cherrylomain

[cherrylomain]

Having trouble getting up early like I used to, so damn annoying . Have to go to bed at 8 I guess

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It ended up beung really slow todat thabk god so I just spent most of the day scrubbing the walls and floors and cleabing bc for some reason they dont clean at night. Super irritating

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Didnt realize I worked an hour earlier than usual today kmskmskms

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It actually drives me insane how fucking crazy my sister is. She'll be ok for a while but suddenly attack you and say horrible things I really dont know what mental problem she has but she needs to fix it

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so crazy how I'll never experience love and not being able to connect to other people in this way while everyone goes on about their relationships or whatever

[cherrylomain]

sometimes Im tired of being so disconnected from other people but its whatever

[cherrylomain]

I cant stand how cold it is in my house god damn.

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slept in today and I feel like Im being punished for it. I guess its just my bed but if I sleep too long I get so damn sore

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Damn if I didnt close last night I would have rode my bike this morning

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Came back to work to close bc someone thought they requested off when they didnt (bullshit) but im off today so it doesnt matter

[cherrylomain]

Something about thinking about wanting to quit my job makes me feel icky in a way i cant describe, I think its bc I dont have it as bad as other people and Im not in school so I dont have to worry about that kind of balance, its all very doable for me. I dont have college education so I doubt I can really do anything else without taking a hit financially and starting all over somewhere else, I think despite it all I can still make something of myself here. I also dont care about being happy at work, i think I got worked up about not being friends with anyone but that doesnt really matter to me anymore, that in itself is messy and annoying also

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makes me sad that my mom has so many health issues

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Found out that person I used to work with and hate is dating the weird bum guy co worker, much to think about

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I also cant see the last time I payed on the app like useless

[cherrylomain]

ugh care credit pisses me off. dont notify you for payment dues then youre late. no email or nothing even though theirs a setting to be notified. app sucks and doesnt update

[cherrylomain]

Boycotting work food once again I want to go back to drawing on my little tablet during break again its fun

[cherrylomain]

I hate that its hard to avoid snacking instead of eating meals its such a damn pain