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It seems a kind mrs's has taught me something about life, I mean this a Man, a desert Man, it seems Mary has it all figured out, God bless women for not eradicating Mankind, may we never suffer the drought again. Even if i or others are an asshole sometimes. God Bless Mary, The mother of God

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my son got into an emotional conflict at school today,

the outcome: he is no longer friends with this person.

from the outside in and utilizing what ive learned of government and sociology, but i prefer government because it makes it easier to see,

an interesting development,

he is going to have to determine whether he is going to compromise his beliefs to conform to anothers view or objectively reason their opinion and accept them and move forward, becasue blitzkrieg is forward motion and its important, some call it progress defining more american, i call it blitzkrieg, the ability to conquer land and social settings defining an inner character not willing to accept defeat, problematic in some form from the former but if i was in the military waiting for placement this would be an observational experiment in which i knew i was going to allow others parameters to define my logic moving me up the ladder, self doubt is the enemy and it is ever prevalent in todays society.

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winter solstice

Jan 13,

sharp energy,

a positive the schutzstaffell are almost ready, the birth,

i dont know if its american fear, a bleeder(either dedication or nark) discharge and im not eating perverting punishing, somewhere theres a bleeder and Re is here, perhaps it is true not time yet, or perhaps its whithering away, a loss of dedication for the pale king,

american fear and disshonor of your king, putting me to sleep instead of letting me eat, a bleeder, a weak spot meant to absorb the charge of energy,

not called

it seems america has polluted the ways and perversed the tongue,

a foul energy,

soley fear or religious mongering and not belief,

yes it seems the language of the tongues is perverse, the occult is either being diluted or forgotten,

the positives and negatives resinating off the spit,

focusing on christianity is perversing the land here, they may know but they dont believe or maybe it is not alligned,

solstice indeed,

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"uhm i hope you reside in heaven you fat fuck"

the fact that this was played when i was asleep is more annoying than anything, i mean at least if i was awake i could see what hotness was all fired up and eating, i can feel her lips and her chest and her breast her nipples flaring her claws out,

a bit delayed in the energy but none the less toxically sexy,

i really do enjoy her flare ups, only a cuck would warship and not feed her, sucking someone elses dick and all, Re to Ra in worship,

i love the interchange but cant speak like a bitch,

i would fucking rape her and love every minute of it, "with love" a cuck response you pigs,

her fucking face their fucking face

their spit

their breast

chanting hating it the alpha

its a shame that its turned into this fuckery of decorating

doa dont know shit

its meant to channel energy

the perfect male in that time

my sons will never be slaves bore from the whores of the shadows,

i love the quantum

Ugh Ra to re to Ra,

atomic bombs when genitals meat and sweat and filth,

the public the subgroup christian dyke,

they know nothing if i could incorporate this into nazi culture again it would be epic, the best part thz energy channeled into logic and music,

powered the fuck up beyond houstons protocol of 5000 watts

they know NOTHING!!!!!!!

a putrid baby right now reseting, a knife across my skin would be like sex and murder all in one,

fucking weak currents miss using their tech, foolish in the aryan race,

thy will we be done

i ask that they free me from this fat prison and give me back my alpha in both body and the residing spirit,

My collective brains ready for me to feed off them, it seems the energy still flows outward feeding the necissary

a perfect circle

🧬💉😈🧙

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is there somewhere in projecting conscious nirvana or more, do you die, is that what up is, am i paralyzed, i hzte coming down, parzmeters from what,

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another intersting psychology

nazis thought jews were criminals, the ones destroying the world if a doctor dressed as a gangster walked into a mall someone would think some type of way about him theres no difference today other than controlled ignorance and ommition, slavery, why because they thought of a way to succeed, african diamond miners who just want a better life get limbs chopped off for a little rock a hope of a better life, theres no difference, the difference now is fear, and control because emotional outrage, someone always wants something someone else has and says its not fair, wherhers its information or stones, peopke i deal with now are mad because supposedly theres priveledged information, some people higher or stronger so they complain just like i do, whats that called "politics" nazis oppressed jews and now nazis are the jew of america, people who had a belief, and are oppressed, dont talk of evolution till you check yourself, and i quote respectibly "o want whats fair"

thats it thats all im saying its not the group although then they were very angry idiots, its psychology and whats normal just like the fight between jung and freud, and whats normal, progression, and if progression is disrupted throwing you out of whack bam temper tantrum same as hitler mad something not going his way, a psychology which is a problem that i too have suffered from, being emotional, and throwing a temper tantrum, the difference

ask yourself and learn and grow

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last thing if you still doubt, nazis wanted a better living conditon for white people sure a little distorted in their projection of blame, but many cultures today still embark on how they want to live and what they are willing to do or take to achieve it, there is no difference

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an interesting reaction and orchistrated experiment among many religions psychologies and taboos, are you really that different in the brain, does nato ring any bells or how bout ussr and ukraine, you know you real time leaders, exactly,

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i guess maybe im just an asshole dissorganized psychopath, im ok being alone and happy that im nobody, because if i said something like some of the shot i contemplate one stop shop nut house, or worse, i dont want to fit normal parameters so im ok saying i fell in love with the nazi flag and stargate, because it opened me up to something later way way later, motivational contemplation of life, and science and psychology, i cant help other peoples emotional triggers programmed as attaucities that cant redeem and evolve themselves, it marks me a target but to stay motivated is a sacrifice of safety and security, i must, logical displacement through thermodynamic energy ic common in my household, meaning nouse and distractions, the fance of emotional damage and chaos, distorting the phase of gain and contemplation, but even then im discouraged because what if they figured it out along time ago and either enslaved or worse left us behind, i have a theory about the galactic center and phase of planets time and awareness, i humbling distraction which motivates me for more, i dont associate with stupid racist nazis although the level of horseshit leaves a momentous stain on progress, its intersting to think of delusions, i have daydreams of nazis healing traumas of the past and remedying mistakes made on humanity, and living invisibly among the public, but all i see is ignorance excluding some well disguised delusions, my family is hispanic and was killed by hitler himself, and i just stood as we both looked at each other like what are you doing, the difference between time evolution and awareness, its funny cause i see humorous designs of hitler not creating the ss and being a goofy painter, thanks to old religions its great, the left or the right, and im in the grey, a body of atoms that i wish would never get off the train or be protagonisticly removed, because i dont want to be numb, i love genetics but i hate the weight of old psychology or weak psychology among society and predatorial desire to take advantage or shun to make yourself feel better, people do what they choose but i have hope of something to live for, some evolution of uniform of power and psychology with respect to humanity, i say if war needs to exist build a planet and make it gamer with regenerative genetics and shit, is this what i small little man felt when he created a mass so destructive that it decimated 8 million people, is my belief of quantum real, and he is redeeming himself, they all are, is he at peace, and if so then what becomes of respectibly the white race and psychology and evolution, where do we go, its so misrepresented by regional slavery and psychological reptition, your really telling me it cant evolve that you cant be friends with one black mexican chinese man or fall in live with a black mexican or chinese woman, how many said whatever you need to tell yourself, i want to improve, always and now im on psychology and why ignorance exist, is he looking from the otherside of the moon waiting for outliers, an observationalist father, hell lets exclude nazis what about just being plane amercian great, a father to people motivating the future, thats the difference anger or euphoria, i think its a worthy cause to just try to find something people hate and make it better, a lost cause among many, but reasonable for myself, its interesting and hilariously and i quote "antisocial" to be something people hate, their response is either disgust or violence, showing the same face that hitler had only less, are you any different, you hate something because its different, sure it made massive mistakes, are you telling me you never made a mistake havent sinned lied or cheated, they were so bothered by psychology and anger that they broke or maybe your not familiar with conditioning and lashing back at someone either vervally or physically, which i highly doubt, who do you think is bearing witness to those psychotic breaks recording trigger moments emotionaly distraught reactions and compulsion to react, i limit myself because of peoples imbalance, a

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i am the son of a geneticist, diffenretial regions and complexity keep it fresh, thank god theres a lot of square footage to explore and experience, it seems the drone psychology of mushrooms and ants in humans i have completed, so observation experiment, industry, are my goal, the draining of some electromagnetetic information or some shit, drives me to create till i die, the human psyche will go on, true finance is motivating but a bigger house a lab a tv whatever im just and ocd empty shell at this point learning to be ok not filling the hole to much, sometimes i like talking shit, is trigger science going to end, im fitting into parameters right now designed to enslave the mind, the psychology of providing, i was called a communist for the sharing psychology an interesting statement now that i have logic about metals and other commerce, i wonder what russia is like what they do during their day, supposebly its oppression, like china, not free, psychotic even, even then i just see a bunch of rich people who are bored and have some perverted need to entertain themselves, i dont know, i predict based on my statements dramatic life change turmoil or someother for of psychological slavery will come, its interesting that i see protagonist but have no clear direction on how to be a parent because of more psychological slavery, respectibly conditioning, i say pig america because i feel like its a battle i say psychotic russia because i feel like its a battle, of the mind, of herding of the people, whos known for that, thats why i live them, its this mysterious invisible psychology that keeps americas heart beating, and maybe as a regional difference in russia prevents people from discovering, an interesting concept as that would force migration, the nazis had good ideas and bad ideas, slavery and propaganda control were a mistake, slave traders of america kept people stupid, maybe progession is a temporary cure but inevitably a trauma, one day there may be nothing left to learn which leads protagonist to control information to "aid humanity" a literal intergration of slave and nazi logic, i am not trying not to be a negative nancy, but even psychology is competition and slavery, when your read this if your average youll naturally blame someone you dont know, some rich white dude, always based on region some form of conditional racism, or sexism, task management is something they teach astronauts, trickled down into work psychology, i thankfully have some people, granting mz the ability to be in my head, contemplating, some form of psychology, and the people working living reacting learning and the differences between culture, i mean it could be worse, real oppression, amazonian cannibals, aliens and some prehistoric catastrophy, life is meant for living, but for what, things, heres a question if i didnt have this cellphone would i still have these thoughts or would i sit if innovation didnt exist there would be no paper pencil record keeping to expand the mind of agreed beliefs, so is something wrong with me, i may be suffering from contemplative space madness and need i tegration of distraction, but i feel numb working, i work and buy mindless junk, slavery, or im just ocd as fuck, empty, so what then, accretion, i cant even look at people, its like a rock sitting on me, and can exist in a park of thousands and be alone and staring wondering what circles they make, home work store date home, circles, predictive because of dopamine and comfort, maybe i take it for granted freedom learning, society and one day i look back and say i should have talked to more people, i know of people who exist that live on the streets and others who are rich, i am just trying to find my place in the world, at the ripe age i am, its intereting society and heirachy psychology, rich people poor people handicapped or gifted, theres a psychology of if some people act a way all do, and then theres those that have it all that off themselves, at some point we all reach that point of contemplation of existence and the difference we made o this planet,

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let me rephrase for those listening,

progression is peace

so why stuff

why

if not war

decimating destruction another form of progress the conquering of land, of the mind, what is man like me to do, just sit and watch tv, therapy, why create ocd if not to conquer, accretion isnt my strong suit,

sometimes when i am communicating a purpose an invisible force literally compels a blank,

who is fearing progress,

my neuro progress,

what are they scared of,

dog on a leash bullshit,

if peace is the way why war, its commercial, competition over gold and silver,

money is paper,

what is the economy becoming if reliant on paper from metal to no more, thats the future, unless its mathmatically proven that metals will indefinitly outlast mankind its going to come down to psychology and slavery, and then you have a collected mass of people who are bored, what if they are or become over time damaged, then you still blame me and my psychology right now,

even if america conquers all land its still metal and air and psychology, so look at from where im coming from what i know, plastics and decoration, the only hope is space and metals and transmutation, tell me im wrong, its slavery, and distraction, just observational discovery of the human psyche, america or nazi, the competition of the psyche will be the future it wont be land it wont be metals it will be triggers, contemplation and distraction, and time here on earth trying to distract yourself from being either alone or social, with ai and time even hollywood will fade, entertainment will die, differential equations in distraction will run out, not now but eventually, space is the answer, even then the human psyche can only create so much, thankfully transmutation ai has a bit more to give, was this discovered with iron man 2, and the new element, what is mankind to become in the future, in text creatures and vril lived beneath the earth, in mankind signals science is subterranean and under water, clarity, are we to become those beings,

something i wrote about before was the true end, not of civilization but of a world not suffering from space madness, this will be a darpa investigation eventually, thats the psychology of war, and the curse of peace,

the great minds discovered this and need a way from the world going into psychosis, pig nations are an option, reincarnation that could have been discovered in genetics reality during world war 2, so whos the real enemy those trying to keep you from fragmenting or me, if it isnt true zventually it will be and the grace will be again commercial memory wiping, black mirror, i suffer from a longing for more, as man and woman were afflicted with conquering, and so the true slavery is government reseting, republican democrat tyrant all essentially one thing or the other, war or peace both synchronous with themselves and different in other ways for a period of time, so is it really beneficial to sell the psychology of war if its just to gain some semblance of dopamine balance again, the only help is possibly quantum and space, the desire to learn till you die, so i am i defective in the normal peace going time, i say peace but contemplate realities of war just as the 70's did in real feelings to learn tagging both emotion and logic to feel every bit of reaction inner and outer, whats the real problem here unsurrity or innability, algebraic equation states the obvioslus discomplacebcy leads to outburst punishment is reaction, and psychology is repetitive controlled learning,

so the real question is

who am i?

nazi, jew, russian, american, nobody

and why did i have to get sober?

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i was born in america so i have to know im a pig, a nobody,

regional psychological differences.

commercial vs reflectory

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i have discovered the pig nation,

selective sensory,

i may not have found the perfect balance regarding conditioning, but i have discovered

someones house, very interesting

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i considering going deaf,

pros:auditory triggers, keywords, action linguistics, probing, cortisol and adrenaline and dopamine response removed, more focused,

cons: music, nazi communication control sign language, alarms for trouble, counter intelligence tech support,

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on a political note for a second,

what in the hell is russia doing to america thats got america(if thats where i am) so wound up, the sheer amount of exposure and non covelant reaction between governments, america is pissed the fuck off, or texas is pissed the fuck off, somebody is pissed the fuck off,

algeabraic deduction indicates thats a reaction based assertive behavior is being inserted into somebodies asshole right now, put all former bullshit aside for a moment and think not like emotional baggage cased females with cocks, nor corporate babies, why in the hell is either america or russia so butthurt?

when it all boils down to the grit, their both caucasian, alpha males, who follow christ,

so what in the actual fuck is going on, who is the antoganist, and who is the victim and mantility or fear mongered corporate or military person is so fired up about what?

you know 12 angry men never solved anything.

is there ever going to be forward progress for both countries? or is subgroup psychology really the dominate male like we are deevolved chimpanzes.

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psychosociology in relation to animals is an interesting thing in mammals, how can we apply what we learned to a more beneficial finding? is predation the only thing that exists? a formulation of subgroups and colonies? is this the best leader for us? the best use of intelligence?

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an interesting thing to learn from the ant is not the predatory nature towards inner species communication but the truely symbiotic, the very nature to respond to signal, some work the fields others defend some sort, an interesting development i ecological development, the introduction of stimuli such as nicotine coffee alters the very nature of some and enhances others, what they should t have with a region is predation, working together to form a better colony, bees respond to things humans cant see, birds magnetics, how can we symbiotycally incorporate this into our harmonious existence? in starship troopers defending the brain bug was key to survival, the more you know the smarter you are, getting caught up in only one type of reaction is not prevalent in the species on that planet, soldiers work together to get neurons for the brain bug to decypher ever evolving the species, growing smarter stonger i corporating the learned into new methods and beahvior,

the evolutionary trait something we could learn to utilize, light is paramount to survival, the moon, balancing the earth into synchronous oscillation, working together how can we utilize this to better ourselves? the brain bug has no sorter, only soldiers, not matriarch, not emotional, logical calculated and ever vigilant to conquer? how can we learn from this trait of current imagination? how can we evolve? not preying on our own kind but building a better colony?