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The determinator

There is no stopping the Determinator. They do not understand tact. They do not Know When to Fold ‘Em, and it’s a waste of time to tell them the odds. No one can reason with them. They’ll do whatever they have to without question. No price is too great to pay for success, up to and including their own life. Do not expect them to realize they might be better off letting it go, even if they can barely stand. If you’re ever kidnapped or lost with no hope of rescue, they’ll be the one who will find you. Their adversaries will shout, in exasperated rage, “Why Won’t You Die?!”. For them, there is no line between “perseverance” and “insanity.”

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“Birth was like a fat black tongue dripping tar and dung and dye slowly …  into my shivering eyes.”

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Meaning of the name Emilio

Of Latin origin and derived from the Latin ‘Aemilius’, this being an old Roman surname which itself is derived from 'aemulus’ meaning 'rival, trying to equal or excel, emulating’

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I’m armed to the teeth Like a fucking animal I ruin everything I get my bony hands on

And here we go, now Over the bridge of sighs We will get a cross like Christ, crucified It’s like a birth but it is in reverse Never gets better, always gets worse

I wanna feel like I feel when I’m asleep

I wanna feel

I wanna feel

I wanna feel

I wanna feel

I wanna feel

I wanna feel

I wanna feel

I wanna feel

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Some more Nihilian words/terms

Taq salan = Be wise (A semi-formal greeting, can be used both when meeting and parting with someone.)

Heili aph ne heili = Mind of my mind (A term of endearment/brotherhood. Mostly used between friends, family, people who work in close quarters with each other, and by the Aeles and Spiro when addressing his/her subjects.)

De’hark na sal = Young flesh, old soul (A form of address, used for prestigious young people and children.)

Ne haal/Ne sal = My heart/My soul (A term of endearment used only between lovers and by parents towards their children.)

De’thuu shi’l na thuu = New blood for old blood (Usually spoken before an execution takes place.)

Ne = My/mine Pha = You/yours Qi = It/its Hna = What Hie = Where Phlit = When Pha = Why Ila = How Stor’ph = from Aph = of lu = is

The Nihilian language (Niirt) follows many of the same rules as the English language does although there is a prominent difference in the way the consonants are pronounced. It is a soft, breathy system of communication—there are no hard pronunciations of letters, unless an apostrophe comes after them.

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MACROCOSMIC CHANNELS

The macrocosmic channels flit through the void like strands of spider silk on a gentle breeze, each one stretches on into the nihility, seemingly forever. They are hardly bigger than the breadth of a human hair, and yet each one holds all the atomic information of an entire universe within its flimsy structure. In fact, every individual piece of strand is, in and of itself, a universe. 

Much like the  deoxyribonucleic acid that carries within it the genetic particulars for the physical development, functioning, maturation and procreation of all known multiverse-bound organisms, so to, are the universes themselves composed of two data laden chains which twist and coil around each other. One of these chains contains all the spatial information making up the universe in question, and the other, the temporal information keeping it in balance.

Each of these channels generates a weak, repulsive gravitational field which prevents them from interacting with each other.

These channels pose a certain risk to the venturers traversing the void, as do the travelers pose a risk to the universes contained within the channels. There have been recorded instances of people interacting with a macrocosmic channel—the effects of which have varied depending on how long the individual remains in direct contact with the strand.

0,01-35,28 seconds of exposure have resulted in the apparent formation of false memories in the victim. Fleeting glimpses of people and places native to the universe upon which they have encroached. If the victim has an “alter” in this universe, they’ll experience a high chance of total cognitive assimilation with their counterpart, resulting in an irreversible “hive-mind” syndrome. 

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THE VOID

It is only through a highly unstable rift in the time-space continuum that the void can be accessed. This rift is commonly referred to as a null portal.

An apt name as the void is simply just that—a void, of matter and of energy. The great nothingness is as vast as it is incomprehensible. An endless chasm, infinitely greater than the multi-cosmos themselves. The sheer oblivion is enough to drive most who chance a venture through its vacuum to instantaneous and irreversible insanity. Yet, it is the only traversable  path to and from the starless empire.

The journey, in and of itself, is a test of grit and endurance. Those unable to withstand the psychological horrors conjured up by their own sensory depraved minds would not be considered fit to bear witness to, much less dwell, in Nihilum. An unseasoned void voyager who manages to make it to the other side sound of mind may take days, and in worst case scenarios, weeks up to months to recover fully in the wake of the endeavor.

The consequence of the crossing usually manifest immediately upon arrival. They can be likened to the shell shock many soldier become afflicted with post war; Sweating, crying, shivering, constant and uncontrollable fear, loss of gross motor functions and/or the ability to speak. In unusual cases, the subject may experience partial or complete amnesia, but more often than not, this will reverse over time. Collectively, these symptoms are referred to as “void sickness”.

Rumor has it that the void may be inhabited by a race of pre-universal entities, but only the Aeles is said to hold the true answer to that enigma. This has not stopped the Nihilian people from developing a deep-seated fear of the proposed monstrosities. These trepidations have been perpetuated by the stories some void voyagers have told of their personal encounters with the creatures. However, these can easily be chalked up to paranoid delusions brought on as the direct result of sensory deprivation.

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I'm on the decline again, all these new meds are messing me up real bad, but I'm pushing through it the best I can! I'm going to try to get back into the swing of things over on discord real soon. I see your messages and they mean the world to me! I love you so, so, so much. Never forget that!

-Kat

Update: Had a horrible lapse of mental health, i’ve been on a downward spiral for a very long time and it accumulated in a major breakdown about a week back but i’m in good hands now and on several new medications. Doing better. I’m still not coming back to this blog—probably won’t ever, to be perfectly fair, but i will do the occasional interaction over on discord once i’m back to my old self. In the meantime, i’d like to direct old and new fans/friends in the direction of my new personal/business blog @the-sempiternal-august where i’ll be hosting any future art/writing projects, including the progress of the book that’s been sitting on the backburner for the past two years. It will of course star the loathable douche sack himself, albeit under a different name and with a revised background. It will be written in my first language so updates might be sparse for a good, long while, but i’ve got the means/sources i need to have it translated so fret not.  I’ll post doodles, info tidbits/headcanons while i’m working on more substantial shit behind the curtains. That is to say, if this sudden rush of inspiration/motivation persists. 

Anyway. I love you, and I miss you, but this is it for this blog and Emilio’s tumblr presence as a whole. It’s been real, ya’ll. Take care. 

—Kat

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Update: Had a horrible lapse of mental health, i’ve been on a downward spiral for a very long time and it accumulated in a major breakdown about a week back but i’m in good hands now and on several new medications. Doing better. I’m still not coming back to this blog—probably won’t ever, to be perfectly fair, but i will do the occasional interaction over on discord once i’m back to my old self. In the meantime, i’d like to direct old and new fans/friends in the direction of my new personal/business blog @the-sempiternal-august where i’ll be hosting any future art/writing projects, including the progress of the book that’s been sitting on the backburner for the past two years. It will of course star the loathable douche sack himself, albeit under a different name and with a revised background. It will be written in my first language so updates might be sparse for a good, long while, but i’ve got the means/sources i need to have it translated so fret not.  I’ll post doodles, info tidbits/headcanons while i’m working on more substantial shit behind the curtains. That is to say, if this sudden rush of inspiration/motivation persists. 

Anyway. I love you, and I miss you, but this is it for this blog and Emilio’s tumblr presence as a whole. It’s been real, ya’ll. Take care. 

—Kat

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Update: Had a horrible lapse of mental health, i’ve been on a downward spiral for a very long time and it accumulated in a major breakdown about a week back but i’m in good hands now and on several new medications. Doing better. I’m still not coming back to this blog—probably won’t ever, to be perfectly fair, but i will do the occasional interaction over on discord once i’m back to my old self. In the meantime, i’d like to direct old and new fans/friends in the direction of my new personal/business blog @the-sempiternal-august where i’ll be hosting any future art/writing projects, including the progress of the book that’s been sitting on the backburner for the past two years. It will of course star the loathable douche sack himself, albeit under a different name and with a revised background. It will be written in my first language so updates might be sparse for a good, long while, but i’ve got the means/sources i need to have it translated so fret not.  I’ll post doodles, info tidbits/headcanons while i’m working on more substantial shit behind the curtains. That is to say, if this sudden rush of inspiration/motivation persists. 

Anyway. I love you, and I miss you, but this is it for this blog and Emilio’s tumblr presence as a whole. It’s been real, ya’ll. Take care. 

—Kat

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relation meme

send a symbol for a relation type you want our muses to have

👪 parental figure

👼 guardian

🤗 siblings

🤝 friends

💲 friends with benefits

😈 toxic friends

👨‍🏫 mentor / disciple

❤️ mutual love (shipping/romance)

💔 one-sided love (unrequited love)

💓 crush

🖤 previous ex (spouse or partner)

💜 toxic love

💪 rivals

🗡️ enemies

😐 indifferent

📜 Master / slave

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the day you die will be the day i get to live

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ZSummit Sculpt-Off 2017 via @artstationhq https://www.artstation.com/artwork/Q0GQd

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