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I've lost.

I've lost my faith

I've lost those happiest moments

I've lost kinship

I've lost trust

I've lost friendships

I've lost money

I've lost the she I care for.

I've lost dignity

I've lost Love

I've lost Hope

Ive made terrible mistakes in life that I cant forgive myself.I know I'm a retarded introvert and a good for nothing son.Perhaps they are right.Ive judged people as failures,yet I dont see how Im no different.

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Bleeding

12 June 2019

Hi Tumblr,how are you? I've a confession to make to you.Im bleeding on the inside and becoming so numb like how Linking Park sings it.A delicate-looking cake on the outside but raw batter on the inside.Avoidance seems the way out,yet I cant escape this painful realm.I've lived a comfortable life on this world,yet my inner world is crumbling.My heart is bleeding dry already,yet I still get more stabs.Im young,yet Im tired of life and cant take it anymore.

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16 April 2019

Just when I thought Julie Tan has it all as an actress, Jasmine Sim soon dominates the television stage of my heart.From 白雪 to Ella Shelley, it has been a joy and entertainment seeing you act tremendously well on televsion with the confidence and flair that you posess.I am not obsessed about you,but I do really feel happy for you to see your hard work paid off by winning this Newcomer Award!Cheers to you Jasmine!🥂🥂🥂😉😉😉

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27 February 2019

为什么爱是那么复杂呢，越深深地爱，悲伤越深，脱开不身。我真傻。

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2 February 2019

Artsy Day with Ms Lydia Ho!@Muzart East Coast

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12 Jan 2019

Start of 2019 was definitely not a great one for me,stemming from relationship issues to injuries to exams to feeling "replaced".Looking forward to my birthday on 6 Jan turns out to be a sour one when I spend my day till 4am on a project submission.Definitely I was disappointed with myself and on my birthday day.

Today,I never felt so happier than before in 2019.Im grateful and thankful for my friends Eunice,Jun Xiang and PeiXuan who deliberately orchestrated this day just to make my day special and were the only guys who bought me birthday gifts.🤧Thanks guys for giving me that encouragement and smile tonight!Cheers with a Happy New Year!

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9 January 2018

Hey Tumblr, am I a boring person?One with nothing to offer?Replaced?Obsolete?My instinct today tells me so.

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Tears.

15 December 2018

Tonight's journey home on a train was emotional.At the corner of my eye,a torn piece of tissue was landing on the floor in mid air.Looking up, it was from a middle aged lady with used tissues in her hand.Bending down,she quickly picked up that fallen tissue and held it firmly in her left palm.Thinking why was she holding tissues,her face expression gave the answer.Tears were rolling up in her eyes as she struggled to wipe away her tears to not attract public attention.Silently weeping alone at the corner of the train carriage, my heart was with her.I didnt know what happened to her but definitely her day was a heartbreaking one.I bet she went home amd break down in tears openly.As I reluctantly alighted, my heart broke for her in secret as I knew I was once there.

8 Oct 2017 was the day I did the exact same thing as the lady.I was "fired" courteously during a part time job at a salad bar due to my incapabilities.I could not help crying in the 11pm train back home.It was the day I felt so useless in my life.

I dunno what broke this lady's heart.At the very least, I wished I could give her a hug.Thats all.

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20 October 2018

20 October was one of the worst days Ive ever had in my entire life.It taught me a great lesson in life.Cherish those whom you love. Choosing to neglect someone I do care and love was the greatest mistake.Avoidance seemed to be the easy way out to moving forward in life.But I was wrong.The pain came when I had a nightmare of her in my dream throwing chairs at me with a glaring stare.That really hurts.Upon reflection on how I treat this person,I decided to salvage whats left.

It was too late.I felt I lost someone close to me.Whats left?Pain.Regrets.Despair.

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13 October 2018

Hells Kitchen Season 18 Jen Gavin Accuses Chef Ramsay of “Sabotaging” her!

Eight veteran contestants including Chef Jen were in a face off competition with a rookie team in this Hells Kitchen Season 18, with the prize of $250,000 and an attractive executive chef position at one of Ramsay’s top restaurants.As an individual myself who watched many hells kitchen episodes, I have came across many ways of how contestants get themselves screwed up and kicked out by Chef Ramsay.The smartest and dumbest contestants.

However, on 13 October Saturday afternoon, I was watching the new season of Hells Kitchen Season 18 and something pretty shocking happen that got my jaws wide open.The usual politics,the drama, the intensity are all felt as I put myself in the shoes of the contestants, if I really wanted to win the competition.During one dinner service, a heated exchange occurred between both Chef Ramsay and Jen. Jen Gavin, who was on the blue team with other past contestants of the show, was working the garnish station. 

According to Chicago Tribune article, Ramsay complained that she wasn’t giving him enough garnish for the duck dish. “I gave you the creamy leeks, Chef,” Jen told Ramsay before she saw the pan that Ramsay was holding. “OK, you need more.”As usual, Chef Ramsay gathers and announces to the whole team on mistakes made by contestants. Ramsay called the rest of Gavin’s team together to complain about the lack of garnish. He showed them the pan that had some of Gavin’s leftover garnish in it. Ramsay’s sous chef had stored the pan on a shelf after spooning garnish onto a plate. Jen thought that Chef Ramsay stored her food instead of serving it to sabotage her.As a viewer, I was confused and was hoping for an explanation that Chef Ramsay would give to defend himself and his show. Chef Ramsay pulled out the dustbin which had no wastage of the garnish and it was then Jen got really furious.

“You just pulled that from under there, Chef,” Jen said about the pan Ramsay had removed from the shelf. “You threw that under there. I gave you enough leeks. You’re trying to clown me up in here right now. No, you’re trying to clown me in here right now. I gave you the leeks, Chef.” Jen continues to accuse Chef Ramsay of lying and could not take the “injustice she is suffering.And this was how she eliminated herself after Chef Ramsay asked her to remove her apron.

Wow.I admire Jen standing up for herself if she ever felt disrespected, regardless by who.However, circumstances and emotions got the hold of her which made me sad that she had to leave the competition in a manner like this.