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[chaerin247]

casual yes or no || minseok + chaerin

chaerin keeps her hands to herself this time, casually with her fingers toying at the edges of her jacket pockets, her long nails, tapping a bit against the fabric. she walks with a leisurely stroll, nothing too intense or rushed, her lips pursed a bit, her eyes wondering. she's not entirely sure what to say now that they're finally on a date together; she's happy but nervous, hopeful but resigned in case things just don’t work out. she wants things to work out, but she's not going to stray too far from her comfort zone, not any more than she already has.

truth be told, minseok is hot and she's seen him with his shirt off-- like wOW-- any guy with muscles and a nice chin pretty much had her eye. she'd been watching him a little bit for a while now and finally gotten up the courage to ask him to come out with her, not even sure if he was interested or anything. but it's supposed to be just casual anyways, so whether it ends up with her lipstick on his neck or anything is still up in the air. "i wish it were warmer today, we could have had a picnic or something," she smiles. "still though, at least it's clear. the trees all look so pretty.. i don’t often get the chance to see them every year, sometimes i'm too busy. do you come to the festival every year?"

@247minseok

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blossoms || sumin + chaerin

step one was getting sumin to agree to come out with her in the first place. it's not often that sumin agrees to do anything with her without the presence of the others, probably for the very good reason that they sort of have a history together and sometimes things could become quite awkward. at least when there's people around to distract both of them, there was less of a chance that any real conversation could be brought up. but today was special, it was soft and serene and the park was beautiful and the cherry blossom petals were everywhere, so chaerin had taken a chance and invited her out. she hadn't mentioned that it was just the two of them, but as soon as sumin showed up, chaerin wouldn't let her leave.

step two was providing incentive for her to stay, mostly in the form of food that chaerin had had made for them by hand. she wished she could have created them herself, but welp, she's just not that talented, so she'd commissioned it out and just claimed it herself instead. they were really good little lunches for them, everything all set up across a picnic blanket that was hopefully too picturesque for sumin to just walk away from.

step three was bringing them both to a certain level of comfort that chaerin so longed for in their relationship. it had been lacking between them, despite her best efforts-- a closeness that she wanted, even if they were just friends. their past seemed to have clouded things between them, but chaerin didn't want that. she always found it difficult to be simply friends with people, but she could try.... she would try for sumin. so while the other girl was munching on her sushi, chaerin shifted from her side of the picnic blanket, and laid her head down on sumin's thigh, staring up at the pretty tree branches above them. "thank you for coming out with me, sumin. i really didn't want to be here alone today, and no one else could show."

@247sumin

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chaerin throws her head back and laughs at jimin's assertion of her outfit. of course it was something chaerin would wear, and being honest, not a lot of people can really pull it off the way she does. she spent hours last night fine tuning the details of the garment, getting all the little extras about it as perfectly as she could. she wanted this to be perfect and it absolutely was, the brightness of the fabric mixing lovely with the cherry blossoms.

"don't be judgey now," chaerin half-scolds her best friend, nudging her a bit. "i stayed up half the night working on finishing this, i intend to enjoy it. i now consider this gown to be my baby, my labor of love." her voice sounds airy, a little silly and breathy, before chuckling and leaning against jimin. "well i wish i could do something about your look as well, but let's be real, there's not much to say about jeans and a sweater! why did you come here looking like this anyway? even if i was dressed normally, you would still look like a shadow, you're wearing black and blue! we really need to re-accessorize your wardrobe for spring, darling."

she huffs and tugs on jimin's arm, pulling her towards one of the stands off to the side. it's full of pretty hair decorations and jewelry, most of it themed flowers of course. she buys two hair clips with tiny, dangly glass cherry blossom flowers. "here, put this in your hair, you'll fit with me better." she tries to insert the hair clips onto jimin's do. "don’t argue okay! you have to, we're taking pictures together. it's important!"

straight out of a historical kdrama || jimin + chaerin

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chaerin couldn't help the strange nervousness that had settled into her bones as soon as she woke up that morning. jaebum and her relationship had always been on a need-basis, sexy and fun, uncomplicated. him inviting her out for a-- what was this exactly? a date? were they still friends anymore, or was this him taking things to the next level? did she want the next level? she couldn't really say, every time she thought hard about jaebum, her mind kept getting all weird and needy. but she knew herself, she knew she had an issue with commitments, real problems surrounding anything to do with actual intense feelings.

she did like jaebum. how could she not? he was funny and hot and he always seemed to care about her and she liked the way his eyes lingered on her. he made her mouth water and he never hit her, which was more of a bonus than he probably realized. but them going on a date together felt.. strange, felt shaky. she didn't want to ruin what they had, even though sometimes she felt herself wondering if they could be more to each other.

either way, she attempted to calm herself by dressing to the nines this afternoon for him; heels and a pushup bra, shiny shirt, adorable skirt-- she was the very picture of the girlfriend every girl wants to be. her chest constricted and fluttered a bit when she saw him, but she smiled anyway, deceptively calm as she wrapped an arm around his back as well, falling into step with him. "thank you, gorgeous, you always look smoldering as well, hehe!" she fit herself against his side and looked around, biting her lip. "ooooooooh, whatever i want huh? what if i want food? like lots and lots of food? are you buying? Oh oh! we should drawings done of each other! or pictures!" why was she sounding so excited? she needed to calm down before he started to think she was an idiot.

;;walking on roses

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Jaebum had invited Chaerin to the Spring Flower Festival only because he felt as if they should spend time actually talking and having fun since all they did was have intercourse. He leaned against the fence by the entrance as he waited for her and started letting his thoughts roam. Did he like her? Yes. But the real question is, did he like-like her. He rubbed his face and groaned, it was like he was in kindergarten trying to figure out a crush. There was no doubt that Chaerin was beautiful but there was something about her personality that just struck to him. She was always fierce and strong. She never let anything get in her way. He liked that about her.

He looked down at the ground and shook the thoughts away from his mind and then heard the sounds of footsteps walking towards him. He looked up and saw her, bringing a wide smile to his face. No matter what she wore, even naked. She looked stunning. But, what he told her was, “You look good, Chaerin.” On the inside he was so confused. He didn’t know whether or not if he was really developing feelings for her.

He stood straight and tilted her chin upwards, landing a kiss on her lips before leading her inside. “So, first things first. We’ll go around and do whatever you want. Mmm, buy ice cream or cotton candy!” He chuckled kept his arm stuck on her waist as he looked for booths he might want to check out.

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aesthetic boards — @chaerin247 & jiyong

❝ don’t be shy, come to me, don’t think too much.❞

[chaerin247]

It is a fire that consumes me, but I am the fire.

Jorge Luis Borges, A New Refutation of Time (via thequotejournals)

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straight out of a historical kdrama || jimin + chaerin

anyone who knows anything about lee fucking chaerin, knows that the girl is extra. she has all that and a bag of chips, as well as a few empty rice buckets in her cabinet, if you know what i mean. she never tries to be anything other than what she is, never tries to downplay herself, wearing heels even when they make her taller than her date, turning her nose up at anyone who dares talk badly about gucci, and speaking her mind whenever and wherever she pleases. she's assertive and daring and lives her life entirely in the present, no future to think of.

and she likes it this way, it gives her freedom to do things other people might think of as foolish, with little to no embarrassment. you wish you were this fabulous in a traditional hanbok garment, wandering around the cherry blossom trees as though coming straight out of an old history book. she is certainly getting a lot of stares, which she likes because she was always meant to live in the spotlight. she walks around aimlessly, until spotting jimin finally, and approaching her. "jimin! sorry i'm late, my outfit needed to be perfect," she laughs, pulling a wayward strand of hair away from her face. "does this look amazing or what? i love it so much, let's go do pictures or something!" before jimin has a chance to protest, chaerin is already looping her arm around hers.

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[chaerin247]

Jaejoong & Chaerin

“oh the taste of your lips \ i’m on a ride \ you’re toxic \ i’m slipping under.”

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chaerin took a few minutes getting herself ready, freshening up her face and applying adequate enough makeup to seem pretty but not overly staged. jaebum had already seen her without her makeup and still stuck around anyway, which was a feat all unto itself, but she still liked to look good for him. she liked looking good for anybody, but especially for him because somehow he always seemed fucking perfect and it annoyed her that he barely even tried--

she jumped a bit when she felt his arms slide around her waist, but quickly relaxed and smiled, leaning back against him. it was funny how well she felt they fit together, his arms seemingly just the right strength and muscle mass. her heart constricted a bit and even though she fought to keep a serious face, she coudn't hide the grin very well. "hello handsome," she muttered, chuckling a bit as he nipped her neck. "mmmm not well enough, i'm afraid. help me fix it?"

she turned around in his arms, burying her face in his neck for a moment. she loved the way he smelled and the feel of his pulse against her lips. she liked marking him too, which is why getting lipstick on his skin was good, but not enough, she had to make it more permanent, even if it was just for a day. so she wraps her arms around his shoulders and bites into the nape of his neck, wanting to give him a hickey, but then a door somewhere down the hall shuts and she breaks away.

"we better go somewhere more secluded before i get fired," she grabs his hand and pulls him out of the dressing room, hauling him behind her towards a storage room full of old costumes. "how's your day been, you look tired?"

;;private time

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she grins, satisfied, as she continues lightly biting down his jawline towards his ear, nipping at the lobe before humming. honestly, sometimes she thinks she could just stay here like this with him, sometimes she worries that she might, but the reality of her issues always come crushing on top of her head, and that's just not something she needs to be pinning on jiyong as well. she likes how things are between them and even though he does comfort her when she needs, she knows he would probably never try to become something more to her. sometimes that's okay, and sometimes it isn't.

she pulls back a little bit and kisses his lips, surprisingly sweetly, before rolling off him, taking most of the blankets with her. she wraps herself up in the sheets like a toga and laughs at him. "if i'm being the chef then i need my chef suit-- this is my chef suit." she speaks with as much authority as someone wearing nothing but bed sheets can have before giggling and tying the bedding securely around herself. she can't have it falling off of her while she's battling the eggs.

"poor jiyongie, you're probably all banged up, huh? scratched and bruised-- geez i must have done a number on you. i'm so abusive, hah!" she smiles widely and silly, and heads out of the room towards the kitchen. "if you want to just lay there, i'll bring my poor boy some breakfast in bed." it doesn't take her long in the kitchen however, before she is dropping pans and yelping as the eggs cackle and fizz at her. "why are eggs so difficult?" she mutters under her breath. she knows how to make american food, she just doesn't know how to make it well.

morning after syndrome || jiyong + chae

[chaerin247]

Brown Eyed Girls - Abracadabra

[chaerin247]

if chaerin hadn't been so focused on sumin's face, the angles of her cheeks and the softness of her lips, she might probably have grinned like a chesure cat-- in fact, she had to fight to keep her thoughts from showing on her features. sitting this close together meant that chaerin could see when sumin's eyes darted downwards, which only made her more confident in what she was doing. sometimes when you put yourself out there as far as a girl flirting with another girl, it could be an absolute train wreck-- something chaerin had experienced before-- but there were already rumors going around that cha sumin might lean both ways.

in fact there had been a lot of rumors of her dating another girl in the school-- something that chaerin had laughed about with her plastics clique, even though she herself bent towards guys and girls as well. it was something that she'd known since she was in middle school, as well as something that she knew would never be acceptable in korean society, much less a preppy, bitchy school like cheongnam. there was no way she could let on that she actually, maybe really liked girls and beyond that, that she might actually maybe, really like sumin.

but just that glance set something inside chaerin's heart on fire and she wanted to get the other girl alone. she wanted to ask her about her feelings, about what she really thought, about perhaps trying something out with her. no jokes. no pranks. no other plastic girls in hiding, just sort of the two of them. chaerin wouldn't say it was a "crush" because that would be stupid, but she could swear every time she so much as looked at sumin, her breath caught in her throat. everyone had laughed at sumin for the lesbian rumors, but it had given chaerin hope.

so when sumin offered to take her to the roof, chaerin was all too happy to accept, probably a little too quickly. "yes! i mean, yeah, that would be cool, i mean, if you have any time-- i'm just sort of, not scared of heights, but i like experiencing things with other people around, you know?" was it just her or was the room sort of disappearing around them? "so like whenever you're free or interested." she leaned against the back of the couch, her hand propping her head up, her posture trying to be cute but like laid back. her other hand started messing with a lock of blond hair. "i mean, i'm not really doing anything right now. this party is pretty boring for me, you're the only interesting person here, so."

leave a curse on your lips || past || sumin + chae

chaerin247:

(…)

it’s simply lack of space on the couch that causes chaerin’s leg to press against sumin’s, exchanging heat between them, and simply lack of clothing that causes chaerin breasts to be quite so on display tonight.

parties were supposed to be fun, of course, but the only thing that was not fun about parties was that sumin had to deal with people. it wasn’t like she couldn’t stand being in crowds and mingle with just anyone she happened to find there. it was just that she chose not to get involved with people because as far as she’s concerned, nothing good had ever happened when it came to being surrounded by this amount of people, at least in cha sumin’s case. but even so, she had ended up coming here after being asked by a fellow classmate, who she believed was quite the party animal since everyone at the party seemed to know her, which was why sumin had lost her right after they had stepped into the place. oh, unbelievable. 

although most of the time she wouldn’t mind being on her own, but this time it was different, she could still find people around even when she’s alone. sumin wasn’t really good with crowds if she recalled it well. she had this constant fear of being watched at all time, she might not look like it, but deep inside she was already drowning with anxiety. she went to get a drink or two, somehow not even surprised of what they had served, she was pretty sure most parties had their drinks spiked anyways. her fellow ‘friend’ kept on reminding her that they’re here for fun before they could even arrive, that everything’s gonna be fine, just in case sumin decided to back off in the last minute or anything. 

god, how did people even socialize anyways? sumin ended up sitting down at this couch after a while, bobbing her head to the music with a drink in one hand. her eyes wildly roamed through the room to search for the girl she had came with but found nothing. looked like she was already on her own for the rest of the night, but whatever, after all she didn’t agree to come here to follow her ‘friend’ around like some puppy. it took her a moment to realize who she had been sitting next to and it just happened to be lee chaerin. one of those plastic girls at school if she remembered it right, the one in the same clique as sooyoung. she turned her attention the girl once she spoke up, wanting to make sure if she’s the one she’s talking to, and that’s when the girl shifted closer to sumin. she looked really beautiful up close, sumin thought to herself. she was caught up in her beauty for a moment, probably she had stared a little too long, taking her time to finally process whatever the girl had said. 

“huh?” was the first word she could manage after a while. “oh, yeah. it’s kinda my favourite spot… it’s not scary at all up there to be honest. i mean, of course, it’s super high, but it’s cool. and yeah,” she paused when she felt the female’s legs brushed against her own, and that’s when her eyes fell onto chaerin’s cleavage, before she could quickly look up to pair of eyes staring back at her again. “the view’s pretty amazing. you should come up next time though. in case you’re afraid to go alone… well, you can just ask me. i’ll go with you.” 

[chaerin247]

she was just finishing up some last minute details on her co-workers face when she heard her phone buzz on the table. she couldn't look at it right away, given that this face had to be fucking perfect, she couldn't afford any mistakes, it needed absolute focus, but once she was finished, she squealed and showered her coworker with affection. "you look beautiful oh my god, go knock them all dead." the trocadero had been busy all night, but it was finally starting to wind down as the night dragged on. chaerin was tired but at least it was her turn to be behind the stage instead of out in front like usual.

she chuckled once she read the texts, her tongue peeking out between her teeth. jaebum was so straight-forward, he didn't have a coy bone in his body-- his super toned, amazingly scalped body.

[ -> jaeprince ] right now huh [ -> jaeprince ] if you want me come get me ;) [ -> jaeprince ] for you, there's always extra room

she bit her lip, trying not to seem too excited, given that her boss was walking around checking everything like a hawk. she needed to make an excuse up to slip away once jaebum got here, but she could think of something. she was glad he was coming honestly, she missed him. which... wasn't really a good sign, and not something she could own up to, but there it was anyway.

;;private time

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Jaebum had been feeling stressed lately so he decided to go to the only person that could probably relieve him, Chaerin. They had become fuck buddies and hopefully with no strings attached. He knew she was probably working at this time yet he didn’t care. He pulled his phone and started texting her.

txt msgs - chaeprincess : hey, i need you right now . 

txt msgs - chaeprincess : are there any free rooms backstage?

Jaebum sent the messages and waited for answer and stood up to get his clothes on even though they were going to be taken off later. He put a cap on and looked back at his phone to see if the messages had been read. If she didn’t answer in time he’ll just head over to the Trocadero and bother her there. He put his phone back in his pocket and sat at the couch, scrolling through channels on the tv. 

Soon enough he felt his phone buzz, he stood up and checked his phone as he walked to the door.

[chaerin247]

to: the only boy i ever loved with all of my  b r o k e n   h e a r t

((TW DEATH))

tuesday march 6th:

[ 12.47 pm - txt -> little brother ]: dont eat too many peanuts ok

[ 12.50 pm - txt -> little brother ]: u shouldn't even be texting me on the plane i think it messes up the coordination system or something

[ 1.20 pm -txt -> little brother ]: DONT WATCH ICE AGE W/OUT ME

[ 1.25 pm - txt -> little brother ]: also text me when u land pls little brother ]: fyi ur older sis just got asked out by the cutest guy ok IMMA HAVE A BF BY THE SUMMER

[ 6.42 pm - txt -> little brother ]: dongyul?

[ 6.43 pm - txt -> little brother ]: omg i just saw the news and everyone is crying and freaking out r u ok

[ 6.45 pm - txt -> little brother ]: dongyul answer me

[ 6.45 pm - txt -> little brother ]: right now

[ 6.45 pm - txt -> little brother ]: please

[ 6.46 pm - txt -> little brother ]: DONGYUL ANSWER ME RIGHT NOW OKAY PLEASE PLEASE

[ 6.47 pm - txt -> little brother ]: PLEASE BE OK

[ 6.47 pm - txt -> little brother ]: I NEVER ASK NICELY FOR ANYTHING OKAY U KNOW THAT PLEASE

[ 6.47 pm - txt -> little brother ]: ....JUST..........

[ 6.51 pm - txt -> little brother ]: please please god please

[ 6.51 pm - txt -> little brother ]: please..

.

sunday march 19th:

[ 3.34 pm - txt -> little brother ]: we buried u and mom next to each other. i miss you

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monday june 21st:

[ 8.47 am - txt -> little brother ]: watching movies without you doesnt make any sense anymore

[ 8.47 am - txt -> little brother ]: we still had like 2347364 movies on our watch list....

[ 8.49 am - txt -> little brother ]: who am i supposed to talk about nerdy stuff with anymore??

[ 8.49 am - txt -> little brother ]: u were always the nerdy stuff expert not me

[ 8.49 am - txt -> little brother ]: twerp

[ 8.49 am - txt -> little brother ]: lol

[ 9.02 pm - txt -> little brother ]: holy fuck..

[ 9.02 pm - txt -> little brother ]: please dont make me do this all by myself..

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friday august 23rd:

[ 11.37 pm - txt -> little brother ]: i went by your grave today

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saturday november 8th:

[ 1.25 am - txt -> little brother ]: i should be more mad that dad wont let me stay home but

[ 1.25 am - txt -> little brother ]: u were my home

[ 1.26 am - txt -> little brother ]: i know i'm mushy ok just shut up and love me back

[ 1.33 am - txt -> little brother ]: holy shit please come back i can't stand this

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monday february 25th:

[ 2.10 pm - txt -> little brother ]: it's my birthday and you're not here and i was thinking about my 10th birthday when you pushed my cake off the table and i got so mad at you i hit you with my fork and accidentally stabbed ur hand and you were bleeding and we both started crying and mom took us both to the hospital because i was so upset i wouldn't leave you alone

[ 2.10 pm - txt -> little brother ]: haha remember that?

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wednesday june 14th:

[ 4.03 am - txt -> little brother ]: WHEN IS THIS GOING TO STOP HURTING

[ 4.03 am - txt -> little brother ]: TIME IS A FUCKING LIE

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thursday december 15th:

[ 4.55 pm - txt -> little brother ]: sweet sixteen!! happy birthday baby brother~~~

[ 4.55 pm - txt -> little brother ]: ur always gonna be a baby to me

[ 4.55 pm - txt -> little brother ]: u would have whined at that haha

[ 4.55 pm - txt -> little brother ]: we would have laughed and i would have just bullied you into accepting it

[ 4.58 pm - txt -> little brother ]: i still miss you

[ 4.58 pm - txt -> little brother ]: i hope you're

[ 4.59 pm - txt -> little brother ]: yeah

[ 4.59 pm - txt -> little brother ]: happy somewhere

[ 4.59 pm - txt -> little brother ]: wherever u are

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friday march 3rd:

[ 2.23 am - txt -> little brother ]: i'm so drunk and i keep rereading this shit like it'll bring you back somehow

[ 2.23 am - txt -> little brother ]: i should stop messaging this number

[ 2.23 am - txt -> little brother ]: but

[ 2.23 am - txt -> little brother ]: you haunt me

[ 2.23 am - txt -> little brother ]: and its kind of nice yknow?

[ 2.24 am - txt -> little brother ]: its kind of nice

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monday march 6th:

[ 11.15 am - txt -> little brother ]: honestly i always look up at the stars but i always wish for the same thing

[ 11.15 am - txt -> little brother ]: for your plane to have landed

[ 11.16 am txt -> little brother ]: i would kill god if it brought you back

[chaerin247]

I desire the things that will destroy me in the end.

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via wnq-writers)

[chaerin247]

she doesn't really fancy herself a scholar or anyone too keen on picking up another person's emotions very well, but this min yoongi might as well be carrying a sign on his chest that says "ANGRY." his body is stiff, his dancing is off, his face is as placid and irritable as he can probably manage without outright sneering. for a moment, chaerin wonders if he's randomly upset at her, or if she's done something in the past to have angered him (entirely possible given how heartless she acts most of the time) but she figures he wouldn't have introduced himself if that was the case.

her charm is on full force tonight, unfortunately for him, and whereas this could have been a calm, uneventful three minutes of dancing that they will no doubt forget by tomorrow, but instead she is really going to try here. she gives him a sideways looks, a quirk on her lips, a slight squint in her eyes. "are you... okay, min yoongi? you seem super upset by something, is there a troll i need to send back under the bridge for you?" she chuckles a bit, hoping he doesn't get too stand-offish about her question.

dont step on my shoes || suga + chaerin