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Omad day??

Current weight is 174.5. I’m still doing OMAD. I started off at 180-178. So total lost is 3.5 pounds. I’m trying to feel happy about this but I naturally stay at a weight around 175-180 so I just feel like real progress hasn’t been made yet. I’m still going to stick with it and keep going. One thing I’ve been struggling with is my water intake. Sometimes drinking water on an empty stomach makes my stomach hurt. But I’m trying.

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Hey there! So day 2 went really well. I picked up some halo top low calorie Ice cream and since I know my time of the month is coming up this weekend I’m saving it for those sugar cravings 😋😋😋😋

Tonight I’ll be making some zucchini noodles with creamy pasta sauce so I definitely take some pics. It’s one of my FAVORITE meals. It’s healthy, taste AHHHHHmazingggg and makes me happy. I’m hoping tonight while I’m cooking it I don’t slip and eat a little because that’s how much I love it.

Wednesday is going to be a super busy day for me. So keep me in your thoughts that I don’t skip off the wagon. I’ve been feeling so good about this and I’m not ready for a slip up.

A new goal I am setting for myself is to check my weight once every 3 days. I typically check it everyday and I get discouraged when I see higher then what I expected it to be. So I’m going to push myself to stop checking it so much and focus on my health and how I’m feeling.

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Omad day 2

Omad day 2

So today is one meal a day day 2. I’m actually really excited and pumped. I’ve been researching a bunch information on this and I feel really excited for the results. I’ve been following a bunch of instagrams that support this way of eating. Some of them seem a bit extreme ( @jaime_vanleamer & @blake_201) but it just shows me that as long as you stick to your calories and eat your one meal a day success can be obtained!

SW: 180

CW: 175.5

GW 1: 171

UGW: 145

Also I’m going to start posting pictures of my meals and workouts!

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Welcome

I wanted to wait until I got home so that I can type this out. Because a lot of emotions are about to come out. But I’ll start.

I. Depression

I came to the conclusion I’m severely depressed probably a few months ago. But this is the first day that I’ve decided to take control of it and pull myself out. I’ve come up with a bunch of ideas in the past of remedies and methods to control it but I just couldn’t find the energy or the will. I continuously made excuses for myself and said it was alright for me to smoke 2-3x a day because it allowed me not to handle my feelings. I told myself that binge eating was fine because we live in a time where curvy girls are being appreciated more. So I just need to accept that this is who I am now. I was wallowing in my misery.

II. Internship

In August 2017 I joined this internship program that was suppose to change my life around. I was suppose to end up with a possible career in corporate America in banking. What I ended up at was a job as a teller in a bank. Yes. I should be grateful for an opportunity but I feel and continue to feel uninspired and unmotivated. This has also showed that a job in customer service is no longer for me. I have too many ideas and potential to waste it, biting my tongue and having customers humiliate me on a daily basis.

III. Finances

Now this one I’m taking my time to solve and it’s probably what caused all this depression. Last year I dropped 1 credit below full time and a good portion of my financial aid was taken away from me. I was told i would have to pay $2000 in order to go back to school in the fall. Due to financial and family issues I knew that would not be doable. Luckily i found a program that would allow me to earn college credits while interning over the summer. I have been working over 50+ hours a week at my internship and a part time job to pay this bill. But the more I tried to save towards it the more I was charged in late fees. Bringing the bill up to $5000. Today I have reached $3500. I’m working towards it and I will get there. I promised myself.