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Larry

The legendary cowboy is gone.

I won’t see his hat on his round, soft skull.

I won’t feel his dry, hard worked hands with my baby sized hands in his palms.

Never again will I run up to his seat at the bar to say hello.

He had a white beard and mustache.

A brown coat wrapped around over his arms.

An old man who didn’t like a lot of people, but he sure loved me.

Cancer, a life eating monster, crawled up from under his bed and dragged him from me.

His white facial hair was rejected by his face.

A pain in his back under his brown coat.

When I turned ten, he gave me a big book and wanted me to write a report about it, but I never started it.

It had been 6 years since he gave it to me.

I think that’s what hurts me the most about his passing; I had so much time, but time is a killer.

(Poem written on 2-15-18)

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Grey

I wouldn't dare change such beautifal details upon her face or body. I was supposed to do so, but she was a masterpiece. She warmed my heart. I no longer felt like a monster. I had forgotten my horns on my skull. I had no thought of my gray body and lack of hair. She made me feel human.

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Poem Story #2

A tree grows on Cross Hill.

You really see it in the sunset.

The air feels warm in the afternoon.

I realized that I was alone.

My tears roll down my tanned skin as I pray to the early moon.

My hands sore from holding my own fists.

Did I run? Did I fade? Did I back down? 

I fell on my knees and sang with severe sorrow and gasps for air.

Cross Hill waited for me.

It waited for me in the sunset. 

My bare feet raced to the tree on Cross Hill.

Jumped over thorns and rolled down.

With the vine of leaves around my neck, I shall be buried in Cross Hill.

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Poem Story

You see me smile.

You see me walk along roads

among friends with my hands in my pockets.

Do you know my thoughts?

No!

No, you don’t.

You may be my mother or father or best friend, but you don’t know how I feel inside this shaking and cold body.

I feel limb.

I feel as if I am drowning.

I’m drowning.

Drowning in this ocean of blood.

Of tears.

Of feelings that I am scared to let out.

I’m scared to scream.

If I scream, I’ll burst.

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My Heart...

I'm sick.

  My heart won't stop beating for you. 

While I stand by the mountains with bright purple light, my heart beats for you. 

While I stand close to you and your laugh echos, my heart beats for you.

 While music plays through my brain, my heart beats for you.

 So I lay here dying and bleeding and now a sorrowful body, my heart did beat for you.

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Falling

I closed my eyes, held my breath, expecting a loud splash, but I didn’t hear anything. I opened my eyes, wishing that I died.

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Before I Say Goodbye

Do you love me or not(x2)

Do you feel the same thing that I feel(x2)

Tell me that you love me or not(x2)

Before I say goodbye(x2)

You said that you had to leave/But I was the one leaving/Little did you know that I was smiling/even though I was crying/my heart was glowing and I knew that this far-away-love was no longer true

Baby/come and tell me/what is wrong/you say you care/but I laugh and say/FUCK THIS BS/I am stronger than the words you use to pull me down/rape me/and break me/you’re no longer mine/I ain’t yours/I ain’t your property

You don’t love me (x2)

you’ll never feel the same for me(x2)

I’m gonna say it(x2)

Goodbye(x3)    

written by CN and Mickey

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Some computer art <x3

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Yo, it’s Child Nightmare and I’m back on Tumblr! I don’t have wifi at home so I won’t be online BUT I will more often that before.

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Young Girl Jake

She’s got eyes of green

She’s got a warm heart

Most beautiful girl you’ve ever seen

Young girl Jake has her mama’s smile and her daddy’s nose

When people tell her she has amazing parents she knows

Young girl Jake’s mom tells her everything she needs to know

In the future she wants to be like what her mama is now

Her favorite color is green

She draws hearts

Most sweetest girl you’ll ever meet

Young girl Jake has her mama’s strength and her daddy’s good looks

When people tell her she has awesome parents she knows

Young girl Jake knows everything she needs to know

Her parents raised her just right

Never got into a fight

no no no

Not a tangled, worn out family

no no no

She looks up at the trees of green

She smiles when it warms her heart

Most passionate woman she’ll ever be

She’s got her mama’s smile and her daddy’s attitude

When people tell her they miss her parents, yeah she does too

She’s got a big future now

Husband, twin boys and a little girl

Yeah she’s what her mama was now

Every day Jake grows

Yeah, grown up Jake has everything she knows

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Apart Again

We were a fire...

but now I am only a glimmer

and you a burned match.

I’m sorry that there is a line

and time is taking us down

and making us rip each other apart.

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Fuck yeah I do.

Reblog if you say "fuck" more than 5 times a day.

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Would you like to pay cash or shrek

One day when I was fifteen I said “ma you know what’d be funny, Shrek checks.” And she remembered. She held onto that thought for five years. I opened a checking account a month ago and my mom asked me if she could order my checks so I said sure. This is what I got. Every check has a different character on it, some have donkey, some have Fiona. I’m not even mad that no one’s gonna take me seriously and my adult life is ruined. I’m just straight up impressed that my mom held onto that memory for five years and pulled this off.

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Guys......vote for Bernie. PLEASE

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Who is a better candidate?

Reblog for Dancing Pumpkin Man Like for Donald Trump

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Diary Entry(1):New Video

AAAAAHHHHHHHH! I’m so so so so so HAPPY! Why?! Because I posted my new YouTube video like 4 days ago and linked it on my FaceBook and I now have 9 subscribers! I started out with 3. I’m so happy! <3 My only family members who haven’t seen my video are on my dad’s side. Sooooo I hope they see it soon.

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All of This Love...

With all of this pain/I can no longer feel/all the love that I felt/when you were drunk on feelings/that were lies/and I remember the night you left me/it felt like you hit my back with a belt/this is fucked up/and I can no longer feel/all the love that I felt/is gone and stolen from all of my heart’s joy and love from someone who is closer to yours and is actually nearer/Don’t believe me that I am in pain?/lookie here/I am bleeding from my ear/I tore it off because all of the lies you told me/made me a dark van goth/All of these words are my artwork/and you should know now that you will never be my first or last masterpiece/All of this love/is gone now/and I will go on.