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it's currently 4am here, the united states just held the election, and he is the projected winner.
i genuinely have no words for how i feel other than fucking terrified.
i no longer feel safe as a queer woman and will not be subjected to anything this man is going to try to implement.
with that being said, i will now be going mostly inactive while i weigh my options on migrating to another, safer, country.
i would appreciate any and all help, mentally, financially, emotionally and physically.
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say donât go | pjs
now playing: Say Donât Go (Taylorâs Version) (From the Vault) by Taylor Swift
minors DNI - 18+ only
jay x reader, friends with benefits, angst, suggestive
summary: You want more, and Jay doesn't. It's as simple as that. Except, it's not so simple when your heart aches to be with him. When you decide to cut Jay off, he does not take kindly to your actions and a confrontation ensues.
warnings: mentions of sex, suggestive scenes, like they make out two times?!, reader is DOWN BAD, jay has commitment issues, swearing, they have an argument, jay is a dick. typos probably
wc: 3.7k
(a/n: jayâs part is here!! im pretty proud of this not gonna lie heheheh, reblog, likes and comments are always appreciated :p)
You always tell yourself that the last time will be the last time. Everytime Jay undos the undressing from a few hours before, disappointment weighs so heavy on your heart that it convinces you- it can never happen again.
But it always does.
One word, one call from him. And, youâre always saying yes. For some reason, the small flicker of hope in your chest never dies. It convinces you that one day, he will ask you to stay. That heâll say, âDonât go.â
Youâre never surprised, but always disappointed.
Tonight is no different. Jay calls you up and asks if you can come over. You say, yes. You always do. Before you know it, youâve left your apartment, enroute to Jayâs home.Â
All youâve brought with you is your phone, wallet, keys, and water; adorned on your body is your comfiest clothes. You and Jay are long past trying to impress each other. You never stay the night so the least you can do for yourself is dress comfortably.Â
Youâve memorized the way to his house, from every time heâs called you over. Youâve never felt like a booty-call, not by the way he treats you after you knock on his front door. And, you never wondered why you donât indulge each other in your own home. This is always how itâs been.Â
You climb up the familiar steps and lift your fist to knock on his door. You never hesitate, not once in all your late night rendezvous. Your heart seems to forget all the heartbreak Jayâs caused you and all the disappointment that fills you when you walk out the same door hours later.
The door swings open, and there is your Jay, dressed in perfect domesticity. âFinally, youâre here.â He sighs in relief and gently pulls you into his home. But, not without a peck to your forehead.Â
âYou act like I kept you waiting for hours.â You roll your eyes playfully.
âWell it felt like hours.â Jay shot back, matching your energy.
âIâm sorry to keep you waiting,â you quip. âIt smells good in here.â Now that youâve stepped into Jayâs home, you notice the aroma that fills the air- a mixture of seasonings- garlic and onion youâre sure. You smile to yourself. Itâs one of the many things you admire about Jay, his love for cooking. And, heâs good at it. Youâve shared his meals countless times and they never disappoint. Excitement, mixed with hunger, brews in your stomach at the thought of eating some of Jayâs food.Â
âThanks doll. Felt like cooking up something before you came over.â Jay replies. Placing a hand on your lower back, he guides you to the kitchen, as if this is your first time at his place. You bet youâve memorized the steps to his kitchen and bedroom by now.Â
âWhatâd you make this time?â You question carries genuine curiosity, as Jay has cooked an array of dishes.
âLemon pepper chicken with green beans and rice. Iâve been wanting to try this recipe for a while because Iâve never cooked with lemon pepper before and I thought why notâŚâ Jayâs voice trails off. You donât mean to tune Jay out- it only happened because youâre entirely focused on admiring Jay and how he floats around the kitchen so naturally, tending to the food on the stove. He owns the space; his confidence and naturalness only adds to your desire for him, to have him in every way.Â
You stop yourself before you spiral into a mood of longingness. Youâre determined to not bring down the mood tonight, not until you and Jay have your usualâŚroutine.Â
Once the food is ready, Jay prepares your plate for you, insisting it will taste better if he does it. Typical Jay, ever the gentleman. You chat through the meal, recapping your day and week, providing updates on your mutual friends, and everything in between. It feels so domestic, and right. It reminds you that you and Jay could have this. Home-cooked meals, the intimacy of sitting at the dining table, getting ready for bed together, and holding each other close when the day comes to a close.Â
At least, thatâs what you imagine life with Jay would be like.Â
You help him clean the kitchen, dancing around each other in a perfect rhythm.
Once you finish drying the last dish, you turn around, only to find Jay had caged you between himself and the kitchen counter.Â
âOh! You scared me.â You giggle, from both surprise and nervousness at Jayâs proximity.Â
He says nothing, only smirking and capturing your lips in a kiss. It stops time for you- whenever he kisses you, it always feels that way. Itâs firm and slow- but thatâs how Jay teases you. His patience is unmatched, opposing your urgency. Donât misunderstand, Jay feels a similar urgency to have you, but he quite enjoys teasing you first.
You respond with such fervor, starting to feel desperate. Jayâs hands move from the counter to the waist and press you into him.
Right before you invite your tongue to tangle with Jayâs, he pulls back for a breath. He leans his forehead against yours and gasps for air. âLetâs move this to my room yeah?â He asks cooly, but you detect a hint of desperation in his voice. It makes you proud to know that heâs as desperate for you as you are for him.Â
You nod quickly and follow him to his bedroom. You know where the night is headed and the sadness youâll feel when you leave Jayâs embrace is guaranteed. But, even though you want Jay in every way, only one way is enough for now.
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You still feel warm from your high an hour ago. But, Jay always makes you feel that way. Your afterglow remains long after whenever youâre with him. Youâre in the perfect position to fall asleep, head on Jayâs chest while his fingers trailing rhythmically up and down your bare back, relaxing you. But, you know you canât fall asleep. In a few minutes, when Jay feels itâs socially acceptable to kick you out, you will get dressed and leave. You savor these moments while theyâre here.
Time passes and youâre still here. Hope blooms in your chest; heâs never let you stay this long. It must be way past midnight at this point, usually youâre home by now. This hope encourages you to open your godforsaken mouth and rehash a conversation with Jay that youâve had over and over.
A part of you knows that even if you bring up the topic again, nothing will change. But, damnnit, thereâs hope!
You sit up and reach for your discarded shirt on the floor. Covering one part of your vulnerability will help unveil another.Â
Jay gives you a look that questions why you moved from such a comfortable position.Â
âHey, Jay.â Your voice shakes ever so slightly, but youâre blaming it on your exertion from before, not on your nervousness.
The boy only hums in response, however itâs encouragement enough for you to continue.Â
âI was wondering if you thought any more about what I said all those months ago? About us? I justâŚI want more for us and I think we would be really good together. I really really like you. I want everything- all of it- with youl.â You spit out your words like theyâre fire, rambling through your thoughts. You donât even look Jay in the eye, too embarrassed that youâre clinging to the impossible.
Thereâs a moment of silence which allows you to bask in your humiliation. Then, a sigh from Jay.Â
âDo we really have to talk about this again? My answer is the same. I just canât commit like that right now.â His voice is soft, but firm- as if he knows your fragility but needs to make his words heard.
Your frown deepens, and Jay unfortunately notices.Â
âCome here,â He pulls you back to him, âYou know itâs not because of you, right? I really really like you too. But, I know you deserve more than I can give you right now.â
You nod, despite not understanding. You try to make sense of Jayâs words but they werenât adding up at all.Â
You donât understand- if he really really liked you, why couldnât he commit? Why wouldnât he take you out on a proper date? If he liked you, didnât he want the same things you did?
Him making dinner, being obsessively caring during your intimate moments, and offering the best aftercare, it was all twisting the knife he had dug into your back.Â
Okay, maybe it wasnât in your back, because you knew where this was going, or you shouldâve known. This was no betrayal. It was all inevitable.
It doesnât make the pain of him leaving you in the dark bleeding, hurt any less.Â
Itâs time for you to go. You pushed his limits and now tension mixes with the smell of sex in the room. Despite Jay holding you close, you feel so far from him. So, you need to go before you say something stupid.Â
You sit up and try to muster up your most sheepish smile, trying to not give away any disappointment in Jayâs answer. Youâve shown enough vulnerability for one night.Â
âI think Iâm going to go home for the night- Iâve got, you know, an early morning.â You lie through your teeth. Itâs a Saturday night (or early Sunday morning at this point).Â
Jay nods slowly, as if he knows youâre lying (he does). He follows your movements, sitting up and searching the room for his disregarded clothes.Â
âIâll walk you out.â
You only nod in response. Your voice seemed to die along with your hope. You lead yourself and Jay to his front door. Opening it, you turn to bid him goodbye.Â
Youâre almost caught off guard by the look in Jayâs eyes. He looks disappointed- in who, youâre not sure. His eyes hold a hint of sadness too.
He leans forward, but you panic. Thinking on your feet, you go for the awkward side hug. You swear you can almost hear Jay grimace.Â
âText me when you get home.â
âSure, yeah. Goodnight Jay.âÂ
With that, you walk out the door.
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By the time youâre home, you have made a major decision.Â
Well, it feels major to you.Â
You decide youâre gonna distance yourself from Jay for a while. And this time, youâre serious about it. You need some time away from him. From the home-cooked meals. From the fluid conversation. From the softness.Â
You need to get your heart in order before you see him again. You predict you will either lose feelings for Jay, and continue your affair, or youâll learn to live without him.Â
Youâre not looking forward to either outcome, but it needs to happen. You canât anticipate the same heartbreak every time you see him. The longing, the desperation, the hope. You canât do it anymore.Â
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Four days have passed since you saw Jay. Not seeing him in person over the week wasnât out of the ordinary. You both have full-time jobs, so itâs normal to not see him until the weekend.Â
What was unusual was the lack of communication entirely. You and Jay wouldnât go a day or two without texting each other, or having a quick phone call.Â
You were honestly proud of yourself for not contacting him. However, you feel a bit disappointed that he hasn't contacted you at all. You sound hypocritical- the way you want him to simultaneously let you be and pine after you. Feelings are confusing.Â
The first weekend without Jay is the worst. You take extra measures to avoid Jay- seeing him, confronting him, even thinking about him. Your phone is turned off and placed across the room where you canât reach. Your best girlfriends come over for a movie night, providing some much needed girl time. By the time they leave, you have completely forgotten where your weekend usually leads you.Â
So, you busy yourself by cleaning the kitchen from earlier in the evening, disposing of popcorn bags and leftover candies.Â
For a second, your memory betrays you. You imagine a few months ago when Jay invited you over for a âmovieâ night. Popcorn and snacks were prepared, but soon forgotten. You two didnât even make it half through the movie before you were on top of each other. Jay had pulled you onto his lap as you started to make out, each kiss intensifying. Your bodies begin to move against each other on their own and before you know it-
You shake your head from the daydream. Jay does not deserve to take up that kind of space in your mind. You wonât allow him.Â
You continue to straighten up your apartment, before you retire to your bed. Itâs almost like your body doesnât know what to do with itself when youâre not in Jayâs apartment on a Saturday night. Itâs sad, and itâs precisely why you need space from him. Your heart is growing too dependent on him.Â
Picking up your phone, you see a particular notification(s) that makes your sore heart stutter.Â
One missed call and four messages from Jay.Â
Jay <3: I called to see what youâre up to tonight. You can come over if youâre free.
Jay <3: I made kimchi jjigae. I think I finally got the recipe down.
Jay <3: Just realized itâs been a minute since we talked.Â
Jay <3: Missing you right now.
The last message was sent only 30 minutes ago. You glance at the clock, itâs only 11:30- not even that late. Jay is probably still up, and if you leave your apartment now you could probably make it before-
The better part of you stops yourself before you can impulsively see the one person youâre trying to avoid. Thatâs Jay though- so addicting it makes you go against your better judgment.Â
You sigh and turn your phone off. The determination for space is strong, motivated by the ache in your heart.
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Jay feels like heâs going crazy. His 7 text messages and two missed calls have gone unanswered by you.
Why the hell were you ignoring him? Were you okay? If Jay hadnât seen your activity on your socials, he wouldâve thought you were dead. Heâs not trying to be dramatic, he swears. But, during the months and months that youâve known each other, youâve never ghosted him.Â
Jay racks his brain for the reason youâre ignoring him right now.Â
It surely canât be because of your last conversation right? You both have had that talk multiple times and it never resulted in completely ceased communication. So, Jay concludes thatâs not it.Â
What if you met someone new? Surely you would have told Jay about them. And, why would you confess your feelings and then find someone new days later? Were you sick? Depressed? Maybe, you were out of town and forgot to mention.Â
Jay continues to spiral over throughout the week. He decides that, if by the weekend, you still havenât responded, heâs going to take matters into his own hands.Â
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You got through a second week without talking to Jay. It gets easier every day you think. Your heart still hurts to ignore his messages and calls- your feelings for him havenât just disappeared. But, you have to cut him off completely or the heartache you feel will continue to crush you.Â
The weekend has come again, but this time you find yourself alone in your apartment. You hadnât realized how much you needed a weekend to yourself. Spending time with yourself is a skill youâre learning to cultivate, especially now that you donât have a weekend partner to rendezvous with anymore.
That doesnât mean you donât think about him. You think about Jay all the time, and it hurts that you wonât get the intimacy of his bedroom, cooking meals, and the domesticity with him anymore. But, it is still easier to cope without that than it was.Â
Youâve settled in the comfiest spot in your living room, book in hand and lights dimmed. A warm cup of tea close by, youâre looking forward to a peaceful night.Â
Not even two chapters in your book, you hear a knock at the door. You freeze for a moment, certainly startled as you werenât expecting anyone tonight.Â
You donât move, praying that whoever is at your door will just go away. Itâs 10pm for god sake.Â
A knock echoes through your home again, but this time itâs followed by a voice you know all too well.Â
âY/N! Please open the door.â Jayâs voice resonates through your apartment walls and through your heart. You try to keep your cool but your racing heart betrays you. It takes your entire willpower to stop your hands from shaking. You cannot let him see how much his mere presence affects you.
With a deep breath, you open the door and plaster on your most nonchalant expression.
âOh hey! Whatâs up?â
Jay huffs and has to stop himself from rolling his eyes. âOh good, youâre alive.â
His sarcasm is not lost on you as he pushes his way into your apartment, as if itâs his own. You can count on one hand how many times heâs invaded your space.Â
âWhatâs that supposed to-â
âWhy havenât you answered my texts, or called me back?â Jay cuts you off.Â
Adjusting to the shock of his arrival and looking at the man clearly now, you can see how upset he is. Youâve become an expert on his body language- furrowed eyebrows, tense shoulders, confused and pained look in his eyes- you could see it all.Â
âI donât know, I guess Iâve been busy and I donât know, I justâŚâ You ramblings werenât helping your case. In fact, you were sure they were only making things worse. You werenât used to Jay being so straightforward. Usually, you felt like you were always the confrontational one in your dynamic.Â
âYou were busy? Really?â Jay knew you too well to know your bullshit answer when he hears it.Â
âYeah, well you know, life gets busy.â
Jay scoffs at your attitude. âThatâs ridiculous. You canât even send me a quick text to let me know whatâs going on?â
You shake your head, âIt mustâve slipped my mind.â
âThis is such bullshit. You canât just ghost me and then tell me itâs because youâre busy.â
âActually I can.â You werenât about to let Jay tell you what you can and canât do. Especially when he continued to break your heart over the past few months. Though the past two weeks were hard, you believe the distance gave you a backbone of some sort.Â
âGrow up, I thought you were more mature than this. My god.â Jay snaps.Â
He didnât mean to, but god he was so frustrated at the moment. His mind is clouded, failing to allow him to think clearly. Jay had never snapped at you that way before, ever.
This newfound behavior from the man dulled your senses for a moment.Â
Then, you found yourself growing angry. Angry at him, his hypocrisy, and the entire situation.
âI need to grow up? Seriously? Youâre the one who needs to grow up. Youâre the one who canât commit. Youâre the one who keeps leading me on.â
Jayâs bewildered expression makes you think your feelings are completely news to him.Â
âHow am I leading you on? Iâve told you over and over again that I donât want a relationship- I just want to fuck you!â
Jayâs crudeness was an absolute shock to you. Though youâve never had such a heated confrontation with him before, you never imagined the thoughtful, deliberate man could say such a thing.Â
His words anger you even more. How could he not see how his actions were saying something completely different? He may have said he didnât want a relationship, but all the moments he shared with you had you holding your breath just a little longer, waiting for him. You canât believe you were so naive.Â
âThatâs not fair. You did more than just fuck me. You cooked me dinners; we had movie nights; you text me and call me all the time. Thatâs the basics to being in a relationship, Jay. It twists the knife to do all those things with you and not be able to be with you.â Your monologue began at a raised voice and, to your dismay, ended with a whimper as you trailed off.Â
You tried to be strong, determined not to cry in front of Jay. But, the reality of the situation was setting in for you.Â
âItâs not my fault you took it the wrong way. I was trying to be nice. I would do it for any friend.â Jay snaps.
You try to look at Jay, but your tears cloud your vision. You donât even know who the man standing in front of you is. How could he be so cruel? Why was he being so defensive? Though your vision was blurry, it became clear to you that Jayâs comments were intended to hurt you. Whether it was spur of the moment or out of rage, it did not matter. It hurts you either way.
âGet out.â Your stern, level voice sounded through your apartment.
âWhat?âÂ
When Jay decided to confront you tonight, he never once thought it would end with him being kicked out of your apartment.
âJay. Please leave.â You repeat, much softer than before. One could mistake it for a plea if they listen closely enough.Â
Jayâs shoulders drop. Gone is the anger in his body language, replaced by a defeated posture. Heâs hesitant to leave; he knows you both should hash it out some more. Nothing was solved.Â
Nevertheless, he heads toward your front door. Itâs a wonder he manages to make it through the thick tension in the air.Â
Jay looks back at you once more before opening your front door and stepping out of it. You donât meet his gaze- you canât. Youâll break and ask him to stay, to let him please you one last time. It would be the last time.
You were even holding out hope for Jay to turn around and ask you to let him stay, to not go.Â
But he didnât.Â
There was no resounding knock on your front door. No Jay asking you to open the door. No confessions and pleads to stay. Just silence.
disclaimer: This is purely fiction- nothing in these works reflect real of these people. Additionally, I don't own any of the inspired songs.
#i love having my heart ripped out of my chest and set on fire#god this hurt so good#jay is such a asshole#but so well written#i hope theres a part 2 with some closure#amazing work!!#â jongseong
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stepdad jay...
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OLDER!ENHYPEN OT6 HEADCANONS.
part 2
â ď¸ | nsfw, mdni. daddy/sir/master kink, age gaps (every party in this is an ADULT, no minors involved) dub-con for hee's part, stepcest for jay's, infidelity for jake and jay's, teacher-student dynamics for jungwon's, sunoo is mean as hell, big cocks enha and i'm not sorry lol, yes this is a repost
HEESEUNG | tried to stay away from you for so long, tried with all his might to resist you. you are just too young, and youâre his friendsâ daughter. he knows itâs wrong but how can he help it when youâre so pretty? so gorgeous? and such a dirty little thing too, always trying to wordlessly seduce him. he notices how your lustful eyes follow him everywhere whenever heâs over at your parents house for dinner and you happen to be there too. he notices how you bite your lips raw and the way your thighs clench so hard under the table when he speaks to you. he notices how you always wear the most revealing outfits you can get away with for him, little shorts and tiny tops enhancing your curves so beautifully, an open invitation for him to completely ravage you. it makes him want to fucking ruin you.
thatâs how he ends up sneaking in your room so late one night, after everyone already went to sleep, your parents so naive for offering him to stay the night too. your innocent sleeping form making his cock twitch in his pants as he thinks of all the dirty things he could do to you. the things he could make you do to him for being such a sly little slut.
he carefully slides in your bed, face hovering over your clothed cunt before lowering himself and pressing his tongue on it, spit smearing on those same shorts that make his mind go places it shouldn't. he works on your pussy just like that, fingers slipping past your shorts and inside your dripping hole, wet tongue sucking on your clit over the fabric but never actually touching you with it. he knows if he got a taste of your sweet little hole he would be a goner forever. he can tell you're awake by then, just pretending to sleep as your hips start to ride his digits and needy mewls leave your lips oh so sweetly. ones he will have to silence with his thick cock inside your mouth if you donât stop it, âcanât have your parents find youâre such a whore for me⌠what would they think, angel?â
JAY | who has had a soft spot for you ever since he started dating your mom. to the oblivious eye merely a healthy stepdad-daughter relationship, but anyone paying attention more closely would find just how weirdly close you two are. always spending way too much time together, always making up some excuse to leave gatherings together, jay always so protective of you and straight up mean to any boyfriend you bring home for him to meet. he always says itâs because he just wants the best for you, sweet thing. only he knows that what he means by best, is himself.
âalways bringing home these boys, never a worthy man,â he whispers against your mouth, spit dripping everywhere, as his warm hands encourage you to keep bouncing up and down his veiny length, salty tears still drying on your face from the pain of the stretch his unusually big cock always provides you. no matter how many times he makes you take it all, the first minutes are never easy. always slow, always filled with him whispering reassurance when you say you just can't take it. âwhat is daddy gonna have to do to make you understand you just deserve better?â he mouths at your neck, low groans in response to your pink manicured nails grabbing his slowly graying hair, sending heat straight to your core. he licks a stripe up your sensitive skin, relishing in the way your cunt that's already so stretched out and tight against him flutters at his words, trying to suck him in even more. âdoes daddy have to put a baby inside you, sweet thing mhh?â
you shake your head vehemently, the thought of your mom finding out what youâre doing with her husband making guilt knot in the pit of your stomach. he lands a few harsh slaps on your clit that have you yelping in his hold, clearly dissatisfied with your reaction. âyou will take anything i give you,â he says in your ear, his firm tone leaving no room to talk back. he picks up his pace, quite literally hammering into your cunt as he holds you down by your waist with his strong hands. âdaddy always knows best, pretty girl.â
JAKE | hates to see a pretty girl like you in tears over scummy little boys. especially when the boy in question is his own idiot son. he couldn't understand how he even got such a gem as yourself to waste time with him, a liar and a cheater. jake knows his son better than anyone else. so finding out he was cheating on you and creating a fake instagram account to anonymously send you all the proof and the screenshots he collected was easy. itâs also easy to welcome you inside his home when you go there to confront your boyfriend, and sweetly comfort you when you find out heâs not there. jakeâs rough and warm hands are so soft on your thighs, thick thumb swiping over the flesh so carefully, as if you might break any second. his tone is so smooth and buttery as he whispers soothing words in the crown of your hair. how you deserve so much better and how youâre a strong girl, you will be okay precious. his presence is so strong and he radiates such a manly energy, so different from that of your boyfriend, it makes you feel all fuzzy inside. jake notices how you clench your thighs right away, how your breathing becomes labored under his soft touches and affection. âiâm sorry for being such a mess right now, sir,â you sheepishly say, and his cock jumps at the term. youâre just so so sweet, he thinks as his full lips ghost over the shell of your ear, âjust give me permission, and iâll make you feel so much better, precious.â
youâre under him in no time, back pressed to your boyfriendâs sheets as jake ghosts his fingers along the slit of your fluttering pussy, already weeping for him. âso messy⌠so wet babydoll⌠who is this for?â he asks, purposefully collecting your slick to make a mess with it on his sonâs sheets. âyou sir!â you reply eagerly, hips rocking into his hold in search of more friction. he chuckles as he lowers his warm mouth to your cunt, eyes locked with your own. âiâll take care of you so good precious⌠so good you wonât even know why youâre crying anymore.â
SUNGHOON | watches enamored as you glide across the ice rink, all dolled up with the dress he chose and gifted your for this competition, the gemstones in the shape of an S on your lower back reflecting the light so prettily with every movement you make. heâs been coaching you for months now and he thanks every entity he can think of for bringing such a lovely thing like yourself in his life. he knows most people wouldn't approve of your age gap, but they don't understand what being under your spell feels like. thatâs exactly what you did: put a spell on him. your accidental brushes against his crotch while he corrected your form, your little groans as your joints stretched past your limit whenever you trained, your big doe eyes always looking at him for some sort of reassurance for any sort of praise. so fucking eager to please. so desperate for love.
youâre so obedient for him as he makes you ride him silly on the seats next to the ice rink after the competition is done and everyoneâs already gone home. knowing very well anyone could walk in at any moment and catch you. but you're such a needy little slut for him he can feel how hard you clench around him whenever he mentions that possibility, whenever you think about anyone seeing you so full of his thick cock that took you twenty minutes to get used to. his length twitches so deep inside you when he notices how close you are but still won't let yourself cum, so whiny and desperate in his ear because youâre waiting for him to tell you to let go. so eager for his voice even when heâs making you go dumb on his cock.
âmy little girl⌠you can let go baby, i got you,â he whispers as his mouth latches on one of your nipples, the metallic taste of the piercing adorning it filling his mouth and overwhelming his senses. such a dirty little slut hidden under your good girl façade.
you shake your head and pick up the pace, but can do nothing to stop your walls from fluttering around him as he literally forces your orgasm out of you, holding you down on his cock and pressing his tip so deeply inside you it makes you see starts, telling you that "it's okay little girl, you're making daddy feel so good"
SUNOO | acts like hiring you, on request of his daughter (your best friend), was such a big big favor. and initially you thought so too; the money is good, the office is close to your apartment, your coworkers are nice too! sunoo even made sure you climbed up the ladder quicker than any other employee of his ever had. sure you are competent and you do your job well, but you were also so naive for thinking he wouldn't expect anything back.
after all he takes such good care of you in the company, why wouldn't he want you to return the favor?
itâs not rare for you to find yourself on your knees under his work desk, the door of his office open.
âopen up for me⌠gonna let master use your mouth huh?,â he says, tapping his leaking cock on your lips and smearing all of his salty precum all over your pretty features.
âyes, master.â you do as youâre told right away, glossy eyes never leaving his as you stretch your mouth wide open for him, anticipating the struggle that always comes with welcoming his length anywhere in your body. and youâre right, he rams his cock in your mouth without giving you any time to adjust, his cock so thick and big youâre already choking all around him and itâs not even halfway in. his tip already brushing the back of your mouth. he tilts his head sideways and stares at you like youâre dumb, waiting for you to take more. you truly do try, big tears falling from your eyes as you try your best to not disappoint him. and he laughs at you. âuseless little puppy,â he sighs, grabbing a handful of your hair and pushing you against his dick. âthis should be easy for you by now. i know itâs big but iâve been training you.â he cooes, his bottom lip jutting out in an expression of fake pity. âbeen making you gag on this cock for so long and you still canât take it?â
your lashes are all wet with tears now, and you canât tell if it's the hurt of having disappointed your master or the physical pain his member is causing you, but you can feel how it twitches in your throat when he notices your distress. he takes it out of your mouth, needy whines leaving you at the loss of weight in your tongue, and holds it over your face. âsince you canât suck cock properly,â he punctuates the last word vehemently. âlap it up. like the stupid little dog you are.â
JUNGWON | is everyoneâs crush in your university. heâs that one teacher everyone is constantly daydreaming about. so gentle, helpful, smart, funny and charming. he just has it all. it doesn't help that heâs so open about how much he loves his two year old son, always showing anyone that comes to his lectures pictures upon pictures of his baby on his phone. every single person swooning over heâs taking such good care of his kid as a single dad.
he takes such good care of you too, in the backseats of his car before you both go to your lectures: him to teach and you to learn. youâre straddling his face, his mouth latched on your sensitive little bundle of nerves as he switches between sucking on it and lapping at it like a man starved. youâre a moaning mess over him, your hips moving on their own volition as he ghosts his fingers on your thighs and traces them up to your lower back, his big hands bringing your entire weight down on his mouth.
âfuck jungwon⌠feels so good,â you moan as you throw your head back, eyes closed shut at the overwhelming sensation. you yelp out in pain when he nibbles on your clit a little too harshly for it to be a mistake. âsir⌠sorry sir.â
he goes back to lapping at your cunt, the tip of his tongue only occasionally prodding at your entrance, ignoring your mewls and whines for more. he makes you cum like that, depriving you over and over of what you really want until just a slight swipe of his tongue on your neglected clit is all it takes for you to gush all of your juices in his mouth. âso good for me⌠such a good girlâŚâ he whispers as you come down from your high. and before you can even register it he pushes you lower, down to his cock and slaps it over your sensitive cunt a few times, making you jump slightly because of the overstimulation. he grabs your neck and clashes your lips to his, tongue lapping at your own as he lets you taste your own release, âgonna fuck you so good baby,â he says as he locks eyes with you, a glint youâve never seen before hidden under the lustful shadow covering his irises and blown out pupils. âwanna give you a baby of your own⌠want to fill your tight little pussy upâŚâ
a/n: tumblr jebal those are just petnames get off my cock
#jays đľâđŤđľâđŤ#stepdad jay is everything i need and more#i will do anything for a single night with him#jay calling me sweet thing...#putting a baby in me...#i need sedation#â jongseong
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not talking in the tags but this fic was absolutely incredible. everything was so perfect, the characters, the pacing, the storyline, the dialogue. from the beginning to the end this story had me HOOKED.
the smut was incredible, perfectly written as guilt and need with a hint of angst in there too. but also so incredibly hot when it came to jay.
this was a hefty read, but i would (and will) absolutely read this again.
you absolutely killed this fic
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pairing. stepbrother!jungwon x reader (ft. mystery enha member x reader) word count. 54k
warning. contains themes of heavy slow-burn plot, dubious consent (dubcon), non-consensual voyeurism, emotional manipulation, degradation, humiliation, gaslighting, manipulation, step-sibling incest, intense power dynamics, possessiveness, obsession, rough sex, cheating, spying, mentions of bodily fluids, alcohol use, mild coercion, dark themes, and explicit sexual content (18+). mdni.
living with jungwon has always been easyâsure, he's lazy, sure, he doesnât have a job, but you loved your stepbrother anyway. but when someone else steps into your life, threatening the peace he's fought to keep, you start to wonder just how far jungwon will go to protect the life he's built around you... and what he's willing to do to keep it that way.
co-written with @jaeyunsmochi she helped me with this, and i cannot thank her enough for all her input.
families were supposed to come together out of love, not convenience. thatâs what you used to believe, anyway. after your dad passed and your mom remarried, everything changed. it wasnât just grief anymore; suddenly, you had this new family dropped into your life, and you were expected to accept it. just like that. jungwon came into your life when you were both barely teenagers, awkward and trying to figure out how to exist in a world that felt like it was constantly shifting under your feet. back then, he was more like a shadow than anything else. always there, but never in your way. heâd hover near your bedroom door, quiet, not saying much, but his presence was always... there. comforting, in a strange way. he was clingy, yeah, but you didnât mind it. heâd tag along after school, sitting beside you on the couch, waiting for you to pick the show. youâd flick his forehead when he said something dumb, and heâd laugh, wide-eyed and innocent, like everything was easy. and back then? it was. you didnât think much of it. jungwon was just your stepbrother. harmless. you even joked about it with your friends sometimes, saying he was too attached. but it was no big dealâjust the way things were. that was then. now, itâs different. youâre not sure when it happened, but somewhere along the way, jungwon stopped being the awkward kid who hung around doorways. he grew up. and so did you. you didnât notice it right away, probably because you were too wrapped up in your own lifeâdating, college, figuring yourself out. but recently... youâve felt the changes. the air feels heavier between you now. jungwonâs not that scrawny boy anymore. heâs taller, broader, his shoulders filling out his clothes in a way thatâs impossible to ignore. thereâs a quiet confidence in him now that wasnât there before. when he passes by in the hallway, thereâs this tension. something new. your mom even points out how the neighborhood girls are always trying to get his attention, but he never seems interested. and thatâs the thingâhe doesnât seem interested in anyone. not in the way youâd expect. at first, you thought maybe he was just focused on school. maybe even... gay. for a while, you were convinced of it. but then, you remembered the stuff youâd accidentally seenâhis porn history popping up on the family computer a few times said otherwise. okay, so... he definitely wasn't gay. threesomes, bdsm, no other dicks included, some other kinky stuff, hell even stepsister porn. you teased him about it when you caught him, his face turning red as he slammed the laptop shut. back then, you laughed it off. just teenage boy stuff, right? but now, it's like youâre seeing him through a different lens. itâs not just jungwon, though. jake and sunghoon, his best friends, grew up too. they came into the picture a few years after jungwon, and back then, they were dorky, awkward, always cracking dumb jokes and geeking out over games. they were like brothers to you, in a way. except jungwon, but that was always a different story. now, theyâre not those awkward kids anymore. jakeâs taller, leaner, and those messy curls that once made him look boyish now make girls turn their heads. sunghoon traded in his glasses for contacts, hit the gym, and suddenly heâs got this bad-boy charm that leaves girls staring.
watching them change from the boys you knew into confident menâmen who now tower over youâitâs weird. itâs like you missed the transition, and now youâre left catching up. youâd always been the big sister figure, offering advice, guiding them through awkward phases. but now, they look at you differently too. you feel it. jakeâs compliments linger a little longer, sunghoonâs teasing has this edge to it, flirty, suggestive. they donât cross any lines, but the dynamic has clearly shifted. youâre not sure how to handle it. but, as always, you had to grow up faster than they did. when you graduated, your mom and stepdad left the flat to you and jungwon. just the two of you again, trying to figure out adulthood. youâd drifted apart during those college yearsâhe found his group, you focused on boys, academics, trying to figure out who you were. but now, somehow, youâve drifted back together. maybe itâs because youâre both older now, more mature. living with jungwon feels... natural. comforting, even. but at the same time, itâs not easy anymore. not when you see him like thisâstrong, confident. not when you feel this attraction building up inside you. and itâs not just his appearance. itâs the way heâs always around. not in a clingy way like before, but always choosing to be near you. it makes you wonder if itâs just out of convenience or if maybe... maybe he feels it too. that pull. that connection. you love him, of course you do. heâs your stepbrother. but these feelings... theyâre twisted, wrong. and you keep telling yourself theyâll pass. that itâs just some messed-up phase. but the more time you spend alone with him in the apartment, the more the tension builds, pulling you toward something you know you shouldnât want.
but you canât shake it. your love life isnât helping either. after years of failed relationshipsâguys who got bored or cheatedâyouâve started to wonder if maybe the problem is you. are you not enough? youâve vented to jake and sunghoon about it, and they always tell you the same thingâyouâre beautiful, smart, any guy would be lucky to have you. but their words donât ease the loneliness. and then, thereâs jungwon. you canât help but compare every guy to him. none of them measure up to his quiet strength, his presence. itâs driving you insane, and you know using him as a standard is wrong. but you canât stop. heâs still attached to you. not like before, but heâs always there. and sometimes, you wonder if itâs out of convenience, because he just doesn't want to be bothered paying rent, or if he feels it tooâthat pull. whatever it is, itâs messing with your head. youâve tried to distract yourself, but with your job draining you and no real outlet, itâs impossible. the flat feels more like his than yoursâsleek, minimal, no warmth. itâs functional. just like him. but hey, it worked. your mornings are always the same. you stumble out of bed, hair a mess, half-asleep, and drag yourself to the kitchen for caffeine. and there he is, already on the couch, headset on, yelling into his mic like itâs the end of the world. his voice is the first thing you hear, every single dayânot the birds outside, not the traffic. just him. âjake, for fuckâs sake, move!â jungwonâs voice cut through the quiet of the flat, his fingers mashing at the controller. you stood at the kitchen counter, pouring cereal into a bowl, your eyes drifting to where he sat on the couch. he leaned forward, whole body tense, muscles shifting under his skin every time his hands tightened on the controller. veins popped out on his forearms, and his focus was locked in, jaw clenched. his hair was a damp mess from his shower, still tousled and drying. jungwonâs bare back, smooth and broad, contrasted against the dark, worn leather of the couch he spent most of his time on. as usual, he was shirtless, lounging in a pair of low-hanging grey boxers. it was a constant reminder of how much had changed. he wasnât the lanky stepbrother who used to hover by your door anymoreâjungwon was all grown up, and you noticed every inch of it. âcan you keep it down?â you called, half-exasperated, setting your bowl on the counter as you reached for the milk. he didnât look at you, muttering under his breath, clearly more invested in his game than acknowledging your presence. you could hear jakeâs voice muffled through the headset, followed by sunghoonâs laughter. âjesus,â you muttered, rolling your eyes. grabbing your bowl, you wandered over to the couch and sat next to him, closer than you needed to be, leaning in just enough to be in his space. his shoulder brushed against yours, but he didnât even flinch, eyes still glued to the screen. you nudged him with your elbow, a grin tugging at your lips. âwanna share the screen? looks like youâre losing.â he swatted at you lazily, not breaking his focus. âcan you not?â he grumbled, frustration obvious in his voice as gunfire crackled through his headset.
jakeâs voice came through, amused. âdude, is that y/n again?â âyep,â sunghoon added with a laugh. âtell her to fuck off before we lose.â âiâm not doing anything,â you smirked, crunching obnoxiously on a spoonful of cereal. âjust enjoying my breakfast.â jungwon shot you a quick glare, his brow furrowed, and you couldnât help but find it a little endearing. he acted annoyed, but this was your thing. pestering him was fun, and deep down, you knew he liked it. even if heâd never admit it. you shifted beside him, your shorts riding up slightly, which caught his attention for a split second. his eyes flicked down to your legs, a quick glance, but you didnât notice. he clenched the controller tighter, jaw set as he forced himself to focus on the game. âyouâre so annoying,â he muttered, but there wasnât any real bite to it, making you grin wider. leaning into him more, you let your head rest on his shoulder. âcanât help it. youâre just so easy to mess with.â âstop it,â sunghoonâs voice came through the headset again, exasperated. âseriously, let him play. heâs already fucking up.â âiâm not fucking up!â jungwon shot back, defensive, his voice faltering slightly. you snickered under your breath, watching him try to focus despite how close you were. without thinking, you grabbed the controller from his hands, holding it out of his reach. âwanna see if i can do better?â ây/n, come on,â he growled, lunging toward you to snatch it back, but you dodged, grinning like a fool. âadmit it, iâm way more fun than this stupid game,â you teased, waving the controller in the air. jungwon leaned in again, his hand brushing against your thigh as he reached for the controller, his fingers circling your wrist in a firm grip. the touch made you freeze for a second. his hand lingered just a bit too long before he pulled away, his face suddenly serious. âjust give it back,â he muttered, his voice low, controlled. your heartbeat kicked up, but you handed it back. âjeez, relax.â as he took the controller, his fingers brushed yours, sending a shiver up your arm. for a moment, the air felt heavy, charged with something you didnât want to think too much about. âyouâre stronger than you look,â you said quietly, more to break the silence than anything. he didnât look at you, just smirked slightly, still focused on the game. âyouâre just weaker than you think.â âfuck off,â you laughed, though your mind lingered on how easily he couldâve overpowered you if he wanted to. snap out of it, y/n. sunghoonâs voice cut through the headset again. âabout time she let go of the controller. man, youâre way too soft on her.â
jake chimed in, laughing. âif i had a sister, she wouldnât even get near my stuff.â you rolled your eyes, chuckling as you grabbed your phone off the coffee table. a text from your boss flashed on the screen. jay from seattle will be at the office by noon. show him around. âugh, i forgot i have to babysit some new guy at work today,â you groaned, slumping back down next to jungwon. âalready tired of annoying me?â jungwon asked, glancing at you as his character respawned. âi was supposed to have the day off,â you sighed dramatically. ânow i have to play tour guide for some guy named jay. transferred from seattle. sounds like a blast.â the volume of the game was loud enough that you could hear jake and sunghoon laughing. âmaybe jayâs hot,â jake teased. âseattle guys have that brooding, rugged thing going on, right?â you snorted. âyeah, right. knowing my luck, heâs probably some middle-aged dude with bad breath who smells like stale coffee and has a comb-over.â âor,â jake continued, âhe could be exactly what you need. youâve been working non-stop. loosen up a bit.â jungwon glanced at you, his expression unreadable. âyou wouldnât know what to do with him even if he was hot.â your eyebrow shot up at the slight challenge in his voice. âoh, really?â he didnât look away this time, a faint smirk tugging at his lips. âyouâre too uptight. all you do is work.â âiâm not uptight,â you shot back, crossing your arms. âi just have my shit together. someone has to feed your lazy ass.â jake and sunghoonâs laughter rang through the headset, but jungwon didnât smile. instead, he shrugged, his tone softer. ânothingâs gonna happen with this jay guy.â
you blinked, caught off guard by his sudden seriousness. âand how would you know?â he didnât answer, focusing back on the screen, his fingers pressing the buttons a little too aggressively. as you stood up to head back to your room, jungwonâs phone lit up on the coffee table, vibrating softly. you leaned forward, trying to catch a glimpse of the name on the screen, but jungwon noticed, flipping it over quickly. âwhatâs that about?â you asked, narrowing your eyes at him. ânone of your business,â he muttered, keeping his gaze fixed on the TV, his voice tight. your jaw dropped as you turned to jungwon. âwait, youâre seeing someone?â jungwon sighed, clearly irritated. âtheyâre exaggerating. itâs nothing." ânothing?â sunghoonâs voice broke through the headset, laughter lacing his tone. âpretty sure sheâs been over a few times, man.â you stared at jungwon, genuinely taken aback. heâs been seeing someone and didnât tell me? you thought you were close. close enough that if there was someone new in his lifeâsomeone he was bringing over to the flatâyouâd be the first to know. but no, he kept it to himself. a pang of something settled in your chest, annoyance creeping up at how easily he brushed it off like it was no big deal. what else has he been hiding? sure, you and him had your boundaries, but he told you everything. or so you thought. âyouâve been seeing someone and didnât tell me?â you asked, your voice betraying the slight sting of being left in the dark. jungwonâs face flushed just the tiniest bit, and you noticed how his eyes narrowed, defensive. âitâs not like that. itâs⌠not serious.â
not serious? you couldnât stop the thoughts from spiraling a little. so sheâs been here more than once? this wasnât just a random hookup. there was someone coming over, sleeping in the same flat, and you had no idea. âwow,â you muttered, trying to process the information. âand here i thought you barely left the house.â jungwon rubbed the back of his neck, visibly uncomfortable. âshe comes over sometimes. itâs no big deal.â no big deal, huh? something in you couldnât help but feel annoyed. it was stupid, but maybe part of you expected to be more in the loop with him, to know when things changed like this. and damn, if he was seeing someone, that girl was hella lucky. your eyes flicked to jungwonâs frame, you could just picture itâjungwon fucking someone into the mattress. he could probably break a girl apart, the way his body moved, the way he stayed composed even when his temper flared. fuck, why were you even thinking about this?
the thought made your stomach turn with a weird mixture of disgust and guilt, your mind snapping back to reality. what the hell, y/n? thatâs your stepbrother youâre thinking about, for fuckâs sake. you leaned back, arms crossing over your chest as you tried to shake the lingering thoughts. âwell, iâm happy for you. about time you found someone. maybe now youâll stop being so moody all the time.â âpiss off, y/n,â he muttered, but the way he said it lacked the usual bite. you grinned, moving a little closer, determined to push his buttons just a bit more. âiâd love to meet her, though. see what kind of girl puts up with you.â jungwonâs entire expression shifted, his jaw tightening as he shot you a sharp glance. ânot happening.â your smile faded slightly. âwhy not?â âbecause itâs nothing,â he snapped, a little more forceful this time. his eyes flicked away from yours, the tension in his voice unmistakable. you raised your hands in surrender, laughing lightly to break the tension. âalright, alright. iâll drop it. for now.â
as you stood up to head back to your room, that strange unease in your chest lingered, creeping up your spine like something wasnât quite right. just as you reached the hallway, your phone buzzed again. a message from your bossâjay is on his way. you groaned softly, already feeling the weight of the day pressing down on you. "looks like jayâs gonna be here sooner than i thought," you muttered mostly to yourself, dreading the responsibility that came with showing him around. you werenât in the mood for it, not today. jungwon paused the game, glancing at you over his shoulder, hearing jake and sunghoon still shouting through the headset. he ignored them, focusing on you instead, eyes narrowing just a bit, âyou donât have to do it, you know.â you turned to him, confused by his sudden comment. "what? of course, i do. itâs my job." he shrugged, leaning back against the couch, "youâre always working. you donât have to take on everything. they can find someone else to do it." you raised an eyebrow, catching the subtle edge in his voice, something almost too quick, too dismissive. since when did he care about my workload?
"since when do you care about how much I work?" you asked, half-joking but genuinely curious. "i donât," he muttered, his words coming out a little too fast, his attention flicking back to the game, fingers tightening on the controller. "just... you never take a break. let someone else handle the boring shit for once.â what the hell was that about? you let out a soft laugh, shaking your head. "yeah, well, someoneâs gotta pay for this flat and feed you." âi can take care of myself,â he grumbled, but there was something off about the way he said it. like he was trying to convince himself more than you, the usual sharpness in his voice missing. "really?" you teased, leaning against the doorframe, arms crossed. "you? mr. video game addict who barely leaves the house unless itâs with jake and sunghoon?" he scoffed, but it sounded forced. "i go out," he snapped, though the defensiveness in his tone only made you laugh more. it was like he couldnât handle the thought of you not taking him seriously.
"oh, right. to jog. very social of you," you shot back, smirking, trying to lighten the weird tension that had settled between you. âi said, i can take care of myself,â he repeated, his voice quieter this time, almost like he didnât fully believe it. his eyes flickered up to meet yours for a split second before he quickly looked away, pretending to focus back on the game. you smirked, pushing off the doorframe, but the unease in your chest only grew. âsure, you can.â what was his problem? there was something about the way he brushed off the conversation, acting so casual but clearly irritated by something. the mention of jay? was that what was getting under his skin? but why would that even bother him? you shook your head, trying to dismiss the thought. jungwon was just being⌠well, jungwon. moody, defensive, sometimes hard to read. the weight of it followed you, pressing against your thoughts as you tried to focus on the day ahead, already dreading dealing with jay and the endless office bullshit. just what you neededâmore distractions when your mind was already a fucking mess.
you pulled into the office parking lot, fingers tapping idly on the steering wheel as some random song played in the background. you werenât even listeningâyour mind was too busy spiraling with thoughts about the day ahead. how the hell are you going to explain to jay just how toxic this place is? the office politics alone could suck the life out of anyone, and your boss? well, he was a nightmare. you didnât exactly envy jay, but then again, you didnât even know what kind of person he was yet. as you scanned the parking lot, your eyes landed on a man standing awkwardly near the entrance, briefcase in hand, looking painfully out of place. he looked like someone who got lost on his way to a corporate halloween party. really, universe? did it have to be the middle-aged guy with the briefcase? you sighed and pulled up closer, rolling down your window. âjay?â you called out. he looked at you, utterly confused, his face blank like he had no idea what you were talking about. this canât be him, right? âuh, mr. park sent me to show you around?â you added, trying to make sense of the situation. âiâm y/nââ before you could finish, a head popped into view at your window, making you jump in your seat, heart racing as your eyes snapped to the figure now crouched by your car. âlooking for me?â and there he wasâthe real jay. fuck. tall, devastatingly handsome, wearing a suit so perfect you were pretty sure it cost more than your rent. his hair was slicked back, his jawline sharp enough to cut glass, and that smileâgod, that smileâlit up his face like he knew exactly how good he looked. it took everything in you not to openly gawk at him. this guy wasnât just hotâhe was jaw-droppingly, heart-racing, take-your-breath-away kind of attractive. and just to top it off, he smelled incredible, like cedarwood, spice, and something else you couldnât place but was definitely dangerous.
your heart raced, and it felt like you were back in high school, locking eyes with your crush for the first time. and the way he looked at you, all confidence and charm, didnât fucking help. you swallow thickly as your brain short-circuited for a second. doing your best to mask the shockâand the blatant gawkingâas you extended your hand to shake his. but then you realized, oh, right, he was crouched down, his face level with your car window, meaning there was no way he could actually reach you from there. he raised an eyebrow, amusement dancing in his eyes. âwe doing handshakes from inside the car now?â
you felt your cheeks heat up slightly, embarrassed by how thrown off you were. âuh, no, iââ you pulled your hand back awkwardly, trying to regain your composure. âi just wasnât expecting⌠well, you.â he grinned, clearly enjoying how flustered you were. âand what exactly were you expecting?â you gestured toward the poor guy standing a few feet behind him, still clutching his briefcase. ânot⌠not you.â jay glanced over his shoulder at the guy, chuckling. âoh, him?â he laughed, the sound deep and smooth, sending a shiver down your spine. ânah, thatâs the temp. heâs just helping out while i get settled.â right. of course. because why would the universe make this easy for you? he straightened up, giving you a full view of just how tall he really was. damn, the guy was built like a dream. he adjusted his suit jacket, flashing you another one of those infuriatingly perfect smiles. âso, youâre my guide for the day?â you nodded, finally getting a grip on yourself. âyeah, iâll be showing you around, introducing you to the team, that sort of thing.â âsounds fun,â he replied, his eyes lingering on you a little longer than necessary. he stepped back from the car, giving you room to get out. you took a breath, trying to shake off the sudden nerves. heâs just a colleague, y/n. stop acting like youâre on a damn date. you got out of the car, smoothing your clothes down, doing your best to stay professional. but when you looked up again, jay was still watching you, his gaze following your movements a little too closely.
there was something about him that made it impossible to stay indifferent. confident, sure, but also playful in a way that got under your skin. like he knew exactly what he was doing. âlead the way, then,â he said with a nod toward the building. you nodded back, fighting off the flutter in your chest as you turned on your heel and headed toward the entrance. get it together, y/n. there were more important things to focus onâlike how to warn jay about the office and your bossâs ridiculous expectations. the last thing you needed was a crush. especially on someone like him. as you made your way through the doors, you mentally prepared yourself for the day ahead. you needed to focus on work, not on how good jay looked in that suit or how his presence seemed to linger around you like gravity. jay fell into step beside you, casual and relaxed. âso, y/n,â he started, his voice smooth, âhow bad is it working here?â you gave him a half-smile. âoh, you have no idea.â leading him through the maze of cubicles and conference rooms, it was impossible not to notice the way people stared at jay as you passed. it wasnât just youâeveryone noticed him. how could they not? jay didnât just walk into a room, he commanded it. and the way he made small talk with your coworkers, that smile lighting up his faceâit was like he had everyone hooked.
you gave him the usual tour: break room, copy room, the stash of good coffee you stole from your bossâs private stock, and the dreaded hr department, notorious for all the wrong reasons. jay nodded along, paying attention, but you could feel his eyes on you more often than not. by the time you made it to the lounge area, you were ready for a break, not because the tour was tiring, but because being around jay was exhausting in a whole other way. âthis is where we hide when the boss is breathing down our necks,â you said, gesturing to the snack station. âsnacks, coffee, all the essentials. we can take a break before i show you the rest.â jay chuckled, leaning against the counter with that annoyingly perfect posture. âi've gotta say, this place isn't so bad. you made it sound like a war zone.â you shrugged, reaching for a granola bar. âitâs not the placeâitâs the people. management, especially. if you last a week, iâll be impressed.â he raised an eyebrow, smirking. âthat bad, huh?â
you tore open the wrapper, taking a bite. âyou donât know the half of it. the boss is a control freak, expects us to be mind readers.â jay laughed, grabbing a snack for himself, eyes still on you. âgood thing iâm good at reading people then.â you felt your cheeks heat up slightly at the way his gaze lingered. yep, definitely flirting. âyeah? howâs that working out for you so far?â you shot back, trying to keep things light but he grinned, leaning a little closer. âiâd say iâm getting the hang of it.â what the hell, jay? maybe it was just you overthinking, but the way he keeps on leaning a closer? god, he needed to stop acting like he fucking wants you or you'd completely lose it. âso,â jay continued, unwrapping his snack, âwhat keeps someone like you in a place like this?â you laughed softly, leaning against the counter. âhonestly? it pays the bills, and i havenât found anything better yet. you learn how to survive.â
jay watched you for a moment, his gaze almost too intense. âmaybe you just havenât found the right opportunity to leave yet.â there was something in the way he said it, something that made you feel like he was offering more than just advice. âmaybe,â you replied, trying to keep your voice steady, though your heart was hammering. jay smiled, taking a slow sip of his drink. âyouâre not as uptight as you made yourself sound earlier. youâre pretty laid-back.â you laughed, though your stomach flipped at the unexpected compliment. laid-back? not the words jungwon would use to describe you this morning. âiâll take that as a compliment,â you said, trying to sound casual. jay hummed, his eyes dipping down for a moment before flicking back up to meet yours. there was something almost deliberate in the way he took another slow sip of his drink, like he was savoring it. "it was meant as one. not everyone can pull that off."
jakeâs voice from earlier played on a loop in your head: maybe heâs exactly what you need. goddammit, jake wasnât wrong. the way jay moved, the way his words slipped out so easily, it was like he knew exactly how to push your buttons without even trying. but shit, this was work. you couldnât lose your head over some pretty boy with a killer smile, no matter how damn good he smelled or how dangerously close he was standing. you took a deep breath, trying to calm the pulse racing in your throat. still, your mouth betrayed you. âyouâre dangerous, you know that?â the words came out more playful than you intended, a grin tugging at the corners of your lips despite yourself. jayâs smile widened at that, his eyes lighting up with mischief, the air around him practically buzzing. "iâve been told." oh, fuck. and just like that, you were completely hooked.
as you closed the office door behind you, glancing at your wristwatch, you realized just how late it had gotten. your heels were killing you, and all you could think about was kicking them off the second you got home. jay walked beside you, his long strides effortlessly keeping pace as you both headed to the parking lot, still chatting about schedules and the mountain of upcoming projects. "so," you said, rubbing your temples, "looks like weâll be working pretty closely on that new marketing push. iâll show you the ropes, make sure you donât drown in all the corporate bullshit." "sounds like iâm in good hands, then." his eyes crinkled at the corners when he smiled, making it impossible not to return the gesture. as you continued walking, the conversation shifted, and jay started opening up moreâtalking about where he came from. and fuck, was that a surprise. the guy was loaded. not just richâserious money. the kind that makes you wonder why someone like him would even bother working in a place like this. "so," you said, still trying to process it, "you could probably be running a company by now, right? why take a job here?" jay shrugged, all humble and casual, like it wasnât a big deal. "i wanted to start from the bottom, you know? understand the employees, the management... see how everything works before i think about building something of my own." you blinked at him, genuinely impressed. who the hell chooses to start from the bottom when theyâre sitting on a pile of money? "thatâs��� honestly, thatâs really smart. most people wouldnât do that." "thanks," he said, smiling warmly. "i like to think iâm in the right place for now." there it was againâthat easy charm. it wasnât just the flirting; it was how natural everything felt with him. the way the conversation flowed effortlessly, like youâd known him forever. and it wasnât just niceâit was fucking refreshing to talk to someone who didnât make everything feel like a power play. you glanced at your phone, then cursed under your breath. shit, jungwon. youâd been so wrapped up in the day that you forgot about dinner. and knowing him, he probably hadnât eaten anything decent since breakfast.
"ugh," you groaned, rubbing your forehead. "i totally forgot, iâve got a brother to feed." jay raised an eyebrow, a teasing smirk playing on his lips. "younger brother?" you rolled your eyes, half-laughing. "i wish. that would be way easier. no, heâs grownâjust incredibly lazy." jay chuckled, shaking his head. "sounds like a handful." "you have no idea," you replied, smirking. "but someoneâs gotta take care of him." you both shared a laugh, the walk settling into an easy rhythm again as you made it to your cars. jay leaned against his door, his eyes lingering on you in a way that was... not subtle. there was something magnetic about him, and as much as you tried to keep your cool, it was becoming harder by the second. "well," jay said, pulling his phone from his pocket, "this was easily one of the best tours iâve ever been on. we should do it again sometime." he flashed that devastating smile, his eyes flicking back up to yours as he scrolled casually on his screen. "can i get your number? you know, in case i get lost tomorrow and need rescuing." god, heâs good. you couldnât help but laugh, pulling out your phone to exchange numbers with him. "sure. just donât make a habit of getting lost, though."
he chuckled, tucking his phone away, his gaze still locked on you. "iâll try my best. thanks for showing me around, y/n." "anytime," you said, feeling lighter as you waved goodbye and headed toward your car. halfway home, you caught yourself still smiling like a fucking idiot. by the time you finally walked through the door of your apartment, juggling bags of jungwon's favorite takeout, you were greeted by the usual sight of jungwon sprawled out on the couch, xbox controller in hand. he glanced up, his eyes immediately landing on the food you were carrying, eyebrows raised. "whatâs the occasion?" he asked, eyeing the bags suspiciously. "you only ever get me this when something really good happens." you grinned, setting the food on the table, still riding the high from earlier. "oh, you know... just had a great day at work." jungwonâs eyes narrowed a little, his suspicion deepening. "a great day, huh?" "yup," you said, kicking off your heels and digging into the food. "jay." jungwon leaned back on the couch, trying to look indifferent. "and?"
you let out a dreamy sigh, not even noticing how his eyes sharpened slightly. "heâs amazing. like, seriously. smart, loaded, and so humble. itâs crazy. oh, and did i mention heâs hot? like, really fucking hot." jungwon kept his face neutral, but there was a flicker of somethingâsomething dark that you didnât catch. "sounds... great." you continued gushing, going on about how well you and jay clicked, the subtle flirting, the easy chemistry. "and the best part? weâre gonna be working on a bunch of projects together. i think weâre gonna make a really good team." jungwon stayed quiet, his gaze fixed on the food in front of him. "yeah, well," he finally muttered, his tone clipped, "just donât get distracted." you paused, mid-bite, raising an eyebrow. "distracted?" jungwon shrugged, his eyes flicking up for the briefest moment before going back to his food. "just saying. youâve got a lot on your plate already." "i can handle it," you replied, brushing off his comment, "besides, itâs not like anythingâs going to happen." but even you didnât believe that. somethingâs definitely going to happen. you could feel it. jungwon didnât respond, just grunted and focused back on the tv, clearly not wanting to continue the conversation. you shrugged it off, too caught up in the day to care.
as you sat on the couch next to him, scrolling through your phone, a familiar ping made you glance down at your screen. a message from jay. instinctively, a smile tugged at your lips, and without thinking, you bit your lip as you read it. jay: hope youâre not too tired from babysitting me all day. thanks again for the tour. promise i wonât get lost tomorrow... but i might just text you anyway ;) goddamn, he was smooth. your smile widened, and before you knew it, you were already typing back. y/n: iâll be holding you to that ;) donât leave me hanging. you hit send, feeling a flutter in your chest as you tossed your phone onto the couch. you were smiling like a fucking teenager, and you knew it. but you didnât care. jungwon, sitting beside you, glanced over. his eyes darted to your phone, then back to your face. "whoâs that?" he asked. you shrugged, trying to play it off. "just jay. heâs funny."
jungwon hummed, eyes glued to the tv again, though you could see the way his jaw clenched. "funny, huh?" "yeah, we were just texting about today. nothing big." jungwon stayed silent after that, but you could feel the shift in the air. something was off. maybe it was the way he bristled every time you mentioned jay, or maybe it was how quiet heâd gotten all of a sudden. you brushed it off, your mind too busy replaying your day with jay. but if you had looked up, if you had paid attention, you wouldâve seen the way jungwon was staring at you nowâintense, almost predatory. his eyes werenât on the tv anymore. they were fixed on you. and the way you smiled down at your phone, completely unaware, only seemed to fuel something deeper inside him. he didn't even blink. his expression was unreadable, but his gaze... it was burning. if only you had noticed. but you didnât. you were too busy with jay, too caught up in the thrill of it all to feel the weight of jungwonâs stare.
a week had passed since then, and jungwon sat on the couch, leg bouncing restlessly, his eyes on the tv but not actually seeing anything. sunghoon and jakeâs laughter filled the room, their voices like nails on a chalkboard as they kept making casual comments about you and jay. every joke, every stupid jab about how much jay liked you felt like a fucking knife twisting deeper in his chest. fuck, this is hell. he couldnât take it. "bet jayâs got it bad for her," sunghoonâs voice cut through the air, making jungwonâs stomach twist, his blood boiling under his skin. his heart pounded in his ears, drowning out everything else. all he could focus on was the heat rising in his chest, the way his skin felt too tight. he swallowed hard, trying to keep the rage from spilling out. âiâm going to the bathroom,â he muttered, standing up so fast the remote slipped from his hand and hit the floor with a thud. jake and sunghoon glanced up, surprised, but jungwon didnât wait for a response. he stormed down the hallway, steps uneven, barely holding it together. when he reached the bathroom, he slammed the door hard enough to echo through the apartment. let them think he needed to cool off or whatever. but the bathroom wasnât where he was headed. you were still at work. probably with jay. fucking jay. probably talking, laughing, maybe even flirting with him. jungwonâs chest tightened at the thought, his jealousy clawing at him. he couldnât handle it. he needed a release, needed something to calm the fire burning inside him. so he went to your room.
his hand shook as he reached for the knob, pausing for a second to listen. jake and sunghoon were still laughing, still talking like nothing was wrong. he slipped into your room, closing the door quietly behind him. the second he stepped inside, your scent hit himâsweet, familiar, fucking intoxicating. it wrapped around him, choking him in the best and worst way possible. his chest ached, and for a second, he thought he might actually break. he leaned back against the door, sliding down to the floor, his head falling into his hands. he felt like he was losing his fucking mind. you. it was always you. his heart pounded painfully, each beat a reminder of how fucked up he felt. he could barely breathe, barely think, and yet, the need to be in hereâin your spaceâoverpowered everything else. the room was exactly how you left itâclothes scattered across the bed, your hoodie tossed over the chair. but jungwonâs eyes went straight to the shelf facing your bed. that fucking teddy bear.
it wasnât small eitherâone of those carnival bears heâd won for you back then. it wasnât huge, not one of those obnoxiously oversized ones, but big enough. bigger than a normal stuffed animal, definitely enough for you to⌠do what you did with it. it sat there, innocent to anyone else, untouched, like it hadnât been moved in months. for anyone else, it was a forgotten toy, frozen in time. but to him? it was everything. it was the key to his obsession. he reached for it, his fingers brushing over the soft fur, his stomach twisting with a mix of guilt and desire. he sat on the edge of your bed, gripping the bear like it was the only thing keeping him sane. how the fuck did it get this bad? he hadnât meant for things to spiral out of control, but now? now he was too far gone. for a moment, he just sat there, staring at the bear, knowing what he had hidden inside it. knowing the guilt that came with it. it wasnât just a toy anymore. it was a reminderâof what he was, of everything he had become.
his fingers tightened around 'teddy' as memories hit him, one after the other, like a train barreling through his mind. pulling him deeper into the past. he could never forget that summer, the one after his first year of college. he had come back home, exhausted but fucking relieved to finally get a break from the chaos of school. the months away had been a blur, and honestly? he didnât think much about you during all that time. you were just his stepsisterâat least, thatâs the bullshit he kept telling himself. he buried the memories of your pretty smile he grew fond of and how it made him feel, shoved them down deep, thinking that the distance would fix it, that it would kill whatever twisted thing was starting to grow inside him. maybe if he just stayed away long enough, itâd disappear. but when he came back that summer, everything shifted. again. he shouldâve walked away, shouldâve ignored it. but curiosity clawed at him, dragged him closer, until he was standing in the doorway, peeking inside. and what he saw? it fucked him up.
his breath hitched, heart slamming in his chest, pulse fucking skyrocketing as his eyes locked onto you. holy shit. you were on your bed, but it wasnât just the sight of you lying there that stopped him cold. no, it was what you were doing. his stomach twisted as he realized what was happeningâyou were straddling the teddy bear. that bear. the one heâd won for you years ago. but this? this wasnât innocent, not in the way you used to cuddle it when you were younger. this was different. this was fucking worse. you were grinding your pussy against it, hips rolling in slow, deliberate circles. his breath hitched, his heart slamming in his chest as he watched you, lost in your own pleasure, completely unaware that he was watching. you were wearing nothing but an oversized shirt, the way your pussy rubbed against the soft fabric of the bear, slick and wet. the obscene sounds it made as you humped itâit was like watching some twisted fantasy come to life. except this was real. you were real. and you were right in front of him. you werenât just humping it. you were fucking it, using it like it was the only thing that could get you off.
jesus fucking christ. his mind screamed at him to look away, to shut the door, to fucking forget this. but his body didnât listen. eyes glued to you as you rocked your hips faster, he couldnât stop watching the way your pussy moved, the way you were so lost in it. his throat went dry, hands shaking as he gripped the doorframe. he knew this was wrong. so fucking wrong. but he couldnât stop. couldnât fucking stop watching the way your hips moved, the way you were so lost in it. that darknessâthe one he thought he had buriedâwas creeping back in, stronger than ever, twisting his insides, making his cock swell painfully in his pants. fuck. this wasnât curiosity anymore. this was darker. more dangerous. you werenât just the awkward teenager he once knew. you were a woman nowâa fucking gorgeous womanâand you were doing things that set every buried desire inside him on fire. your movements grew more desperate, hips grinding harder, your hands gripping the bearâs fur tight as you moaned louder, your jaw going slack. jungwonâs chest heaved, his breath shallow as he watched, his own arousal throbbing, making it impossible to think straight.
shit. this wasnât supposed to happen. he wasnât supposed to feel like this. not for you. but no matter how hard he fought it, he couldnât tear his eyes away. jungwonâs mind was a whirlwind of guilt, shame, and overwhelming fucking lust. his cock strained in his pants, rock hard, body betraying him in the worst fucking way possible. he could barely breathe, barely fucking think. all he could do was watch as you came undone on that bear. he had tried to convince himself that going to college would kill this twisted attraction, that the distance would erase it. but standing there, watching you, he knew he was wrong. so fucking wrong. the obsession hadnât disappeared. it had grown. it had festered and that night? it reignited something in him that he couldnât control. from that night on, he was no longer the same. he couldnât stop thinking about you. couldnât get the image of you humping that bear out of his head. the sound of your moans, the sight of your pussy grinding against that fabricâit haunted him. consumed him. and he knew, watching from a distance wasnât going to cut it anymore. thatâs when the plan started. it didnât take much. just a little manipulation, some subtle planning. you never noticed. you never did. the bearâthe one you fucked so carelesslyâbecame the perfect vessel for his sick curiosity.
he made a small incision in the back, right beneath the soft fur, where it wouldnât be visible. he slid a tiny camera inside, adjusting the angle, hiding the lens so perfectly behind it's eyes, you would never know. you never did. and from that day forward, he watched you like he was fucking studying you. memorizing every detail. he knew what turned you on, what porn you watched when you thought you were alone, which boyfriends made you scream, which ones you hated and which ones left you wanting more. he saw and heard it all. every. single. moment. this wasnât some passive hobby anymore. no, everything jungwon did was calculated. planned to perfection. he made sure he was always home, always there, watching. he never left anything to chance. he didnât even look for a jobâcouldnât risk being away for too long. he needed to be there, needed to make sure the camera was charged, that he didnât miss a single second of you. he told himself it wasnât obsession, that it was just curiosity. but deep down, he fucking knew better. this was something twisted. and jungwon had built his entire world around you without you ever realizing. he controlled everything. and no oneânot even youâwould ever figure it out. while you lived your life, thinking everything was normal, jungwonâs mind was always ten steps ahead, planning, thinking. how could he keep you in his grasp without you knowing?
and for years, it worked. you never noticed how he made sure to align his life with yours. how his schedule revolved around you. he made it look natural, casual, like he was just the laid-back stepbrother who didnât care about shit. but the truth? it was so much darker than that. he knew everything. he snapped out of his memories, his eyes locking onto the bear again. that moment, that fucking night. it haunted him. the memory burned into his mind, twisting his insides like a sickness he couldnât cure. he stood up, legs shaky, the room suddenly feeling too small, too suffocating. it had all started so small, hadnât it? he had convinced himself it was innocent. just a way to keep an eye on you, make sure you were safe. thatâs what he told himself when he planted the camera in the bear. back when he thought his feelings were still manageable. but that lie had crumbled a long time ago. now, he needed to be close to you in ways that twisted his stomach and filled him with guilt so deep it kept him up at night. jungwon carefully placed the camera back inside the bear, adjusting it until it was in the perfect position. his hands were steady, but inside, he was falling apart. he zipped it up, placing the bear back on the shelf, just like always. no matter how sick it made him, no matter how much he hated himself for this, he couldnât stop. he needed this. he needed you in ways that fucking terrified him. your roomâit was his sanctuary when you werenât home. the one place he could feel close to you without the crushing weight of being caught. in here, he could pretend, just for a second, that he had a part of you that no one else could touch.
it was so fucked up, and he knew it. but it was like an addiction, a need he couldnât fucking shake. the guilt gnawed at him, but the need was stronger.
his heart twisted as his mind drifted back to you and jay. what were you two doing right now? the thought of jay touching you, making you laugh, getting close to you in ways jungwon never couldâit made him feel like he was going to fucking explode.
youâre just his stepsister. he repeated the thought like a mantra, but the words were hollow, meaningless. thatâs what you were supposed to be. that was the role he was supposed to play. jungwonâs mind spiraled, pacing back and forth in your room, his footsteps soft but frantic. it was only a matter of time before jay would be here, touching you, fucking you. and what the fuck was he supposed to do then? sit by and watch through the hidden camera? watch you fall and get fucked by someone else again? probably. fuck. he needed to leave. if he stayed in here any longer, he didnât know what heâd do. the temptation was already clawing at him, the urge to take something of yours, to steal a piece of you like he had done before. your panties, your scentâheâd stolen them, hid them away like trophies, jerked off to them countless times. but even that wasnât enough anymore. not now. not with jay in the picture. jay was a fucking threat. jungwon couldnât stand it, the way you smiled when you talked about him, how your face lit up when you mentioned his name. fuck that. jay was pulling you into a world where jungwon didnât belong, where he couldnât follow, and that scared the shit out of him. he was losing control, and it was driving him insane.
the watching, the sneaking, the careful fucking planningâit wasnât enough anymore. it wasnât keeping you close. you were slipping through his fingers, the thought of jay taking what was his, getting close to you in ways jungwon could neverâfuck, it made him sick. he shot one last look at the bear, the silent witness to his obsession, then stormed out of your room, closing the door behind him with a soft click. his breath was ragged, chest heaving as he leaned against the wall in the hallway. his heart pounded in his chest, a constant reminder of just how fucked up this had become. he couldnât keep living like this. the watching, the waiting, pretending it would all go awayâthat was bullshit, and he knew it. this obsession wasnât something he could just bury anymore. it was eating him alive. one day, watching wouldnât be enough. the waiting, the creeping around behind your backâit wouldnât satisfy the darkness inside him. he wanted more. he needed more. and that day was coming sooner than heâd like to admit. jungwon pushed himself off the wall, his legs shaky, mind racing, but even as he stormed down the hall, his thoughts were a jumbled mess, each one more fucked than the last. you were his. you didnât know it yet, but you were.
jungwon reentered the living room, his footsteps heavier than usual, the weight of the shit storm in his head pulling him down with every step. he tried to shake it off, tried to act normal, but it was like a fucking itch he couldnât scratch. jake and sunghoon were still slouched on the couch, laughing at some inside joke, barely giving a shit about the movie playing in the background. jungwon forced a grin, slipping into the scene like nothing was wrong. like he wasnât on the verge of snapping. âwhat do you think, jungwon?â sunghoonâs voice had that edge to it, like he knew exactly what buttons to push. he always did. âyou think jayâs the type to take her home, make breakfast the next morning? maybe throw in some flowers too?â
of course, they were still fucking talking about you. they just couldn't help themselves. jungwonâs chest tightened, but he let out a forced laugh, âyeah, he seems like that kind of guy from what she tells me. real gentleman.â the words felt like they were choking him. he could barely get them out. jake snickered, shaking his head like it was all a fucking joke. âwell, at least she picked a decent guy this time.â jungwonâs fingers twitched, every part of him screaming to shut this conversation down, but sunghoon leaned back, smirking like the asshole he was. âplease. nice guys like jay? theyâre hiding something. i bet heâs got some skeletons in the closet.â jungwon clenched his jaw, forcing himself to breathe. âlet her have her fun,â he muttered, his voice tight. âsheâll tell us all about it when she gets back.â his throat burned. âanyway,â he cleared his throat, trying to sound disinterested, like the image of you and jay wasnât tearing him apart, âfuck this, this movieâs boring as hell.â he grabbed the remote, flipping through channels without even paying attention, just needing somethingâanythingâto drown out the thoughts in his head.
jake and sunghoon didnât argue, their attention shifting to the tv. but jungwon wasnât watching. he couldnât. his mind was far from the room, far from the flashing screen in front of him. his fingers tightened around the remote, knuckles going white, but he didnât even notice. he hated jay. hated him with every fiber of his being. not because jay was bad. no, that wouldâve been easier to deal with. jay wasnât bad. jay was good. too fucking good. the kind of guy who could give you everything, whoâd make you feel safe, whoâd make you happy in ways jungwon knew he never could. jungwon hadnât met him yet, didnât need to. the way you looked when you talked about him, the way your eyes lit upâthat told him everything. jay wasnât just some guy. he was the kind of threat that jungwon couldnât fight with fists or anger. jay was the real fucking deal. and if it came down to itâif it came down to losing you completely? jungwon didnât give a shit about jay. fuck jay. heâd do whatever it fucking took to keep you his.
jungwon had changed, and jake and sunghoon noticed. how could they not? he was more agitated, easily irritated, barely said a word. he wasnât the jungwon they were used toâthe one who laughed at their dumb jokes, who was always cheerful in his own quiet way. now, he was distant, like he had a constant storm brewing under the surface. and they tried asking him what the fuck was going on, throwing out questions like breadcrumbs, but they knew better than to push too hard. jungwon didnât like to share shit, especially when it came to whatever was messing with his head. they tried though, casually bringing up the girl jungwon had been seeing. when they asked if it was about her, his response was clipped, a warning wrapped in frustration. âitâs not about her. drop it,â he snapped, and they did. they loved him enough to not push. instead, they did what they could. they showed up, more often than usual, hanging around the flat as much as possible. not enough to make it obvious that they were worried, but enough to remind him they were there. jungwon didnât tell them to fuck off, which said a lot. normally, when jungwon was fine, he didnât need their companyâheâd barely ask for it. but now? he tolerated it, and that meant he needed them, even if heâd never admit it. the flat buzzed with the usual noiseâjake and sunghoon arguing over takeout, the tv humming in the backgroundâbut jungwon felt none of it. all he could think about was you, and how the fuck you werenât home yet. âdie hard never gets old,â jake waved his pizza slice like it was some declaration worth fighting over. âperfect movie for a night like this." sunghoon rolled his eyes, slumping further into the couch. âbro, weâve watched that shit like a hundred times. can we please pick something without bruce fucking willis?â jungwonâs grip tightened on the remote, fingers pressing way too hard into the buttons as he scrolled through movie options, but he wasnât seeing any of it. his thoughts were on you, and where the hell you were.
âso, is y/n out with her new bestie jay again?â jake asked, grinning as he exaggerated the air quotes around bestie. âsheâs been spending a lot of time with him lately, huh?â yeah, jungwon thought bitterly. too much fucking time. âprobably,â jungwon muttered, his eyes glued to the tv, even though nothing on the screen registered. his jaw was tight, teeth clenched to the point it felt like one would crack. âtheyâve been working on a lot of projects together.â âprojects, huh?â sunghoon snorted, sarcasm dripping from every word. âsounds like heâs working on more than just projects.â jake laughed, nudging jungwon with his elbow like this was all one big fucking joke. âyeah, come on, man. you canât tell me you havenât noticed how close theyâre getting.â jungwon wanted to punch the grin right off his face, but he forced out a dry, humorless laugh instead. âitâs just work,â he said, voice tight, strained, like he was choking on the words. âsheâs focused on her career.â
he wanted them to shut the fuck up. every word out of their mouths felt like nails on a chalkboard, scraping against the frayed edges of his control. jake and sunghoon never knew when to quit, always teasing, always pushing. and the more they talked about you and jay, the darker his thoughts got. jake smirked, leaning back like he wasnât stirring shit. âfocused on work? nah, sheâs focused on him,â he teased, tossing his pizza crust aside. âiâve seen the way she smiles when she talks about him. itâs different, bro. you canât tell me you havenât noticed.â of course, iâve fucking noticed. jungwon thought, his insides twisting, but he couldnât say that. couldnât admit how much it was killing him. âsheâs just happy, okay?â jungwon snapped, the words coming out sharper than he intended. his frustration bled through, cracking the mask heâd been holding up. as soon as the words were out, he regretted them. sunghoon raised an eyebrow at jungwonâs outburst. âdamn, man, relax. weâre just messing with you.â jake and sunghoon exchanged a glanceâone of those silent, knowing looks that meant they were both thinking the same thing. âdude, what the fuck is wrong with you?â jake finally asked, leaning forward on the couch, his eyes narrowing at jungwon. there was no bite in his tone, just concern. sunghoon, who had been lounging with his feet kicked up, straightened in his seat, nodding in agreement. âyeah, man. is something going on?â jungwon sighed, his grip on the remote loosening as he tried to shake off the weight sitting heavy on his chest. he didnât want to talk about itâdidnât even know how toâbut he could feel their eyes on him, waiting, and for once, he couldnât just brush it off.
ânothingâs wrong,â he muttered, voice flat, forcing a smile that felt like it could crack his face. âjust been tired, you know?â âbullshit,â jake said, calling him out instantly, his eyes narrowing further. âcome on, donât pull that tired card again. weâre not idiots. whatâs really going on?â jungwon let out a long, shaky breath, trying to play it off, but it was like a dam about to break. his fingers ran through his hair, tugging slightly as he avoided their stares. âitâs nothing,â he repeated, quieter this time, trying to convince himself more than anyone else. and then sunghoon said it. the thing. âis this about jay?â it was like someone had punched him in the gut, knocking the air from his lungs. his jaw clenched so hard he thought it might snap. jake and sunghoon didnât say anything for a moment, but that silence said everything.
jake and sunghoon exchanged another look, this time laced with humorâlight, teasing. they understood what this was about, but in their usual fashion, they werenât about to get too serious. âso... youâre jealous,â jake said, grinning like it was the most obvious thing in the world. âyeah,â sunghoon added, âyouâre scared jayâs gonna steal her away from you.â jungwonâs lips twitched into a half-hearted smile despite himself. steal her away from me. they made it sound so simple, like it wasnât this all-consuming thing eating at him day and night. but hearing it put like that, it almost made him feel better. âoh, please,â jake smirked, leaning back into the couch, âas if jay stands a chance when sunghoon and i are here.â sunghoon barked out a laugh, nodding. âexactly. y/nâs just wasting time with him until she realizes weâre the real deal.â âyouâre both idiots,â he muttered, shaking his head, but there was a small, genuine smile pulling at his lips now. it wasnât much, but it was enough to ground him. âso?â jake started, his grin widening, âyou want us to sweep y/n off her feet? we could totally make it happen. bet sheâd love to be spoiled by us.â
jungwonâs expression darkened for a second, but he played it off with a smirk. hiding how much it really fucked him up inside. âyeah? go ahead. iâd rather you two fuck her than let jay get his hands on her.â the room fell into dead silence. jake and sunghoon both froze, staring at jungwon like heâd just said the most unhinged shit theyâd ever heard. their eyes went wide, exchanging glances like they werenât sure if he was fucking serious or just fucking around. âwhat the fuck, dude?â jake raised an eyebrow, laughing awkwardly but still trying to figure out if jungwon was for real. âyou canât be serious.â
sunghoon looked just as thrown off, his brows furrowing like he wasnât sure what to make of the whole situation. âyeah, man, thatâs... kind of fucked up.â jungwon just chuckled lowly, leaning back against the couch, acting like it didnât bother him. âwhat? you guys havenât thought about it? with all the shit you say about her?â his eyes flicked between them, sharp, like he was daring them to admit something. jake and sunghoon shifted, clearly uncomfortable, glancing at each other for a second too long. and that was all jungwon needed to know. âcome on,â jungwon pressed, narrowing his eyes, âyouâre telling me youâve never thought about fucking her?â sunghoon cleared his throat, his eyes darting away, and jake rubbed the back of his neck, suddenly looking anywhere but at jungwon. âwell, i mean... weâve joked about it,â jake finally muttered, trying to play it off like it wasnât a big deal, âbut we never... you know, took it seriously. sheâs your sister, dude.â jungwon laughed, but there was no humor in it. âright.â âyeah, we never actually meant weâd... you know,â sunghoon added, looking like he wanted to crawl out of his own skin.
jungwonâs smirk stayed plastered on his face, but his eyes were dark, and they both knew theyâd crossed into territory that felt too fucking dangerous. but jungwon couldnât stop pushing it. he needed them to feel as fucking uncomfortable as he did. maybe then they'd keep their mouths shut, and for the love of god try not to mention jay. ârelax,â he muttered, leaning back again, trying to appear calm. âi know youâre just talk. probably couldnât handle her anyway.â jake forced a laugh, trying to lighten the mood, but it came out shaky. âyeah, well, maybe sheâd eat us alive. guess weâll never know.â
âyeah,â sunghoon chimed in, trying to keep things from spiraling further, âweâll leave y/n to the real men, huh?â he gave his friends a half-hearted grin, pretending like their banter had actually lifted his mood. but as the conversation moved on, their laughter filling the room, jungwon stayed silent, his mind spiraling back to the same thought that had been plaguing him for weeks. he just wanted you home. and no amount of jokes or cocky smiles could change that. as he stared at the TV, barely registering the movie playing in front of him, he missed the quick look between jake and sunghoonâa brief exchange of glances, almost like a shared secret. it went unnoticed by jungwon, buried beneath his own frustration, his jealousy too loud to hear anything else.
the frustration still buzzed under your skin as you leaned against jayâs car, the harsh fluorescent lights in the parking lot flickering overhead like they were mocking your mood. today had been a fucking disaster, all because your boss had to lose his shit over something as stupid as a font. âcan you believe that prick?â you huffed, running your fingers through your hair, still feeling the burn of irritation. âwho the fuck cares about a font?â jay chuckled, but you caught the edge in his eyes, the same frustration simmering beneath that calm, easygoing mask he always wore. âyeah, the manâs got a real talent for missing the point,â he muttered, arms crossed, leaning back against his car like he wasnât two seconds away from snapping himself.
he always had this way of looking like everything was under control, even when you both wanted to set the office on fire. âbut fuck it, we crushed it. and honestly? he can go fuck himself.â you let out a sharp laugh, tension easing off your shoulders just a little. jay always had that effect, making the shittiest days feel like they werenât so bad when he was around. and even though you could tell he was just as pissed, he never let it show. it was... comforting, somehow. god, heâs good, you thought, watching the way he managed to keep his cool when you were one bad comment away from throwing your laptop across the room. âyouâre better than me,â you said, your voice softening without meaning to. âi wouldâve lost it in there.â he shrugged, giving you a small, crooked smile. âjust trying to keep the peace. doesnât mean iâm not pissed.â his eyes flicked to yours, something darker in his gaze before he pushed off the car, a subtle shift in the air. you glanced at your watch, realizing how late it was. fuck. jungwon was probably at home by now, waiting for you. the thought brought a flicker of guilt to your chest, but before you could get too lost in it, jayâs voice cut through your thoughts. âhey,â he said, voice casual, but with an edge of something more. âwanna grab a drink? we deserve it after today.â
you blinked, a little caught off guard. âyou sure? itâs late, and i didnât peg you as the greasy takeout and beer type.â jay grinned, that playful spark lighting up his eyes. âwho said anything about greasy? i know a spot. nothing too fancy, just... chill.â you raised a brow, skeptical. âknowing you, âchillâ could mean anything. iâm half-expecting a place that charges for air.â he laughed, leaning in slightly, his voice dropping a bit. âtrust me. youâll like it.â you hesitated for a second, but fuck itâyou could use a drink. after the shitshow of a day youâd had, spending more time with jay wasnât exactly a bad idea either. you slid into his car, the leather cool against your skin as you let out a tired sigh. jay kept things light, cracking jokes that had you laughing and forgetting why you were so pissed in the first place. he had that way about him, making everything feel easier, like nothing was a big deal when you were with him. when you pulled up to the restaurant, your jaw almost hit the floor. âchaconne?â you half-laughed, staring at the chandeliers, the valet parking, and people walking in wearing designer shit like it was a casual tuesday. âyou said âpretty chill,â not... this.â jay smirked, clearly enjoying your reaction. âitâs not that bad. come on.â
you smacked his arm lightly as you stepped out of the car, rolling your eyes. âi wouldâve been fine with some dive bar and burgers, you know.â he laughed, guiding you inside. âyeah, but you deserve more than that. trust me.â and, there it was againâsomething about the way he said that, the way he looked at you. it wasnât just friendly anymore. it felt... intentional. the second you stepped inside, the low hum of conversation and soft glow of chandeliers wrapped around you. this place was fancy, no doubt, and you felt a little out of place in your office attire. but jay? he looked like he belonged here, pulling out a chair for you with a smoothness that made your stomach flip. âthis is too much,â you muttered, sitting down. âdo they charge by chandelier?â jay chuckled, sitting across from you, and for a second, something in his eyes softened in a way that made your chest tighten. âseriously, stop. you deserve it. this is my treat.â you tried to shake off the warmth spreading through you, but it was hard to ignore. jay had always been sweet, always thoughtful, but tonight? there was something different in the way he looked at you. something heavier. the banter flowed easily as it always did, jokes and sarcasm bouncing between you two like normal, but every time his knee brushed yours under the table, whether it was on purpose or not, you felt it. every glance, every smile, felt like a little spark that you werenât sure what to do with.
it wasnât just the food or the wineâit was him. the way he leaned in just a little closer when he talked, this wasnât the usual flirtation you were used to with him. this felt... deliberate. and as you sipped your wine, pretending not to notice the way jayâs eyes flicked down to your lips, you couldnât help but wonder where the night was heading. âwhat?â you asked, catching him watching you again as you set your glass down, trying to keep your voice steady. jay leaned back in his chair, that familiar cocky smirk on his lips. ânothing,â he said, voice low, teasing. âjust thinking... this might be the best idea iâve had all week.â you raised an eyebrow, trying to ignore the way your heart skipped a beat. âtaking me to an overpriced restaurant? yeah, real genius.â he chuckled, his eyes darkening just a little. âno... spending more time with you.â âare you flirting with me?â you teased, trying to keep it light, but your voice was softer now, your pulse picking up. jayâs lips twitched, and for a second, his eyes dropped to your lips again before snapping back up. âmaybe i am.â
you swallowed, the tension between you both thick enough to cut. âand here i thought you were a gentleman,â you said, your voice barely above a whisper now. his smirk deepened. âi am,â he murmured, leaning in just a little more. âbut youâre making it hard to stay one.â the heat in your chest spread lower, and you shifted in your seat, trying to stay composed. âwell, then maybe you should stop teasing.â jayâs gaze flickered to your lips again, his voice dropping even lower. âmaybe i donât want to.â the conversation flowed easily all night, a smooth back-and-forth, laughter filling the space between you and jay as the wine worked its magic, loosening the edge that had been hanging over you both. you talked about everythingâyour turn-offs, shitty relationships, future plansâstuff you wouldnât usually share with anyone. but with jay? it was easy. too easy.
âi was such a troublemaker back in the day,â jay confessed, laughing as he played with the rim of his wine glass, his fingers tapping lightly against the smooth surface. âgot myself into some crazy shit before i finally realized i had to get my act together.â you leaned in, grinning at him, already intrigued. âoh yeah? what happened? what made jay park, the legend, finally decide to get his shit together?â he smirked, his eyes glinting with something darker, something playful as he met your gaze head-on. âhad to step up. couldnât be a a kid forever, right?â you cocked your head to the side, teasing. âso, what? youâre a responsible troublemaker now?â jay chuckled, fingers tracing the rim of his glass as his gaze lingered on you. âsomething like that.â you could feel the wine starting to hit, your cheeks flushed, your body a little warmer than before, and you knew heâd noticed too. his eyes kept flicking over your face, taking in the flush on your skin under the dim light of the restaurant, like he was seeing you differently tonight. âso,â you started, leaning forward just a little, a playful glint in your eye. âhow much do you actually make, mr. responsible troublemaker?â
he didnât answer right away, and you saw that smirk of his slowly curl back onto his lips. it was a power move, a playful one that had you shifting in your seat, wondering how long he was gonna drag this out. he finally looked up, tapping his finger against his chin, pretending to be deep in thought. âhmm, let me thinkâŚâ you rolled your eyes, laughing lightly as you leaned back, trying to keep it casual. âcome on, donât edge me like that.â jayâs eyes flashed with something darker for just a split second, but he quickly covered it with a chuckle, raising an eyebrow at you. âedging you? didnât know i was doing anything special.â the heat in your face rose, but you didnât back down. the tension between you was thick, a game you werenât sure you could win, but fuck itâyou were in too deep now. âyeah, well, youâre doing a pretty good job of it,â you say suggestively. jayâs smirk widened, his gaze sharpening as he leaned forward, his elbows resting on the table. âam i now? didnât realize you were so impatient.â you crossed your legs under the table, hoping he didnât notice how tightly your thighs pressed together at his words, at the way your body was reacting to every little thing he was saying.
âiâm not impatient,â you replied, your voice a little breathier than you intended. âjust curious. youâve been holding out on me all night.â his gaze dropped to your lips for just a second, almost too fast to catch, but it was enough to send your stomach flipping. he leaned in closer, his voice dropping lower, his words wrapping around you like a caress. âmaybe iâm just enjoying watching you squirm.â the way he looked at youâlike he wanted to eat you alive, like he was holding back on purposeâit took everything in you not to lose your composure completely. âcareful,â you murmured, your voice soft but laced with a challenge. âyou might regret teasing me.â jay leaned back in his chair, still relaxed, still in control, but the air between you was charged, heavy with something neither of you could ignore. âi doubt iâd regret it,â he said, his smile too knowing, too cocky. âbesides, you look good when youâre flustered.â you swallowed hard, trying to keep your cool, but the way his words slid into the space between you made it impossible to ignore the heat pooling low in your stomach.
he knew exactly what he was doing to you. âyouâre trouble, park,â you muttered, though your words lacked any real bite. truth was, you didnât want him to stop. not even close. jay grinned, his eyes glinting with that same playful, almost dangerous edge as he took another sip of his wine. âyou have no idea.â jay was still being a gentlemanâtechnically, he wasnât crossing any linesâbut the way he spoke to you, the way he looked at you, it was enough to leave your pussy throbbing under the table. by the time the night ended, and jay walked you out, his hand lightly resting on the small of your back, you couldnât shake the feeling that something had shifted between you. and as you glanced up at him, catching the way his eyes lingered on yours, you knew you werenât the only one feeling it.
you both stumbled up the stairs, giggles slipping out of you as jayâs hand stayed firmly on your back, warm and steady. no elevators, just endless steps, and the alcohol running through your veins made everything seem a little funnier than it should have been.
âgod,â you slurred through your laughter, grabbing jayâs arm to steady yourself. âyouâd think after living here for years, iâd be used to this.â jay chuckled despite the mess of the night. âyouâve survived this long. i think youâll make it.â when your apartment finally came into view, you reached for your keys, but the loud shouts and bursts of laughter hit you first. you groaned, already knowing exactly who it was. âshit,â you sighed, leaning into jay with a grin that felt more playful than exasperated. âjake and sunghoon are here. theyâre probably playing that stupid horror game again.â jay raised an eyebrow, a smirk playing on his lips. âyou didnât mention theyâd be here.â you shrugged, pushing the door open a little. âtheyâre harmless. might as well introduce you before they scare you off.â
quietly, you pushed the door open, jay trailing behind. the scene inside was chaoticâsnacks scattered, empty cans thrown all over the place, the three boys huddled around the screen, completely lost in the game. jake and sunghoon were yelling, clearly losing, while jungwon sat in the middle, eyes glued to the screen, fingers gripping the controller so tight his knuckles turned white. his jaw was locked, brows furrowed in concentration. but the second his eyes flicked over to you, his grip tightened even more, and his pulse quickened as he took in the sight of your flushed cheeks, the tipsy smile that played on your lips. you looked fucking gorgeous. âheyyy,â you giggled, stepping fully inside and waving dramatically at the guys. jake turned first, his grin wide and teasing as soon as he saw you. âoh, look whoâs back,â jake said, leaning back against the couch, voice dripping with amusement. âknew youâd be tipsy by now.â sunghoon glanced over, laughing as well. âyou look like you had one hell of a time.â you pushed the door open wider, and thatâs when all their attention shifted to jay standing behind you. jungwon felt his stomach drop, a cold knot forming in his chest. he didnât need you to introduce him. he knew exactly who this guy was. jay. with a smooth smile, jay raised a hand in greeting. âhey, nice to meet you guys.â
jake and sunghoon exchanged quick, surprised glances, their tipsy minds catching up slower than usual. but they jumped up to greet him anyway, stumbling over themselves. âhey, man!â jake practically shouted, extending his hand for a firm handshake. ânice to meet you.â sunghoon followed right after, shaking his head with a grin. âyeah, didnât know y/n had friends outside of work,â he teased, shaking jayâs hand too. but jungwon? he was slower. more deliberate. his eyes stayed glued to you, even as he stood up, forcing himself to extend a hand to jay. his mind raced, trying to make sense of it all. this was the guy. ânice to finally meet you,â jungwon said, his voice tight, the grip of his handshake firmer than it needed to be. âshe wouldnât shut up about you.â there was a sharp edge to his words, but jay didnât seem to catch it. he just laughed, throwing a glance in your direction. âoh yeah? she talks about me?â jungwon forced a smirk, one that didnât quite reach his eyes. âyeah, mostly about how fucking loaded you are.â
your face flushed with embarrassment, and you quickly nudged jungwonâs side, laughing awkwardly. âheâs exaggerating,â you muttered. âi didnât say that much.â jay chuckled, leaning in a little closer. âdonât worry. iâm flattered.â he was too smooth. way too smooth. and the way you lit up every time he spoke? it was obvious. jay really wasnât just some guy. all the anxiety he felt, made sense. he wasn't overthinking it, he wasn't being paranoid. jay was a bigger problem than he thought. jungwon sat back down on the couch, fists clenched in his lap as jake and sunghoon dragged jay over, introducing him to the mess of their night. but jungwon couldnât focus on their chatter, or the chaos of the room. all he could see was you. standing there, flushed, tipsy, looking too fucking good for your own good.
you sat beside jungwon, wrapping your arms around him in a playful hug like you always did. âthis is jungwon,â you said, smiling up at him with that same affection. âmy brother.â brother. right. jungwon forced a smile, but it didnât reach his eyes. if it were just the two of you, heâd be teasing you right now, making fun of how tipsy you were, how clingy you got when you were drunk. but with jay watching, he had to play it cool. had to pretend like everything was fine. âyeah,â jungwon said, his voice dripping with sarcasm. âshe talks about you all the time. couldnât get her to shut up about how great you are.â jay smiled, unfazed, clearly amused by the whole thing. âwell, iâll take that as a compliment.â you groaned, swatting at jungwonâs arm. âwhy do you have to make it weird, won?â but jungwon barely heard you. his eyes were glued to youâthe way your shirt had come undone, your hair a mess from the night out, your skirt riding up just a little too high. you looked like a fucking dream. and jay was seeing it, too. he could tell by the way jayâs eyes lingered on you, by the subtle shift in his smile.
jungwonâs fists tightened in his lap, and for a split second, he thought about saying something, anything to get you away from jay. but he didnât. instead, he sat back, pretending like he didnât care, like he always did. the conversation flowed around him, jake and sunghoon going back and forth with jay, throwing questions at him about work, life, plansâshit jungwon couldnât give a fuck about. every now and then, heâd force himself to chime in, all for the sake of keeping up appearances. âso, jay,â jake asked, leaning in like they were old friends, a grin plastered across his face, âany big plans after this project with y/n?â jay shrugged, his eyes flicking toward you for a second, and the way his gaze softened made jungwon want to punch something. âweâve got a few more campaigns lined up, keeping us busy, but weâre handling it. y/nâs been great to work with.â of course youâve been great. âyeah, sheâs an asset,â he muttered, the words sharp and bitter. you shot jay a warm smile, and the look in your eyes, that soft admiration, twisted the knife deeper. âheâs just being modest,â you said, your voice quiet but full of gratitude. âiâve learned a lot from him.â jungwon couldnât fucking stand it. the way you looked at jay like he hung the stars in the sky, like he was something special.
the conversation dragged on for a few more minutes, jay playing the perfect gentleman, but all jungwon could focus on was the way you seemed to gravitate toward him, like the room wasnât big enough to keep the distance. then, you glanced at the clock, realizing how late it had gotten. âshit,â you muttered, standing up a little too quickly, swaying on your feet, tipsy from the wine. âi should probably go to bed.â jay was on his feet instantly, his hand on your arm, steadying you before you could even stumble. âyou okay?â âyeah, just⌠tipsy,â you laughed, brushing it off like it was nothing. but jungwon saw it. the way jay looked at you, warm. protective. everything jungwon wanted to be for you. jungwon stayed silent as he watched you lean into jay, as if it was the most natural thing in the world. every time you smiled at him, every time you let yourself get a little too close, jungwon felt his patience wearing thin. âiâll walk you to your room,â jay offered, his voice soft, like it was some grand fucking gesture. and you, tipsy and flustered, nodded, grateful.
jungwon didnât say a word. he stood there, stiff, watching as you and jay made your way toward the hall. every part of him screamed to do something, to stop you, to pull you away from jay and tell you to stay. to tell you that it shouldâve been him walking you to your room, not jay. but he didnât. he just forced a small, tight smile, pretending like he wasnât falling apart inside as he watched you leave with someone else. âsheâs in good hands, man,â sunghoon said after a beat, breaking the silence, giving jungwon a look that was far too knowing for his liking. âjay seems solid.â âyeah,â jungwon muttered, his voice barely audible, barely able to form the words. âiâm sure she is.â but deep down, all he could think about was how badly he wished it was him. he wanted to be the one you trusted, the one you leaned on when you were tipsy and unsteady. the one you turned to when you needed someone. the one you chose.
as jay walked you down the hallway, his hand resting lightly on the small of your back, you could feel the warmth of his touch seeping through your skin, making your body hum under his fingers. everything around you feeling lighter, easier, thanks to the alcohol still buzzing in your system. âfirst time getting walked to my damn room,â you mumbled, a grin pulling at your lips. âso... proper.â jay chuckled, his voice low and smooth, sending a shiver down your spine. âsomeoneâs gotta make sure you get there in one piece,â he teased, his hand lingering on your back, staying there a little longer than necessary. you rolled your eyes, stumbling slightly as you caught yourself with his help, feeling the heat rise in your cheeks. âoh, please. iâve lived here forever. pretty sure i could find my way blindfolded.â jay smirked, steadying you with that familiar, calm touch, leaning in a little closer, his breath warm against your ear. âyou sure about that? i'm pretty sure you almost face-planted into that wall.â you laughed, swatting at his chest, âokay, maybe iâm a little more drunk than i thought.â the laughter faded as you both reached your door, the air between you thickening, tension slowly building. jayâs hand slipped away from your back, but his eyes stayed glued to yours. he took a step back, just enough to let the moment breathe, but you could still feel him, that pull between you two impossible to ignore. âyou good?â he asked softly, his voice losing some of the teasing, dropping into something more intimate, more real. you nodded, biting your lip as warmth spread through your chest, not just from the wine, but from the way he was looking at you. âyeah... thanks for tonight. i had a good time.â
jay smiled, his gaze flicking down to your lips for the briefest second before he met your eyes again. âme too,â he murmured, his voice low, like he was sharing a secret with you. âiâm glad we did this.â you swallowed, the weight of the moment settling in your chest, and thenâyour tipsy brain decided to cut through the tension. âokay, mister proper,â you teased, though your voice was a little more breathless than you intended, âthis is where you leave me.â jay ran a hand through his hair, stepping back a little, but his eyes never left yours. âright. wouldnât want to ruin my perfect gentleman streak.â you laughed, but the heat between you hadnât gone anywhere. âgoodnight, jay.â âgoodnight, y/n,â he said softly, and with one last look, he turned and started walking down the hallway, leaving you standing there, heart still racing in your chest. you watched him go, and just as he reached the corner, something inside you stirredânerves, excitement, you werenât sureâbut before you could stop yourself, you called out, âwait, jay?â he stopped, turning back to you, that easy smile tugging at his lips again. âyeah?â you hesitated, the wine still making you a little bolder than usual. âyouâre not just leaving like that, are you?â jay raised an eyebrow, his smile turning more playful, more curious. âwhat, you miss me already?â you rolled your eyes, but the warmth in your chest only grew. âmaybe,â you teased, leaning against the doorframe, trying to keep it light, âjust wasnât expecting you to... leave so fast.â
jay started making his way back toward you, his hands slipping into his pockets, his eyes locked on yours as he stopped just a few steps away. âwell, you did say âgoodnight,ââ he pointed out, his smirk still there, confident and infuriating. you bit your lip, feeling a sudden wave of self-consciousness, but you pushed through it, âyeah, but i didnât mean, like, leave-leave.â your voice trailed off slightly as you glanced down, heat rising in your cheeks. âi just... i really had fun tonight. thanks for... everything.â jay took another step closer, his voice dropping even lower, that same calm, comforting tone. âit was my pleasure. i had a great time too, y/n. honestly.â you looked up at him, and there it was againâthat feeling. the butterflies in your stomach, the way he was standing so close that you could feel the warmth radiating off him. âso...â you started, your voice a little shaky, âi guess, uh... iâll see you tomorrow?â jay inhaled deeply, his smile still there but a little more restrained. âyeah,â he said softly, âiâll see you tomorrow.â for a second, you were sure he might lean in, that the night was about to take a different turn. but then jay stepped back, just enough to let the moment hang in the air, unresolved. âweâll leave it at that... for now.â then, without another word, he turned, walking down the hallway with a quiet confidence that left you breathless. he didnât look back, leaving you standing there, heart pounding, mind spinning. leave it at that, for now. the words replayed in your mind, a promise, a pause in the inevitable. it left you wonderingânot ifâbut when something more might happen.
the sound of the front door closing echoed through the quiet apartment, sealing the night behind you. faint murmurs of jay saying his goodbyes to the boys lingered, but they felt distant, drowned out by the racing pulse in your chest. once you made it to your room, the door clicking shut behind you, you exhaled a long breath, one you hadnât realized youâd been holding onto for so long. everything from the evening hung in the airâevery glance, every word exchanged between you and jay, replaying in your mind like a highlight reel. âoh my god,â you muttered under your breath, feeling the heat rise to your face as a smile broke across your lips. and then, without warning, a giggle slipped out. you tried covering your mouth with your hands, but it was no useâthe excitement bubbling up inside you couldnât be contained.
before you knew it, another laugh escaped, louder this time, and suddenly you were bouncing on your bed, your body moving purely from the rush of joy flooding your veins. jay liked you. or at the very least, there was something there, something undeniable. the realization hit you all at once, and it sent another wave of excitement straight through you. you collapsed onto your bed, sinking into the pillows with a grin you couldnât wipe away if you tried. âwhat the hell just happened?â you whispered, staring up at the ceiling, still in disbelief at how the night had played out. hugging a pillow to your chest, you giggled again, feeling the thrill of possibility wrapping around you like a blanket. everything about tonight felt different. special. like it was the start of something you werenât ready to name, but you could feel it growing. rolling onto your side, you clutched the pillow tighter, another quiet laugh slipping out. âi canât believe that just happened,â you mumbled, still grinning like you were in some sort of dream, your mind racing with the memory of jayâs lingering touches, the way he looked at you, the way his words felt like they held a secret just for you. as you lay there, thoughts kept drifting back to himâhow easy it was being around him tonight, how much fun you had together, how different it felt from every other time youâd seen him at work. tonight was different, you could feel it. something between the two of you had changed, and you knew that tomorrow, things wouldnât be the same.
jungwon sat slumped on the couch, his eyes glued to the tv, the images blurred together, meaningless noise in the background of his thoughts. jay had left a while ago, but the tension in jungwonâs chest hadnât gone anywhere. he absentmindedly reached into a bag of stale chips, shoving another one in his mouth, but it tasted like cardboard. his mind was too busy replaying every interaction between you and jay, over and over, like some sick movie he couldnât turn off. jake and sunghoon were still chatting, their voices fading as the night wore on. theyâd been talking about marvel movies, but jungwon hadnât really been listening. he felt like his brain was overheating. sunghoon stretched out lazily on the couch, his voice heavy with sleep. âso... jay. dude seems solid, huh? i don't think you should worry about y/n too much.â jake groaned, half-asleep already, tossing a pillow over his head. âheâs cool, but man, too tired for this shit. letâs talk tomorrow.â his words were muffled, barely coherent as he drifted closer to sleep. jungwonâs grip tightened on the chip bag, the plastic crinkling under his fingers. he wanted to tell them to shut the hell up, to stop talking about jay like it was no big deal. but he stayed quiet, shoving another tasteless chip in his mouth, chewing mechanically.
sunghoon, still awake, glanced over at jungwon with a lazy smirk. âbut donât you think itâs weird? like, he just shows up out of nowhere, and now heâs all over y/n?â the comment made jungwonâs stomach churn but he kept his mouth shut. he didnât trust himself to speak without losing it. jake, half-conscious now, mumbled from under the pillow, ây/nâs a big girl. she knows what sheâs doing. jayâs just a guy.â just a guy. jungwon swallowed the lump in his throat, forcing down the bile that was rising. he wanted to scream, to throw something, to do anything to stop feeling like this. âheâs not just some guy,â jungwon muttered under his breath, the words slipping out before he could stop them. he wasnât even sure if sunghoon or jake had heard him. but sunghoon had. he turned his head slightly, raising an eyebrow at jungwon. âwhat was that?â
jungwon sighed, trying to play it off, forcing himself to sound casual. ânothing. just... hope heâs not wasting her time.â sunghoon yawned, stretching again, his eyelids heavy. ânah, y/nâs smart. sheâll figure it out.â jungwon glanced at jake, who had passed out completely, limbs sprawled out across the couch. sunghoon wasnât far behind, his head nodding as sleep pulled him under. but jungwon couldnât sleep. his mind wouldnât shut off. with a deep sigh, jungwon stood up, tossing the half-empty chip bag onto the coffee table. the quiet hum of the fridge filled the flat as he made his way to the kitchen. he grabbed two beers, the cool metal of the cans grounding him, if only for a second. as he walked back toward his room, he passed by your door. he slowed down, his eyes lingering on it. were you still awake? were you thinking about jay right now? the thought made his chest tighten, but he forced himself to keep walking, pushing open the door to his own room. he dropped into his chair, cracking open the beer with a sharp hiss. he took a long swig, hoping the alcohol would numb the gnawing ache in his gut. he booted up his computer, needing a distraction, something to take his mind off everything. but the second the screen flickered to life, his stomach dropped.
there it wasâthe live feed from the camera heâd hidden in your room. his eyes locked onto the screen, guilt and shame flooding his body in an instant. but he doesn't look away. jungwon sat frozen, staring at the screen like it was some sort of punishment he couldnât escape from. there you were, sitting on your bed, bathed in the soft glow of your bedside lamp, phone in hand, giggling quietly to yourself. you looked so fucking happy. too happy. your fingers moved quickly over the phone, typing, pausing now and then to laugh softly, lips curling into that familiar smile. the smile he knew wasnât for him. jungwon took another long swig of his beer, trying to drown out the jealousy gnawing at him, but like everything else, it didnât help. nothing ever did. he set the beer down, fingers curling into tight fists as he watched you. part of him wanted to slam the laptop shut but he needed to know who you were texting, though he could already guess it by now. his breath caught as you suddenly sat up, that same damn smile spreading across your face. the eagerness in your movements sent a wave of dread crashing over him.
what the fuck was happening? you stood in front of your mirror, fixing your hair, smoothing out your clothes. jungwon watched you, his grip on the mouse tightening. you hadnât even been home an hour and you were already getting ready to talk to jay again? seriously? it was hard enough seeing you with jay earlier, but nowânow you were about to do a video call, giggling like some lovesick teenager. you glanced at your phone, then plopped back onto your bed, adjusting yourself, fluffing your hair, making sure everything was just right. jungwonâs heart sank. he knew that look all too well. it was all for jay. he couldnât tear his eyes away, watching as you picked up your phone again, smiling at whatever message popped up on the screen. then, through the speakers, he heard itâyour voice. "miss me already?" you said, laughter filled the room, and jungwon felt his chest tighten.
of course. the beer can in his hand crumpled slightly under the pressure of his grip, but he didnât care. every muscle in his body was wound tight, ready to snap. he listened, jaw clenched, as jayâs voice crackled through the speakers, muffled but clear enough to set jungwonâs blood boiling. âjust got home,â jayâs voice said, casual, like none of this was fucking with jungwonâs head. âfirst time on a video call, huh? canât believe weâve never done this before.â your eyes sparkled as you tucked a strand of hair behind your ear, settling into the bed, completely unaware of the storm brewing in the next room. âyeah, kinda weird but fun,â you replied, your voice light, carefree. âguess thereâs a first for everything.â the conversation between you and jay flowed easily, his voice seeping through the speakers like poison as you both planned to meet up again. jungwon could barely breathe as he listened to you suggest the weekend. âmaybe we can do something... just us,â jayâs voice came through, warm and smooth.
just us. jay wasnât just a passing interest. he was already staking his claim, like jungwon didnât even exist. then you teased, your voice dropping to a playful tone, the kind you only used when you were comfortable with someone. âis it the alcohol, or are you actually obsessed with me, jay?â jay chuckled, his voice lower now, raspier. probably from exhaustion, probably because he was thinking about you. âoh, you caught me. totally obsessed. canât stop thinking about you.â you bit your lip, a small smile playing on your lips. fuck, you were glowing. you were eating this shit up. âwell, you do seem to be sticking around,â you teased, enjoying every second of it. jungwonâs stomach churned. he could see it all over your faceâhow much you were enjoying this. how much jay was getting under your skin, in ways that no one else ever had. then, you took it further. âif iâm so special, youâd break your gentlemanly streak.â jungwon could hear the playful edge in jayâs voice as he responded. âis this why you called? you wanted me to stay over, didnât you?â your laugh was soft, but jungwon could see the way you bit your lip, see how flustered you were getting. âi donât know. you tell me.â jungwonâs fist slammed down on the desk before he even realized it, the sharp thud breaking the moment. his entire body shook with the effort of holding back, his chest heaving as anger twisted inside him. the beer can crumpled completely in his hand, but he didnât care. his focus was on youâon what was happening right in front of him.
this was worse than anything. worse than any of your exes. because with jay, it wasnât just physical. jay was pulling you in, wrapping you around his fucking finger, and jungwon couldnât do shit about it. your head snapped up at the sudden noise, your smile faltering as you glanced toward jungwonâs room. âwhat was that?â you asked, the unease creeping into your voice, pulling you out of the moment with jay. on the screen, jay raised an eyebrow, concern flickering in his eyes. âeverything okay?â he asked, his voice soft, probing, like he could sense something was off. you forced a smile, waving it off, though the tension lingered in the air. âyeah, itâs fine,â you said, but the waver in your voice gave you away. you glanced back toward jungwonâs room, your brow furrowed. âi think itâs just jungwon.â jayâs concern deepened. âis he okay? maybe you should check on him.â you hesitated, torn between the conversation and the guilt tugging at you. was jungwon okay? the noise had been loud, and it wasnât like him to react like that. what the hell was going on with him? you bit your lip, uncertainty creeping in. âheâs probably fine,â you muttered, trying to convince yourself as much as jay. âmaybe he just dropped something.â but deep down, you werenât sure. things had been off with jungwon latelyâheâd been distant, quieter. and you had been caught up in other things, like work, like jay, barely noticing it.
jayâs voice cut through your thoughts. âare you sure? i donât mind letting you go if you need to check on him.â
you shook your head, not wanting to break the mood between you two. âno, no... heâs probably just being his usual grumpy self.â but even as you said it, you couldnât shake the unease. maybe jungwon was upset. maybe you had been neglecting him. you sighed, running a hand through your hair, wondering when things had gotten so complicated. âwhatâs wrong with him?â you muttered under your breath, glancing toward your door again. jay tried to lighten the mood, his voice warm. âheâs probably just jealous. i mean, if i had a sister like you, iâd be protective too.â you laughed, though it sounded hollow. âyeah, heâs always been that way,â you admitted, though the knot in your stomach didnât loosen. jayâs gaze softened, concern and affection mixing in his expression. âseriously, though. if heâs upset, you should talk to him.â you nodded, knowing jay was right, but not wanting to deal with it right now. the conversation between you and jay had been going so well, and you werenât ready to let it go yet. âsorry to cockblock you,â you muttered with a grin, trying to shift the mood back to playful. jayâs laughter was immediate, warm and infectious, shaking off some of the tension. âoh, come on,â he said, still chuckling. âdonât apologize. iâm just glad you still think iâm a gentleman after all this.â his laugh made you smile despite yourself, and for a moment, the unease faded. you joined in, teasing him right back. âwell, i did just ruin the moment.â jay wiped away a fake tear, grinning. âtrust me,â he said, voice still playful, âthereâs no ruining anything with you.â
an idea hit you, your eyes lighting up with mischief as you giggled, grabbing your phone. excitement bubbled inside as you scrolled through your gallery, your finger hovering over a certain photo. the smile on your face faltered for just a second. it wasnât exactly a nude, but the picture of you in your baby blue lingerie set? yeah, it was definitely provocative. jayâs brow shot up when he noticed the hesitation. âwhat are you up to?â he asked, the playful tone lingering in his voice, teasing, almost challenging. you grinned, your lip tugging between your teeth. âitâs an apology,â you teased, before hitting send. your heart raced as you waited, watching his phone buzz. anticipation prickled up your spine, making your stomach flip in that giddy way.
when jay opened the message, his reaction was instant. he sat up straighter, his lips parting, eyes widening as they scanned the image. the moment it clicked, his teeth sunk into his lower lip, and you heard the faintest groan escape him. fuck, he looked sexy like that. âwell, damn,â jay muttered, his voice a bit lower, his gaze flicking back to yours. âkind of regret leaving so soon now.â a wave of warmth spread through you, making your pulse race. leaning closer to the screen, you bit your lip, âso, still gonna be a gentleman, or am i that special?â jayâs grin spread wider, amusement glinting in his darkened eyes. âdepends,â he murmured, his voice smooth, inviting, âhow special do you think you are?â your confidence surged, and you shot back without missing a beat. âoh, iâd say iâm worth bending the rules for.â
jayâs chuckle sent a shiver down your spine, his gaze flicking back to the photo. âif you keep talking like that,â he said, voice dropping, âi just might.â
you were about to push further, to see just how far heâd go with this, but then you heard it againâa sound from the other side of the wall. jungwon. again. jay noticed immediately, his playful demeanor shifting to something more concerned. âstill think heâs okay?â he asked, his tone soft but pointed. you sighed, glancing at your door. âi donât know... maybe i should check on him.â jay nodded, his expression softening. âyeah, probably a good idea. we can pick this up later.â he smirked, and there was a glint in his eyes, a promise in his voice. âbut next time,â he paused, leaning closer to the camera, âwear that same set when i take you out.â
you laughed softly, warmth still lingering in your chest even after the call ended. the teasing excitement from jay stayed with you, but now, there was something else brewing. a sense of worry, creeping in at the edges. jungwon. you stood, giggling softly as the room tilted slightly. damn, you were more tipsy than you realized, and it took a second to steady yourself against the wall. jay kept you grounded, kept your focus on him like no one else could. but now, without him on the line, everything felt off, unsettled. maybe thatâs just what he did to youâpulled all your attention in, made you forget everything else, even forget about how much you used to think about jungwon. and now, without him, everything was crashing back in. stumbling slightly, you sighed, feeling the weight of your concern. jungwon. something wasnât right, not with the way heâd been acting, not with the thud from earlier echoing in your mind. you couldnât ignore it anymore. pushing yourself forward, you headed down the hallway, your heart pounding in a way that had nothing to do with the wine or jay. what the hell is going on with him?
as you approached jungwonâs door, the sound of your familiar footsteps made his heart race. panic surged through him, adrenaline kicking in. he could hear your clumsy shuffle outside, but his mind was too clouded to focusâhis eyes glued to the live feed still open on his screen. fuck. his fingers scrambled across the keyboard, minimizing the window in a flash. his screen flickered back to the innocent desktop wallpaper just as the door swung open. you stumbled in, nearly tripping over yourself, that tipsy smile lighting up your face. âhey,â you slurred, gaze locking onto him. jungwon sat there, stiff as a board, looking like a deer caught in headlights. you noticed the way his eyes darted toward the screen before meeting yours again. something was definitely off. âyou good?â you asked, voice soft but with genuine concern, even through your drunk haze. there was something about his posture, the awkward stiffness that made you pause. his screen showed nothing out of the ordinaryâjust a plain wallpaper. but the way he looked at you, like heâd been caught red-handed, made your drunk mind spin. the realization hit you, and a teasing grin spread across your face. âohâŚâ you mumbled, eyes widening in mock surprise. âwere youâŚ?â you trailed off, giggling as the most obvious explanation popped into your head.
was jungwon watching porn? jungwonâs heart pounded harder, realizing what you were thinking. the teasing look in your eyes, the way you bit your lip to hold back laughterâit was clear you had jumped to a conclusion. and letting you believe that? yeah, way better than the truth. in a split second, he made the decision. âyeah,â he muttered, leaning back in his chair, trying to act casual. âcaught me.â your eyes blinked in surprise, not expecting him to admit it so easily. the teasing grin faltered for a moment, but then you laughed, stumbling a bit as you waved your hands in a sloppy apology. âoh shitâsorry!â you giggled, your voice light as you tried not to laugh too hard. âdidnât mean to interrupt or anything.â
jungwon forced a smirk, his insides churning, but his face stayed calm. âitâs fine,â he shrugged, playing it cool, even though his mind was still racing. you leaned against the doorframe, your drunken smile wide as you eyed him. something about the way he was sitting thereâtoo still, too stiffâmade you pause. but your hazy mind couldnât hold onto the thought for long, quickly getting distracted by the warmth in your body and the lightness in your head. âwell, donât work too hard, alright?â you teased, throwing him a playful wink. jungwon cleared his throat, fumbling over his words in a weak attempt to seem casual. âyeah, uh⌠i just hit my knee on the table earlier. nothing big.â it was a pathetic excuse, and he knew it. but you were drunk, too drunk to notice how thinly veiled the lie was. you giggled, brushing it off. âreally?â you laughed, stepping closer to him, your eyes gleaming with curiosity. âsounds like you were watching something good.â
but something shifted in his expressionâhis eyes darkened, the atmosphere thickening around you. you froze for a second, your drunken confidence faltering as you stopped just short of getting too close. âwhyâre you so curious all of a sudden?â jungwonâs voice had dropped lower, more serious, almost challenging. âwanna know what iâm into?â the question hung in the air, heavier than it should have been. your breath hitched, the alcohol making it hard to process the meaning behind his words. and then it hit you. your heart raced as you blinked, caught off guard by the intensity in his gaze. âoh, come on,â you muttered nervously, laughing to shake off the tension. âdonât be weird. besidesâŚâ you trailed off, eyes sweeping over him in a way you hadnât before, your tongue loose from the alcohol. âyouâre already hot, you donât need that stuff.â jungwonâs heart nearly stopped. hot? youâd called him hot? he stared at you, his brain short-circuiting, trying to process what youâd just said. he didnât know how to respond, didnât know what to do with the way his chest tightened at your casual compliment. you blinked, suddenly aware of what youâd let slip. âi meanââ you stammered, waving your hand as if to erase the awkwardness. âforget it. you should just get a girlfriend.â the words hit him harder than they should have. get a girlfriend. like it was that simple. like anyone could ever compare to you. his eyes lingered on you, the way your clothes were wrinkled from the day, how you stood there so oblivious to what you did to him.
how many times had he imagined you, like this, stumbling into his room, his bed, then fucking you in that exact outfit? he swallowed hard, the desire twisting painfully inside him as he forced a neutral expression. âyeahâŚâ he mumbled, his voice barely steady. âmaybe i should.â but you didnât notice the turmoil behind his eyes. you were already pulling away, giggling softly as you pushed off the doorframe. âanyway, donât stay up too late watching⌠whatever,â you teased, oblivious to the storm raging inside him. the door clicked shut behind you, and jungwonâs body slumped in his chair. his breath came out shaky, his chest tight with frustration. fuck, he wanted you. wanted you so bad it physically hurt. his eyes stayed glued to the door long after youâd left, the tension in his body refusing to dissipate. slowly, his gaze drifted back to the computer screen, his fingers twitching toward the mouse. the live feed was still there, minimized in the taskbar, waiting. he could feel the pull, the temptation to click it, to watch you again.
a frustrated groan slipped past his lips as he rubbed his face with both hands, trying to shake the need out of his head. you were so fucking clueless. so damn unaware of the effect you had on him, how deeply youâd burrowed yourself into his mind.
just as he thought he might get a grip on himself, he heard itâyour voice, slurred and cheerful, calling out from down the hallway. âi love ya!â you sang, your words soaked in alcohol and affection. jungwon froze. his heart twisted painfully in his chest as he heard your drunken giggle follow, light and carefreeâthe kind of laugh that used to make him smile. now it felt like someone twisting the knife deeper. his hands pressed against his eyes, trying to block out the sound, trying to ignore the way your words lingered in his head. âi love ya!ââlike it didnât mean anything. like it was just something you threw around casually. he knew it was the alcohol talking, knew you didnât mean it. not in the way he wanted you to. and that made it worse. that fucking shattered him.
jungwon shot up from his chair like a bullet, his heart hammering against his chest, the rage swallowing him whole. his body trembled, his hands clenched into fists so tight his knuckles turned white. he couldnât sit still, couldnât keep the frustration bottled up. pacing back and forth, his muscles burned, stretched to their limit as he swung his arms wildly, desperate for some kind of release. every breath was shallow, sharp, as if he was trying to breathe through the suffocating pressure building inside him. but nothing was working. without thinking, he grabbed the closest thing in reachâa small figurine on his deskâand hurled it against the wall with a guttural shout. the sound of it shattering into pieces, scattering across the floor, barely registered in his mind. it did nothing to ease the tension coiling tighter, suffocating him. it wasnât enough. nothing was enough.
"fuck, fuck, fuck!" he snarled under his breath, dragging his hands through his hair, yanking hard at the strands in frustration. the sharp pain barely registered. his chest was heaving, the walls of his room closing in on him, making it harder to breathe. you were killing him. he couldnât stop thinking about youâyour stupid fucking smile, the way you looked at jay, the way you teased like you didnât even realize what you were doing to him. it was eating him alive. the urge to check the live feed clawed at his mind, gnawing at his last shreds of self-control. his body practically collapsed back into the chair, hands shaking as his fingers hovered over the mouse, ready to click, ready to see you again. but he couldnât do it. couldnât give in. with a growl of frustration, he slammed his fist down on the desk, the sharp sting shooting through his knuckles barely enough to register. the pain was a welcome distraction from the ache burning inside him. âwhy the fuck did you say that?â he whispered, voice cracking with resentment. âyou donât mean it. you donât fucking mean it.â
the words tasted bitter on his tongue as he stared at the empty desktop, his breathing uneven, his pulse pounding in his ears. youâd called him hot like it was nothing, like it was just a throwaway comment, and yet, here he wasâburning from the inside out, unraveling because of you. how many times had you stood in front of him, drunk and completely clueless, without realizing just how deeply youâd twisted him up inside? it was like you enjoyed torturing him, like you knew he was at your mercy and didnât care. his hand twitched toward the nearby beer, his throat dry from the anger that kept simmering, boiling over. with a quick flick, he cracked it open, foam spilling over the edge as he downed half of it in one long gulp, desperate for somethingâanythingâto numb the pain cutting into him. the bitter taste coated his mouth, his lips curling in disgust as he wiped them with the back of his hand. jay. it always came back to fucking jay. jungwon downed the rest of the beer, slamming the empty can onto the desk so hard the noise echoed through the room. his head dropped into his hands, shoulders trembling as the weight of it all crushed him, pressing down until he couldnât take it anymore. âfuck.â
jay had slipped into your life so easily, it was almost hard to remember a time when he wasnât around. he visited often now, seamlessly fitting into your friend group, and even got close with jake and sunghoon. it felt like heâd always been there, like he belonged. jungwon, though, had been a different story. after that night, after everything, heâd been distant for a while. but now? now, he sat right next to jay on the couch, controller in hand, eyes glued to the xbox screen like nothing had ever happened. he seemed fineâmore than fine, actually. like heâd accepted everything, like he wasnât even phased by the way jay had embedded himself into your world. tonight wasnât any different. jay was over again, sitting in his usual spot, and everyone else was gathered in the living room too. the sound of the xbox filled the space, a low hum of explosions and gunfire. jake was sprawled on one couch, half-asleep with a soda can dangling from his hand, while sunghoon sat on the floor, shoving popcorn into his mouth like he hadnât eaten in days. you perched on the arm of the couch, watching jay and jungwon play another round of whatever shooting game theyâd gotten into. it was almost funnyâhow easily they got along now, how the tension that once lingered between them had melted away. "we're crushing it," jay laughed, glancing at jungwon with a grin.
jungwon cracked a rare, genuine smile, his eyes still on the screen. "donât get cocky," he muttered, smirking. "you only won 'cause i carried." jay nudged him with his elbow, his grin widening. âteam effort, man.â you couldnât help but smile, watching the way they bantered so naturally. jungwon, the one who usually kept his cool, had loosened up around jay in a way you hadnât expected. maybe it was surprising how quickly theyâd become friends, but it was a relief too. âyou two make a good team,â you teased, swinging your legs over the edge of the couch, your voice light, trying to ignore the small tug of something in your chest. âyeah, guess i donât mind him hanging around,â jungwon said, shaking his head with a small laugh, like he couldnât quite believe it either. jay shot you a teasing grin. âwow, jungwon actually tolerates me now. i must be doing something right.â jungwon rolled his eyes, but the smirk on his face made it clear he didnât mind the teasing. âdonât get too comfortable.â jake, who had been half-listening, suddenly perked up, pointing lazily at the screen. âjungwonâs just mad 'cause jayâs better at the game now. remember the first time he played? total trash.â ânot trash,â jay argued, raising his hands defensively. âjust... learning.â
jungwon chuckled, leaning back into the couch. "yeah, yeah. let's see if you can hold your own in the next round." it was weird seeing jungwon like thisâso relaxed, so easygoing. he was always the serious one, the one who kept things close to his chest. but around jay? it was like the walls he usually built around himself had crumbled. âso, whenâs the next big project at work?â sunghoon asked between mouthfuls of popcorn. "you two have basically been glued to your desks." you laughed softly, shaking your head. âweâre almost done, thank god. then maybe we can actually hang out like normal people again.â jay smiled, his voice warm and casual. âyeah, maybe we can all do something. outside of work for a change.â jake grinned, tossing a pillow across the room at jay. âyou gonna pay for dinner, rich boy?â jay caught the pillow, laughing. âguess iâm buying.â jungwon laughed too, shaking his head at the back-and-forth. "yeah, you owe us." for a second, everything felt perfect. like the puzzle pieces of your life had finally clicked into place. jay was here, a part of it all, and jungwonâjungwon had accepted it. accepted him. it shouldâve been a relief, but something about the whole thing gnawed at you. jungwonâs shift in attitude, the way he seemed so... okay with everything. it was too sudden. too easy. but you shoved the thought aside. maybe it was nothing. maybe you were overthinking it. âall right, rematch?â jay suggested, glancing at jungwon with a playful smirk.
jungwon grabbed his controller again, eyes gleaming with determination. âletâs do it.â they dove back into the game, and as the laughter and playful insults filled the room, you sat back, content for the moment. but that small, nagging voice in the back of your mind wouldnât go away. jungwonâs sudden acceptance felt... off. like there was more under the surface, something he wasnât saying. you shook the thought away, focusing on the present. jay and jungwon were getting along, and that was enough. for now. âhey,â jayâs voice broke through your thoughts, pulling you back to the room. âyouâre up next, right?â you grinned, feeling the weight lift from your shoulders for a moment. âoh, iâm definitely taking you down.â the room was filled with laughter again, and as the game continued, you tried to let yourself believe that thisâright hereâwas how things were supposed to be. but somewhere deep down, you couldnât shake the feeling that it was all just a little too perfect.
you and jay were both at the office, the hum of workday chatter filling the background. jay sat beside you at the office like he belonged there. he was on his break, lazily fiddling with a rubikâs cube, his brow furrowed as if it took real concentration, but you could feel his eyes darting to you every few seconds. that signature smirk lingered on his lips, like he had something else on his mind. âyou ever solve one of these?â jay asked, twisting the cube with a sharp click. you laughed softly, shaking your head. ânope, never had the patience.â just as you were about to send off an email, your phone buzzed against the desk. you glanced down at the screen. jake: hey y/n, weâre taking jungwon out for drinks tonight! your eyebrows shot up. jungwon? drinks? that wasnât something that happened often. you tapped a quick reply, but the thought lingered, pulling at your attention. he wasnât exactly the most social guy, especially when it came to drinking. curiosity piqued, you quickly typed back a response. âwhatâs up?â jay asked, his voice cutting through your thoughts. his eyes tracked your every move, fingers still idly playing with the cube. âjust jake,â you said, leaning back in your chair, tapping the phone lightly against your thigh. âtheyâre taking jungwon out for drinks tonight. guess heâs warming up to being social.â jay smirked, tossing the rubikâs cube onto the desk and crossing his arms. âheâs been pretty chill lately, especially with me. didnât think thatâd happen.â âme neither,â you admitted, your gaze shifting fully to jay. âheâs always been kinda... closed off, but now itâs like heâs finally enjoying being around people. especially you.â
jay shrugged, though you could see the flicker of pride in his eyes. âguess iâm just that irresistible, huh?â you rolled your eyes, but smiled all the same. âyeah, sure, that must be it.â you leaned in closer, dropping your voice. âbut seriously, itâs nice seeing him open up. heâs been through a lot, and seeing him happy... well, it makes me happy.â the conversation lulled for a moment, the office noise fading into the background. jayâs fingers drummed softly on the desk, and you could feel him thinking, like there was something on his mind he hadnât said yet. âspeaking of happy...â jay started, his voice quieter, more thoughtful now. âthis might be... really bad timing, but iâve been wanting to ask you something.â you raised an eyebrow, intrigued but slightly cautious. âoh? whatâs up?â
he hesitated for a beat, his eyes locking with yours. gone was the teasing smirk, replaced with something more sincere, something that had your pulse picking up speed. âi was wondering...â jay leaned in just a little, the space between you two feeling more intimate, more personal. âwould you wanna go out with me tonight? like... on a real date?â your heart did a quick somersault. jay had always been playful, teasing, but this? this was different. this was realâjust him, asking you out with none of the usual jokes to hide behind. âan actual date?â you echoed, your voice soft as a smile began tugging at your lips. jay nodded, his fingers now absentmindedly tracing the edge of the desk, like he needed something to focus on besides your reaction. âyeah. i mean, weâve hung out a lot, but i want to take you out properly. no more just hanging out at your place.â warmth bloomed in your chest, spreading through your body as nerves fluttered in your stomach. jay had always made you feel comfortable, always been someone who could make you laugh, but now he was offering something more. something you hadnât even realized youâd been waiting for.
âiâd like that,â you said softly, your smile growing wider. âyeah, iâd really like that.â jayâs entire expression lit up, the tension in his shoulders melting away as relief washed over him. âreally?â âreally,â you confirmed, feeling the flutter of anticipation start to build inside you. he let out a breath, grinning wide as he leaned back, his confidence slipping back into place. âall right, guess iâll have to plan something good then.â you laughed, shaking your head. âno pressure or anything.â âtrust me,â jay chuckled, though the warmth in his eyes now had your pulse racing even faster. âiâve got it covered.â the office seemed to fade away as you both sat there, the moment stretching between you, feeling just right. like this was exactly where you were supposed to be. âtonight, then,â jay said, his eyes never leaving yours. âtonight,â you echoed, feeling the weight of the promise in your own voice.
jay stood up, stretching a little before throwing you a glance over his shoulder. âoh, and wear my favorite,â he added, his tone dropping a little, laced with something more suggestive. you blinked, your smile faltering for just a second. âyour favorite?â jay smirked, leaning closer, his breath brushing your ear as he whispered, âbaby blue.â the memory of the set he was referring to flashed in your mindâthe one youâd worn in a photo that had gotten a reaction out of him before. your cheeks flushed, the air between you two thickening with the weight of suggestion. âoh, that set.â âyeah... that one.â his fingers brushed against your arm, just barely grazing your skin, leaving a trail of heat in their wake before he turned, heading back to his desk. the light touch, the way his voice had droppedâit left you breathless, heart pounding against your chest. anticipation simmered under your skin, and you couldnât stop the grin from spreading across your face as you stared at your computer screen, already counting down the hours until tonight.
the apartment was buzzing with the usual pre-party energy when you got home, the low hum of excitement filtering through the walls. jungwon was already half-dressed, moving through the space like he had all the time in the world, while you rushed, desperately trying to get ready in time for your date with jay. âugh, iâm running so late,â you muttered, throwing a glance at the mirror, your nerves on full display. nothing felt right, nothing was working, and time was running out. jungwon paused, leaning against his doorframe with that familiar smirk playing on his lips. ânervous for the big date?â his tone dripped with amusement, eyes trailing lazily over your frazzled state. âyeah,â you muttered, rifling through your drawer with a touch of panic. âjayâs picking me up soon, and i need to look perfect.â jungwonâs eyes flickered to the bed, where youâd laid out your baby blue lingerieâthe set you knew jay liked. the comment came before he could stop himself. ânice choice.â his voice sounded casual, but you didnât catch the way his eyes darkened as he stared at the delicate fabric. you barely glanced up, focused on finding the right shoes. âyeah, jay loves this one. figured itâd be a nice surprise.â
jungwonâs jaw clenched. jayâs favorite? something ugly coiled in his chest, why the hell should jay get that? he felt his phone buzz in his pocketâjake, impatient as ever, reminding him to hurry up. jungwon's gaze lingered on the lingerie for another moment, and then, he made his move. while you were still distracted, jungwon slipped into your room, pretending to grab his jacket. with one swift motion, he swiped the baby blue panties from the bed and stuffed them into his pocket. his heart pounded, but outwardly he remained calm, collected. âyou seen myââ you turned, catching jungwon mid-movement as he pulled on his jacket, already halfway to the door. âoh, youâre leaving already?â you asked, still half-focused on getting yourself together. âyeah, jakeâs blowing up my phone,â jungwon said, flashing you a quick, cool smile, his hand pressing the stolen lace deeper into his pocket. âgood luck with your date. iâm sure jayâll love that surprise.â âthanks,â you mumbled absentmindedly, not even looking up as you fumbled with your outfit. "have fun with the guys." as soon as jungwon was gone, you turned back to the bed, reaching for the lingerie. but something was wrong. the panties were missing.
"what the hell...?" you muttered, confused, rifling through the covers and around the room. i just put them here. you tore through your drawers, irritation bubbling up as your search turned up nothing. âugh, whatever,â you muttered under your breath, deciding on the black lace set instead. the clock was ticking, and the last thing you needed was to be late. jay wonât mind, you told yourself, trying to push aside the frustration, but a nagging feeling of something missing lingered. jungwon, on the other hand, was already out the door, heading to meet jake and sunghoon, the baby blue panties securely tucked into his jacket pocket.
that small act gave him a twisted sense of control, a flicker of satisfaction, but beneath it all, a cold wave of futility crept in. what the fuck is this even for? he wondered, but couldnât stop himself. it wouldnât change a damn thing between you and jay. stealing your lingerie, messing with your plansânone of it would stop the fact that youâd be with him tonight. yet, knowing you wouldnât be wearing that special set for jay, his favorite set, felt like a small, fucked-up victory. as the elevator doors slid shut, jungwon caught a glimpse of his reflection. what the hell am i doing? he ran a hand through his hair, shaking his head, but the question didnât matter anymore. youâre not wearing that for jay, and that was enough to ease the coil of frustration in his chest. sliding into the backseat of jakeâs car, jungwonâs mood clashed against the upbeat energy of the others. jake and sunghoon were hyped, laughing, planning out their night, but jungwon barely heard them. his fingers drifted to the pocket where the soft lace sat, his mind replaying the moment heâd swiped them from your bed, the way youâd been too distracted to notice.
his hand moved absentmindedly, tracing the delicate fabric as jakeâs voice rambled on about which club to hit first. youâll never even suspect me, he thought, a smug satisfaction settling in. there was no way youâd ever connect jungwon to your missing panties. that innocent, oblivious part of you wouldnât even consider it. he leaned back in his seat, letting the rush of adrenaline mix with the twisted satisfaction that came from knowing youâd be out with jay tonightâwearing something else. completely unaware of what was missing. and in that moment, despite everything, jungwon felt like he was winning.
jungwon slouched back in the booth, the relentless thrum of the clubâs bass pounding through his chest. lights flickered, neon blues and purples flashing across the crowded dance floor, but it all blurred together into a scene he couldnât care less about. the chatter, the laughter, the sweaty bodies swaying to the beatâit was suffocating, only reminding him of everything he didnât want to think about. he didnât want to be here. hell, he didnât want to be anywhere. but jake and sunghoon had dragged him out, practically forcing him to "get out of his head." now, here he was, at some fancy table heeseung had hooked them up with, surrounded by people celebrating god knows what. âlighten up, man.â jake nudged him, grinning as he took another swig from his beer. âheeseung pulled some strings for this, we should be having fun.â âyeah,â sunghoon leaned back, tossing a casual smirk his way. âitâs not like youâve got anything better to do.â jungwon barely managed a tight smile, they meant well, but it didnât change the fact that he felt like he was suffocating. sitting here, pretending to enjoy himself, it was like the weight of everything was pressing harder on his chest. sure, it was better than being back at the flat, buried in your bed, breathing in the faint scent of your perfume from the pillow youâd left behind. a little less pathetic, maybe. but being here wasnât much better. because here, he couldnât escape the thoughts, the images playing over and over in his mind. you with jay.
âyou good?â jake asked, his voice cutting through jungwonâs thoughts. his brow furrowed as he glanced over, clearly picking up on the tension rolling off him. âyouâve been weird all night.â jungwonâs response was quick, sharper than he meant it to be. âiâm fine.â he exhaled, trying to push down the frustration that threatened to spill over. no, iâm not fucking fine. sunghoon raised a brow, exchanging a glance with jake. âdude, you always say that. youâve been holed up in your room for days. whatâs gives?â jungwon didnât answer. how could he explain it? how could he tell them that every time you walked out that door, it felt like a piece of him left with you? every time you left, heâd retreat to your room, curling up in your bed, clinging to whatever was left of you. burying his face in your clothes, pretending, even for just a few moments, that you were still there. it was fucked up. he knew that. but it was the only way to deal with the rage.
this night was supposed to be an escape. a distraction from the thoughts that tortured him, from the idea of you with him. but all it did was amplify it. with every drink, every laugh, every passing moment, he could feel the jealousy tightening around his throat like a noose. because no matter how hard he tried, he couldnât stop seeing itâyou and jay. your laughter, your smile, the way youâd look at jay like he was your whole world. the way jungwon wished, more than anything, youâd look at him. he squeezed his eyes shut, wishing the pounding bass of the club could drown out the thoughts, the sickening ache in his chest. but it didnât. he hated it. hated that no matter where he was, no matter what he did, it was always you. always jay. and it was destroying him from the inside out. jungwon watched as jake and sunghoon disappeared onto the dance floor, their laughter swallowed by the thumping bass and flashing lights. he was left alone, gripping his drink tightly, the alcohol buzzed through his veins, but it wasnât enough to quiet the ache burning in his chest.
he missed you. god, he missed you so much it fucking hurt. his fingers slipped into his jacket pocket, brushing against the soft lace of your stolen panties, the secret that no one else knew about. but even that, even taking something so personal from you, felt useless. he missed the way you used to burst into his room unannounced, complaining about your day or teasing him for never leaving the apartment. he missed the way you leaned against him when you were too tired to hold your head up but refused to leave. now, everything felt distant, cold. and this drink? it was doing fuck all to help. and then, he saw you. jungwonâs heart leapt into his throat, his pulse racing as his eyes locked on you, stepping into the club like you owned the room. for a split second, hope flared, blinding and irrational. maybe youâd come looking for him, maybe you missed him too. his lips twitched, the beginning of a smile breaking free. but then he saw him. jay.
that flicker of hope was crushed under the weight of reality. jay, walking in behind you, his hand resting at the small of your back like he fucking owned you. like you were his. something twisted deep in jungwonâs gut, the jealousy simmering hotter now, searing through him. his hand clenched around the glass, the edges pressing into his palm as he watched jay guide you through the crowd, his touch too casual, too possessive. it was like a punch to the gut, knocking the breath right out of him. his mind screamed, desperate to believe this wasnât happening, that you hadnât already slipped away from him. but watching jay pull you closer, seeing how easily you leaned into him, jungwon knew. jay was winning. jungwon drained his drink, the alcohol burning down his throat, but it did nothing to numb the burn in his chest. seeing you like thisâin that fucking dress, looking so perfect it made him want to tear something apartâit was unbearable. he wondered if you were wearing the black or white lingerie he knew you loved. or maybe something else. maybe something jay had picked out for you. his jaw tightened as he kept his eyes on you, unwilling to look away. he stayed rooted to the spot, slipping into the shadows where he could watch without being seen. from there, he could see everythingâevery touch, every smile, every laugh you gave to jay like it was his right.
from a distance, it was easier to let the jealousy fester, to let it simmer and burn without having to fake a smile, without pretending everything was okay. his smirk returned, dark and twisted, as he watched jay pull you closer, his hand sliding down to rest on your hip. you were his now, werenât you? the thought twisted deeper, like a knife in his chest. jungwon leaned against the wall, his eyes never leaving you, waiting for somethingâanythingâto break. he let the jealousy, the rage, boil inside him, his fingers tracing over the lace hidden in his pocket, the one thing he had taken from you, something only he knew about. he glanced at jake and sunghoon, who were lost somewhere in the back, wrapped around a couple of girls, laughing and whispering in their ears like they had no worries in the world. good. let them leave. he didnât need their company tonight. tonight was about you. his eyes snapped back to you, and the sight made his stomach churn. you were laughing, leaning into jay, your hand resting on his arm like it was the most natural thing in the world. he fucking hated jay. he wanted to hate jay. he wanted to find something, anything, that would make him feel justified for the burning jealousy tearing him apart. but he couldnât. no matter how hard he tried, jay was⌠perfect. and worst of all? jay made you happy. thatâs what killed him the most.
because no matter how much he wanted you, no matter how much he needed you, jungwon knew deep down he would never be the one to make you happy like that. heâd never make you smile like jay did, never make you laugh like that, never be enough. and it fucking destroyed him. he leaned back into the shadows, eyes fixed on you, watching, waiting, stewing in his jealousy, his rage, his desperation.
he would never let you go. jungwon had called it. barely a few minutes after he slipped into the shadows, jake and sunghoon came stumbling back over to where heâd been sitting, girls hanging off their arms, wide smiles and flushed cheeks. they didnât even have to say anythingâthe looks on their faces said it all. jake raised an eyebrow, smirking, while sunghoon winked, sealing the unspoken deal. they were about to make their exit. jungwonâs phone buzzed in his pocket. he didnât even need to look, already knowing what it would say. sure enough, there were texts from both of them. jake: bro, weâre heading out, see you later? sunghoon: you good? catch you tomorrow.
a bitter chuckle slipped out before he could stop it. he quickly typed out a reply, already drained by their carefree energy. jungwon: already left. have fun. from his hidden spot, he watched as jake and sunghoon exchanged glances, glancing around like they might actually give a shit about where he was before shrugging it off. they disappeared into the crowd with their arms slung around the girls, laughing like they had the night in the palm of their hands. good riddance. now he didnât have to fake a damn thing. no more keeping up appearances, no more pretending. now he could stay hidden, drown in cheap liquor, and watch the night unfold the way he knew it would.
âhey, handsome.â the voice was low, sultry, but it grated against jungwonâs nerves like nails on a chalkboard. he barely noticed her at first, until she was right up against him, pressing her body close, her fingers trailing lightly across his chest. he glanced down at her with cold, empty eyes. the dim lighting of the club cast shadows across her face, but even in the dark, he could see the desperation gleaming in her eyes, the too-eager smile playing on her lips. she had been watching him all night, and now, she finally thought she had her chance. without a word, jungwon reached up and gently pushed her hand away, his fingers curling around her wrist for just a second before letting go. âdonât.â his voice was flat, emotionless, his gaze already drifting back to where you were standing with jay. but the girl didnât take the hint. she leaned in closer, her breath hot against his neck. âcome on, donât be like that. you look like you could use some company.â his jaw clenched, the retort he wanted to spit out getting stuck in his throat. he took a step back, creating some distance, but she followed him, her hands reaching for him again like she hadnât just been told off. âi said donât,â he snapped this time, his voice sharp, cold. jungwonâs patience was already wearing thin. âwhatâs your problem?â she pouted, her fingers still brushing against his chest, her body pressing even closer. âyouâre just sitting here all alone. let me make you feel better.â jungwonâs eyes flicked back to her, darkening. âyou reek,â he said bluntly, his tone icy. the girl blinked, caught off guard. âuh, excuse me?â âif you keep touching me, youâre gonna fucking regret it.â
she laughed nervously, her confidence cracking as uncertainty flickered in her eyes. âwow, okay. someoneâs got issues.â jungwon leaned in, his face inches from hers, his voice dropping to a dangerous whisper. âare you my stepsister?â her expression twisted in confusion, a nervous laugh escaping her lips. âuh, what? no, what does that evenâ" jungwonâs lips curled into a cruel smirk, the intensity of his gaze making her instinctively step back. ânothing. but next time you push yourself on someone, maybe think twice.â she stared at him, her bravado crumbling under the weight of his words. her face twisted in disgust as she backed off, muttering, âyouâre fucking weird,â before turning and disappearing into the crowd. he didnât watch her leave. didnât care. his focus was already elsewhere. he knocked back another shot, the alcohol scorching down his throat, his eyes locked on you again.
later that night, jay picked you up, looking effortlessly perfect in his usual styleâblack jeans, a fitted shirt that hugged his body in all the right places, and that smug grin that never seemed to leave his face. youâd dressed for the occasion, slipping into a sleek, curve-hugging dress that made you feel confident, sexy, a little daring. as the two of you made your way to the club heâd picked for the evening, you chuckled under your breath, taking in the neon lights and feeling the thrumming bass vibrating beneath your feet. âreally? a club?â you teased, glancing at him with a raised eyebrow. âwhat kind of gentleman brings a woman to a club on their first date?â jay smirked, his hand casually sliding to the small of your back, guiding you inside. âa gentleman who knows how jealous you got every time our colleagues went clubbing while we were stuck at work.â your eyebrow shot up, surprised heâd picked up on that. âi didnât think you paid attention.â jay leaned in close, his voice dropping just low enough to make your skin tingle. âtrust me, y/n, i notice everything about you.â his words sent a rush through you, a blush creeping up your neck as you smiled and shook your head, trying to play it cool. despite the loud music and the bustling crowd, something about this felt perfect. you nudged him playfully. âokay, maybe you do have some charm after all.â jay grinned wider, pulling you closer as the two of you moved through the dimly lit space. âsome charm? come on, iâve got plenty.â you couldnât help but smile, feeling the pull of his energy. he led you to a table near the edge of the dance floor, the music loud enough to shake your bones, but instead of overwhelming you, it seemed to ground you. jay sat close, his hand resting possessively on your thigh under the table, sending little sparks of excitement through your body.
âso, what do you think?â jay leaned in, his breath warm against your ear. âbetter than the office, right?â you laughed, feeling the weight of the moment settle between you. âokay, fine, you win. better than the office. but only because you knew i was jealous.â jayâs grin widened, and for a second, his eyes darkened with something deeper. âhey, just trying to keep my girl happy,â he said smoothly, the words slipping out so easily they made your heart skip a beat. before you could overthink it, he was pulling you to your feet, leading you toward the dance floor. âcome on, letâs dance,â he urged, tugging you into the crowd. the two of you fell into a rhythm easily, your bodies moving together in sync with the pulsing music. the tension between you grew with every beat, every movement, jayâs hands firm on your hips, pulling you against him. the heat of his body mixed with the electric energy of the club, making it impossible to think of anything else. as the lights flickered and danced across the walls, jay pressed closer, his hands sliding lower, his touch lingering in a way that made it clear you were his tonight. and god, you loved itâloved the way he made you feel alive, reckless, like nothing else mattered but the two of you. the alcohol was hitting now, loosening your inhibitions, making everything a little hazier, a little more intense. you laughed more, leaned into jayâs touch more, feeling lighter, freer. the air between you was thick with something more than just fun, and jayâs breath against your neck as he moved with you only made it harder to ignore the tension building between you. âyou good?â he teased, his lips brushing against your ear, his hands roaming dangerously low. âbetter than good,â you grinned, your voice playful but laced with desire. âyou?â jay chuckled, his hips pressing harder into yours. âi think you know the answer to that.â the night became a blur of dancing, shots, laughter, and more teasing touches. at some point, as you ground your hips back against jay, you felt the unmistakable hardness pressing against your lower back. the heat pooled in your stomach, and without thinking, you threw a playful glance over your shoulder. âoops,â you said with a smirk, teasing him. jay raised an eyebrow, clearly amused. âoops?â he repeated, his tone dripping with sarcasm. âthatâs all youâve got to say?â you bit your lip, still moving against him, testing how far you could push. âwhat? i thought you were supposed to be a gentleman?â
jay groaned softly, his hands tightening on your hips. âgentleman or not, you keep grinding on me like that,â he murmured into your ear, his voice dark and rough, âand i might forget all my manners.â your heart raced, loving the way you were pushing him. âoh really?â you whispered, turning just enough for your lips to brush against his cheek. âso, what are you gonna do about it?â his eyes darkened further, and all the teasing vanished from his expression. his hand slid around your waist, pulling you closer, his body flush against yours. âyou sure you wanna test me, y/n?â his voice was low, a dangerous edge to it that made your pulse quicken. you swallowed hard, but you couldnât resist pushing him further. âi dunno,â you whispered, still teasing. âi kinda like seeing you like this.â jayâs chuckle was dark, low in his throat. âyou think youâre cute, donât you?â he muttered, pressing harder against you. âgrinding on me, saying âoopsâ like itâs nothing.â your pulse quickened, your body reacting to every word, every touch. âmaybe,â you breathed. âmaybe i thought you could handle it.â his lips grazed your neck, sending a shiver down your spine. âi can handle it,â he murmured, âbut can you?â you turned in his arms, your bodies still swaying to the music, faces inches apart. his eyes were dark with desire, the teasing grin gone. âso much for being a gentleman,â you whispered. jay smirked, pulling you tighter. âeven a gentleman has his limits, y/n.â
the heat between you both was almost unbearable now, the tension so thick it was suffocating. you leaned in closer, lips brushing his ear as you whispered, âby the way... i didnât end up wearing your favorite tonight.â jay raised an eyebrow, his voice low and rough as he pressed his hips harder into yours. âoh yeah?â he murmured, âgood thing iâm gonna be ripping them off anyway.â his words sent a thrill down your spine, and before you could respond, his lips crashed against yours, hot and desperate. the kiss was messy, consuming, tongues tangling as you both finally gave in to the tension that had been building all night. your hands fisted in his shirt, pulling him closer, your body arching into his as he groaned into your mouth.
but as you got lost in jayâs touch, you were completely unaware of the dark eyes watching you from the shadows. jungwon sat back, his drink forgotten, his vision narrowing until all he could see was you and jayâyour hands all over each other, your lips locked in a kiss that made his blood boil. he felt nothing but pure, unfiltered rage. you pulled away from jay, breathless, your lips swollen from the kiss. âwe should get out of here,â jay whispered, his voice rough with need. âyeah, letâs go back to mine,â you agreed, running a hand through your hair, still catching your breath. jungwonâs world spun. he couldnât hear the words, but he saw it allâthe way your body language shifted, the way you and jay talked, like you were about to leave. like you were going home together. his stomach twisted, bile rising in his throat. you were about to leave with jay. you were going to go home with him. jungwon shoved through the crowd, his mind racing. he couldnât let this happen. he had to get home first, had to do something before you and jay got there. before something happened that he couldnât stop. his hands clenched into fists as he stormed toward the exit.
jungwon barely made it. heâd fucking sprinted the whole way, the flat wasnât far from the club, but every second felt like it stretched into an eternity. his chest was tight, lungs burning as he raced, a sickening mix of desperation and fury pushing him harder. he knew you too wellâknew you wouldnât bother going far. not when you looked like you were ready to be fucked the moment you left that dance floor. the thought twisted his gut, but it also fueled him. he had to move faster. had to stop it. he burst into the flat, his breath ragged, each step slamming against the floor, reverberating through the walls. there was no fucking time. he stormed straight to his room, the door slamming so hard behind him it rattled the frame. his mind raced, pulse thundering in his ears, each thought more fucked up than the last. every step forward felt like he was spiraling deeper into madness, but he didnât care. he stumbled over to his desk, fingers trembling, yanking the drawer open so hard it nearly came off the tracks. inside, neatly tucked away, was the fully charged battery he always kept on standby. his hands shook as he grabbed it, almost dropping it in his frantic state. no time to waste. he bolted down the hall, his feet barely hitting the floor, his heart slamming against his ribcage. your room. he shoved the door open, eyes wild as he stormed inside. everything felt too slow, too fucking slow. he tore the old battery out of the hidden camera lodged in the eye of the teddy bear on your dresser. his hands fumbled, slipping as nerves made him clumsy, cursing under his breath. âfuck, come on,â he hissed, voice low, barely containing the panic that was surging up his throat.
finally, the new battery clicked into place, and the camera blinked to life, the red light staring back at him. jungwon stood there for a moment, frozen, staring at the tiny lens. his breath was shallow, chest heaving. his entire body felt like it was on the verge of breaking apart. soon, too soon, you and jay would walk through that door. and heâd have to watch it. all of it. the thought sent a wave of nausea crashing over him, and for a second, he thought he might actually be sick. but he swallowed it down, fists clenched so tight his knuckles turned white, and stormed back to his room. the door slammed shut behind him, the sound echoing through the flat like a gunshot, but he didnât give a fuck. he dropped into his chair, fingers trembling as he flipped open his laptop. the screen flickered to life, casting a harsh glow across his face. he waited, breath caught in his throat, until the live feed blinked onto the screenâyour bedroom, empty, waiting for what would happen next. but it wasnât enough. not for this. his mind was racing too fast, spinning out of control. he knew you wouldnât just stay in the bedroom, not with jay. youâd move, probably to the kitchen, the couchâwherever things got heated next. he couldnât fucking risk it.
jungwon shot up from his chair, grabbing another small camera he had stashed away for emergencies. this was it. this was the emergency. sprinting down the hall, he made his way to the kitchen, eyes scanning the room for the perfect spot. his gaze landed on a shelf near the counter, cluttered with just enough shit to hide the camera. he positioned it meticulously, adjusting it until it captured everythingâthe counter, the table, the couch, all of it. he stood back, staring at the tiny lens nestled among the clutter, knowing it would record every fucking thing that happened tonight. jungwon rushed back to his room, his body vibrating with adrenaline. he slammed himself down in front of the laptop, hands shaking as he switched the live feed back on. the screen split into twoâyour bedroom, the kitchen. every angle covered. he could see it all now. his breath came in sharp, shallow bursts as the weight of what heâd done settled over him like a heavy fog. his pulse thundered in his ears, his heart hammering against his ribs. all that was left to do was wait. wait for you and jay to walk through that door. and then watch. watch it all unfold, every fucked up second of it. he wasnât sure if he wanted to scream, break something, or just let the rage consume him entirely. but he would wait. and he would fucking watch.
you and jay stumbled down the street, the night air biting at your skin, but you barely noticed itâtoo caught up in the alcohol buzz and the warmth of jay pressed up against you. his arm was draped lazily over your shoulders, fingers teasing the back of your neck as he whispered something in your ear, something filthy that made you laugh too loud, breathless. the world around you blurred, nothing mattered except himâhis scent, the way his fingers lingered a little too long at the small of your back, sending heat rushing through you. you were both drunk, careless, and the electricity between you crackled like it was ready to explode. before you knew it, the flat loomed in front of you, your feet carrying you faster than your mind could keep up. the walk was too quick, too easy, like you both knew exactly where this was headed. lights off, no one home, the night was yours. and his. no need for keys, no time for second thoughts. the door clicked shut behind you, and before you could even blink, jay was on you, hands everywhere, lips crashing into yours with a hunger that knocked the air out of your lungs. your back slammed against the wall, and you gasped, not from pain but from the sheer intensity of it all. âfuck,â jay muttered into your mouth, his hands already gripping your waist, dragging you against him like heâd been holding back all night. âbeen waiting for this.â you let out a breathy laugh, tipping your head back to give him better access to your neck, his lips quick to find the sensitive skin there. âcould tell,â you teased, tugging at his shirt, fingers twisting in the fabric. âimpatient, arenât you?â
his teeth grazed your neck, and you moaned, barely able to form coherent thoughts as his hands wandered lower, rough, desperate. âcan you blame me?â his voice was low, thick with desire, breath hot against your skin. âi know you want it just as bad.â you let out a shaky laugh, your chest heaving as his fingers trailed dangerously close to the hem of your dress. âconfident, arenât you?â jay grinned against your skin, his hands sliding up your thighs, gripping them tight enough to leave marks. âiâd call it certainty,â he breathed into your ear, teeth grazing the shell of it. âi know exactly what you want.â your heart pounded in your chest, the heat between you two thickening, suffocating. you turned, eyes locking with his, daring him, testing him. âprove it.â he didnât need to be told twice. his lips slammed back against yours, slower now, but deeper, as if he was trying to drown you in the kiss. his teeth tugged at your lower lip before pulling back, a smirk tugging at the corners of his mouth as his hands roamed lower. with one sharp motion, he grabbed the fabric of your dress and ripped it, the sound echoing in the dark hallway. âjay!â you gasped, half-shocked, half-amused as you looked down at the ruined dress. âi liked that dress.â he smirked, unbothered, lips grazing yours again, his hands rough against your bare skin. âiâll buy you a new one,â he muttered, eyes dark with lust, his fingers already sliding under the waistband of your panties.
you were breathless, heat pooling low in your belly as his hands wandered further, fingers ghosting over the spot that had you aching for him. âreckless bastard,â you muttered, but the thrill was unmistakable in your voice. his lips found your neck again, sucking hard enough to bruise, and you moaned, your hands tangling in his hair, tugging him closer, urging him on. the world outside of this moment didnât exist, not the flat, not the night, not the possibility of anyone walking in. it was just you and him, and the growing tension between you that felt like it was about to snap. just as you were ready to lose yourself completely in him, jay pulled back, breath ragged, eyes dark. âwait⌠jungwon,â he muttered, voice thick with desire. âthink heâs home?â the mention of your stepbrother brought reality crashing down, if only for a second. you blinked, your pulse still racing, body still pressed tight against jayâs. jungwon. he was supposed to be out with jake and sunghoon, but⌠âi donât think so,â you mumbled, uncertainty creeping into your voice. âheâs out with the guys, butâŚâ
jayâs hands tightened on your waist, a low chuckle rumbling from his chest. âthen who gives a shit?â his voice was low, teasing. âeven if he is home, weâll just be quiet.â he smirked, leaning in closer, lips brushing your ear. âunless you want him to hear.â your breath hitched, the idea sending a shiver down your spine. the thought of jungwon walking in, seeing you like this, made you tenseâbut it also sent a thrill through you, something dark, something exciting. you bit your lip, glancing at jay. âheâd understand⌠right?â jay grinned, pulling you closer, his lips ghosting over yours. âtrust me,â he whispered, voice low, filled with promise. âhe wonât care. and if he does⌠weâll just have to be quieter, won't we?â "take it off already," you demanded, pushing the thought of jungwon away, voice thick with desire as your fingers played at the hem of jayâs shirt. jay gave you that cocky grin, effortlessly peeling it off, exposing the hard lines of his bare chest to your touch. his skin was warm under your fingertips, and jay's grin only widened as he watched you take him in. your hands roamed over his chest, lingering, exploring, before trailing lower. "impatient tonight, arenât we?" jay teased, his voice dripping with amusement as he leaned closer, his lips hovering dangerously close to yours.
"maybe," you shot back, playful, eyes daring him. "or maybe you're just taking too long." jay chuckled, his lips finally pressing against yours, hard and hungry. his hands slid over your body, pulling you closer, making you arch into him as he deepened the kiss. the way he touched you, like he couldnât get enough, sent a heat through your veins, every brush of his fingers leaving you wanting more. his lips traveled down your neck, leaving a trail of heat in their wake. you moaned softly, fingers digging into his shoulders as he worked his way lower, his hands moving over every curve, every dip, like he was claiming you for himself. "youâre not comfortable, are you?" jayâs voice was a low, teasing murmur against your skin as his fingers traced the edges of your dress. you let out a breathy laugh, your fingers trailing across his chest. "iâll manage. not like youâre giving me much of a chance to complain, are you?" jay smirked, lips brushing yours again, this time rougher, more impatient. "guess iâm not," he murmured, teeth grazing your lips as he pulled you closer. "but if you wanted to switch it up, i wouldnât mind." his hands slid down to your hips, pulling you flush against him. "is that right?" you teased, pushing back slightly, enjoying the way his body tensed under your touch. "and where do you want me, then?" jayâs voice dropped, thick with want, his eyes dark with lust as he stared at you. "anywhere i can fuck you properly." your lips curved into a smile as you tugged at his waistband. "then maybe you should hurry up and get those off, too, hmm?" jay stepped back just enough to undo his belt, the sound of it hitting the floor echoing through the room. you leaned back against the counter, watching him with a playful smirk, the tension between you building with every second.
as his pants hit the floor, jay paused for a moment, his eyes meeting yours, that wicked grin still tugging at the corners of his lips. "letâs go to my room," you whispered, pulling him toward you as you slipped off the counter. jayâs eyes flickered with hunger, his hands never leaving your body as you led him down the hallway, the heat between you nearly unbearable as you disappeared into the dark.
in the dim glow of his room, jungwonâs jaw tightened. jay's smug voice grated against his ears. "smug fucking bastard," he snarled, teeth grinding, voice low and dripping with venom. he couldn't tear his eyes away, couldnât stop himself from watching even though it was killing him inside. every move jay made felt like a taunt, a mockery of everything jungwon had ever wanted. the sight of jayâs hands on youâtouching, claimingâwas like acid burning through his veins. âyou think youâre better than me? fuck you.â he hissed, his voice barely a whisper but sharp enough to cut. his heart hammered against his ribs, chest tight with the fury that bubbled up with every second. jay stripping you of the dress? that was his touch you should be feeling, his lips you should be kissing, not jay's. "you think you can just walk in and take her?" his vision blurred with white-hot anger, teeth sinking into his lip until he tasted blood. watching jay move, touch, and claimâjungwon's body trembled with how badly he wanted to tear it all apart. it wasnât supposed to be like this.
his breath hitched as jayâs hands traveled lower, his body pressed against yours like he owned you. he fucking doesnât. jungwonâs mind raced, his thoughts spiraling into an obsession he couldnât control. i should be the one touching her. i should be the one kissing her like that. he couldnât stop replaying it over and overâpicturing himself in jayâs place, imagining how you would react to him instead. it shouldâve been him pulling you close, feeling your body beneath his hands, hearing you whisper his name, not fucking jay. "iâll make him pay," jungwon growled, voice hoarse with suppressed rage. his fingers twitched, itching to smash something, anything to stop this scene from unfolding in front of him. every breath jay took next to you felt like an insult, like he was stealing something that belonged to jungwon, ripping it right out of his hands. âfucking... asshole,â jungwon spat, chest rising and falling heavily, eyes fixed on jayâs stupid grin as he undid his belt. jungwonâs breath came faster, fury boiling over at how casual, how easy jay made it seem. like you were nothing more than something to pass the time with. he doesnât deserve you. heâll never fucking deserve you. when you tugged jay toward your room, jungwonâs breath hitched again, the room spinning around him. his room. his space. he was the one who should be walking down that hallway with you, not jay. he should be the one hearing your laugh, feeling your fingers pulling him close.
as jay disappeared with you down the hall, jungwon leaned back, cracking his knuckles one by one, eyes never leaving the screen. this isnât over. not by a long shot. his vision blurred, eyes burning with the sting of unshed tears, but the angerâthe fucking angerâthat was stronger than anything else. jungwon leaned back, cracking his neck, a twisted smile forming on his lips. just wait. he would wait, watch, and when the time came, heâd destroy everything. everything jay thought he had. everything. you donât even know what she needs. youâll never be enough for her, he thought viciously, his mind racing with the sickening idea of tearing it all down. every bit of jayâs hold over you, he would destroy it. piece by piece. with one last look at the screen, jungwonâs hand reached for the mouse. the live feed flickered, showing your room, the kitchen, all the places you and jay might go. all the places jungwon would be waiting.
as you opened the door to your room, jay was on you before you even had the chance to take a step inside. his hands gripped your waist with that urgency you knew so well, lifting you like you weighed nothing and tossing you onto the bed with a cocky smirk that made your heart race. you couldnât help the laugh that escaped you, your body sinking into the soft sheets, but it didnât last long. jay was already between your legs, grabbing your ankle, pulling you closer to the edge of the bed until your thighs dangled off. his eyes were dark, hungry, like he couldnât wait another second. your ripped dress barely hung on your body, teasing him with flashes of skin, and his fingers brushed the hem, slowly pushing it up as his gaze followed. he was taking his time, but you could see it in his eyesâhe wanted to devour you. âyouâre driving me fucking insane,â he muttered, his voice rough as his lips ghosted over your inner thigh. the heat between your legs was unbearable now, and the way his breath brushed your skin made you squirm. impatient, you slipped your panties off and tossed them aside, your body trembling with need. jayâs eyes flicked up to meet yours, his lips curling into a wicked grin. âoh? i was planning to rip those off myself.â he raised an eyebrow, teasing you. you giggled breathlessly. âgood thing i didnât wear the baby blue ones, huh?â
his chuckle was low, filled with mischief. âoh, i wouldnât have dared... but these? yeah, they had to go.â his fingers traced your wet folds, teasing just enough to make your breath hitch, and you could feel the tension building in the pit of your stomach. âyouâve been waiting for this, havenât you?â his voice was rough, full of desire as his fingers slid inside you, slow, deliberate, making you gasp. âlike your pussy hasnât been fucked in forever.â the heat of his words sent a wave of pleasure through you, your back arching as his thumb found your clit, circling with just enough pressure to make you tremble. âfuck,â you whimpered, gripping the sheets beneath you, your body practically melting under his touch. âthatâs it,â he whispered, his lips brushing against your ear, his fingers working you over. âiâm gonna make up for all that lost time.â you moaned, unable to form a coherent response as his fingers curled inside you, each stroke pulling you deeper into a haze of pleasure. every movement, every touch had you unraveling, breathless and trembling. âi thought you were a gentleman,â you managed to say, your voice barely more than a sigh, pleasure clouding your thoughts. jayâs grin against your skin sent shivers down your spine. âwho said iâm not?â his fingers continued their relentless rhythm. âmaybe iâm just giving you exactly what youâve wanted this whole time.â
he leaned back slightly, his hands trailing up to your breasts, thumbs brushing over your hardened nipples as he watched you squirm beneath him. âfuck, youâre so pretty,â he murmured, his voice thick with desire. before you could respond, his mouth was on your nipple, his tongue flicking over it, and you gasped, your back arching into him. the heat between you both was unbearable now, the thin fabric of his boxers doing little to hide just how hard he was. your legs wrapped around his waist instinctively, pulling him closer, your body aching for more. âmove up,â you breathed, your hands tugging at his shoulders, needing him closer, needing more of him. jay groaned low in his throat, lifting himself just enough to adjust, sliding up over your body until he was fully on the bed, his weight pressing down on you in a way that made your whole body hum with anticipation. his lips found your neck, kissing, biting, sending sparks of pleasure through you. âbetter?â his voice was rough, strained with desire as he settled between your thighs again. âso much better,â you gasped, your nails digging into his back, urging him closer, needing him more than ever.
jungwon sat at his desk, elbows digging into the wood, fingers gripping his hair so tightly it felt like he might rip it out. his bloodshot eyes were locked onto the screen, the harsh light of his laptop casting deep shadows across his tired, hollow face. no matter how much his eyes burned, how dry his throat felt from panting, he couldnât look away. his breath came in ragged gasps, mouth slightly open as he stared, feeling like the ground beneath him was crumbling. this couldnât be real. it felt like a nightmare, one he couldnât wake up from, watching jay touch you like thatâwatching you give in so easily, moaning under him, arching into his touch like you couldnât get enough. âfuck,â jungwon whispered, voice shaky, his fists clenching tighter in his hair, trying to ground himself in the pain. maybe if he pulled hard enough, heâd snap out of this. maybe if he hurt enough, itâd drown out the scene playing in front of him.
but nothing worked. his body betrayed him. despite the anger boiling in his chest, he could feel himself hardening, his breath becoming more erratic as jayâs lips wrapped around your nipple, sucking, teasing, while you whimpered beneath him. jungwonâs vision blurred with rage, but there was something else tooâsomething sick. something he couldnât stop. âsucking on your tits like that...â jungwon muttered through gritted teeth, his voice low, venomous, watching jay's hands grip your waist, watching how easily you surrendered to him. it twisted jungwonâs stomach, made him feel disgusted with himself, but stillâhe kept watching. he always watched. heâd watched you beforeâseen you with other guys through teddyâs eyes. it killed him every time, watching you with someone else, but this? this was different. jay was different. jungwon had never let himself go this far before, never crossed that line. never touched himself while watching. there had always been that line, the one he swore heâd never cross, no matter how much it hurt.
but this time, his hand hovered closer, trembling. jay was different. he hated it. hated how fucking good jay was. he could see itâcould fucking feel itâhow much more desperate you were, how much more you needed jay. jungwonâs jaw clenched so hard he thought his teeth might crack. you were never like this with anyone else. âyouâve never fucking been like this before,â jungwon growled, fists shaking, eyes burning into the screen as your fingers tangled in jayâs hair, pulling him closer, your moans louder, more frantic. it was unbearable. you were never this desperate with anyone else. never this needy. the realization hit him like a punch to the gut: jay might even be better than him. something inside him snapped. the line heâd drawn for himselfâthe line that kept him from fully diving into this twisted, fucked-up obsessionâblurred, then shattered completely. his hand shook as it moved toward his pants, his body acting on its own. there was no going back now. fuck it.
âno, no, no,â he hissed, frustration tearing through him, raw and suffocating. âwhy canât you see? why the fuck canât it be me?â the overwhelming urge to destroy somethingâanythingâburned in his chest. he wanted to reach through the screen, rip jay away from you, stop this entire scene, but instead, his shaky hands fumbled for something else. your panties. fresh from the wash, but it didnât matter. they were yours. they were enough. he brought them to his face, inhaling deeply, desperate for any trace of you, needing the connection, no matter how fucked up it was. his teeth bit down on the fabric, muffling the growl building in his chest, eyes glued to the screen, watching you, watching jay, feeling his whole body tremble with want, jealousy, and pure need. his hand moved lower, gripping his cock for the first time, unable to stop himself, unable to tear his gaze away from the scene unfolding before him. this should be me. why isnât it me? "iâm just letting him borrow you," he whispered, breath ragged, hand moving desperately now as his eyes stayed fixed on you. "youâre mine."
"i'll make fucking sure of it," he gasped, his voice trembling, eyes rolling back as he struggled to keep watching. you were flipping jay over so easily, like you had all the control. like you were playing a game. âbeen wanting to suck your cock for the longest time nowâŚâ your voice, low and teasing, drifted through the speakers, and it sent him spiraling. his hand moved faster, strangled moans tearing from his throat as he watched you lower yourself between jayâs legs, that cheeky grin lighting up your face like you were enjoying every second of it. fuck. "shit," jungwon groaned, his breath shaky, watching as you took jay into your mouth, the obscene wet sounds filling the room, driving him closer to madness. âyou should be doing that to me,â jungwon whimpered, his voice barely above a whisper, barely able to breathe. that should be him there, not fucking jay. the sight of you on your knees, lips wrapped around jayâs cock, burned into his mind, making his hand move faster, more frantic. âiâm the one whoâs been waiting⌠not him,â he spat, pressing your panties harder against his cock, the fabric rubbing against him, heightening the sensation until he could barely think straight. jayâs groans filled the room, his hand cupping your cheek as you teased the tip of his cock, swirling your tongue around him slowly, making him tremble. jayâs breath hitched, voice thick with lust.
âshit⌠just suck me off,â jayâs voice was raw, impatience laced with desire. âor i swear, iâll fuck you right now.â jungwonâs jaw tightened, his teeth grinding together as he watched you hold all the power over jay, completely in control. you had him wrapped around your finger. you smirked, dragging your tongue along the length of jayâs cock, savoring how his hips jerked forward, desperate for more, desperate for you. ây/n,â jay growled, voice heavy with need. âdonât make me wait.â and you didnât. with that sly smile still on your face, you took him deeper, hollowing your cheeks, your hands gripping his thighs, steadying yourself as you worked him. âoh, fuck,â jay muttered, his hands tangling in your hair, pulling you closer, thrusting deeper. âshit, is this okay?â his voice was strained, trembling. âwant to fuck your mouth, baby, will you let me?â the low moan you gave around his cock made jay groan, his hips bucking into your mouth, his control slipping, each thrust more eager, more desperate. he wasnât waiting anymoreâhe was fucking your mouth now, deeper, harder with each motion. jungwonâs breath hitched, his strokes becoming frantic as he watched jayâs cock moving deeper into your throat, every sound, every moan, every whimper pushing him closer to the edge. he wasnât going to last. not like this. not watching you like this.
heâs completely lost in it now, hands gripping your head firmly as he thrusts into your throat, groaning with every deep stroke, the sound of your muffled squeals driving him wild. âthatâs it,â jay gasps, voice shaky, breath coming fast as he watches you struggle to take him, your lips stretched tight around his cock, tears welling up at the corners of your eyes. the wet, obscene sounds between you both fill the room, slick and needy, making him moan in satisfaction. "you sound so pretty like this," jay rasps, his hand tightening in your hair, controlling your movements as he thrusts deeper. âlook at you, taking my cock so well⌠you love it, donât you? love how filthy this is?â you try to nod, eyes rolling back as you gag slightly, the raw need in his voice only turning you on more. jay leans back, biting his lip, clearly getting off on the sight of you choking on him, watching as your throat struggles to handle his size. âyouâre a fucking dream, baby,â he mutters, voice rough with lust. âyou gonna let me keep fucking that pretty mouth? yeah?â he doesnât wait for an answer. his hips move faster, his cock sliding in and out of your mouth with each thrust, more desperate, more intense with every second. you grip the sides of his thighs, nails digging into his skin as you feel him pulse in your mouth, his cock swelling as he nears the edge.
but just when you think heâs about to finish, jay abruptly pulls you off him. you cough, gasping for air, eyes tear-stained, cheeks flushed, and saliva trailing from your lips down to his cock. you barely have a moment to catch your breath before jay growls. âcome here,â he demands, voice thick with urgency as he pulls you into his lap, positioning you to straddle him, knees pressing into the mattress on either side of his hips. the second your bodies connect, his mouth crashes against yours, kissing you hard, teeth scraping against your lips as his hands grip your waist, fingers digging into your skin like he canât get enough of you. before you know it, heâs flipping you onto your back, his body hovering over you, hands roaming your skin, rough and needy. his cock presses against your entrance, teasing you as he drags the tip through your slick folds, just brushing against your core but refusing to give you what youâre aching for. âbeg,â jay growls, his lips brushing your ear, breath hot against your skin as he holds himself right there, torturing you with the anticipation. âi wanna hear you beg for it.â
your body arches toward him, the heat between your legs unbearable as your voice trembles, âplease, jay⌠fuck me.â his smirk deepens, fingers digging into your waist as he pushes in just enough to make you feel the stretch but not enough to satisfy. ânot good enough,â he murmurs, voice teasing as he hovers on the edge. âtell me how bad you want it.â you whimper, nails biting into his shoulders as you gasp, âplease, i need you⌠i need you to fuck me open, jay⌠i want it so bad.â he groans, the sound guttural as he slides just the tip of his cock inside, your soaked pussy immediately clenching around him. âshit,â jay mutters, inching his way in slowly, eyes locked on yours as he watches your face twist in pleasure. âdidnât think youâd be this tight, baby. youâve been waiting for this, havenât you?â your breath is shaky, jaw slack as he stretches you inch by inch. itâs almost too much, your fingers gripping the sheets beneath you as you struggle to adjust to his size. âjay,â you whimper, your body tensing as he bottoms out, his cock buried deep inside you. the intensity makes you yelp, your body instinctively trying to pull away.
he grips your hips tighter, holding you in place, a wicked grin spreading across his face. âwhere do you think youâre going?â he taunts. âthought you wanted this. wanted me to fuck you like this. youâre not running now.â âwait,â you manage to smile through the haze, breath uneven as you try to adjust to the stretch. âyouâre⌠big.â jayâs grin widens, eyes glinting with pride. âyou can take it,â he growls, rolling his hips slowly, teasing you with the slightest movements. âlook at your pussy getting all stretched out for me.â your body responds immediately, legs trembling as he starts moving again, setting a rhythm that has you gasping for air, toes curling with every thrust. jay bites his lower lip, watching you struggle to take him, the sight of you barely holding on only spurring him on. he canât help himself.
âharder?â jay chuckled, teasing, as he leaned back and adjusted his grip on the back of your thighs, spreading your legs wider. his weight pressed down on you, pinning you to the bed, completely at his mercy. your hands scrambled for something to hold onto, anything to steady yourself as the shift in position made you feel every inch of him more intensely. each deep thrust sent shockwaves through your body, forcing you to arch up, gasping for air. jay looked down at you, eyes dark with lust as he took in the sightâyou, wrecked beneath him, panting, completely undone. he loved it. loved the way you looked like this, completely under him. now, with your legs spread even wider, he could feel so much more of you, every inch of your slick pussy gripping him tighter. âfuck... you feel that?â jay stuttered, his voice thick with pleasure as his pace quickened, hips slamming into you harder. âi can feel every part of you like this... shit, youâre taking me so fucking deep.â your moans were ragged, desperate, each one louder than the last as the pleasure crashed over you, your body arching off the bed with every powerful thrust. âjay... oh my godâŚâ he smirked, watching you struggle beneath him, gripping your thighs tighter, spreading you open even more. âthatâs right, baby,â he growled, his voice rough. âyouâre gonna take it all... every inch of me.â you could only whimper, his pace brutal, relentless, driving you closer and closer to the edge. each thrust had you quivering, spiraling beneath him as he pounded into you, taking you apart with each stroke. âyou love this, donât you?â jay breathed, eyes burning with lust as he watched your body react to every movement. âyou love being fucked like thisâŚâ
you managed a weak nod, your voice barely a whisper through the overwhelming pleasure. âyes... fuck, jay... i love itâŚâ jungwonâs grip tightened around his cock, jerking himself off even though his stomach and thighs were already a sticky mess of cum. your panties, soaked and sticky with his release, dragged over his shaft, the fabric clinging to him as he pumped faster, his hand shaking. âfuckâŚâ he hissed, barely able to get the word out, teeth clenched as he watched jay slam into you, each thrust harder, deeper. every sound you made almost tore him apart, his body jerking like he could feel it, like he was the one fucking you. "look at you... getting fucked dumb on his cock," jungwonâs voice cracked, bitter and desperate, a twisted mix of jealousy and arousal tearing through him. his strokes turned frantic, jerking himself harder, faster, like if he could go hard enough, fast enough, he could make it realâmake it him instead of jay. his stomach clenched, head thrown back, legs trembling as he imagined it was him inside you. âyouâd feel so much better with me,â he growled under his breath, his hand moving faster, frustration boiling over. âiâd fuck you better than him,â jungwon choked out, barely more than a growl. his cock throbbed in his hand as he imagined you screaming his name, wanting him the way you wanted jay. âyouâd fucking seeâŚâ your moans, the way you shook, the way you screamedâjungwon was losing it. he wanted that. needed that. his body tensed as another orgasm ripped through him, spilling over the already soaked panties. jay was relentless, slamming into you so hard you could barely breathe, your entire body trembling, feeling light-headed with pleasure as you teetered on the edge of release.
jungwon could see it, could feel it in his bones. his breath hitched as he watched, hating the sight of jay inside you, filling you when it shouldâve been him. âshit, your pussyâs too good,â jay grunted, his voice strained as he thrust into you harder. suddenly, he pulled out, leaving you gasping, your body aching for more, already too wound up. ânot yet,â jay whispered against your lips, teasing you with the faintest brush of his mouth before pulling back. his hand tapped your thigh, commanding you to move. before you could even think, jay flipped you onto your stomach, positioning you like you were nothing more than a toy to him. his hands gripped your hips tight, lifting you the way he liked, preparing to take you all over again.
out of nowhere, jayâs hand cracked down on your ass, the sharp slap echoing through the room. you yelped, the sting rippling into a wave of pleasure that lit your body on fire. âfuck,â you whimpered, biting your lip, wanting more. âyou like that?â jayâs voice was rough, dripping with lust as he knelt behind you, his hands kneading your ass before delivering another sharp smack. âlook at you, already missing my cock.â your moans were muffled by the pillow, your body trembling as your hips pushed back, desperate for him to fill you again. he lined up, teasing your entrance, barely brushing against you, making you squirm. âjay, please,â you begged, voice breathless, needy. he chuckled low, letting the head of his cock tease you, dragging it along your slick folds, enough to make you squirm but never giving you what you needed. âtell me how much you want it,â he growled, his lips ghosting over your ear, his voice filled with desire. âput it back in,â you whined, pressing back against him, trying to take him in yourself. but jay only smirked, pulling away just enough to enjoy your frustration. his chest pressed against your back, his cock dragging torturously over your slick folds, teasing you without mercy. his breath was hot on your neck as he whispered, âyou want it that bad?â you bit your lip, holding back, but when he nudged just the tip inside and pulled out again, your body jolted, your pride cracking. âjay, please,â you murmured, voice trembling with need, the ache between your legs growing unbearable. his dark chuckle brushed against your skin, his lips grazing your neck. âcâmon, y/n⌠say it,â he teased, giving you another shallow thrust, pulling back just as quickly. âyou know you want it.â
your nails dug into the sheets, frustration building as your control slipped. âi want it, please,â you gasped, breath shaky. âfuck my pussy... give it to me.â his grin widened against your skin, and he pulled back just enough to line himself up, lips close to your ear. âthen take it,â he growled, slamming into you hard and deep in one brutal thrust, making you scream into the pillow. âoh godâjay,â you cried, voice muffled, body shaking beneath him as his teeth sank into your shoulder, the sharp pain mixing with overwhelming pleasure. âfuck,â jay groaned, his breath ragged against your skin. âwanted to take you out on a proper date, but you had to grind on me at the club.â his voice was low, growling between each brutal thrust, the slap of skin filling the room, drowning out your desperate moans as your body quivered beneath his weight. âcouldnât help it,â you choked out, voice breaking between gasps. âyou looked so fucking good.â jayâs grip on your waist tightened, his pace relentless, fucking you harder, making you scream as waves of pleasure rolled through you. âgoddamn, y/n⌠youâre driving me fucking insane.â âi finallyâŚâ you panted, voice barely coherent, âbroke you, didnât i? you fuck like an animal.â
jay growled low, his hands gripping your hips hard enough to bruise. âmaybe you did,â he muttered, voice raw with need. âlook what you fucking do to me.â his words sent a shiver down your spine, pushing you closer to the edge as his thrusts became more desperate, more intense. âyou wanted this,â he growled, his breath hot against your neck, his chest heavy on your back. âyou wanted me like this, didnât you?â you tried to hold back the moans, but he was so deep inside you, every thrust pushing you closer to the brink. âyes,â you gasped, nails clawing at the sheets. âyes, jay, donât stopâkeep fucking me.â his grunts grew louder, his pace brutal as he chased his release, lips brushing yours in a messy, heated kiss. his hips stuttered, rhythm faltering as he reached his limit, overwhelmed by how much you wanted him, how you took everything he gave like you were made for him. âfuck, iâm so close,â he groaned, voice strained. âgonna pull out, baby.â but you shook your head, legs wrapping tighter around him. âno,â you whispered, breathless but firm. âjustâgive it to me. i want all of it.â jayâs breath hitched, body trembling as he tried to hold on. âfuck, you're serious?â he rasped, control slipping. you nodded, licking your lips, urging him to let go, needing him to finish inside you.
your nails dug deeper into the sheets, your body trembling as you gasped, âdonât pull out⌠cum in my pussy⌠fill me up.â his grip tightened, his voice wrecked. âyouâll make me get you pregnant, baby,â he groaned, eyes dark with lust, staring down at you. âgod, youâre fucking killing me.â you nodded, desperate, voice barely audible. âi⌠iâll take care of it,â you moaned, meeting his thrusts. âjust- please, inside me. youâre fucking me so good, want itââ âoh fuck, y/n,â jay growled, pushing in deep as his body shook, coming hard inside you, filling you with everything he had. âtake it,â jay grunted, his voice raw, body jerking against you one last time as the heat flooded you. even as he finished, you kept grinding against him, milking every drop from him. his body trembled, his moans turning helpless as he collapsed on top of you, completely spent. âshit⌠stop moving, baby,â jay gasped, but even as the words left his mouth, his body couldnât stay still, still trembling as he held you tighter, keeping himself buried deep inside you.
his breath was hot against your neck, heart pounding hard enough that you could feel it against your back. soft kisses trailed along your shoulder, his lips warm, gentle, as his body slowly came down from the high. âiâm sensitive,â jay muttered, his voice low and intimate, a softness creeping into the words as he shifted, turning both of you so you were curled into him, still connected. his cock twitched inside you, the aftershocks of his release sending shivers through his body. he held you close, arms tight around your waist, his fingers lazily tracing patterns on your skin as the two of you lay there in silence. âiâm not going anywhere,â he whispered, pressing a soft kiss to the back of your neck, his voice a quiet promise. you shifted slightly, wincing at the overstimulation, making jay groan. âugh, that was so fucking good,â you mumbled, your voice muffled against his chest. âdonât move,â he groaned, tightening his grip on you, his arms possessive. âdonât wanna pull out yet.â you stayed tangled together, limbs entwined, the warmth of post-orgasm settling into your bones. the only sound in the room was the steady rhythm of your breathing, occasionally broken by soft laughs as you both tried to process what had just happened. jay shifted beside you, still warm, pulling you even closer as if he couldnât stand to be apart from you. his fingers brushed lightly over your waist, and you felt your eyelids growing heavier, the peaceful haze of sleep starting to take over.
âmm, y/n?â his voice was soft, thick with sleep as he nuzzled into your neck, his breath warm against your skin. âyeah?â you mumbled, your voice hoarse. âyou okay?â âjust couldnât get comfortable for a second,â he murmured, pressing a lazy kiss to your shoulder. âsorry, you can go back to sleep, baby.â the word âbabyâ made you smile, but you were too exhausted to tease him for it. his affection was clear, and it warmed you from the inside out. but as your mind began to wander, a nagging thought crept inâjungwon. you hadnât heard from him since last night, and a small part of you couldnât help but wonder where he was, if he was okay. you tried to push the thought away, but it lingered, pulling you out of the comfortable haze. âwhat time is it?â you asked softly, not really expecting an answer, just needing a distraction. âstill early,â jay murmured, pressing his lips against your neck again. âdonât worry about it.â
you tried to relax, to let his warmth lull you back to sleep, but your mind kept circling back to jungwon. âdid jungwon ever get home?â you whispered, the question slipping out before you could stop it. jay shifted beside you, his arm tightening around your waist slightly. âjungwon?â he muttered, still drowsy. âi dunno⌠didnât hear him come in.â you bit your lip, unease gnawing at you. jungwon had gone out with jake and sunghoon, and usually, he would at least text if he wasnât coming back. but your phone was somewhere on the floor, and jay had you wrapped so tightly you couldnât reach it. still, something didnât feel right. âheâll be fine, y/n,â jay murmured, sensing your tension even half-asleep. his voice was soothing, but it didnât fully ease the anxious twist in your stomach. âyeah, youâre probably right,â you whispered, though the unease remained. you snuggled back against him, trying to let the comfort of his presence calm you, but your mind kept wandering back to jungwon. jay shifted again, and this time his voice was softer, more hesitant. ây/n?â he began quietly, his breath brushing against your neck. âwould you be mad if i told you i like you so fucking much?â his words snapped you out of your thoughts, your heart skipping a beat. âmad?â you turned slightly to look at him, a small smile tugging at your lips. âwhy would i be mad?â
he sighed, rubbing gentle circles on your side as he met your eyes. âi dunno. maybe âcause iâm saying it now... after we just, you know, had sex for the first time.â he chuckled awkwardly. âkinda feels like i shouldâve said it before all of this.â you couldnât help but laugh softly at his honesty, your fingers brushing lightly against his chest. âyou did call me your girl earlier, remember?â you teased, easing the tension with a playful smile. he grinned, rolling his eyes. âyeah, real smooth, huh?â âso smooth,â you laughed quietly, shaking your head as the weight of the moment lifted between you. he leaned in closer, his forehead resting against yours, his voice softer now. âbut seriously... i like you. a lot. more than i thought i would.â his confession made your chest warm, and your heart beat a little faster. âi like you too, jay,â you admitted, your fingers tracing patterns on his skin. âand no, iâm not mad.â relief washed over his face, and his smile widened as he tucked a strand of hair behind your ear. âgood. âcause i really donât wanna fuck this up.â âyouâre not,â you whispered, leaning in to kiss him gently, reassuring him. for now, in this moment, everything between the two of you felt rightâeven if your mind kept drifting back to jungwon. jay sighed, content, pulling you even closer, his body relaxing against yours. but as sleep started to creep back in, that small thought of jungwon lingered in the background, refusing to let go.
jungwon slumped back in his chair, chest heaving, body drenched in sweat, his skin clammy with the aftermath of how far he'd let himself go. his heart pounded violently, each beat a reminder of the sick desperation that gripped him tighter with every passing second. no matter how many times he came tonight, it wasnât enough. it never was. the screen had gone black minutes ago, but the soundsâthe haunting echoes of your moans and jayâs gruntsâplayed relentlessly in his mind. it felt like they were carved into his skull, on repeat, taunting him, reminding him of every moment he wasnât there, every time jay had what he craved most. jungwon dragged a trembling hand through his hair, the strands sticking to his damp forehead, his eyes burning with unshed tears. his other hand still clutched your lingerie, the delicate lace now crumpled and soaked with his own cum. disgust surged through him as he stared at the fabric. it felt like a mockery of the connection he so desperately longed for. he let it fall from his fingers, the soft thud of it hitting the keyboard echoing like a final defeat. but the disgust didnât make the ache in his chest any less real. it clawed at him, gnawing at his insides, threatening to tear him apart from the inside out. how long was he going to do this to himself? how long would he have to watch you give everything to jay? his teeth sank into his lip, hard enough to draw blood, the sharp taste grounding him for just a second before the agony crashed back in, stronger than ever. it wasnât about the releaseânever was. the way you begged jay to fuck you harder, to cum inside youâit was a knife twisted in jungwonâs gut, over and over. âfuckâŚâ his voice shook, barely more than a whisper. he hated himself for how much he wanted to blame you. but he couldnât. he could never hate you, even as every part of him shattered under the weight of it all.
his body trembled, weak from the overstimulation, but his mind was a stormâeach thought darker, more desperate. he pushed himself up from the chair, legs barely supporting him as he stumbled toward the bed, collapsing onto it face-first, still half-naked, pants bunched around his thighs. his cock twitched against the sheets, oversensitive and raw, but the pleasure had turned into something hollow, something meaningless. the silence of the room pressed in on him, thick and suffocating. jungwon hugged his pillow tightly, his chest rising and falling with ragged breaths, exhaustion clinging to him, but sleep felt impossibly far. his mind wouldnât stop racing. how could he ruin this? how could he tear jay down, rip him apart, make sure he could never have you again? thoughts of revenge spiraled in his head, each one darker, more vicious than the last, but nothing felt like enough. nothing matched the depth of the emptiness he felt. he needed to break jay. he needed to make jay feel the same crushing agony that had consumed him for weeks. the same jealousy, the same suffocating helplessness. he needed to make jay feel what it was like to lose everything. with a sharp breath, jungwon slammed his fist into his chest, the impact sending a shock of pain through his ribs, but it did nothing to drown out the ache inside him. if anything, the hollow feeling only grew, spreading through his veins like poison. it wasnât enough. âfuck!â jungwon gasped, his voice cracking, raw and broken as he punched his chest again, harder this time. his knuckles throbbed from the force, but the pain was futileâuseless against the tidal wave of emotion threatening to drown him.
tears welled in his eyes, hot and unrelenting. his hands shook as he gripped his hair, pulling hard, trying to keep the sobs at bay, but it was useless. the dam broke, and a harsh, guttural sob tore from his throat. one after the other, the sobs came, his entire body shaking with the force of them. âno⌠noâŚâ he whimpered between gasping breaths, the tears streaming down his face, soaking into the pillow beneath him. he had never felt so broken, so pathetic. the sobs wouldnât stop, his entire body convulsing with each ragged cry, years of frustration, jealousy, and desperation bubbling to the surface all at once. âitâs not fair,â jungwon whimpered, his voice barely audible, choking on the words as they left his lips. âitâs not fucking fair.â âwhy?â he cried out, voice shattering in the darkness, trembling and fragile. he buried his face deeper into the pillow, trying to muffle the broken sobs that tore from him, but nothing could stop the flood of agony ripping him apart. the pain grew, gnawing at him, spreading through his chest like wildfire, consuming him completely. âi love you,â jungwon whispered, the words trembling, broken, and so full of hurt. âfuck, i love you so much.â but his words fell flat, lost in the empty silence of his room. they hung in the air, unanswered, just like every other desperate plea heâd made. he sobbed harder, the tears coming slower now, but no less painful, each one a bitter reminder that nothing had changed. nothing would change. he lay there for what felt like hours, broken, sobbing into the darkness, waiting for the pain to subside. but it didnât. it lingered, sharp and unyielding, an open wound that wouldnât heal. deep down, he knew it never would. he would never escape this.
days passed, and jungwon became nothing more than a ghost in the apartment, slipping through the cracks, disappearing into the shadows like he was made of them. you never saw him during the day, only heard the faintest shuffle of footsteps late at night, long after youâd gone to bed, when he knew you wouldnât be around to see him. at first, you thought he wasnât coming home at all. no signs, no sounds. it was like heâd vanished. but then, in the dead of night, there it wasâthe creak of a door, the quiet rustle of sheets, the almost imperceptible presence of him trying to remain unseen. he was avoiding you, and you had no idea why. it took you days to work up the courage to knock on his door. you didnât know what you were expecting, but the silence that greeted you after your hesitant knock made the knot in your chest tighten. âjungwon? you there?â your voice was barely a whisper, pressed against the door like you were afraid of what you might hear. there was no response. just more suffocating silence. you were about to give up, about to turn away, when you heard itâthe faintest rustle of movement, sheets shifting, the sound of someone deliberately staying quiet. he was there. he didnât want to face you. "hey⌠youâve been in there for days... are you okay?" you tried again, the ache in your chest making your voice softer, more desperate. nothing. no answer. the silence dragged on, the weight of it pressing down on you until you couldnât take it anymore. eventually, you walked away, the heavy thud of your footsteps echoing through the empty hallway. the few times you did catch a glimpse of him, it was like seeing a ghost. jungwon would slip past you in the hallway, his head down, shoulders slumped, moving so quickly it was like he couldnât get away fast enough. he wouldnât look at you, wouldnât even acknowledge your presence, like you werenât there.
his face⌠god, his face. gaunt, hollowed out, dark circles carved beneath his eyes so deep it looked like he hadnât slept in weeks. his lips, pale and cracked, barely held together, and his clothes hung loosely on him, like heâd stopped caring about everythingâincluding himself. the jungwon you knew was gone, replaced by this hollow shell, this shadow of a person who had locked himself away so deep inside that you didnât know how to find him anymore. and then there was that night. youâd woken up thirsty, stumbling into the kitchen for a glass of water, when you found him sitting at the counter. jungwon was just sitting there, staring blankly at the floor, an untouched plate of food in front of him, cold and forgotten. he didnât move, didnât acknowledge you when you entered. his stillness was unnerving, like he was frozen in place, trapped in a moment he couldnât escape from. âjungwon?â you whispered, your voice trembling with concern, hoping, praying heâd respond this time. but he didnât. he didnât look up, didnât flinch. he just sat there, hollow and vacant, like a ghost haunting the room, as if your presence meant nothing to him. and then, just as slowly as heâd appeared, he stood, his movements stiff and robotic, walking past you as if you werenât even there. like you didnât exist. for a fleeting moment, you caught a glimpse of his faceâthe emptiness in his eyes, the haunted look that twisted your gut with worry. it was like staring into a void, like jungwon wasnât really there at all anymore. whatever was happening inside him, it was consuming him from the inside out, pulling him further and further away from you, into a darkness you couldnât reach. something was horribly wrong, and no matter how hard you tried to reach him, to break through that impenetrable wall heâd built around himself, jungwon was slipping further and further away, disappearing into a place where you couldnât follow.
you found yourself standing in front of jungwonâs door again, hand hovering over the wood, your heart pounding in your chest. this wasnât the first time, but it felt heavier now, like there was more on the line. you hesitated, teeth sinking into your lip, before finally knocking. just like every other time, there was nothing but silence. the faint hum of the apartmentâs air filled the space around you, but from behind that door, it was as if nothing existed. no movement. no sound. no acknowledgment of you.
the tightness in your chest grew, a knot of anxiety settling deep inside. you missed him. the silence, the way he was avoiding youâeverything about it felt wrong, like something crucial had been ripped away. you stood there, staring at the door, chewing your lip, debating whether to walk away again, or push through the painful awkwardness. you couldnât just leave things like this. not with him. âjungwon,â you said softly, your voice barely a whisper, fragile in the quiet hallway. âiâm... iâm worried about you. i donât know whatâs going on, but youâve been so distant, and itâs not like you. can you please talk to me?â nothing.
the silence on the other side of the door pressed down on you, suffocating. you leaned your forehead against the wood, trying to hold back the swell of frustration and sadness building inside. why wouldnât he just talk to you? what had changed between you two? youâd always been close, always had that connection. but now? it was like you were invisible. you exhaled shakily, deciding to try a different approach. "iâm going to tell you about my day, okay?" your voice was lighter, like you were forcing a smile even though he couldnât see it. âi know you probably donât care right now, but maybe if you hear me out, youâll feel like talking to me. or at least... listen.â you leaned your body against the door, as if you could get closer to him through it. âi went to work, and it was... fine, i guess. lisa kept annoying me with her gossip, you know how she is. she tried to drag me out for drinks after, but i wasnât feeling it.â you let out a small laugh, trying to inject some normalcy into the air, like it would remind him of what used to be easy between you two. âi know how much you hate hearing about her, but i donât have anyone else to vent to right now, so... sorry, youâre stuck with this.â
still, silence. the ache in your chest deepened, but you kept going. âjayâs been away on a business trip. he left a few days ago... and i donât know, itâs been harder than i thought. him being gone, and now you avoiding me... itâs making everything worse.â your voice cracked, and you hated how vulnerable you sounded, but you couldnât help it. it was the truth. you felt so alone without jungwon and jay. you always leaned on him when things got hard, but now even he was gone, unreachable. âi miss you,â you finally admitted, voice barely above a whisper, your hand pressing flat against the door, wishing you could feel him on the other side. "i miss how we used to talk, how weâd hang out. i donât know what happened between us, but... itâs killing me that youâre avoiding me. i just... i need my brother back." you waited, heart hammering, hoping for anythingâa sound, a word, something to let you know he was still there. but there was nothing. the silence was thick and unrelenting, swallowing you whole.
your throat tightened, the feeling of helplessness wrapping itself around you. you took a deep breath, giving the door one last soft tap. "iâll leave you alone now, but... please, jungwon. just talk to me. whenever youâre ready." you turned away, your heart heavy, each step feeling like you were sinking further into a pit. the quiet in the hallway was suffocating, and the weight of jungwonâs absence pressed down harder on you with every second that passed. you missed him, more than you could put into words. the distance between you felt impossible to bridge, and no matter how hard you tried, it only seemed to grow wider. "can you at least try to answer my texts?" you called out, voice softer now, almost pleading, desperation leaking through. you stopped in the middle of the hall, waiting, waiting for something, anything. but the silence stretched on, and the gnawing ache in your chest worsened. nothing.
not a single sound came from his room. it was like he wasnât even there anymore. you swallowed hard, fighting the lump in your throat, your heart sinking lower with each second that passed without a response. the frustration, the sadness, the helplessnessâit weighed on you like a stone, heavy and crushing. you didnât know how to reach him anymore. you didnât know how to bring him back. âplease, jungwon,â you whispered, your voice barely audible, more to yourself than to him now. you stood there, rooted to the spot, waiting, hoping, wishing for something, anything. but all you got was the same oppressive silence that had surrounded you for days. finally, with a deep sigh, you turned away, that familiar ache settling deeper in your chest, like a hole that couldnât be filled. each step down the hall felt heavier than the last, your mind racing with all the things you wanted to say but couldnât. you wanted him back. you wanted your brother back. but he was slipping further away, and you didnât know how to stop it.
you sat curled up on the couch, legs tucked beneath you, scrolling through your messages with jay. the conversation had started light, but as the texts went on, you could feel the emptiness creeping in, the sharp realization of how much you missed him gnawing at you.
you: hey... i miss you. feels kinda empty here without you jay: i miss you too, baby. just a few more days and i'll be back before you know it you: ugh, this business trip sucks. feels like forever jay: trust me, iâm counting down the days too you: you better make it up to me when you get back ;) you bit your lip, a smile tugging at the corner of your mouth as you imagined him reading that message. there was a small pause before his reply came in. jay: oh, i will. got something special planned for you. promise. you: now iâm curious... jay: youâll have to wait and see ;) but donât worry. itâll be worth it.
you could practically hear the smirk in his words, and the thought made your chest flutter. as much as you hated being apart, jay always knew how to ease the ache, even if it was just through a few flirty texts. you: wish you were here though... feels off without you around jay: same here. but iâll be back soon. promise. you: ugh, youâre so positive lol. i wish i had that right now jay: gotta keep the vibes up, babe. weâll be fine, just a little longer. you: okay, fine... but i still hate it lol jay: youâll survive. iâll make it up to you, remember? you: you better...
the conversation made you smile, but the silence around you felt heavier than before. it lingered, pressing down as you stared at the screen, waiting for another response. then:
jay: iâve got meetings for the next few hours, so i wonât be reachable, okay? you: yeah, okay. good luck, donât work too hard jay: iâll try. talk soon, love you. you: love you too. you sighed, putting your phone down, staring at the empty room. jay was rightâyouâd see him soonâbut that didnât stop the ache. the apartment felt hollow without him, and worse, jungwon was barely speaking to you. what if jungwon was still acting distant when jay came back? maybe jay could help. maybe heâd get jungwon to open up. but for now, you were left alone in the quiet. you chewed on your nail absentmindedly, eyes flicking to the screen, but the movie playing was just background noise, something to fill the silence. after a few moments, you reached for your phone again, scrolling through the unanswered texts youâd sent to jungwon. the long thread of messages, one after another, stared back at you, and each unread line made your heart sink further.
you: hey, you havenât left your room in days? you: seriously, jungwon, whatâs going on? you: are you mad at me? i just want to talk. you: please answer me.
not a single response. you frowned, the tightness in your chest growing, frustration mixing with the sadness that had been building for days. why wouldnât he just talk to you? part of you wanted to give him space, let him come to you when he was ready, but the longer he stayed away, the more it hurt. with a deep sigh, you opened up another message. you: look, i donât know whatâs going on, but i hate this distance between us. if you need space, fine, but at least let me know youâre okay. you hesitated, staring at the screen, your thumb hovering over the send button. would he even read this? you hit send anyway, the weight of the unsaid words pressing on your chest. after a moment, you typed one last message. you: if you want to talk or just hang out... my doorâs open. come to my room if you feel like it. you set your phone down, the silence of the apartment swallowing you whole. without the distraction of the TV, the quiet was deafening, making the emptiness feel so much more real. you glanced at your phone one last time, hopingâwishingâfor a reply, but there was nothing. not even a sign that heâd read your messages.
with a soft sigh, you turned off the TV and made your way to your room. the bed creaked softly as you dropped onto it, pulling the blankets around you. your phone lay on the nightstand, screen dark and still, the silence hanging heavy around you. you left the door cracked open, just in case. the apartment was too still, and jungwonâs absence weighed on you like a physical thing. you lay there, staring up at the ceiling, eyes heavy with exhaustion, but sleep didnât come easily. it was a restless kind of feeling, the kind that left you half-awake, waiting for something that might never come.
and then, the bed dipped. you jolted awake, heart slamming against your ribcage, the remnants of sleep still clouding your vision. you blinked, eyes adjusting to the dim light, and there he wasâjungwon. sitting at the edge of your bed, his back turned to you, his posture rigid. âjesus, you fucking scared me,â you muttered, trying to steady the pounding in your chest. he didnât move, didnât acknowledge your words. just sat there, like a statue, head bowed, shoulders tense. something was offâreally offâand the heavy silence that hung between you only made it worse. you noticed the door was closed. when had that happened? the stillness of the room felt suffocating now, like the air itself was thick with everything left unsaid.
hesitant, you reached out, placing a hand gently on his back. the moment your palm touched him, you felt him flinch, his body reacting to the contact like it was a jolt of electricity. but he didnât pull away. he stayed there, frozen, his breath catching in his throat before it escaped in a deep, shaky exhale. âplease,â you whispered, voice so soft it was almost swallowed by the tension in the room, âdonât shut me out. i miss you.â the words seemed to snap something inside him. jungwon turned his head sharply, eyes wide, and for the first time in a long while, you could see everythingâall of it. the raw, unfiltered emotion that heâd been hiding. his eyes shimmered with unshed tears, and though he blinked quickly, trying to hold them back, it was too late. youâd seen the truth. you could feel the hurt radiating from him, almost palpable. âyou⌠miss me?â his voice cracked, disbelief laced in every syllable, as if the very idea of you missing him was foreign, impossible. there was something raw, almost desperate, flickering in his gaze, something that made your heart clench painfully in your chest.
you nodded, your throat tightening, the emotions between you thickening. how had you not noticed? how had you let it get this bad? âwowâŚâ jungwon muttered, running a trembling hand through his hair, visibly trying to keep himself from falling apart. but it was clear he was on the edge, barely holding on. his emotions swirled around him, chaotic and heavy, and you could feel the weight of it pressing on you too. âyou just say that, and suddenly⌠i want to be okay again.â his voice wavered, a bitter laugh bubbling up from deep within him. âisnât that pathetic?â the laugh was sharp, almost cutting, but beneath it was something so much more fragile, something that hurt to hear.
âwhat are you talking about?â you whispered, your heart breaking for him in ways you couldnât quite grasp. his words, his toneâthey didnât match the jungwon you knew. this wasnât the boy youâd grown up with, the boy who had always been so full of quiet strength. this was someone drowning, lost in emotions that were too big for him to carry alone. without a second thought, you moved closer, your hands gently tugging him toward you. âcome here,â you said softly, your voice both an invitation and a plea. you guided him away from the edge, pulling him into you. and this time, he didnât resist. he let you pull him close, his head resting against your shoulder, his body curling into yours like it had so many times when you were kids, like he was searching for that comfort, that familiarity. your heart swelled, a bittersweet warmth spreading through your chest as you held him. you remembered the times youâd fall asleep together, mid-movie, or after long days spent together. but this... this was different. his breathing was shaky, his body trembling slightly against yours, and you could feel the storm of emotions inside him.
and yet, something else lingered, something that made the air around you feel thicker, heavier. âbut youâll hate me,â he whispered, so quietly you almost didnât catch it. his voice was so vulnerable, trembling with fear, with something you couldnât quite place. âhate you?â you echoed, your fingers brushing through his hair gently as you tried to soothe him, tried to understand. âwhy would i ever hate you?â he didnât answer right away. his face was still pressed against your chest, but you could feel the shift in him, the tension building. when he finally pulled back to look at you, his eyes were filled with an intensity that made your breath catch.
tears clung to his lashes, but there was something more, something darker in his gaze. his eyes flickered down to your lips, lingering there for a heartbeat too long. your heart stuttered in your chest, a sense of unease washing over you. the closeness between you suddenly felt different, charged in a way that made your stomach twist. âjungwon?â you whispered, your voice barely more than a breath, the question heavy in the air between you. but before you could process the meaning behind his gaze, before you could move or speak again, his grip on your shirt tightened, pulling you even closer. his face was inches from yours now, and then, suddenly, his lips were on yoursâsoft, shaky, unsure, but insistent. it wasnât what you expected. it wasnât what you wanted. but it was happening.
your heart pounded in your chest, panic rising as the kiss fully registered. you pulled away quickly, your breath coming in shallow gasps, hands pushing against him. "what are you doing? stopâno, we canât!" your voice trembled, desperate to make sense of the overwhelming rush of emotions. but jungwon didnât stop. his eyes, wide and filled with something raw and unrecognizable, bore into yours. there was a desperation in them, something pleading, frantic. âplease, y/n, just listenââ he leaned in again, his voice almost breaking. âno!â you cried, pressing harder against his chest, trying to create space between you. your hands shook as you tried to shove him back, your mind screaming at you that this wasnât right. âthis isnât right, jungwon! we canâtââ
âbut you kissed me back,â he interrupted, his voice cracking as he held your gaze, the hurt in his eyes twisting painfully in your chest. âi know you felt it too. you didnât pull away right away. you liked it, didnât you?â his words hit you like a punch, leaving you reeling, the confusion swirling inside you tightening like a knot. âno, i didnâtââ you stammered, shaking your head, trying to shake off the weight of his accusation. how did this even happen? âplease,â he whispered, his voice breaking, and before you could react, he leaned in again, his desperation bleeding into every movement. his lips crashed against yours with a force that left you breathless, his tongue forcing its way into your mouth with an intensity that made your head spin. you struggled, hands pushing at him, but his strength overpowered yours. the more you resisted, the harder he pressed, the kiss turning more frantic, more overwhelming. you told yourself to push him away, to stop this before it went any further, but your body⌠your body wasnât listening. it froze, paralyzed in the whirlwind of emotions crashing over you. the heat of his touch, the urgency of his kissâit blurred everything else. for a split second, nothing else existed. it was just his lips, desperate and pleading, and the dizzying sense of wrongness mixing with the confusion in your mind. then, you felt it. his hands slipping under your shirt, fingers grazing the bare skin of your stomach, sending a jolt through you like a cold shock of reality. the haze shattered.
you gasped, pulling away, the air in your lungs burning as the weight of the situation hit you like a ton of bricks. this wasnât just a kiss anymore. this was something far deeper, something you werenât ready for. before you could fully react, jungwon moved over you, his body pressing you down into the mattress, caging you beneath him. his weight pinned you in place, his arms braced on either side of your head, trapping you. he kissed you again, more frantic this time, his desperation growing with every second that passed. âjungwon, stop,â you tried to say, but the words barely made it out, muffled by his lips, by the weight of everything that was happening too fast, too intensely. the room felt smaller, closing in around you as his kisses became more urgent, his hands wandering with a hunger that made your skin crawl. you needed to stop this. you had to stop this. but he wasnât stopping.
"please," jungwonâs voice cracked as he pulled back, a thin trail of saliva connecting your lips, his eyes wide with desperation. "i need you... i need this. donât leave me alone⌠not like this.
and then you felt itâhis hips pressing against yours, the hard outline of his cock rubbing insistently against your thigh. your body froze, shock rippling through every inch of you. he was so hard, the pressure of him grinding into you undeniable, suffocating. your breath hitched as you felt his desperation, his need, pressing into you like a weight you couldnât shake. you hated itâthe way your skin flushed under his touch, how your body reacted, betraying you. and the look on his faceâpained, desperate, so full of needâmade it harder to pull away. it made everything harder. his movements became more determined, the friction between you building with each desperate grind of his hips. his head fell back, a low groan tearing from his lips, his jaw slack as if he was already lost to the sensation. his eyes fluttered shut, and just the sight of him like thisâgrinding against you, looking like he could cum just from that aloneâhad you crumbling. "waitâ" you breathed, voice barely a whisper, trying to regain control, but your own breath was coming in short, uneven gasps, mirroring the intensity he was pressing onto you. it was too much. he was too much. and worst of allâyou didnât completely hate it. and that terrified you.
"please, let me," jungwon begged, his voice rough, full of raw emotion. his eyes burned into yours, overwhelming, trapping you beneath his gaze. his lips trembled as he kissed you again, softer this time, like he was asking for permission with each touch, pleading with you to let him keep going. "i can't," you managed to whisper, shaking your head, trying to fight through the fog of his touch, but your body felt weak, pinned beneath his weight. "you were kissing me back," jungwon insisted, his voice hardening as his lips hovered dangerously close to yours, his breath hot against your skin. âyou liked it. donât deny it.â
"no, jungwon, iâ" your voice faltered, struggling to form words, but he pressed his forehead against yours, eyes locking onto yours with a fierce intensity that made it hard to breathe. "you were," he repeated, his hands cupping your face, his fingers trembling against your skin. "stop lying to yourself, y/n." his words twisted inside your chest, sending your thoughts spiraling. the confusion, the guiltâit all mixed with the undeniable pull of the moment, the years of repressed feelings now breaking free, crashing down around you in waves too strong to resist. "this isnât right," you whispered, your hands gripping his shirt, half trying to push him away, half holding him closer. you were torn, the weight of the situation crashing into the undeniable connection between you.
"but it feels right, doesnât it?" jungwon murmured, his lips finding yours again, kissing you deeply, slowly, like he was savoring the taste of you, as if this was his last chance. you gasped into the kiss, your hands sliding down to his chest, and for a fleeting moment, you let yourself kiss him back, fully aware of the line you were crossing. but as soon as you did, the weight of reality slammed into you, and you pulled away, breathless, shaking your head. jungwonâs eyes darkened as he hovered over you, his hands roaming your sides, fingers slipping under your shirt, grazing your bare skin. "you donât hate it,â he whispered, his voice low, dangerous, âi can feel it."
his words slithered into your mind, clouding your thoughts, blurring the lines you had promised yourself youâd never cross. his touchâtoo close, too muchâmade you tremble, and the way he looked at you... it was dangerous. your heart pounded in your chest, a frantic beat of fear and something you didnât want to admit. "this isnât right... jayâ" you started, your voice cracking under the weight of it all, but as soon as you said jayâs name, jungwonâs expression hardened, his jaw clenching. "he's not here. i am." his voice was sharp, final, as he leaned in, dragging his tongue slowly up your neck, making your body shudder involuntarily. "doesnât it feel good?â his hands roamed rougher now, his fingers sneaking further under your shirt, brushing against your skin with a hunger that was impossible to ignore. âi can make you feel so fucking good... you know iâm right."
his tongue flicked over your ear, making your breath catch in your throat, your gasp betraying you. his mouth moved down to your neck, sucking hard, marking you in a way that made your stomach twist with both guilt and something darker.
you pushed weakly at his shoulders, your hands trembling, but he was stronger, catching your wrists and pinning them down as his mouth continued its slow, torturous path down your body. his nose brushed against your shirt as he lifted it slightly, his tongue dragging in slow, teasing stripes along your stomach like he was savoring every second. you arched into the sensation, a broken moan slipping from your lips, and jungwon groaned in response, the sound of your pleasure spurring him on. just as you felt yourself slipping further, the image of jay flashed in your mind, cold and sobering. jungwon noticed immediately, his eyes snapping up to yours, his expression darkening as he read your thoughts before you could even voice them. "no, no," he whispered, moving back up to your lips, kissing you again, desperate to keep you from pulling away. "you're thinking about him again, arenât you?" his breath was hot against your ear, his frustration bleeding into his words. âbut youâre my brotherâŚâ the words slipped out, weak and trembling, as you tried to grasp onto some semblance of reality, something to hold onto, some line that shouldnât be crossed. your chest tightened, the weight of everything crashing down on you as you looked at himâjungwon, the boy you had grown up with, the person who should have been your safety, your boundary.
jungwon froze for a split second, his eyes locking onto yours, and for a moment, you saw something break inside himâa flash of vulnerability that shattered the hardness in his expression. but it was gone as quickly as it came. his grip on your waist tightened, like he was afraid youâd slip away from him, like losing you was a possibility he couldnât bear. "i never wanted to be," he whispered, his voice raw, and those five words hit you like a blow to the chest. there was no hesitation, no regret, only a desperate need. his lips found yours again, softer this time but still so urgent, so desperate. he kissed you like he was trying to erase your words, trying to make you forget everythingâyour boundaries, jay, and the storm of emotions that surrounded you both. your eyes squeezed shut, your entire body trembling as his lips moved against yours. but even as you tried to pull away, he wouldnât let you retreat. âlook at me,â he whispered, his voice shaky yet filled with quiet authority, a plea buried deep within the demand. âplease, y/n. look at me.â you kept your eyes shut tight, resisting, clinging to whatever was left of your resolve. âi canât⌠i canât do this to jay,â you breathed, voice barely holding together as you tried to escape the hold jungwon had over you. but jungwon wasnât stopping. he kissed along your neck, slow, deliberate, each kiss sending a jolt through your body. âjay doesnât have to know,â he murmured between kisses, his breath hot and ragged against your skin, the warmth of him wrapping around you like a suffocating blanket.
his lips trailed up your cheek, his hands cradling your face with such tenderness it made your heart ache. the contrast of his desperation and his soft touch was overwhelming. he bit down on your bottom lip, gently but firm enough to make you gasp, and before you could stop yourself, a low moan slipped out. he paused at the sound, and in that split second, you felt everything shift. he saw itâthe way you were faltering, the way your body was betraying you. âsee?â he whispered, his lips hovering inches from yours, his breath mingling with yours. âyou want this too.â "heâs not here, y/n. jay doesnât have to know," jungwon repeated, but this time his voice cracked, and you could hear the rawness in itâthe pain, the need. "iâm right here. iâve always been here." "no..." you whispered weakly, but even you werenât sure if you believed it anymore. jungwonâs hand slipped down, his fingers sliding under your waistband, finding your soaked core. you gasped, your body betraying you again as his fingers teased you, slipping inside slowly. he groaned softly, his lips curling into a dark smirk as he felt how wet you were. "then why are you so wet for me?" his voice was low, dangerous, as he pushed deeper. "fuck, youâre soaked... all for me."
you whimpered, your body arching into him, even as your mind screamed at you to stop. "why?" you choked out, your voice trembling, your eyes pleading for answers. "why are you doing this?" jungwon pulled his fingers out, bringing them to his mouth, sucking them clean with a groan that sent a shiver down your spine. his eyes locked on yours, full of raw emotionâsomething deeper, something darker. "because i love you." his confession hung in the air, heavy and suffocating. you stared at him, your heart pounding, your breath catching in your throat as the weight of his words sank in. you hadnât realized, you hadnât seen it, hadnât felt it before. but now? now everything made sense. "jungwon..." you whispered, your hands weakly gripping his shirt, the guilt and confusion twisting tighter around you. "i didnât know... i didnât realize..." "you never saw me," he whispered, his voice barely holding together, his lips just inches from yours. the sadness in his eyes was unbearable, cutting through you like a knife. "not the way i needed you to. but iâve seen you, every single day. every second. iâve loved you, y/n. even when it fucking hurt, even when i tried to stay away. but i canât anymore."
his words hit you like a tidal wave, the full force of his heartbreak crashing into you. you could feel it nowâthe years of silent suffering, the way heâd watched from the shadows, wanting you, needing you, and you never even noticed. it tore at you, unraveling everything you thought you knew. "i... i donât know what to say," you stammered, your mind spinning, everything unraveling at once. guilt, confusion, and the weight of his confession pressed down on you, suffocating, leaving you gasping for air. "you donât have to say anything... just let me have you," he whispered, his voice breaking as he leaned in, brushing his lips against yours, soft and hesitant, like he was scared youâd push him away again. "thatâs all iâm asking."
his forehead rested against yours, his body trembling as he held you close, his breath uneven, each second stretching out painfully. there was no more hiding. this was himâraw, broken, vulnerableâand he was asking for everything. the guilt hit you hard, like a wave pulling you under. you knew, deep down, that this wasnât just lust for him. this was years of repressed feelings, of unspoken love, of obsession. he had loved you in silence for so long, and now he was laying it all out in front of you, begging for just a moment of validation, for you to see him. and as you stared into his tear-streaked eyes, you couldnât deny it anymore. you couldnât pretend. there had been something between you, once, twice... maybe more times than you wanted to admit. and now, with everything out in the open, it was all crashing down on you. you couldnât look away. you couldnât push him away. he was too close, too raw, and every second you stayed, every breath you shared, the line between right and wrong blurred even more. "please," he whispered again, his voice so broken, so full of everything heâd held inside for so long. and as his lips brushed yours again, you felt yourself slipping, falling into him, into the years of unspoken desire and love that had always been there, waiting for you to see it.
"jungwon..." your voice cracked, tears welling up in your eyes. "iâm sorry. iâm so fucking sorry."
the words barely had a chance to settle before you kissed him. your lips crashed into his, the storm of emotions inside you spilling over, unable to hold back any longer. jungwon froze for a split second, his breath hitching, and then he was on you, kissing you back with a desperation that made your heart ache. he groaned against your mouth, his body trembling like this was the moment heâd been waiting for his entire life. and maybe, in his mind, it was. his hands clamped down on your waist, fingers digging into your skin, pulling you so close that you could barely breathe. his kiss was everythingâyears of longing, of frustration, heartbreakâall spilling out at once. and now that you were kissing him back, now that he had you, it was like something inside him was breaking apart and being put back together at the same time.
he kissed you like it was his last chance, like he was drowning and this was his only way to breathe. his tongue slid into your mouth, greedy, devouring every sound you made, groaning deep in his chest like this was everything he had ever wanted. the meaningless girls, the distractions, none of it had ever come close to this. you were all he had ever wanted. his touch ignited something in you tooâsomething raw, something youâd buried deep. your body responded to him, the heat of his hands on your skin setting your nerves on fire, and you couldnât help but kiss him deeper, harder.
his lips trailed down to your neck, biting, sucking, marking you, and with every gasp that escaped your mouth, he lost a little more control. "fuck," jungwon groaned, his breath hot against your skin as his hands slipped under your shirt, his touch rough, frantic. he was losing himself in you, piece by piece, every touch unraveling something inside him that had been locked away for too long.
and now, now that he had you, he wasnât sure if he could ever let go. his fingers grazed your skin, and you arched into him, your body betraying you with a soft gasp that only spurred him on. his grip tightened, and the kiss deepened, his need pouring into you, relentless. he tugged at your shirt, your clothes, desperate to feel more of you, to claim more of you. he had waited so long for this momentâwatched for so long. the fantasies, the dreams, the nights spent watching you from a distance, imagining this. nothing compared to the reality of having you beneath him, of hearing your moans, of feeling your body give in to his touch. his breath caught as he realizedâyou were giving in. you wanted him. your hands gripped at his shirt, pulling him closer, and it was like a switch flipped in him. his lips curled into a smirk against your skin as he kissed you harder, his movements growing more aggressive, more possessive.
oh. yes.
you gasped, breathless, as his lips pressed harder against yours, his hips grinding against you. this was what he had wanted all along, what he had craved. his cock was hard, straining against his clothes, and he groaned into your mouth, his fingers digging into your waist, his grip possessive, as if he was afraid youâd disappear. "fuck," he breathed, his voice low, dangerous, his lips brushing your ear. "you donât know how long iâve waited for this." his hips pressed into yours, grinding slowly, teasingly, his fingers slipping down to tug at your shorts. "hurry," you gasped, your breath shaky and uneven, the urgency in your voice sending a thrill through him. his body stilled for a moment, his eyes darkening, a twisted smirk playing on his lips as he kissed along your neck. "oh, thatâs it," he muttered, his voice deep, rough. "so eager. so fucking eager." his teeth sank into your skin, harder this time, bruising. it wasnât just a bite; it was a claim. his hands moved with purpose now, one pinning your wrists above your head, the other pulling at your clothes, his grip tight, possessive. you were his, and he was going to make sure you knew it. the darkness in him started to bleed through, inch by inch. his touches grew rougher, his kisses more frantic. he was unraveling before your eyes, losing control, losing himself in you.
his hips rocked harder against yours, the friction sending shockwaves through you, another moan tearing from your throat. but something was shifting in himâsomething darker, something that made you shudder beneath him. he was losing himself, bit by bit, and he wasnât going to stop. "fuck," he growled, his breath hot against your neck, his voice filled with raw need. "you donât know what youâve done to me. iâve been waiting... waiting so fucking long." his hips pressed harder into you, rougher, the tension between you unbearable now. his grip on your wrists tightened, pinning you harder against the bed, and you could feel itâthe desperation, the obsession, the years of longing finally boiling over. "iâm not letting you go," jungwon muttered, his voice dark, a promise that made your stomach twist. his lips crashed against yours again, his kiss a mix of need and frustration, his control slipping further and further away.
"you think jay could ever make you feel like this?" jungwon hissed into your ear, his breath hot and jagged, the words slicing through the air like a challenge. his voice was low, darker than you had ever heard it, filled with a jealousy and possessiveness that sent a shiver down your spine. the roughness of his movements took you by surprise, the sudden intensity catching you off guard. a thrill shot through you at the way he was taking control, but the mention of jayâyour boyfriend, miles awayâsent a wave of guilt crashing through you. then you looked up at jungwon. really looked at him. his face was twisted, contorted in a way youâd never seen before. the softness you had always known was gone, replaced by something unrecognizable. his eyes burned with an intensity that bordered on madness, a wild, unhinged hunger that seemed to consume him. your heart pounded in your chest, a mix of fear and something far more dangerous tightening in your stomach. this wasnât the boy you knew. this was something else, something darker, and yet the way he dominated you, the way he held you down, had you teetering on the edge of wanting more. "he couldnât even eat you out after you gave him the suck of his life." jungwonâs voice was sharp, almost mocking, but laced with something more sinister, something dangerous.
your eyes flew open at his words, panic rising in your chest. how did he know? your voice trembled as you spoke, "what? how do you know that?" the room felt like it was closing in on you, the tension suffocating. no one should have known, no one could have seen or heard that moment. your breath hitched as fear crept up your spine. jungwon's smirk deepened, his eyes gleaming with something dark, something you couldnât place. he leaned in closer, his body pressing harder against yours. "i know everything, y/n," he whispered, his voice low and chilling, his gaze locking onto yours with a twisted sense of satisfaction. it was like he was savoring your fear, relishing in the control he had over you. you tried to pull away, panic tightening in your chest, but jungwonâs grip only grew stronger. in one swift motion, he yanked your shorts down, making you yelp, the action so rough it left you breathless. "you didnât think iâd just sit back and let him have you, did you?" his voice was taunting now, a cruel edge to his words. "iâve been watching. every little thing."
the reality of his words slammed into you, and your heart raced with panic. watching? how? "w-what do you mean? how?" you stammered, your voice barely above a whisper as his weight pressed you deeper into the mattress, keeping you pinned beneath him. jungwon straddled you, his eyes dark and unreadable, but there was something more there now, something sinister lurking just beneath the surface. your heart pounded as his hands grabbed the hem of your shirt, tugging it up roughly to reveal your bra. before you could react, he snapped one of the straps against your skin, the sting sharp, causing you to gasp. your body reacted against your will, a flush of heat rising under your skin. "wouldn't you like to know?" jungwon's smirk grew, his eyes dancing with dark amusement, like this was all a game to himâa twisted, dangerous game that only he understood. fear and confusion clouded your thoughts, but there was something else there, something darker stirring inside you. despite the fear, the way he had complete control over youâhis dominance, the weight of his body trapping youâhad your pulse quickening in ways you didnât expect. "jungwon, iâm not fucking around," you snapped, your voice shaky but firm, trying to mask the panic that was threatening to overtake you. your hands pushed against his chest, but he was unmovable, his body keeping you pinned beneath him, helpless.
"how were you watching?" you demanded, the question barely leaving your lips as your breath hitched. you needed to know, needed to understand what was happening. jungwonâs smirk didnât waver. in fact, it seemed to grow darker. he leaned in, his lips brushing against your ear, his voice a low, taunting whisper. "i have my ways." the words sent a chill down your spine, his tone dripping with arrogance. his hips shifted, pressing harder against you, reminding you just how trapped you were. your breath caught as his fingers trailed down your stomach, the heat of his touch setting off a reaction in your body that you didnât want to acknowledge. "youâre so curious," he teased, his voice growing darker, more dangerous. "but maybe you should focus on how youâre feeling right now." "youâre getting wetter, arenât you?" he taunted, his voice low, dripping with satisfaction. your body betrayed you, reacting to his dominance, the way he controlled every moment, every touch. anger flared up, but it was mixed with something elseâsomething you couldnât shake, something primal and terrifying. and the worst part? he wasnât wrong.
your body heated under his touch, despite the fear clawing at the edges of your mind. every part of you wanted to scream, wanted to fight back, but you were frozen, pinned beneath him, powerless. and jungwon? he saw it all. he saw your hesitation, your fear, the way your body responded to him. his smirk widened, his eyes gleaming with dark satisfaction as he watched you unravel beneath him. "he couldnât give you this," he muttered, his lips grazing your neck, his teeth nipping at your skin, his breath hot and ragged. "he could never make you feel like this." his words were venomous, biting, but they sank into your skin, embedding themselves in your thoughts. you wanted to hate him, to push him away, but with every touch, every word, he was pulling you deeper into his world. "answer me," you spat, trying to steady your voice, but it wavered, betraying the whirlwind of confusion inside you. jungwonâs reaction wasnât what you expected. instead of answering, he laughed, low and dark, his hands sliding back up to your bra, tugging at the fabric with a casual cruelty.
"oh, iâve been watching you for a long time, y/n," he murmured, his eyes gleaming with something dangerous, something far beyond what you thought you knew of him. "all those times you thought you were alone⌠you werenât." his words sent a chill crawling down your spine, your breath hitching in your throat. this wasnât some sudden madness; this had been brewing inside him for longer than you realized. his fingers moved swiftly, unhooking your bra and tossing it aside like it meant nothing. his eyes darkened as he stared at your exposed chest, a satisfied moan slipping from his lips like heâd finally gotten what heâd been craving. without hesitation, his mouth latched onto one of your nipples, sucking hungrily, possessively. the heat of his mouth sent shockwaves through you, your body arching into him before your mind could catch up to what was happening. âknew these tits were perfect,â he mumbled between rough kisses and bites, his voice thick with arousal. his hands bunched your breasts together, squeezing as his tongue flicked between them. the intensity overwhelmed you, your skin heating under his touch, the sensation building into something you couldnât control. before you could even catch your breath, his lips crashed back onto yours, demanding, relentless. his kiss was rough, desperate, like he couldnât get enough of you, and despite the confusion clouding your thoughts, you found yourself kissing him back, matching his need with your own.
but even as your body responded to his touch, your mind was spinningâcaught between the heat of the moment and the sickening realization that something was deeply, deeply wrong. jungwon pulled back just enough to smirk, his thumb brushing over your swollen bottom lip, teasing you. "youâre still trying to figure this out, arenât you?" he whispered, his voice soft but full of twisted control. "tell me, won," you demanded, trying to push through the fog of your mind, daring him to either stop or take things further. your pulse quickened as you spoke, hating how your voice faltered. his eyes narrowed, something dark flickering in his expression, but there was a glint of excitement too, as if he enjoyed the fact that you were pushing back, not just giving in. it only fueled the twisted hunger burning inside him, made him want to tear you apart even more. your heart pounded harder as your body betrayed you, your pussy growing wetter with each passing second, reacting to the way he looked down at youâconfident, knowing. like he had you right where he wanted, like heâd always known exactly how to break you down. "i know how you hated how bad jeongin was at eating you out," jungwonâs voice dripped with amusement, his eyes never leaving yours, "but you forgave him, didnât you? because he was cute." your body froze, how did he know that? your heart raced, panic bubbling up inside you, but jungwon leaned in, his breath hot against your skin. "how?" you asked, your voice trembling with disbelief, your mind racing to piece together the puzzle. but jungwon didnât stop. his fingers moved between your legs, slipping through your slick folds effortlessly, and a sharp hiss escaped his lips as he felt how wet you were for him.
"fuck," he groaned, pulling his fingers to his mouth, sucking them clean with a satisfaction that sent shivers through your entire body. his cock strained against his pants, the bulge pressing hard against you, reminding you what was coming next. "and kai," he continued, his voice dripping with that same twisted smirk, "you hated how he made you swallow his cum, didnât you? because it tasted gross." he was revealing things no one should know, secrets you had buried deep. you squirmed beneath him, your mind reeling. how did he know these intimate details? things you never told anyone, not even your closest friends. his hand slid back between your legs, his fingers teasing your clit, rubbing slow circles as you struggled to stay in control. "but here you are," he murmured, his voice low, full of twisted satisfaction, "so fucking wet for me." "you pervert," you spat, but your voice lacked the bite you wanted it to have. your body was betraying you, responding to his touch even as your mind screamed that this was wrong. "were you listening in on me? when i was talking to yuna?" the memories of those conversations, those private confessions you had shared with your friend, rushed back to you. the thought of him listening in, lurking, sent a wave of nausea through you.
jungwonâs smirk grew darker, more twisted. "every word," he whispered, his fingers working your clit faster, his voice laced with a sick satisfaction. "while you thought you were alone, spilling your secrets to yuna, i was right there. hearing everything."
his free hand came down on your breasts, slapping them just enough to make them bounce, before gripping one firmly, his tongue licking his lips sinfully. he was savoring every reaction, every shudder of your body beneath him. "but i bet you're dying to know how." jungwonâs voice was low, teasing, as he toyed with you, his fingers slipping inside you again, deeper this time. your slick coated his knuckles as he pumped in and out, your body betraying you completely. "how?" you whispered, your breath shaky, barely able to form the words. the pressure between your legs was building, each stroke pushing you closer to the edge despite the horror of what he was saying. without warning, jungwon pulled away, leaving you gasping for breath, your body trembling with need. he stood up, quickly tugging his shirt off, revealing his toned chest. your eyes followed the movement.
you sat up slightly, your eyes locked on his body. "just tell me how?" you asked again, more urgently this time. "does it really matter?" he growled, his breath hot against your ear. his body pressed down on yours, heavy and dominant, as he rocked his hips against you, letting you feel the full hardness of his cock through his pants. "youâre here, pussy dripping," jungwon's voice was dripping with twisted satisfaction, his eyes gleaming with something darker, more manic, as he watched you squirm beneath him. "about to fuck your stepbrother." his words hung in the air like a confession, dark and sinister, and you realizedâhe had been watching you, listening, lurking in the shadows for far longer than you ever could have imagined. jungwon moved, pushing off the bed to stand for a brief second before he settled back down, lying flat against the mattress. his eyes, dark and unrelenting, never left yours, watching every breath, every flicker of hesitation that crossed your face. the weight of his gaze felt like a physical force, pinning you in place.
"come here," he whispered, his voice low and dangerous, his lips curling into a smirk that sent a shiver down your spine. his head rested against the pillow, one hand lazily trailing down his chest, teasing himself, as if he had all the time in the world. "sit on my face, y/n. maybe then iâll tell you everything." "youâre fucking insane," you spat, your voice trembling slightly as you tried to keep some semblance of control. but even as the words left your mouth, you could feel the heat between your legs, the undeniable ache that had been building ever since his hands had been on you. jungwon didnât flinch. if anything, his smirk deepened, that dark amusement dancing in his eyes. "maybe," he admitted, his tone almost casual, like he was discussing the weather. "but iâm a man of my word. iâm not going to let you get all wet like this and not take responsibility for it."
his voice dropped lower, more commanding, as his hand slid lower, trailing down to his pants, his fingers teasing the waistband. "or would you rather stop this now?" he challenged, his eyes locked on yours, daring you to make the choice. "because iâll stop if you want me to." you sat frozen, your mind screaming at you to walk away, to leave before it was too late, but your body⌠your body wanted something else. your pulse quickened, heat pooling low in your stomach as jungwonâs eyes stayed fixed on yours, waiting, anticipating. "come on, y/n," jungwon whispered, his voice taking on that seductive edge, his body shifting, as if inviting you in. "you know you donât want this to stop." he licked his lips, his tongue flicking out slowly, teasingly. "you want it. just admit it." "youâre such a fucking asshole," you muttered, your voice low, barely above a whisper, but your legs were already moving, your body acting before your mind could catch up.
jungwonâs smirk widened, his eyes gleaming with triumph as he watched you, his hands sliding up to rest on your thighs as you straddled him, your body trembling with anticipation. "yeah?" he murmured, his voice rough and thick with desire. "but iâm your fucking asshole, arenât i?" the second you settled over him, hovering just above his face, jungwonâs hands tightened on your thighs, pulling you down slowly, his breath hot against your core. "thatâs it," he whispered, his voice low and dark, sending a thrill through you. "youâre gonna ride my face, and iâll tell you everything you want to know." you hesitated for just a second, the last flicker of doubt crossing your mind, but then his tongue flicked out, teasing the edge of your folds, and the hesitation melted away in an instant. your head fell back, a soft gasp escaping your lips as the heat of his mouth sent a jolt of pleasure through your body. "fuck," you whispered, your fingers curling into his soft hair as jungwonâs tongue slid between your folds, teasing and tasting you. flicking your clit, tracing circles on it. his grip on your thighs tightened, holding you firmly in place as he licked deeper, groaning softly against your skin. your body trembled, every nerve on fire as jungwon worked you with expert precision, his tongue moving in slow, then picking up. the intensity of it allâthe heat, the sensation, the controlâwas overwhelming, consuming you completely. and just when you thought you couldnât take any more, jungwon pulled back slightly, his breath hot against your core as he whispered, "you taste fucking perfect."
your breath hitched, your heart racing in your chest as his words sank in, sending a fresh wave of heat crashing through you. his tongue returned with renewed intensity, his hands gripping your thighs tighter, pulling you down harder against his face, making it impossible to think, impossible to breathe. he was relentless, and you were lost. "tell me," you gasped, your voice shaky, barely holding together as his tongue worked you over and over again. "tell me everything." jungwon groaned against you, the vibration sending shockwaves through your body as he looked up at you, his eyes dark, filled with something dangerous, something wild. "after i make you cum, baby," he whispered, his voice low and rough, his fingers digging into your skin as he pulled you even closer. "then i'll tell you everything." and you knew, as the pleasure built higher and higher, that you were too far gone to stop now. "shit," jungwon moaned against your pussy, his voice thick with desperation, his eyes rolling back as if he were lost in the taste of you. the sound of him, so consumed by you, had you throwing your head back, overwhelmed by the intensity of it all.
"finally," he groaned, barely pulling away to speak, his lips brushing against your swollen folds, "you let me eat your pussy." his words were raw, dripping with satisfaction, but there was an edge to them, something darker, something possessive. his gaze flickered up to meet yours for a split second, a twisted smirk pulling at his lips. "but jay never got a chance to try, did he?" he added, his tone mocking, taunting. it was like he was relishing in the thought of jay being left out, being second to him. the mention of jay made your stomach twist with guilt, but before you could respond, jungwon's mouth moved lower, his tongue tracing a slick path that had you gasping.
you jerked as his tongue flicked over your puckered hole, the sensation sudden, intense, making your entire body tense on top of him. jungwon's moans vibrated against your skin, deep and primal, as he prodded his tongue against your tight hole. it was overwhelmingâeverything about him, the way he touched you, the way he tasted you, his hunger for you. "youâve never let anyone fuck your ass, have you?" his voice was a low growl, filled with smug satisfaction as he pulled back just enough to look up at you. his eyes gleamed with dark desire, and the way he said itâit was like a promise, a claim. he had already decided what he wanted, and he wasnât asking for permission. "but youâre gonna let me, arenât you?" his voice was manic, dripping with that same twisted hunger, unable to move, unable to think. his hand gripped your hip tightly as his tongue slid back over your hole, teasing you again, the sensation sending shockwaves through your body. you couldnât stop trembling, the mix of shock and heat building inside you, spiraling out of control. "i bet teddy didnât feel half of what iâm feeling right now. the way youâre grinding on me, using me, just like you used to use himâexcept i can make you come for real." what? jungwon's voice was dark, teasing, but you could barely process his words, too busy trembling from the way his tongue continued to lick and lap at your soaked pussy.
"iâm gonna take every fucking part of you," he growled, his tongue swirling around your asshole before sliding back up to your pussy. "fuck every single one of your holes and fill it with my cum," he continued, his words thick with lust, his voice dark and commanding. "youâd like that, wouldnât you?" a moan ripped from your throat, raw and uncontrollable, and before you could even process it, his palm came down hard against your ass, the sting sharp and immediate. the force of it made your muscles clench, and your whole body jerked forward. you could feel his grip tighten on your ass, spreading you even more as he leaned in again, licking a slow, deliberate path from your asshole to your pussy, leaving you gasping for air. "fuck, jungwonâ" you struggled, trying to move, to regain some kind of control, but he was too strong. he pulled away from your pussy suddenly, replacing his tongue with the brutal force of his fingers, thrusting into you hard and fast.
the obscene sound of your wetness filled the room, mixing with your ragged breaths and the slap of his hand on your thigh. your legs shook, barely able to keep up with the intensity building inside you. "i know you can fucking squirt," jungwon hissed through clenched teeth, his eyes wild with lust. his jaw was slack, and his expression was hungry, like he was devouring every reaction you gave him. "come on," he growled, his fingers pumping deeper, harder. "fucking squirt all over me." your body couldnât hold back any longer. you exploded, squirting in violent, uncontrollable bursts, your juices splashing against his chest, down his neck, his face. jungwon didnât flinchâif anything, he groaned, deep and guttural, as he licked up every drop, his tongue greedy, relentless. "f-fuck, stop," you whimpered, your body trembling uncontrollably as waves of overstimulation crashed over you. your vision blurred, your muscles weak as you tried to crawl away, desperate for a break, for some relief. but jungwon wasnât about to let you go. his hand shot out, gripping your ankle, yanking you back. "where do you think you're going?" he growled, a crazed look in his eyes as he towered over you. his hand moved to his pants, pulling his cock free, and the sight of itâhard, thick, drippingâsent another wave of heat coursing through your body. he stroked himself slowly, pre-cum leaking from the tip, his eyes locked on yours with an intensity that sent shivers through your entire body. his grip tightened on your hair, keeping you in place, the raw obsession in his gaze making your breath hitch.
"look at me," jungwon demanded, his hand forced your head up, and your eyes immediately fell on the sight of him stroking his cock, thick and hard right in front of your face. "you see this?" he hissed, his breath shaky, almost unhinged. "you fucking did this to me." "youâre going to take every fucking inch of me," he growled, his eyes burning with hunger as he leaned closer, his cock brushing your lips, daring you. "you hear that?" your lips parted unconsciously, your tongue flicking out to wet them, and jungwon noticed immediately, a wicked smirk twisting at the corners of his mouth. "thatâs itâŚ" he groaned, his voice filled with dark satisfaction. "you want it, donât you?" you didnât answer. you couldnât. your mind was swirling, caught between the reality of how far things had gone and the way your body responded to his touch, to his words. "open up," he commanded, his voice steady, his gaze never wavering. "i want to feel that pretty little mouth wrapped around me while you fucking choke on it."
the words sent a shiver down your spine. he was watching you closely, waiting, his fingers still tight in your hair as he pressed his cock to your lips again, pushing against them, demanding more. he didnât wait for you to respond, his hand pushing your head down as he slid his cock into your mouth without hesitation. you barely had time to process the size of him, thick and overwhelming, as he filled your mouth completely. your hands shot up, instinctively gripping his thighs, but jungwon didnât slow down. he was relentless, thrusting into your mouth harder, faster, giving you no time to adjust. you gagged, struggling to take him, your eyes watering as he pushed deeper, but jungwonâs grip only tightened, holding you in place as he groaned low in his throat, lost in the sensation. "thatâs it, fucking choke on it," he snarled, his voice dripping with filthy satisfaction. "you wanted this, didnât you?" you couldnât answer, couldnât even breathe as his cock hit the back of your throat, choking you. your hands pressed against his thighs, trying to push him back, but he didnât relent. his hips bucked against your mouth, forcing you to take more of him, his voice harsh, possessive. "youâre gonna take all of me," he growled, his eyes wild as he watched you struggle beneath him, his fingers digging into your scalp. "you think iâm gonna stop now? after all this? after everything youâve done to me?" his voice cracked with intensity, his obsession bubbling over, too much to contain.
your tears mixed with spit, dripping down your chin as he fucked your mouth with ruthless abandon, his groans filling the air, echoing off the walls. "you look like such a fucking mess," he taunted, his voice thick with lust, but there was something more underneath, something twisted and broken. "drooling all over my cock like the slut you are." his words hit you like a blow, raw and degrading, but there was no denying the way your body reacted, the way your core tightened with every filthy insult, with every thrust that left you gasping for air. "you canât even take half of me," he groaned, his cock stretching your mouth painfully, but there was no room to stop, no room to even breathe. "but youâll fucking learn. youâll learn how to take every inch of me." his thrusts became more erratic, more desperate, and the sounds of your gagging only seemed to fuel him further. "iâm gonna make you my fucking whore," jungwon growled, his words filled with possessiveness, his hand gripping your hair tighter, forcing you to take him deeper until you thought you might pass out from lack of air. and then, just when you thought he couldnât push further, he pulled out suddenly, leaving you gasping for breath, your throat burning, your body trembling. your lips were swollen, wet, as you tried to steady yourself, but jungwon didnât give you a chance to recover. he leaned down down to cage you between his arms, his bare chest pressed against yours, the heat of his body overwhelming, suffocating. his breath ghosted over your ear, âyouâre mine,â he growled, his fingers digging into your hips, pinning you beneath him. âand you fucking know it. tell me how much you want it.â
your mind was spinning, your body reacting instinctively, âi want it, jungwon. i want you.â a smirk curled on his lips, his dark eyes gleaming with a twisted satisfaction, he completely had you. âfucking filthy for me,â he murmured, voice low and tainted with pride. âand i havenât even started yet.â âyou think jay or any of those other idiots came even close?" his lips brushed your ear, and he spoke again, darker this time. "iâm gonna fuck you so good, youâll forget every single one of them. my cockâs the only one youâll ever need." and then, he pushed inside, the stretch brutal, tearing a gasp from your throat. the sensation was overwhelming, too much, but it was exactly what you craved. your body arched beneath him, caught between the overwhelming pleasure and the creeping horror as his words sunk in. he had been watching. always watching.
"iâve seen it all, and it's so much better than just sitting in front of my screen every night, getting myself off," jungwon muttered, his voice low, dripping with satisfaction. "every fucking time you let them touch you. every single moment you thought you were aloneâi was watching." screen? your breath hitched, panic rising in your chest as the pieces began to fall into place. âyou... what the fuckâhow?â you gasped, horror flooding through you as the reality of what he said hit. âyou were watching me?â jungwonâs pace never faltered, each thrust brutal and relentless. he locked eyes with you, dark and unapologetic. âyeah,â he sneered. âyou didnât think iâd let those assholes have you without making sure they werenât fucking you up, did you? i had to make sure they didnât hurt you. had to make sure you stayed mine.â "you had a fucking camera?" your voice cracked, the disbelief seeping into every word as the air between you turned suffocating.
he grinned darkly, eyes glinting with a manic edge. âyeah, i had a camera. more than one.â your heart pounded against your chest, anger and fear warring inside you. you tried to push him off, but your body, treacherous and betraying, moved with his rhythm. "jungwon, thatâs... sick," you hissed, your voice trembling, but it didnât stop your body from arching into him, from clenching around him as his thrusts became even more punishing. his hand shot up, gripping your jaw, forcing you to look into his eyes. "shut up," he growled, his face inches from yours, "you donât get it, do you? i didnât fucking care about them. i did this for you. no one else could touch you like this. no one else deserves you." your hands pressed against his chest, trying to fight back, but every thrust had you gasping for air, your thoughts blurring in the haze of pleasure and disgust. âyouâre fucking sick, jungwon,â you managed to choke out.
he leaned in closer, his lips ghosting over your ear, a dark chuckle slipping from his lips. âyeah? iâm sick?â he sneered, his voice dripping with arrogance. âthen why are you so fucking wet for me? you didnât stop fucking against me, even after everything.â his words were twisted, taunting, but you couldnât deny it. the shame twisted inside you, mixing with the pleasure coursing through your veins. "fuck off," you spat, but your voice lacked conviction, your body betraying the truth of what you were feeling. jungwon grinned, pulling back slightly to look down at you, his eyes gleaming with that same dark satisfaction. âyou think i donât know what you do when youâre alone?â he whispered, his voice low and mocking. âyou think i didnât see the way you fucked that teddy bear i got you, grinding against it like a desperate little slut, rubbing yourself raw until you came?â your stomach dropped, humiliation crashing over you in waves as the truth sank in. so that's what he meant earlier, the words flying by because you were too lost in pleasure, fuck, he'd really seen everything. you recall his words. "i bet teddy didnât feel half of what iâm feeling right now. the way youâre grinding on me, using me, just like you used to use himâexcept i can make you come for real." "you... youâre disgusting," you stammered, the shame burning through your skin, but jungwon wasnât fazed. he continued to fuck you, his hand reaching down to rub circles against your clit. but you slap his hand away, and he just smirks.
âyeah, maybe i am,â he groaned, his voice dripping with satisfaction as he pounded into you harder, drowning in the feeling of your tight, trembling walls wrapped around him. âbut youâre mine. and you fucking love it.â his hand slid down to your throat, his fingers tightening just enough to make your breath hitch, his smirk widening as he saw the effect it had on you. âyouâre never going to need anyone else. just me. say it.â you could barely breathe, let alone think, but even now, through the haze of pleasure and disgust, you couldnât help but fight back. âi⌠i hate youâ" âwrong fucking answer,â he snarled, his grip on your throat tightening as his hips snapped forward brutally, each thrust shaking you, pushing you deeper into the bed. the sheets tangled beneath you as you gasped for air, every brutal stroke tearing another cry from your lips. âtry again. you fucking love this.â despite the storm of emotions flooding your mindâdisgust, anger, shameâthere was no denying it. the way his cock dragged against your walls, the way your body reacted to his dominance, had you screaming his name, it was sick and twisted, but it was true.
"didnât you say you love me?" jungwon taunted, full of arrogance as he tightened his grip around your throat. the force of his thrusts had you bouncing against the mattress. âwasnât that what you said?â you couldnât breathe, couldnât think, your body shaking as he pounded into you without mercy. all you could do was grip his arms tighter, pulling him closer, needing more despite the war raging inside you. "answer me," he growled, slamming into you harder, his hips grinding against you as his cock dragged in and out, each thrust more obscene than the last. "didnât you say you fucking love me?" you tried to speak, but the pressure on your throat made it impossible to get the words out. your breath hitched, your vision blurring as his hand squeezed tighter. finally, you managed to whisper, your voice shaky and broken. âyouâre my brother... of course, iâI doââ jungwonâs eyes lit up with a twisted, possessive fire. his grip tightened even more as he watched you, you were breaking, and he loved it. "you're mine," he growled, the intensity in his voice sending another wave of heat through you. "say it." "iâm yours," you gasped, the words spilling out of you, tears streaming down your cheeks as the weight of everything crashed into you. it was true. you were his, and no matter how hard you fought it, there was no escaping it, not anymore when he was balls deep in you giving you pleasure you'd only dreamed of.
that wicked, satisfied grin spreading across his face as he leaned in, his teeth sinking into your bottom lip hard enough to make you wince. the pain mixed with pleasure, sending a shiver down your spine, your moans turning into broken sobs as he fucked you deeper into the mattress. âfuckââ you gasped, barely able to get the word out before he was thrusting into you again, harder, faster, his hips grinding against yours as if he was trying to bury himself deeper, trying to own every inch of you. and maybe he already had. no, he did. he completely owned you. âshit,â jungwon growled, his breath hot and ragged as he pounded into you, the sound of his hips slamming against yours filling the room. your entire body convulsed, the stretch of him deep inside you was overwhelming, but your body refused to let him go. your walls clenched around him, desperate to keep him there, desperate to feel more of him. âfuck,â you sobbed, nails digging into his back, trying to hold on, but it was no use. he had you completely, and he knew it. "jungwon, i canâtâ youâre gonna break meâ"
"yes, you can," he snarled, his lips hovering just over yours, his voice dripping with possession. he thrust harder, deeper, making you scream as he pushed past every limit. âyou fucking can. iâm not stopping until youâre ruined for anyone else." the sheer force of his words, the raw need in his voice, sent a jolt of heat through you, making your head spin. your moans turned into broken sobs, your body shaking uncontrollably beneath him as he drove into you mercilessly, taking you apart piece by piece. you were addicted to him. you came again, violently, your entire body trembling as your release gushed over his cock. your orgasm hit you like a wave, crashing down and leaving you gasping for breath, your mind going blank as everything else faded away. jungwon let out a deep, desperate groan, his body shuddering as he felt you clench around him. âfuck,â he hissed through clenched teeth, his voice thick with crazed lust as he gripped your hips even tighter, bruising your skin. "your fucking pussyâgod, itâs perfect. youâre fucking perfect." "you know, i fucking hated jay for touching you," jungwon growled, his pace becoming even more brutal not stopping even if your pussy was already dripping all over the sheets. "letting him fuck you like that. making him cum inside you? is that what you wanted, huh?" his fingers thread through your hair, keeping you pinned down as he licked long stripes up your neck again, obsessed with the way your sweat tasted. âyou wanna be a fucking cum dumpster? that what you like? letting them fill you up just so i could fucking watch?"
you whimpered, shaking your head, but your body was betraying you, reacting to his words, to the way he was fucking you. "donât fucking lie," he spat, his eyes burning with obsession as he pulled back to look at you. "you liked putting on a show for me, didnât you? i almost think you were doing it on purpose.â âjungwon, no, Iââ you tried to protest, your voice trembling, but the pleasure was too intense, every thrust from him stealing the words from your mouth. âletting me watch you get ruined, just so i could want you more,â he sneered. âyouâre fucking mine now,â he growled, his voice low and dark, each word dripping with madness. âand iâm gonna make sure jay fucking sees it.â your heart dropped, panic surging through you. âno, jungwonâhe canât,â you gasped, your body trembling as the realization of what he was saying crashed over you. the thought of jay finding out, of seeing you like this, was too much. âhe canât knowâ" jungwonâs chuckled, "oh, so you want to keep this secret? keep fucking your stepbrother behind his back?" he taunted, his voice cruel, mocking, as he drove himself deeper into you. you choked on a sob, trying to push him away, "jungwon, pleaseâ" you begged, your voice breaking, but he wasnât listening. âwhatâs the matter?â he taunts, his breath hot against your skin. âscared of what jay would think? scared of what heâd do if he knew you were getting fucked by your stepbrother?â
his grip on your jaw tightened, forcing you to look at him, his eyes wild with obsession. âyou donât get to hide from this,â he growled, his voice low and possessive. âyouâre mine, and i want everyone to fucking know it.â
you could barely speak, your voice cracking as you pleaded with him. âplease, jungwonâhe canât find outââ for a moment, he seemed to hesitate, his pace slowing just enough to let you catch your breath, the pressure easing. but then, without warning, he flipped you over, pushing you onto your hands and knees. your arms shook as you tried to hold yourself up, but your body was trembling, weak from everything heâd already done to you. before you could brace yourself, his hand came down hard on your ass, the sharp sting making you yelp, your body jerking forward. the sheets twisted beneath you as you struggled to hold yourself up, but jungwon wasnât giving you any time to recover. âyouâre gonna fucking take it,â he growled, his voice thick with lust as he lined himself up behind you before roughly facing you to face the foot of your bed. âand youâre gonna scream my name so loud, jay will fucking hear it.â "keep it together," jungwon growled, his hand coming down on your ass again, the sharp slap forcing a yelp from your throat. this time, the sting was harsher, your body jolting under the weight of his dominance. "i'm not fucking done with you." you whimpered, your arms weak, trembling as you tried to push yourself up, but it was useless. your limbs felt like jelly, barely able to hold you together as he lined himself up behind you again. your heart pounded, fear and anticipation swirling in your gut as he slammed into you without warning, driving deep, the angle sending a shock through your entire body. "fuck," you gasped, your back arching involuntarily as he filled you, the stretch almost unbearable. your hands scrambled to grab the sheets, but every thrust made you lose control, your body collapsing beneath him as he continued, merciless. "arch your back," he snarled, gripping your hips and yanking you into position. even as you shook your head, gasping for air, his hold was unyielding, bending you exactly how he wanted. âi canâtââ you choked out, tears streaming down your face as the pleasure and pain intertwined, his cock hitting places that had you seeing stars. "it's too muchâ"
"yes, you fucking can," he hissed, his fingers digging into your skin, leaving marks. "iâm not stopping until you canât take anyone else. until i ruin you for anyone." every word hit like a blow, sending you spiraling, your body teetering on the edge as he pounded into you harder, deeper. you sobbed, your mind a haze of pleasure and panic. your body was betraying you, responding to him, clenching around him like it needed this, needed him, despite the fear gnawing at your insides. and then he leaned forward, his chest pressing against your back, his breath hot against your neck as he yanked your head back into a kiss. the kiss was desperate, messy, full of raw hunger. his tongue flicked against yours, and you couldnât even respond, couldnât do anything but whimper as his weight crushed you, trapping you beneath him. the position made it harder to breathe, your neck straining, and the angle made every thrust hit deeper, driving you closer to the edge, closer to losing yourself completely. your eyes fluttered shut, your mind trying to escape, but then jungwonâs voice snapped you back. âlook.â
you couldnât. you were too lost, too overwhelmed, your moans spilling out uncontrollably as he kept slamming into you. but he wasnât giving you a choice. his hand gripped your jaw, forcing your head up, and he growled, "open your eyes." you blinked through the haze, confused and trembling. and then you saw itâyour teddy bear, sitting on the dresser, its black, unfeeling eyes staring back at you. at first, it didnât register. what the fuck was he doing? jungwon chuckled darkly behind you, his breath hot against your neck. "say hi," he whispered, amusement dripping from his voice, sending a chill down your spine. "say hi?" you repeated, confusion cutting through the fog of pleasure. your voice was broken, barely audible. "i don'tâ" âsmile for the camera,â he taunted, his tone turning cruel, dark amusement coloring every word. âcome on, he's watching.â your stomach dropped, horror twisting inside you like a knife. jay was watching this?
you moaned, but not from pleasureâthis time, it was from sheer humiliation. the sound ripped from your throat as your eyes locked onto the faint red blinking light in the teddy bear's eyes. panic surged through you, icy and cold, the realization hitting you like a truck. jay was watching. live. the toy that had been a source of comfort for you, the one you used to hold onto during sleepless nights, had been turned into something twisted, something ugly. you became hysterical, your body trembling uncontrollably beneath jungwonâs relentless thrusts. "no, no, no," you sobbed, your voice breaking as the tears streamed down your face. but there was no escape. your mind was spiraling, torn between disgust, shame, and the unbearable sensation of jungwon still fucking you, not letting up. "what's wrong?" jungwonâs voice was low, mocking, dripping with sick amusement as he slowed his thrusts just enough to make you feel every inch of him. "you donât wanna tell jay how good i'm fucking you?" your body betrayed you, clenching around him, even as the tears kept falling, even as the humiliation consumed you. you couldnât stop it. you couldnât fight back. jungwonâs hand clamped over your mouth, muffling your sobs as he pounded into you harder, more ruthless, more relentless. the weight of everything crashed down on youâjay was watching, seeing you like this. you wouldnât be able to face him ever again. the shame burned deep inside you, twisting, making you feel even more exposed, even more ruined.
âopen your eyes,â jungwon demanded, his voice rough, filled with dominance, and your eyes snapped open out of reflex. you couldnât help it. your gaze flickered back to the teddy bear, the red light still blinking, and the full realization of what was happening hit you like a tidal wave. jay was watching you get fucked, wrecked by your stepbrother. and just as jungwon thrust deeper, you felt itâyour body giving in, pleasure and pain mixing until you couldnât tell the difference. your muffled screams were drowned out by the sound of skin slapping against skin, your body trembling as you clung to the sheets, unable to stop yourself from falling apart. you hated how much your body responded to him, hated how much you needed it, how much you needed him, even as your mind screamed at you to stop. but it was too late. you were already his, and jay was watching. and jungwon wasnât going to stop until you both knew it. your body betrayed you, clenching tighter around him even as more tears spilled down your cheeks, sobs wracking your chest. you couldnât process itâthe mix of shame, horror, and pleasure tangling into something you couldnât escape. jay was watching you. seeing you like this. jungwon wasnât stopping. his hand clamped down over your mouth, muffling your cries as he kept pounding into you, relentless. mind drowning in the flood of emotions crashing over youâhumiliation, lust, guilt. how could jay be seeing this? wasnât he supposed to be away? "youâre lying!" you tried to scream, but jungwonâs hand silenced you, your body jerking with each thrust. the teddy bear, the once comforting presence, was now an unfeeling witness to your destruction, its cold eyes staring blankly as jungwon wrecked you.
you squeezed your eyes shut, desperate to escape it all, but it only made the emotions stronger. if jay was really watching this, if he saw you like this, youâd never be able to face him again. the thought burned inside you, making you feel even more exposed, more ruined. "open your fucking eyes," jungwon demanded, his voice dark with control, and your eyes snapped open on instinct. there it was againâthe teddy bear. that damned blinking light, red and cruel, blinking like it was mocking you. and just as jungwon drove deeper, your eyes rolled back, moans slipping from your lips, your body betraying every bit of shame and fear as he kept you pinned, fucking you harder than before. "i even got him a present," jungwon grunted, his voice tight, on the edge, his pace turning erratic, desperate. "but i donât think heâll want them anymore." your mind shattered under the way he was fucking you. humiliation melted into something raw, something addictive. fuckâthis was too good. jungwon fucking you like this was too fucking good. the way he wanted you, the way he claimed youâyou were gone. completely. your body shook violently beneath him, each thrust pushing you deeper into a haze of pure need. you couldnât think straight, couldnât hold onto anything except the brutal pace of him inside you, each thrust wrecking you in ways you never thought possible. words slipped from your mouth before you could stop them.
"jay⌠i'm sorry," you gasped, voice ragged and desperate, barely able to breathe between each word.
jungwon's grip on your throat tightened, his lips curling into a wicked smirk. "sorry? don't fucking apologize," he growled, pulling your face closer to his. "tell him the truth. tell him how good iâm fucking you." âi canâtââ you whimpered, voice barely above a whisper, your body betraying you as you moaned against his hand, your legs quaking as another wave of pleasure hit you. âyes, you can,â jungwon hissed in your ear, his voice low and dangerous, filled with twisted satisfaction. "tell him how good iâm fucking you. tell him who really owns you now." jungwonâs grip tightened, forcing your eyes back to the teddy bear, the blinking red light that reminded you of the truth. "heâs watching, baby," jungwon whispered, his lips brushing against your ear as his hips snapped against yours. "watching you fall apart for me. watching me wreck your pretty little pussy. doesnât it feel good? doesnât it feel right?"
every thrust, every degrading word spilling from jungwonâs lipsâhe was right. you fucking loved it. "tell him," jungwon coaxed, his voice soft now, almost soothing as his hand slid down your body, his fingers circling your clit. "tell him how much you love it." "jay," you sobbed, your voice ragged, trembling. "i⌠iâfuck, i love it." the words slipped out before you could stop them, your body arching beneath jungwon, completely surrendering. jungwonâs grin widened, his satisfaction palpable as he fucked you harder, his fingers working faster on your clit, driving you to the brink. "good girl," he whispered, his voice dripping with approval. "now tell him you're mine. tell him who really owns you." "iâm yours," you choked out, your voice breaking as the words left your lips. "iâm yours, jungwon." his thrusts grew erratic, desperate, and you felt him twitch inside you, his breathing ragged as he chased his release. "thatâs right," he growled, his voice thick with possessiveness. "you're mine. and now jay knows it too." he had you folded, knees pressed tight against your chest, your back arching painfully as jungwon forced your head up, making you watch, making you feel every single second of it.
there was no escaping it now. not the humiliation. not the pleasure. everything was crashing over you, overwhelming, and there was no way out. you were a wreckâdrool slipping from your parted lips, your tongue poking out as moans poured from your mouth, completely uncontrollable. âfuck, fuck, fuck!â you screamed, the sound raw, desperate, like you were on the verge of breaking apart entirely. âyessss,â you dragged out, your jaw slack, body trembling, utterly destroyed beneath him. jungwon wasnât any better, his face buried in your neck, his breath erratic and hot against your skin as he lost himself inside of you. his moans grew louder, sloppier, his entire body shaking with the effort of holding on just a little longer. he was completely gone, fucking feral, groaning into your skin as he slammed into you, harder, deeper, like he needed to ruin youâlike nothing else mattered except the sound of your body breaking under him. "iâm gonna come inside you,â he groaned, his voice hoarse, broken, like he was barely holding on. âfill you up so good, no one else will ever fucking compare. youâre mine." "please," you whimpered, your voice trembling, on the edge, barely able to form words. "fuck, come inside me. ruin me, i need itâi need you to." your begging shattered him, ripped away whatever restraint he had left. with one final brutal thrust, jungwon buried himself deep inside you, his whole body seizing, shuddering violently as he came.
you felt itâhot, thick, pouring into you, the heat filling every inch of your body as he groaned your name, his face twisted in pure, animalistic pleasure.
your last orgasm slammed into youâoverwhelming, all-consuming. your vision blurred, your mouth open in a scream you barely recognized as your own, your mind blank as pleasure ravaged you, wave after violent wave. "fuck!" you cried out, voice raw, completely wrecked, as your body convulsed under him. your legs trembled, your breath coming in broken gasps as jungwon stayed pressed against you, his body just as wrecked as yours, both of you caught in the intensity of it all. he collapsed on top of you, breath hot, panting harshly in your ear, but neither of you moved. neither of you could. you were both completely spent, bodies locked together, tangled in the aftermath of what just happened. but even as the pleasure faded, your body still craved him. even as reality crashed back, the weight of what youâd done hung heavy. you gave in to him. completely. utterly. your fucking stepbrother. when he finally pulled out, you felt itâhis cum leaking out of you, dripping down your thighs, pooling on the ruined sheets beneath you. but jungwon wasnât done. not yet. his grip didnât loosen. instead, he grabbed your jaw, forcing your face up, turning you toward the camera. his lips brushed against your cheek, pressing a mocking kiss there, eyes never leaving the lens. you were fucked out, barely conscious, eyes glazed and half-lidded, a ruined mess under him. and thatâs exactly what jungwon wanted.
he wanted jay to see everything. but jungwon wasnât done. he grabbed your wrist, lifting it with ease, forcing your limp hand into a wave. the gesture was slow, deliberate, mocking as he waved it toward the blinking red light in the teddy bearâs eyes. jungwon chuckled softly, watching as your eyes fluttered closed, your head lolling to the side. you were passed out, completely ruined, your body limp beneath him, and yet, even in your unconscious state, he still had control. âthatâs right,â he whispered, his voice barely audible, dark satisfaction rolling off him in waves as he gently lowered your hand, brushing a thumb over your wrist like it was some twisted act of affection. âno coming back now.â he leaned back, his eyes locked on your ruined form, and for a moment, the room was filled with nothing but the sound of his ragged breath. everything had fallen apart, and yet for jungwon, this was everything. this was what he wanted. to have you like thisâto show jay, to show you both, that there was no escaping him. he smirked, glancing back at the camera, his eyes glinting with that same sick satisfaction. âhope you enjoyed the show,â he muttered under his breath, mocking, taunting, before finally pulling away from your limp body. because there was no coming back from this. not for you. not for jay.
jay entered the house quietly, a smile tugging at his lips. everything jungwon had told him was perfectly set in placeâyou supposedly asleep, the surprise heâd planned all ready to go. theyâd planned this days ago, jungwon kept complaining about how sad you were, how much you missed jay. so jay had left early, closing out everything he needed to just to make you happy. jungwon had assured him heâd be out with jake and sunghoon to give you both privacy, and heâd even asked jay to shut down his computer. jungwon didnât want you pestering him about the bill, and jay, being the kind of guy he was, had agreed. he trusted jungwon. loved him like a brother. but as jay moved through the house, he noticed somethingâthe faint sound of movement coming from your room. he paused, heart racing a little faster, not wanting to be caught just yet. he wanted the surprise to be perfect. he slipped into jungwonâs room quietly, careful not to make any noise. the desk sat in front of him, the soft glow of the screen catching his eye. then he saw it.
jayâs heart dropped, his smile fading, replaced by a wave of confusion, then horror. on the screen was a live feed of your roomâjungwon fucking you relentlessly, his hand clamped over your mouth, muffling your sobs. your face was streaked with tears, your body shaking from the intensity of his thrusts. jay froze. the bouquet of flowers he had been holding slipped from his grasp, hitting the floor softly, forgotten. his mind was a whirlwind of emotionsâanger, betrayal, disgustâall fighting for control. he wanted to move, wanted to storm into that room and tear jungwon off you. but he didnât. he couldnât. his feet were glued to the floor as he stared at the screen, his heart shattering with each passing second. âopen your fucking eyes,â jungwonâs voice snarled through the speakers, low and demanding. jay watched as your eyes snapped open, locking onto something out of frame. the pain in your eyes was clear at first, but then, as jungwon slammed into you harder, deeper, something shifted. your eyes rolled back, your body arching beneath him, moans spilling from your lips. you fucking loved it.
jayâs stomach churned. bile rose in his throat as the realization hit him like a sledgehammer. this wasnât just some accident. this wasnât some mistake. you wanted this. you wanted him. jungwon. your fucking stepbrother. the betrayal was suffocating. youâhis girlfriend, the person he thought he knew inside and outâwere being wrecked by someone he considered family. jungwon, the brother he trusted, was fucking you, and you were falling apart beneath him. how long had this been going on? how many times had you let him touch you like this? fuck you like this? jayâs eyes flickered to the keyboard. there they wereâyour panties. his favorite. stained with jungwonâs dried cum. disgust surged through him. his fists clenched at his sides, rage burning beneath his skin. but he couldnât stop watching. he couldnât fucking stop. "i even got him a present," jungwon grunted, his voice strained, breathless. "but i doubt heâll want them anymore." jayâs heart twisted painfully as he realized the truthâthis was all planned. jungwon had set him up. this entire thing was a fucking setup, a game. jayâs vision blurred, his pulse pounding in his ears. jungwonâs hips slammed into you, harder and harder, your body writhing beneath him, begging for more.
you were so lost in the pleasure, moaning and gasping, completely ruinedâand jay could only stand there, watching, as his entire world crumbled. how could you do this? you were sobbing now, crying out jungwonâs name as you begged for him to finish inside you. the sound of your voice, raw and desperate, shattered what was left of jayâs heart. he felt sick. had this been a game to you? had any of it been real? he couldnât tear his eyes away. he hated you. he hated jungwon. but there was something else too. but he kept on watching, he needed to see itâto burn the image into his mind so heâd never forget. so he could walk away from you both forever. and when jungwon reached for your limp wrist, lifting it in a grotesque imitation of a wave. that was the final straw. jay stormed out of the room, the door slamming hard behind him, the sound echoing through the house. the bouquet of flowers lay forgotten on the floor, just like everything else.
you stared at your reflection in the bathroom mirror, water dripping from your body, washing away the remnants of jungwonâs touch. but no matter how much you scrubbed, the feeling of him stayed, clinging to your skin, humming in your veins. and the guiltâit sat in your chest like a weight, suffocating, crushing, making it hard to breathe. you couldnât deny itâyou didnât even want to. you wanted him. you had wanted him for longer than youâd ever been willing to admit, even to yourself. there had always been something between you two, something dark and magnetic, pulling you toward him, something you didnât fully understand. but wanting him came at a price, one you werenât ready to pay. your reflection stared back at you, hollow-eyed, cheeks stained with tears that wouldnât stop falling. jungwonâs hands, his breath, his lipsâthey were all still on you, etched into your skin. it made your stomach twist in knots, a tangle of longing and disgust. how could you want something that felt so wrong? so twisted? but was it really wrong? the two of you werenât even related by blood. you didnât ask for your parents to marry each other, you didnât want any of this. when jungwon stepped into the bathroom, naked, his eyes dark and possessive, you couldnât help the way your pulse quickened. his presence filled the space like a shadow, and you couldnât escape it. didnât want to, really. the tension between you two was suffocating, and yet you craved it. his eyes locked onto yours, something soft flickering beneath the possessiveness, a hint of caution. he didnât wait for an invitationâjust closed the door behind him and stepped toward you, as if he had every right. his gaze stayed on yours, but there was hesitation in the air, uncertainty mixed with that overwhelming pull.
"do you hate me?" his voice was quiet, barely above a whisper. your throat tightened, the words sticking to the back of your throat, almost too heavy to say. "i... i donât hate you," you whispered, your voice shaking. "but i hate myself." he stepped closer, his hand reaching for yours, but you flinched, pulling back, creating space between you that you didnât really want. you ached for him, craved his touch, but the shame was too much. it felt wrong. he felt wrong. and then jay... jay didnât deserve any of this. and from the look on your face, jungwon knew exactly who you were thinking about. his jaw clenched, his expression hardening slightly, but his voice stayed soft, coaxing. "forget about him," he murmured, leaning in close enough that his forehead brushed against yours. his breath was warm, his presence overwhelming. "he doesnât matter." you shook your head, a sob catching in your throat. "he does matter. he trusted me, jungwon. he didnât deserve this. how do i even look him in the eye again? i destroyed him." "i canâtâ" your voice cracked, the guilt too heavy, threatening to drown you. "i need to talk to him. i need to make things right." jungwonâs fingers tightened around your wrist, his grip firm, possessive. his face hardened. "donât," he said sharply, his voice taking on an edge. "heâll only hurt you. heâll say things thatâll tear you apart. iâm not letting you do that to yourself." "i canât just pretend this didnât happen!" your voice wavered, panic rising in your chest. "i work with him, jungwon. how am i supposed to face him? how do i show up?"
"you donât," jungwon replied, his tone softer but still firm. "call in sick for the week. take time off. you donât need to put yourself through that right now." there was that possessiveness again, woven into every word, like he didnât want you anywhere near jay. not now. maybe not ever. "i need work," you mumbled, more to yourself than to him, but the thought of walking into that office, of facing jay after everything, made your stomach churn. "but maybe youâre right..." "i am right," jungwon said, kissing your temple gently, his lips lingering there like a promise. "you donât need to see him. not now." his words were soft, but there was an underlying intensity. and even though the guilt still weighed heavy on your chest, there was something comforting in the way he held you, kissed you, tried to make the weight lighter. "but i canât forgive myself," you whispered, pulling back enough to look him in the eyes. "i canât just forget what i did to him." his gaze softened slightly, a flicker of something close to regret crossing his face. "iâm sorry," he murmured, voice low. "i didnât want to hurt you. but i couldnât stop myself." "i know," you whispered back, feeling the conflict tearing you apart. "but jay didnât deserve this. he didnât deserve to be hurt." "you donât need to see him," jungwon repeated, his tone firm again, his grip tightening just enough to remind you that he wasnât letting you go. "you donât owe him anything."
"itâs not about owing him," you said, trying to explain, but your voice was trembling. "itâs about what i did. i need to make things right." jungwonâs eyes darkened, his jaw clenching. "heâll just hurt you. i wonât let that happen." his tone was final, possessive. you nodded, but your mind was elsewhere, lost in thoughts of jayâof what heâd seen, of how youâd betrayed him. how could you ever face him again? jungwonâs hand cupped your face, his thumb brushing away the tears that had started falling again. "donât break yourself over him," he whispered, pressing his lips to yours, soft, lingering. "i love you." and as he pulled you into his arms, your tears soaking into his skin, the guilt and shame still weighed heavy in your chest. you didnât want to feel this way, didnât want to let jungwon go either. you were trapped between the ache in your heart and the warmth of jungwonâs arms, knowing you couldnât escape either.
"i'm so fucked, won," you whimpered, your voice barely audible, thick with guilt and desperation. jungwonâs hand tightened around you, pulling you closer, his breath warm against your ear. "no, youâre not," he whispered, voice low and soothing, even though his grip was firm, possessive. "youâre mine." you trembled in his arms, your mind spinning with the weight of everything. the shame, the guilt, the way your body still craved his touch despite it all. "how can you say that?" your voice cracked. "iâve destroyed everything. i canâtâ" he cut you off, his lips brushing your temple softly, "you didnât destroy anything. you just did what youâve always wanted. what weâve both wanted." you shook your head, tears slipping down your cheeks again. "but jayâ" "forget him," jungwon growled softly, his tone darkening, fingers digging into your skin. "he doesnât matter anymore. iâm the one whoâs here. iâm the one who wants you, whoâs always wanted you." he tilted your chin up, forcing you to look at him, his eyes locking onto yours with an intensity that made your breath hitch. "youâre not fucked, y/n. youâre right where you need to be."
after a few days of silence, when things had started to feel somewhat normalâif you could even call it thatâyour phone buzzed with a message. you glanced at it, not expecting anything out of the ordinary. but when you saw the name, your stomach twisted.
jay.
your hands trembled as you unlocked your phone, heart pounding in your chest. the message wasnât what youâd hoped for, though a part of you knew it wouldnât be kind. not after everything you've done.
jay: slacking off because youâre busy fucking your brother? i didnât think youâd let this affect your job.
the words hit you like a slap, cold and sharp. your blood boiled, anger mixing with the shame that had been eating away at you. he didnât understand. he couldnât. this wasnât just about that one night; this was bigger than that, more complicated. but how could he ever see that?
you felt a surge of emotionsâanger, guilt, frustrationârising inside you, clouding your thoughts. maybe you did feel a little mad. mad that jay could reduce everything to something so ugly, so cruel. but also mad that you had no way to make him understand.
without thinking, you started typing back a response, your fingers flying over the keys, not even caring what youâd say at this point.
you: fuck you, jay. you donât know shitâ
but before you could hit send, jungwon was there, his hand grabbing the phone from your grip with a swift, firm motion.
"donât," he said, his voice low, warning. âdonât respond.â
you snapped your head toward him, anger flashing in your eyes. âgive it back,â you demanded, reaching for the phone, but jungwon held it out of your reach, his expression unreadable.
âyou donât need to answer him,â jungwon said, his voice calm, âheâs just trying to get under your skin.â
âwell, it worked,â you spat, your chest heaving with frustration. âhe doesnât understand. heâll never understand.â jungwonâs jaw clenched, and he stepped even closer, his presence overpowering, almost suffocating. "heâll be fine. people get hurt, they get over it. heâll move on, and so will you." his hand reached out, fingers brushing against your cheek, wiping away a tear that slipped down. "you donât owe him anything. not an explanation, not an apology. nothing." you wanted to fight back, to argue with him, but the weight of everything had worn you down. maybe jungwon was right. maybe time would heal it, or at least make it easier to bear. the guilt and shame wouldnât go away overnight, but maybe you could deal with it when the time came. maybe when things werenât so fresh. for now, youâd have to let it go. at least for a little while.
"you donât get it," you whispered, your voice barely audible. "i need to apologize. i need to make things right with him."
"not right now, you donât." jungwonâs fingers curled around your wrist, pulling you closer to him. his voice softened, but there was that possessiveness still lingering in every word. "youâll deal with it when youâre ready. but not now."
you let out a shaky breath, leaning into him, the warmth of his touch soothing the storm of emotions inside you. it was hard to let go of the guilt, but the pull of jungwon was strongerâalways had been. maybe time would heal the wounds, maybe someday youâd be able to face jay. you would apologize to him. one day.
jungwon tilted your chin up, his lips brushing against yours in a soft kiss, one that slowly deepened, and you let yourself melt into it. the warmth of his body, the way his hand cradled the back of your neckâit was enough to quiet your mind, to let the guilt slip away, if only for a moment.
when the kiss broke, jungwonâs eyes were dark, full of that same need, one that you had grown addicted to. his thumb brushed over your lips. "you donât need to deal with him right now. not when heâs just going to say shit to hurt you."
you hesitated for a second, but as jungwonâs lips found yours again, as his hands slipped down your waist, you were convinced. maybe you were just being true to yourself, following what you wanted, even if it came with consequences.
"okay," you breathed, your voice barely above a whisper.
jungwon smiled, a small, satisfied smirk that sent a thrill through you. he knew he had you.
"good girl." he whispered, his lips brushing against your ear before he kissed your neck, slow and deliberate.
jungwon was in the kitchen, apron on, focused on flipping the eggs just right. the sound of sizzling filled the space, and the familiar smell of breakfast hung in the air. this had become routine, the comfortable quiet that came from knowing you were still sound asleep in his bed, wrapped up in his shirt, your playful remarks slowly making a comeback, the little jabs at each other that made things feel normal again.
it took a while, but you were both taking it step by step. he smiled to himself as he wiped his hands on a towel, stepping toward the hallway. he quietly peeked into the roomâhis room now, really. there you were, tangled in the sheets, looking peaceful, beautiful as always. jungwon lingered in the doorway for a moment longer, his heart swelling at the sight of you. it felt right. because you belonged there, with him. a knock echoed through the house. jungwon takes off his apron and tossed it on the kitchen counter but not before turning the stove off, moving toward the door. the knock came again, sharper this time. "just a second," he called out.
he opened it. standing there, dressed casuallyâloose jeans and a black band shirt, a faded logo barely visible on the front. the figure was hunched slightly, typing something on their phone, fingers moving quickly across the screen. staring down at his phone, brow furrowed in concentration, before slowly lifting his gaze. their eyes met, and for a moment, neither of them moved. jay. neither spoke. jayâs face was hard to read. jungwon didnât say a word, but his body tensed, eyes locked on jayâs. both of them just stood there, the weight of everything unspoken hanging between them, thick and heavy in the air. and then, as if on cue, the phone in jungwonâs back pocket vibrated. the sound was subtle but sharp, breaking the silence. jayâs eyes flickered down to jungwonâs pocket. jungwonâs lips twitched, and slowly, a smirk spread across his face.
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AUTHORS NOTE ; this is a repost from my old blog ( chrisbahng-old ). this is the only place this has been reposted and any other reposts are not me nor are they allowed. I am hoping to have new content soon and appreciate all the support so far <3
warnings ; chan is called alpha, breeding, petnames (puppy, angel, baby)
âChannie, itâs sâ big,â you wined as your boyfriend filled you only halfway full of his thick cock.
âI know, baby.â Chan cooed, bringing his hand to rest on your cheek, his thumb wiping away the tears that threatened to fall. âBut look,â he brought his eyes from yours to where you two connected. âAlphaâs already halfway in you.â
âOnly half?â your gaze left Chanâs as you peered down to see if he was telling the truth. A moan escaped your lips at the sight of him slowly pushing the rest if himself into you.
âYouâre taking me so well, pup.â Chan groaned as he nearly bottomed out in you. âTaking my cock like it was made for you, yeah?â
You whimpered in response; hearing him praise you was something you would never tire of hearing.
âThatâs my good puppy,â Chan whispered as his hips met yours for the first time that night. Chan let out a blissful sigh and brought his attention back up to you, your puppy-dog eyes watering with tears again and Chan leans his forehead against yours.
âCâmon, I know you can take it, love. I havenât even properly fucked you yet.â He said, closing his eyes as he starts to pull himself out of you.
âHurts, alpha, it hurts,â you finally mumble out and Chan smiles down at you softly.
âShh, angel, youâre gonna be alright. Iâm here, alphaâs here.â Chan kissed your lips before pulling out to the tip and thrusting himself back into you. âShit, puppy,â he cursed as his hips met yours. âHow the fuck are still this fucking tight,â
His words made you tighten the grip you had on his shoulders, your nails digging into his soft skin and leaving little moons. âYou think your little cunt would be sloppy and messy, but fuck,â
You clenched at his words and whimpered when he pulled himself back out again. Chan repeated his motions, pulling out to the tip before slamming back into you, but progressively got more and more merciless.
Your mind went hazy, trying to think of any coherent thought or word to say was like reaching for something that wasnât there. The only thing you knew is that you were reaching your end.
âChannie,â you croak, ââm close,â
âAww, is my puppy gonna cum? Hmm?â
You nodded, not knowing how much longer you could hold on. âPlease,â you begged. âPlease let me cum on your cock,â
Chanâs jaw clenched at your words. He hears you mutter them enough, but it still gets him every single time.
âFuck, pup. Alphaâs gonna cum,â he said through gritted teeth, leaning his head on your shoulder.
âCum in me, please,â you whine, bringing your hips up to meet his.
Those four words was all it took for Chan to lose it, he thrust himself into you harder than heâs ever done and bit down on your supple flesh. You could feel his cock twitching as he let go inside you. You felt warm, not hot, but warm.
A soft smile spread to your lips when Chan pulled out of you for the final time that night.
Chan sat up on his knees, admiring his work. âYou look so pretty, my love. All my cum spilling out of you like this. Youâll be even prettier when youâre all pregnant with my pups, yeah?â
Chan leaned down and pressed a kiss to your lips, then nose and forehead. âThank you, alpha,â
âOf course, pup. Now why donât we run a bath, get us cleaned up a bit.â He replied.
You nodded in return, stretching your arms out for Chan to pick you up, not trusting your legs at the current moment. Chan lifted you up and kissed the top of your head. âYou did so well tonight, Iâm so proud of you.â
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i need to seriously bust ass and finish some of my wips...they need freed...
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did someone say perv skz?!??!!
who in skz will jerk off to the sound of you getting fucked from the other room and why is it jisung?
who in skz will watch you get undressed, you who's blissfully unaware that your neighboor is at the front seat of your little show in putting your lil night gown on just because you forgot to draw your blinds, and why is it chan? who'd definitely feel guilty right after but his boner is taking ages to go away?
who in skz will watch you do squats at the gym, your plump ass on display straining against the fabric of your gym shorts, and might even offer to help spot you just to cope a feel when the opportunity arises, and why is it changbin?
who in skz will watch you take a shower through a crack on your door when you fail to close it properly, cock growing hard at the sight of soap suds flowing against your body as you rinse off, and why is it jeongin?
who in skz will draw you nude just from imagination, just doodles upon doodles of you and your naked body all over his sketch book in hopes that he'd replicate an exact image of you, and why is it hyunjin?
who in skz will steal your used underwear from the laundry, just for him to jerk off with it, cum all over the soiled fabric, before putting it back on the hamper? and why is it felix?
who in skz will call you over for a sleepover just so he could grind his hard cock against your ass when you're fast asleep until he cums all over his boxers, and why is it seungmin?
who in skz will secretly take upskirt photos of you, skillfully taking pictures of your underwear whenever you're wearing a dress or skirt, just for him to shamelessly jerk off to every night, and why is it minho?
#oh to have felix steal my panties#to have minho take upskirt pics of me#sighs dreamily#â alix likes!
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AUTHORS NOTE ; this is a repost from my old blog ( chrisbahng-old ). this is the only place this has been reposted and any other reposts are not me nor are they allowed. I am hoping to have new content soon and appreciate all the support so far <3
warnings ; name calling, spitting, chan is mean
Chan grips your jaw, making you look up at him from your position on your knees. He taps his index finger on your lips twice, rather quickly. you obediently open your mouth with no hesitation.
âdirty little bitch,â he scoffs. âI bet youâd even let me.â
your mind races and your core aches for him. but you know heâs not going to touch you, not yet.
Chan looks down at you, mouth agape and eyes all doe-like. He laughs lowly before spitting in your mouth. âSwallow.â He orders before putting two fingers on your tongue.
you swallow and beat your eyes shut. âFucking filthy. Just the way i like you.â
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đˇď¸ lee minho x fem!reader. cw ; stepbrother!minho, perv!minho, dubcon, yandere themes, degradation, name calling: slut, pet names: bunny ( 444 w. )
minors dni. for mature audiences only !
there's many things minho can't stand. nosy people, cheap beer, his middle-aged boss wasting his time with another pointless request. but the worst of them all? it's the one thought that threatens to consume him whole whenever he hears you slip out of the house, scantily clad in the tiniest fucking dress he's ever laid his eyes on: the thought of anyone else touching you, his pretty little sister. of anyone touching what's his.
it's all your fault anyway. you turned him into this, made him obsessed with every inch of you until he could no longer keep his hands to himself. he had to have you. just once.
just once turned into twice, twice turned into endless forevers. you're his and his only, he's made sure of that: fucks you stupid on his fat cock whenever he gets the chance, adorable pouty protests long since gone and replaced with the sweetest moans he's ever dreamed of.
he's got his teeth on your shoulder, bites down just hard enough to make you shudder. minho has to hold himself back from drawing blood, from claiming you for anyone to see, including your parents. ever the concerned older brother, he'll keep you safe forever like he's promised himself. even if you'll beg him to let you go. after all he's the one who taught you how to beg.
you're tight and wet around him, perfect fucking pussy sucking him in with every thrust. he loves watching your nose scrunch and your eyelids flutter whenever he hits the spot just right. after hours of practice your body has become as familiar to him as his own.
"i can't believe it was this easy." it shouldn't have been this easy. you stare up at him in confusion. his adorable, pretty, dumb little bunny.
minho shakes his head. "all i had to do was fuck you a couple times and you come running to me," he chuckles, "'t was only a matter of time."
you're not looking at him now, embarrassed gaze downcast and pointed somewhere at his chest. "like a fucking slut," he adds, and laughs when you shudder again.
"my sweet little bun." he nips at your earlobe and forces his cock deeper, knowing you're close. "there's no hiding from me. i know you better than anyone, you know that, right?"
you don't answer, and minho grabs your chin to force you to look at him. "i know you need this, it's okay. tell me how much you hate me. how much my touch disgusts you,"
"say it," he orders, and he thinks he might burst into flames when you don't hesitate.
"i'm yours, minho, all yours."
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not sure how many people will see this but i will have some time from the 15th-19th to write so send me some asks! hard thoughts, mtl, anything!
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