cherrydriver

[cherrydriver]

I've had this idea for a while honestly but I'm too scared to try writing and I love your writing soooo

What about Saja boys (separate or together) x past!idol reader? It can be angst or fluff, I don't care, But the Saja boys find out reader used to be a kpop idol somehow? (Like they find a video of one of the readers old concerts) And overall, I'm curious about their reactions. Thank you 😁

Hi! Thank you so much! And thank you for the request, sorry it took a little bit! This was a fun one to write! Enjoy! CW: The tiniest bit of angst in Abby's and Baby's. They all got happy endings though :)

Saja Boys (separately) x past!idol reader

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ABBY - 

He didn’t know how he came across the video but somehow it had shown up on his feed. He didn’t know whether or not to believe it or not so he did some more digging and ended up finding out that the video was real. You used to be a k-pop idol yourself…so why did you keep this from him? 

The two of you had been dating for quite some time now and you had never once mentioned this to him. He couldn’t help but feel a little hurt that you didn’t share this part of your life with him, especially since you guys were so close. 

When you got home from work one day, Abby decided to confront you about this, wanting to know more and why you hid it. Once you settled on the couch, he sat down beside you with his phone out. 

“Hey…can I ask you about something?” Abby asked you in a more serious tone than usual. That was your first sign that something was up with him because he usually wasn't this serious around you. You sat up a little straighter on the couch and turned to face him a bit more, a small frown on your lips. “Yeah of course. Is something wrong?” You asked him quietly, watching him pull something up on his phone. 

“Why didn’t you tell me about this?” Abby asked you, showing you the video of yourself singing on stage when you used to be a k-pop idol…something you had put behind you. You tell by Abby’s body language, which was tenser than usual, that he was upset. He looked hurt more than anything. You felt yourself tense more as well since the video was bringing back memories that you thought you had buried. 

“Abby…I’m sorry. I just…I kind of wanted to put it all behind me. It was a part of my life that I don’t regret but want to put in the past.” You explained with a small sigh. You could tell that Abby was still upset. 

“I just don’t understand why you didn’t tell me about this, y/n. I thought we told each other everything and this is a pretty big thing that clearly affected your life. I just thought that you’ve let me in on this.” Abby told you in a serious tone, keeping his eyes on you. 

You felt a small tinge of guilt seeing Abby’s reaction. You didn’t really know what you were expecting but it wasn’t this. However, you couldn’t blame him. This was a pretty big part of your life that you kept hidden from the one person who knew you better then anyone. 

“I’m sorry, you’re right. I should’ve trusted you. I was just…scared, I guess. I didn’t know how you’d react and that part of my life has been put behind me. But you’re right, I should’ve told you. I’m sorry.” You told Abby sincerely, looking into his eyes. You really did mean your words and you hoped that he’d understand. 

Abby stayed quiet for a moment before letting out a small sigh and nodding. He moved closer to you again, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you against his chest. “It’s okay, baby…thank you for being honest with me.” A small smirk then formed on his face. 

“I’ll forgive you if you give me a performance of one of your songs.” He told you with a smug expression. You playfully hit his chest but in the end, he managed to convince you to sing one of your songs to him. 

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ROMANCE - 

Jinu had sent him the video along with a message that said: “Hey. Isn’t this y/n? I didn’t know she was a k-pop idol.” Yeah, he didn’t either. After Romance watched the video (multiple times of course because you looked beautiful on stage), he did a deep dive. He went through multiple websites and found whatever he could but there was very little information. It seemed like any information about you and your songs had been wiped somehow, very few details and videos remained online. 

Romance was a little curious as to why you had kept this part of your life from him but it seemed like you had wanted it to be forgotten. 

Still, it didn’t stop him from asking you about it when you two were hanging out at his place that evening. He pulled up the video again and showed you his phone, watching the surprised expression on your face. 

“Look…I feel like there’s a reason why you didn’t tell me so I’m not upset that you didn’t tell me. I guess I just wish that I didn’t have to find out from Jinu.” Romance told you with a small chuckle before putting his phone away and moving to wrap his arms around you. 

“Wait, you aren’t mad that I didn’t tell you about my past?” You asked him quietly, still feeling a little unsure about how he was taking this news. 

Romance just shook his head, a smile still on his face. “Of course not. I mean, it would’ve been cool to know because we could’ve talked about it but I’m not mad at you. I’ve honestly been replaying the video because you look so beautiful on that stage.” He told you softly, leaning forward to press a kiss to your head. 

The two of you spent the rest of the evening talking about your k-pop past and Romance made you find other videos to show him. He saved every single one. 

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MYSTERY -

Mystery found the video himself. He came upon a video of a smaller concert but still with a lot of fans clearly excited in the audience. He was intrigued by it so he watched it, instantly recognizing you as part of the group. He was taken back for a moment and had to pause the video to zoom in, just to be sure. Sure enough, it was definitely you there. 

He couldn’t help but wonder why you never told him about this but he wasn’t one to judge. He kept a lot of things to himself so he understood that maybe this was something you didn’t want to bring up to him. 

Still, his curiosity got the best of him that night when you were over. He was a little nervous to bring it up in case it was something that struck a bad memory for you. He just had to ask though. 

“Hey…so you don’t have to tell me much but I came across a video today of you singing with a k-pop group.” Mystery told you after the two of you finished watching a movie. 

You were a little surprised that he had found out about that because you didn’t think people talked about your group much anymore. It seemed like there were still a few videos floating around. 

“Oh yeah…it was a few years ago now. I honestly just did it for fun and we were pretty popular but then it got a little too much, you know? So we stopped. I don’t regret it though, it was fun while it lasted.” You explained to him with a small smile, pulling out your phone. 

“Would you want to see more?” You asked Mystery as you pulled up some other concert videos. He instantly scooted closer to you, which you were surprised was even possible due to how close he had already been. 

The two of you spent the rest of the night watching other videos as you explained everything. Mystery had honestly just been curious when he saw the video and it was grateful that you felt so comfortable telling him all the details about it. 

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BABY - 

Baby found out from overhearing one of your friends mention it. The two of you had been hanging out with some of your friends and one of them had let it slip that you were part of this k-pop group. Baby didn’t react right away, making it seem like he hadn’t heard it but when he got home that night, he instantly did his research. He couldn’t help but feel a little frustrated that you had told your friends about this and not him. He was your boyfriend and you didn’t think to mention this part of your life to him? 

The next time you guys hung out, he asked you about it right away. He mainly just wanted to know why you kept it from him. 

Once you got to his place, he was right there holding his phone out to you. “Why didn’t you tell me about this? I had to find out from hearing it from one of your friends?” He asked you quickly and slightly pushy. 

You were a little taken back by his tone and the fact that he had found out. You hadn’t meant to keep it from him but you just didn’t know how to bring it up. 

“Baby…I’m sorry. I didn’t want you to find out that way. I’ve been trying to figure out how to tell you but I’ve honestly been scared of how you’d react. I know that’s stupid but…that was a kind of challenging time if my life so I wanted to feel ready to talk about it.” You explained quietly, keeping your eyes on him. 

Shit. Now he felt terrible that he had come on so strongly. Baby let out a small sigh as he lowered his phone. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to come on so strongly like that. I think I was just upset that you’re friends knew about it and not me.” He confessed as he looked at you with a softer expression now. 

“I would like to know more though. If you feel comfortable sharing, of course.” Baby added as he put his hand on your lower back and led you into the living room. 

So that night you ended up opening up to Baby about the whole story of being part of a k-pop group and why you stopped. He sat there and listened to every word you said, understanding more by the end why you had kept it hidden. 

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JINU -

Jinu found out from walking into a room and hearing Abby and Romance watching some kind of concert video. He was intrigued by their shocked faces and when he saw the video, he quickly understood. It was you. You were on that stage and singing. You sounded beautiful and looked so natural on stage but you weren’t doing that now. You also hadn’t told him about this. 

Jinu never got onto the internet so quickly. He did a deep dive into whatever he could find which wasn’t a whole lot. Abby finally told him to just ask you if he wanted answers so badly so he decided to do that. 

While the two of you were on your evening walk, he fiddled with his fingers slightly before bringing it up. “Hey, so I’ve actually been meaning to talk to you about something. Abby and Romance came across a video of you performing earlier. I did a bunch of research…you know, to make sure it wasn’t some crazy edit or AI, but it’s real. Isn’t it?” Jinu asked you, looking over at you. 

You knew that this would probably come up eventually so you might as well be honest about it now. You looked over at Jinu and nodded, a small sigh leaving your lips. 

“Yeah, it’s real. I was part of a k-pop group a few years ago. It was really fun but our group kind of fell apart. We weren’t crazy popular but we had a bit of a fan base.” You explained, thinking back on the memories of performing. You honestly missed it and Jinu could tell from the look on your face.

“You could always try performing again. Maybe doing some solo stuff? Or, even better, you could help the Saja Boys. It seemed like you were really confident with choreo and we could always use some help with that.” Jinu offered softly, giving you a warm smile. 

You returned the smile, thinking about how fun it would be to be able to work with your boyfriend and the other boys. It would also allow you to be able to perform and dance again. 

So that night you talked to Jinu about all the different ideas you had for the Saja Boys and what things you could help them work on. Jinu was just excited to be able to work alongside you. 

[cherrydriver]

I kinda wanna see Baby saja cat coded. At first he's weary, then he starts warming up until he's literally purring in your hand as you scritch his chin

-🦋

Hi!! Sorry it took a little bit to get this out! Thank you so much for the request! 🤍

Baby Saja: Cat Coded

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He would NEVER admit to liking this but you’d find out just through his actions.

He always acts so tough around you because he’s use to having to be so innocent in public.

So when the two of you are cuddling on the couch one night, his arm around you, you feel him melt into you.

You chuckle quietly as you look over at him and run your hand through his hair, seeing the way he’s avoiding your gaze.

You take that moment to move your hand under his chin, giving it a small scratch in hopes that maybe he’d look at you.

What he did instead though, threw you off guard.

You swore he purred. Just very quietly but it was there.

“Did you just purr?” You asked him, amusement clearly in your tone.

Baby instantly tensed, still avoiding your face. “No…I definitely didn’t.” He replied quickly.

“Oh you so did. You purred like a cat.” You chuckled as you kept your eyes on him, your hand still on his chin.

Baby knew that he couldn’t take it back. He did purr slightly and you had heard it.

“If you tell anyone about this…especially the boys…I will never forgive you.” Baby muttered under his breath, a faint blush now on his cheeks.

You never told the boys but you never let him live it down either because you ended up scratching his chin more often just to get his reaction.

[cherrydriver]

Masterlist <3

(These are all Saja Boys x reader)

I'm Alive series:

Part 1: I'm Alive, I'm Alive, I am so Alive

Part 2: Aftershocks

Part 3: Catch Me I'm Falling

Fluff:

Saja Boys dealing with insecurities

Surprise!

Saja Boys: Makeout Headcannons

Saja Boys react to you saying: I could talk to you all night

Saja Boys x past!idol reader

Angst:

Saja Boys' letters to you after you've passed

Separate works:

Baby Saja: Cat Coded

[cherrydriver]

i’m gonna ask here just in case if you miss it in my reblog

i saw your ‘saja boys send letters to you, but you’re dead’ post

and i just want to as if i can use this as inspo? i might just make a post like this, i will tag and link this post in credits🙏

no pressure to say yes!

Hi! Thank you so much for asking! Yes, that is totally fine!! Have a good day/night! <3

[cherrydriver]

Catch Me I'm Falling - I'm Alive series pt.3

It's here!! Thank you again for all the love on this little series! This part is definitely inspired by a comment from @chaoticfivesworld so thank you for your idea!! Part four may be the final part :)

CW: Still angst (Definitely not like before but it's not fluff yet) 🙂

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ABBY -

Ever since that night at the store, Abby had been wracking his brain to try and find some way to talk to you without you freaking out on him. It broke his heart every time it happened. 

At first he was confused himself until he realized that you really were the only one who could see him so it was no wonder why you were so panicked. He knew that your friends were worried about you, especially with how on edge you’ve been. 

He kept his distance from you for a little but it was always watching. He couldn’t help it. He loved and missed you too much to stay completely away. 

He needed to find some way to explain to you the situation without you breaking down into tears and running away. He needed a way for you to believe him. 

He knew that it didn’t end well last time but showing up at the store after you closed was the only way he could maybe get you to listen to him. 

So Abby waited outside the store until the last customer left before he slipped inside. When you caught sight of him again, you paled instantly. 

“I thought I told you to leave me alone…do you have any idea how this makes me feel? I feel like I’m going insane…and now I’m talking to thin air again.” You mumbled under your breath as you took some deep breaths, hoping that it would help to get Abby to go away. 

You heard movement though, telling you that he hadn’t left yet. “Y/n, please. I need you to listen to me without freaking out. I know that this is hard to believe, especially when you watched me die on that stage but I’m really here.” Abby explained, her eyes never leaving you even as you had your back turned to him. 

You didn’t move or say anything. Simply just stood there in silence. You kept hoping that maybe he’d go away on his own but it seemed like Abby was determined. Or at this this hallucination was. 

Abby took the silence as a sign to keep talking. “I know that it’s complicated, especially since others can’t see me, but I’m really alive. It’s like I'm stuck somehow. Stuck between the living world and the demon realm. Only you can see me, y/n. I need you to believe…it’s the only way I can cross over completely.” His voice was serious and for a moment, you questioned whether he was telling the truth. 

You slowly turned to face Abby, looking confused and hurt. “I don’t know what to believe anymore. You don’t know how this feels for me…it makes me feel insane. How do I know this isn’t a trick my mind is playing on me because I miss you so much?” You asked him in a shaky voice. 

“I don’t know how to get you to believe, y/n. You can feel me, can’t you?” Abby asked, reaching out and touching your hand. You sucked in a breath as you felt his touch, just like you had back in the kitchen a few weeks ago. 

You stared up at him, your mind racing with possibilities that maybe he really was telling the truth. That was until you saw someone walk by the store and look at you like you were crazy. Standing alone, talking to no one. 

Your face instantly fell and you pulled your hand away, shaking your head. “No…it’s too good to be true.” You whispered, feeling like you were losing your mind even more now. 

Abby was left alone once more, slowly starting to worry that maybe you’d never come around to believe him. However, you stopped before fully leaving and glanced back at him. “If you really are telling the truth…which I’m struggling to believe but I really want to…I need to process this before anything else.” You murmured, trying to ignore any glances you got. 

Abby nodded, feeling the smallest bit of hope in his chest which is more than he had before. He watched you leave, feeling even more determined now to get you to believe that he was real. 

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ROMANCE -

After what had happened in the park, Romance was terrified of scaring you again. Seeing the way you reacted to him broke his heart into even more pieces. He had never seen you so upset and distraught and it was clear that these last few weeks had been more than challenging for you. 

He needed to find a way to get through to you though so that he could be back for good. He needed to be back for you but he could only do it if you truly believed that he was alive. 

Romance spent all of his time at the park. He didn’t try to find you. He just sat in the same spot and hoped that you’d eventually come back and to his luck, you did. 

You had avoided your favorite spot in the park for a little bit ever since that encounter with Romance - well The hallucination of him. It felt so real…even more real then when you saw him in the kitchen. When you headed around the bushes to the small hidden spot that you and Romance had found, you instantly spotted pink hair. 

You closed your eyes tightly and took in a deep breath, mumbling to yourself that he wasn’t really there and this was just another hallucinating moment. When you opened your eyes again though, he was still there and looking at you with a broken expression. 

“I know you don’t believe that I’m here…and I know that this has only been making things worse for you which is exactly what I didn’t want. But y/n…please. I need you to hear me out or at least try.” Romance told you quietly as he stood up and walked closer to you.

You took a step back but kept your eyes on him, still not saying anything because you didn’t want others to see you talking to thin air. The park wasn’t crazy busy but there were enough people around to notice you. 

Romance noticed the way you stayed silent and continued talking. “This is going to be a lot, but try to hear me out. I’m somehow stuck between being fully alive in this world and being stuck in the demon realm. I need you to believe me, y/n…to believe that I’m truly here. I know it’s a big ask and after what you’ve been through, I know that it might take some time but it’s the truth. That’s why I keep coming back and how you can feel my touch, even if you try to convince yourself that you don’t” Romance explained, trying to gauge your reaction but there was nothing. 

“That sounds crazy…like some wild romance story that you think should just magically work out.” You mumbled, clearly not believing anything that Romance had just said and it felt like a knife to the heart for him but then you spoke again. “If…by some crazy miracle this was real…it would take a while for me to ever believe something like this.” You added, glancing back at him. 

Romance quickly nodded, stepping just a bit closer. “I’d wait forever, my love…you know that,” He told you quietly, his eyes never leaving his. You looked at him for another moment before let out a heavy breath and walking away, your mind racing with thoughts. 

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MYSTERY -

Mystery had been kicking himself ever since he made you basically have a panic attack in your own apartment. He couldn’t believe that he had made you feel like that but at the same time, he couldn’t blame you. You had watched him die so it made sense for you to be so freaked out about him being there. However, you thinking he was just a hallucination tore his heart in half. He just wanted to hold you…to protect you from your own mind. He couldn’t do that. Not yet.

He needed you to believe that he was really back for good. Or at least he would be…if you ever did believe him. He wasn’t sure how he could possibly do that though without sending you into another panic attack. That was the last thing he wanted to do. 

So, he decided to do something that had always been special to the two of you. Him leaving you notes. They started out simple, just with apologies and love affirmations, and then slowly started to shift towards asking to maybe talk. 

When you first noticed the notes on your door, you truly believed it was another sick joke. Until they kept showing up…then you got to thinking. One evening, you sat in your apartment and finally found the courage to pull out the box of all the notes you had saved from Mystery. You compared the handwriting and it was identical, even down the fancy way that Mystery always signed his name at the bottom. 

On the most recent note you received, it was an address to a spot that had always been special to the two of you. Somehow, you managed to convince yourself to go, just in case. Sure enough, he was there. 

Your heart felt like it was in your throat. Things seemed too real lately and you didn’t know what to make of it. Was this the final straw before you lost your mind for good? You slowly approached and didn’t say anything, just looking out towards the lights of the city. 

Mystery made sure not to make any sudden movements but he wanted to hug you so badly. He was terrified of scaring you away though. He was surprised you had actually showed up. He took a deep breath before speaking. 

“I know how hard this has been…and it hurts me so badly that you think this isn’t real. But, you showing up tonight means that maybe you really do believe…at least a little.” Mystery started, turning his head to look at you. “I’m not fully here…you are the only one who can see me, y/n. I know that sounds crazy and trust me, it is. I don’t even really believe it myself but I need you to believe in me. I’m stuck somewhere between the two worlds…and I think the only way I can be back fully is with your belief that I am alive.” He finished off, never taking his eyes off of you. 

After his explanation, you still felt just as confused about everything as before. What he was saying didn’t even really make a lot of sense but then again he was a demon. You slowly looked over at him, a conflicted expression on your face. 

“You have no idea how badly I want to believe you…it’s just hard when no one else can see you so I feel insane. My friends are so worried about me because they think I’ve been hallucinating and I’ve been believing them. I even started seeing someone to talk about this too.” You said quietly, as if afraid that someone would hear you somewhere nearby. 

“If this is true, in some crazy circumstance…there needs to be some solid proof that I am actually seeing you and talking to you and not going crazy. I just…I think I need some time to process this information.” You added quietly, looking over at Mystery who truly looked like he was right there. 

He didn’t say anything, just gave you a small nod of understanding before watching you walk away. He was grateful that you didn’t shut down the idea right away. It was the slightest bit of hope, but he’d take it. He was already thinking of ways to make you fully believe him. 

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BABY -

He never stopped with the text messages. He knew that maybe it was making things worse but he needed to feel connected to you in some way, especially after you had reacted to seeing him again. He couldn’t stop playing it over again in his mind and it tore him apart. You still didn’t answer the messages he sent you and he couldn’t blame you. 

After some days passed though, Baby was feeling more impatient to see you again. He knew how big of a risk this way but it was one that he was going to make. He needed to do everything he could to make you believe that he was real, that way he could be back with you again just like before. Before he got trapped between the living world and the demon realm. 

So he showed up at your apartment one night. You heard the doorbell and felt a small tinge of anxiety since you weren’t expecting anyone. You got up and looked through the peephole, seeing the one face that you had been trying so hard not to see. You slowly opened the door, fully expecting Baby to be gone afterwards since he was just a hallucination. When you opened though, he still stood there outside. 

All the texts…seeing him in person multiple times now…the fact that you could feel his touch that one night in the kitchen. None of it made sense and these days you found yourself just feeling more and more confused. You stayed silent as you slowly stepped to the side and let Baby walk into the apartment. His shoulder brushed against yours, causing a small gasp to leave your lips because you really did feel it. 

“I’ve never been more confused in my life…I feel like I’m losing my mind and every time I think it’s over, something else happens.” You said quietly, watching Baby walk into the living room, his eyes still on you. 

“I know and I wish I could make this easier for you but I’m afraid it really is complicated. Listen, y/n…I’m stuck between the living world and the demon realm and as crazy as that sounds, it's the truth. I don’t expect you to just suddenly believe me but…when you do believe me, that’s when I’ll be back for good.” Baby explained, his eyes locked on yours. “It breaks my heart that you have to suffer this much because of me…and it hurts me more knowing that I’ve only caused more distress to you lately. Your friends? They can’t see me. You are the only one who can.” He added, talking slowly in hopes that you were taking in all this information. 

You just stared at him, slowly trying to process what he was saying. It sounded made up but then again, you thought back to all of these instances. Your mind was racing and you almost felt like you were falling from how insane this all sounded. 

“Okay wow…yeah I don’t know if I have the mental ability to process all of this right now. I-I still don’t even know if this is really happening but…god, I want to believe it so badly.” You admit quietly, looking at Baby. He gave you a small, swallowing quietly before clearing his throat. 

“Don’t push yourself…just promise you’ll think about it, okay?” He told you quietly before he headed towards the door. He gave you a quiet ‘goodnight’ before leaving you to think. 

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JINU -

He regretted his appearance at the aquarium. He should’ve known better, especially since it was a public place and you were the only one who could see him but he was so desperate to get you to believe that he was back. He just wanted to be with you again…just like before. Before everything went downhill. He knew that he couldn’t just search for you in public again though so he planned for a more private encounter. He was terrified of seeing you freak out again though. That was probably the hardest thing he had ever had to witness, especially since he could tell you were in so much pain. And all because of him. 

Jinu made sure he waited a few days before he acted on his next plan. He wasn’t even sure if you’d come out onto the balcony but just being there made him feel closer to you which is what he needed right now. To his luck though, you did come out. 

Your eyes instantly widened when you saw Jinu standing out there. Your first thought was to start panicking again but Jinu quickly put his hands up and took a step back to try not to freak you out anymore then he already had. 

“I need you to hear me out! Please…just give me a few minutes.” Jinu said quickly, his eyes never leaving you as he watched you closely to ensure you weren’t going to have a panic attack. Ever since the aquarium, you had been thinking of everything that had been happening lately. And seeing Jinu on the balcony like this…it felt so real. Too real. 

You didn’t say anything but gave Jinu a small nod to continue, watching him let out a breath of relief and lower his hands. “Look, this is going to sound crazy but it’s the truth. You are the only one who can see me, that’s why Mira looked so concerned. I’m somehow stuck between the living world and the demon realm, I didn’t fully die. And…there’s a way to get me back for good but you need to believe me and believe that I’m fully alive.” Jinu explained as precisely as possible. 

You simply stared at him, his words echoing in your head. Technically, what he said sounded like it could be the truth but it also sounded insane. Was this your brain just trying to drive you crazy again? “I just can’t comprehend how that’s even possible…I know being a demon gives you some other abilities but this? It just sounds…crazy and I’m tired of feeling crazy.” You told him quietly, still keeping your distance from him. 

Jinu gave you a small nod, understanding where you were coming from. He couldn’t expect you to believe him right away but at least he got you to listen. “Listen, y/n. Take the time you need to process all of this, okay? I will be back for you though…I promise I will make you believe and then things will be better. Just take it easy…okay? I love you.” Jinu told you in a softer voice and despite not wanting to leave but he knew you needed to process so he left the balcony, leaving you to yourself and your racing thoughts. 

[cherrydriver]

Saja Boys’ letters to you after you've passed

Just a little something while I work on requests...🙂 (I’m sorry my lovelies)

(Inspired by "Something in the Orange" by Zach Bryan)

CW: ANGST, death, dealing with loss

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ABBY -

Dear y/n, 

I need you to come back. I need you. I need you here with me, in this lifetime. I know that we’re soulmates but it wasn’t supposed to go like this. We were supposed to have forever…but you’re gone. 

I’ve been coming out to our favorite spot ever since you’ve left. I just sit out here for hours, staring at the sky. Tonight it reminds me of you. The bright orange and red from the sunset. It tells me that you aren’t truly gone…that you’re still here with me, in the orange. 

I’d do anything to have you back next to me. To hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you. I can’t do that verbally anymore but I can express it through these letters I’ve been writing. I miss you more and more each and every day, baby. I love you. 

Forever yours,

Abby

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ROMANCE-

Dear y/n,

I think I’ve written about a thousand letters at this point and even though it’s useless, I still feel like it helps a little. It helps lessen that constant ache in my chest that hasn’t gone away since you left. Nothing seems as bright anymore…not when your light is gone from my life. 

The bouquet of roses I last gave you is still on the kitchen counter. They’re dead now but I haven’t had the courage to throw them out yet. 

I don’t sleep much anymore so I’m usually up for sunrise. I miss our mornings together…especially when we’d go out to watch the sunrise. I still do that even though you’re gone because something in the orange tells me that you’re still there with me in some way. 

I’d stay awake every night if it meant that I could go out and watch every sunrise and that’s exactly what I plan on doing. I miss you more than anything, my love and I love you so much. 

Yours truly,

Romance

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MYSTERY-

Dear y/n,

Please come back. I know it’s pointless to say that but I still say it everyday in hopes that you’d still just show up. I look for you in every room I enter, wishing to find you in there like normal. When you aren’t…it’s like a part of me shatters even more. 

It still feels like yesterday…when we met. It was too soon. You left me too soon. We were supposed to be forever. 

The boys worry about me. I’ve hidden myself away even more than I had before. I’ve stopped performing, stopped showing up at rehearsals. I just can’t bring myself to do it, not when you’re gone. 

So I spend all my time inside until sunset. Then I go outside and I just stare at the sky. The bright orange reminds me of you…reminds me of us. How many nights we’d spend watching the sunset and talking about random things. 

I need you back, sweetheart. I miss you and love you so much, and I always will. 

Your love,

Mystery

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BABY- 

Dear y/n,

How could you do this to me? I know it’s not your fault but it makes me so mad, I can’t control it. I yelled at the guys the other day and haven’t gone back to see them since. I can’t handle being around them right now, not when I’m constantly reminded that you aren’t here anymore. 

Worse yet, I lost control in public. I yelled at fans for getting too close to me. I haven’t been out of the apartment since that day. I’ve stayed on the couch, unable to move. 

I watched the sunrise this morning and I swore it was a sign from you. It was so bright and vibrant…just like you. I took a picture of it and sent it to you…only to remember that you’d never receive it. 

I don’t know what I’m going to do without you here but I will always love you. Always. 

I just need you back…

Baby

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JINU- 

Dear y/n,

I don’t think I’ve ever felt worse pain. I’d rather have Gwi-ma’s voice in my head constantly than have to leave with you not being here by my side. 

People keep trying to check in on me but I haven’t been able to respond to any of them. I’ve locked myself in the apartment, all of your things still exactly where they were before. I don’t have the strength to even touch any of them. 

I watched the sunset tonight…and I think it was you making that bright orange sky. Something about it told me that we weren’t done just yet and I’m hanging on to that. 

I’ll find you again, my love. That’s a promise. I love you more than words could even describe and I miss you with every fiber of my being. 

See you again,

Jinu

[cherrydriver]

Can I request making out headcanons for Saja Boys with gn s/o who has never kissed anyone before please?

I had two requests for this so here it is! I kept it pretty tame but here are just some general headcannons for this!

CW: making out (it's very tame though!)

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ABBY -

He knew that you didn’t have a lot of experience when it came to kissing. 

When you guys had your first kiss, he had asked you probably about 100 times if you were sure you wanted to. 

Once you got more comfortable, he started to slowly take things a bit further. 

He would always check with you first to ensure you were okay with it. 

He always starts slowly, his hand on your cheek. 

He definitely guides you into the kiss, letting you rely on him. 

Once things get a bit more serious, he’ll hold your face with both hands. 

Never likes to rush it, always prefers to take it slow and make it meaningful for you. 

Only once you're comfortable will he start to add things like tongue. 

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ROMANCE -

He was honestly so happy to be the one you got to experience this with because he allowed him to make it so special for you. 

Start off slowly but then will definitely pick up the pace and intensity once you get comfortable. 

Likes to gently hold the back of your neck with you guys kiss because he can pull you closer. 

Will always pull back every so often to check up on you and make sure that you’re still feeling okay with all of this. 

He needs to make this as romantic as possible so the first night he initiated a makeout session, there were candles on with music in the background. He wanted it to be like a romance movie scene. 

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MYSTERY -

Has been waiting for this opportunity since he met you honestly. 

He loves your lips and after your first kiss, he waited patiently for you to be ready for more but he was always dreaming of it.

When the night finally came, he had to make sure with you multiple times before he started anything. 

He was worried he was rushing you but you reassured him that he wasn’t, giving him the go-ahead. 

It starts fast right away, because like mentioned earlier, he loves your lips and honestly can’t get enough. 

He loves putting his hand in your hair, and loves it even more when you do the same to him. 

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BABY -

Similar to Mystery, he’s been waiting for this moment for a while. 

Whenever the two of you kissed, he always let the last one linger just a bit longer, wanting to continue but never wanting to make you uncomfortable.

So when you finally got the courage to initiate a deeper kiss, he was so happy.  

He pulled you onto his lap instantly, his hands on your waist and he picked up the pace right away. 

He panicked slightly after a moment though, worried that he had already done too much but you reassured him that you wanted this and asked him to continue. 

And he did, leaving you breathless and very flustered afterwards. 

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JINU -

He might have a killer facecard but he is honestly just as hesitant and flustered about making out as you are. 

In a way, it made you feel better about it because the two of you were both a little awkward about it. 

Jinu loved kissing you though, always giving you chaste kisses before he left after dates. 

When you both finally decided you wanted to try something a little different, it was slow at first. 

Jinu cupped your face, keeping you close to him as the kisses grew deeper and slightly more heated. 

He pulled back a few times to check that everything was okay and you’d smile seeing his slightly flustered expression, which matched your own, and told him to continue. 

After your confirmation, Jinu felt more confident and the kiss picked up pace after that point. 

[cherrydriver]

Saja Boys react to you saying: "I could talk to you all night."

Would you guys accept this as an apology for all the angst?? Also warning that more angst is in the making... CW: None, just fluff! 🩷 Inspired by the song "I Could Talk to You All Night" from The Outsiders: The Musical

ABBY -

It took him by surprise at first because a moment of silence had fallen between the two of you. 

The two of you weren’t dating yet but the feelings were definitely growing and Abby had taken you for a walk at sunset. 

Conversations always flowed so easily between the two of you so hearing you say “I could talk to you all night” made Abby’s heart nearly beat out of his chest. 

He finally gathered the courage to reach down and grab your hand, intertwining his fingers with yours. 

“I could talk to you all night too…” was his reply…then followed by a confession of his feelings that he ended up blurting out. 

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ROMANCE -

“Wait really?” Was what he responded with as soon as he heard your words. 

He looked at you with such a soft expression that you felt like you might melt. 

His feelings for you had grown so much and at that moment, he knew he was fully head over heels. 

Whenever you guys talked, the conversations never ended. The two of you basically talked about anything, even the dumbest things. 

That was the night that Romance finally got the courage to ask you out properly and you had said yes without hesitation. 

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MYSTERY - 

Went quiet at first after he heard your words. 

He was a little more on the quiet side, but whenever you guys hung out he found himself talking way more. 

He usually would sit and listen to what you had to say and then chime in at the end with his own thoughts.

And he always felt so comfortable talking with you.

“I really like you, y/n.” Mystery blurted out in response to your words. 

Your soft chuckle made his heart flutter and nearly beat out of his chest when you reciprocated his feelings. 

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BABY - 

Instantly replied with: “wait really?”

He genuinely couldn’t believe what you had said at first. Sure, it was simple “I could talk to you all night” but he never expected to hear them. 

He was so used to brief conversations with fans, but ever since he started hanging out with you, he had more meaningful conversations. 

Although any conversation with you was meaningful to him. He was obsessed with you. Not that he’d ever openly admit that. 

After that night though, he started sitting closer to you so that your shoulders or thighs would brush against his. 

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JINU - 

Jinu hadn’t even realized how much time had passed since you guys had left for a walk. The minutes had just gone right by. 

“I don’t want this night to end…” he admitted to you after hearing your words.

It was so easy to talk to you. You made him feel heard, especially when he talked about his past. 

His feelings for you were growing stronger the more he was around you, not that he was complaining. It just made him want to be yours even sooner. 

That’s what gave him the courage to ask you if he could be your boyfriend that night, to which you said yes. 

[cherrydriver]

Sobbing from your "I'm alive" Saja boys post. Can we have a part of something where they ACTUALLY do come back alive but because of the first time, reader thinks it's just a hallucination again </3

If not that's ok! Sorry if your requests are closed, I checked and I did not see anything about requests sooo

Have a good day! And if you do plan on doing this, please remember to take breaks! Love your writing so far ❤️ (even if it makes me cry)

Hi!! This is my very first request so I was so excited to write this, also because I wanted to do a part two to "I'm Alive"! Thank you so much, btw! <3 (I apologize in advance...)

Aftershocks - (I'm Alive, I'm Alive, I am so Alive pt 2.)

CW: Angst, mentions of insanity

Find part one here!

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ABBY -

He was alive, really truly alive but how could he get you to believe that? The last time you saw him, you were so happy and then Mira pulled you away, claiming that you were seeing things. Abby was determined to make you believe that he was really alive and back for good. 

Abby had been waiting a few days, waiting for a good moment to finally show himself again. He knew that you were finishing up your shift so it gave him the perfect moment to see you alone. He waited till all the customers were out of the store before he headed inside. 

You heard the quiet ding of the door, indicating that someone had come in. “I’m sorry but we’re closed.” You said before turning to face the person, dropping the box in your hands as you saw who it was. “Abby..,” you murmured under your breath before shaking your head and looking away. 

“No…no I can’t do this. Not again.” You told yourself as you picked up the box you had dropped, trying to ignore the presence by the door. Abby wasn’t actually here, you knew that now. Mira had made sure that you knew that you were hallucinating that night in the kitchen because of grief. 

“Y/n, it’s really me. I promise…I’m alive, baby.” Abby told you quietly, stepping cautiously towards you since he knew you were vulnerable right now. Your face tensed and you shook your head once more. “Leave me alone…you aren’t really here and this is just making everything worse.” Your voice trembled as you spoke, setting the box down on the counter. 

You gathered your things, trying not to look at Abby who seemed so real and alive but you knew better now. Abby wasn’t giving up though and he could tell that you didn’t really believe this was happening which only broke his heart more. “Y/n, I’m really here! I’m right here and alive!” He raised his voice a little, reaching out and grabbing your wrist, tears filling his eyes. 

You gasped and pulled your hand away so quickly like he had burnt you with his touch. “No! I said leave me alone! I can’t do this anymore! Please!” You yelled, assuming you were yelling into mid air. “Abby is dead! You aren’t really here so please go away!” You sobbed, hurrying out of the store, leaving Abby alone. He felt completely broken, seeing the way you had pulled away from his touch, seeing you sob…it tore him apart. He didn’t know how to get you to believe that he was back for good but he wasn’t giving up. “I’m not giving up, y/n…I’m alive.” Abby said to himself, wiping the tears from his eyes as he turned and headed the opposite way. 

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ROMANCE -

Romance needed to convince you that he was alive. When he saw you in the kitchen, you looked so surprised and happy to see him until Zoey pulled you away, telling you that he wasn’t really there. He was there though, and he needed you to know that for good. He gave you a few weeks to process everything, hoping that the next time you saw him, you’d be just as happy as the last time. 

Romance decided to leave you a note on your apartment door so that you’d see it when you got back home after being out all day. It just simply said to meet him at one of your favorite spots, the park you guys would go to all the time. 

When you got home from work that day, you noticed the pink note on your door. You hesitantly took it off and read the words, a small gasp leaving your lips. It was signed off by Romance and it looked exactly like his handwriting but it couldn’t really be him. Romance was dead. What had happened in the kitchen had just been a hallucination from grieving. Whoever thought it was funny to put this up was sick. 

Still, you decided to go to the park anyway, needing some fresh air and maybe the person who decided to write this would be there. You still couldn’t believe someone could be so cruel to write this note. You made the walk to the park, the note crumpled up in your pocket, and headed to the spot that had always been special to you and Romance. 

When you entered the hidden area, you noticed pink hair almost instantly. “No…no not again.” You said quietly to yourself, turning away. Your heart started beating quickly as you convinced yourself that Romance wasn’t actually there. You hadn’t hallucinated him since the kitchen and you weren’t about to start again now. 

A hand on your shoulder made you gasp out loud and you turned to face Romance, looking up at him with wide eyes. “Y/n, listen to me, my love. I’m here. I’m really here, okay? I’m alive, I promise.” Romance told you in a serious voice, searching your eyes in hopes that you’d believe him. You didn’t believe him though and you shoved him away from you, still believing that this was all a hallucination. 

“No you aren’t! I can’t do this again…please.” You begged yourself, your hands on your head as you took in shaky breaths, tears filling your eyes. “You aren’t here…you aren't alive. Romance isn’t alive. Zoey was right…I am hallucinating." You told yourself, feeling the panic begin to rise even more. 

Romance’s heart shattered at the sight of you panicking, seeing you there with your hands in your hair and tears streaming down your face. He reached out towards you again but you just broke out into a sob, running from the spot and leaving him alone once again. “One day you’ll see, y/n…I really am alive.” Romance told himself quietly as he left out a defeated sigh, blinking back tears. 

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MYSTERY -

Mystery couldn’t get your reaction to him out of his head. Ever since that night in the kitchen…he needed to see you again. He needed to prove to you that he really was there and alive, but how could he do that when Rumi had pulled you away that night and told you that he was really dead. He decided to leave you alone for a few weeks after the kitchen incident, knowing that you needed some time. 

He was growing impatient to see you again though, needing you to see him back and alive. That’s how he ended up in your apartment, still knowing where the spare key was. He wasn’t sure if this was the best idea or not but he was desperate and couldn’t wait any longer. 

You knew something was wrong when you got home and your door was unlocked. You held your breath as you slowly opened the door, walking into your apartment. You were hoping it was just Rumi coming by to check on you but this felt different. You quietly set your stuff down and walked towards the kitchen. 

You instantly paused in the doorway when you saw the figure inside, recognizing him instantly. You felt like you stopped breathing. A few weeks ago you found Mystery in the kitchen but he wasn’t really there…so why was this happening again? You felt like you were going insane. Your breathing became quicker and more shallow, feeling the panic rising. Mystery heard you walk in and turned to look at you, seeing the panic on your face. His eyes widened in concern and he quickly ran over to you, holding onto your shoulders. 

“Y/n! Breathe…I’m here, sweetheart. I promise, I’m really here. I’m alive, okay?” Mystery begged you, hoping that you’d believe him but you weren’t making eye contact with him. You just kept your head down, small sobs now coming from you. 

You pressed your palms against your eyes, shaking your head quickly. “I’m going insane! I can’t do this…I can’t do this again. Leave me alone!” You yelled out at the figure that you assumed was all just a hallucination. Mystery wasn’t there. He wasn’t alive. 

Mystery was starting to get more panicked. He needed you to believe him but you were so convinced that he was just a hallucination. He stepped back from you to give you space, looking at you with a pained expression. He could feel himself getting more worked up the more he watched you freak out. “Y/n, I’m here! I’m right here in front of you! I’m alive, you need to believe me!” He yelled out in a frustrated tone, shocking himself because he never once spoke to you like that. 

Your eyes widened and you were now looking at him like you didn’t even recognize him which was even worse. Mystery’s expression instantly dropped and he reached out. “Y/n, I’m so sorry.” He said quickly, trying to save this but it was too late. You were already running out of the kitchen, calling Rumi, and soon you left your apartment all together, leaving him alone and broken. 

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BABY -

Baby knew how much of a toll his death had taken on you, especially after seeing you in the kitchen a few weeks ago. He was alive again though…and he needed you to know that, needed to convince you somehow. He didn’t try to see you right away because he didn’t want to put too much on you right away so he started off small. He started texting you again. Every day, he’d messages like: 

“I’m alive…Y/n, please. You have to believe me.”

“I know it’s a lot to take in but I’m really alive again.”

“I want to give you time to process, but I want to see you soon. Please…” 

He never got a text back though and eventually his messages stopped going through to your phone. 

When you started getting messages from Baby again, you figured someone had gotten a hold of his phone somehow. The messages were awful…making you break down every time you received one. It felt like someone was playing a sick joke on you and you couldn’t do it anymore so you blocked and deleted the contact. 

You thought you were free from it all…from the hallucinations that Mira made you realize were from grief until you turned a corner to head to your apartment and saw him standing there. Tears instantly filled your eyes as you stood there frozen. 

“I’m going insane…this can’t be happening again, I thought it was over. Why can’t it be over?!” You yelled to yourself, hearing movement as Baby walked towards you. You felt him tilt your chin so you’d look at him. He felt so real, standing right there but you knew better now. “Y/n please…those messages were from me. I’m here and I’m alive! For real this time, I promise.” Baby told you, begging you to believe him because it broke him seeing you like this. 

You didn’t respond very well to that and shoved his hand away, surprised by how realistic these hallucinations were. Mira was right…maybe you really did need to speak to someone because you felt like you were losing your mind. “No you’re not! Just leave me alone…please go away.” You sobbed, assuming you were just speaking to yourself. You felt like you were going crazy, which was the last thing you needed especially when you were still grieving his death. You covered your face with shaky hands, moving past Baby like he wasn’t even there. Because he wasn’t. 

Baby could only just watch you leave, feeling his heart split in half watching you break down like this. He watched you enter your apartment building, feeling his own eyes sting. He wanted to go after you but he knew that he couldn’t push you any further. “I’m alive, y/n…” He whispered to himself before he pulled his hood up and walked away, feeling a tear go down his cheek. 

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JINU -

Jinu needed you to see. Needed you to believe…that he was alive, fully alive. He knew that it had been a fright for you, seeing him in the kitchen. When he watched Zoey pull you away from him, convincing you that you were exhausted, he knew that he would have to work hard to get you to believe that he was fully back now. He knew that he needed to be cautious about this in order to not risk scaring you away. It would take some time but he was determined. 

Jinu didn’t mean to follow you but when he noticed that you had gone into the aquarium, one of your favorite places, he couldn’t help himself. He kept his distance for a while, just watching you from afar and seeing the sad, closed off expression on your face that made his heart break. 

You had gone to the aquarium to hopefully feel a little more normal but all it was doing was bringing back memories of Jinu. You let out a small sigh as you looked out the big window, staring at the water and the different fish until you felt a presence. You felt your heartbeat pick up slightly as you slowly turned your head to look behind you and he was there. Jinu. You instantly looked away, closing your eyes for a moment and taking a deep breath, expecting him to be gone when you opened your eyes again. You looked behind you and he was still there, looking at you with a slightly concerned look. 

You shook your head and began to walk away, not wanting to seem insane in public. You could feel his presence following you which only made you feel even more uneasy. You thought the hallucination had been a one time thing but apparently it wasn’t. You picked up the pace as tears filled your eyes, not wanting to be seen having a breakdown. You hurried out of the aquarium, turning down a side street that was empty as you began to sob. 

“Y/n…please listen to me. I know this is a lot, but I’m alive. I’m really here…with you.” Jinu told you, reaching out towards you which only made you break down more. You were shaking and Jinu could tell you were panicking hard. “Y/n. Y/n, baby…breathe.” Jinu said urgently as he stepped closer to you. 

You stared at him with wide eyes and yelled. “Leave me alone! Just go away! Oh my god…I’m actually going insane…I can’t do this.” You said between sobs, pulling out your phone to call Zoey. You glanced at Jinu once more with a terrified expression before you hurried away, still sobbing. 

Jinu felt frozen. He wanted to run after you so badly but he had a feeling it would only make things worse. His eyes began to sting with tears as he just stood there, staring at the spot where you once stood. “Y/n…I’m really here again…” He said to no one, feeling a few tears fall from his eyes. 

[cherrydriver]

Surprise! - Saja Boys

You all wanted the fluff story first so I delivered :)

Prompt: The Saja Boys (separately) never really celebrated their birthday, so you made sure to make it special!

(I'm actually really proud of this one, each part is kind of long but I wanted y'all to be well fed hehe, enjoy!)

CW: Fluff, kissing (It's very brief)

ABBY -

Abby’s birthday was coming up and it was the first one you got to spend with your boyfriend since you two got together. When you first asked Abby what he wanted to do for his birthday he simply replied with: “We don’t need to do anything. It’s just a birthday, right? I’m fine with just spending it with you.” You realized then that Abby never had his birthday celebrated in a big way. You knew he was a demon and he had probably spent so many years just ignoring his birthday all together. So, you were determined to make this the best birthday he ever had and one that he would never forget. You wanted him to know how special he was to you and that he deserved to be spoiled. 

On the morning of his birthday, you got up early enough to make pancakes for Abby and delivered them to him in bed since he had spent the night at your place. “Abby! Happy birthday!” You said in a cheerful tone, hurrying the plate of pancakes over to the bed as Abby sat up and ran a hand through his hot pink hair. “What’s all this?” He asked in a low voice, still waking up. Your heart ached a little at his words because it was just breakfast and yet he was surprised by it. Little did he know that you had even more planned for later. You sat next to Abby and ate breakfast with him in bed before he finally had to go for rehearsal. You were practically pushing him out the door so you could get to decorating. “Bye, babe! Have a good day at rehersal.” You told him while pushing him towards the door. Abby just chuckled and shook his head at you before kissing your head and lips and leaving your apartment. 

You only had a few hours since rehearsal wasn’t that long today, so as soon as he left, you got to work. You had gotten a banner, streamers, balloons, a cake, and more presents than you could count. Had you gone a little overboard? Maybe a little but Abby deserved the best especially after not being able to celebrate his birthday for so many years. You put the banner up near the window in the living room, the coffee table now filled with bowls of Abby’s favorite snacks. You put balloons in the corners of the living room and a few loose ones just on the floor. You hung the streamers from the ceiling and some right in the doorway so Abby would walk into them when he got back. 

Once you were done, you sat impatiently on the couch and waited for Abby to come back from rehearsal. You had finally gotten a text from him saying that he was on his way back over. After about fifteen minutes, you heard a gentle knock on the door before it opened. You heard a small “What the…” and got up quickly from the couch to see Abby walking through the streamers in the doorway. You smiled brightly at him and gestured around the apartment, “Surprise!” 

Abby was stunned. He looked at you for a moment longer before he looked around the apartment, his eyes widening as he saw everything that you had done. “Y/n…this is…wow.” Abby said quietly as he walked around the apartment. It was completely decorated in birthday decorations, there was a table full of his favorite snacks, a pile of different sized gifts on the couch, and a birthday cake on the counter. This was more than he ever got for his birthday. He couldn’t remember the last time he actually celebrated it and now you had done this for him. It felt like too much. When he woke up this morning, he knew it was his birthday but he wasn’t expecting anything special to come from it. He figured you'd do something but this was above and beyond what he had thought. Abby quickly blinked and cleared his throat, trying to maintain his cool image but you saw through the facade. 

“Abby? Are you okay?” You asked him softly as you walked up to him and gently held his hand, looking up at him. Abby nodded as he held your gaze and squeezed your hand lightly. “I’m more than okay…this is incredible. No one has ever done anything like this for me before.” Abby told you quietly, looking around the apartment once more. 

‘I love you, y/n. Thank you for this.” Abby added softly, leaning down and capturing your lips in a soft kiss before pulling away, resting his forehead against yours. You smiled up at him, keeping your forehead pressed against his. “You’re welcome…you deserved this. I love you too, Abby. Happy Birthday.” 

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ROMANCE -

Romance always loved to go above and beyond for you no matter how small of an occasion it was. He always made sure every moment was special and filled with so much love and always just for you. So when you found out that his birthday was coming up, you instantly knew that you wanted to go above and beyond for him now because he deserved it. However, you brought up what he wanted to do for his birthday, his reply was simply: “Just a day with you, my love, is enough,” and nothing else. You realized then that Romance hadn’t had a birthday celebration in years or more due to being a demon so you took it into your own hands to surprise him. 

You had stayed the night at his place the night before his birthday, and once he was asleep that’s when it was time to decorate. You somehow managed to free yourself from your boyfriend’s embrace, replacing yourself with a pillow in hopes that it would keep him asleep. Thankfully it did and you quietly left the bedroom, closing the door silently behind you. 

You made your way down the hallway to the end closet where you had hid all of the birthday decorations. It had been a bit risky but thankfully Romance didn’t need anything out of that closet tonight. You grabbed the bags of birthday decorations and the basket of gifts you had gotten, and got to work. 

It was a challenge putting up all the decorations and trying to make as little noise as you could. You got worried with even the smallest thud that you’d wake your sleeping boyfriend who was just a few rooms away. You didn’t though, and soon the living room looked like a birthday party threw up all over it. There were balloons covering the floor, streamers hanging from the ceiling, a birthday cake all ready to go on the counter for Romance to see in the morning. There was just one thing left to put up: the Happy Birthday banner. 

You stepped onto the couch, giving yourself a moment to balance on the squishy cushions before you taped one side to the wall. You then shifted to the other side of the couch to tape up the other end of the banner. Everything was going so well till you shifted on the couch to look at the banner and lost your balance. You landed on the living room floor with a soft thud, but one that was definitely loud enough to hear. 

You held your breath for a moment, feeling a dull ache on your butt where you had landed but nothing major. You let out a small groan as you heard the bedroom open quickly, Romance’s footsteps following as he came rushing into the room. 

“My love! Are you okay? What are you doing up this late?” He said quickly as he kept by your side and looked over you quickly, searching for any injuries. He hadn’t even noticed the birthday decorations because his attention was solely on you. Once you reassured him that you were okay, that’s when he noticed all the birthday decor. 

Romance sucked in a breath as he stood up and looked around the room, his eyes wide. “Y/n? What’s all this for?” He asked before looking at you with so much love in his eyes. He could see all the different decorations that you had put up, and that banner on the wall which he realized was when you had fallen. He felt his heart begin to beat faster at the thought that you had done all of this for him. He was always the one doing the big grand gestures but knowing that you did this for him caused a wave of emotions to wash over him.  “Happy birthday!” You exclaimed as you let out a small chuckle and gestured around the room. You quickly checked the time and sure enough it was past midnight which meant it really was Romance’s birthday. 

“I wanted to do something special for you. You weren’t supposed to see this till the morning.” You added, stifling a yawn from the lack of sleep you’ve gotten tonight. Romance chuckled quietly at your yawn and walked over to you, wrapping his arms around your waist. He pressed a kiss to the top of your head and just held you close. “Thank you, my love…this is beautiful. No one has ever done something like this for me before. I love you.” He whispered, pulling back to look down at you with so much love. He meant his words, no one had ever done anything like this before and this had only made him fall more in love with you. 

You smiled up at him before taking his hand and walking back to the bedroom. “I love you too. We can celebrate more in the morning…I need some sleep.” You murmured, hearing Romance chuckling behind you as he followed you to the bedroom. This was certainly a birthday he’d never forget.  

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MYSTERY -

Mystery was always more on the quiet side but he loved loudly and he loved you. He always made sure his love for you was well known at all times and you always wanted to do the same. He didn’t share much, but the other day he had casually mentioned that his birthday was approaching. As soon as he had mentioned, you had already started planning how you wanted to celebrate it. You wanted to do something really special for him because you knew he deserved something like that. You still asked him though to see if there was anything in particular that he wanted to do. His response caught you off guard a little because all he replied with was: “Oh we don’t need to do anything, it’s really not a big deal.” He really thought that it wasn’t a big deal? You were determined to change that because you had realized that he probably hadn’t had a birthday celebration in years or longer. So, ever since that conversation you came up with a plan for his birthday, preparing for it as the day drew closer. 

The night before his birthday, you waited till Mystery was asleep before you snuck out of the room and began to put up all the notes that you had been writing for him. They said simple little things such as: “Happy birthday!” “I love you!” “I hope you have an amazing day!” You put them up all over the kitchen so that he’d see them in the morning. He had rehearsal with the Saja Boys early in the morning and he had already told you to sleep in, so this way he’d get a little taste of what was to come later. 

When you woke up in the morning and headed into the kitchen, you noticed that all of the little notes you had left were gone but noticed a note on the counter. It read: “Thank you for all of the little notes, sweetheart. I decided to keep them, I hope that’s okay. I can’t wait to see you when I get home. - Mystery.” You smiled softly to yourself before getting into the action of completely making over the living room. 

You thankfully had a few hours to get everything set up so you didn’t have to rush too much. You started with the birthday decorations, placing a few bundles of balloons around the living room. Then you moved to putting up a “Happy Birthday!” on the window near the couch. You even hung a few streamers from the ceiling, completing the birthday celebrations. However, there was also a basket of gifts on the couch and a homemade birthday cake on the coffee table. There was still one more thing you had to prepare. You grabbed a few blankets and a bunch of pillows, setting them up on the floor in front of the couch and by the TV. You had a few of Mystery’s favorite snacks and drinks on the coffee table as well.

Everything was finally all set up and when the front door finally opened, you could barely contain your excitement. You stood up quickly and hurried over to Mystery, throwing your arms around him. “Happy birthday!” You exclaimed, feeling his arms instantly wrap around your body in return. The two of you stood like for a moment before you felt Mystery’s arms slip from your body and he stepped around you, taking in the living room. “Y/n…you really did all of this for me?” He asked you quietly, taking your hand and bringing you with him into the decorated living room. He walked into the living room, taking everything in. What caught his eye the most were the blankets and pillows on the floor. Mystery always looked forward to movie nights with you because it meant that he could just hold you in his arms. The birthday decorations were beautiful though and he noticed the cake as well, knowing that you made it from scratch. No one had ever done anything like this for him before. You could see him taking it all in, watching his gaze move from the decorations to the gifts and then finally to the cozy blankets and pillows you had set up on the floor. 

You nodded, a smile on your face as the two of you settled on the blankets on the floor. “I wanted to make this a birthday you’d never forget and you always love our movie nights so I thought this would be perfect.” You told him, moving closer to Mystery as he pulled you against his side. “It is perfect…you’re perfect. This is the best birthday…I love you.” Mystery told you softly but you could hear the emotion in his voice. You felt him kiss your cheek and head before laying back on the pillows and pulling you down with him. You giggled and laid your head on his chest. “I love you too, Mystery.”  

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BABY -

Baby wasn’t a big fan of big spectacles, especially if they were in public. He loved being a part of the Saja Boys but having to keep up the ‘baby’ facade in public so much could be draining which is why he enjoyed being inside with you so much. He didn’t have to put on an act of any kind, he could just be himself. You had recently found out that Baby’s birthday was approaching which got you right into action into planning something special. You had asked Baby one night if there was anything he wanted to do for his birthday and his reply was: “Nothing. It’s just a birthday, right?” You had a feeling his response was so closed off because he hadn’t had the chance to be able to celebrate his birthday in years or longer but you were determined to make his birthday feel special. 

On the morning of his birthday, you woke up and instantly spammed Baby’s phone with birthday messages. You knew he was at rehearsal but that he’d see them once he was done. The messages consisted of: “HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!” “I love you so much!” “When you’re done at rehearsal, I have a surprise for you!” You were thankful that one of your best friends was a member of Hunrix. Mira had been able to pull some strings for you in order to pull this off. 

When Baby was done rehearsing with the Saja Boys, he checked his phone. A smile crossed his lips as he read all of the messages you had sent him. He had to admit though that he was a little nervous about what the surprise was because he wasn’t a big surprise person. He headed out of the studio and found you outside waiting for him. You gave him a tight hug, wishing him happy birthday yet again before practically dragging him down the street. He laughed quietly and followed your lead, starting to recognize where you guys were going. He felt another tinge of nerves, knowing that he usually always ran into fans at this place and he really wasn’t in the mood to put on his persona right now. He knew that you were aware of how he felt in public, and you seemed so excited about this so he continued to follow you. 

You knew how Baby felt about being in public sometimes which is why you had asked Mira for a favor. As you two headed towards the arcade, your excitement grew a bit more. You let Baby enter first and followed behind him, wanting to take in his reaction. Baby stepped in and looked around, his eyes widening right away. The arcade was filled with birthday decorations and there wasn’t a single person in sight. 

Earlier in the day, you headed to the arcade with Mira and since she was so well known, she had been able to get you the arcade booked for the day just for you and Baby. Once she was gone, you got to work at decorating. You got balloons, streamers, and a “Happy Birthday” banner. You put the decorations up, making sure that they were all over the arcade. It was a very big arcade so you didn’t have a huge space to decorate. You put some of the streamers around the games that you knew were Baby’s personal favorites. You had also brought some snacks, a cake, and a basket of gifts that you had been collecting since you found out when his birthday was. Once everything was ready, you had left and headed to the studio, bringing you to the present moment. 

“It’s all for you…I asked Mira for some help and we got the arcade booked out for the day. Just the two of us.” You told Baby with a smile on your face. You opened your mouth to say more but you were cut off as Baby pressed his lips to yours. He let the kiss linger for a few more moments before he slowly pulled away and looked into your eyes. “It’s perfect, y/n…I love you so much.” He whispered before taking a step back and looking at the arcade once more. He could feel himself falling more in love with you by the second. This was the nicest thing anyone had ever done for him. The fact that you took the time and effort to book the arcade just for the two of you, and decorate it up with birthday decorations. He smiled more when he noticed the birthday streamers around his favorite arcade games, proving just how well you knew him. 

You could see how much Baby appreciated what you had done, it was evident in his eyes. You were glad to be able to give him a birthday that he’d never forget. “I love you too, Baby.” You told him softly before you two took off into the arcade. 

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JINU -

Jinu was over 400 years old (technically) so he hadn’t celebrated a birthday in centuries. He knew his birthday was coming up though but he didn’t mention it to you. He didn’t want you to feel the need to have to do something for it. Whenever you asked when his birthday was, he would always just shrug and reply with: “It doesn’t matter, it was centuries ago. It’s just another day.” You would always pick up on his efforts to brush off his birthday and its importance but you were determined to find out when his birthday really was so you could make it memorable. After asking around a little, you managed to get the answer out of Baby. You were a little rushed because his birthday ended up being just a few days away but you were still determined to make it the best birthday Jinu ever had in all 400 years of his life. He was always doing so much for you and making every date so special, even the smallest of dates. So his birthday had to be perfect. 

You somehow managed to convince Jinu to take the day off. It took some convincing because there was apparently a scheduled rehearsal but the other Saja Boys insisted that he took the day off. Jinu didn’t know yet that you knew it was his birthday. He woke up alone in bed which surprised him because you had spent the night at his place. He knew that it was his birthday today but he was planning on just going about it like it was a normal day. He got out of bed and headed towards the kitchen where he heard movement. He could smell bacon and something sweet, perhaps pancakes or waffles. “Y/n? What are you doing?” Jinu asked as he entered the kitchen, seeing you holding a plate of pancakes with a lit candle in the middle, a bright smile on your face. 

“Happy birthday!” You exclaimed, handing him the plate. Jinu’s expression changed to one of surprise because he didn’t know how you had found out when his birthday was. “What? How did you find out?” He asked as he looked down at the birthday candle in the stack of pancakes. “I managed to get Baby to tell me. I have the whole day planned for you.” You told Jinu softly, pressing a kiss to his cheek. “Make a wish!” You encouraged, watching as Jinu hesitated slightly before blowing out the candle. He was so surprised by just a simple breakfast so he had no idea what else you had in store for him. 

You started off the day by making Jinu a birthday breakfast which you were a very big fan of. He loved your cooking, especially your pancakes. Whenever you stayed the night, you'd always cook them together in the morning, jinu would always just follow your lead. After breakfast, you two got ready to go out and you grabbed Jinu’s hand to bring him the first thing you had planned. You didn’t tell him where you guys were going, wanting it to be a surprise but you knew that he’d recognize the building soon enough since the two of you had been here quite a few times. 

“The aquarium?” Jinu asked as he looked at you, a small smile on his lips. It was one of his favorite places, mainly because it was where he had taken you on your first date and every time you guys went it meant something to him. He also just found it so fascinating, seeing all the sea creatures. But his favorite part was seeing you in that blue lighting. Something about you standing in front of the large windows, the shadows of water on your skin just enchanted him. You looked up at him and nodded, pulling him into the large building. “Yup! I know how much you love it here so I thought it would be the perfect place to start your special day.” At that moment, Jinu had a feeling that he’d feel differently about his birthday now. 

After you had spent most of the day at the aquarium, it was time for your next surprise. You had gotten your best friend Zoey to help you out with this last part since you were with Jinu at the aquarium most of the day. You knew that she’d do an amazing job though. You grabbed Jinu’s hand and led him to another spot that was special to the two of you. It was up the hill that overlooked the city below, a small grassy patch that had a perfect view of the sunset. You smiled as you saw the birthday decorations all set up around the trees, a picnic blanket laid out and a basket in the middle of it. You looked around and found Zoey peeking out around the corner. She gave you a thumbs up before heading back down the hill. 

You looked up at Jinu, seeing the surprised expression on his face once more. “You really planned all of this for me?” He asked you quietly, wrapping his arms around your waist and looking into your eyes. “I wanted to make your birthday feel special…you deserve to have your day celebrated.” You told him softly, smiling up at him. Jinu was feeling so many emotions, but mainly love for you. He leaned down and kissed your lips softly, letting it linger for a moment before pulling back just slightly. “I love it and I love you, y/n. Thank you.” Jiu whispered against your lips. “You’re welcome. I love you too, Jinu.” You replied in a similar whisper, giving him one last kiss before you two settled on the picnic blanket to enjoy dinner and watch the sunset. It was a birthday that Jinu would never forget. 

[cherrydriver]

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I will write fluff or angst.

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[cherrydriver]

I'm Alive, I'm Alive, I am so Alive

Prompt: You watched him die...so when he showed up again in your kitchen, talking to you and holding you like he never left, you began to question things. Was he really there?

This is heavily inspired by the musical Next To Normal

CW: Mentions of death, dealing with loss

ABBY 

The last few weeks had been rough. Very rough. You had gone to your boyfriend's concert and had to watch him die right in front of you. You had known that he was a demon but seeing it in person had been completely different and seeing what he was doing had made you feel like he had betrayed you in some way. You still loved him though and now he was gone. 

It was close to three in the morning when you slowly made your way to the kitchen. You hadn’t been sleeping well lately, usually just tossing and turning in bed so you gave up and headed to get a glass of water. You turned towards the cabinets and grabbed a glass when you heard something behind you. You paused for a moment and just listened. There was definitely something behind you. 

With a deep breath, you slowly turned and as soon as you saw him, you dropped the glass and heard it shatter on the floor. Your eyes filled with tears as you stared at the man in front of you. This couldn’t really be happening, right? 

“H-how…how are you here? Am I losing my mind?” You murmured to yourself as you stared at Abby who was standing in front of the kitchen counter, a small smile on his face. “Hi, pretty girl…I missed you.” Abby said quietly as he stepped towards you. You gasped and took a step back when he stepped closer to you. This couldn’t be happening, you had watched him die in front of you so how was he standing here and talking like he was alive? 

“Abby? But…I watched you die. How are you here?” You asked him quietly, still not believing this. You were so sleep deprived that you had to be in a dream-like state right now. At least that’s what you thought before you slowly brought your hand up and hesitantly pressed it against his chest. Your palm played out over his chest. He was actually there, alive. Tears started to stream down your face as you practically threw your arms around Abby, hugging him close. You felt his arms wrap round you in return and press a tender kiss to the top of your head. 

“I’m alive, y/n…and I’m right here with you. I would never leave you.” Abby whispered before you slowly pulled away to look up into his eyes, a soft smile now on your face. You felt him wipe the tears away from your eyes. You still couldn’t believe that this was happening but he was really here. 

You suddenly heard soft footsteps heading into the kitchen and you looked over to see Mira making her way in the kitchen with a concerned expression on her face. “Y/n? It’s late…and is that broken glass by your feet?” Mira asked as she walked over to you to help move you away from the glass. 

You gave Mira a confused look before looking over at Abby again who was just smiling at you. “Mira, he’s alive! Abby! Are you not going to acknowledge him?” You asked as you stared at her and pointed over at Abby. Mira followed your finger before she slowly looked at you again, a more worried expression on her face now. She continued to pull you away from the kitchen. “Y/n…Abby is gone, I’m sorry. He’s not here. Let’s get you back to bed.” Mira told you quietly, making you shake your head and look behind you. Abby was still there leaning back against the counter, that smile still on his face. “I love you.” He told you softly before Mira pulled you out of the kitchen. 

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ROMANCE

He was dead. Romance was dead and he had died right in front of you at the Saja Boys last concerts. You knew he was a demon but you never would’ve suspected all of this to happen because of it. Your heart felt empty ached with him gone. You haven’t left this apartment in days, barely eating and sleeping. 

It was the middle of the night and you had managed to get a little bit of sleep only to be woken up by a nightmare…the same one you got whenever you tried to sleep. Romance dying. You let out a shaky breath as you ran a hand through your hair and got out of bed. You made your way to the kitchen but paused in the doorway when something moved inside. “Zoey?” You called out quietly, thinking it was just here in the kitchen since you were staying at her place these days. There was no reply back so you slowly made your way into the kitchen, turning on the light. You covered your mouth to suppress your gasp. How was this happening?

Romance was sitting on the kitchen counter, looking over at you with a soft smile like nothing had ever happened. Tears instantly sprung to your eyes as you ran over to him as he got down from the counter, arms already out to catch you as you ran into his arms. “I-I don’t understand…I watched you die. How are you here…alive?” You croaked, your voice full of emotion as you cried into Romance’s chest. 

“I promised you that I would never leave, my love…and I meant it. I’m alive and I’m never leaving your side again.” Romance whispered in a soft, soothing voice, making you melt into him even more. He was there holding you, just like before. You grabbed onto the back of the shirt tightly, afraid that if you let go that he'd leave again. “Please don’t leave me…” You whispered into his chest. 

“I promise, y/n. I’m here to stay.” Romance replied quietly, running his hand through your hair slowly. That’s when you heard soft footsteps heading towards the kitchen. “Y/n? Who are you talking to?” Zoey asked as she made her way into the kitchen, seeing you standing near the kitchen counter. 

“Zoey! Look, Romance is alive!” You told her with tears in your eyes as you pointed at Romance, who was still in front of you. Zoey’s eyes widened as she looked at you and slowly stepped towards you. 

“Y/n…I know how hard it’s been for you lately but you really need to sleep. You can’t keep doing this to yourself…it’s making it worse. Romance isn’t here. He’s gone.” Zoey told you quietly as she gently grabbed your arm, looking at you with a deeply concerned expression. You began to follow Zoey out of the kitchen, looking behind you to see Romance still there. “But…but he’s right there.” You whispered under your breath, watching Romance blow you a kiss before Zoey pulled you out of the kitchen fully. 

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MYSTERY

He was gone. Dead. You had watched it happen right in front of you at his concert. When you had found out that he was a demon, it had been a surprise but you had promised that you would always love him no matter what. Then the concert happened and he was taken from you…

You were currently curled up on the couch, just lying there in the dark. It had been a few weeks now but you had barely been able to process anything. You had barely moved in those few weeks. Just laying on the couch, barely eating and sleeping. Rumi had been kind enough to let you stay over at her place so that you wouldn’t be alone. As you laid there, you swore you heard movement in the kitchen but Rumi was asleep in her bedroom so it couldn’t be here. 

You let out a small sigh and sat up on the couch, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. Your eyes widened when you heard a sound yet again, making you believe that maybe you weren’t hearing things. Hesitantly, you stood up and began to make your way over to the kitchen. Your breath caught in your throat as you stared at the back of a figure. You could recognize that silver hair anywhere but it couldn’t be him, could it? He was dead. 

“Mystery..?” You said quietly as you stepped into the kitchen, still not believing your eyes. Mystery slowly turned around and you were met by the familiar face that you had fallen in love with, a curtain of bangs still falling over his eyes but you knew he was looking at you. You stepped closer till you were standing in front of him, tears slowly falling down your cheeks. You raised your hand slowly, feeling it shake as you hesitated to touch him. 

Finally, you reached up all the way and gently brushed some of his bangs away, seeing his eyes locked on yours and a small smile on his face. You gasped quietly as you cupped his face. You were touching him. He was here in the kitchen with you, looking so alive. “Did you really think I’d leave you? I love you too much for that, y/n.” Mystery told you softly, placing a hand on top of yours and keeping it on his face. 

“But…I watched you die. Right in front of me…this can’t be real.” You whispered as morse tears fell from your eyes. Mystery used his other hand to gently wipe away the fallen tears, his eyes never leaving yours. “I’m alive, sweetheart…I’m alive and I'm not going anywhere, I promise.” Mystery said softly as he leaned in and kissed your forehead, making you smile a little. He was back…and alive. Standing right in front of you. 

Quiet footsteps tore your gaze away from Mystery and you caught sight of Rumi walking in and stopping at the entrance of the kitchen. “Who are you talking to?” Rumi asked you quietly as she gave you a concerned look. 

“Mystery is alive, Rumi! Look, he’s right there.” You told her in a watery voice as you pointed to Mystery. Rumi tilted her head a little, her frown deepening. “Y/n…I’m sorry that you are hurting so much but this…this is a lot. Mystery isn’t here.” She told you quietly, making you frown and look over at Mystery again who was just smiling softly at you. 

You opened your mouth to say something but Rumi grabbed your hand and pulled you away from the kitchen before you could speak. “You need rest, y/n. This isn’t healthy.” Rumi said quietly, pulling you away. 

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BABY

 The last few weeks had been hell. Ever since you had to watch your  boyfriend die right in front of you, you hadn’t been able to do anything but rot in your bed. You had known that he was a demon but what had happened at the Saja Boys last concert had been something you never even thought possible. You still didn’t know how to feel about it all. 

You had been spending the last few weeks at Mira’s place, not really wanting to be alone after what had happened. You were currently laying in bed, staring up at the ceiling and just wishing things had been different. You hugged yourself a little tighter, trying to hang onto any last bit of Baby’s scent on his hoodie that you were still wearing. You hadn’t taken it off since the night he died. 

As you laid there, the sound of your stomach growling broke the silence in the bedroom. With a small sigh you decided to get out of bed to try and eat something. You hadn’t really been eating or sleeping much these days and it was taking a toll on you. 

You made your way to the kitchen but instantly paused as you spotted someone at the kitchen counter, just sitting there and writing in a notebook. Not just anyone…him. Baby was sitting there. “W-what? No. This isn’t possible…you can’t actually be here.” You said in a shaky voice, tears springing into your eyes. 

“Where else would I be?” Baby said as he raised an eyebrow at you, looking up from the notebook. You recognize the notebook as the one he would write his raps in. 

“But I watched you die, Baby…right in front of me.” As you said that, Baby closed the notebook and got up, making his way over to you. He wrapped his arms around you and held you close. “I’m right here, babe…I never left. I’ve been here the whole time.” He whispered into your ear, keeping his arms around you tightly. 

You melted against his chest, letting the tears fall from your eyes. You couldn’t believe this was happening. He was here and alive. You finally pulled back and wiped your eyes, looking up at him with a small smile. 

You were about to say something when you heard footsteps approaching the kitchen. “Y/n? Are you on the phone with someone?” Mira asked before she stepped into the kitchen. She looked at you for a moment before her face shifted to one of concern. 

“Come on…it’s late and you clearly need to rest. You’re talking to thin air.” Mira murmured the last part under her breath as she gently grabbed your hand. You looked back and gave Baby a confused look because he was clearly there in the kitchen. He just smiled at you and gave you a small wave as Mira pulled you away from the kitchen. 

“But…he’s there, Mira. Baby is there!” You claimed as you kept your eyes on the kitchen. Mira looked at you with wide eyes, not really knowing what else to say to you. “Let’s go, y/n.” She said quietly, pulling you completely out of the kitchen. 

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JINU

Jinu was dead…and he died right in front of you. You had gone to his concert to support him as usual but this concert felt different. Darker. You knew he was a demon but seeing that side of him was different then anything else you had ever seen. You still loved him though and watching him die right in front of you tore your heart to pieces. 

You were currently staying at Zoey’s place since you couldn’t handle being alone right now with all of this going on. You were curled up on the couch and looking out the giant window that looked out over the city, tears in your eyes. You haven't been sleeping or eating much these days. You’d just lay there, not being able to think of anything other than your boyfriend's death. 

As you laid there in the dark, you suddenly heard something coming from the kitchen. You sat up and gently rubbed your eyes before standing up. It was nearing three in the morning, was Zoey really up at this time as well? 

You slowly made your way towards the kitchen, expecting to see Zoey in there. “Zoey? What are you doing up?” You mumbled as you stepped into the kitchen, your eyes widening as you made eye contact with a familiar face. 

“Jinu?” Your voice broke out as tears filled your eyes once more, instantly sliding down your cheeks. Your feet moved before you could think and you threw your arms around him.

“Hi, baby…I’m here.” Jinu whispered as he placed a hand on the back of your head, the other on your back to keep you close. You could feel him running his fingers through your hair. “But…but I watched you die. How are you here?” You asked him, tilting your head to look up at him. 

Jinu gently cupped your face and smiled down at you. “I never left, y/n. I’d never leave you…I’m alive, baby. I’m here and I’m going nowhere, okay?” Jinu told you softly, causing a small smile to form on your face. You gave him a small nod before stepping back and just looking at him, processing him being there.

“Y/n?” Zoey’s voice pulled your gaze away from Jinu and you saw the worried look on her face. “Hey…I just heard you talking so I wanted to check on you.” Zoey said quietly as she tried to hide her concern for you. She gently took your arm and began to pull you away. 

“Zoey, he’s alive! Can’t you see him?” You asked her as you looked back at Jinu who was smiling at you. Zoey’s hand tightened a little on your arm and her frown deepened as she glanced into the kitchen. “I think you need to get some rest. Okay, y/n.” She told you quietly before she pulled you away from the kitchen. 

[cherrydriver]

Saja Boys dealing with insecurities

ABBY - Insecure about only being liked for his looks. He knows that he’s known for his body but is worried that it’s all he is known for. 

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It was a rather rainy day so you opted to just stay inside for most of the day. You’re boyfriend, Abby, was out at a meeting with the rest of the Saja Boys to go over an upcoming performance. He had told you that he would come over as soon as the meeting was over. 

You had gotten some snacks and drinks to have a relaxing movie day with your man, especially since you knew he had been working so hard lately and could use the break. 

Not long after you finished setting up the tray of snacks, you heard the front door of your apartment open and then close, followed by footsteps. 

“Hey, Abby! How was the meeting?” You welcomed him as you watched him walk into the living room, a warm smile on your face. Your smile fell instantly though when you noticed that the usual cheerful Abby had a solemn look on his face. 

“Abby? What’s wrong? Did something happen?” You asked, the concern evident in your tone. You kept your eyes on Abby even when he avoided your gaze. 

“Be honest. Do you only want to be with me because of my looks?” Abby asked quietly, his hands tightening into fists by his sides. All the compliments he got from fans were about his looks, especially his abs. He knew that this was the kind of persona he took on with the Saja Boys, but sometimes the comments got under his skin. It made him question if that was the only part of him that was attractive. 

Your heart broke as you heard his question because you could hear the pain in his voice and you slowly walked over to stand right in front of him. You could see the insecurity on his face. With a small sigh, you reached out and took his hands, locking your fingers with his and giving his hands a gentle squeeze. 

“Abby…I love every single part of you. I love you as a whole…not just for one thing. Did someone say something to you?” You asked him, wanting to know where this was suddenly coming from. 

Abby let out a small sigh, his hands gently squeezing yours in return. “It’s just…I’m kind of known for my looks, my body…but I don’t want to be known for just that. I’m more than that, you know? The fans see me for my abs and voice and…I guess I got worried that maybe that’s all you saw as well.” Abby confessed, feeling more vulnerable now then he ever had. 

You took in a deep breath as you reached a hand up and placed your palm flat against Abby’s chest, right where his heart was beating quickly. “All I see is what an amazing man you are. I’m with you because of your heart, Abby. It’s filled with so much love for life…for the fans…for me.” You said softly as you kept your eyes locked on Abby’s. 

“I love you for you, Abby. Not for your body.” You reassured him before giving him a gentle kiss on the cheek. You could see his lips turning up a little which made you smile in return. 

“I love you so much y/n…thank you.” Abby replied as he leaned down and kissed your lips lightly before pulling away. This time, a small smirk formed on his lips. “But my abs are pretty awesome, right?” 

You just chuckled and playfully hit his chest before he wrapped you up in his arms, holding you close for the remainder of the night. 

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ROMANCE - Gets worried that he is being too much or over the top with his affection. 

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You started picking up on some subtle changes over the last couple of days. Romance seemed a bit distant. When you two were out in public, he’d simply hold your hand and nothing more, staying mostly silent. Usually he’d have his arm around your waist and talking, kissing your head, cheek, lips. When you would walk in the park, he’d pick up flowers that he passed and by the end he’d give you a full bouquet of wildflowers. Not this time around though. 

As the two of you walked your usual path through the park, Romance simply stared ahead with his hand holding yours. You could tell something was going on in that head of his. 

“Romance? Is everything okay? You’ve been acting differently lately.” You asked him once the two of you took a seat on a bench for a small break. Romance stayed quiet, staring out at the lake ahead of the two of you. Finally, he let out a small sigh and began to speak. 

“Am I too much?” His voice was low and quiet with a slight shake in it that broke your heart. Lately Romance had begun to worry that what he was doing was too much. He didn’t want to push too much and scare you off with his clinglyness. He had started to worry that all of his gifts were stupid and excessive. He tried to tell himself that he was being silly but the voices were still there. “What?” You asked, your eyes never leaving him as you reached over and touched his chin, encouraging him to look at you. 

“I just…I worry that all the touching is too much for you. Like I’m too clingy or too obsessed. I don’t want you to get annoyed or tired of me.” Romance explained quietly as he looked into your eyes. You see that his eyes were a little misty, the frown on his face only making your chest hurt even more. You had no idea he was feeling this way but it made sense given how he had been acting lately. 

“Romance, I love every single touch, every single gift you give me, every single gesture that shows how much you love me. I love that you love so loudly…it’s one of the things that made me fall for you in the first place. The fact that you love with your entire heart and soul and aren’t afraid to show it.” As you spoke, you could see his expression softening, a small smile finally forming on his lips. 

“Thank you, y/n. I love you so much and I love showing it. I guess the voices in my head just got a little too loud lately.” Romance told you before wrapping his arms around you and pulling you closer on the bench, placing a gentle kiss to your temple. For the remainder of your walk in the park, he kept his arm around you and gathered wildflowers just like before. By the end, you had a full bouquet, just like usual. 

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MYSTERY - Insecure about his ability to let people in and trust them.

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You’ve been talking to Mystery for a few weeks now, even going out on a few dates here and there. You knew you had developed feelings for him but you could never tell if he felt the same way. When you talked over messages, he seemed easier to talk to but whenever you hung out in person, it almost seemed like he held himself back. You had already expressed your feelings towards him and he had told you that he felt the same way but that he wasn’t sure if he was ready for anything. 

One day, you guys were meeting up at a cafe for lunch and you decided that you were going to try and understand more of where he was coming from because you knew he was holding back. All of the late night messages, the subtle touches when you hang out. It meant something, so why was he holding back? 

When Mystery first arrived, you kept the conversation light, not wanting to just throw him directly into it. After you two caught up, you decided to finally ask. “Mystery, can I ask you something?” You started, putting down your drink and focusing on him. “Why do you close yourself off around me?” 

You watched as Mystery froze, slowly placing his drink down as he turned his head to look out the window through the curtain of bangs that fell over his forehead. He stayed quiet for a moment longer before finally speaking. 

“I’m sorry…I want to let you in but whenever I try, these thoughts in my head stop me. I know I can trust you but sometimes it's hard to ignore those voices…the ones that tell me that I need to continue to hide.” His voice was quiet and slightly unsteady as he spoke. He slowly looked over at you again and you could just barely see his eyes peeking through his bangs. He had never wanted to hold back from you and hide. Most nights he found himself typing out long messages to you but then deleting them at the last minute because he got worried. He didn’t want to keep holding back though, he wanted to let you in. Let you know every part of him, even the vulnerable parts. 

“Mystery…you can trust me and we can take this as slow as you need but you do not need to hide from me. I want to know every part of you…even the parts that you may not like. Those voices are lying to you, you don’t need to hide anymore. I promise.” You explained softly, reaching over and taking his hand. You interlocked your fingers with his, giving his hand a small squeeze. A hint of a smile formed on Mystery’s face and he squeezed your hand back. 

“Thank you, y/n and thank you for being so patient with me. I want this…with you.” Mystery told you softly, making your heart flutter a little. After that day, Mystery let you in way more, allowing you to get to know him in a deeper way. 

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BABY - Insecure about his looks and how he can be infantilized. 

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Baby knew that this would happen, especially after he became known for his ‘baby face’ looks with the Saja Boys. People constantly calling him “cute” and thinking that babying him was funny when deep down, it just irked him. Eventually all of those remarks began to get under his skin a bit more and made him wonder if they would ever go away or if this is how he would permanently be seen. 

Until he met you. 

You didn’t see him that way. You saw past the whole ‘baby’ facade that the fans seemed to put on him. It was probably why he fell for you so quickly and why he cared so deeply for you despite not being the best at showing it. 

The two of you were walking down the street after Baby had a meeting with the other Saja Boys. You had your hand in his, holding it as you two made your way down the sidewalk. You were approaching a group of girls and you knew instantly that they recognized your boyfriend due to the giggling and pointing as you two drew nearer. 

“Oh my gosh, it’s him! Baby Saja! Aww he is so cute, he just has the cutest little baby face!” 

���I know right! I just want to squeeze him! Omg who is that with him? No way! Is that his girlfriend? She looks so much older than him!” 

The voices continued even as you guys passed the small group. You could tell by the way Baby was squeezing your hand that the comments had gotten to him. “Baby? Just ignore them.” You told him quietly as you looked over at him, seeing the hard expression on his face. 

“It gets annoying, you know? The constant comments about my looks…and everyone thinks I act like a damn baby too. And the comment about you looking older than me? We’re the same damn age.” Baby muttered as he kept his gaze ahead, his hand still squeezing yours tightly. 

“I know it’s annoying but I hope you know that I don’t see you like that at all. They just unfortunately see you as this persona you put on for the Saja Boys and don’t realize that you aren’t actually like that off the stage.” You told him softly, giving him a small smile. 

Baby eventually looked over at you and his expression softened at the sight of your smile. “Thank you, y/n. I know you don’t see me like that which is honestly one of the reasons why I think I fell for you so quickly” He confessed before clearing his throat and staring ahead, a faint pink dusting showing on his cheeks. “Anyways, let's go back to my place where I can kick your ass at that game we were playing earlier.”

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JINU - Insecure about not being able to do enough for you. He gets scared of letting you down. 

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All of the practices were slowly catching up to him. Jinu loved performing with the Saja Boys, loved that the crowd loved them so much. They had a big concert coming up soon and so all of the rehearsals had started and it was intense. All of the choreography that needed to be learned, and all the vocal practices, it was taking a lot from him. Because of this, Jinu would come back to the apartment exhausted. He was determined about going to your place after every practice, despite being tired. 

You could see how exhausted your boyfriend was and you knew that he needed to just rest but for some reason he was so determined to do something with you when he got back. Even if it was just staying up to watch a movie. You appreciated the effort but you were getting concerned about him because you knew that he wasn’t sleeping enough. 

One night after Jinu got back from rehearsal and came over to your place, he settled next to you and told you to put a movie on but you just sat there and stared at him. The dark circles under his eyes had gotten worse over the last couple days and he was in desperate need of sleep. 

“Jinu…you need to go to sleep. You’re basically falling asleep right now, don’t try and fight it.” You told him softly but your concern for him was evident in your tone. You watched as Jinu instantly shook his head and shifted on the couch, sitting up a bit more. 

“No, I’m ok. I want to watch this movie with you.” He said quietly, fighting back a yawn as he spoke. You let out a small sigh as you kept your eyes on him, your concern only growing. “Jinu, you need to stop pushing yourself like this. Why do you keep forcing yourself to stay awake when you are clearly exhausted?” You asked him, shifting on the couch to fully face him. 

Jinu could hear the concern in your voice and it made him feel guilty for making you worry. He took a deep breath as he ran a hand through his dark hair. “I’m afraid of letting you down…that it won’t be enough for you and…you’ll leave.” His voice was so quiet you almost didn’t catch his words but you did and it broke your heart. He was staying up because he was worried about letting you down? 

“Jinu, baby…you could never let me down and it is enough, I promise. I want you to rest…you need to rest. You’ve been working so hard this week for the concert and it’s taking a toll on you. If you needed to go to your place and just get some rest, I would totally understand. I’ve honestly been concerned about you pushing yourself like this.” You told him quietly, placing a hand on his arm and giving it a small squeeze. Jinu looked over at you and you watched his shoulders finally relax as he realized that you weren’t upset with him in any way. 

“I appreciate you so much, y/n. Thank you. I promise I will get some rest but I’m not going back to my place. It’s too lonely there when I know that you’re here.” He murmured in a sleepy voice before wrapping his arms around you and pulling you down on the couch with him so that you were secure on his chest. You watched his eyes slowly closed and in just a few minutes he was asleep. You chuckled softly before kissing the tip of his nose and snuggling up close to him, falling asleep yourself. 

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Omg this is my first Saja Boy post! I hope you guys enjoyed it!

Cherry <3

[cherrydriver]

I’M ALIVE

I’ve been a silent reader for a while because I use to write for Haikyuu characters (mainly on Wattpad and a few here) but now I’m so into K-Pop Demon Hunters. It’s given me my motivation to write again!!

So you best believe I’m going to be writing imagines with the Saja Boys (separately) and I’m so excited😋

I’ve been reading so many posts and y’all are so talented! I have some ideas in mind that I’ll work on soon and I’m excited to share them with everyone!

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[cherrydriver]

I love Ushijima Wakatoshi.

I think he is heavily underrated. Whenever people talk about captains, or aces, it’s always Oikawa or Bokuto. But what about Ushijima?? Like his “I’m counting on you” to Goshiki at the end of season 3?? His power as an ace??? I would like to see some more hype around this man please and thank you <3

I’m going to try and up hold the Ushijima tag as much as physically possible.

[cherrydriver]

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Warnings: just fluff <3

This is so random and I greatly apologize. They just randomly came to my head and I decided to write them down lmao.

Takashi Morinozuka (Ouran High School Host Club), and Ushijima Wakatoshi (Haikyuu) are the kind of guys who would always have a hand on your lower back if you guys were dating.

They would just want to make sure that you were always okay and they never want to leave your side.

Also they would also be finding the most random things for little gifts. Like imagine them just coming up to you and handing you a rock that they thought looked cool.

If you’re sad? They are right there beside you, but if you needed to be alone they would give you that space.

Would always send you the cutest little messages throughout the day.

- “I love you.”

- “You look pretty.”

- “miss you.”

That kind of thing!

That was so random and I apologize again. I just love these two so much and I think they would be fairly similar in a relationship.

[cherrydriver]

Possibly??

Y’know maybe I’ll have to be the one to make something?? Do we want some Takashi Morinozuka work? Like some possible head cannons to start?