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Beginning to feel like I'm not only running a race to say goodbye as tribute to colleague who died of cancer but feeling like I've got to let go of a 'friend '

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I have never felt more alone and unloved in my life.

No job and most people I am now questioning why I'm keeping in touch with. I had the idea to sit back and see if anyone actually asked if I was OK? I have spent many years trying to care about other people and asking if they were OK. Guess what? No one even asks, shocker not.

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Sooo over a month and still no job. I'm beginning to wonder if companies really want people to work for them! 31 years Administration experience and no-one wants me???

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Today I cried, felt hopeless and not valued and even questioned whether I should continue to live. When you then switch on TV to see more people being injured or killed it puts life in perspective so back on positive and not giving up.

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Very tired, positive lady. Birthday today and a good friend took me out for a meal and made my day.

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Positive and determined to make things work this year. 2 months without a job and not much longer if I can help it. Started exercise again yesterday and will maintain a positive mental attitude as I refuse to end up crying as much as I did last year.

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Settling down to enjoy Christmas. I'm disappointed at still not having a job, but have come to realise everything happens for a reason. This time out has made me appreciate what matters and what is junk.

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WTF why does everywhere I post everyone acts like it's a dating site. I'm just here to make new friends, see brilliant scenic pictures that will inspire me to paint and vent off as like now

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I'm feeling strong today. Although I have been rejected again for a job application, I know that there is only a couple of weeks to the new year which means all applications I've made might get sorted. The group Framework have helped support me no end with help to travel to interviews. I do feel low but there are alot of people worse off. Be strong everyone! There is always a way to deal with things.

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I have never felt so alone. No job, £9 to my name. No one that really wants to text me to see if OK. I'm trying not to give up and be strong but it's hard.

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Time to get fit

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My latest painting

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My 2nd attempt at making a dress

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Positive news of a new start in a job on 26th October!! Glad I stayed strong enough for this but did come pretty close to not surviving this.

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Today I woke up wanting to give up on life. I got to such a low point that I questioned my existence. Answering other people's problems helped ease this as I am not the only person feeling crappie. I feel low that a so called friend messaged to ask about a job. When I replied I got nothing. Why bother to ask if not going to get involved with conversation-makes me feel worse. Thanks 4 that.

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Proper emotional day today. Sat my assessment for customer service business and admin , digital skills and customer services. Everything went wrong before it so was in pieces. Tutor was totally brilliant and really sung my praises for going in to take assessment after literally having a breakdown and all the detailed work I handed in. Just waiting now to find out how I did.