chasingcherriess

[chasingcherriess]

Let the light in.

Eddie roundtree x reader!

warnings: cigarettes, angst, alcohol, and drugs.

P.S. This fanfic was originally an oc, so if you see the name violet it’s meant to be y/n :)

Let the light in - Lana Del Rey Ft. Father John Misty.

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Y/n had been sitting at the end of the bed, watching her best friend strum his fingers against the cords of his red Gibson. She spent hours studying his every move: how his nose would scrunch up every time she told a joke, how he would hug her tightly as if she was going to disappear from thin air. The brunette's eyes landed on hers, and noticed how her pupils would grow bigger every time they locked eyes. Eddie wasn't the type of guy to express himself, and that included not expressing himself to her. He grew up in a house where communication and emotions didn't mix together. Y/n always thought of it as "oil and water" - it just didn't work.

"Distracting you?" Y/n finally spoke, breaking the silence and staring into the brunette's eyes. She heard a chuckle escape his lips, and she couldn't help but smile at hearing it. The two spent their evenings like this; it was a normal thing for them. Just them. Until one night when eddie sneaked through the window into the girls room.

"Eddie! What are you doing here?!" She giggled a bit, whisper-yelling at the boy in her room. "If my parents find you - no, no, if my dad finds you - you will be next on the stove." Eddie laughed before hugging Y/n. "We need to talk," Y/n heard these terrifying words and looked at him a bit scared. "Did he find out?" "Was he going out with someone?" "Is he going to end our amazing bond?" Millions of thoughts swarmed her mind, but all those thoughts came to a halt. "Come with me, to California." The boy took her smaller hands into his. "I'm going to go with the band, just come with! It can't be terrible." Y/n couldn't believe what he was asking. This could be their new beginning, maybe? Y/n didn't think, nor hesitate. The girl had just nodded and hugged him tightly. "I'll go with you, I'll follow you anywhere." eddie felt himself flush at the girl's words as he placed a soft peck on her cheek. "We are leaving soon, on Thursday. We're leaving, starting a new life." Y/n couldn't help but smile to herself. The two turned at the footsteps that could be heard coming to Y/n room. "Okay, go! Go!" She giggled, pushing Eddie out the window.

Y/n mother came in with a hamper stuck to the side of her hip. "Hi sweetheart," the woman's voice spoke calmly as she set y/n hamper down. "Mom," y/n voice turned into a whisper. "Yes, honey?" Her mom had sat down on the bed, holding her daughter's hands in her own. "Do you like eddie?" Y/n eyes glued onto her mother, looking for an answer with just her facial expressions. "He's a good kid. He has a bright future ahead of him, honey." Y/n felt relief wash over herself as she nodded. "I want to go to California with Eddie." Y/n didn't have time to even process what she had spoken. "What? Why?" Y/n saw the color drain out of her mother's face. "Mom, I'm 18. I want to go live life! I want to be a singer. I won't get that here." Y/n words stayed soft. "I trust you, baby, but I need you to promise to call every day." Y/n nodded her head excitedly and jumped into her mom's arms. The two hugged each other tightly. "I love you, Mom." "I love you too, honey."

After spending what felt like hours with her mother, y/n lay in bed thinking about all the possibilities of her new life in California. She slowly drifted off to sleep, feeling a sense of excitement and nervousness. The next morning came quickly, and Violet packed her most valuable belongings before walking down the stairs to see Eddie and the rest of his bandmates waiting in the van. Her favorite drummer, warren, took her bag and hid it away in the van. Eddie hugged y/n tightly and spun her around. "Let's do this thing," he said with a wide grin on his face as they both walked into the van.

The trip to LA was long and tiring, but also very exciting with the band. Y/n had lit her fifth cigarette, having spent hours reading and smoking by the window. Once they arrived in LA, Warren had arranged a place for them to stay, which wasn't the best but would do for now. Violet sighed upon hearing the lead singer speak. "Really, warren?". billy was an idiot in y/n eyes, and that's all she thought of him.

Months went by and it was tiring for sure. Billy’s girlfriend, Camilla, had been helping y/n with the band's preparations. The two worked day and night managing the band. Y/n grew tired of always managing the band and wanted to be part of something great, not just manage it. Billy never let her join, thinking it should be a "boy band".

Eventually, y/n got her way and joined the band as a background vocalist, occasionally even getting to be the lead singer. She was so happy to finally show her true artistry.

A couple of months had passed, and the band had taken off. Y/n was still crushing on the dreamy bassist, who was also her best friend.

"Birdie, come on, just tell me," Eddie begged on his knees in front of the girl. "Nope, you can't know!" Y/n laughed, watching the boy stand up. He placed his hands on her waist, but was sadly interrupted by Camilla's voice echoing through the house, "Anyone home?!" Eddie quickly backed away and called out, "We're up here, Camilla!" Y/n sat down on the bed in the corner, letting out a loud sigh, feeling her heart break into pieces. She always knew Eddie had pent-up feelings for Camilla, but it still hurt. Eddie had complained to her about what had happened between them. Y/n had taken it for a while because she was too scared to lose her best friend. However, she knew she deserved better, even if she was blinded by love.

The making of their new album was not easy either.

Daisy and Billy constantly fought, making every day exhausting for everyone around them. After finishing the album, they took a three-week break before the tour began. During the break, Y/n attended parties, often drunk or high. This was normal for her in the 70s, but being away from Eddie gave her peace of mind. Eddie, on the other hand, had not slept a single night worrying about Y/n. He didn't know where she was or how she was doing, and it was starting to get to him.

Finally, the three-week break was over, and everyone said their goodbyes before heading out on tour. Y/n had already bid farewell to Camillia and Julia with a smile. On the bus, she noticed Eddie looking at her in a way that made her heart break. Y/n couldn't handle it anymore. After everyone said their goodbyes, Eddie sat next to Y/n and gave her his classic tight-lipped smile. The two were quiet, and Karen noticed this more than anyone. Everyone was in their own world, but Karen always knew when something was going on, especially when it came to y/n.

Their first concert was great. Y/n was super nervous but also felt an excitement within her. Emotions were running wild as the band wrapped up the concert. Y/n walked towards the wings and felt someone's arms wrap around her waist. "We did great!" It was the bassist, her best friend. Y/n smiled and hugged Eddie back, but without thinking she had kissed him. It wasn't intense, just a quick smooch. Y/n didn't know what to do after that. She just nodded and smiled at the man before walking off with Karen to the tour bus for their after-parties, leaving the groupies to swarm Eddie. This was the routine at every concert: perform, party, and hit the road. Eddie played that kiss over and over in his mind. Maybe he did love her? Eddie couldn't keep his thoughts sane after the feeling of his best friends lips on his.

The girls had decided to go shopping while the boys stayed back on the bus. "I don't know, man. Maybe I do love Y/n," Eddie told Warren and Graham. Warren, still high from his daily dose, tried his best to respond. "If there's something going on, then go for it! Why wait? Besides, you don't want to do it too late, man. Y/n is tricky." Eddie nodded, listening, before Graham interrupted. "I mean, Warren's right. No girl kisses just because." Eddie thought for a moment. "Well, no, I mean, have you seen her? A bunch of guys swarm her all the fucking time, man! They are like insects wanting more." Eddie frowned and looked at Warren. "I mean, man, listen, Y/n is a beautiful woman. She's going to get stared down like that, but just because you love her isn't going to stop those guys. She doesn't know you love her." Eddie's eyebrows furrowed. "I'll tell her soon.” Warren shook his head, “whatever you say man.”

Chicago was the final stop, and y/n had made it to sound check on time, as she never missed it. However, as she approached the stage, she saw that Eddie had a black eye. Y/n’s lips formed a frown “Ed’s, are you alright?” She could tell that he wasn't okay. Eddie forced his smile before speaking “I’m alright birdie, thank you” Eddie placed a soft peck on her cheek before going back to shining his bass. Warren looked over at the bass player and frowned, and Eddie knew he needed to tell Y/n what was going on. Warren felt bad for y/n, he could tell that she was tearing herself apart over Eddie’s actions.

Since no one showed up for sound check, y/n asked Rod for permission to leave, and he excused her. She went to her room and stared at herself in the mirror, feeling overwhelmed. She felt like she was going crazy and without thinking, she ran to find Karen, she had no one else.

When y/n arrived at Karen's room, she knocked aggressively, needing her friend's comfort. Karen opened the door and took a second to see y/n face, without hesitation Karen had taken y/n into her arms, consoling her as she cried. Y/n sobbed out “it’s too much Karen. It’s too much for me, for my heart”. Karen held onto y/n until she was ready to let go, and then y/n had collected herself and spoke softly, “I won’t allow myself to suffer like this, ever again.”Karen was proud of y/n and hugged her tightly, “I believe in you y/n.” Karen placed a soft kiss on her forehead.

It was finally time for the show. This was it, the end. Y/n stepped onto the stage, tambourine in hand, and looked out at the crowd. She knew she had to give it her all. She performed like no other before her, wowing the audience. Even a certain bassist couldn't take his eyes off her. Daisy and y/n had sang a duet together, their voices ringing out as loud as they could. Daisy had started the intro for look at us now, but when billys part came on, he didn’t sing. He stayed silent. Billy ran off the stage, causing confusion, but the band continued on. It was the end. Y/n and the band she had grown to love took their last bow to the audience and walked off. Before y/n could leave this place forever, her home, she felt a hand grab her wrist. "Wait," Eddie said, pulling y/n close. "I have something to tell you, please." Y/n stayed quiet, puzzled. "What's the matter, Eddie?" His heart tugged a little hearing how easily his name slipped off her tongue. "I love you, y/n, more than anything. I know it's late, but please." Y/n stayed silent, shocked. These were the words she had begged to hear her whole life, but now that she heard them, nothing changed. Everything was the same. Eddie noticed her silence and felt himself get anxious. "Birdie, please, we can leave the band together and start our own thing. I just need you to trust me," Eddie pleaded again. He wasn't giving up. "Ed's... I," she didn't know how to form the sentence she needed to say, "I don't love you anymore." She said it. She finally said it. Relief washed over her, but she soon became overwhelmed with sadness. "Y/n, but this is how it was supposed to be. It was supposed to be us against the world. It was supposed to be like that from the beginning," Eddie felt his eyes water slightly. Eddie didn't want to be vulnerable, but he really loved this woman, and he hated that he was too late. "Exactly, Eddie. From the beginning, not from the end," she spoke coldly, the words striking through Eddie's heart. "Please, y/n, don't do this, please," he filled her ears up with pleads once again. He couldn't let her go like this. "Eddie, I like to love you, and I hate to hate you." Y/n eyes watered, tears threatening to fall. "Let's just put on some Beatles, light the candles, and start over," Eddie held y/n hands in his. He wanted to keep her around. Eddie didn't want to lose his favorite girl. Y/n kissed Eddie, knowing this would be the last time ever. Eddie didn't want this to end, but he had to accept that he couldn't control what happens. Y/n finally parted her lips from his. "Look at us," she whispered to him. "You and me, back at it again," Eddie whispered back, his tear-stained cheeks and red eyes staring into y/n swollen eyes and cheeks. "Goodbye, Eddie," y/n left him standing there. That same night, she left Chicago and went back home. Y/n left a piece of herself with Eddie, just as Eddie left a piece of himself with her.

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This definitely wasn’t my best, but I hope you guys enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it! sending love 🍒

[chasingcherriess]

Hello lovelies, I’m going to be posting some fanfics here. This is my first time doing this kind of thing so I apologize if I do anything wrong, please do give some recommendations on what you would like for me to write! I write about anything so I’m free to anything. :)