chaosgreymistchild

[chaosgreymistchild]

Love how tumblr has its own folk stories. Yeah the God of Arepo we’ve all heard the story and we all still cry about it. Yeah that one about the woman locked up for centuries finally getting free. That one about the witch who would marry anyone who could get her house key from her cat and it’s revealed she IS the cat after the narrator befriends the cat.

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Kafka/Blade

I'm actually so insane over kafblade, they're literally just master/sword ship like I don't even know what else to say.

The inherent romanticism of being a sword beloved by your master. The inherent romanticism of taking care of your sword who is also a human but is not a Person. Sorry like everyone who turns and interprets Blade as an edgelord is literally just objectively wrong, he's a corpse who clawed his way out of hell it's not fucking subtle he's literally surrounded by spider lilies (the flowers that bloom on the other shore, the underworld) all the time like cmon guys cmon, he's a vengeful ghost haunting his own corpse and haunted in turn by a past he can barely remember.

Also like I say "inherent romanticism" but I mean "romanticism" to me. It's very, very important to me for everyone to understand that Blade is like. Not A Person. I don't think there's enough inside of him to have a romantic love for someone that doesn't have a connection to the person who he used to be (YX) and what he can feel is lingering feelings from which mara blooms.

Kafka is a control freak who physiologically can't feel fear and Blade is a dead man walking who wants to forget what it feels like to be human. He already thinks of himself as a human weapon but cannot escape the realities of living in a flesh and human body like the body horror of the fleshiness and disgustingly wet weakness of it all, the dehumanisation of using her spirit whispers to cut the connection between himself and his body like THE FLAVOUR OF IT ALL THE FLAVOUR OF IT ALL.

Personally I can't imagine Blade having any control in their whatever-the-fuck-is-going-on relationship, which tbh is exactly how he would prefer it.

Also personally I think that the Stellaron Hunters are just all fucking each other so.

Anyways. Clears throat. Anyways.

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Light/L ^_^

Still working my way slowly through these lmfao

Lawlight can be just the most stupid thing they're literally "you want to kiss me so much you look stupid" but also you can replace "kiss" with "kill" and it still works.

They're sooooo codependant though, literally the only two people in the world who can understand each other and the boredom of existing in a world of STUPID FUCKING MORONS but also in being that they're ALSO STUPID FUCKING MORONS over each other instead. Definitely enable just the absolute worst in each other tho, both of them just instantly started murdering people (L by proxy) in order to hunt each other down the moment they became aware of each other.

Murder is their idea of a date.

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do you have any advice on how to detangle god from the idea of an eternity in hell if you don't believe or do the right things? I want to believe in god and I want to love him but I can't be the person I was taught I needed to be for him to love me back and I'm so scared of where I'll end up even if I don't really believe in it all anymore

a god who will, with no emphaticism and all banality, catapult your body into hell is not a god worth nourishing yourself with. the prophets knew this. the bible itself knows this. god does, too. the biblical god is not flippant or fickle or cruel. he is careful, dutiful, tender, violent in love and in justice. he does not talk about an after-life of suffering. instead, he asks questions. he sits with his people in their exile. he is too busy writing in the dirt to plan idle pain for those who love him. he's distracted by pretty objects. he's appointing worms as prophets. he is concocting the most inexhaustibly bizarre proofs of his own divinity. this god does not want you needlessly scared. he wants you to be well, to be in ethical relationships, to be sitting next to him and reading whatever on earth he's written in the dirt. he wants you to plant gardens in the land of your captors (he is thoughtful like that). he wants you to learn from pain. to share pain with him, even. but most of all he wants so many things and all of them are illegible and strange and above language anyway. and all of them are meaningful.

this is the god of play, the god of wonder, the god of disembodied hands, the god who never speaks of hell, not once. you have to risk your faith, here. you have to know it's best to cling tightly onto these images of a god who begets only that which becomes him. god is either careful and caring, and worth your time. or he is not, and therefore not worth your time at all

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thinking about the 'cannibal's delicacy,' those as-yet things that are too pulsing, chaotic, horrifying, or seductive for us to take a bite out of. reading this against biblical impurity and taboo: here we are told by god not what we should not eat, but what we can't. don't eat sacrificial female cows, the bible tells us. don't eat the body of god—not in this form, not yet. don't eat your father. not physically, at least. it's about making more delicate those delicacies. it's about fragility—ours and god's. i am trying to tell you that god knows what you can stomach. it is in your best interest to listen to him

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of course i know the difference between yaoi and yuri. yuri is when two female praying mantis fall in love but can never embrace because if they did instinct and tradition would dictate that they bite each other's heads off in an act of mutually assured destruction. yaoi is when two male deer lock antlers while fighting and get tangled together, dooming at least one of them to die and the other to the choice to either die with them or pull away and carry the weight of the responsibility for their death as a part of them for the rest of their life.

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let it matter that god puts תַּרְדֵּמָ֛ה, a deep sleep, upon adam before performing his surgery—the first surgery. before tearing open his chest wall, prodding hand through blood and tissue, pulling out a wet rib. in this edenic garden there is no pain: adam would not wince had he been awake. but the problem is not wincing, when it comes to orifice creation and penetration; it never is. the problem is the capacity to gaze upon, indeed into, the orifice created. adam must be asleep because were he awake, he would see his wound, his organs, his rib, his blood, the g(od) spot, the whole hole of it. and then he'd see the suturing, whatever that looked like. he'd have a lack, and then lose it. a lack of a lack. and besides, elsewhere in the bible, body-writing (inscription, penetration) is only permissible when it is permanent. this original wound teases impermanence, which is intolerable. how could he see his lack and then lack it? how can any of us?

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adam wakes up, probes his side. rib gone, wound sticky. god's fingers have touched a place that will never be touched again. how does adam not curl up, swell and fall, beg god to touch him again. to touch him everywhere else. not just ribs but cheek, inner thigh, lap. the worst part of the side-wound is not that god penetrated you but that he won't do it again

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Abel/Naoya

Hi Coffee I know this is you.

There's something so fucking insane about these two. Like there's an insane amount of power imbalance but on both sides? For Naoya, for obvious reasons he has so much more life experience than Abel/Kazuya and is in a position where he is able to so easily manipulate literally everything in Abel/Kazuya's life and Abel/Kazuya himself. For Abel/Kazuya, Naoya is so devoted to him and has pledged such a ceaseless devotion to him that he could ask anything of Naoya and Naoya would obey, he holds such a power over Naoya as both his brother and his god.

Literally so much a compatible brand of fucking freaky insane sons of Adam, direct descendants of God.

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Dan Heng/Jing Yuan/Blade

I'm assuming this is jingrenheng instead of jingxingfeng so I'm doing it for that. To me they're Different Dynamics so send me another ask if you want jingxingfeng as well lmao.

They're exes but married but divorced but fucking but in a more romantic relationship than just fwb. They're fated enemies (mostly renheng) but also fated soulmates. They're tied to each other by a red string of fate that binds them as much as it guides them. Every time they're separated, they still keep an eye on each other or actively seek each other out or chase them down.

They're sweet but also like. in a kinda fucked up way sometimes. lmao. I dunno the ways they interact with each other covers a lot of ground and leaves a lot up to interpretation.

Incredibly my thing, I think they're all fucking insane and that jingyuan and blade should be tortured to death multiple times.

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Akechi/Akira :)

Coffee is that you?????

These guys are kinda insane actually like these guys are both fated enemies, intense rivals, detective/criminal, hunter and hunted, etc etc. Literally everything delicious and wonderful and insane.

Also Akechi murders people.

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was struggling to think of a ship, but like ??? am i stupid? MAKISHIMA SHOUGO/KOUGAMI SHINYA

These two are SO fucked up but I'm sure I can make it even worse. That being said these guys are like both exes but also actively married I have no idea how to describe it but they're partners, married, divorced, dead, all at the same time. Also they kill each other but keep each other alive at the same time. No idea how to describe it but these guys would shoot each other in the chest and then desperately try to plug the wound at the same time.

Not really sure what else I need to or want to say. I am entirely Unnormal about these guys. They should engage in woundfucking and CNC.

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blade/archer

OMG YOU ACTUALLY LISTENED TO ME AND DID IT????

WAVES MY SHIP MANIFESTO

These two are just The Same Guy it's selfcest with more steps and a crossover, they're the same character in a different font, there's something deeply Unnormal about both of them they're human weapons who don't even see themselves as human weapons because that would mean they're human to begin with they're-- [is shot]

I hit "oh the devotion" not because they're insanely devoted to each other but because they're insanely devoted to their other halves/people/owners yknow what I mean.

Also hit "brb gotta go through their whole ship tag" but the whole ship tag is in my head and in my wips folder so yknowTM.

I don't really see them as romantic, I don't think there's enough going on in either their heads or their emotions or whatever else left of a heart they have left in them to be able to love each other. I think that at best they Fuck but in like. super fucked up guro ways lmfao

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"i can't believe you didn't cross out the "inherent eroticism of attempted murder"" okay fair that was on me I meant to but it just happened.

"I'm surprised that chaos didn't do "I can make them so fucked up" and "not dating but married nonetheless"" okay I'm not sure I can make it even more fucked up than canon because holy shit have you seen these two. also they didn't date in the modern conventional sense but these two totally went on dates okay you don't think the roadtrip humbaba murder ccedar forest trip wasn't a date??? that being said enkidu does have marriage/bridal imagery so yknow half right.

Gil/Enkidu

There is literally no part of me that is normal about gilkidu. They're fated enemies, Enkidu literally created to kill Gilgamesh, they're soulmates bound from the very moment of Enkidu's creation to be together and beloved. Enkidu is a falling star, an axe, a wife, wrapped in Gilgamesh's arms, beloved by Gilgamesh who loves no one else in truth. Gilgamesh dreams of Enkidu from the moment of his creation and loves him from the moment of his creation, when he dies he marries Enkidu's corpse, covers his face in a veil as one would a bride, builds a vast statue in his image and worships it like he would worship none of the gods, not even his parents.

Frankly I don't think anyone talks enough about hey they're fated in so many ways.

Also what "basically canon" they ARE canon.

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Yassen Gregorovich / Alex Rider

Who the hell put this down was that you cross I was NOT expecting this to resurface in my braincells after this many years what the hell.

They're like insane levels of super fucked up and the inherent eroticism of attempted murder but also like..... the inherent devotion of being the only reason why each other are alive. Also I just think that the potential of the mentor/mentee flavour is so fucking delicious.

I came close to ticking off "fated enemies" for them but imo it's a bit more vaguey implicit narrative doom than proper narrative/fated enemies so yknow.

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mayuri kurotsuchi/severus snape

I fucking hate you slim

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Gil/Enkidu

There is literally no part of me that is normal about gilkidu. They're fated enemies, Enkidu literally created to kill Gilgamesh, they're soulmates bound from the very moment of Enkidu's creation to be together and beloved. Enkidu is a falling star, an axe, a wife, wrapped in Gilgamesh's arms, beloved by Gilgamesh who loves no one else in truth. Gilgamesh dreams of Enkidu from the moment of his creation and loves him from the moment of his creation, when he dies he marries Enkidu's corpse, covers his face in a veil as one would a bride, builds a vast statue in his image and worships it like he would worship none of the gods, not even his parents.

Frankly I don't think anyone talks enough about hey they're fated in so many ways.

Also what "basically canon" they ARE canon.