chaoticgremlinvibes

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I woke up sick

I’m gonna kill myself



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either i am gonna get a new job or i am gonna kill my self, one or the other

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was out drinking until like 3 AM last night after getting 4 1/2 hours of sleep, after getting 2 1/2 hours of sleep this morning, I got dragged out to go shopping and go see craft fairs and now I am going to sip my chai latte and eat my bagel and pray that I get to go home and go to bed soon before work tonight 

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a lot of people, especially non Americans, seem shocked by how little the restaurant industry cares about your health but it really doesn’t phase you if you’ve been working in it. like yeah you’ll work nine days in a row, five will be double shifts, and you’ll throw up from exhaustion at work but as long as you make it to the bathroom you’re fine. you’ll go to work feeling awful head to toe and with a wicked cold but as long as you don’t have a raging fever, you’re just stuck there. and no, you won’t be taking any 15 minute or 30 minute breaks. unless you’re on a double, you get a short break and come back when you’re told

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nobody gives a shit about michael cera anymore and thats the problem with this country

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i'd kill a person fr a smoke w th mutuals

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theres something so innately and intrinsically wrong with me its in my bones and my blood and everywhere inside and around me and i cant tear it out no matter how hard i claw

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I wish I meant the same to other people as they mean to me

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like the urge to kill myself is strong but also the hope that maybe life if gonna be okay is growing so idk

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there is no such thing as "caring too much" about stuffed animals. they have feelings and that's final.

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I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

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"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

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the devil couldn’t reach me so he made me feel like i dont belong anywhere.

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Mama void with all of her voidlings 🖤🐈

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"It’s completely unjust and is an insult to the intelligence of the American people and their lived experience." — Luigi Mangione

Photographed by Benjamin B. Braun while being led into court.