite films and then tag ten people to do the same.

Source: Tenor (couldn't find a gif on tumblr)

Now I love to bend the rules (as seen by doing this without being tagged), so I'm going to list the movies under the cut with little notes on my choosing process~

Godzilla 1998 (I'm fond of this one as this was the first Gozilla movie I've ever watched, and I also watched the animated series related to this movie as a kid)

Avengers Infinity War (I enjoy all Avengers movies to various degrees, but I'd say this one is my favorite)

Jurassic World (I love the Jurassic franchise in general, but I did enjoy a lot this specific one, I do love its follow up, but I chose to go with this one)

Dragonheart (again, I did enjoy the other movies, but I chose to go with this one)

Pirates of the Caribbean (as you might guess by now, love the series itself, other movies have scenes I adore, but I can't help wanting to pick the first one if I have to put only one)

Thor Ragnarok (my favortie of the Thor movies so far)

Eragon (its been forever since I've seen it, but I do recall that I loved the whole idea behind the books and that's why i enjoyed the movie)

Deadpool&Wolverine (tbh I was starting to have issues thinking of movies that don't relate to each other, I already gave myself a free pass with a Thor movie when I already had an Avenger movie since I can argue Avenger movies are about all of them and Thor movie is about Thor, so I went "Deadpool has its own movies and I loved most the third so here" XD)

Godzilla Minus One (since I already decided to give myself more free pass, I put another Godzilla movie, and while I do enjoy the Monsterverse, I really enjoyed Minus One so I decided to put this one instead)

Aliens: Resurrection (It got really hard to think of movies, and still try to not put a movie relating to previous ones, and I was also trying to not put aniated movies, then my brain went "you did enjoy these movies" and this specific one was actually the first one I watched so this ended up my last one)

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Hello!

I decided to try my luck as our financial situation this month is not great. I knew how December can get, and how a lot of people might also have it a bit hard in January, so I had hoped to balance things out well. But there were more expenses that I had hoped for, leftovers of previous months hardships too, and I realized I had nothing to loose asking for help, and everything to gain if help is possible. So here I am!

As always when these moments occur, what I offer is “gift for gift”: if you choose to gift me financial support, you can simply do so without asking for anything, or you can do so and ask for a gift of gratitude. You will have my gratitude either way, and it is my preference to not outright do commissions, so this is my compromise where you choose whether to ask something or not.

The gifts I can do are written in nature (fanfic, your OCs, my OCs, non-fiction), or card readings (guidance, message from spirits/guides/Deities/etc). I'll write anything and take most questions, if for any reason I'm not comfortable with something, I'll let you know and we'll find something else.

You can gift support via Ko-fi and Paypal, anything will help!

To ask for your gift, you can contact me on my blog direct messaging, or leave me a message in my inbox asking for my mail. You can ask questions if there is anything you want to know beforehand, too!

Thank you for your time, please consider reblogging whether you can help financially or not, either way it helps too~!

And as a final note, please consider checking out my site where you can find what I already shared of my writings, as well as an idea of what I am working on; and I have Patreon for anyone who is willing to consider monthly patronage!

It doesn’t have to be long term, you can also unsubscribe and subscribe to follow variations of your own finances, it doesn’t have to be any specific amount, lots of “small” ones can do as well as a few “larger” ones, so if you end up choosing to support me this way, simply do it based on what you can personally do!

Do note my Patreon is first and foremost a way to allow monthly support, the perks I do offer are of the early access kind, I want my content free to access and this means I don’t do exclusivity, only thanking those that support me monthly by allowing them to know before anyone else information, have previews and early access, but there is no schedule to this!

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I wheezed so hard when I got my results I'm pretty I had something different in the past since I vaguely remember this test, but hey, I don't mind, I guess it accidentally goes with the vibe I put on the picrew me 😂

Also not me worrying I put the right flags 😂 Genderfluid and omnisexual, but I don't think they had the omnisexual flag I looked up about, so I went with pansexual.

Fun fact: I wish I could pull off the super neutral look I accidentally managed to pull off with that picrew. If I can't shapeshift at will, please let me confuse everyone so they can't assume my gender 😂

Thank you for the tag! And I'm tagging anyone who wants to do it who sees this, consider yourself tagged ♥

Consider yourself tagged if you are reading this:

Make this picrew of yourself

Take this uquiz (How Fandom Would See You If You Were A Fictional Character)

Thank you for the tag @machiavellli !

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Thank you for the tag!

I love complex characters more than villains or heroes, so I chose to go with Khaos (name might change one day but is likely to stay that way), my own OC who is a major character in my original fictional universe, who is equally an antagonist, a protagonist, and an adversary in relation to the main cast.

When he first appears, he follows his nature, which is to corrupt. When patient and subtle, he is unseen, whispers misleading information, tempting people into actions that will be harmful to them and others, breaking people, twisting bit by bit their energy, their essence. When seeking the thrill of terror and suffering, he captures people's mind, heart, soul, into his own realm, able to torture them how he pleases, yet since it is not a physical realm, he can wish for all damages to be healed, and start again. The pain is oh so real, and only when he has enough, does he release his target. Yet, he does not kill, for he much prefers watching what happens after people break. He does not force himself upon anyone, for he much prefers their willing surrender. He does not touch children, who can only be broken, but never corrupted. He breaks to corrupt, not the other way around. He wants to see his Corrupted take pleasure in what they have become. In these feelings, is nascent complexity. In his storyline, there is a reason he is as he is at the start, and a reason why he starts to develop a more complex personality, and start to question who he is and what he does. His nature does not change. He still love all of this. But he has been given the gift of genuine free will and a real soul, and now he feels pained for all the beings who are like him. More than anything, he wants his brethren free. He wants them all to realize that, if they seek to corrupt everything, nothing will remain to be corrupted. He wants them to know what it's like, to be able to hold a space within that is free of corruption, where he himself holds dear the one who taught him freedom. Make no mistake, though. This Khaos is, dare I say, more dangerous than he used to be. No longer a slave of his own nature, he has chosen to embrace his nature, and become the Incarnation of Corruption, the Ruler of all Monsters. And only the Monster than makes every other Monsters submit in terror of his Wrath, can rule them all.

I babbled a bit but I love Khaos, and it was purposeful that I made him with this picrew to have very few supernatural or horror-like element, because in my head, you only realize he is not a regular human until it's too late. He has other forms, but his most used is that of a "regular" masculine looking human(oid).

Also in my head: the above "pic" is what you see when he's sending you in his own realm.

Tagging, if you want of course, @punk-sass , @rainghosted , @satari-raine , @tracing-in-gold , and whoever else wants to do this who see this from my blog!

Let’s make a cast of Villains!

All you need to do is this picrew, and tag some people.

Here’s mine. An evil AI version of me.

Tags: @godofautism @dinosaurguts @mayhem-moth and anyone else who wants to join.

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As mentioned, I updated a bit my blog theme, and this also works as a little promotion if you didn't know about this other blog of mine!

Which like this one I haven't had yet the spoons to do stuff with again but sooner or later I will

Hi hello, sooner or later I'll finally have the spoons to be active here and do what I want to do, but right now I am simply dropping here the adjusted lines I have on my fic blog theme because they are inspired by the muses here!

First line relates to Peter, second to Wei Wuxian, third to Allen, fourth to Wild, fifth to Ireth, and the last one to all of them.

I used to only have the first three, but I wanted to expand, and it actually is something I consider as one of my mottos to live by~!

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The rest of the thread is here.

tl;dr: Don’t monetize AO3, kids.  You won’t like what happens next.

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This happened to me too on FFnet, I was super lucky because the first time it happened, I asked questions to verify if they were a real person, but didn't think to go deeper into it, and started to discuss commission with them, but since my situation meant I couldn't commission right away, I told them it would have to be another month. There definitely was a real person who knew to play into compliments and show a little patience.

I said I was lucky because I realized the danger before I paid anything. Like I said, they knew to play patient, but they still were a little pushy about getting a booking amount, or starting to work even after I had clearly told them I wouldn't have the finances around the time they asked again if we could work. It's on me that I never thought to try asking more details on the fic(s) they claimed to have liked, or go deeper into how weird it felt. I'm so damn lucky I just couldn't pay right away (and they even played with using a large price then saying they would reduce it "since they're eager to work together", as well as allowing multiple payments) because that's how time passed and I got another DM that held similar ideas, and that's when I realized something was up.

I found a forum on FFnet that spoke about this happening, and even though it feels like I can't be certain that first person I spoke with was fully a scam, I just didn't want to take the risk and blocked them. Suspiciously enough, after I blocked them, I had yet another FFnet person try the scam thing, but also following me and DMing three times the same message before I saw and blocked.

Two other things to note from my experience: the first two use artstation, the third didn't list one. The two accounts linking to an artstation felt like they had a similar style, and most striking for me, the very first account added new arts after we started interacting, which I didn't see right away, and newer art felt different than the initial ones (as if it wasn't the same person).

It's sad, and angering, that this happening, but at least it seems the information is circulating now. What makes me the most sad is, if genuine artist out there will want to work with writers by approaching them, it can be harder now. Obviously, a genuine person is going to sound much different than a scam, and it will be simple to ask enough questions to verify they are genuine, but most writers who had this happen to them or see it happening are going to have a harder time trusting and that's unfair to both writers and artists.

@cilil As you ask to know profiles who seem to be in this, here are the ones that contacted me on FFnet: 1 // 2 // 3.

Also here are the initial DMs for each person:

Note: looking back on it, the first person gave a red flag I did notice but didn't look deeper into it. They said they liked "Make it Right" which is a DGM fic, but claimed they were browsing HP fic when they found me/mine. I do have one fic, and only one fic, under HP, but it is a crossover with DGM and focus more on the DGM aspects. It was also a one-shot and a gift. But I assumed maybe they meant they found that one, then read Make it Right. Another details I did notice but should have looked deeper into, is that they asked if I had socials, but my FFnet profiles links said socials. I should have asked more details, and listen better to what I was feeling.

Part of me still wonders if that person was genuine, and its unfurtonate they sound similar and were truly eager to they seemed pushy, but if they were part of the scam or whatever it happening? There's definitely at least one real person who knows what cards to play, if like me someone ends up not asking the right questions or not listening to their inner alarm bells. Be careful out there!

Some new kind of scam? It’s giving scam but I also don’t really understand how it’s a scam?? but it’s 100% a scam yeah?

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Ah yes, the sound of lovely people, one of my favorite sounds 💖

Hey there my sweetest, beloved Vexi ♡

I just wanted to share something personal with you that you can then share with others because I know that they feel the same.

Writing has always been my passion. It's been the one thing that has kept me afloat in my life. Regardless of whether people love my writing or hate it, I would continue for the sake of continuing because it is my life.

But when I rejoined fandom spaces, I was terrified after hearing stories of how the culture had changed significantly. Interaction is lower, and hate has unfortunately always made its home in these communities. Given I share fanfiction solely to share with the aforementioned communities, I found myself afraid that I would get hate messages. I was afraid I wouldn't have a community that would stand up for me if that were to happen. While it would never deter me from what I love, I was scared that friendships and positivity were long dead in this space. Fandom felt lonely.

You know what though? I have met wonderful person after wonderful person. And then I met you too. There you are, getting some of the most horrendous messages I've ever seen sent to another human being, and you continue to push for positivity - smiling and laughing with us about how much you just want to see people happy.

Then you went on to start share some of the wonderful messages you recieved throughout that ordeal, only to begin writing positive affirmations and thoughts for us. Once upon a time, I struggled to accept this sort of positivity, I will admit that. When I was having a rough time, I would often see messages like that as 'hollow' for a lack of better words. I would be angry or bitter that others could think like that when I struggled so much to feel like those words should have meant something to me.

While time has passed since I was that person, I still remember the feeling of hopelessness, yet that doesn't deter from the fact that people like you - and countless others - single handedly restored my faith in these communities.

People like you remind me why I cling to my ideals of treating everyone with kindness no matter what. To try to understand other people. To help others. These are all things that bring us closer together. People like you, @silva-daemonium, @fraugwinska, @macabr3-barbi3, @chrisemrysfics, @melodyonthewireless, @dewdropdinosaur, @xalygatorx, @kewpikayo, @jurijyuu, @jalicecookie, AND SO MANY MORE do so much to support those around you.

All of this came about because I wanted to say thank you for posting those short little messages of encouragment. I know that I have appreciated them. Sure, they might seem a little cheesy to me on a morning when I'm tired - but they really make me smile, and prepare me to tackle whatever the day gives.

You're the beating heart of positivity.

It's a fairytale ending to the horror stories I expected.

I know that other people will see this too, so I just wanted to wish everyone that sees this a relaxing morning, afternoon, evening - timezone in general! You're here, and you've worked hard to be here all this time. Everything you've needed to do to achieve that, you've done. That's huge. I'm so proud of everyone, and my DMs are always open to anyone who might be struggling or just wants to talk. I'll always aim to help my community in the same way that Vexi has demonstrated.

Love to you all, and again, thank you for your messages, Vexi!

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Cirice, I honestly don’t have the words to fully capture how much your kindness means to me. You are truly one of the most thoughtful, beautiful souls I’ve ever had the honor to meet, and I can’t thank you enough for your words. Knowing that something I’ve done has made even a small impact on people like you is still so surreal to me. I’m just deeply grateful that you’re part of this community.

You and so many others are the reason why I’ve stayed here longer than in any other fandom. It’s been the most heartwarming experience. This community, especially people like you, has genuinely transformed my perspective on what fandoms can be: a space filled with compassion, creativity, and connection.

Thank you for sharing your story, for giving me (and others) a piece of your heart. I hope your words reach others, inspiring them to create, to feel they belong, and to understand how wonderful it is to be part of something like this. Knowing we’re all here together, finding meaning in these connections, it makes the world feel a little less lonely and a lot brighter. 💖

Also tagging the people that didn't get properly tagged because tumblr is broken: @dewdropdinosaur @xalygatorx @kewpikayo @jurijyuu @jailcecookie

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everyone needs that one friend they can say just absolutely deranged horny shit too. this is like crucial for your sanity

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if you're feeling powerless right now—and god knows I am—here's a reminder you can donate to the National Network of Abortion Funds, the Trans Law Center, Gaza Soup Kitchen, the Palestine Children's Relief Fund, and hundreds of other charities that will work to mitigate the damage that has been and will continue to be inflicted

life continues. we still have the capacity to do good, important work. that matters

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Two things to prop up right now:

The ACLU - They’ll do their best to make sure this dumpster fire doesn’t turn into a wildfire.

The Trevor Project - They’ll be fielding a lot of calls, texts, and chats in the next few days and beyond.

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Saw this and decided to take it and the results feel pretty fitting!