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Well she shot me down.

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It's empty in the valley of your heart

The sun, it rises slowly as you walk

Away from all the fears and all the faults you've left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat

You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see

But I have seen the same I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope and I won't let you choke

On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain

And I will change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again

'Cause I have other things to fill my time

You take what is yours and I'll take mine

Now let me at the truth, which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears

I can see widows and orphans through my tears

I know my call despite my faults and despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope and I won't let you choke

On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain

And I will change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands

And see the world hanging upside down

You can understand dependence when you know the maker's land

So make your siren's call and sing all you want

I will not hear what you have to say

'Cause I need freedom now and I need to know how

To live my life as it's meant to be

And I will hold on hope and I won't let you choke

On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain

And I will change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again

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Fun Psychology facts here!

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We I'm moving out of my home town. I'm finally getting a chance to start my life. Two states over and I don't know if I'll want to come back. My family's here but I'm just done whit how people think of me here.

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I really love how you can go out of your way for someone and they don't even know you did. But you mess up one thing and it's the end of the world to them.

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Gone too far and yeah I'm gone again

It's gone on too long, tell you how it ends

I'm sitting on the edge with my two best friends

Ones a bottle of pills, ones a bottle of Gin

I'm twenty stories up, yeah I'm up at the top

I'll polish off this bottle, now it's pushing me off

Asphalt to me has never looked so soft

I bet my momma found my letter, now shes calling the cops

I gotta take this opportunity before I miss it

'Cause now I hear the sirens and they're off in the distance

Believe me when I tell you that I've been persistent

'Cause I'm more scarred, more scarred than my wrist is

I've been trying too long, with too dull of a knife

But tonight I made sure that I sharpened it twice

I never bought a suit before in my life

But when you go to meet god, you know you wanna look nice We hit the sky, there goes the light

No more sun, why's it always night

When you can't sleep, well, you can't dream

When you can't dream, well, whats life mean?

We feel a little pity, but don't empathize

The old are getting older, watch a young man die

A Mother and a Son and someone you know

Smile at each other and realize you don't

You don't know what happened to that kid you raised

What happened to the Father, who swore he'd stay?

I didn't know 'cause you didn't say

Now Momma feels guilt, yea Momma feels pain

When you were young, you never thought you'd die

Found that you could but too scared to try

You looked in the mirror and you said goodbye

Climb to the roof to see if you could fly

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When I grow up

Yeah, when I grow up, you know what I wanna be?

Take a seat, let me tell you my ridiculous dreams

I wanna rap, yeah, I know it's hard to believe

And I can tell you're already thinkin' I will never succeed

But I'm okay with it, I admit the lyrics are weak

I been workin' on 'em, I'll be good eventually

I understand you gotta crawl before you get to your feet

But I been running for a while, they ain't ready for me, ah

I know this probably isn't really realistic

And honestly, I might not ever make a difference

But that don't make a difference, I'ma have to risk it

I been crunchin' numbers, you ain't gotta be a mathematician

To see the odds ain't rootin' for me

I can't lie though, it's kinda how I like it to be

The underdog, yeah, you probably think you know what I mean

But what I'm saying is they ever push me, I'm gonna swing, yeah

I could go to college, get in debt like everybody else

Graduate and probably get a job that doesn't pay the bills

That don't make a lot of sense to me, forget the Happy Meals

I don't like the dollar menu, I would rather make a mil'

Huh? Make a meal? Nah, I said make a mil'

Home-cookin', get the grill, how you want it? Pretty well?

Everything I see is overdone to me, I'm not Adele

But I'ma get a record deal and say hello to mass appeal

When I grow up, I just want to pay my bills

Rappin' about the way I feel, oh yeah

I just want to make a couple mil'

Leave it to the fam in the will, oh yeah

I just want to sign a record deal

Maybe buy a house up in the hills, oh yeah

Might not be the best in my field

But I guarantee that I'ma die real

When I grow up

Yeah, ayy

When I grow up

Yeah, yeah, ayy

I'ma make 'em notice me, rhymin' like it's poetry

Everything I oversee, I just like to overthink

Mockin' me, you pay the fee, no return and no receipts

Those of you that don't believe, quiet, you don't know a thing

Quiet when I'm tryna sing, quiet when I'm making beats

Quiet when I'm tryna think, sorry, I don't mean to scream

I just feel like no one really gets me and it's sad to see

'Cause someday I'ma grow up and show all of you it's meant to be, yeah

Anybody wanna hear me rap? "No"

Come on, let me play a couple tracks, "No"

Come on, I can spit it really fast, "No"

You think I should throw this in the trash? "No"

Tricked you, haters, go away before I hit you

I am not a beggar or a kiss-up

You don't understand? Well, I forgive you

I am not a quitter, you ain't really think that, did you?

Maybe someday I could even be up on the radio

Have a tour bus and maybe even play a couple shows

Everybody in the crowd singin' every word I wrote

Tellin' me that I am not the only one that feels alone

Huh? You feel alone? Yeah, I kinda feel alone

Wonder if that feelin' ever goes away when you get old

Will I ever make it as an artist? I don't really know

Might not make a lot of dough, I'ma have to try it, though

When I grow up, I just want to pay my bills

Rappin' about the way I feel, oh yeah

I just want to make a couple mil'

Leave it to the fam in the will, oh yeah (yeah)

I just want to sign a record deal

Maybe buy a house up in the hills, oh yeah (okay)

Might not be the best in my field (ayy)

But I guarantee that I'ma die real (ayy, oh)

When I grow up, I just want to pay my bills (woo)

Rappin' about the way I feel, oh yeah (yeah, the way I feel)

Yeah, I just want to make a couple mil' (ayy)

Leave it to the fam in the will, oh yeah (to the fam in the will)

I just want to sign a record deal (woo)

Maybe buy a house up in the hills, oh yeah (a house up in the hills)

Yeah, I might not be the best in my field (ayy)

But I guarantee that I'ma die real

When I grow up

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I sit and I remiss over good times and old these Blurred Lines in my mind its overwhelming some times I know I'm crazy but no more lies ive given up on this pointless life if some one reads this I want you to know why growing up being abused haveing to take the role of a man who could hardly understand his role in my life let alone his own wife  falling in love with someone I called my best friend to only find it had an end to meet someone else and she was only pretend I keep fighting this battle have all my life the strange kid who always will be walking the knife to please someone else trying to do whats right my best friend going to jail leaving me I only fail so if I'm gone and some one finds these understand I had a plan I wanted to change the world but when you've lost hope how can you cope  how can you come back when they've all said nope your nobody nothing you had this vision of a better world less corrupt but sadly I guess I just given up im sorry I'm just not strong enough I only want a simmons to my fitz but I dont seem to fit im odd a misfit for some reason I just didnt get it im different its fine it's cool you can leave now like every one else dose I'll just kick back and nurs this new buzz this new found high this guy who despises all the disguises ive worn torn up inside unable to clime out but someone once told me dont get sad get mad have a plan but I got had but in it all im tired ive been called a liar coward and a fool but still fell right through into the dark this deep blue because of..... Forget it it's through I felt like superman at least Clark but even super hero's cant always face the dark let alone a nobody from the start I fought for my heart but it was torn apart to many times I just fell apart fell to the ground not even making a sound I guess I am the clown he would never mess around the joker the toker with a smile I could wair for a while if I brake then they have nothing to take cause I got nothing to give thought I was nice but nice guys finish last so tomorrow say good by to the past mister nice guy gone kiss my ass no more white hat how about a different shade "I'll try black" what do you say it might take me awhile but they'll know my name the fallens back to hack what they've taken away so sit and stay because I'm not going away the dark is where I'll live put me here thats fine cause what gose around comes around watch what I'll give not baleving what I can do let me tell you

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Fitzsimmons Appreciation Post (1x06)

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I sit and I remiss over good times and old these Blurred Lines in my mind its overwhelming some times I know I'm crazy but no more lies ive given up on this pointless life if some one reads this I want you to know why growing up being abused haveing to take the role of a man who could hardly understand his role in my life let alone his own wife falling in love with someone I called my best friend to only find it had an end to meet someone else and she was only pretend I keep fighting this battle have all my life the strange kid who always will be walking the knife to please someone else trying to do whats right my best friend going to jail leaving me I only fail so if I'm gone and some one finds these understand I had a plan I wanted to change the world but when you've lost hope how can you cope how can you come back when they've all said nope your nobody nothing you had this vision of a better world less corrupt but sadly I guess I just given up im sorry I'm just not strong enough

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spooky season is officially here folks

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Time nf

Even if we both break down tonight

And you say you hate me

And we go to bed angry

I know everything will be alright

I'll be here waiting

I promise I'm changing

I just need

A little time to show you I'm worth it

I know that I can be a difficult person

I'm a stress case

Drive you up the wall when I'm workin'

Actually, I'm probably worse when I'm not

You don't deserve it

Make you nervous 'cause you know I'ma break soon

Every time I do, I say somethin' that hurts you

Actin' like I'm gone but we both in the same room

I don't like to be wrong, which I know you relate to

And I know I make you feel

Like you're at the end of your road

That's when I look at you and tell you I'd be better alone

That's just the pride talkin', isn't it?

'Cause both of us know

I'm the definition of "wreck" if you look into my soul

Comes out the most when I feel I'm in a vulnerable place

Made a lot of mistakes I wish I knew how to erase

When I'm afraid, might get distant and I push you away

But no matter the case, I'ma do whatever it takes

Even if

Even if we both break down tonight

And you say you hate me

And we go to bed angry

I know everything will be alright

I'll be here waiting

I promise I'm changing

I just need

Time (Oh)

I-I need time (Oh, oh)

I just need time (Oh)

I-I need time (Oh)

Time (Oh), time (Oh)

Yeah, way before I bought you the ring

We were fighting back and forth

Like you were wearin' the thing

Two passionate people not afraid to say what they think

Lead to passionate conversation when it's hard to agree

You know me well

Sittin' on the edge of my seat

Lookin' at life, overanalyzin' everything

Always depressed, tryna find a better version of me

Searching for somethin' I know's prolly right in front of my feet

Stubborn as me? Maybe not, but you're close to it

Got a lot of issues, I'm tryna work through 'em

Going to therapy for you's somethin' that's worth doin'

When I know you been there for me

Through all of my worst moments

And I know it hurts knowing that I carry this weight on my chest

Making it difficult for me to open up and connect

A lot of regrets, I apologize for all of the stress

That's not what I meant to do

You know I love you to death

Even if

Even if we both break down tonight

And you say you hate me

And we go to bed angry

I know everything will be alright

I'll be here waiting

I promise I'm changing

I just need

Time (Oh)

I-I need time (Oh, oh)

I just need time (Oh)

I-I need time (Oh)

Time (Oh), time (Oh)

I just need time (Oh)

I-I need time (Oh, oh)

I just need time (Oh)

I-I need time (Oh)

Time (Oh), time (Oh)

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You I want to feel sorry for you as you text me around two saying how do you do but when you left me what do you want me to do oh hey whats up like you really give a fuck my life was shit befor I met you and after now your in Texas with your bestest friend getting fucked by every pretend has been but no you need money aint that funny like I woud help you I'm broke and broken and you talk to me like we old friends diched me for a wanna be now I know I cant say that as I try to writ this rap but I dont give shit I ma be a hypocrite but for real how long did that last what was it some sort of deal a fuck for a place to heal "I miss you" bitch you left fucked a guy and you dair ask me for help fuck you and your fucked cat oh ya can I have my jacket back